Date: Thu, 1 Oct 2015 17:30:44 -0700 From: kuragari 129 Subject: Life's Little Lies - Chapter 30 "Life's Little Lies" belongs to the pen name Kuragari129. Posting this on another site must be done with the permission of the author. Even though some events and characters in this story are from my memory, this is a work of fiction. Any similarities to real life events have been altered to keep the actual names private or are completely fictional in every aspect of the word. If you are not the legal age in your area to view this, then please leave now. This story holds sex between two males and your delicate minds might not be able to handle it. (Without jacking off of course.) If you like Nifty and want it to continue running and posting stories then Donate to this lovely site that lets you view 4.6 Gigs, and increasing, of stories for free. Go to http://donate.nifty.org/donate.html and donate today!! Lastly, my contact info for any questions/comments/concerns is as follows: Email: kuragari129@hotmail.com. Facebook: www.facebook.com/LifesExpectations Twitter: https://twitter.com/Kuragari129 Ask.fm: ask.fm/kuragari Thank you for choosing to read my story. LLL is a sequel story to Life's Expectations, but I will attempt to make it as good of a standalone story as I can. I also have other stories that I have completed or are being worked on. For a full list of stories on Nifty just follow the link below! www.nifty.org/nifty/authors.html#kuragari Thank you for reading LLL, and I hope you enjoy this story! LLL – Chapter 30 – Rejected – Bring Me Some Water Lucas Bear's POV Why, why, why, why, why!? Why did this happen? How did this happen? I'm so fucking dumb. Fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck!! Okay, so for your information, I'm in Shyla's bed, naked. She's naked... we did the obvious here, and I'm very confused right now. See in the beginning it was Shyla. No doubt it was Shyla. But 'it' wasn't responding properly? Anyways, so after a few minutes I imagined Nick below me... and that set me into overdrive. I was as horny as I have ever been having sex, with just the thought of it being Nick... I don't know how that happened. As it was out of nowhere that I thought of him below me... it worked for Shyla though... I guess. "What's wrong Lucas?" Shyla snuggled into me. She snapped me out of my trance. "Nothing, I'm fine, just tired." I lied to her. "Then go to sleep silly." She closed her eyes and in just a few minutes fell asleep. I spent most of the night just thinking about what happened. I couldn't figure it out... why can't I have sex without thinking of Nick? I just... I just need these feelings to disappear. The next day I had an appointment with my dad. For part of it I was talking to the counselor by myself. "So tell me about your relationship with your father." Where do I start with that one? "I don't know where to begin..." I was honest with him. He nodded. "Okay, your father has said this was your mother's idea... Why do you think that is?" "Because my dad doesn't approve of things I've done." "Can you give me some examples Lucas?" I shrugged, leaning in my seat. "I don't know... He wasn't happy about me dating Nick..." "Who is Nick?" "My ex-boyfriend." "So you're gay?" I shook my head. "What is your sexuality, Lucas?" What is the answer to that question really? I can't have sex with a girl without thinking of Nick... But couldn't that be that I'm not over him completely yet? Ya, that's got to be it. "Lucas, tell me what you're thinking... Maybe I can help." His smile... it was so friendly and nonjudgmental. I couldn't help but tell him everything. "Don't tell my dad, but I had sex last night with a girl. But it couldn't... well you know and I ended up thinking about Nick and the rest is history." Why is it easier to tell adults who aren't your parents about your sex life? "I'm just confused..." "What does your dad think of you being interested in males?" I shook my head. "I'm not interested in them. I'm straight." The therapist smiled. "Is that you, or your mask talking?" I raised my eyebrows in confusion. "The entire time you've been here I can see that you're fighting something back. It could be the fact you are into this boy Nick, whom you've dated. I'm going to take a wild guess and say your father didn't approve of you and Nick. "You're trying hard to become what your father wants you to be, and not who you want to be. Hiding your true feelings, Lucas, is not only bad for you emotionally, but it affects your health as a whole. I would look hard at this, do you want to be what your father wishes you would be? Or do you want to be the person you are on the inside?" That was when his alarm went off. "It's time for me to talk with your father. Think about those questions, okay Lucas?" "Ya... I will." I got up and went out into the waiting room. "Your turn," I told my dad as I sat down. "How'd it go?" My dad asked as he passed. "Good." I grabbed my iPod and placed my headphones in my ears. To be true to myself... or be who my dad wishes me to be. Those are my choices... Mom and Blake are obviously on the side 'be true to myself'... Where do I stand, though? Antoine Rieu's POV "No, that's not fair!!" I was close to tears. I'll take you back a few minutes when my parents called me to the living room. I got up from my room, and there were mom and dad, sitting in 'talking mode'. I don't know what's happening right now, but I don't like it. So the entire conversation was in French, so I'll just tell you it in English. "Ya, what's up?" "Sit down Antoine." Mom spoke. I sat down on the couch and waited for the worst. "It's about Isaac." Why can my mom say his name fine but I can't? "What about Izzy?" "We don't want you dating him, son," Dad spoke sternly. I got up from my seat immediately. "What!? No, that's not fair!!" "Antoine calm down." Mom spoke softly. "No, I care about him, you can't just tell me to break up with him." "Antoine." Dad gave off a threatening tone. I sat down and listened to what they had to say. "Isaac has a reputation doesn't he?" Seriously, where did I get the ability not to say his name? "I know... but it's not what you think..." Dad interrupted me. "No, listen for a second. I don't want you around those types of people Antoine." "What kind of people?" I asked him. "What do you know about Izzy!?" "That he has cuts on his wrist..." Mom spoke softly. I kicked the table in front of me. "Antoine!" "Well, he doesn't!" I was furious. My parents found out the worst rumor there is about Izzy, and they are trying to use it to make me break up with him. "He was attacked by a dog when he was little. He has bite marks on his arms. Izzy doesn't like showing them and is deathly afraid of dogs because of it! "He doesn't like showing his scars, so he wears stuff to cover them. It's not scars from cutting himself; it's just dog bites. I've seen them; I wouldn't want people to see them either. His parents can't afford to get the surgery to get rid of them, so he has to live with them. "So don't tell me who I can and can't date. I get it; you're trying to help me follow the right path in life... but let me explore and make mistakes. How else am I going to learn?" I got passionate about this really fast. The look on my parent's faces told me everything. They had no idea that I would react this way or the truth behind him covering his arms. I felt bad for yelling at them, but I can't just let them talk bad about Izzy. "I'm sorry Antoine." Mom spoke softly. "We're just not sure how to handle you being gay... We just want what's best for you." "I know mom... Just treat me like you always have. Let me make mistakes and learn from them. Be the shoulders I come to cry on when I'm down. Just... talk to me when it comes to issues like this. Don't just tell me not to do it; it makes me want to do it even more." Dad grinned. "Don't do your homework." I rolled my eyes. "Seriously though Antoine, just... just be careful okay?" I could see dad didn't want me with Izzy, but he was accepting that I wanted him. Izzy is my first boyfriend, who knows if it'll last. I just want to figure stuff out for myself. When I made my way back downstairs, Mattieu was just coming out of the shower. "What was that about?" He looked a lot better than before we spoke. "Mom and dad concerned about Izzy. You look a lot better." "Thanks, bro." he ruffled my hair as he passed by. His eyes don't look as guilty anymore... it's a good thing, I guess. He's the one that mom and dad should be worrying over, not me. Tyson Jackson's POV It was a fine time camping. I mean when it starts off with telling your dad you are into guys... and he's okay with it? This is like the best thing that could ever happen to me, ever! Dad told mom, of course, and she told me that if I need anything she'll always be there and all that jazz but ya. Besides that, the trip has been awesome. The lake nearby was nice to swim in. Nikolai and I spent most our time in the water or wondering around in the trees. We would never be out of range of our walkie talkies. Every night at bedtime, well... kind of bedtime, Nikolai would always go to bed first. When I would get to the tent, he would be laying down, 75% of his body out from under the covers. Every time the only this he's wearing in his briefs, and it makes going to bed really hard! In both the literal and metaphorical sense. Right now, we were right in the middle of wondering around on the trails, taking in all the different wildlife, a wild mouse jumped out of the bushes and scared Nikolai. "Gahhh!" Nikolai flipped out, running behind me. "It's just a wild mouse..." "That came out of nowhere! It could have been a bear!" I laughed at him. "Oh shut up, or next time it will be a bear." I couldn't stop laughing. "You're silly Nikolai." He smacked my back. "And you're mean," he whined. I couldn't help but giggle before skipping off. "Where are you going now?" "On an adventure!!" I yelled back as I continued down the path. It ended up leading just around to the road again, but it was neat seeing all the different paths to take around the park. Eventually, it was time to return to the campsites and have dinner. Dad and Travis were comparing notes on their experience. Our moms were chatting by the fire, and Nikolai's little sister was playing with her friend she took with her. "Welcome back boys!" Dad spoke loudly. "Can you come here a second?" "We were wondering if you two would do us a favor." Travis looked at us directly in the eyes. "Since we are doing reports, we thought reports from a youth's perspective would be useful too." Nikolai finished what Travis was trying to say. "You want both of us to make our own report on the place." "Exactly." I shrugged. "I could do that." Looking over at Nikolai, he shrugged too. "Sure, why not." "Thanks, boys." Dad got up from his seat. "I should probably start dinner now." "Ya dad, we got back in time for dinner, and it's not even done yet?" I smirked as he smacked me on the back of the head. "Need any help?" "I would gladly accept some help." Dad and I on dinner duty tonight! Should be good! Dad and I made an excellent dinner! According to everyone at least, we made just burgers over the fire. It was fun, learning how to cook over an open fire. It wasn't long after dinner that my exhaustion got the better of me. It was sudden, but I felt extremely tired and so ready for bed. I let out a big yawn and rubbed my eyes. "Getting tired Tyson?" Nikolai's mom asked me. I nodded. "Why don't you go to bed, we can walk you to the tent." I yawned again. "Okay..." I got up and said goodnight to my parents. Nikolai joined us on the way to the tent. "Goodnight," I said as Nikolai's family continued their way to their site. When we got in our tent, Nikolai was quick to drop down to his briefs and under his blankets. I sat there kind of embarrassed of the sight I just seen. I think Nikolai picked up on this. "Does it bother you that I sleep in my underwear?" I shrugged. "Not really, I just found it weird that you just dropped your pants like no one was around." I could feel myself blushing so I looked away. "It's awkward is all." You could hear the smile in Nikolai's voice. "What's so awkward about it? Never seen a guy in just his underwear before?" "It's not that. I just... I don't know." "You can tell me, I won't laugh," I said nothing. "That's a Nikolai promise!" "A 'Nikolai promise'?" I raised my eyebrows at the kid. He just smiled. "It's the best kind of promise you'll ever get from me!" I guess with that I have no choice but to tell him. So I sucked up all the courage I had, took a big breath and just said, "Because it's really cute." Nikolai's mouth turned into a grin as his cheeks went rose red. "It's cute that I sleep in my underwear?" I could only nod to him. There was no way I could talk to him after that. "I think it's cute you wear pajama pants without a shirt." Nikolai let out a giggle. We sat there in awkward silence. I could feel a little tension between us. It wasn't bad; it just made me want to kiss him. I quickly got changed into my pj's and went under my covers. When I turned to Nikolai, he planted his lips on mine. The kiss only lasted a few seconds but... fuck man that was great! His lips were so perfect. I don't know they just felt great. "I'm sorry, was that too forward of me?" Nikolai backed off embarrassed. "I promise I won't do that again." I couldn't help but smile. "It's okay Nikolai... I liked it." "Oh..." He sat there partially under his covers, partially out. His body shivered from the cool of the air. "I should get back under these." "You know..." I stopped him. "Sometimes I get cold, and I wake up... Maybe if we share a blanket that won't happen." In the tent, we had a futon and our own blankets. Mine was pretty good, but I shake it off sometimes and wake up cold. A small smile crept onto Nikolai's face. "I'd like that." So I raised my blanket, and he quickly got under. "Do you mind if I snuggle up to you?" "Sure... go ahead." He rested his head on my shoulder and his arm on my chest. Before I knew it, his leg was even over mine. We were as entwined as just people snuggling get, I think. "I kinda like this." "I definitely like this." And we fell asleep like that. When I woke up early that morning, we were in the same position. I could feel his boner against my leg. I had a ragger going on in my pants too, but now was not the time to do anything about it. I simply rested my head next to his and fell back to sleep. This was by FAR the best family outing I have ever been on. Not a whole lot could top this. Nick Bells' POV It was Tanis' last night in town; he was going to be heading home tomorrow afternoon. So we decided to go down to the youth center to visit an old friend, Colby. Colby used to babysit me when I was little and now he's become a Youth Mentor at the center, so I can see him whenever! When we walked inside, and Colby's face lit up. "Hey Nick, how's it going?" "Good, just thought I'd hang out with my good buddy here." This was my little test to see if Colby could recognize Tanis. Colby spent a good few seconds giving Tanis a scan. "You look familiar but different... I got nothing, sorry." "I'm Tanis Jones." Colby smiled and shook his head. "No wonder, I can see it now but damn. You've changed just enough for me not to recognize you. How have you guys been?" "Well, we've been hanging out 24/7 the past couple of days because I'm not here for long. Tonight's actually my last night here." "Well, let's make it a night to remember!" Colby got us all set up in their system, and we got to hanging out with him. By hanging out I mean we mostly just talked. He's an old friend who has helped me out many times. He's a great guy who I look up to a lot! That and he's gay too so it's all awesome. Eventually, our conversation led to Lucas and his actions as of late. "So what is going on with Lucas? I hear some whispers, but I don't know who to trust on that one." I shrugged. Tanis rolled his eyes and spoke. "He's trying to get his relationship with his dad healthy again. But is ruining his life in the process." "He's not ruining his life..." I defended him. Tanis shot a look at me. "Look, remember what Blake said the other day. He hasn't spoken to anyone about Annie, and now this. He's running from the pain but isn't getting very far." He's got me there. Even his mom is worried about him. "Sounds to me like he's got some shit to work out for himself." Thanks Colby for taking my side. "Tanis, you are right, but I wouldn't say he's ruining his life. But Nick... he's not in a good spot in life either." Yep... I know that but what do I do? Lucas doesn't talk to me at all... he's knocked me out of his life completely. He smiles at me, but that's all of our interaction. Other than that, I'm just another person in his life. Tanis grabbed my shoulder. "I know you care for him and have no idea what to do. What has doing nothing done for you?" "Nothing..." "Then why not try doing something?" Colby asked. What do I try, though? I can't think of anything. "There's nothing to try. He won't talk to me like ever, and I don't want to make him angry at me for ruining his chances for repairing his relationship with his father." "Fuck..." Tanis said mostly to himself. "Never thought of that. I know he is still in love with you, you just need to get back in there." "What if he's never left?" Colby asked. We both raised an eyebrow at his comment. "Just listen. What if the reason he's so pushy towards you is that he still has feelings. It could be the only reason he won't talk to you is so that he won't give into what his heart wants." "Ya... probably." Still though, there is nothing I can do. Colby looked me right in the eyes. "Don't give up Nick, okay? Keep on going, Lucas will figure it out soon." I sure do hope he's right. I miss my snuggles Bear. Chapter End. In case you didn't know, I have twitter now. You can find the link to it above before the chapter starts. We're reaching the last ten chapters of LLL, which means it's ending soon....ish. By that, I mean probably in 2016. But who knows it might end sooner. I've got a lot planned for chapter 31-40. I have a plan for it, I will be looking over it before I start the next chapter, but suggestions are always nice. If you have one, just contact me! Thanks for reading!! P.S. TRIVIA!! So this chapter's trivia has to do with LE's main casts names. Those names being Gage, Sam, Nick, Lucas, Zach, Shane, Isaac, Kale, Annie, and Leo. All of these names fall under the LLL categorize as well, but I'll get to LLL names another time. Now, here is how I decided the names of the LE cast! Gage - Well... my mom was gonna name me "Gage" but then my Grandpa was like "That's not a manly name! What man wants to go around being named after a car part!?" So my mom named me something else, and that's how he was named. Sam - ENTIRELY based on one of my crushes in high school. Nick - I like the name, that's it really. I have met a good amount of Nicks, some I hate, and some I love. Just at the time I wanted to use Phoenix but decided against it, so I used part of it. Lucas - This one guy named Lucas, I thought he was cute. Turned out to be a complete and udder idiot. Zach - Again based on a guy I thought was super cute, especially in grade 8. (2006-2007) Shane - So I used to go to a youth center growing up, and there was this younger kid named Shane. YUUUUUUP, it's exactly what you think. Isaac - Favorite name ever. I want to name my kid this. That is all. Kale - Cute kid in my grade, never really had any classes with him. Still cute, though. Anthony "Annie" - I actually knew a kid with an Anthony like name... and his nickname was "Annie"... No, the same thing did not happen to him. Leo - Kinda liked the name... is all. The only name on this list I think I googled "Boys names" for. And that is how the LE cast was named! Next time I'll do the LLL cast! Yes, there are some names in LLL that I consider main that aren't on this list! See you next time!!