The
Foxwood Chronicles
By
FreeThinker
The
following may contain
scenes of sexual activity between males. If you feel you may be
offended by
reading this or that it may be illegal for you to read this in your
jurisdiction, please proceed no further. The author neither condones
nor
advocates the violation of any laws. Because the story begins in 1982,
the
characters portrayed herein may engage in behavior which could be
considered
unsafe or unwise, if not illegal. The author neither condones nor
advocates unsafe
or unwise behavior. The author, however, cheerfully condones and
advocates
exercising your imagination and your ability to think critically and
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There
are two very good
articles in Wikipedia
about Autism and Asperger's
Syndrome.
A special note: the descriptions of Adam’s sexual feelings are purely
fictional
and should not be taken as typical of people with an Autism Spectrum
Disorder.
Please remember that people with Autism or Asperger’s Syndrome are NOT
retarded.
Be
good. If you can’t be good,
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The
Foxwood Chronicles
Chapter
Eleven
“Dylan,
will you help me set up my telescope? Evan is going to
come over and we are going to look at Jupiter and Mars and the Moon. It
will be
fun. You can look, too.”
Dylan
was playing Frisbee with Jeremy and Brandon in the back
yard. He sighed as he caught a rather fast toss from Brandon, who
sneered as
Dylan shook the pain from his hand.
“Yeah,
I guess,” he said with a lack of enthusiasm in his voice
that he knew his brother would not recognize. Adam, however, had begun
to
understand certain things about voices. One of the therapists he had
seen back
in
“You
do not need to help me, Dylan. You do not want to. You want
to play with your friends. I can set it up by myself.”
As
he turned around to go back inside, he heard
Adam
turned around to see if someone had exposed their rear-end.
However, he saw only Dylan march up to
“Take
it back!” Dylan ordered as he clamored on top of
“Fuck
you!”
Dylan
forced
“Take
it back!”
“AAAAAAA!
OK! OK! I take it back!”
Adam
could see Dylan stand up and he seemed to be OK, but the
trauma was too much for him. Jeremy looked over and yelled, “Dylan!
Your
brother!”
Dylan
ran over to Adam and sat down beside him. He wrapped his
arms around Adam and began to softly reassure him.
“It’s
OK, Adam. Everything’s OK. Everything’s just fine.
Adam
couldn’t see
“I
don’t know why the fuck I’d want to come over to a retard
house like this, anyway! You’re both a couple of retards! Come on,
Jeremy.”
Adam
moaned.
He
tried to say something. He wanted to explain to
“Come
on, Jeremy!”
Dylan
kissed Adam on the forehead and kept muttering, “It’s OK,
Adam. Everything’s just fine.”
“No.
I don’t think so,” said Jeremy to his friend.
“What?
What the fuck did you say?”
Dylan
yelled from the porch, “He said, ‘no,’ so get the heck
outta here!”
Adam
didn’t see the glare of fury
“I’m
really sorry about Brandon, Adam. I don’t know why I keep hanging
around him. I used to think he was my best friend, but I don’t know
anymore.
He’s been such a jerk lately.”
“Come
on, Adam,” Dylan said with a quiet voice. “Let’s go
inside. Why don’t you play some music for Jeremy.”
Adam
was finally able to croak, “No. I must set up the
telescope. Evan is coming to look at the moon and the planets.”
“Well,
that won’t be for awhile.”
“No,
I must set up the telescope for Evan.”
Dylan
hugged him tighter and Adam was feeling so much calmer.
“
“Yeah,”
said Jeremy. “Ryan is really cool. He’s my brother’s
best friend. I wish
Dylan
gave Adam a kiss on the cheek, than glanced nervously at
Jeremy, who smiled.
“Come
on, Adam. We’ll set up your telescope,” Dylan said softly
as he stood. Unsteadily, Adam rose, too, and, averting his eyes
downward,
followed Dylan into the house.
Soon,
the three were in the front yard, Jeremy carefully holding
the telescope as Dylan connected the motorized mount to the tripod.
When the
telescope was connected, Adam nodded.
“This
is good. This will work now. Soon, it will be dark and
Evan will be here.”
“Can
we look at the moon now?” Jeremy asked with interest.
“Yes.
It is there,” Adam replied, pointing to the eastern sky.
“But, it is so light that you will not see a lot.”
Adam
adjusted the reflector until it pointed to the moon and
then stood aside as Jeremy peaked into the eye-piece.
“Wow,”
he muttered with wonder as he looked. “That is way cool.”
Dylan
smiled at Adam, who nodded.
“Yes,
it is cool. I love the moon. It is beautiful. It makes me
hard.”
Jeremy
glanced up from the eye-piece with a look as if he wasn’t
quite certain he had heard correctly.
“What?”
“Hey,”
Dylan declared, stepping between Jeremy and Adam. “Why
don’t we come back when it’s dark and it will be a lot better. Come on,
Jeremy,
I’ll show you my model collection.”
The
blonde boy obediently followed Dylan up the porch and into
the house, all the while giving Adam a strange look. Left alone, Adam
sat down
on the edge of the porch and patiently waited for Evan.
After
a few minutes alone, Adam closed his eyes.
“Hi,
Adam.”
“Hi,
Johnny.”
“What
are you doing?”
“I
am waiting for Evan. We will look through the telescope. It
will be fun.”
“I
know. Evan is your new friend”
“Yes,
he is.”
“You
do not talk to me as much as you used to. You like Evan
better.”
“No.
I do not. You do not talk to me as much as you did before
Evan became my friend.”
“Evan
is cute.”
“Yes,
he is. He is nice. He loves me.”
“Do
you love Evan?”
“Yes.
He understands me.”
“How
do you know?”
“He
told me with his eyes.”
“Does
he love you more than I do?”
Adam
paused and thought.
“He
loves me in a different way.”
“OK.
That is good. But, you do not love my dick at night
anymore. You love Evan’s dick.”
“I
am sorry. But, I do not really do it with his dick. I just
think about it.”
“I
know. Do you want to do it with his dick?”
“Yes.
I love Evan. I want to make him feel good. I think he will
let me. Evan loves me.”
Suddenly,
Adam heard the front screen slap shut. He opened his
eyes.
“Who
are you talking to, son?” his father asked as he sat down
beside Adam.
“Johnny.”
“Ah,”
his father replied with an understanding nod. “How is he?”
“He
misses me. I think I hurt his feelings when I am with Evan
instead of him.”
Pastor
Stuart smiled and nodded.
“I
can see why he might feel that way. But, maybe it’s good you
still have Johnny for a friend. Just for those times when Evan isn’t
around.”
“Yes.
That is true. Johnny is a good friend.”
His
father looked at the few clouds in the western sky that were
turning a bright salmon color in the setting sunlight.
“The
Lord is giving us a beautiful sunset, tonight.”
“Yes,
the sunset is beautiful.”
Adam gazed at it and his
father watched to see what he might see in the boy’s face. He knew that
Adam
felt things profoundly; yet, it was so difficult for him to see those
feelings
reflected in his son’s face. He tried desperately to understand Adam’s
emotions. Yet, so often, he seemed inscrutable to him. It was one of
the great
pains of his life.
“The
cloud is turning pink now,” said Adam after a moment. “In a
minute, it will turn purple.”
His
father nodded. Adam sighed.
“I
wish Evan could see this. Evan sees things the way I do. Evan
understands me. He loves me.”
Pastor
Stuart was silent for a moment.
“Has
Evan ever told you he loves you?” he softly asked.
“Yes.
Yesterday. We were sitting on the bed and he looked into
my eyes. His eyes told me. Then his eyes told me again when we were
standing.”
His
father looked at him.
“Are
you sure that is what his eyes said to you?”
Adam
nodded.
“Yes.
That is what they said. They said that Evan loves me.”
Pastor
Stuart bit his lip and looked away. His eyes roamed up
the street in the direction from which he expected Evan to come. He was
silent
for several minutes and then turned back to Adam.
“Son,
what if Evan doesn’t really love you? What if he just
wants to be your friend? Would that be OK?”
“Evan
loves me. He is my best friend. He is my super best
friend. I love Evan.”
Pastor
Stuart nodded and took a deep breath.
“What
time is he supposed to be here?” he asked watching the
cloud in the west turn to purple as Adam had predicted.
“He
will come when he is finished playing tennis. We will look
through the telescope. It will be fun.”
His
father affectionately messed up the unruly waves and curls
of Adam’s dark blond hair and smiled as Adam flinched. He went back
inside the
house and left his eldest son alone on the porch.
As
the dusk settled over the neighborhood and the fireflies
began their nightly mating rituals of darting about the yard, Adam
stared at
his telescope. He didn’t notice Ryan and Jesse approach until he heard
the
dark-haired boy say from the edge of the steps, “Hey, Adam. How’s it
going
today?”
“It
is going well.”
“You
got your telescope up. That’s a pretty big looking
telescope. That must have cost a lot of money.”
“It
was my grampa’s.”
“I’ll
bet you can see a lot with it.”
“Yes.
It is strong.”
Ryan
nodded and paused. Jesse grinned and tried his hand.
“So,
Adam. You seen our little brothers around?”
“Yes.”
After
another pause, during which Ryan stifled a good-natured
chuckle, Jesse asked, “Well, where are they?”
“Jeremy
is in Dylan’s room. They are looking at Dylan’s model
cars.”
“Where’s
“I
do not know.”
Ryan
paused and then sat down on the porch.
“Adam,
did
Adam’s
head began to tremble slightly.
“
Ryan
looked down at the concrete walkway.
“Yeah,”
he said softly. “He getting that way. I don’t know
what’s up with him.”
He
looked up at Jesse and asked, “Has Jeremy said anything to
you?”
Jesse
shrugged and shook his head.
“I’ll
go in and get Jeremy.”
Ryan
nodded and smiled at Adam.
“Adam,
I’m sorry if
“OK.”
The
two sat for a long moment, both gazing at the telescope.
“So,
why aren’t you looking at something through your telescope?”
Ryan finally asked.
“I
am waiting for Evan. He will come after he is through playing
tennis. We will look then. It will be fun.”
Ryan
raised an eyebrow.
“He’s
playing tennis? Who with?”
“I
do not know.”
Ryan
nodded and his mouth pursed in a knowing smirk
“So,
you and Evan are pretty good friends, I guess.”
Adam
nodded.
“Yes.
Evan loves me.”
Ryan
took a double take.
“He…loves…you?”
“Yes.
And, I love Evan.”
Adam
clearly didn’t seem to think there was anything wrong or
embarrassing about admitting something like that. Ryan was about to
pursue the
issue further, since Adam seemed not to have a problem discussing it;
but, he
heard Dylan and Jeremy talking in the living room as they approached
the front.
The screen burst open and the two twelve year-olds emerged onto the
porch with
Jesse following.
“See
ya later, Adam,” Jeremy said as he jumped off the porch.
“Good
bye, Jeremy,” Adam replied.
Ryan
looked at Adam and started to say something. Adam waited,
but since Jesse and Jeremy were already halfway across the yard, Ryan
sighed
and turned around. He caught up with them and the three left Adam on
the porch
with his brother.
“What
time is Evan coming over?”
“When
he is finished playing tennis.”
Dylan
bit his lip.
“Well,
it’s getting late.”
“Yes.”
Dylan
paused and then said, “Well, OK. If you need help taking
the telescope down, let me know.”
“OK.”
And,
Dylan returned inside, leaving Adam on the porch. The boy
sat for quite awhile, patiently waiting, his arms resting on his knees.
He
watched the moon and the three bright stars to the west. Slowly, they
moved
west as the dusk turned to darkness. The corner street light came on,
casting a
lonely bluish-silver pallor over the intersection. The cicadas ended
their
nightly mating songs and were replaced in their cacophony by crickets
and
frogs. A rabbit hopped across the grass, pausing to watch Adam
suspiciously.
Determining the boy wasn’t a threat, he scampered on across the grass
toward
the church and disappeared behind a crepe myrtle beside the building.
“Adam?”
The
boy turned toward his father standing behind the screen
door.
“Yes?”
“It’s
getting late. I don’t think Evan is coming.”
“He
is coming. He told me.”
“But,
it’s after ten-thirty.”
“Evan
told me. Evan does not lie. He is my friend.”
And,
with that, the boy turned around and continued to wait. His
father stood for a moment, watching, his heart going out to his son,
and then
turned.
Lightening
bugs danced in the warm night air before Adam and he
followed one as it glowed for a second then circled around before
glowing
again. And, then, from far up the street, he heard the distant voice
of… Evan.
“Adam!
Adam!”
The
boy stood and turned to the front door. His father was no
longer standing there. Adam turned back and stepped down to the walkway
leading
to the street. He could see Evan was still a block away, but running
madly
toward him, waving. Adam waited patiently until he ran up to him,
panting and
sweating. Evan grabbed him and wrapped his arms around the boy.
“Oh,
Adam, I am so
sorry. I am so sorry. I didn’t mean
to be late. I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to hurt you. Please forgive me.”
Adam
could not understand why Evan was so agitated, so excited
and unhappy. It frightened him.
“I…
knew you would come. You said you would. What is wrong? Why
are you crying?”
Evan
held Adam and felt the boy’s body stiffen. He could feel
the growing anxiety in his friend. Evan kissed Adam on the forehead.
“I
was afraid… you might think… I wasn’t coming,” he panted. “I
got stuck… I… well, never mind. It won’t happen again.”
Evan
glanced up and saw Adam’s father standing in the doorway.
He immediately released Adam and stepped back self-consciously.
“Hello,
Evan,” Pastor Stuart said with out emotion. “Adam’s been
waiting for you.”
Evan
looked down at the grass in shame.
“I
know.”
“Adam
takes promises very seriously. He’s very trusting.”
Evan
couldn’t look up. Adam turned toward the porch.
“Evan
came. He said he would. Evan is my friend.”
It
was too much for Evan, he sobbed in shame, raising his hand
to his face to wipe the tears and snot away and hide his eyes. He look
at
neither Adam nor his father.
Pastor
Stuart opened the screen and stepped out on the porch.
Evan had dropped his tennis racquet in the grass.
“Evan,
is something wrong?”
Adam
was trembling as he watched his friend cry. Evan sniffed
and swallowed.
“I,
uh, I’m OK. I’m just sorry about being so late.”
Pastor
stepped down from the porch and approached the two boys.
Evan put an arm around Adam’s shoulder and the boy immediately began to
calm
down.
“Evan,
is there a reason you were late? Did something happen?
Are you OK?”
Evan
bit his lip and looked down in shame. Adam knew something
was wrong. He could not understand why Evan was so unhappy. He had
come, just
as he said he would.
“It’s
OK. It won’t happen again.”
Pastor
stood for a moment and then placed a hand on Evan’s
shoulder. Adam watched how that seemed to have a calming affect on
Evan, just
as Evan’s arm around him made him feel at peace.
“You
are making Evan feel better, Dad.”
His
father smiled and said, “You boys go look through the
telescope. Have fun.”
He
turned and walked back inside the house, leaving the two boys
alone. Evan sniffed and glanced up at the telescope.
“That’s
a pretty big telescope, Adam.”
“Yes.
It is a reflector. It is strong. It can magnify a hundred
and fifty times. We will look at the moon now.”
Adam
walked toward the telescope and peered into the eyepiece.
Evan followed.
“Look.
That is the moon.”
Evan
leaned down and saw the moon filling the entire view.
“Wow,”
he muttered softly. “This is way cool. Look at that.
There’s thousands of craters. Wow. What’s that really bright one with
all the
lines going out from it?”
“That
is Tycho. The one at the top is Copernicus.”
Evan
looked at Adam.
“How
do you know all this?”
“I
read it. I know it. I am smart.”
Evan
sniffed and smiled.
“Yeah.
You really are, Adam. And, you know what else? You’re
real. You’re not some superficial jerk who uses people to get what he
wants.
You’re cool. You’re good. You’re decent. You’re real.”
“Yes,
I am real.”
Evan
sniffed again and Adam raised his hand to stroke his
friend’s face. Evan did that to him sometimes to make him feel better.
Perhaps
that would make Evan feel better.
Evan
took Adam’s hand between his two. He sat down in the grass
beside the tripod and pulled Adam down. The two sat cross-legged,
facing each
other.
“Adam,
you don’t realize how special you are. You don’t realize
how ugly and gross people can be.”
“I
do not think people are ugly. You are not ugly. You are
beautiful.”
Evan
smiled.
“I
mean their personalities, not their looks. I played tennis
tonight with someone who treated me special and acted like he really
cared for
me and wanted to be a friend. And, then, he just dumped me. He just
wanted to
use me. He doesn’t like me as a friend. He just wanted to… well, he
just wanted
to use me. My friends back home. I love them and they love me, but… if
I didn’t
look like I do and… if I didn’t wear the clothes I wear or listen to
the right
kind of music or… party the way they party…. they wouldn’t be my
friends. Adam,
you’re the only person I know who likes me because I’m Evan and not
because of
the clothes I wear or shit like that.”
Evan
took Adam’s two hands and held them tightly. Adam felt
something as Evan gazed into his eyes. Instantly, his penis became hard
and his
heart started beating faster. Evan’s eyes met his and they locked. In
the
silver glow of the moon above and the bluish glow of the street light
below,
the two boys gazed at each other and for many minutes, neither said a
word.
Neither moved. Adam peered deep into Evan’s eyes. Evan’s face was so
beautiful,
his skin so smooth, his hair so pretty. Adam loved Evan’s face, But, as
he
peered into his eyes, he saw more of Evan. It was beautiful, the inside
of
Evan. The feeling inside him was growing. It was like the feeling he
got
watching the sunset or when he played the Brandenburg Concerti or when
Dylan
had rubbed his dick the previous night. But, it was like all of it at
once.
Adam’s
breath became short and he was gasping through his mouth.
Evan’s look was more intense. Evan scooted closer. He said nothing but
his eyes
were almost screaming at him. Adam wanted his eyes to scream back. The
feeling
was too intense. He almost couldn’t stand it. He needed to withdraw. He
needed
to close up and block out the world and think about it, but he
couldn’t. He
couldn’t stop looking into Evan’s eyes.
Adam
realized he was whimpering, but he couldn’t stop. The
feeling was too intense. He squirmed in the grass as he looked wildly
into
Evan’s eyes.
“Adam,
Adam,” Evan whispered to him. Evan’s right hand released
Adam’s and he reached up, taking the side of Adam’s face, holding it.
The touch
of Evan’s hand on his face and the intensity, the screaming of his eyes
telling
Adam he loved him, was all that Adam could stand. He cried out. He felt
his
loins explode. His body bucked and…
Adam
opened his eyes. He was laying in the grass, his legs
twisted beneath him. Evan was hovering above him.
“Adam!
Adam!”
“Yes,”
he answered weakly.
“Are
you OK?”
“Yes.”
Evan’s
eyes were wide and his face looked frightened. Adam
wondered what could have scared him. He tried to catch his breath. He
felt as
if he had been running.
“Adam,
you scared me. Did you just cum?”
Adam
looked at Evan and didn’t know what to say? Come where?
What did Evan mean?
Evan
swallowed.
“Did
you… just, like, get like a super good feeling that like
exploded all over your body?”
Adam
nodded.
“Yes,”
he answered weakly.
“Wow,”
Evan replied. “I’ve never seen anyone do it like that
before.”
Adam’s
breathing was slowing down.
“I
get The Big Feeling sometimes when the music I am playing is
too pretty. Sometimes I get it when the stars or the moon are too
pretty. I can
make myself feel that way when I masturbate.”
Evan
shook his head and his eyes grew wider.
“You
can cum playing music?”
Once
again, Adam didn’t know what Evan meant. Instead of
answering that question, he continued what he had been saying before.
“Dylan
made me feel that way last night when he rubbed my dick.
It feels good. Sometimes it feels too good.”
Evan
raised an eyebrow.
“You
and Dylan mess around?”
Adam,
once again, didn’t know what to say. Evan started to say
something when he heard the screen door open and saw Adam’s father peek
out.
“Evan,
you’re grandmother just called. It’s time for you to head
home now.”
Evan
was sitting in the grass beside Adam’s horizontal body. He
glanced down and grinned.
“OK,”
he replied.
“Perhaps
you can spend the night this weekend and you and Adam
can look at the stars all night,” Pastor Stuart suggested. Evan tried
to
control his excitement.
“Yeah,
that would be cool.”
As
the man returned inside, Evan looked down at his friend.
“Adam,
I’ve never seen anything so beautiful, the way you got
The Big Feeling just by us looking at each other. They way you look in
my eyes
and… it’s like we’re talking and… it’s…”
“Yes.
You can spend the night Friday. We will look at the stars.
I will show you how to get The Big Feeling, too. It will be fun.”
Evan
grinned.
“Yeah,
it will be fun. But, you know? We don’t have to have The
Big Feeling to have fun. You are so cool.”
Evan
stood and reached down to help Adam stand.
“I
love you, Adam.”
“I
love you, Evan.”
I
hope you have enjoyed
Chapter Eleven of The Foxwood Chronicles.
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