Date: Sun, 23 Jun 2013 21:26:43 -0700 (PDT) From: Aaron Hull Subject: One or the Other: Chapter Thirty Four - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - This is my first story with chapters that I'll be posting on Nifty. I've written others but decided to share this one first. Other stories I have written are Gavin's Got Game, Hayden's Story, Shawn's Turn, Teddy Bear, and the After Party. You can find the first three here in the high school section and the latter two in the college section, all under the gay category. If you have trouble finding them, I am under the Nifty author section as Aaron Hull so you can also find my stories that way. Warning: My shorter stories contain sex. If you like this story, contact me at wah.stories@yahoo.com. I strongly encourage it. - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -Daniel's perspective- Things with Kurt have been really rough recently. He says he likes Kasey but when he's around I'm a completely different person. I can see what he means since I have been more rude to Spencer recently and less tolerant of other people, but I really do like Kasey. And that's another thing. It's just a like. I can't bring myself to love him. We've been together for around five months and the way I feel hasn't changed. I know I should like be in love with him right now or anything but when I first met Spencer, I just knew that I would love him and I knew that he'd be in my life forever. At the time I didn't even know I was bi yet I was still madly in love with him. I'm just...I don't know what to do anymore. If things end with Kasey then I'm out on the like again and I've surely fucked things up too much to get the chance of being his boyfriend now. I wish I could just come out and tell Spencer that I truly do love him and that I want him but both times I tried that it didn't work. "Hey..." This was the first thing Kurt had said to me in two days...we share a room too so that's what makes this so horrible. "Dad told me that we're meeting Lisa in an hour so we need to get ready." Lisa is the woman my dad has been seeing. We've met her once and she seems like a really nice person. She will definitely keep dad in line. Kurt shut the bedroom door and returned to our TV room. The reason why he's been able to avoid me these past two days is because he's essentially moved into the TV room. Over half his clothes are in there and all his books and his games are in there, the only time he's ever in his real room is when it's time to go to bed. He just comes in and immediately lays down. It's hard living like this. I just...I honestly just don't know what to do. "Hello boys!" Lisa said as we entered her house. She was a successful veterinarian and she's always been single so she's well off. Because of her, Dad was able to get a job working in the office. It wasn't the best job out there, but it was better than him receiving an unemployment check. "Hi Lisa!" Kurt said with a big smile. Kurt loves Lisa. When we first met her the two of them just clicked as if they were the friends who had been separated for years. I like Lisa and love that she's helping Dad stay on track, but her and I have yet to find the one thing that bonds us together. "How have you been, Kurt?" "Eh. I've been better. Better question is did you have any awesome surgeries since we last met." Kurt's interested in becoming a vet so hearing Lisa's stories makes him really happy. Not all end with a happy ending but Kurt enjoys listening to them. The two of them carried on a good conversation for a while. Dad and I just sat there and listen to the two of them talk. "And how are you, Daniel? Everything okay with Kasey?" Lisa was surprisingly okay with me having a boyfriend. I'm actually the first nonstraight person she has met which made it even more amazing that she'd be so open to the idea of same sex couples. "Everything's good. Kasey and I are doing great." "Well that's good. If you wouldn't mind I'd like to meet him sometime. I know I'm not your mom or anything but I'd like you all to be a part of my life as long as your dad is. I've never had kids of my own so I'd be so greatful if you all let me in even just a little." I smiled. "I'm sure Kasey would love to meet you. He's in love with snickerdoodles so if you had any of those around I think you'd be his new best friend." This made her laugh. "I'll have to find a recipe to those then. From what I hear Kasey seems like a lovely young man." "I actually have a recipe for them." My dad interjected, I guess it would be best if Kurt and I actually let him talk instead of us. "I haven't been able to make it work yet but maybe if we work together we can get something done." After that the two adults sat and talked. Occasionally Kurt or I would add our input but most of time we'd just sit back and let the adults talk. It was nice seeing dad talking and even flirting with a woman. It's been so long since mom's death, Dad deserves someone who can make him happy again. We then heard a timer go off. "That must be the meatloaf." Lisa said. "Come on, boys. Lunch is ready." We all got up and followed her to the kitchen. "I'm surprised you know how to cook such big meals. Since you don't have anyone around I thought you'd stick to simple things." My dad commented. I know he meant that in a nice way but it also sounded like an insult at the same time. Thankfully Lisa say it as the former and smiled. "I lived with my parents until I graduated from grad school. My parents told me that if I was going to stay with them then I'd have to be the one who cooks around the house." My dad looked at both me and Kurt. "You all aren't doing that. Once you turn eighteen you better be long gone. I'm gonna need me some alone time. Keeping up with you two and all your escapades wears me out." This made all of us laugh. I didn't really realize until now that Kurt and I really have opened up to dad a lot more recently and we have been telling him almost every detail of the day. Since he's new to this he has to ask us questions on who is who over and over again but Kurt and I don't mind, it's just great to have a dad who will listen for once. "You shouldn't say that." Lisa said as she removed the meatloaf from the oven and us guys sat at the table. "If he does do that you all are more than welcome to come live with me. Wherever I may be." Both Kurt and I saw a little sparkle in both our dad's eyes and Lisa's eyes. It's the same look that everyone says that Spencer and I used to share. I knew just then that my dad didn't just like Lisa and Lisa was just good for him; I realized my dad was in love with Lisa and Lisa is the best thing for him. After dinner and some great dessert, Lisa told me and Kurt that there were some movies and games upstairs, she had recently loaded up on things for me and Kurt to do since the last time we had come over. Kurt and I left the two adults alone and headed upstairs. I was sure that they were just going to watch a movie and maybe cuddle, but Kurt told me that he was more than sure they were going to do it on the couch, which just the thought made me cringe. Kurt and I actually talked a little bit. He didn't seem as upset with me but I knew that he hated me still. We were halfway through the Dark Knight Rises when Kurt broke the silence and said something that completely and totally shocked me. "I asked Spencer if I could take his virginity." When he said this, I nearly died. I was so upset and so confused at the same time. "Why would you...what were you....I don't....why would you do this to me?!" So many things were running through my head. I didn't know what to say first. "It was when I went to go find him after you were a jerk to him. He mentioned that he still hadn't done anything with a guy and I offered..." Kurt seemed scared. "Why would you do that though?! You know I love him!" "If you really loved him you wouldn't be with Kasey now would you?" Kurt was starting to get defensive. "Shut up. I don't want to talk about it." "And why is that? Spencer was ready to date you and then out of nowhere you find Kasey and you completely ignore Spencer. Do you know what it's like for him to sit at the breakfast table every day and see you and Kasey so in love and so happy? He truly thought that you were the one and you were the only person that ran through his head. He was going to give you everything and you crushed him." "I didn't mean to! I was scared." I began to cry. "I really do love him though. I was going to ask him when he came back with our drinks during the party but he never came back and then I ran into Kasey. He comforted me and the next thing I knew he was all over me. I was scared that Spencer had ran into someone else so I tried my hardest to find someone else too." "Well just to let you know, the reason why he never came back is because he was almost raped." "What?!" This was the first time I had heard this. I had no idea. "Yeah. He stepped outside and Ricky and Trey tried forcing him to do things but Canyon stopped them. If you would actually pull your head out of Kasey's ass sometime Spencer may have told you. But no. You keep it up there and get pissed at Spencer everytime he tries to be a part of your life nowadays." Kurt's words really stung. I honestly never really realized the extent of how badly I've been treating Spencer. I used to be the one he'd run to but now he and I barely talk. At first I thought it was him but it's me. I'm the reason why Spencer feels so alone. If only had been there for him. Even if it was just as friends he would have had someone. I've pushed him so far away. I really didn't want to think about this anymore. "That still doesn't mean you ask him if you can take his virginity. That's just messed up." "Don't you fucking dare talk to me about what's messed up and what's not." I could see Kurt was really pissed now. "What's going on at Macy's house is fucked up. What Eric did to me is fucked up. What you're doing to Spencer is fucked up. Everything around me is fucked up. I know it's weird for me to want to be with a guy, especially with someone like Spencer, but at a time where every guy he loves is being a complete ass, I need to let him know that at least someone loves him." "You still don't have to fuck him." "I know. It's just. I actually want to be with him... I'm not like in love with Spencer or anything but it's just, I don't know. When the idea pops up in my head, it feels right. It feels like Spencer and I should be more than friends yet less than lovers." I still couldn't comprehend why Kurt would want that. He knows how I feel about Spencer. There were nights where he would just hold me as I cried because I so badly wanted him to be with me. He's the one who convinced me to be completely honest with myself and tell Spencer how he feels. And then here he goes trying to sleep with the guy he knows I care about so dearly. "I think it'd be best if you converted the TV room into your actual room. I don't think we should share a room anymore." From the look on his face, I could tell he was hurt. He's the one who initially moved out so I don't know why he'd be so disappointed when I just wanted him completely gone. The rest of the time neither of us talked to the other. We didn't even look at each other. When Dad came upstairs to tell us it was time to head out, he could tell there was something wrong. Kurt and I went downstairs and put smiles on our faces. We thanked Lisa for the food she had given us and for keeping Dad in line. She smiled and told us that we were allowed to come over whenever we wanted to. The three of us then left with me sitting in the back by myself as Kurt rode in the front passenger seat. Dad tried to get us to talk, but neither of us would say a word. I felt so bad for Dad because he's been trying so hard to get us to open up since he's changed, but right now Kurt and I were pushing him away. When we got home, kurt and I proceeded to our own rooms. The couch in the TV room turned into a bed so Kurt would be okay for the night. Once I got in my room and locked the door, I fell on top of my bed and immediately began to cry. I hated myself so much. I was pushing everyone out of my life. I so badly wanted things to be normal again but there was no way that was going to happen. -Macy's perspective- "Why can't I hang out with Emma?!" My dad and I were arguing yet again. "Because you know you're not allowed out of Friday nights!" The halloween party was on a Friday night. "Do you think I give a fuck?! I want to see my friends god damnit!" "Don't use the lord's name in vain!" "God. Fucking. Damnit!" I slammed my door shut and sat on my bed. I could hear my mom and dad talking on the other side. "Please...I don't want the neighbors to come over again." My mom didn't care if he hurt my feelings or not, she just didn't want anyone to think of her family as bad people. "Sometimes that little slut in there just pisses me off. She parties, she fights, she has group sex....what can we do?" Dad was still pissed but he lowered his voice. "Right now there's nothing we can do. Maybe she'll grow out of this phase soon." This made me cry. My dad just called me a slut and instead of defending me, my own mother basically agreed with him. Another thing is that Max barely acknowledges my existence. He doesn't try defending me either; my dad is usually the only one who really argues with me. There are very few times where Mom or Max will be the ones who try to put me in line. I decided I was done with all of this. I picked open the locks on my window, my parents were super cautious since I ran away to Spencer's that one time. I thought it was funny, though, that they'd think locks would keep a teenage girl who has bobby pins locked inside. I climbed out the window with a suitcase I had packed just in case shit became too much for me and I began to walk. I know I'll probably end up back there by the end of tomorrow, but for the rest of today and tonight I needed to be somewhere where I could feel loved. My first idea was to go to Emma's. After realizing that my parents would probably think I went there since I said I wanted to go there, I decided that that wasn't the best idea. I then settled on going to Spencer's. Settle may not be the best word for it because I truly do love Spencer and his family, it's just, Emma and I have become closer and it feels a lot better to talk to a fellow girl instead of a guy whose life isn't that much better than mine. When I got to Spencer's, they had just finished dinner. "Oh hello, sweetie." Spencer's mom said as she opened the door. "What brings you here at a time like this?" I dropped the suitcase and hugged her. I couldn't help but cry. Spencer's mom just stood there and held me, telling me everything would be alright. It felt good to finally feel loved again. When I finally was able to stop blubbering, I explained my situation to Ms. McAlister. "I'm sorry. Things aren't too good at home. I just need a place to stay tonight. Please." "If that's what you need. But tomorrow you have to call your parents. I don't want the police showing up at my door thinking that I kidnapped you." This made me smile. "Thank you so much, Ms. McAlister." I picked up my suitcase and headed inside. Spencer, Megan, and some other guy were watching TV. I could tell they were eavesdropping on my conversation with their mom since the TV was initially blaring and they had to turn it down. I place my suitcase by the stairs and quickly joined the two siblings and the stranger on the couch. I immediately cuddled up to Spencer and he held me. I was definitely going to talk to him about this but right now I wanted to get my mind off my family. "How are you, Macy?" Megan asked. "I'm good. Who's this?" I asked. I didn't want to be blunt but I'd rather not carry on a conversation without knowing who he is. Maybe Spencer has moved on... "His name is Caleb. He's Megan's new boyfriend." The two older teens blushed. I thought they looked cute together. I was sad though that Caleb wasn't Spencer's new boy toy, he really needs someone to help distract him from Mason and Daniel. "We're just friends." Caleb corrected Spencer. Caleb's voice was nerdy sexy. His voice wasn't nasally or anything, he just sounds like he would have hung out with the nerds back in high school. Spencer then corrected Caleb's correction. Hopefully Caleb doesn't respond. I'm already starting to get confused. "For now. I don't know many `friends' who cuddle the way you two do." I then cleared my throat because right now him and I were cuddled up and we were just friends. This made Caleb and Megan laugh. I wonder if Caleb knows that Spencer is gay... "I'm gay though so this doesn't count. You two are straight so the possibility of you two dating is pretty significant." This stumped to the of them and answered my question. I think Spencer can read my mind since he's now answered my questions twice in a row. After that we all talked every now and then, but for the most part we actually sat and watched TV. It was nice to feel like I wasn't an outcast for once. Watching TV at my house was depressing. I would always sit in the recline by myself as the rest of my family sat on the couch, talked, laughed, and got along. I was all alone when I was around them. "You gonna tell me what happened?" Spencer asked me as he lugged my suitcase into his room. "My dad. He's calling me a slut again." It was really hard to think that my dad, the guy who called me his sweet little princess for so long, would just tear me apart with his words. "You know he's wrong, right? You mave have had fun but that doesn't make you a slut." "Spencer, I went to a party, got drunk, and had sex with three other people. I've also gotten into a fight this year. How does that make me a good girl?" "First of all, I never said you were a good girl." Spencer's smile as he said this cheered me up a bit. "You are definitely a bad little bitch, but that's what everyone wants. And even before that party I could see the dark side in you. Don't be afraid to embrace your inner bitch. I'm really sorry your family cannot see the awesomeness known as Macy `the more the merrier' Williams." I flipped him off as he couldn't help but laugh. "Thanks...I guess. You know you're like a brother to me right?" "I thought we were already officially related." "Well we were for a while. We were like brother and sister in laws. But then those twins had to go and ruin things." Honestly Kurt didn't do anything wrong. I just didn't want him to worry about me. He's normally a huge jokester but around me he's gotten more serious and protective. I don't want him to change who he is just because life isn't going well for me. "You know Kurt still loves you right? I don't think he's fully realized that the two of you are no longer a couple." "Yeah. I can tell he still loves me. And honestly I still love him. It's just...I don't think I'm right for him right now. He doesn't need to have me dragging him down. If he and I were together he'd feel obligated to feel what I feel and I don't want to lose the fun-loving Kurt. That's the guy who I fell in love with." "I know you're worried about that, but trust me, Kurt will always be that fun loving guy. He will always be the one falling on his ass twice in a row. You never need to worry about Kurt changing. And frankly if you don't get back with him I think I may taste the Masters' gene pool." My mouth flew open and I began to squeal. I'm normally not the kind of girl who does that but I couldn't hold it back. I couldn't help but slap his arm. "You want to get it on with Kurt?" I was having a fit of giggles. This was the girliest I have ever been in my life. Spencer turned a bright shade of red. "He offered and I just....I don't know." "From sister to sister, he's really good." "Macy!" Spencer covered his ears, I couldn't help but giggle. "He really is! And I know you were right about me being friends with Emma again but right now I don't think I could really handle being a girlfriend. I'm not in the right position. And while him and I are apart, I give you permission to be with him. But if you try to wait until I want my man back, we're gonna have a cat fight." "Please, bitch. You ain't got nothin' on this." He then "flexed" his scrawny arms, which made me laugh so hard I nearly fell off the bed. "You're really cheered up my night. But in all serious you need to get with Kurt. You're the only one in our group who still holds the V-card. I'd rather you lose it to a friend than to some asshole. Just look, you thought Trey, Mason, and Daniel would be good candidates and they all fucked you over. Kurt is frankly too stupid to be able to lie to you or to hurt you. I saw the way he treated you when we went golfing. I should have guessed you two talked about that." "Thanks. Now that I have the blessing of Macy, I think I may see if he's still up for it." "You know you're good friends when you can share a boyfriend." "No. No no no no no no fuck no. Kurt is great and all but a relationship wouldn't work out. We're just going to be a little more than friends and a little less than lovers. That is until you want him back" "I can wait. Right now you need to get your freak on. Please teach him so good moves because I think I'm gonna take a go at it when I get back with him." "You're just...you're one of the WORST friends I've ever had." Spencer said as he covered his ears and laughed. "Make sure you wear a condom too. I don't think I'm ready to be your baby's godmother yet." Spencer just gave me an evil glare. "You're sleeping outside tonight." "Is that because you're sleeping with Kurt now?" "Oh my god you're never going to let this go are you?" I could tell Spencer was kinda ticked but he was mostly having fun with it. "Well once you get a taste of Kurt...literally...you'll never let go of that." "Seriously. Do you want to sleep outside?" I sat there quietly and used the puppy dog eyes. Spencer rolled his eyes. "Good. Now shut the fuck up and get in my bed. I'm tired of both your mouth and in general." The two of us crawled into his bed and cuddled up together. I was obviously the big spoon. Just as we had relaxed and we were ready for bet, I came up with the best reply to his last statement. "I bet you won't get tired of Kurt's mouth." - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - Every time I read a story of Nifty, I never read the top part, so just in case you are like me and only read the bottom portion if you liked the story, here is my email again: wah.stories@yahoo.com. If you email me, please state what story you're referring to. Thanks for reading the thirty third chapter of my story. :) - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -