Date: Wed, 21 May 2008 11:59:13 -0700 (PDT) From: zachary ryan d Subject: Discovering Love Chapter 6 Brian woke up early the next morning to the blaring noise of his alarm clock. His eyes were red from crying all night. He dragged himself out of bed, and over to the restroom. He looked at himself in the mirror. "This is all so fucked up. Why can't I just be me? Why can't people just accept gays?" he thought. He sighed and looked down. Then he saw his answer. He reached for the countertop and picked up his straight razor. He held it in his hand and looked at the metal blade. It was shinning in the light. He sighed again and looked down at the veins in his wrists. With two quick cuts, he could end all the pain and suffering. Slowly he moved his shaking hand closer to his wrist. He took another deep breath. Chris's face flashed before him. What would he say? Did he really want to hurt Chris like this? Chris and he were friends, killing himself would crush Chris. "What the fuck am I doing? I am stronger than this." he thought dropping the razor. Brian wanted to avoid his uncle so he spent the whole day in his room. His aunt and uncle didn't even check up on him. He really wished he could get away from them, but he had nowhere to go. He was looking so forward to seeing Chris again at school that he went to bed early. Brian woke the next morning when his alarm rang. He quickly got ready and went for his morning run. After he got back, he took a shower and got ready for school. Being at school just felt better than being at home. He went to the library and saw Nina. She saw him and motioned to him to come over. Brian slid into the chair next to her. "Hey! How was your weekend?" she asked. "Awesome, I hung out with Chris all weekend. And you?" "Chris...Chris Dornson?" Brian nodded. "Oh wow. He is so hot. He has the most amazing body." "Whatever." he said, rolling his eyes. Secretly he was thinking just how hot Chris really was. They continued to talk more about their weekend, Nina wanting to know all the details of Chris and Brian's weekend together. Brian thought that perhaps she had a small crush on Chris. The bell rang, signaling them to class. Thankfully for Brian, today Journalism was his first period. He quickly rushed to class to get a good seat, and of course save one for Chris. A minute after Brian took a seat, Chris entered the room. He smiled at Brian and sat down next to him. "Hey, man. What's up?" he asked "Nothing, thanks again for letting me come over on Saturday." "No problem. Hey, we need to do our project its due on Friday.' "Yeah. When do you want to do it?" "How about today after school in the library? I don't have practice." "Well I have a dentist appointment after school at 3 but I should be done at like say 4, so I can come to your house like 4:30. Is that ok?" "Yeah. That is fine." Chris said. The rest of the day dragged by slowly. Both boys were anxious of their meetings. Each in their own way. ************************************************************************ Chris was lying on his bed, waiting for Brian to come over. He was nervous; he liked being with Brian but he always had a strange longing when he was around him. Something drew him towards Brian; something he had never felt before. He always had butterflies around him, and always wanted to be close to him. Being with him just seemed right. It scared him so much. "What the fuck is wrong with me?" he thought. Slowly Chris drifted off to sleep and into dreamland. The doorbell rang, waking Chris from his slumber. He groggily got up and walked downstairs, through the living room and to the front door. He opened it to find Brian there. "Hey man. Ready to get this project done?" he asked. "Yeah. Come on in." he said leading Brian inside. They walked up to his room and Brian sat on the bed and Chris at his computer. "So I was thinking about doing it on the Pullman Strike of 1894." Brian stated. `Yeah, that sounds interesting" Chris said, Googleing the strike. The two of them started working on the project, but soon both boys grew bored. They decided to play some video games. Brian chose a racing game. Chris put the game in the PS3 and joined Brian on the bed. Soon both boys were enjoying the game. The race was neck and neck, so Brian shoved Chris causing him to fall off the edge of the bed. "You little shit." Chris yelled, jumping at Brian pushing him on his back. Chris got on top of Brian and started to tickle him mercilessly. Brian tried to gain control and get away, but Chris was too strong. "Say I am the best." Chris said starting to tickle Brian again. "Never." Shouted Brian. "Ok! Ok! Chris is the greatest." "I win" shouted Chris, looking down at Brian, completely mesmerized in Brian's honey colored eyes. Slowly he moved down, closer to Brian. Soon he felt his lips on Brian's. Chris parted his lips a little, letting Brian's tongue slip into his mouth. He slipped his tongue into Brian's mouth, being forced deeper into Brian as Brian reached up and grabbed the back of Chris's head; gently stroking his hair. Chris reached down and slipped a hand under the bottom of Brian's shirt; stroking his chest. Brian took his hands off of Chris's neck and slowly reached down to lift Chris's shirt off. Brian was in awe of the beautifully sculpted chest and firm abs he had. There was a hint of hair on his chest as well as a dark brown trail that Brian followed downward with his eyes. Brian leaned up to kiss Chris's chest. Licking up and down in-between his nipples, feeling Chris's few chest hairs tickle his tongue. Slowly he moved to one of Chris's nipples, biting and sucking on it. Chris let out a moan of pleasure. He leaned down and kissed Brian deeply, wrapping his tongue around Brian's. He could feel Brian's hard cock poking at his clothed ass. He was getting harder every second. He broke the kiss to take off Brian's shirt, sliding a hand over Brian's chest. His abs were almost as defined as his own. However, he was completely hairless and had bigger pecs than Chris. Chris leaned down to kiss Brian's neck, then kissing and licking his way down his chest and abs; stopping at his belly button and flicking his tongue in and out of it. Chris placed one of his hands on Brian's crotch and started groping his hard member while licking right above his waistband. Chris slowly started to unbuckle Brian's belt and unbutton his jeans. He quickly unzipped his pants and before Brian could blink his pants were at his ankles. Chris took hold of Brian's hard cock through his boxers and slowly started to jerk it. Chris licked the outline of Brian's cock causing him to moan in ecstasy. All of a sudden, Chris yanked off Brian's underwear. He kissed around Brian's cock, and then ever so gently licked the tip of Brian's cock. He then took the whole thing in his mouth. Slowly going down, feeling it make its way down the back of his throat. He felt some precum leak down his throat. It tasted so good, but it was not enough to quench his thirst for his friend's nectar. He started picking up speed, then slowing down a little. He never wanted to let go of this cock and he knew by making Brian cum he would have to. Brian was in heaven. Having Chris's soft, wet lips clenching onto his hard member was the best feeling he ever had. The only thing he hated was how badly Chris teased him; sucked him until he was close then slowed down so he wouldn't shoot. He looked down and saw Chris look up at Brian with his cock in his mouth. He saw something he had never seen in Chris's eyes: love. Chris finally let go of Brian's cock and looked him straight in the eyes and asked him to fuck him. Chris turned over on the bed so his ass was facing Brian. He could feel the couch move as Brian changed positions on the bed. Soon he felt Brian's hands on his ass, softly massaging his firm two buns. Brian looked down at Chris's slightly tanned well defined ass. He had the perfect bubble butt. He bent down and kissed one of his ass cheek, then the other. Spitting on his finger, he slowly slipped two fingers in Chris's ass, lubing it up. Once it was all wet, he straightened up and positioned his throbbing cock at the entrance of Chris's ass. Slowly he moved closer, filling in the distance. Chris looked back at Brian as his... DING DONG went the front door bell, startling Chris awake. "What the hell?" he thought, it took him a second to realize where he was and what he had dreamed about. He looked down and realized he was hard as a rock. "Oh shit! What is wrong with me?" he thought. The doorbell rang again; Chris went downstairs to see who it was. When he saw Brian standing there he freaked out. "What if he sees I have a boner? What if I can't control myself?" he thought. He figured he could pretend not to be home, but he did not want to be mean to Brian either. He tried to hide his erection, and answered the door. "Hey man." he said. "Hey man. Ready to get this project done?" Brian asked. "Yeah. Come in." Brian and Chris walked upstairs to Chris's room. Brian sat on the bed and he on his computer. "Wow, this is just like in my dream" he thought. "So, I was thinking we could do the Pullman Strike of 1894." Brian said, breaking Chris's thought. "Umm...yeah cool." Chris answered flabbergasted. They both started to look up information about the strike; Chris on the computer and Brian in the textbook. Soon Brian was becoming bored. "Hey, dude lets play a game. This is getting boring." "Ok, you pick a game." "How about this one." Brian said holding up a racing game. Chris took the game and put it in the Playstation and joined Brian on the bed. Soon both boys were playing and having a great time. Brian decided to shove Chris, causing him to fall and lose the race. "You little shit." Chris yelled, jumping at Brian pushing him on his back. Chris got on top of Brian and started to tickle him mercilessly. Brian tried to gain control and get away, but Chris was too strong. Chris stared into Brian's eyes. He could feel the butterflies take flight in his stomach. Blood was rushing towards his cock. He quickly got off of Brian and sat back down in his chair. "You have to go." He said trying not to look at Brian. "What?" Brian said shocked. "You need to go. I have other stuff to do." "Oh. Ok." Brian said not wanting to start a fight. Brian gathered his belongs and said goodbye to Chris and left. "What happened to me?" thought Chris. "What did I do to him; that was fucked up." Chris felt like shit. He know what he did to Brian was wrong. He was his friend; he shouldn't have just thrown him out like that, but he panicked. He didn't know what these feeling meant. Was he gay? Did he like Brian? ************************************************************************ "What did I do wrong?" Brian thought on the way home. "Did I scare him? Does he think I am gay?" He was really upset. He did not want to lose his friendship with Chris. As soon as he got home, he went straight up to his room and fell on his bed. He felt so bad. He really did hate his life. There was no point living, but he knew he was stronger than this. Besides it could have all been a misunderstanding. Brian tired to fall asleep, but he couldn't, he had a bad stomach ache. Finally at three in the morning he fell asleep. He was so tired when his alarm went off. He turned it off and just lay there, looking at the ceiling. He didn't want to go to school; he didn't want to see Chris. He knew he had to go to school. His uncle would ask him why he was acting this way. That was the last thing he needed to upset his uncle. Brian got up and slowly got ready. He barely made it to school before the warning bell rang. He ran to his locker and got his books for class, then ran to his history class. He slid into the seat hat Nina had saved for him right as the second bell rang. "Where were you? You are never late?" she asked looking at him worried. "Uhh. Oh I had a bad night." He answered hoping she would not keep asking questions. "Oh. Are you ok?" "Yeah. It's nothing don't worry about it." As the teacher collected homework, Nina gave him a concerned look since Brian didn't finish his. She was about to say something but thankfully the teacher started talking, keeping Nina from asking any questions. Brian kept looking at the clock, not wanting the next period to start with Chris. As the clock slowly ticked away, the butterflies in his stomach grew stronger and he grew more and more nauseous. Brian could not concentrate in class. When the bell finally rang he held his breath and gathered his things. He really did not want to see Brian. Hanging his head low and heart racing, Brian walked across the courtyard to his Journalism class. Once he got to the door of his class, he stopped. He took a deep breath and opened the door. He saw Chris in the corner of the room, but no empty seat next to him. Chris was talking to the girl next to him. Chris looked over at the door; saw Brian, waved and turned back to talk to the girl. He went over to talk to Chris. "Hey Chris" he said. "Oh hi Brian." He answered, barely looking up. "What's up?" "Nothing. Oh this is Sarah Michelson. Sarah, this is Brian Stern." "Hi. Nice to meet you." He said shaking her hand. "Listen Chris, we need to finish the project. When can we meet again?" "Oh. Actually, I was thinking I would do the research and send it to you and you write out the presentation. If that is ok?" "Oh. Yeah. Sure. I guess that works." "Please take your seat class." Shouted the teacher. Brian walked to the other side of class and sat down. "What the fuck was that? He just ignore me the whole time." He thought. The rest of the class and the day, Brian could not think of anything else. It really hurt him the way Chris treated him. He felt very depressed; he didn't want to talk to anyone and just go him. The day just dragged on. Finally the bell rang, signaling the end of the agony he was facing at school. He saw Chris walking hand in hand with Sarah. Chris saw him, but acted like he did not see him. Brian walked to his locker when he heard someone call his name. He looked around and saw Alexia walking up to him. "Hey Brian." She said when she got to his locker. "Hey. What's new?" "Oh nothing. You?" "Same, just glad school is over." "Me too. Hey where's Chris? You two are normally always together." "I don't know. Last I saw him he was with Sarah." "Sarah Michelson? She is such a bitch." "Really?" "Yeah. She just is. I wonder why all of a sudden he is showing interest in her." "Oh. I don't know." "Well anyway, the reason I tried to find you is to tell you that I am having a party at my place on Saturday and I want you to come." "Oh. That is cool. Yeah I think I can make it." "Ok. Good! I will see you around." She said, hugging him then leaving. ************************************************************************ The rest of the week, Brian and Chris grew more and more apart. Chris spent most of his time with Sarah, and barely recognized Brian. The only time they really talked was when Chris handed him the research he did for their project. Finally Saturday came. This was the only highlight of his week. At 9:30 at night, Brian was on his way to Alexia's house. Her house was in one of richer areas in town. She lived on top of cliffs, overlooking the beach. Her house was one of the biggest he had seen. The driveway snaked up a hill to their six car garage. Cars were scatter across the driveway. There was a white fountain on the front lawn. The house reminded him of the White House. It was at least three stories tall and had columns decorating the outside. Brian walked up the cobblestone walk way to the front door. He rang the doorbell and waited. Alexia opened the wooden door and greeted him. Once Brian stepped inside he was in awe. There were expensive paintings hung all over the white walls. There was a grand wooden staircase leading to the upstairs. The whole place was littered with people. She led him into the backyard. There must have been close to sixty people there. Many were drinking or drunk. There was a keg in the corner and one inside in the kitchen. Todd, Allie and Charlie joined Brian and Alexia. "Hey man." Todd said, giving Brian a hug. He was obviously very intoxicated and he reeked of booze. Allie and Alexia laughed, as Todd stumbled around and took a seat on one of the patio chairs. "Well, he seems happy." Brian said laughing. "Yeah. He is much nicer drunk. Haha." Alexia said. "So where is Chris?" Charlie asked. "Oh. I don't know haven't seen him yet." Brian said. "Last I saw him, he was with that bitch." Allie spat. "None of you guys like her. What is wrong with her?" Brian asked. "Well for one, she is a bitch. She wanted to be Chris's girlfriend for the longest time and every one knows it. It's actually kind of sad. And it's not because she likes him, its cause he is the soccer captain. She just wants him for status. It's so sad that he doesn't see it. She makes him do everything for him. It's weird though; Chris has never been one to be bossed around. Why is he still with her? She treats him like shit; I am pretty sure she cheats on him. But he won't listen to us. We tried to talk him out of it." Alexia said. "Hmm that is weird." Brian said. "Oh there he is." Allie said, waving. Chris saw Allie and waved back, he and Sarah walked over to them. "Hi." They said in unison. "Hi" they all replied. They all started talking about the party and having a good time. However, the whole time Chris tried to not make eye contact, and when Brian spoke he never looked him in the eye. After a bit Chris excused himself and Sarah and started to walk back inside. Brian decided that he needed to go talk to Chris, so he started to follow them inside. "Chris...Chris...wait up." He shouted after them, but Chris did not stop. They had reached the kitchen by the time Brian caught up to them. "Chris, we need to talk." "Yeah?" he said not looking at Brian. "What is wrong with you? What did I do? This whole week you ignored me, you barely acknowledge me." "Well I am sorry, but I have Sarah now and I am busy." "But..." "What is wrong with you? Are you some kind of fag or something? He does not want you around. So fuck off." Sarah interrupted. Brian looked at her then at Chris, who still would not look at him. He thought Chris would defend him, but he stood silent, looking at the ground. Brian turned around and walked out. "What am I doing?" Chris thought. "That was so fucked up." Brian walked outside and just stared up at the dark starry night. He started to think about Chris and the fun they used to have together. What caused the change? "Nice night isn't it?" he heard somebody say behind him, breaking his thought. Brain turned to look who was talking to him. A blackish brown long haired teen was looking at him smiling. "Yeah." Brian responded. "The name is Zach." He said holding out his hand. "Brian Stern." He answered, reaching out his hand to shake Zach's. "Care for a drink, Brian?" "No. I really don't drink." "Come on. It's a party. Everyone is doing it." "Ok. I guess." Brian knew that the alcohol would lessen the pain Chris had caused him. "Sure." "Ok, one second." Zach said, walking towards the house to get some drinks. Brian turned back, with his back to the house and looked up at the stars. He did not see Zach come back with two drinks, nor did he see Zach slip a pill of ecstasy into Brian's drink. "Here you go." He said handing a drug laced Jack and Coke to Brian. Brian took a sip, feeling the alcohol burn as it trickled down his throat. He rather enjoyed it. He and Zach started talking about the party and school and why they had never seen each other around. Brian could feel the alcohol take effect. Little did he know that it was not the alcohol, but the drug, that was taking effect. His heart started to beat faster, he could feel himself getting red and hot. He felt happy though. Zach went back inside to get them another Jack and Coke. The more he drank the more he was loosing his senses. His vision started to blur a little bit, he started to sweat. His heartbeat quickened and his breath grew shorter. Zach smiled, as he knew his plan was working. He had to make his move. "Hey, you don't look too good. We better go inside. See if we can find an empty bedroom so you can lay down." He said. The place started to sway a little bit. "Ssu...Ssuuure." He slurred. They both started walking inside, making their way through the drunken mess of people and up the stairs. Meanwhile in the living room, Chris and Sarah were talking. Chris could not concentrate to a thing Sarah was saying. "What did I do to him? He did not deserve this." He thought. "He was my best friend. I need to make things right." He leaned in to kiss Sarah on the cheek and tell her he was going to the bathroom. Once he got up he went outside to see if Brian was still there, but he wasn't. He returned to the house and looked in the kitchen and in the living room. Nothing. He was going to give up when he saw Brian out of the corner of his eye walking up the stairs. Chris tried to follow him, dodging around people. When he was at the top of the stairs, he saw Brian in the corner talking to some guy. Chris smiled, because in a minute he knew all would be right between them. What he saw next caused Chris to come to a screeching halt. The guy Brian was talking to leaned forward and kissed Brian. What Chris felt was not disgust but hurt. He could barely breathe as he watched the two boys continue to make out. He couldn't take it anymore; he turned around and barreled down the stairs tears forming in his eyes. He ran out the front door, not knowing where he was going. When he reached the end of the street, his legs gave out and he collapsed on the lawn. "That should have been me." He thought. "This is all my fault. All because I couldn't tell him the truth. All because I couldn't tell him I love him." Chris broke down and started crying. ************************************************************************ Brian and Zach moved into one of the open bedrooms. Zach locked the door and got on the bed on top of Brian. Brian felt Zach's tongue enter Brian's. He closed his eyes, trying to make sense of what was happening. His heart was still beating fast and his mind was racing. He knew that he should not have sex, he barely knew the guy, but something told him to go for it. Zach started to unbutton Brian's shirt, exposing his firm tanned chest. He slid a hand over Brian's chest, lightly stroking it. He ran his fingers over the sensitive nipple, causing Brian to moan. Zach leaned over and kissed Brian's neck, lightly sucking on it. Brian closed his eyes and moaned. It felt so good. Zach started to kiss down Brian's firm abs. He licked the waistband, causing Brian to squirm. Slowly he unbuttoned Brian's pants and slid them off, followed by his boxers. Brian was now lying on the bed completely naked, his heart still racing. Suddenly he felt something wet around his cock. He looked down to see Zach sucking vigorously, his head bobbing up and down on Brian's engorged muscle. It did not take long for Brian to have the feeling that he was close. He could feel his balls tighten, but Zach pulled off just in time to keep him from cumming. Zach came up and started to kiss Brian. Brian grabbed the back of Zach's head, pulling his tongue deeper in his mouth. After a few minutes Zach broke the kiss, straddling Brian's chest to start to strip. He pulled his red shirt over his head revealing his skinny frame. He quickly undid his jeans and stripped them off, he was going commando so his hard cock sprang to attention. It was uncut and nestled in a dark patch of pubes growing wildly. Brian had never seen an uncut cock, but the site of Zach's turned him on. He licked his lips, giving Zach the sign that he wanted it. Zach moved forward until his cock was inches from Brian's face. Brian stuck out his tongue, so the tip of Brian's foreskin touched it. The sudden touch sent a shudder up Zach's spine. He moved forward even more, granting Brian access to his cock. Brian eagerly licked the tip of Zach's cock. He loved the foreskin and slid his tongue in between it to reach Zach's sensitive head. Zach was in heaven, enjoying every second of it. Zach started bucking his hips forward; causing more of him to enter Brian's waiting mouth. As Brian was getting face fucked, he slipped his hands over Zach's chest and started rubbing his nipples. Brian was sucking harder and faster, wanting to pleasure Zach. Zach could feel the pressure building in his balls, he knew that he couldn't last longer, so he stopped face fucking Brian's hot mouth and bent down to kiss Brian once more. Suddenly they both heard a knock at the door that startling them. Zach walked over the door and asked who it was. Brian faintly heard someone say "It's me." Zach opened the door and someone slipped in. "So this is him?" he heard the stranger say. "Yeah. Steve, this is Brian." Zach said pointing at Brian. "Ok" Steve said slowly taking his clothes off. Brian did not know what was going on and just looked at Steve slowly stripping. Slowly Steve lifted his black shirt over his dirty blond hair revealing a tan sculpted chest and six pac abs. Brian's eyes scanned over his hard nipples, down his chest to the light trial of hair leading to his pants. Steve removed his pants to reveal a large bulge under his blue monkey Ginch Gong low rise briefs. Brian was anxious to see what Steve had under his briefs, and thankfully he did not have to wait long. He quickly removed them showing off his smoothly shaven six inch cock. Steve started to walk towards Brian. "Wait. What is going on?" Brian asked. "Ever heard of a threesome?' Steve said, still walking closer to Brian. "Yeah. But I don't want to." He said "Well too bad." Steve spat. Brian's mind was racing, he wanted to do something, but he couldn't. The drug was still taking over his thought process and telling him to go for it. He was strangely aroused by the idea of a threesome. He wasn't even aware that he had opened his mouth allowing Steve to shove his cock in his mouth. Brian loved the taste of Steve on his palette. He just started to suck more and more. Steve grabbed the back of Brian's head and pushing him onto his cock. Zach moved around to the edge of the bed and leaned down over Brian's cock. He started sucking on it as Brian was sucking Steve. Brian was in complete sexual ecstasy, not knowing that the real reason for it was in fact ecstasy. He suddenly felt something wet invade his asshole. Zach was sticking his tongue as far as he could into Brian. Brian tried to moan as he continued to suck Steve's throbbing cock. Precum was leaking down his throat, adding an extra thrill to Brian. Before he knew it he felt Zach's cock ram into Brian. He let out a small yelp, but Steve shoved his cock back into Brian's mouth. Brian knew he did not want to get fucked but there really was nothing he could do, so he kept on sucking. Again and again he felt Zach's cock his prostate and Steve's cock hit the back of his throat. He loved every minute of it. It was a feeling he never experienced. He could hear Steve moan signaling that he was close, so Brian sucked harder and faster. Zach fucked him harder, thrusting his rock hard cock deeper into Brian's hole. He knew that they were both close, and he too was feeling tension in his balls. Steve grunted before shooting rope after rope of hot creamy cum down Brian's throat. This was enough to push Zach over the edge as well as he thrust very deep into Brian, exploding into his ass. The force of both Steve and Zach's orgasms pushed him over the edge too, causing him to spew warm cum all over his face and chest. Brian let out a loud breath as he rested from his own orgasm. Cum stained his chest, was running down his lips and face, and slowly leaking out of his ass. "That's our good cum slut." Steve said, grabbing Brian's arms and holding him down. "What the fuck?" Brian yelled. "Shh." Zach said, shoving a pill down Brian's throat. Brian tried to fight back but he was still too weak. He swallowed the pill. "I will..." Brian started to say, but everything started to spin, then went black. Hope you all liked the story. Sorry for the delay, but writing and being in college is hard haha. Well send all comments to ryrywntsu@yahoo.com I want to hear from you. What do you think will happen next? What do you want to see happen? Get involved; you never know maybe you can help me write the story. Also check out my other story- "My Little Turtle" in the High School section. Also to come in the near future "The Struggle to See Each Other Again", a story of coming out, acceptance, love, and struggling to be who you are.