Date: Thu, 18 Feb 2016 13:52:30 +0000 From: Matthew S Subject: Finding My Voice - Chapter Eight Hi guys, This is my first time ever writing a story though I've been an avid fan of Nifty for a while. It's something I've been meaning to do for a while and would greatly appreciate any feedback you have for me. Please feel free to email me at mattstories@hotmail.com even if it's just to tell me that you liked/hated the story. Apologies for any typing, spelling or grammatical errors. This story will contain sexual scenes but is also a story about a teenage boy growing into himself and his sexuality. Although I have borrowed from my own life and experiences, any events that seem similar to your own lives are purely coincidental. All copyrights for this story are held by me. If it is not legal for you to read this story then that is a decision that you need take for yourself but any consequences of that decision are yours. - - - - - - - - - The story so far: Our main character, Aaron, is 13 years old and suffers from a crippling shyness which makes social situations difficult for him. He is sent on a trip to Germany with school to help him overcome this but is rejected by the other children his age quite early on. He rooms with three older boys; Adam, Danny and Kieran. He has now begun to develop friendships with all three but it is Kieran that Aaron has been dreaming about for the last 10 months. The two boys have shared a near kiss but this has left Aaron confused. After confronting a girl, Kelly, about her treatment of a boy, Danny, Aaron has begun to come out of his shell but found the experience very emotionally draining. After swimming with the boys, Aaron overhears Kieran talking to Adam and Danny about how he wants to kiss him. That evening, Aaron decides to make the first move and the boys kiss. The following day, both boys struggle to discuss the events of the night before but eventually, Kieran moves past this and the two kiss again and hold hands out in public. - - - - - - - - - Finding My Voice - Chapter eight. The majority of the day became a whirlwind of stolen kisses, touches and hand holding. I don't think I'd ever been this happy in my life. Every single time I looked at Kieran, my heart warmed; fuzzy feelings spread across my body and the smile on my face showed everyone around me just how I was feeling. The boy I had spent the last 10 months dreaming about was here with me, holding my hand. He was stroking my skin, kissing my lips. He even had his hands on my bum now and then. It took everything I had not to just grab hold of him and squeeze him until I had nothing left to give - he just made me so blissfully happy. When we got back from the shopping trip, Kieran and Danny decided to hit the gym in the hotel. In truth, I think they just needed a little bit of time together. With everything that had happened with Kelly, Danny was still a little shook up and just needed some 'bro-time' with his best mate. In all likelihood, Kieran probably wanted to talk to him about everything to do with me as well. I knew that both of the boys knew Kieran was gay and knew that he liked me and, to be honest, there was no way that they could have missed all the kisses and cuddles we had been giving each other all day so it was an almost certainty to say they knew about me too. I was ok with that. Being honest, it was easier that way; I don't think I could have had a whole big coming out moment with them. I wasn't ready for that but I trusted these boys and if Kieran thought they should know then I was on board with that. That was such an alien thought though; in a few days I'd gone from having no friends, no-one who cared about me outside of my family, and those that have to care, to having three wonderful people in my life. One of whom I was even lucky enough to have as my boyfriend. Wait... no... were we boyfriends? We hadn't said that but did we need to? What were we exactly? If it was up to me, I'd have probably been lost with that train of thought for a few hours but Adam had other ideas. As he dragged me out into the gardens, I made a mental note to talk to Kieran about it later on. We wandered lazily around, admiring the beauty of the place while laughing and joking together. Something about Adam just made me feel so at ease. To be honest, if it hadn't been for Kieran, I could have really seen myself developing feelings for this gentle Irish giant but, as it stood, I think he was quickly becoming the big brother I'd never had. He teased me a lot but it was all good natured fun and I'd even begun to make a few comments of my own back to him, which usually caused him to burst out laughing. After about 45 minutes, we settled down on a patch of grass overlooking the river. I caught Adam just staring at me and smiling. "What?" I asked, blushing and looking down at the long blade of grass I was twiddling between my fingers. "I'm just so pleased for you lad," he replied, laying back on the grass. I joined him, hands behind my head, looking up at the bright blue sky, "What do you mean?" "With Kieran," he left that hanging in the air. I suppose he was testing whether it was ok to talk about it. I felt my body seize up a little and my heart started to beat just a fraction faster. "Yeah... we're getting along well," I said, testing myself just to see how much Adam wanted to talk about. His full hearty laugh filled the air around us, "Well?" he exclaimed, "God lad, you and I get on well; what you have with Kieran is something else." I felt the blood rushing to my face. There was no way on Earth that I wasn't as bright red as a tomato right now. Adam continued, "Relax little man, I saw you this morning with his arms wrapped around you. And those little stolen kisses today haven't been as secret as you might think. But then I suppose it is hard to see around you when your lips are mashed together." His light tone and giggling did a little to calm me and I found that I started to giggle too. I couldn't quite bring myself to look at Adam though. "Seriously though," he said, still staring up at the sky, "I'm so glad it's happened. Kieran's a good guy and he has liked you for a while." "Yeah, I overheard you talking about the fact that he wanted to kiss me," I confessed. "Oh god, that's all he has been talking about for ages Aaron, he's a tad obsessed if you ask me," Adam joked. "Well it's not ages is it? I mean you've only known me for a couple of days." "Are you joking?" he asked me, the surprise evident in his voice. "He's gone on and on about you for months!" What? Confusion ran through my brain; Kieran had known who I was? "He... he'd noticed me?" I asked. "Oh lad, every day he'd talk about you. How you had your hair that day, what you were wearing, how lovely you were. I've lost count of the number of times we've had to walk a certain way to class just so he could see you in the corridors." Adam continued. The words coming out of his mouth were hitting me like bricks. I was just shocked. Granted, I'd seen Kieran more and more at school but he never seemed to be looking at me and I thought we just happened to have classes in the same part of school. I was thanking my lucky stars that I was getting to see him as much as I did and then it turns out he was making that happen. He'd... liked me for a while. The thought warmed my body from the inside; it was just such an amazing thing. In my silence, Adam just continued to speak, "If he hadn't come up with this idea then I think I'd have been forced to just drag you over to us for him to speak to." My body went cold instantly. "What idea?" I asked, hesitant, unsure if I wanted the response. "You know... the trip." Adam said. I sat upright, confused for a moment, "Kieran suggested that I come here?" "Yeah, he went to your Head of Year and told them that he thought it'd be a good idea. Wait... are you telling me you didn't know?" He sat up, looking at me. Whether it was because he could see the confusion on my face or whether he was worried about speaking out of turn, I don't know but he started trying to reassure me, "Now wait, Aaron look at me. I know what you are thinking but its ok. Look how well it..." I didn't give him time to finish. I bolted up and ran. I had no idea what direction I was even going in. Kieran had orchestrated this whole thing. Rather than come up to me and speak to me, he had convinced my teachers that I should go on this trip. They then convinced my mum. Had he always planned for us to share a room? A bed? What about the moments we had shared; the castle, the pool, our kiss, had he planned all of those? Had I overheard him by accident or was it something he did on purpose? My thoughts were running away with me. Now, I can appreciate that, to you, I might seem a little over-dramatic. But there, in that moment, my whole world collapsed away. I felt that everything I had experienced from getting on that coach had been a lie. Everything was fake and controlled. I questioned Kieran's feelings for me, hell, I even questioned my feelings for him. Looking round, I realise I'd ended up outside the gym. My mind had been so focused on Kieran that my body had brought me to him. Through the windows, I could see him with Danny; lifting weights and laughing with each other. It was all fake; Danny and Adam weren't my friends either. It was all something Kieran had cooked up to try and get me into bed with him. Pushing open the outside doors, I slumped in a heap next to the walls of the hotel and cried. That's how Kelly Damms found me. Or should I say, Kelly and three of the Year 8 boys. "There he is!" she screeched in her awful voice. "There's the boy that attacked me." And that's the last thing I heard before I felt myself being dragged up by my hair and the fist of one of the boys hit me in the stomach, followed by a second one across my face. Collapsing into a mess on the floor, everything faded to black. - - - - - - - - - Thank you for reading chapter eight of my story. I hope you enjoyed it - please feel free to give me any feedback at mattstories@hotmail.com, I'd really appreciate it. I'm thinking about starting another story with a very different focus. This one is all about coming of age and romance; love blooming between two boys. The new story I'm thinking of starting is very much focused around sex and a lad basically moving between a range of sexual encounters (for those horny ones amongst you). Let me know what you think and if that would be something you'd enjoy. The feedback so far from you guys has been amazing. I am genuinely overwhelmed by the support and encouraging words you have sent me so thank you very much. It really does mean a lot to get that sort of response from you.