Date: Sat, 1 Mar 2003 20:58:30 -0500 From: Jasin Chau Subject: Where love should be found "[.]Bobby." I hear someone whispering my name. Who is it? Justin, is that you? A figure walks towards me, but I couldn't really make it out. Weird.echoes slowly sounding it's way towards me saying, " wake up." Then at that moment everything is clear as day. I open my eyes and slowly begin to see Justin. "Hey Justin, how you doing?" I said to him as he lean closer and it seems like he is examining me. " I'm ok; just practicing my jumper before the game." "There's a game today?" I asked "Yeah you coming to watch me play?" " Sure I wanna see you do some of those cross overs you been talking about." I said in a joking way to Justin. "Haha you better, but right now though, it seems like someone else wants to talk to you." Justin said pointing his finger behind my direction. I turned around and saw Stacy wave at me. " BOBBY!" She yells out my name across the court and everybody looks at me. I feel kind of embarrassed, but still, that's just how Stacy likes it. She is always such goof ball. Stacy comes up to me and as always she smiles and hugs me. That is our friendly greeting towards each other. And I guess, I like it because people might not think of me as much of a fag. I know that's cruel to use her, but I don't always use her like that, she is my best friend. This is just a cover up so there is no suspicions. " Hey Stacy and don't you think you were kind of LOUD." I said with a smile. "Haha I had to get your attention. You couldn't hear me, prob'ly because of that guy over there." She said pointing at Justin. " Can you be any more noticeable? GOD why don't you just tell him I am gay!" I said sarcastically. "Well fine, if you don't want to talk to me. You can go back to your 'PRETTY BOY' over there." Stacy said with a pouty face. "Awww com'on Stacy, you know I am just playing around." I said admitting defeat. Stacy's slaps me in the ass and says, " Well, lets get going then cause we got a movie to watch." She wraps her arms around mine and we began to walk out of gym room to our buses. I turned my head to Justin and rolled my eyes with a smile, while Stacy wasn't looking. Justin couldn't help but laugh and wave goodbye. Sigh. Justin is such a great guy I thought to myself. "Well you going or not. Com'on let go." Stacy said while basically pulling me away from Justin. We made it to the bus just in time. Stacy and I sat on the same seat, but I chose to sit next to the window. The view was so beautiful. Snow was beginning to fall. It was a beginnings of a snow storm. But every time in the end results of the storm, it leaves us a winter wonder land. Strange.when we are young this place seems so magical, but I know after my youth; my life and this right here is going to change. And I felt cold for the first time as it snowed. I am so scared of being left alone. Home sweet home, and guess what, mom was there to yell at me again. "Bobby! I thought I told you to clean up your room. When I tell you to do something, I actually expect you to do it." She said down the hall yelling. Mom, I love her, but lately after dad walked out our lives; mom hasn't exactly been happy. She has been really stressed out lately and telling her the REAL me, I think, isn't going to help us any. So I have to keep a lot of things from her. And I mean A LOT. "So how was school, honey?" said mom and she totally changed from angry mother to caring mother. I guess it is that time of month with her mood swings and all. "O nothing happen really." I responded. "Mom I'm going to the movies tonight is that ok?" "As long your not coming home too late." "You know I won't mom I am the most responsible person you know." I said with smirk on my face. "Sure." She said with smile and rolling her eyes. Wait.I forgot about the GAME! Oh my god, should I go to the movies with Stacy or should I go and watch JUSTIN play. Usually there is no question what I am going to do right now and I bet you could guess who I would choose. But I feel sorry though that Stacy is going to feel left out. Seeing Justin play in a game is so priceless, I have to go. I quickly took a shower and got ready. What should I wear? Oh, what else, but Aeropostale. I don't know why I like to wear it. It just fit snuggly on my body and it kind of shows off my lean figure. The shirt also shows off my blonde hair and my blue eyes. My hair is short, but people say I look cute, so it don't matter. Actually, Stacy said I look cute with short hair. But anyway I have to tell her I can't go. Stacy called me just when I am about to call her. " Bobby are you there?" Stacy said. " Look, Stacy I can't go to the movies today." I closed my eyes and was scared about how she would react. " Stacy are you there?" " I'm here, its ok. You want to go the game tonight rite? She asked. "Yeah." I responded. "Its ok. Can I come with you too, is that ok?" "Sure." I said Then we were off to the game to see my crush, Justin. I am so excited. When we arrived I met Stacey at the parking lot. She was dressed unusually nice today. I wonder was she trying to impress somebody. When we went into the gym it was amazing. The amount of people there was unbelievable. The atmosphere was filled with cheery people. It was a nice sight to be hold when you been down for a while. Everyone seems to be so happy and that puts me into a positive mood. "Wow look at all these people," I said. " Yeah look at all these skanks" Stacy said while looking at the cheerleaders. Haha. I don't know why she was always mad at girls, they don't seem THAT bad. The basketball game has started and we took our seats. Oh there's Justin, aaaww he looks so cute with those basketball uniforms. The team ran around warming before they started the game. At the end of the game they didn't do that bad, although they lost I still felt Justin did the best. We came up to Justin to say hi. He wasn't exactly happy about losing the game, but he still managed to put up a smile, for me hopefully. "Wow you did crazy that game." I said with a smile ear to ear. "Nah I didn't do that good." He pouted " If only I wasn't so distracted at that game." "Distracted on what?" "Oh nothing, listen uh I got to go and take a shower, see ya around." He said waving good bye. I wonder why he was distracted. Stacy looked at me with a smile. "What." I said cracking up. " Why you still smiling." " Oh nothing, he was distracted, I wonder if it was because of um I dunno YOU! She said laughing out loud. " Stacy." I said wining her name.