Date: Sun, 10 Oct 2010 22:09:12 -0700 From: Jacob Miller Subject: Jacob Finding His Way: Chapter 49 {Jacob Finding His Way is based on mostly true events in his life. To keep the story interesting for the readers, some events now in the story are fictionalized. As I am writing this story, I am above the age of 21. If you want a story with lots of sex, look elsewhere. This is a love story. Any similarity to any other events, names, or life events is purely accidental. If you are underage, (according to your state laws as a minor), if this literature is offensive to you or to anyone around your viewing area, or it is illegal for you to view such content where you are reading it, stop reading the story. This story can't be distributed in any way, shape or form without his expressed written consent.} Written by J.P.G. Chapter 49 Dewayne heard Jacob come back into the room, get dressed and then leave again. He actually felt Jacob when he crawled out of bed earlier in the morning. Dewayne can't stop worrying about Jacob. He knows one thing is for sure, Jacob needs to go checked out. These sleepless nights can't continue. Just as Dewayne started to doze off again, he herd the bedroom door open and close again. Dewayne knows that Jacob just walked in. A few minutes later, Dewayne felt Jacob crawling into bed. Dewayne laid there pretending to be asleep when he felt Jacob's hand grabbing for his arm. He let Jacob pull his arm over Jacob's side and around his chest. Jacob held on tight to Dewayne's hand as he fell to sleep. Shortly after hearing Jacob softly snoring, Dewayne relaxed enough to fall back to sleep as well. Neither of the boys woke up until late morning. Dewayne woke up first, crawled out of bed and did his morning business. As he walked back to the bed, he saw Jacob stretching his arms out, waking up. Dewayne smiled at his boyfriend as he rubbed his eyes. "Hey you, sleepy, it is time to get up and grab some breakfast before it's gone. But I need a favor from you first Jacob. Please do not get mad with me, but I have fallen so hard for you, I want to grow old with you." "Go for it; feel free to say whatever is on your mind. I think I know what you are going to talk with me, but I am not going to assume." Jacob said as he pulled himself and leaned against the back board of the bed. Dewayne walked back over to the bed. He sat down on the edge of the bed, grabbing hold of Jacob's hand. He reached out with his other hand and turned Jacob's face to face him. "I know you have not been sleeping well for a while now. I feel it when you get out of bed and get back in. I thought long and hard about this, and I came to a conclusion on what I should do. You are not feeling well at all. You have not been feeling good for a while now. After what Al told us, we all have been walking around the elephant in the room. I can't walk around it anymore. I am going to go at it head on. I love you Jacob and like I said. I want to spend the rest of my life with you. That doesn't mean that time should be short. We need to grow old, wrinkly and grey together." Dewayne rubbed Jacob's hair when he said grey, causing Jacob to laugh. "When you are hurting Jacob, I am hurting with you. I wasn't around when you went through hell during your freshmen year, but I am here now. I WILL NOT LOSE YOU NOW THAT I HAVE YOU IN MY LIFE. DO YOU UNDERSTAND?" Jacob looked Dewayne and nodded his head up in down in agreement. "You will go in today to the hospital and get the tests that your doctor wants to run on you. More than likely you are worrying for nothing, but it is best to find out. But if it does come out to be bad news, we will go through it together. You will make it out of it and we are going to be on this earth for decades to come." Dewayne grabbed a hold of Jacob as he broke down. They sat on the bed holding onto each other as tight as they could. They almost shut off the flow of blood in each others body. Jacob pulled away from Dewayne, wiping away the tears from his face. "I will call Dr. Whitmore and set it up. I love you to Dewayne and I want to grow old with you too. As long as I have you and my family at my side, I will make it." They hugged each other again before taking a shower and getting dressed. Jacob called Dr. Whitmore to set up the test for three in the afternoon. Dr. Whitmore kept telling Jacob he is doing the right thing and he promised Jacob that he will make it out again. After getting off the phone, Jacob and Dewayne walked down to grab something to drink. Dewayne is going to get something to eat, but Jacob can't because his stomach has to be empty for the test later today. Al looked at Jacob as he and Dewayne walked into the kitchen. "Good morning to you two! I hope you had a good night's sleep. You will notice a weird black box connected to the telephone. It is for the monitoring devices on Alex and Matt." "Wow that was fast grandpa! They really want to make sure they have their claws in poor Alex and Matt." Jacob sat at the table with his orange juice. "Yeah, but I am glad they did get it done while I was off. I hate to leave the office when I am the only one there right now. I can't wait until you graduate from college Jacob and take over the business. That way I can do old people stuff like play golf or just travel, wearing those weird shorts with inappropriate socks the old people seem to like wearing." Everyone started laughing. Jacob couldn't see his grandfather retiring. He loves to work and help out others. Dewayne joined Jacob and his grandfather at the table with a plate of food that Franseca just cooked for him. "Jacob what do you want me to fix you something to eat?" Franseca walked over to fill Jacob's cup with orange juice. "Nothing Franseca, I can't eat anything." Al and Franseca looked at Jacob. "Dewayne and I had a talk before coming down here. I have been hard headed and stupid about the news I got the other day from Dr. Whitmore. I set up an appointment with Dr. Whitmore at three to run the test he wants to run on me." Al almost fell out of his seat when he heard Jacob. He got up and patted Dewayne on the shoulder as he walked over to Jacob. Al knelt down in front of Jacob as he started to talk with him. "I am glad that you decided to go in today. You have made this old man so happy. No matter what happens, you have all of us to help you through this, Jacob. You will not go through it alone like last time." Al hugged Jacob as he got up from his knees. He walked over to the phone and called Gloria and Andy Sr. to let them know about the appointment. He then got off the phone and walked out to tell the others in the house. The rest of the morning and early afternoon, Jacob lazed around the house. As the hour approached, Jacob got more and more nervous. Dewayne noticed that Jacob is getting nervous, so he stayed glued to Jacob. At two, everyone started to get ready to head out to the hospital. Jacob felt that he didn't really need to get dressed, so he just put on a jacket. The jeans, t-shirt and running shoes he put on in the morning were fine. Jacob pulled out the truck that way they don't have to take more than two vehicles. Those that didn't fit in the truck drove with Al to the hospital. They parked and walked in to find Gloria, Andy Sr. and Marie waiting for them. Gloria walked over to Jacob and hugged him, and then Andy and Marie. Once Marie let go of Jacob, they got onto the elevator. No one said a word on the ride up. The door opened and everyone walked off. As they walked off the elevator, Jacob went to check in and everyone else went to take a seat. Dr. Whitmore walked out as Jacob walked up to the nurse's station. Jacob turned and looked at Dr. Whitmore. "Jacob my boy, it is really good to see you! I hope you had a great New Year celebration. I promise you that I will make this as quick as possible. Before you leave today, we will have answers, I promise." Before Jacob could answer Dr. Whitmore, the entire family walked up. Dr. Whitmore took a couple steps back seeing all them walking up. He looked around the group seeing familiar faces and new faces in the group. He didn't see Joey anywhere. "Well, I would like to take Jacob back and get this going. I will send out one of my staff to keep you all informed with what is going on. Just as I was telling Jacob before you guys walked up. We will have the answer about what is causing Jacob's pain before he leaves the hospital today." "Dr. Whitmore he is not going to have to stay over night, am I correct on that?" Al spoke up as Dr. Whitmore started walking to the back. "I don't want to answer that question yet. I am hoping whatever is going on is minor. If it is, we can more than likely treat as an out patient. If Jacob's cancer has returned, depending how bad it is, we can treat it as out patient as well. That question can't be answered until we run the test and see what the results are, Al." "Dr, Whitmore I know I have not been involved in my son's illness, but what is it that you think it is? You are a doctor and you have been treating me son from the beginning. I'd guess you have to have some kind of clue on what it is." "Gloria, I know you are worried, I know all of you are worried. It is best not to jump to conclusions here. Two years ago, Jacob's body was stripped down and rebuilt back up. It could be something simple or something bad like I have said. I won't guess at what it is. I want to run the tests and then I will answer all the questions you have. Sit tight and I or another one of my staff members will be with you." Everyone just stood there watching Jacob walk back with Dr. Whitmore. They made their way back to the seats where they were before Dr. Whitmore came out. Just like the ride up on the elevator, no one said a word to each other. They just sat there in silence. Jacob walked into a room small room with just a bed and a chair. He turned around to look at Dr. Whitmore. Jacob is starting to think this is not such a good idea. Maybe he should just come back another time, but not today. Dr. Whitmore noticed that Jacob is starting to get really nervous. "Jacob, please don't get nervous. I know you as if you were my son. In fact I feel so close to you, I feel as if you are my son. I will not let anything go wrong here today, I promise. Please change into the hospital clothes and put your clothes here on the chair. Several nurses will be in here in a few minutes to start an IV. Once that happens, I will start my test. All this will be over in a few hours." Dr. Whitmore patted Jacob on the shoulder as he walked out of the room to give him privacy to change. Almost the minute Jacob went with Dr. Whitmore, Dewayne started to pace up and down the hallway. He wants to go back and be at Jacob's side, but they are not allowing him. The only thing he knew to do is just walk up and down the hall. "Dad, how did you get Jacob to come in for tests? He seemed to be set on not coming in no matter what any of us said. You always work miracles with anything you set your mind to." Gloria whispered to Al as she sat in the chair next to him. "I didn't say anything to him. That young kid over there..." Al pointed to Dewayne walking up and down the hallway. "He talked with Jacob this morning and got him to come in. That's the man you need to be thanking, not me!" Gloria looked at Dewayne as he walked over to the window. She has not really given the new guy in her son's life a chance. She really never gave Joey a chance either. Gloria always thought if she could get rid of the guys around her son, he might turn to girls. Gloria got up and walked over to Dewayne. "Dewayne, I know I have been really ugly with you since I met you. Don't ask me why I do the things I do, because I don't even know the answer to that question. You have to trust me that you are not the only one I have treated badly. I was speaking with my father. He told me that you are the one I need to thank for getting Jacob in here for the tests. Thank you so much for doing that, Dewayne. You may think of me as a bitch, but I do really care and love my son." Dewayne turned to face Gloria. The look in her face is sincere and loving. A look that Dewayne has never seen in her face before! For the first time he is seeing what Jacob has been telling him. His mother is a loving and caring person underneath it all. "Ma'am I love your son with all that I am and want to be with him. Not for months, or a year or two. I want to be with for as long as I am on this earth. He brings me, a person I try to hide, to the surface. You are welcome, but I did it to have him for the rest of my life." Gloria couldn't believe how blunt Dewayne is. She actually likes the back bone in him unlike Joey who seemed to always be hiding behind her son. Jacob needs an equal by his side, not a person that will suck the life out of her son. Just as Gloria started to walk away, Dewayne stopped her. "By the way ma'am, you are not a bitch. Jacob has told me many times that you care for him and love him. I saw that care in your eyes earlier. Although I don't agree with what you've done, you are not a bitch. You just don't know how to handle the idea of having a gay son, just like my parents. I guess what I am trying to say, I am here to stay. I am no Joey that will move out in the middle of the night. I will not be run off either. We have to find a way to get along. You mean too much to Jacob, and so that means you mean a lot to me." Gloria just nodded her head. She dared not speak so she turned and instead if sitting back down, she went to the bathroom. Gloria doesn't want anyone to see her crying. As she walked into the bathroom, she realized that she has to take her son as he is. There is nothing she can do to change him to walk down another path. Two hours had passed and still no update. Al finally got tired of waiting so he got up and walked over to the nurse. She had no idea about anything going with Jacob. She informed Al that Dr. Whitmore brought his own staff in to run the tests and that is why she has no idea what is going on with Jacob. Al didn't like the answer, but had to take it. He walked back to his seat. As more time passed, he started getting more and more nervous. Once it passed the three hour mark, Al got tired of waiting for an update. He got up and had no plans of being stopped. He is going to walk to the back no matter who tries to stop him. Just as he reached the double doors, Dr. Whitmore walked out with several of his staff members. "Al, I am sorry for taking so long. I needed to run several tests several times to be for sure what I was seeing. Let's go over to the waiting room where I can tell all of you what the test is telling me. I don't want to repeat myself." Al nodded with an angry look on his face. This is the first time that Dr. Whitmore had done this to him and before Dr. Whitmore leaves Al is going to make sure he understands that it will be the last time. If Dr. Whitmore doesn't like it, Al will find another doctor for his grandson that will respect him. They reached the others in the waiting room. Chase jabbed Andy Jr. to wake up. David did the same thing to Tom. Jeremy is in the corner but really unaware what is going on. He is in his own little world coloring in his coloring books. Once everyone woke up and got into a group, Dr. Whitmore started to talk with them. "First let me apologize to each and everyone of you. Every time I was about to send out a staff member to talk with you, Jacob stopped me. He didn't want any news to be given unless it is the news about what is wrong with him. He is my patient and I have to respect Jacob's requests when he makes them. Now let me tell you what we found. To put you all at ease, Jacob's cancer isn't back." Almost all at once you could hear everyone take a breath for the first time since Dr. Whitmore walked out to speak with them. "Although his cancer isn't back, he is sick." Now the breath of relief vanished and fear set in across everyone's face again. "As you all know that Jacob had kidney stones the last time he came in to the hospital. This time it is worse then that. Jacob kidneys have almost completely shut down. That is why he has been having the pains on his sides. He finally told me that he hasn't been urinating that much, and when he does his urine is cloudy, dark yellow and at times it smells. He just finished a dialysis treatment in hopes of getting his kidneys going again. If that doesn't work, I will need to get him a kidney. I would like to get him both, but a person can live their life normally with just one good, properly functioning kidney." "Wait a minute Dr. Whitmore, you are telling us that Jacob is... I really don't know what you are telling us Dr. Whitmore. All I know is that he is sick again." Al sat down in the nearest seat to him. "Look, I know this is lot of information, but it is still good news to a point. He doesn't have to fight any battle with cancer. This is fixable and it has become so common. Once a person's kidneys are either kick started with dialysis or transplanted, they live a regular life as long as they take their medications." "Jacob has gone through so much already and now this. I don't know if his body can take another surgery if it comes down to that. How much longer do we have to stay before we can take Jacob home?" Al asked. "Like I just said, he just finished a treatment on dialysis. We took x-rays and blood tests to see if it worked. I am just waiting for the results. If they come back good, he can go home in the next twenty or so minutes. If they come back the same as the first ones I took he will have to stay in order to get further treatment." No one had anymore questions for Dr. Whitmore. The doctor excused himself and headed back to look at the results of the tests and ex-rays. Al and the others just sat back down to wait and see what is going to happen. Not even ten minutes passed when Jacob walked out to the lobby followed by Dr. Whitmore talking to him. Everyone got up and noticed that Jacob and Dr. Whitmore didn't look too happy with each other. "Wait a minute Jacob, what is going on here?" Al, Dewayne and Andy Sr. walked in front of Jacob where he couldn't walk any further. "Jacob wants to leave against doctors orders. The dialysis didn't work, his kidneys are shutting down on him. I need him to stay where I can get him on the transplant list. He needs to get a new kidney as soon as possible. He can't leave the hospital right now." "I am not going to be put back into this hospital. I should not have ever agreed to come down here in the first place. If you guys get me back on the surgery table, I know I am not walking out of here through the front doors. I am going home and that all I am going say about that." Jacob pushed past Al, Dewayne and Andy Sr. He walked over to the elevator to leave. "If any of you want a ride home with me, you'd better get on this elevator or you find another way home." Those that drove up with Jacob walked over to the elevator except Dewayne. Jacob didn't look back when the doors to the elevator opened. He just got in with the others that hitched a ride with him. "Al you need to stop Jacob and bring him back in. This is something he needs to take seriously. His kidneys can completely shut down at any time. When that happens, he will have only four hours to get to the hospital. Imagine if it happens when he is asleep, he will never wake up again." "It took a lot to get him here. He agreed out of love to his boyfriend. Is there any other way he can get that treatment as an out patient?" "If Joey got him to come in, then Joey needs to talk him into coming back again. It seems that Jacob listens to Joey. If it wasn't for Joey the last time, Jacob might not have pulled through. I almost Jacob because Joey was gone! The answer to your question, there is no way I can do this out patient. His kidneys are too far gone. I keep telling Jacob to tell me about any new pain no matter if it seems small. If he would have told me about this pain when he first got it, it could have been dealt with out patient." "Dr. Whitmore it looks like you are not aware of the fact that Joey left Jacob the day before Thanksgiving. If anything I blame that son-of-bitch that caused this problem. If I ever get my hands on that kid, he is a dead man." Al walked way to settle down. "This is Dewayne, Jacob's new boyfriend. He is the one that talked Jacob into coming in today. If there is any way to get Jacob back in, we will find it! In the mean time, if you are unwilling to help, I will find a doctor that will. There has to be a treatment under out patient. Once the kidney comes available, we will have Jacob here." Dr. Whitmore looked at Al. He sees that Al is serious about finding another doctor. He walked over to the nurse's desk to use the phone. Dr. Whitmore walked back over to Al and the others. "A portable dialysis machine is going to be delivered to your house this evening. It will be set up and they will show anyone that wants to learn how to use it. I want to see Jacob three times a week until a kidney comes available. If he gets worse, he will have be in patient hospital." Everyone agreed with Dr. Whitmore and walked out. Dewayne had to ride with Gloria and Andy Sr. in order to get home. They walked in the house and found everyone in front of the TV except Franseca. She is in the kitchen cooking dinner. Dewayne walked over to Jacob and sat next to him on the couch. He wrapped his arm around him. Dewayne pulled Jacob into him until Jacobs head rested on his shoulder. Dewayne leaned in to whisper to Jacob. "Thank you for going for the test today for yourself and all of us. Now everyone doesn't have the worry that your cancer came back, but what you have Jacob is as deadly as having cancer. None of us will rest until they know that you are fine again. So this is what we are going to do and I am not going to take no for answer on this either. A portable dialysis machine is going to be delivered in the next couple of hours. They are going to show you, me, your grandfather and anyone else that wants to know how to use it. You will follow the instructions right down to the last letter without a negative word. The reason you are going to do this Jacob is because you want to live. The reason you are going to do this is because everyone in this house wants you around more than a couple more months. And the reason you are going to do this is because you love me and I love you. I am asking, scratch that, I am begging you to do it." Jacob looked up at Dewayne and nodded his head and leaned back on Dewayne's shoulder. The machine got delivers, set up and shown to whoever wanted to know how to use it. They put in another IV into Jacob and left. Gloria and Andy Sr. left after dinner leaving Marie at Jacob's because she wants to stay the night to help out her brother. As they left, they took Dewayne to the side and thanked him for everything he is doing for them and Jacob. Jacob headed up to bed shortly after his parents left. No one knows, but he has been up since early this morning. Dewayne is the only one that knows, but he doesn't know that Jacob went out to speak with Joey. Dewayne started to head up, but got stopped by Al. "Dewayne you have already done so much for my grandson. I know this is not what you thought you were getting into, but thank you for everything. I need you to make sure Jacob does what he is supposed to do." "Sir, I promise to make sure Jacob does what he supposed to do. As far as not signing up for this, you are wrong. We all get sick and when that happens, the other in the relationship needs to be there no matter what. I am here for the good and the bad." Dewayne walked upstairs to the room. He walked in to find Jacob sound asleep. Dewayne walked over to the bed and noticed that Jacob didn't get much further than taking off his right shoe when he reached the bed. He fell on the bed with one shoe off and the other one halfway off. Dewayne finished taking off Jacob's other shoe. He picked him up and pulled the covers back. Gently putting Jacob back on the bed, Dewayne started to take off Jacob's clothes. He took off Jacob's jeans first. Dewayne then pulled Jacob up in order to take off his shirt. Jacob started to talk in his sleep. "Please don't leave... Please, I promise not to get sick... Don't leave me Dewayne..." Dwayne gently laid Jacob back down. He kissed Jacob on the forehead. "I am not going anywhere Jacob. You are stuck with me no matter what happens." Before Dewayne got undressed for bed, he hooked up the dialysis machine. Once he saw everything is working correctly, Dewayne got undressed. He walked around the bed and crawled in. Pulling the covers over him and Jacob, he pulled Jacob up to him. Hearing Jacob's heartbeat, Dewayne went to sleep. The next couple of days, Jacob hung around the house. Although Dewayne had to go to work, he didn't want to. Reluctantly Dewayne walked out every day and didn't stop thinking about Jacob all day. The minute he got home, he didn't want to leave Jacob's side no matter how many times Jacob told him that he is okay. By Thursday, Jacob got used to using the dialysis machine. The only time he is connected to the machine for a long period of time is when he is sleeping. Other than that, Jacob only has to use the machine midday and in the evening, an hour at a time. As soon as Dewayne got home on Thursday, Jacob asked him to take a quick shower. He explained to Dewayne that he wants to go out to dinner with him. Just him and no one else! After dinner, Jacob continuing to explain that maybe they will take in a movie. Jacob felt like his normal self finally. He isn't tired, dizzy or confused anymore. Jacob also doesn't feel in the dumps anymore. Jacob finally has energy that he is not forcing himself to keep going. All through dinner, Jacob and Dewayne talked about themselves. They told each other stuff that they have not told each other yet. Nothing that they said made the other think any differently of the other. In fact they are taking it all in. When they got to the theatre, they didn't hide the fact that they are together as more than friends. They kissed each other while in line to buy their tickets and again in the snack line. All through the movie, they held hands and kissed each other when ever they felt the urge to do so. No one said anything or gave ugly looks to them. Instead of joining the others in the TV room when they got home, they went upstairs to their room. They walked over to the bed and sat down. Jacob and Dewayne grabbed each others hand at the same time. Jacob looked over to Dewayne trying to read him. He finally gave up and just spoke. "Dewayne, I am ready to move on with more than just kissing. I really want to make love with you tonight. I have wanted to for weeks now! You make me feel things that I thought I'd lost as the holidays began. You brought those feelings back." Trying to figure out what to say, Dewayne just sat there looking at Jacob. Jacob made the first move as he started to unbutton Dewayne's shirt. He pulled Dewayne's shirt off and threw it on the floor near the bed. Jacob leaned into Dewayne's chest. He gently started kissing Dewayne's right nipple, and then moved to the left one. Jacob's not sucking on them, but he is putting Dewayne's nipples between his teeth. After a few minutes of playing with Dewayne's chest, Jacob moved down to Dewayne's six pack and then to his belly button. As Jacob stuck his tongue in and out of Dewayne's belly button, Dewayne started to moan. Dewayne grabbed a hold of the back of Jacob's head and started running his fingers through Jacob's hair. Dewayne pulled Jacob up to him just as Jacob started to undo his belt. He kissed Jacob a couple times on the lips before he flipped Jacob on his back on the bed. No really knowing what to do, Dewayne pushed up Jacob's shirt and t-shirt where he could try and mimic what Jacob just did to him. Dewayne stumbled around a couple of times as he sucked on Jacob's nipple and he accidently bit to hard! Jacob didn't say a word, he figured that Dewayne is nervous and will unwind. Just like Dewayne, Jacob pulled Dewayne up to him as Dewayne started to undo his pants. He placed his hands on each side of Dewayne's face. He pulled Dewayne down to kiss him a couple of time. After the third time, Jacob held Dewayne's face above his. "You are so damn hot, I can barely hold back. Don't be nervous. Just relax and go with the flow. I am no expert on love making and trust me when I say that. We are going to learn how to make love to one another at the same time," Jacob told Dewayne reassuring him. Jacob didn't wait for Dewayne to answer. He pulled Dewayne back down into a kiss. As they kissed, Jacob fumbled around to get Dewayne's belt undone. Once he got the belt undone, Jacob unbuttoned Dewayne's pants and unzipped the zipper. Dewayne stood up and let his pants fall to his ankles. He kicked his pants off as Jacob got up to pull down his underwear. Just like his pants, Dewayne's underwear fell to his ankles and he kicked them off. Jacob grabbed a hold of Dewayne's dick for the first time since they have been together. They have seen each others dicks, even hard, but they have never had each others dick in their hands in the mode of making love. Not even thinking about it, Jacob started to lick around the tip of Dewayne's dick tasting Dewayne's pre-cum for the first time! It is different than Joey's. It is more sweet than salty, where Joey's was the opposite. Jacob actually likes the taste of Dewayne's per-cum. He wanted more of Dewayne's pre-cum, he wants as much as Dewayne can give. So Jacob put Dewayne's dick into his mouth. Slowly he took Dewayne's dick into his mouth until Jacob's nose reached Dewayne's pubic hairs. With Dewayne's entire dick in his mouth, Jacob looked up to Dewayne's face. He sees that Dewayne has his eyes closed and is playing with his chest. Jacob moved his hands up to Dewayne's chest and moved Dewayne's hands. Jacob started to suck on Dewayne's dick as he rolled Dewayne's nipples in his hands causing Dewayne to start moaning and pulling on Jacob's hair! All of a sudden Dewayne wrapped his hands around the back of Jacob's head. He wanted to get control of the speed that Jacob is sucking, but Jacob didn't let him. Dewayne started to moan even louder. He pushed Jacob down onto the bed. He looked down at him and smiled. "I have never felt this way before! I never knew that I could feel this way! All these emotions, man o man, all I can say is WOW! Jacob pulled Dewayne into him. They started kissing when the door opened and David and Tom walked in. Jacob and Dewayne looked over at the door and smiled. Immediately, Tom and David turned right around and left the room after seeing what they just walked into. As they shut the door, they both muttered. "We are sorry, that will not happen again!" Dewayne looked down at Jacob and started laughing. Jacob started laughing at not being walked in on, but the looks on their faces. They didn't let that stop them. Dewayne went back to work on Jacob's neck, moving to his chest and then his stomach. This time Dewayne didn't struggle with Jacob's belt or pants. He got them both undone and got up. Dewayne reached down and grabbed Jacob's pants and underwear. He pulled them both off at the same time. Falling to his knees between Jacob's legs, Dewayne grabbed a hold of Jacob's cock. He licked Jacob's tip, and then, without hesitation, put Jacob's entire dick into his mouth all at once. Dewayne actually choked and had to pull off Jacob's dick. Once again, Jacob couldn't help but laugh. He isn't laughing at Dewayne, but the fact that Dewayne thought that he could take Jacob's entire dick in all at once for the first time. Jacob stopped laughing as he got up and kissed Dewayne on the lips. "Take your time, there is no way my dick is going to get soft with you at my side. I have struggled since I met you to keep my dick down. At times I had to put something in front of me so people wouldn't know that I had a hard on." Dewayne smiled up at Jacob with his beautiful white teeth, holding Jacob's dick in his hand. He went down again on Jacob, but this time he licked the head a little longer. He moved down and started to lick the sides of Jacob's dick. Dewayne going over the head of his dick causes Jacob to shiver and moan. Jacob started to get close, so he pulled Dewayne up. They both got on the bed in the sixty nine position. Once in position they picked up each others dick and put the hot throbbing members in their mouths. Starting slowly and then gaining speed, they got into the same rhythm. Dewayne not being that really experienced at this didn't see the signs that Jacob is getting close. He kept sucking on Jacob's dick, and before they knew it Jacob started shooting into Dewayne's mouth. At first Dewayne pulled away from Jacob, but realizing what is going on. He tried to swallow as much of Jacob's cum as possible. With cum hitting the back of Dewayne's throat, he started to shoot into Jacob's mouth. Both boys laid there on the bed swallowing each others' cum as the other shoots it in their mouths. Jacob can't believe the amount of cum that Dewayne is shooting. He also can't believe how Dewayne's cum tastes. It tastes even sweeter then his pre-cum. Dewayne has never tasted cum before, even his own but he loves the taste of Jacob's cum. Just like Jacob, he wants it all. Both of the boys kept sucking until there is nothing more coming out of the other. Once they sucked each other dry, they let each others dicks slip out of their mouths. Dewayne started to lick up cum that leaked out of his mouth. Jacob didn't have any cum to lick up because he actually got it all down his throat. Once Dewayne cleaned up all cum off of Jacob, He moved around to where he is facing Jacob. "I love you so much Jacob, words can't begin to explain the love I feel for you. I know we have been together for only a short period of time, but what I feel for you has grown since second we met. You make me feel like a king. I can only hope that I make you feel the same way." Brushing Dewayne's hair out of his face, Jacob looked into Dewayne's eyes. "You have shown me there is something more out there than just me and Joey. I thought when he left me my life was over. Now I have a new life; a better life with you in it. You make me feel like a king. I don't care about the length of time we have been together. I love you so much, and I can't be without you anymore. I never thought I could love this way again. You have proven me wrong." At the same time, they leaned in to kiss each other. In return they hit each other in the head. They rubbed their foreheads laughing at what happened. Jacob then leaned, Dewayne stayed still until their lips touched. Not fighting each other, Dewayne let Jacob's tongue to enter his mouth. They broke the kiss and laid there starring at each other. They started playing with the others hair as they looked deep into the others eyes. It is as if they are becoming one at the very moment. They are looking deep into each others soul. The got brought out of the trance when they heard a knock o the door. Whoever is knocking, they aren't coming in. Dewayne and Jacob quickly got under the blankets before calling out to whoever is at the door to come in. This time it is not Tom or David, it is Andy Jr. He walked over to the bed and sat down on the edge of it. "Little bro, I wish I could stay, but I can't. I have to go in and report for duty tomorrow morning. I would love it if you would take me. Out of all of my family, I am going to miss you the most. You are always going to be on mind little bro." Jacob got all choked up nodded his head before he could speak. "I really wish that you could stay and not go. Again I do understand why you decided to go into the Army. I just wish you didn't. We are getting along and I don't know what I would do if I would lose you, Andy." "What you can do is not think that way. I am coming home as soon as I can. Right now we are not at war. This is a safe time to go into the military. With you and this family praying for me, I will be safe no matter what." Jacob starting to tear up, Andy leaned in to hug his little brother. "You take care of my little brother Dewayne. You need to be as strong as he is. Jacob doesn't need another Joey in his life. He needs a strong guy that has as much of a back bone as my little brother has. He means too much to all of us." Dewayne nodded his head in agreement with Andy. Andy pulled Jacob away from him. "You do what you need to do to get healthy again. Don't make me come back here and pull you into the hospital. You need to outlive all of us and continue making this world is a better place to live in. That big heart of yours is contagious." Andy got up and walked back to the door. He turned as he shut the door. "Be ready at five in the morning to take me. Oh by the way, this room smells like you guys just had sex. Good for you guys! At least someone is getting some!" Andy gave Jacob the thumbs up as he closed the door. Jacob looked at Dewayne. For the second time tonight they have gotten caught having sex. They just broke into laughter over what Andy just said. Jacob got out of bed and ran over to the door with his dick flopping in the air. He locked the door and turned around. He started running back to the bed and jumped on top of Dewayne before he could get up. They started to wrestle with each other. Jacob would pin Dewayne and some how Dewayne would get out of the pin and pin Jacob. This went back and forth for a while, until Jacob got loose and jumped out of the bed. He ran into the closet and then into the bathroom. Dewayne ran after Jacob as they ran around the room. Jacob tried at every corner to ditch Dewayne, but Dewayne caught him. Finally they ended up in the bathroom with their arms around each other kissing. They took a shower together and went to bed naked. Jacob hasn't slept in the nude since Dewayne started sleeping over. For Dewayne, he has never slept in the nude, but he likes the free-ball feeling! Dewayne jolted up awake a little after midnight. He looked over to Jacob and noticed he is breathing hard. He jumped out of bed and quickly turned on the dialysis machine. After connecting Jacob to the dialysis machine, Dewayne laid back down in bed. He didn't fall to sleep until he heard Jacob's breathing turning back to normal. Once that happened, he pulled Jacob up to him. Wrapping his arms around him, Dewayne laid his head next to Jacob's and fell to sleep. The alarm went off at four thirty, causing Jacob and Dewayne to jump out of bed. Not used to getting up this early, Jacob slammed his hand on the alarm to turn it off. As he pulled himself out of bed, he pulled Dewayne with him. Barely awake and after disconnecting the machine they walked into their bathroom, rinsed their faces, brushed their teeth and hair and then went into the closet to grab their clothes. After getting dressed, Jacob and Dewayne went downstairs to meet Andy and whoever else is going to see him off. As they reached the bottom stair, Jacob noticed everyone waiting on him and Dewayne. Even Gloria and Andy Sr. stayed over to be there to see Andy Jr. off. Jacob just waved his hand at everyone, and walked out to the truck. Gloria, Andy Sr., Marie and Jeremy got into Gloria's car. Everyone else jumped into the truck with Jacob except Toni, Alex, Alex's brothers, Franseca and Matt. They rode with Al and Jacob's grandmother. All the way to Fort Bliss, Andy kept teasing Jacob and Dewayne about what he walked in on last night. After a few minutes of getting teased by Andy, Tom and David finally jumped in. Jacob and Dewayne wondered when they are going to jump in. They are surprised that they were able to keep their mouths closed as long as they did. "At least when you walked in Andy, they were covered. David and I walked in with Dewayne's butt starring right at us." Tom patting Dewayne on the shoulders: "By the way, you have a nice ass. I see why Jacob loves your body so much. When he first saw you, he couldn't stop talking about how hot you are." Jacob turned all shades of red when Tom said that. Dewayne leaned in and kissed Jacob on the cheek. He got on his knees on the seat and pointed his butt at Andy, Tom and David. He started wiggling and slapping his butt. "This butt here belongs to only one person and one person only. That person is the guy I love and is driving us. So take a good look at it and this is the closet you are going to get to it. So take a long hard look at this nice piece of ass." Everyone started laughing at Dewayne. Tom, David and Andy actually started slapping Dewayne's butt. Dewayne sat back down in his seat. He pulled Jacob's face over to him and kissed him again on the cheek. Where Andy needed to report at isn't on the base. It is connected to the base, but the entrance is off of Airport Road. They didn't have to drive on the base to drop Andy off. Jacob, Al and Gloria pulled in to the parking lot. As soon as they parked, everyone got out of the vehicles they drove in. Al pulled down Andy's bag and walked with him and the others to the front entrance of the building. This is as far as they could go. Everyone took turns saying their good byes and wishing Andy good luck before heading back to the truck. The last ones to say their goodbyes to Andy are his immediate family. Andy Sr. went first. "I know I wasn't around when you grew up son and I have regretted that all my life. There is nothing I can do to make up for that. I am very proud of you Andy and no matter what you do, I will always be proud of you. You are making my name good again and thank you for that." Andy Sr. grabbed hold of Andy Jr. and hugged him. Andy Jr. kept his composure as he hugged his father. Andy Sr. let go and walked back over to the vehicles. Gloria walked up to her son and grabbed hold of him. "You are all grown up and a man now. All the good in you isn't because of me. You some how learned to be who you are and I am proud of you Andy, so proud of you. I am so sorry for not being a good mother to you. I love you Andy and I want you to come home as soon as you can." Gloria hugged Andy and then kissed him on the forehead. "You did what you could mom. I didn't make it easy for you. Getting involved with drugs and drinking all the time. You did what you could and I love you so much for that." Gloria walked back to her car with tears rolling down her cheeks. Andy Sr. grabbed hold of her and held her. Al walked up to Andy with Virginia at his side. He looked into Andy's eyes. Al sees a man that fought to get out. "You are my second oldest grandson and the first to really leave the nest. You did well with what you had and I am proud of you. Go and do what you need to do to get rid of the demons that you are fighting inside. Come back to us as soon as possible. We will keep the porch light on and a plate on the table for you." Al and Virginia both hugged their grandson. As they broke the hug, Al pulled out an envelope from his pants pocket and handed it to Andy. "This is to keep you going until you get your first pay check. Call us if you need anything else." Andy took the envelope as he nodded his head. Andy walked over to Jeremy and hugged him. Jeremy had no idea what is going on. He handed Andy his favorite coloring book and ran to the car with Al. Andy took the coloring book and walked over to his sister Marie. "I don't know what to say. I love you and I don't want you to go Andy." Marie started crying as Andy grabbed her into a hug. "I will be okay Marie, I will be okay. Look at the shit I did as I grew up and I am still here. There is nothing that the Army can throw at me that life hasn't yet. You take care and get with that nice boy Greg. You two are great together." Marie broke the hug and kissed Andy on the forehead before leaving. Andy walked over to Jacob and Dewayne. Jacob went to open his mouth, but Andy put his finger over it. He turned to look at Dewayne. "I meant what I said last night; all kidding aside. Jacob means too much to this family. He is the heart of this family. If he every goes, this family will go with him. He listens to you. Please take care of my little brother." Andy walked over to Dewayne and hugged his brother-in-law. In his eyes he sees Dewayne as his brother-in-law. Dwayne promised Andy that he will take care of Jacob and walked back to the truck. Leaving just Andy and Jacob standing there. "You listen to me Jacob and listen well. I haven't been a good brother and I am going to make up for that starting now. You will do whatever it takes to get well. Stop being a kid, you are no longer one. You will stay healthy and take care of yourself. I will not come back here under a dark cloud, you hear me Jacob?" "I promise to take care of myself Andy, I just..." "Listen, I don't have that much time and a lot to tell you. Dewayne is a keeper and you stay with him. He is not going anywhere like Joey did to you. Don't you ever go and speak with that kid again without someone with you." Jacob's jaw dropped to the ground. "Yeah I heard you and followed you. It took everything in me from getting out of the car and beating the shit out of the son-of-bitch. When he grabbed your door, I was out of my car. You don't do that again. I love you Jacob, I really do. I am so sorry what Normal and her brothers put you through. I will never forgive myself for that. That will never happen again, because I am going to be your older brother and protect you like I should have all the way along." They hugged each other. Andy and Jacob broke down and started crying as they hugged each other. As they broke the hug, Jacob pulled an envelope out of his pocket like Al. He handed it to Andy with tears rolling down his cheek. "You never asked for anything from me and I know you will never ask. Just like grandpa, this is a little something to keep you going until you get paid. If you need anything, just pick up the phone. We are all here for you, even if you just need to talk. I love you Andy and come home as soon as you can." The brothers hugged one more time. Andy broke the hug, grabbed his bag and walked in. He couldn't look back, because if he did there is no way he will get on the bus to basic training. He walked in trying to keep the tears in, but he failed. Jacob walked back to the others. They actually stood at there in the parking lot until they saw the bus leave. They waved at Andy as he waved out the window to them. Once the bus carrying Andy drove away, everyone got back in the vehicles and drove back home. After getting a couple hours of sleep, Jacob got back out of bed and headed down to speak with his grandfather. He is hoping that his grandfather hasn't gone into work yet. Jacob found his grandfather in the kitchen having his morning coffee. He sat down at the table with him and looked at him. Al put down the newspaper and looked at Jacob. He can see that there is something on his mind, but what it is, he doesn't know. One thing is for sure, Jacob is looking a lot better. The black around his eyes is finally gone and color has returned to his face. "What is going on Jacob? You look like you are about to drop a bomb on me. Let me have it. There's nothing more you can say that will stun me." "Where are my mom and dad at right now?" "They are downstairs in the apartment asleep. I put them there since Dewayne isn't sleeping down there anyway. If Dewayne isn't going to sleep down there, he should move all his stuff into your room since he is sleeping there anyway." Jacob couldn't help but smile at his grandfather. "That is kind of what I want to talk with you about. Please don't get mad with me over the first thing I am going to tell you. Andy already let me have it and I plan not to do it again." Al just looked at Jacob wit a confused look on his face at first. He then promised Jacob that he will not get angry with him. Jacob told his grandfather about the meeting he had with Joey a couple of days ago. As Jacob told Al what they talked about, you can see the steam coming out of Al's ears. "Look I am glad you spoke with him. That way you can make peace with that situation and move on. He did a lot for you and I know that's why you had a hard time moving on. Now I hope you can move on and leave that in the past." "I can grandpa that is what I needed. I needed to see him face to face and say my peace that I didn't say the day he left. Now that brings me to why I need to talk with you. I want everything about Joey and my past in the past. I can't step foot in the house that we gave my mother. There are way too many memories in that house. The biggest memory is that house belonged to Joey's family, not mine. This house I bought with my own money, and yes we lived in it together as a couple, but I bought it. Joey gave me that house to pay for his part of this house. He has no plans to move back to El Paso by the way he sounded when we talked the other day. I want to sell that house and buy another house for my mother. I saw the house next to Franseca's is for sale. In fact there are several houses on this block and the other blocks for sale or in foreclosure." "Yeah, the economy is in a down turn right now. It does this every decade or so. People get into bills that they can't afford. This is not the time to be selling a house because you won't get it sold without losing your ass. There are way too many houses on the market already and prices are way down. You probably could get the house next to Franseca at a fraction of the price right now. You probably pay for that house around the amount you paid for your truck. The banks just want to get the bad debt off their books as quickly as possible if it's a foreclosure. At the same time, you will probably not get what you want for the house that Gloria lives in. This market works for those that can afford to buy, but not for those that want to sell. You need to hold onto the Gloria's house for now Jacob." "So you are telling me that it is not a good idea to sell or move mom out? Grandpa I want to get rid of everything that reminds me of Joey. That house is a big reminder of him. I am ready finally to move on grandpa." "You are getting what I am saying all wrong. On Monday we can go and see what they want for the house next to Franseca. We will bring them down as far as we can. If we both agree it is a good price, then we will buy it." "Here is where I need your help grandpa. The house next to Franseca is in foreclosure, so the bank put it in the city auction. That auction is going to happen on Monday and it is open to the public. I have to go back to school on Monday, so I will need you to go down and bid on the house." "Even better Jacob! You are getting very smart, maybe too smart for your own good. Having a chance to buy the house at the auction will ensure that we get the lowest price for the house. I planned to go to the auction on Monday anyways for some land I am interested in. I will buy that land and the house. We can write it off as a business expense, that way we don't really pay much for that house when it comes down to it." Jacob spoke a little longer with his grandfather about it. They stopped talking about it when Gloria and Andy walked into the kitchen. Gloria kissed her father and Jacob good morning as she headed to get her and Andy coffee. As the others started to wake up, Franseca and Gloria started cooking breakfast. It seems that Franseca and Gloria are getting a long really well ever since their fight in the pool. They aired out their indifferences and are now moving on. After breakfast, Jacob and the others guys went down to the game room. They started making plans for what to do for the day. Eventually they all agreed to go down to Western Play Land. They all got dressed and headed out the door. Franseca stopped Alex to give him money, but Jacob jumped in. He explained to her that he has it and not to worry. Still Franseca insisted to give Alex some money so he can pay for their lunch at least. Jacob didn't fight Franseca, he walked away. Alex took the money and followed Jacob to the truck. As they drove down to Western Play Land, they talked about going back to school on Monday. Each of them agrees on how they wish they could have another week. After Jacob paid for the arm band to ride all the rides all day long as much as they want everyone got into their little groups and headed off. Jacob and Dewayne went on every ride together except any ride that went into the air. Jacob is afraid of heights and will not get on a ride that leaves the ground. No matter how much Dewayne asked him to get on those rides, Jacob refused. Jacob finally gave in and told Dewayne he should hang with Tom and David when he wants to ride on those rides. He will watch from the ground as he rides them. Reluctantly, Dewayne agreed with Jacob and joined Tom and David in line. As Dewayne rode the rides with Tom and David, Jacob walked around the grounds. He got into his own little world thinking about everything that has happened to him during the holidays. One thing Jacob knows for sure is that his life keeps changing. He keeps loosing those he cares about. No matter what he tries to do, he can't escape from the black hole of his sickness. Every time he turns around, there is a surprise around the corner for Jacob. Jacob sat down on a bench and put his head into his hands. He just sat there in the cold on the bench going over everything in his mind. He looked up to see Dewayne walking over to him. He made a promise to himself right there and then. He is going to do whatever it takes to be with Dewayne for the rest of his life. This is one thing he doesn't want to change in his life anymore, his boyfriend. It hurt too much the first time. TO BE CONTINUED... WRITER'S CORNER: {Ok this chapter has a lot of emotional plots in it. It went through almost a week of Jacob's life. We saw Jacob in this chapter go through a lot of ups and downs. There are a few people constant in Jacob's life right now, Dewayne and his grandfather. Also his friends have been there. I know that I promised you readers that I wasn't going to do anything else to Jacob. What I did to Jacob as far as his kidneys happened to me later in life. Dialysis kick started my kidneys, but I don't know if I will have my character be that lucky. To this day I still have problems with my kidneys. It's something I know I will never get rid of. As far as Jacob in the story, his family and friends are there for him. That is what you need to get through bad patched in your life. Just like I said above, I wonder what is going to happen with Jacob though. Will I let him follow in my real life foot steps? Or will he end up in the hospital for a transplant? Jacob and Dewayne took the next step in their relationship. Although it wasn't a full blown out sex scene, they did take the next step. I know when I dated seriously, the first couple of times were not a full blown out sex. I plan to do that in this story as well. Andy left to basic training in this chapter. It was a tearful goodbye for Andy and everyone in his family. They all want Andy back in one piece. Right now I have no plans but to bring him back in one piece. Andy is not going anywhere. He is going to be here to stay. The question though is if Andy is going to get what he wants, a peaceful time in the military. The first Gulf War has already ended, but who knows what's next. Gloria seems to be coming around finally. At least she knows that see can't push Dewayne around like she did to Joey. Dewayne will put her in her place if she tries. She actually seems to love that about him. I think if Joey had more of a backbone with her, maybe she would have respected Joey a little more. Jacob is cutting all ties of the past dealing with Joey. He wants to sell the house that Joey was given to him from his aunt and uncle. Do you guys think honestly that Jacob is going to sell the house? Or do you think he is going to move out his mother form that house and just board it up for Joey? Jacob might want to get far away from Joey and that past, but he has a heart at the same time. What is this land that Al is talking about that he wants to buy? I think Al has plans to do more than just owning restaurants. He sees something that others are not seeing. Remember that Al is a very smart man. He knows how to make money. The guys are about to go back to school. The old plots that got left off when they went to Christmas break will return. ROTC, Loraine, school and everything between is about to come flooding back. Let's see how Jacob and the guys handle that. We also have Toni plot as far as if Al gets guardianship over him. Andy Sr.; what is going on there with him and Gloria? It is looking more and more like they are getting back together. Or are our eyes playing tricks on us? McDonalds and everything going on in the McDonald's is still out there that needs a conclusion. As always I can go on and on about the open plots in the story! If I do that, I can actually write several more chapters. There are so many plots that can take a turn at anytime. You might think it is going to go one way, but is ends up going another. Don't miss out on anything, or you will be kicking yourself for it. I keep saying over and over again don't forget about Chase. He will be spending time between two of my stories. I am giving that away, but look for him in "Beneath the Mask". He is going to come back fully and what is happening in his life will stun you. There is a so much to answer in the chapters to come. Stick around and keep reading the future chapters, and enjoy! Please email me and let me know how I am doing at jacobmillertex@aol.com, Thanks!} EDITOR'S CORNER: I know the family was dead set against Andy Jr. going into the military. He's smart doing so. It's going to give him what he needs in his life to grow into his full potential. The experience and education Andy Jr. needs can't be gotten in school. He's going to be just fine and is going to excel in the service is my guess. Look at the great leaders that came up through the ranks of the military in the past. Andy Jr. could be one in the bud. Dewayne is solid and every bit Jacob's equal. They deserve each other and being together is going to enhance both their lives and bring them both happiness. I disagree with Jacob on Gloria's past with Joey. Even if Joey had backbone, she wasn't ready to see it let alone respect it. Yes, Joey was spineless, but when Gloria dealt with Joey, she was in a nearly blind rage over Jacob's sexuality. It took Andy Sr. to start her on the path of enlightenment and tolerance. Jacob needs to fine a property management company and have them manage the house that was Joey's. Let them lease it out and maintain it. The market isn't right for a sale, so leasing it is the best way to go. It also means Jacob has no hands-on responsibility. It's just an asset on his books; nothing more. Then, later, when conditions are right, the house can be sold. Another creative way the house could be sold is on a lease-option-to-buy. That could give some person or couple a leg up as they get started in life and beginning to paying for a home before they might otherwise be able to qualify for a mortgage. Jacob's kidney problems aren't a huge concern for me. Kidney problems are readily fixable. What concerns me is Jacob's hardheaded views about the hospital. Most problems in Jake's life he confronts head-on. His health is just the opposite. He buries his head in the sand. Dewayne and Al won't let him; of that I'm certain. Let us keep hearing from you with your thoughts, reactions and ideas. Both Jacob and I relish the e-mails. Remember, flames will be ignored. That's why there's that little red "X" in the upper right hand corner of the screen ! Until next time, "Daddy" Rick