Date: Mon, 17 Nov 2014 20:04:48 -0600 From: Brett Lord Subject: Corn Fed Gay- Chapter 4 Disclaimer: This story is fiction. Some of the things that happened or will happen with Brent, Jake, & future characters are inspired by bits and pieces of my life. Parts of all characters are fictional as well. All other characters were made up and any similarities are just coincidental. This is gay romance between teenage boys, there may be sex, but for the most part, it's their true love of each other so if that offends you, please discontinue reading. Also, if it is illegal for you to read such material, you have been warned. Concerns and ideas will be considered and addressed as much as possible contact me at cornfedgay@outlook.com with reactions/suggestions or concerns. AND, if you enjoy the stories on Nifty.org, please give a donation to help cover their expenses. While the site is currently free, only donations from loyal fans can help keep it that way. Any amount will help. Corn Fed Gay- Chapter 4 "Oh fuck, disgusting, are you two fudge packers"? I froze in mid kiss. "Oh my god not again". I pulled from Jake and looked to the door. There stood our team mate Jason. "We're dead". Jake stepped away from me. I looked at Jason. "Jason... I ...I... dude you can't tell anybody". "Brent you're a fucking homo, a fucking faggot, Jake your one to? Brent I always suspected you but Jake, I never thought you were". Those words cut me to the bone. Could people look at me and know? Was I obvious? I looked at Jake and saw his eyes had a sadness and hatred I had never seen before. Jake said, "Jason dude you can't tell anyone, our lives will be over. We will get kicked off the team". "Yes Jason, coach told us we would be off the team if he caught us" I said. "You mean coach knows about you too"? Jason said. Jake said, "Yes he does dude. Think about it before you act. This team needs us. We can't get kicked off". Jason looked at both of us, a look of utter disgust on his face. He thought for a few moments. "Yeah we need you guys on the team. We would suck without you two. I won't tell coach". Jake said "Thanks dude" Jason said "Don't talk to me, stay away from me you fucking faggots". He turned and went into the restroom to piss I guess. I looked at Jake and tears started to collect in my eyes. I was trying not to break down completely. He reached for me but I pulled away. I can't do this, it's too painful. "Jake, no! I can't do this, we can't do this". I turned and left the locker room. I pulled my goggles up to my eyes so no one could see my tears. Jake was right behind me. I couldn't look at him. I jumped in the pool and started my practice avoiding Jake's gaze whenever we saw each other. It was so painful every time I looked at him and continued to cry throughout the remainder of practice. After practice in the showers Jake was on the other side of the room from me. I couldn't look at him. I did however keep an eye on Jason hoping, praying he would stay quiet. After dressing for the day I left quickly. Walking past the pool a hand grabbed my arm. I turned to look at Jake. My eyes full of tears. His eyes full of broken heart. I liked Jake so much and wanted to maybe be his boyfriend. It was just too dangerous. "No Jake, we could both get seriously hurt. I couldn't live with myself if anything happened to you. I like you too much for that to happen". He didn't say anything, he just looked down. I knew I had broken his heart. I turned and left the pool and went to the restroom down the hall. Into a stall and shut the door. I sat and started to shake violently as tears streamed down my cheeks. "How could I be so stupid, careless with my feelings? How could we both be so careless? I'm afraid we are going to be outed. Everybody in our small school is going to know. How will we survive? As scared as I was for myself, I was terrified for Jake. He was in a different circle in our class and had a lot to lose." After a while I calmed down and left the bathroom. 1st period was about to start so I went to get my stuff out of my locker. Dave was there getting his stuff. As I walked up he turned and said. Hey dude how's it go...what happened to you Brent? Are you ok? I looked at him and said, "I'm fine, don't worry about it". "Dude you don't look fine. Did Chad do something to you this morning"? Chad was this asshole who hated me. I had never done anything to him, but I was at the end of his bullying, derogatory comments, and his threats. Because he ruled his group of guys I was at the end of their bullying as well. I hated the whole lot. "No, no he didn't, I'm fine. I don't want to talk about it ok". "Ok dude, I'm here if you need to talk". "Thanks, man I know you are". I got my books and left for class. I had to walk by Jakes locker to get to class. His was about 30 lockers down from mine. He glanced at me as I walked by. I just looked at him trying not to feel anything. After 3rd period I was at my locker exchanging books for 4th and lunch was coming. The hall was crowed. Dave was beside me at his locker. We were having light conversation when all of a sudden I heard "Watch your step you fucking faggot" come from behind me. The next thing I knew I was shoved into my locker, my head hitting the edge of the metal door. Seering pain engulfed my head. I was stunned and blinded by the pain and I collapsed to the floor. My hand went instinctively to my forehead above my left eye. I could feel wetness on my fingers. Dave had tried to catch me and was on his knees trying to help me. Then I head through the chatter of the crowd. "You're dead Everett, you faggot". I instantly thought back to this morning with Jason. He must have told Chad, they were friends. "What a fucking prick". The next thing I knew someone flashed by me. I couldn't see very well, one eye was blocked, I couldn't see out of it. Dave said. "Brent are you ok man? Come on lets get you to the nurse, you're bleeding". I heard a commotion down the hall. Dave helped me up so I could see. What my one eye could see was The back of Jake's blondish hair tackling Chad and throwing him to the floor. The crowd shifted and I couldn't see anymore. The group was chanting "FIGHT, FIGHT, FIGHT". All I could hear were grunt and hitting. We heart was in my throat. Was Jake getting hurt on my account? I didn't want this. I was trying to avoid this. He didn't deserve this. I could hear teachers breaking up the fight and the crowd dispersed. Dave said "We need to get you to the nurse". A girl, named Jessica at the locker next to me gave me a kleenex to put on my forehead and said. "I will close your lockers, go on get him to the nurse". Dave said "Thanks". On the way we passed Jake and Chad being restrained by teachers. I looked at Jake. He was bruised and had a busted lip. He looked at me and almost had tears in his eyes. I heard in my other ear. "You're dead faggots both of you". That gave me a sick feeling in my stomach. I knew at that point he knew about us and now everyone else would too. This wasn't over, it was just beginning. My life was turning into hell. I stopped bent over and vomited on the floor. The nurse was moving around tending to my cut. She told me is was about 3 inches long and cut pretty deep. She said it would need stitches. I thought oh great mom is going to kill me. I will look great on Christmas photos. I let my head roll away from the nurse and could see through the door into the main office. Just then I saw the teachers moving Jake and Chad into the room. "On my god, Jake is going to get suspended for fighting. No this can't be happening, not because of me". A tear escaped down my cheek. I must have fallen asleep because I was waked by Jake. We were the only two in the room. "Jake what are you doing here"? "I needed to see you before I go". He brushed his hand through my hair. His touch felt so good on me. "Did you get in trouble"? "Yeah I did, Suspended for three days". "Oh my god Jake, I didn't want this to happen. Why did you go after him"? He was quiet for a minute as though he was working up the courage to say something. "I had to defend my boyfriends honor". I laid there stunned at what he had said. He leaned in a kissed me and pulled away. Looking in my eyes he said. "I can't stand that you got hurt. I should have known that Jason would tell Chad and the guys. I will call you sometime tomorrow if mom lets me". "Jake what are you going to tell your parents about what happened"? "I haven't figured that out yet. I have to go, they only gave me a couple minutes." He paused for a few moments then continued "Brent I...I...Love you". With that he stood and left the room. I could hear his mother fussing about him outside the room. I have a feeling of joy in my chest. It was warm and comforting. He said he loved me. Did I love him back? Up to this point it had been lust, I thought. A smile form on my face I did love him. I loved the thought of what we could be. What would happen between us. "What are you smiling about son"? I looked to see my mom coming into the room. "Just having a good thought mom". "Lets have a look, The nurse said you have a nasty cut and maybe a concussion". I groaned. "You know Brent you probably won't be able to swim until after Christmas break". Another tear escaped my eye. I have let my team down. That made me feel so useless. I knew in the back of my head that it wasn't my fault, but still. Mom took me from school to the ER in the next town that had a big hospital. We were on our way home after six stitches and a ct scan. "Want to tell me what happened? I know two boys are suspended till after Christmas. The Principal told me that. He said that a kid named Chad pushed you into your locker and said some nasty phrases at you." With tears in my eyes I said "He called me a fucking faggot and said he was going to kill me". Tears were now streaming down my face. "Oh sweetie, I'm so sorry this happened. I asked the principal how this could happen". I didn't say anything else I just looked at the snow out the car window. Later I was laying on my bed dozing on my pain killer the doctor had given me. When mom walked into my room, I looked at her. She had been crying, I could tell. I sat up in bed my head still hurting a little. She sat on the side of my bed. All I could think was "Does she know about Jake and I". She looked at me for a few seconds then said. "Brent I need to ask you a question. I talked with the school a little bit ago. They said that Jake Mills from the swim team attacked this Chad kid after he hurt you. Why would he do that?" She hesitated. "At first I thought it was because of the swim team thing, but why would he risk suspension? Brent...um... this is hard for me to ask... are you...um gay? I probably looked like a deer in the headlights. Time stopped and all I could hear was my heart beating. I could not believe she asked me that. I thought for a minute. How was she going to react to the news. would they accept me. They always taught us to respect difference. Would mom and dad respect difference? Would they throw me out of the house? I had no way to know what was coming. I took a deep breath. "Mom...I...I... um...think I'm ...um... gay". A tear escaped out of her eye and down her cheek. "I'm sorry mom, I didn't mean to hurt you". "I'm sorry sweetie you haven't hurt me, just a shocked to hear it. I had an idea that you might be, I just didn't want to admit it to myself." "Do you hate me mommy"? tears running down my face. "No no honey, I love you just as much today as yesterday, nothing will ever change that". She pulled me into a hug where we both cried into each other. I know my tears were from the relief I felt. Mom's tears, I wasn't sure if hers were sadness or disappointment. only time will tell. She pulled back and sat on my bed. My mind started thinking about what Jake had done for me today. A smile grew on my face. She looked at me questioning my smile. "Jake did that for me mom. He said he loved me and had to stand up for his boyfriend". She got a funny look on her face as she made peace with what I had just said. I realized maybe I had said too much to her about us. "Ah..ok... I'm glad to hear that Brent. It was very brave of him to do that for you". Fear pass over me at that point and I started to panic. "Mom, does dad know about me"? "No not yet, He needs to be told. You will have to tell him son". "Mom I don't know if I can do that". "You will have to find the courage somehow Brent". "Ok" I learned long ago not to question or defy my parents. There would be hell to pay if we did. We will just leave it at that. "OK Brent get some sleep. It's getting late". I rolled over and passed out. The next morning I rolled over and opened my eyes. light was streaming into my room. I panicked when my alarm clock said 9:30. I sat up in bed quickly and quickly realized I shouldn't have done that. My head throbbed, I reached up and felt the bandage on my forehead. I slowly got out of bed and dressed. I headed downstairs to the kitchen, I was so hungry. Mom was there, She turned and looked at me. She said "Oh dear look at that bruise. You must have hit your head harder than we thought". I went into the downstairs bathroom to look in the mirror. "Holy shit look at my face". I had a bruise that went from my hairline down to my cheek bone and It hurt like hell. I looked like I had been in a car accident. "Come in here and eat some breakfast. After that back to bed. You're not going back to school this week". I can honestly say I wasn't fond of the idea of going back to school without Jake there. How many people know about us? How will they treat us? I wasn't in a hurry to find out. I remembered how they treat me now. Will Jake be able to handle it. I'm sure they will treat him like crap as well. I went back to bed and fell asleep on pain killers. About 4pm I was laying awake when my mom called up stairs. "Brent you have a phone call, are you awake". I called back that I was. I went down stairs and into dad's office shutting the door. I picked up the phone. "Hello". "Brent this is Jake, How are you doing"? "Hey Jake, I'm ok. Still in quite a bit of pain, but I have some great painkillers to help me sleep". "Ah that's good". I could tell he was feeling bad. "How are you doing"? "I've been better, but it helps to hear your voice. I'm in a heap of trouble on top of the suspension". "I'm sorry Jake I didn't want any of this to happen". "Brent I did what I had to, I'd do it again. I love you Brent". I paused for a moment. "I ...love you Jake". He said, "I like how that sounds. I hope you are ok with all this. I want you to be my boyfriend." "Jake I want to be your boyfriend". "Good, right answer. When are you going back to school"? "Mom said not this week, so I guess winter break has started. Same goes for you I guess". He chuckled a little and said "Guess so. Hey I have a question for you. Brent if I can get my parents to agree to it do you think you could meet me for dinner Friday night"? "Jake? Did you just ask me out on a date"? "He he, I guess I did. So what do say? Are we on? "I want to, Let me talk to my mom and see what she says. Dude she asked me if I was gay yesterday". "Oh my god what did you tell her"? "The truth. She was ok with it. Now I have to tell dad". "Wow dude that's great. I hope my parents are that cool". "Well I haven't told my dad yet. I'm afraid he might kick my ass. Jake, do you think everybody knows at school". "I'd guess a fair amount of them do after what happened. I'm sure the rumor mill is working overtime". "uhh...I don't ever want to go back". "I know the feeling Brent. I feel the same way, but we are going to get through this together. I don't care who knows or what they say. I want to be with you, ok? I'm not going to let anybody hurt you". "If you say so Jake. I don't see it so black and white". "It will be ok". "Jake I feel bad about letting our team down. We are missing two meets, last night and tonight". "I know it sucks. We will have to work hard when we get back to it after Christmas". "I know". "Ok I have to go, the warden only gave me 15 minutes. I love you Brent. Let me know about Friday night." "Ok, I love you too Jake". I hung up. My heart was warmed again. I had said it to him. I told Jake I loved him. To top that we had a date scheduled. Wow big step. End of Chapter- 4 hope you enjoyed it. Look for Chapter 5 soon. If you enjoyed or hated reading this story I want to hear from you email me at cornfedgay@outlook.com.