Date: Thu, 15 Oct 2009 13:46:29 -0700 (PDT) From: john son Subject: My love adventure chapter 2 Ok, this is chapter 2 of my love adventure. Enjoy it and i hope you like it. Thank you :) Chapter 2 As I was walking up the library stairs, my smile still plastered on my face. I opened the door and took a seat at the corner table of the big library. I sat down and take a look at my watch. It is now a quarter passed three. I decided to kill the time by listen to my IPod and start my homework which I got in English and Math. I don't think they're hard, so I'll take my time to do it to waste time. I finished my homework by 4:00. I continued to listen to IPod and look at the door, so I can put away my IPod when Paul walks in. I listened to what I felt like 55 songs. I looked at the clock again and it reads 7:10. Now I'm wondering what is up with Paul? I wanted to text him so bad, but I just remembered that I don't have his number. I decided to wait until 7:30. I waited and waited and waited and still no one comes through that door. I gave up and walked out to the dark night, alone, like always. Paul must've had an emergency or something to cancel the tutor. I walked home and ate my cold dinner because everyone is already done with dinner and went to sleep leaving me at the dining table. Oh did I tell you that I still have the smile on my face. I know it's weird for a person to get stood up and still happy. Well, I am still happy because it's Paul we're talking about. He asked me for help. The most popular guy in the school asked me for help. Even though he stood me up, he must have a good reason for doing that. Then my sister came in and sat right across me. "Where have you been all these time?" my sister asked "What do you mean, I always come home after school." I said while shoving pasta down my throat and still smiling "No, that's not what I mean. You haven't had dinner with any of us or talk to us." "Oh that because... umm I have been busy at school and one of the guys on the football team asked me to tutor him today." I don't think she caught that "Are you sure you have nothing wrong to tell me?" "No, I'm sure" "Bren, don't be mad at me if I ask you this question ok?" "Ok? What is it?" "Why you are so... umm like why are you so you know?" "Lonely?" yeah I don't get emotional over people call me a lonely anymore "Yeah, I mean you never bother to make friends. You never talk to anybody. You hardly lift your head up when walking through the hallway." "I don't know" then I shrug my shoulders "Come on tell me" "Well, I don't think people will want to be my friends. I'm not cool. I'm not talkative. I don't even look like a guy that you want to make friend with." "From what I know, you're really cool. Who said you're not talkative. If you're happy you tend to go on and on and on and on..." "Ok I get it" I looked up at her "Basically what I'm saying is, you're really, really cute. You always wear expensive clothes. You're smart. You're caring and loving. You always smell good. Just open up a little, so people would know who you really are." "Wait, wait, wait, I'm cute. Hahaha, Angie you're making me laugh. I'm what you call uh... oh yeah average, below average. I'm not cute. I did open up, remember freshmen year. People said I'm weird, out of place." "Come on, really? That was like 2 people. They're jealous because they are not as smart or cute as you. They just say that to make you feel bad about yourself." "Well, it's working" "Please just do it for me." "I'm trying to now." "No you're not" "yes I am" "fine have it your way but I still think you are not trying at all" she pause for a really long moment. I could see it in her eyes that she's thinking about something. She's debating herself whether to tell me something secret that she`s been hiding for a long time that involve me or just let it go. "I know what you've been up to. I know those guys have been hurting you up every day at school for the past months" "What?" my heart just cracked a little" "B b b but how did you know?" "Remember the day you told me you have to stay after school?" "Yyyyyeah" I gave her a question look "The next day I stayed after school and walked over to your locker right after I talked to my teacher. I was turning on the corner and I see one of the football guys kick you on the ground." "Oh, you saw what happened?" "I did, why didn't you tell me? I know you always rely on yourself, but you can't just handle those kinds of things alone." "Don't worry, it's over. They got tired of it." "Got tired of it? You're a human being for Chris's sake, not some beat up doll" "But they stopped, so there's no point arguing" "You're always like this, so stubborn. Ok fine, but lemme ask you something else" she asked and squinted her eyes "what?" I asked shoving more food down my throat "sup the smile?" "What smile?" "You know that smile on your face" "you don't make any sense Angie" "don't you `you don't make sense Angie' me" "what?" I said pulling my eyebrows together to make it looks like I'm mad at her. I went back to eat some more. I grinned at myself. "I know that grin, what's his name?" "What's who's name?" "The guy that put that stupid face on you?" "oh, no one really" "tell me" "no one, you know that's impossible" "tell me" she said with her demanding voice which sometimes scare the heck out of me "no" "tell me now" "no" the next thing I knew, Angie was on top of me on the chair at the dining table and started to tickle me "ok I'll tell you" she stopped and said go "Paul" "the football Paul, the one who beat the shit out of you?" "Yes and yes, I thought I told you that I'm gonna tutor one of the guys on the football team" "oh, you did? Well, why?" "Well today he said that he is really sorry and that he really need help with math" "so?" "Well, he looked really sorry, so I said sure why not?" "You decided to tutor the boy who beat you up for fun?" "yeeeessss..." "Are you out of your freakin mind?" "No, I am not out of my mind" "how do you know it's not just another sick prank?" "I don't know" "do you trust him?" "Yes I do" "aright" she back off but then I caught the sarcastic in the aright, so I looked at her while she's crossing her arms "what?" she asked "the `aright'" "what's with it? I said aright and that's that. You have a problem with that?" "no, I'm just whatever" "ok then" "ok" "ok" "ok" "yeah ok" "then good" "good" "good" "we're good?" "Oh we're soo good" then the awkward silence. Suddenly we burst out laughing. After a while, a long while, the laugh subside. I laughed so much, my tummy hurts. Angie is like my bestest friend, not that I have other best friend, you get the idea. She started to talk again "seriously Bren, I don't want to see you hurt again." "Alright I'll be careful" "sooo... tell me, how's the first study date?" "It's not a date and it's ok, I guess" "ok? You come home with a freakin huge smile on your face and it's ok?" "I don't know cuz he didn't show up" the sadness rushed back into my head almost the sudden "that jerk, see it is a prank. He pretend to be all sorry, and get you to trust him and when you do, he just make a joke out of it" "no really it's not, I just know it" "just be careful, I don't think it's a good idea but it's up to you. You're gonna wait for him tamoro?" "ya, I'll go back tomorrow and see if he's there and if not I'll just tell him that I don't wanna tutor him because I don't think I'm the best there is for him" "are you stupid? Not the best choice? You're a smartass" "I now, but I don't care, I'll just tell him that" "whateve then" "ok" " go to sleep" "ok" after Angie left I cleaned up the table, washed the dish, go to my bedroom, and lay on my bed and think about what Angie said. I closed my eyes and fall asleep. I opened my eyes again and see Paul shaking me awake "What are you duin here?" I asked because I'm so shock, but my eyes were still half close "ummm... isn't it obvious I'm waking you up to go to school" "no, I mean what r u duin here? Here in my house, no that's the wrong question, why? No my bad how du u know where I live?" "I saw you walk in here and it's late" ""why do u care?" "Because you're gonna be late" "I know I'm gonna be late, but why do you care? Answer me" I yelled at him. His eyes filled with sadness again "cuz I care about you? I don't know" "Care about me? You? Care? About me? You didn't bother showing up yesterday" "I was in the hospital cuz my sister had a fever" "I was waiting, wait until it's late" I said in a low voice, still in my bed now hugging my huggie pillow. Tears start to form in my eyes. "I didn't know that you're gonna wait for me" "well I did, you should've just call me" "I forgot, I'm sorry ok? Please forgive me" I was flying happy. One of the most popular and handsome guy in the school asked me to forgive him. Wow! "Ok" I said still in low voice try to keep in my excitement "thank you, now get up" I sit up and I have tears running down my cheeks. "Stop crying, you're not cute when you have tears on your face" "I'm sorry I yelled at you' "that's ok, I deserve it" since he was sitting next to me on my bed, when I sat up completely, my face is directly in front of his inches away. We froze in place for awhile when he starts to lean in look at my eyes and my mouth. About 5 seconds which feel like 5 hours our lips met. No tongues though, just a clean, soft, loving kiss. I was smooching his lips for about 2 minutes, then I pulled away. I smile from ear to ear. "ya dig?" he asked smiling and wiggle his eyebrow which I found really lovely "I dig wha?" "ya dig ma kiss?" I giggled like a little school girl when talking to a celebrity. "Course I dig" "ha-ha, you're so cute, you know that?" "Well, I don't know. My sis said that too but I've never admit it cuz I'm not" I said that and blushed like a strawberry. "yes you are, you ate pasta last night didn't you?" "Yeah? How do you know? That's creepy. Did you stalk me or something?" "I am not a stalker for your information" "that's gay" "look who's talking?" "You are" "shut up, I can taste it and it's really good" "ewe..." "Me? You're the one who didn't brush his teeth last night" "I swear you are just mean" "me? Mean? I'm the nicest guy on earth" `yeah right, beat me up for months doesn't count as nice ya know?" I didn't even notice and I regretted it as soon as it left my mouth "babe?" I started to cry again. I swear I' m a fucking cry baby, I cry over anything "why are you crying?" "Nothing I'm just happy" "why are you crying?" his eyes sadden little by little "you called me babe. I've been dreaming about this for so long" "aww. Guess what? I'll call you babe every time I see you if you promise not to cry every time I do" "ok" I said through the happy tears. "As I was saying I'm sorry, I didn't mean to hurt you. It broke my heart when you cry. I was just afraid that my friends will call me a pussy and I was confused I didn't know what to do. I like you, a lot, but I don't want to, so I beat you up to make you hate me" "aww...I will never hate you" "thank you sweetie" everything went dark. I woke up yet again to the sound of the alarm clock. I was dreaming, of course I was. There is no Paul there. I hate him. Why would I dream about him? For dreaming about him, I didn't eat breakfast to punish myself, so I'll forget about him even though I know that I'll never be with him in my lonely and miserable life. Well, I didn't actually punish myself. I've never had breakfast because Angie always wakes up after me, so I've never have anyone cook breakfast for me. Yeah I can't really cook, so yeah. The only thing I've had for breakfast is cereal. I dress up or simply put on clothes after taking a shower, I left my house early like always, so I can get to school before the bell ring. When I arrived at school, I saw Paul, Chris, and the other at their cars. They have such cool cars. I was jealous. I will never have such nice car to drive like them. I was walking across the parking lot when one of them came and just slammed his heavy history book on top of the books I was carrying or lifting and everything fell down, so I kneeled down and picked everything up. "I'm sorry sir" "whatever" here I am, apologizing to him even though it's his fault, so he wouldn't hit me, so yeah sorry is a good choice. After that he swings his book on my head. It hurt like hell, but I succeed to hold back the tears. He walked away laughing, and the others followed suit except for Paul, I don't know why though. Oh by the way is names Wayne. He's an asshole like the others on the football team or the in crowd. I won't date anyone in that group in a million years or even all men died and they are the only one left in the freakin cruel world. Well, maybe I'll date Paul or Chris cuz they are hot. What am I saying? Am I stupid or something? Oh my god I'm losing my mind. Damn it, stop it right now. Why do they have to be so attractive? Let's think further, I don't even have a chance, so why am I thinking about this? Oh god help me. I went into the school and my day start. The day went by soooo freakin slow. I had lunch with Angie today and it was normal. We talked about random stuff. We didn't laugh because I was so into thinking about the dream. As I started to think about the kiss, I started to smile and Angie look dumbfound. "What are you smiling about?" "Nothing" I tried to sound as casual as possible. "Tell me, come on" "nothing truthfully" "don't tell me you're thinking about Paul" "what? (Scoff) I did not do such thing. Why would I think about him? Plus even if I think about him, I wouldn't be anything good except the face that he made when he punch me in the stomach" the bell rang and I was totally back to reality. The bell of the last class rang and it felt like a ton was lifted off my shoulders. I went to my locker and Paul was waiting for me. I gave him a question look. "What?" he asked with confusion in his eyes. "Nothing... why are you here?" "I wanted to apologize for not coming on Friday" "oh that, it's ok" "how long did you wait?" "not long, for like a half an hour or so" I know he didn't buy it so he said" don't lie, tell me" "really I only waited for about half an hour" "no you didn't, what time did you leave?" "Ok fine, so I wait longer big whoop. You didn't come, so what?" "How long?" "Until 7:30" "you wait for me until 7:30 at night?" he asked in disbelief "yeah, don't even worry about it" "why would you do that?" "Because I might you know..." "Come on" he said with a demanding voice "ok, if I leave and you come, you'll get mad and won't talk to me again" "so what? If I get mad you just go back to talking to your friends" "I don't have friends?" I mumbled under my breath "what?" "I don't have friends ok? You're the only one in the school other than my sis who talk to me cuz everybody think I'm just a freak." I said almost yelled at him. I filled with emotion at that point. I am so delicate, so fragile. "Oh Bren" "no one ever called me Bren before either except my sister" he giggled, not laugh, but giggle. It was so cute, but then fear hit me in the face and my smile turned upside down. "I gotta go" "Huh? Oh yeah, see ya at the library at 4 ok?" "Ok I'll wait" getting beat up cuz I'm a geek is enough, now he might know that I have a crush on him, my life will be over. "Bye" I ran out of the school and to the library and sat in the corner where I sat last time I was here. As I walked there, I saw a cute/hot/sexy guy sitting there. I just go and sit across from him even though I know that I can't keep myself under control for long. I started the process of waiting for Paul. About 5 minutes later, he looked up at me and I looked away. He chuckle and I blushed like a, a, I don't know, really red. I thought I might get a panic attack or something. I thought he turned back down to read his book, so I turned so I take a glimpse at his beautiful face, but when I turned he was still looking at me. I was freakin out, but I can't move since his beautiful grey eyes pierce through my soul. My mouth is opened try to get something out of my mouth but the only things coming out was er...er...umm...er... yeah I am embarrassing, so embarrassing you have no idea. "Hi" his angelic voice came out of his red, kissable lips. "H h h hi" I said and giggled like a freakin weirdo. Oh god it was so embarrassing. "He he, it's so ok. I'm a human. You know from earth" "Yeah I know, but you're so... umm... sorry...umm... you're so" Oh god, the symptom is back. A panic attack, oh god, please don't do this to me. Please god, please don't do this to me. This guy is really cute. Don't destroy my only chance to talk to him. I started to breathe hard and quick. My breaths are short. Everything started to blurred. I sat down in front of him, breathing through my mouth. I rampaged through my backpack to try to find my medicine. Why now? I haven't had a panic attack in so long, why right now in front of a cute guy? I took 2 tablet of my pill. Everything started to slow down again. I was still breathing hard and fast though. I could see better and stuff. "Are you ok?" "Yeah, I just...got a panic attack" "How?" "I don't know, but my guess is talking to you" he seemed to be amazed by what I said. Ok now he seemed to be really familiar. Oh my god, no way, no fucking way, he's the in crowd guy. I forgot know his name though. He's the only one that hadn't hit me yet, but I'm terrified. I swallowed really hard. "What's wrong?" he asked "nothing really. I just need to relax from the panic attack." "You said I gave you the panic attack why?" "Umm... can you promise to stay down for at least 5 seconds after I tell you why?" "Sure why not?" he said happily. "I think you're really cute. Your voice is like an angel, so when you talk to me I get nervous because I like you. Now remember the promise. Now that I tell you that you're probably want me out of your face and never want to see forever or you'll hit me like the other guys that you hang out with everyday" "umm..." "Please don't hurt me. Just give me 5 seconds. I'll run as fast as I can to get away. Just spare me this time, please sir? I'm going now and please keep the conversation to you." "Umm..." he said it again and this time he shakes his head. I don't know what it meant, but I'm pretty sure that he's going to spread the rumor around. I ran out of the library really fast toward my house. Not even looking back. I was terrified. I was really glad when I turned back and saw no one was running after me. Why would I do that? Why would I out myself to my possible enemy? There's a really, really small chance that he won't do it. I don't know I just keep running and running until I got home and went up to my room and hopped onto my bed.