Date: Mon, 24 May 2010 01:09:28 -0400 (EDT)
From: jacobmillertex@aol.com
Subject: Jacob Finding His Way: Chapter 30

{Jacob Finding His Way is based on mostly true events in my life. To keep
the story interesting for the readers, some events now in the story are
fictionalized. As I am writing this story, I am above the age of 21. If you
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Written by J.P.G.


		Chapter 30

(TOM'S POINT OF VIEW)

I heard a lot of yelling upstairs than it got quiet. than all of a sudden
the yelling started up again. I knew one of the voices going back and forth
was David's and the other one was Jake's. The third could only be David's
father. I met the man once, and I don't care to meet him again.

Then all of a sudden I heard screaming and I knew the screams were
David's. I started to run upstairs as the screaming turned into crying. As
I reached the top of the staircase, I saw Jake's brother Jeremy go running
by me. Soon after that, Jake went running by me with Andy on his tail.

 I had no idea what in the world was going right now. As I turned the
corner, I saw David in a ball in the corner. His dad was grabbing at him
and Joey was trying to get David's dad away from him. I just ran up and
tossed David's dad to the ground and covered up David. I wanted and needed
to protect David.

As I wrapped my hands around David, he was shaking so bad. David was still
screaming out mumbles I couldn't understand. I held him even tighter to
comfort him the best I could. Finally David wrapped his arms around me and
just hid into my chest.

I didn't pay any attention to what was going on around us at that
moment. The only thing that was going through my mind right now was
protecting David. That was all, so I didn't care what his dad was yelling
about.

I whispered in David's ear: "Don't worry my teddy, I am here and nothing
will ever hurt you again. I promise you that!"

I picked up David and walked upstairs to his room carrying him. His dad
once again tried to grab at him, but I pushed him out of the way. Doesn't
his dad know the last thing you want to do in the case of his son is grab
at him.

For God's sake, the poor guy was dragged into a warehouse kicking and
screaming for his life. It went so bad he ripped off several of his
fingernails. I really don't think David will ever get over this in his
lifetime. How do you get over a brutal rape?

(JOEY'S'S POINT OF VIEW)

When I saw Tom come running over and protecting David, I was relieved. At
this point the only one that could settle David down was either Tom or
Jacob. Jacob was running to catch his brother, leaving Tom to take care of
business here.

When Tom picked up David and went upstairs I felt one fire was put out. Now
I need to find a way to get David's dad out of the house without David.

"Sir, with all due respect, as you can see David still has a lot of
demons. We were told not to grab at him or show any kind of force because
he might go back to that night. When you went to grab at him, I am pretty
sure he flashed back to the worst night in his life. Nothing you did, just
the memory of that night was all."

"I know that and that is why I want him to come home with me. This isn't
the best place for him right now. He needs to be surrounded by his family
to get him through this!"

"Again with all due respect Your Honor, we are his family right now. Didn't
you see that no matter what you did, he wasn't calming down? But the minute
Tom showed up and held him tight, he calmed down? We are not trying to
replace you guys, but it was better he was around those he trusts and he
knows he can lean on right now!"

"Those two really do love each other don't they?" Tears started to roll
down David's dad's face. I have never seen this guy show any weak
emotion. "I never thought in my wilds dreams that anyone in my family, my
kids more so, would go through the hell David went through!" Once again
David's dad wiped the tears from his face.

"This isn't your fault or ours either. It was the fault of the five that
raped him that night. Jacob is doing everything he can to get those that
did this to justice. Jake can't rest until that happens. This is his family
in this house and he loves each of us as though we are his own."

"I can see that Joey. Jake is turning into a good man. He had to go through
so much early on in his life, but he got stronger through it all. Now he
wants to protect all those that mean the world to him. I feel so good that
my son is among those."

"I just want to be a father and protect my son like any good father should
do. But at the same time I hear what you are saying. David feels safer here
than he will feel anywhere else. Tell Jake I will speak with him before I
go back to Austin. Tell him how much I appreciate everything he has and is
doing for my son."

"I will make sure to pass the message along to him."

"I know it was best that I don't go up there and say goodbye to my son
right now. Please tell David I am very sorry for my behavior and I love him
with all my heart. I wish I could take this pain away from him, I would do
anything to take away his pain!"

"I will make sure David gets the message as well. Please be careful and
come back and speak with Jake before you leave."

I shook hands with David's dad as I walked him to the door. He walked out
and headed to his car. I watched him as he drove away. I went back into the
den and just sat down in the chair. I was now getting worried about Jacob,
Andy and Jeremy. They are still not back and it has been over thirty
minutes since Jeremy ran out the door.

There was no one to blame for this. Jeremy was in a new place, and not even
a week had passed by yet and something like this happens. Poor Jeremy I
feel for him. I could only imagine what was going through his mind.

(JACOB'S POINT OF VIEW)

I was trying my best to settle David's dad down. He is so angry I can't
believe it. Well, I can believe it because this is his son we are talking
about here. He left his son in my and Beth's care and look what happened.

I'm not trying to make excuses for what happened. I do believe if it were
going to happen, it would have no matter if David were with us or back home
with his family. Once again no one deserves what has happened to David. I
wish I could turn back the clock and change what has happened, but I can't.

Then it happened; David's dad went to grab his son, and that was it. We
were told to be very careful with touching David. It is because of the
emotional damage David suffered from being dragged into the building and
raped on the worst night of all of our lives!

As David's dad got hold of him by the shirt, David totally lost it. He
started screaming in fear. It was a screeching scream that showed us how
scared David still was about what happened to him. David some how got loose
and hid in the corner. As I was about to walk up to him, I saw in the
corner of my eye, my brother Jeremy running down the stairs and out the
door.

I turned to Joey and looked at him. "Make sure David's dad leaves but not
with David."

All Joey did was shake his head to the positive and I took off. Running
after Jeremy was my brother Andy and Chase. We needed to get to Jeremy
before he got to Mesa Street! That street was the main street down the west
side of town and the traffic was ugly.

Man, can Jeremy run, because we had no chance to catch up with him. He
crossed Mesa without a care in the world. Cars were coming to a complete
stop trying to avoid hitting him. I am surprised there wasn't an accident.

Andy, Chase and I crossed the street as carefully as we could. By the time
we reached the other side, I had lost track of Jeremy. I looked over at
Chase and Andy with a worried look on my face.

"Let's split up and look for him. Remember if you find him; don't try to
force him to come home. It will make it worse. If you feel you can't get
him to go with you. Call for whoever isn't around. In fact once whoever
finds him, call out for the others!"

 I went straight, Chase went left, and Andy went right. I can only hope to
find Jeremy and hope he isn't too freaked out. I looked down each street as
I passed them. I finally saw what looked like a neighborhood park ahead of
me.

As I walked to the park, I saw a figure swinging on the swing set. I
couldn't see the figure that clearly. So I walked up as slowly as I could
in order not to scare whoever was on the swing. About five feet away I was
able to make out that it was Jeremy on the swing. I breathed a sigh of
relief when I saw him there.

"Jeremy it's Jake, are you ok?"

Jeremy didn't look my direction, but he didn't act as if he was going to
run either. I walked up to him and sat on the swing next to him. I started
to swing along side of him. I stayed as quiet as possible until he noticed
I was there.

He looked at me and smiled like we had planned this trip to the park. We
sat there swinging for about ten minutes. I noticed Jeremy was getting
tired as he stopped swinging. I got off of the swing and waited for Jeremy
to do the same.

Once Jeremy's swing stopped, he got off and walked up to me. Poor guy, he
looked very tired and confused at the same time. I held onto him as we
walked back towards the house. I wanted to yell out for Chase and Andy, but
I knew if I did it was going to spook Jeremy once again.

There was no need to, because once we arrived at the street corner, they
were there waiting for me. I joined them with Jeremy and we walked back to
the house. The minute we got in the house, Jeremy went to the kitchen.

I knew what he wanted so I followed suit. He already had his glass and was
about to poor a cup of milk. I went over to the pill dispenser and got
Jeremy's evening pills. He took them as he headed to bed. I went with him
to make sure he was fine and in bed.

I made sure he was changed into his pajamas and in bed before I turned off
the main lights of the room. I always leave the light on in his closet and
several night-lights leading to the bathroom for him.

I walked down the hall to David's room and peeked in. The light was still
on, but Tom and David were asleep already. Tom has his arms wrapped around
David and holding him tight. David's head was buried into Tom's
chest. Those two must have fallen asleep as soon as they got up here,
because they didn't even change clothes.

I went back downstairs to check on the other guys. Chase and Andy were
sitting there watching television. At first I didn't see Joey. As I was
leaving the room, Joey called out for me.

"Hey babe where are you off to?"

"I was searching for you. So I figure nowhere since I just found you!"

"Well you really didn't find me, I found you!"

As I was sitting down next to Joey, I started laughing at what he had
said. He was kind of right on that point. We sat there for a couple hours
watching movies. No one said a word about what happened this evening.

I got up and called it a night and headed up. As I passed Jeremy's room I
popped my head in again. Jeremy was sound asleep! Once I felt comfortable
with Jeremy, I closed the door and headed to my room.

I tossed my clothes to the floor and crawled into bed stark naked as
always. The minute my head hit the pillow, I was out. I figure the run I
had earlier in the evening did me in.

Jeremy hitting my shoulder awakened me. I looked up at him and he was
smiling. I crawled out of the bed keeping the sheet wrapped around me. I
went into the bathroom to put on a pair off running paints and a
t-shirt. It is cool to sleep with out a shirt, but it isn't cool to run
around the house with out one.

While I was taking my meds, I gave Jeremy's his. He did everything I did in
the same sequence. It didn't bother me; in fact I thought it was cool. As I
was brushing my teeth I heard loud banging coming from downstairs. At first
I couldn't make it out! Then I heard Beth calling for me. The words that
were said next brought chills up and down my metal spine as Beth were
saying them!

 "Jacob your mother is here to see you!"

I turned to Jeremy and signed to him to stay here in the room. `Please
don't go anywhere until I come back for you'. I walked downstairs to the
den where my mother was standing. I looked at her and I knew she was not
happy once again!

"Jake were you ever going to call me and let me know three days into having
Jeremy here, he already ran away from you?"

"Well good morning to you to mom! I am doing fine and you? Yeah the trip
went well and we are all safe and sound! These maybe the normal opening
statements one would say to another instead of yelling about the bad things
that have happened!"

"Jake I really don't care about the trip, the weather, or giving you every
count of my health. You can't handle Jeremy and you know it. Again, were
you ever going to call me and let me know about the issues that occurred
here last night!"

"No I was not mom! The day you walk in this house and pay for the bills and
really buy this house from me, that is the day you can order me to report
to you. Until than, what happens in this house is really none of your
business! Who in the world even told you about what happened here last
night?"

"Andy called your sister Marie worried about Jeremy who had just ran out of
your house. He ran out because of your gay friends screaming like a little
girl."

"I will be talking to Andy about this. You said one thing when we were
growing up. What happens in the house stays in the house. That goes here as
well."

My mom just stood there and tried to stare me down. As I was looking at her
waiting for some kind of reply, Joey walked in. My moms face turned even
redder than it already was. I was afraid she might explode with hate.

"What in the hell is this fag- I mean Joey doing here? This is a family
matter!"

"Well Ms. Hernandez I am Jacobs boyfriend, like it or not. So I am his
family as much as you are. Plus I helped buy this house and I am getting
tired of you coming over here yelling about everything going wrong. If you
truly loved Jacob, you would let him live in peace and stop yelling at him
for everything little thing."

"Until that day comes Ms. Hernandez you are no longer welcome in this
house. I believe Jacob told you that once before. I am telling you
now. Please, until you can see fit to treat Jacob and all of us with
respect, don't come around!"

My mom just stood there stunned at what just transpired. I was as well!
What did Joey eat before he went to bed last night to grow some balls? I
loved him even more that moment when he finally stood up to my mom!

My mom was looking at me for support, and when she saw she wasn't going to
get any, she left. As the front door shut behind her, I leaned in and
kissed Joey. That was all that needed to be said.

I went up and grabbed Jeremy for breakfast. As soon as everyone sat down
and started to eat, I said my peace.

"Look guys I am saying to everyone where I don't have to repeat myself over
and over again to each of you. Whatever happens in this house will be
handled with this family. We are all family for whatever reason or another
that brought us together. We will lean on one another when that is
needed. We will pick each other up when that is needed. We will always be
here for one another."

 "One thing we will not do is go running out and involving outside sources
or people in our business no matter how dyer you feel it needs to be
done. If we do that, we show we can't handle ourselves living here."

If any of you can't follow this creed, there is the front door. I will miss
you so much, but I need to be able to depend on you that we will talk to
each other.  Please, I love each and every single one of you at this
table. Just respect everyone and everything in this house, and that is
all!"

I looked around the table, as I was finishing up. Everyone was clinging
onto every word I was saying and by the looks in their moist eyes, they
understood.

As soon as I finished eating Andy pulled me in the study. He looked at me
with a look a sorrow. I got through to the one that really did wrong.

"Hey bro you know I didn't mean to cause you any problems with mom this
morning! I didn't talk to her I talked to Marie. I was worried about Jeremy
at the time!"

"Andy, you know as well as I do, Marie will go running to mom and tell her
whatever she finds out. Remember how it was living in that house of
mom's. We all went running to her when ever we get a bit of information to
tell her."

"I know Jake and I am sorry! It will not happen in the future I promise!"

"We are cool Andy don't worry about it. Plus it isn't really Marie's fault
either so don't be mad at her. We just have to stick together on things;
that's all. I am starting to get a feeling mom wants to destroy what I have
here. I will not allow it!"

The rest of the day went off with no more problems. I was happy about that!
Andy took off to spend the evening with Norma, his girlfriend. The rest of
the guys and I were in the game room playing one game or another. Even
Jeremy was getting into the video games. I don't think he understood the
concept, but he really liked the bright colors and noises.

Everyone settled down in the game room. We just sat wherever there was room
on the floor. Joey of course was sitting next to me and Jeremy. Tom and
David were together. Actually Chase's girlfriend came over and decided to
hang with us.

Chase seems to be the one to get things going and tonight was no exception.

"Jake you need to tell us something you never told us before. I don't
understand the makeup of your family. We all met your mother, and there is
no way you take after her. So that means you take after your father. But
once again none of us have met the guy. What is up with that? Is he dead or
alive if I can put it bluntly?"

"Wow Chase you cut right to the `chase', don't you?" We all laughed as I
wondered how much to tell the guys. I really don't want to bore them or you
but I really have not told anyone what happened to my dad.

"Where do I start? I figure the easiest place to start is yes as far as I
know my dad is alive. In fact I do have a picture of him when he just
married my mother." I pulled out my wallet and took the picture out. I
passed it around to the guys.

"If you didn't tell me this was your father, I would have assumed it was
you and Jeremy. You two are the spitting image of your dad. What the hell
is up with that?" Chase mumbled as he passed the picture to David.

"Yeah I have been told that several times that Jeremy and I are a spitting
image of my father. Anyways this is what has been told to me by family
members or pieced together by what has been whispered over the years. Now
how much is true or how much was said out of anger, I don't know."

"My father, of course, married my mother and moved her to Utah. Jeremy was
born first right after my father quit the Army. My mom just quit the
military as well but was going to school at night and working civil service
during the day. Anyway one day my mom got home to find the music loud, the
house smelling like weed, and Jeremy crying. When she walked into his room,
she found my father all-high on weed yelling and hitting Jeremy. My mother
grabbed Jeremy from my father and left the house.

"She moved back to Wyoming, but my grandfather told her she was married and
she had to go back to him. At first she wasn't going to no matter what
anyone told her. Then she found out she was pregnant with Andy. She felt
defeated and went back to my father."

"It didn't last much longer after she had Andy. Once again she found out
when the babysitter left, he was beating on Jeremy. Plus he wouldn't stop
the weed. So she got tired of it and headed back home again. This time she
was set on not returning to my father no matter what."

"A couple of months later she found out once again she was pregnant, and it
was me. She told the family about it and made it clear she was not going to
back to my father. My grandfather kept pushing her to go back until one
fateful Friday night."

"My mom and her best friend headed out for a night of dancing. Since
Cheyenne really didn't have nightclubs at the time, they had to go out of
town to Greely. She always used this old freeway between Cheyenne and
Greely! It was a two-lane freeway.

"On their way home, my father was following them and actually drove my
mother off the road flipping the car once and left. No one was hurt, unless
you count this ugly mug sitting here in front of you guys here today!"

Everyone started laughing. I thought the mood was getting a little to down
so I needed to lighten it up some.

"That sealed the fate of my father with my mom's family. No matter what
happened after that, no one pushed her to go back to my father. She never
did and till the day I left the house, she never took one red cent from
anyone."

"Wow, is all that comes to mind Jake, wow! You never had a chance to meet
your father?"

"Not really David, as far as I can recall. I was told my father saw me one
time when I was three. My mom decided to give him a chance to be with his
boys. But when he arrived at the house drunk dropping us off, that was it
for him!"

"Now I am confused here Jake! Your mom left your father before she even
knew she was pregnant with you. At one time or another she went back to
your father to have your sister Marie."

"You fool! Haven't you noticed she has a different last name than us? She
has a different father!" I laughed at what Chase said.

"I never knew that Marie had a different last name, so excuse me!" Chase
got up and slugged me and sat back down.

"Enough with the somber moments we are having right now. The soap of `In
the Days of The Hernandez Family', will be continued another day!"

We all laughed at that and started playing pool in teams. This time because
the way Chase and his girlfriend play, I put in the actual rules of the
game. You know call your pocket, the ball you are going to hit and when you
can't hit the other team's ball or the eight ball to sink in your ball.

We played till eleven and I realized I needed to get Jeremy his medicine
and get him to bed. I had to get my ass into bed as well. I already missed
a week of school. I can't give any more excuses for my mom to say I can't
take care of myself.

As the week started it was the beginning of a new six weeks for
me. Actually, the start of the new six weeks started last week when I was
gone. So I had a lot of catching up to do as far as homework was concerned.

Monday morning the Coach of the track team wanted to speak with me. At
first I didn't know why, but by the time I got to his office I pretty much
had the scoop from the other team members. He was upset I missed a week of
practice and just showed up for the meet on Saturday morning.

I knocked on the Coach's office door and he called me in. Just from the
sound of his voice I knew he wasn't in a good mood. Not even looking up at
me, the coach told me to take a seat. I did and waited for him to say
something.

"Jake right now I don't know what to do with you. You missed all last week
and then walked on the track on Saturday morning wanting to run. I should
have sent you home. No one is allowed to miss an entire week of practice
and then come in and run in the meet."

"I need to do something with you, what, I don't know. Explain to me what to
do! Give me a good enough reason not to suspend you from the team!"

"Coach, I told you I was going to be gone. You didn't say a thing about
that when I told you beforehand. I said no matter what I was going to run
last Saturday and I did. You didn't have a problem with that at that
point. Now you seem to have an issue with me missing practice after I
explained everything to you."

"I don't need to give you a good reason not to suspend me from the
team. You need to find out yourself what you want. I did everything I could
to keep you aware of what was going on. And let me make this clear sir, my
family comes first."

The coach just sat there and he knew I was right on this. What a hypocrite
he is being right now. I am sure there were complaints from the other team
members and he doesn't tell them it is none of their business what is going
on. I cleared everything with him and now he is being hard ass about it.

"Jake you did clear everything with me. I agree with you that family does
come first and you need to take care of that family. I have talked to you
and we are on the same page. Now if anyone asks you what happened here just
tell them it is none of their business."

"Yes sir and thank you!"

I got up and walked out thinking to myself he needs to take is own
advice. There was no reason to call me in and go over what we had already
spoken about. Why in the world does this kind of stuff follow me? I must
have the worst luck a person can have.

Between homework, track, and JROTC my first days went by fast.  The days
started out early and ended late. When I got home there was Jeremy waiting
for me the minute I walked in the door. I really enjoy Jeremy being
around. One thing about him is his energy just flows to everyone around
him.

As we started the week, there were a few bugs to be worked out. Poor Beth
had to take care of Jeremy for the first two days. Some how the company I
hired as care taker for Jeremy got the schedule confused. How in the world
that happened could not be explained to me fully when I asked! Simply put,
the person that is assigned to Jeremy visited us the week prior. So there
was no excuse for this and I really let them know my anger in this matter.

Finally by Wednesday everything started to slow down for me. I caught up in
my classes and my fellow team members seem to have forgotten the beef they
had with me not going to practice last week.

As I walked in the door, Beth greeted me. At first I didn't understand why,
but when I walked in the den, I knew. Mr. Anderson was sitting there
drinking a soda. I looked over at Beth and she had a confused look on her
face.

"Hello there Mr. Anderson, how are you doing today?"

"I am doing well Jake and how about you?"

"Doing well, more than I can ask!"

"Good Jake and I am sorry for just popping up on you like this. I needed to
speak with either you or Beth here about her husband!"

"Why don't we go to the study? Within a few minutes the guys will be coming
home and making a lot of noise as they walk in."

"I have no problem with that Jake!"

We headed to the study. On the way I got Jeremy to come in with me. I
didn't want to leave him alone unattended. I surely didn't want another
night like we had last weekend. I introduced Mr. Anderson to Jeremy as we
were taking a seat.

"I spoke with the district attorney over in Scottsdale Arizona. Most of the
investigation has been done already. They don't need your husband's body
anymore, Beth. Since you are still married to him, they need to release the
body to you!"

"Mr. Anderson I really don't know what to do with his body. Why don't you
speak with his sister or bother here in town. They might want to take care
of all that."

"I did do that and they simply don't want a thing to do with him. He burnt
so many bridges when he was alive. Even in death, no one wants to deal with
him. I know right now your children have bad feelings towards their
dad. But you don't want them one day thinking why you didn't do what you
could do to bury him properly!"

Beth just looked to the ground and didn't say a word. I looked at her and
realized that she wasn't going to make any decisions on this matter. I
really don't blame her because of what she went through.

"Mr. Anderson let's do this. The cost to bring the body out here will be
high. I believe that is why his bother and sister don't want to have a
thing to do with him. So let's have the local corners office arrange with a
local funeral home to cremate the body and send it up here."

"Once it arrives we will take care of the funeral arrangements. It won't be
anything big, but it will give a chance for the family and friends to say
goodbye properly to him. I want my boyfriend to do that so he can let his
demons go."

"Ok Jake I see no problem with that at all."

"Please Mr. Anderson send me the bills to get this done. I don't want my
boyfriend's dad buried in an unmarked grave. Joey would never forgive
himself for that."

"You've got it Jacob. I will take care of it all. You will probably not
hear from me again about this issue. I will pass the message to the local
corners office and they will contact you Jake. You should think about
getting one those new phones where people could get ahold of you when you
are out of the house."

"There is no way the school will allow me to keep it on. It would be a
waste of money. Beth here let's me know the minute I walk in if anyone
called me."

"It was just an idea, nothing more!" Mr. Anderson turned to Jeremy as he
got up to leave. "Nice to have met you Jeremy!"

We all shook hands as I walked him to the door. As I shut the door, the
guys were restless and hungry. Beth went in to the kitchen and finished up
dinner. As she was doing that, I took Joey to the side.

I explained to him why Mr. Anderson was here and what was decided. At first
Joey just looked at me. Then he just walked over to me and hugged me
whispering in my ear.

"Thank you so much babe for doing this for us. I really need to say goodbye
to my dad. I know he was a son-of-a-bitch when he was alive, but he was my
dad!"

Joey let go and wiped his eyes. Beth called out that dinner was ready. The
rest of the evening was peaceful. I liked my evenings that way. Joey and I
went to bed earlier than normal. I was actually beat and fell asleep by
eight.

By Friday I already received the call from the funeral home in Phoenix
concerning Joey's dad's body. I called him back and told him the wishes of
the family. I gave the payment over the phone for the cremation and the
shipping of the ashes.

I knew Joey's mom was not up to doing anything with the funeral of the man
she once loved. So as soon as I finished up the call with the corner in
Scottsdale. I called and arranged a very small funeral for Joey's dad on
Sunday.

It wasn't anything big and that is why the service was accepted on such a
short notice. Mid afternoon the family and friends that want to come and
pay their respects can do so. There won't be a body for anyone to
view. Afterward there will be a small dinner and that will be it. As far as
the ashes, I bought a small plot and gravestone where Joey's dad could be
placed to rest.

(TOM'S POINT OF VIEW)

I want to do something for David. He's had it hard in the last couple of
weeks. I will not push him to have sex. I know it will be awhile, before we
actually have sex. He just started kissing me yesterday.

Still I want to take him out and get him to remember the great things of
life rather than the horrible nightmare he just went through. When I got
home I asked Jake what he thought I should do.

"Well you need to be very careful with David right now. Maybe you should
keep him with the group. I know you want alone time, but it might freak him
out!"

"I want him to get used to being with me again and not be afraid!"

"Tom he isn't afraid of you. Look at what happened when his father grabbed
at him. He wouldn't settle down until you held him. He only trusts a few
people right now and you are one of them. Don't push him too quickly."

"If you really want to take him out, don't take him anywhere dark. That
means the movies are out of the question. Take him out to a special place
you and he both consider special. I recommend an eating joint. Read how he
is taking it being out while you eat. If you see he is doing ok then take
him to the mall or something like that."

"Just don't take him somewhere dark and alone. He needs to be in places
where there are a lot of people. That is the only way he will feel safe
other than here at the house."

"You are right Jake and I will do that. I will take baby steps on
everything with David!"

"I know you are frustrated and angry, but don't show that. He needs our
support and needs our love. Please don't give up on him right now Tom. If
you would leave or give up on him, I really don't think he could ever
recover from it."

"You're right Jake and I have no plans to do that. I am in this for the
long haul. I promise Jake what I did in the past is the past. I will NEVER
leave my David."

With that I left I headed upstairs to tell David what I had planned for the
night. At first David was a little hesitant about going out. But he did say
yes! I headed out to get ready at home. I will be back to pick up David at
eight.

(DAVID'S POINT OF VIEW)

As Tom left I just sat on my bed trembling with fear. I didn't want to go
out but I don't want to lose Tom. He has gone through so much; it is the
least I can do for him. Just being around people I don't even know and the
noise gets me very ill at ease. In fact it brings me flashbacks to the
night I just want to forget.

I sat there not moving an inch trying to muster enough strength to get up
and get ready. I keep telling myself this is for Tom. Still it isn't
working! I am too scared to move. I know I will be with Tom and safe. I
just can't move from the spot Tom left me.

I saw Chase and Linda walk by my door talking to one another. Then I saw
Jeremy run into his room. I didn't want any of them seeing me like this. It
is pitiful to say the least. I somehow managed to get up from my bed but
just fell to the ground.

As I stumbled to get up, my legs just would not work for me. I crawled into
the corner of my room curled up in a ball. At this time I was shaking and
tears of fear started to roll down my face.

(JACOB'S POINT OF VIEW)

As soon as I saw Tom running down the stairs with a big smile on his face I
knew David said yes. I am happy for the two of them. I just hope Tom
listens to me and takes David to a well-lighted area with a lot of people.

Jeremy was bothering me to allow him to go to his room. I kept signing to
him that he didn't need my permission to go to his own room. He finally got
what I was telling him and he ran up to his room.

I sat in the study finishing the needed preparations for Joey's dad's
funeral. I really hope I never have to plan one of these things again for
many years to come. I headed to check up on Jeremy when I finished the
final preparation for Sunday.

As I walked by David's room I found it odd that the lights were dim in the
room. In fact I can't hear any noise coming from his room or see a light
coming from the bottom of his bathroom door.

I knocked on David's door and got no answer. It is cracked open so I poked
my head in to see if anything was up. I didn't see David in or around his
bed. I opened the door even wider and still I didn't see a thing. I decided
to turn on the lights in his room to get a clearer view of the room.

The moment I turned on the lights, I saw David curled up in the corner of
his room. All he was doing was rocking back and forth humming. I moved
carefully toward David to see what was wrong. As I reached him, I sat down
close to him, not making any sudden moves.

"David what is wrong?"

I got no answer from David. He just kept rocking back and forth humming. I
moved a little closer and then a little closer. I did this for a few
minutes until our bodies were touching. I stretched out my hand and placed
it very slowly on David's shoulder. I kept doing slow moves like this until
David knew I was there and wouldn't freak out.

The minute David looked up at me and I saw the tears rolling down his
face. I knew there was something really wrong here. I waited until David
was comfortable enough to lean on me. When I finally wrapped my arms around
him, he was trembling so much! He could have gone through the floor!

I sat there holding him and just rocking with him back and forth. David
just broke down in tears as I have heard him many nights since he was
raped. Beth always came upstairs and sat with David until he had fallen
asleep. But I knew David cried himself to sleep every night since he was
raped. I heard him and my heart went out to him each time.

I just held onto him until he was ready to talk. I didn't know how long we
were there, but it had to be a long time because Tom walked in as I was
holding David. Tom just looked down at me and David and I saw the fear in
his eyes at that moment.

He figured it out right away that he pushed David too fast. David is not
ready to go out. It has been only three weeks since the rape. Come on, what
does he expect from David; a miracle? This kind of attack will take a lot
of time to get over. Even after time and help, the scars will always be
there. David will never be the same again.

Tom kneeled down to take my spot. As I was moving out of the way for Tom to
take my spot, David would not let go.

"David, Tom is here to be with you! Don't you want Tom to be with you?"

All David did was shake his head no and held me even tighter. Tom decided
to just sit on the floor in front of David and me. I knew by the look on
Tom's face he was hurt by what David did. All I could do is hold onto David
until he fell to sleep or allowed Tom to hold him. No matter what, it was
up to David.

Give or take maybe an hour later, I heard snoring coming from David. I
looked down, but I couldn't see David's face. But I knew he was asleep
because his breathing is regular and he wasn't rocking any more.

I gently picked David up and walked him to the bed. I am getting very
worried about David's eating habits. I knew he wasn't eating a lot here at
the house. Now I know he isn't eating much at all. David was too easy to
pick up.

As I lay David on his bed, Tom helped me pull the covers back. We both took
off his shoes and placed him under the covers. I dimmed the main lights in
his room. Tom and I walked out and headed back downstairs.

"Jake, I swear he was ok when I left! If I knew he was going to fall apart
like this, I wouldn't have left him after I asked him to go out!"

"Look Tom, I told you not to push David this soon. It has been only three
weeks since he was raped. Come on man, his therapist told us it is going to
take time. We need to follow David's time table; not ours."

Tom was quiet as we went downstairs. He looked hurt and worried at the same
time.

"Tom, go back upstairs and crawl into bed with your boyfriend. Wrap
yourself around him as he sleeps. Let him feel your warmth and heart
beat. Haven't you noticed when he gets the way he does he leans into our
chest, but his head rests on our heart. I think there is something about
the sound of our heart that soothes David. Just hold him Tom! That is what
he needs right now and he will always be grateful for you doing that."

"What should I tell him when he wakes up and feels bad for what happened?
You know he will. That is just David!"

"You're right on that point. Just hold him and tell him nothing is his
fault. Console him and make everything right for him."

Tom seemed to be a little happier as he walked back upstairs. You really
can't blame David or Tom for what happened here tonight!

 I have a track meet to run in the morning. So I needed to get to bed
soon. Plus, I was worried about Joey. He isn't playing in the football game
tonight, none of the first string are. The team they are up against tonight
is an easy win; one of the final games of the regular season! The coach
didn't want any of his first-string players getting hurt. Still Joey went
out and supported his team as they played.

I headed to sleep after I gave Jeremy his nightly medicine and milk. He was
knocked out before I even got out the door. I was the same way the minute
my head hit the pillow.

As always the weekend is going to fast. We won the track meet that gave us
district. Joey and the football team won their game as well.  They have
only two more games to take district and move into the high school
playoffs.

Before we knew it, it was Sunday and we were all getting ready for the
funeral. I stopped by the funeral home yesterday to make sure Joey's dad
ashes got here ok. All I want is this day to go without a problem.

The minute we drove up to the funeral home, all of Joey's dad's family was
already there. They just looked at Joey and Beth as they walked into the
funeral home. I found hat to be both rude and stupid to say the least.

They didn't want a thing to do with Joey's dad when they were asked to take
care of his body. Oh no; he was a son-of-a-bitch when he was alive; we
don't want anything to do with him now that he is dead. At least that was
the impressions Mr. Anderson got from this whole family.

But now that the expense was taken care of, they sit in judgment of Joey
and his family. Screw them; they need to turn the mirror on themselves.

(JOEY'S POINT OF VIEW)

I was glad that Jake put this whole funeral together for my family and
me. But when I woke up in the morning, I really didn't want to go
anymore. At the same time I knew I had to go to at least say my final
goodbyes to my father.

The mood in the house was lighter than I expected it would be. We all got
ready; even Jeremy got into a black suit. We took several cars to the
funeral home. We talked about school or the game, but everyone tried their
best to stay away from the subject of the events of the day ahead of us.

As my family and I walked into the funeral home, my father's family just
glared at us. They looked at us as if we were Satan himself. The
proceedings started on time and the priest was very good. He summed up and
asked if any one wanted to say a few words on my father's behalf.

I looked around and no one stood up. My mom stood up and said her
peace. Then my sister Fran followed right behind her. I knew being my
father's oldest son I had to say something.

As I walked to the podium, I looked at everyone in the funeral home! None
of my father's family was crying. At the same time, they sat there in
judgment of us.

I cleared my throat and started speaking.

"My father, in some eyes was a good person. Those who truly knew my father,
knows the truth. Not to speak ill of the dead, but my father really had no
friends or family on this earth. You all at the end of my father's life
didn't even pick up the phone to talk to him.

Although he had many faults, he was still your blood. He deserved the
unconditional love we give to one another in a family. Right to the day my
father left this world, I still loved him. No matter his faults; no matter
what he did while he was alive; I love him still.

I hope the Lord above takes him with open arms and he now sits in Heaven
looking over each and every one of us. I forgive you dad for everything you
did and I LOVE YOU DAD, AND I WILL MISS YOU!"

I went back and took my seat by Jake. He held onto me. That is what I
needed at the moment, Jakes warming touch.

(JACOB'S POINT OF VIEW)

 The service was short and nice. No one, except Joey, Beth and Fran went up
and said a few words on behalf of their father. I especially liked what
Joey said. You could tell it came from his heart.

The service wrapped up and we headed out to the grave. We sat there
watching them put the small box in the ground. Once again everyone that
wanted to say a final goodbye did so. I really didn't know the man, so I
sat back as Joey and his family said theirs.

The service was over and all that was left was eating. The only ones that
showed up were the clan from the house. That was fine by me and by the
looks of it; it was fine by Joey, Beth and Fran. We joked around at the
table as we ate.

I crawled into bed, but I was horny as hell. I knew we buried Joey's dad
today, but I needed to get some release. If I didn't get rid of this boner,
I would never get any sleep tonight. So I decided to jerk off in the
bathroom.

I didn't need any magazine or video to get off. I have the real thing in my
bed every night. I had my eyes closed not thinking about anything more than
Joey's hot mouth around my dick. I got into my fantasy and it started to
feel so right.

I opened my eyes and looked down. To my surprise Joey was on his hands and
knees sucking me. I didn't even hear the door open to the bathroom. It felt
so damn good I am not going to say a word.

I grabbed Joey up from the ground and he smiled at me. I love this guy so
damn much and that smile makes me melt.

I slammed Joey against the restroom wall, kissing him all over his neck. I
wanted to feel him, I wanted to smell him, and I just wanted to have him in
so many ways. I kissed down to his left nipple and chewed and sucked on
it. Then I did the same thing to his right nipple that I had to his left
one.

As I was sucking on his nipple, Joey was moaning and hitting the wall with
his arms. I wanted to make him feel the way I felt right then with him. I
made my way down to his belly button and than down his treasure trail.

When I reached Joey's dick, I teased him a little. He kept moaning and
begging me to take him. By the third or fourth time, I engulfed his entire
dick. Before either of us knew, Joey's dick was rubbing against the back of
my throat. Joey now was all into it; he didn't even notice I started
playing with his balls.

I let his dick out of my mouth, and started to suck on his balls. They are
such perfect, hairless balls. Once Joey threw his arms against the wall
over his head, I knew I had him. I turned him around and started to eat him
out.

Joey's ass is two perfect, hairless half moons. When I separate the two
bubble cheeks, I get the gold I am searching for. Once Joey was moist
enough, I stood up and whispered in his ears.

"Do you want me to fuck you?"

"Yes babe I want you to fuck me please!"

"I want to hear you say you want me inside of you!"

"I really want you inside of me babe! Please it has been to long since I
have felt your dick inside of me. I want to feel the warmth and throb of
your cock inside me. Just fuck me all you want!"

That is all the invitation it took. I got the KY Jelly out of the drawer
and lubed Joey's sweet pucker and my cock as he faced the bathroom wall,
leaning over just enough to give me full access to his most private
place. I leaned in and my dick entered into Joey. I entered slowly until my
dick was completely in, pressing him against the wall of our bathroom. I
kissed along side of his neck as he adjusted himself around my dick. Joey
turned his head and we started kissing.

At that point I couldn't hold it in any longer. I started to fuck Joey so
hard against the wall that I thought I was going to send him through the
wall. Joey was moaning and wiggling underneath me as I was fucking him.

Joey's moans were getting so loud, I put several fingers into his mouth for
him to suck on.  I knew it was not going to take me to long to reach my
climax! I leaned in and whispered into Joey's ear.

"I am about to cum, handsome! Do you want me to cum inside of you or do you
want me to pull out?"

"Please pull out! I want you to cum in my mouth this time. Please babe,
pull out and let me taste your sweet nectar."

I kept slamming Joey against the wall with every push. I was on cloud nine,
when I felt I was about to explode. I pulled out of Joey. Joey turned
around, hit the floor and took my cock in one huge gulp to take my sweet
nectar, as he said.

Just as I was shooting into Joey's mouth, our bathroom door slammed
opened. Chase and Andy came rushing in. I turned and yelled at them as they
were running in.

"Get the hell out of here, damn it!"

They stopped right in their tracks, and just looked. At first they stood
there stunned at what they saw before them. Then they finally turned around
and got out. I figured we were making so much noise, it woke them up.

I ran to the door and closed it all the way and locked it. I went back to
Joey who was still sitting on the floor red face and all. I was not going
to let these guys spoil the moment. The only way anyone could pull me away
from Joey right now was either the house was on fire or someone died.

I leaned down and pulled Joey up. I looked straight into his beautiful eyes
and started to kiss him. He kissed right back as if nothing happened.

"Joey I want you inside of me. I want to feel your dick inside of me so
bad. Please Joey, fuck me right here on the bathroom floor!"

I didn't have to ask twice. Before I knew it, I was on the floor and my
legs in the air. Joey started to eat me out. He than lubed me up working
the KY into my rosebud. Then he did what I wanted; he entered me. Once Joey
was fully in, he leaned in and we started kissing.

We didn't break the kiss as he started to fuck me. Joey is going totally
hard out! We were moving all over the bathroom floor. We moved so much; I
hit the wall of the bathroom. It didn't stop Joey; he kept fucking me.

Without warning, Joey exploded inside of me. I was so horny I actually
exploded again. Joey always can bring me to two climaxes in less than
thirty minutes. He is that great of a lover. Joey fell onto of me as he was
exploding inside of me.

Joey lay on top of me until he caught his breath as he normally does after
we have hot sex. Joey rolled over and his dick rolled out of me. As soon as
his dick was out, I felt empty. I wanted to have Joey back in me so bad.

Joey got up and carried me to our bed. We made love for another several
hours. I came four times that night! Joey actually came as much as I did,
four times! We actually fucked ourselves to sleep. We had never done that
before.

The alarm clock woke me up the next morning. I rolled out of bed with dry
cum all over my body. I looked down at Joey as he was looking up at me with
a smile. I leaned in and we started to kiss.

"That was the greatest night of love making I have ever had!" I said
walking to the bathroom.

"You don't need to tell me, I was there!"

Joey is right on my tail as we hit the shower. We took a quick shower, but
couldn't keep our hands off of each other. I just loved my Joey and I know
he loved me as well.

The minute we walked into the kitchen, the guys were whistling and sticking
their tongues to the side of their mouths. I just laughed at it and sat
down to eat. Joey did the same as I did.

Monday didn't start out too bad at school. Practice was easy considering
the coach was upset that I didn't run my best. We won and that is all that
mattered to me and, obviously, to the coach as well. During breakfast we
sat around just talking about everything except the house.

When the bell rang to start the day off I was happy, to my surprise. The
day went by with out any problems. When Joey and I walked into ROTC class,
I knew something was up. But I was not going to let it bother me at all.

It didn't concern Joey or me so we went on our merry way. The rest of the
afternoon went by so fast. I was already back at practice again. The coach
ran us to death during practice. When I was in the shower, my legs felt
like they were going to fall off.

Still I didn't allow it to bother me. I was still high on the love making
Joey and I did the night before. I really don't think anything is going to
spoil my spirit today.

I was wrong! The minute I walked in the door, Beth had the phone in her
hand.

"Jake it is your grandfather on the line for you!"

I took the phone and headed to the study. "Hello grandpa is everything ok?"

"Yes Jake everything health wise is fine over here. I didn't mean to scare
you like that."

"Oh thank God for that! Then what do I owe to the honor of this call? Don't
get me wrong, I always enjoy talking with you grandpa."

"I know Jake and I you. But we do have a problem right now that your mom is
making for us. She is taking you to court to take Jeremy away from
you. What happened the first weekend that Jeremy was with you?"

"Grandpa you know mom and how she blows everything out of proportion!"

"I do Jake, but still she is using what ever happened that day as her
reasoning to take Jeremy from you. She wants to place him back into the
school in Lander."

"You know about David and what had happened to him the week before I left?"

"Yes you told me about that Jake!"

"Well, his dad came over and was angry that he didn't know about it. Each
of us thought the other had called David's dad and told him what had
happened. Anyway to make a long story short, David's dad went to grab him
and he started screaming and freaking out.

That set Jeremy off and Jeremy went running out the door. Chase, Andy and I
found him less than ten minutes later. He didn't do any harm to himself or
to anyone else. He just ran out the door and that is it."

"That is it Jake, then Glorie has no case to have him removed from the
house. Plus she turned over custody to me dealing with Jeremy. All she is
doing is causing us headaches, money and time. I will call her and see if I
can settle her down.

Don't worry about anything Jake. I will take care of it. I just needed to
hear what had happened that night. I love you and Joey and you guys take
care of each other!"

"I love you to grandpa and please don't worry yourself over this. I want
you to take care of your health!"

I hung up with my grandfather and just sat down on the chair. Only my
mother could pull me back into the crapper. Why is she being this way with
me? I have done so much for her and this is the way she pays me back. This
needs to end and end now.

(TOM'S POINT OF VIEW)

David was not very talkative all day long. I just gave him his space, but
it seemed to me that he isn't getting better at all. He is drowning in
emotions none of us knows how to fix. We can't even imagine what David is
going through right now.

After practice I decided to head down and spend the evening with David. No
matter what, I am going to get him through this. For his sake and for all
our sakes!

When I got to the house, I just walked in. I have not needed to knock to be
let in for months now. Jake told me to treat his home as if it was mine as
well. I went looking for David the minute I walked in. He wasn't anywhere
on the bottom floor. I really didn't think he would be in the game room. I
decided to head upstairs and look for him in his room. And that was where I
found David just sitting on his bed looking out the window.

I walked in and towards him. I didn't say a word until I reached and
touched David first. He didn't move at all when I patted him on the
shoulder. I kneeled down and grabbed onto his hands. David finally turned
and looked at me. He had tears rolling down his cheeks and fear in his
eyes.

"David you have nothing to worry about anymore. We all are here for you and
will protect you! You need to let us in and trust that we will never go
anywhere!"

David just looked at me as I spoke the words to him. I felt I was hitting a
brick wall the entire time. He was shutting himself off to everyone and
everything around him. I grabbed hold of David and held him tight.

"Tom please forgive me for last night. I really did want to go out with
you, but the more I thou..."

"None of that David, none of that, you understand me? You never have to
explain anything to me! I love you and you love me! That is all that
matters right now!"

"I really do love you Tom! I just don't know what to do anymore!"

"You need to trust us! You need to lean on us right now and just let us
hold you while you go through this part of your life!"

"It hurts so much I can't think anymore. I can't sleep or look at myself in
the mirror anymore. I am so angry for allowing this to happen to me. At the
same time I am so scared and I just don't want to live in this world
anymore!"

"David I don't want to ever hear you say that again! Do you understand me?"
I held David's face up as I was shaking! I couldn't believe the words that
he just said.

"I can't live without you anymore David. If you were taken from me that
night, I don't know what I would have done. I still have you now, and I
will not lose you. Please David, don't rob this world of you being in it!
Please don't do that to us!"

"I am so afraid all the time Tom, no matter where I am! At school if
someone is looking at me I'm afraid they want to hurt me. I will not go to
the restroom alone or with anyone in there. I turn the corners afraid there
is someone there to hurt me. I am just afraid all the time I can't stand it
anymore."

"David we are here for you and I promise you no matter what. From now on,
one of us will always be with you. We will protect you from the demons you
are facing right now. I just need you to promise me that you will stay with
us David!"

"I just need to sleep Tom, I am so very tired. The only way I know I can
get any sleep right now is by leaving this world, Tom. I fall to sleep and
have nightmares of that night. I have nightmares of being dragged along the
concrete of that parking lot through the grass and into the building to my
rape! Screaming and yelling at those guys for them to please leave me
alone. I never did anything to them! Why did they do this to me Tom? Why
did they hurt me the way they did Tom?"

David just broke down crying and yelling for help. He couldn't figure why
he deserved what happened to him that night. He kept asking me why did
these guys pick him and do the things they did to him. I just couldn't
answer him why they did it. All that came to my mind is I want to find
these assholes and kill them. I don't want them to have a chance in court;
I want those guys dead more now than ever!

All I could do for now was to hold David in my arms. Here's a guy that once
was in love with life enjoying everything about life; a guy that laughed
all the time and never let anything or anyone bring him down.

Now, before me is a shattered man. A man that will probably never return to
what he once was! He might never be able to live in this world again. He
was robbed that night, and what was taken from David was his soul. I don't
know if anyone can get that back for him ever again.

As I held David in my arms crying, Beth and Jacob walked into the
room. Beth had a look of hurt on her face that only a mother could have. I
could see as she looked at David, she was hurting as bad as he was. To her,
David is her son and when they hurt him, they hurt her as well.

Beth came around and sat down on the other side of David. I slowly leaned
David into her arms as he kept crying. Beth grabbed hold of him and held
onto him as only a mother's touch can do.

 I got up and walked towards the door where Jacob, and now the rest of the
guys, were standing. They all were looking at David with tears forming in
their eyes as they looked on. We all felt the hurt that David was going
through right now.

Jake took control and asked all of us to head downstairs. Leave David with
Beth in peace and quiet. I walked out looking at David once again before I
shut the door. We all walked down to the den to talk about what to do to
make it easier for David.

As soon as everyone took a seat, I started the talk. "Hey you guys, David
is hurting really bad and we need to work together to help the hurt. I know
by the looks on your faces you know this already. I am not saying a thing
you don't already know. All I am saying is we now need to talk more about
how to make this easier for him."

"He just told me how afraid he is every minute of the day. He won't even
use the restroom at school alone or even with someone in there anymore. He
is so afraid even when he turns the corners at school in the hallways. We
need to find a way to be with him at all times. At least one of us caring
for him right now as David goes through this time in his life."

Everyone just looked at each other. Jake spoke up first. "You know Tom is
right concerning David. We have all noticed David crawling more and more
into a shell. He isn't eating and id also losing a lot of weight. He will
not talk to anyone right now because he'd probably afraid of what we might
think of him!

We just need to walk him to class, lunch, and then make sure there is
someone after school with him. At the same time, don't push him to talk. In
fact talk about anything else except what he went through. Bottom line is
David needs us to lean on! We have to be there for him."

Everyone started to whisper to each other all at once. Jake and I just
looked on as the rest talked amongst themselves. I know we are all just
kids in high school acting as adults. But we do need to grow up at one time
or another; even more so now than ever because a friend needs us to be
there for him.

I heard Beth coming down the stairs. She walked in and looked at us. Then
she walked over to Jake. She whispered something into Jakes ear and left
the room. Jake turned and got up and followed her right out the door.

(JACOB'S POINT OF VIEW)

I walked into the kitchen to see what Beth needed to talk to me about. She
opened the oven and checked on dinner. As she was poking the roast, she
started to talk.

"You know Jake, I really believe David needs more help than we are able to
give him here. Therapy doesn't look like it is working. David is closing
off more every day. It hurts me seeing you guys like that!"

"Beth I understand where you are coming from. Keep in mind if we put him
somewhere to get this help, it will do more harm for him in the future. It
will be following him wherever he goes. He will be asked and reminded of
that night every time he applies for a job or college. We need to do what
it takes to give him the support here at the house along side therapy.

His therapist said it will be a long haul ahead of us all. It will get
worse before it gets better. It is getting worse, let's not abandon him
now!"

"I see where you are coming from Jake. I just can't stand to keep seeing
David this way. He is crying himself to sleep the way he keeps doing every
night. I love you guys too much to see any of you guys hurting the way he
is. I will look after David while he is at the house. You boys keep an eye
on him at school."

During dinner, while we ate, we came to and agreement on a schedule. At all
times there will be one of us with David. Once it was decided on, we all
helped clean up.

Beth asked me to go upstairs and get David up to eat. On my way I checked
in on Jeremy and made sure he was ok. I knocked on David's door than walked
in. I didn't find David in the bed. I looked over to the bathroom and saw
the light on.

I knocked on the bathroom door and got no answer. I cracked the door but it
wouldn't open. I got worried when I couldn't crack the door open. I ran out
of the room into Chase's room. I used Chase's entrance to get into the
bathroom.

I couldn't believe my eyes when I opened the door. I ran over to David
yelling for the others to come up. I just couldn't understand why anyone
would do this to themselves. As I grabbed ahold of David all I could hear
him say:

"All I want to do is sleep Jake, please let me sleep..."

TO BE CONTIUED...


{There were finally some conclusions to open plots in this chapter. Joey's
dad was put to rest and Joey forgave him for what he had done to him. Joey
stood against Jake's mom and showed Jake he could depend on him. Still,
Jake's mom is trying to be behind the scenes pulling the strings of Jakes
life. She going to try to take Jake to court and get Jeremy back. Jake's
grandpa is backing Jake's play all the way. And now we look at poor David
and how his life has been turned inside out. He is hurting so bad he is
freezing everyone out. What do you think Jake found when he found David in
the bathroom? These guys in this house truly love each other as family. Sad
thing in all this is these guys have to grow up way too fast. They are
missing out on there youth.  Some much going on and they are not even
halfway in their junior year. You will have to wonder what else is in store
for Jake and the guys. There is a so much to answer in the chapters to
come. Stick around and keep reading the future chapters, and enjoy! Please
email me and let me know how I am doing at jacobmillertex@aol.com, Thanks!}

Editor's Corner:

Well, Jacob is right about the guys having to grow up so fast and not be
able to enjoy their high school years. I wish I could say that this was
purely fiction, but the world is full of this kind of angst and drama for
way too many teens today.

Gay teen suicide occurs in frightening proportions. I know we have many
young readers, so I address each of you: Watch for danger signs in your
friends and acquaintances. If you are in a bad place, reach out to
someone...to anyone. Don't go it alone.

There is help and support out there for anyone who needs it. If you need
help finding resources for help, let Jacob or me know. We'll help.

Nothing is ever so bad that ending one's life is the right answer.

Until next time, be well and love and cherish those around you, both family
and friends.

"Daddy" Rick