Date: Mon, 18 Jun 2012 08:39:11 +0800 From: Ben Ng Subject: Rick's Diary Part 39 - Reunion Reunion You would think that the fateful call would be from Ben, but it was not. It was the last person I would expect to receive a call from. "Hey Rick." "You are...?" "I'm Josh! You don't recognize my voice?" "Sorry, it's been a while, and I didn't expect you to call." "It's ok. Listen, the reason I called... would you like to see Ben again?" My body shook. It was what I wanted most. Just the thought of seeing him again sent chills all over my body. "I... of course I do! But... is that what he wants? He hasn't been answering my calls." Josh sighed. "He doesn't know how to face you. He feels guilty. But he talks about you a lot. He always says what a great friend you are, how you stood by him, and how he wouldn't be here if it weren't for you." My tears started falling involuntarily. It seemed that in the past year I cried more than all my previous years combined. "Then why... why wouldn't he even talk to me? I thought he wanted nothing to do with me!" "You know him, Rick. He's conflicted. He doesn't know what he truly wants, and he's afraid what it might bring." It's so true. In the brief time we were together as lovers, we were happy, but it was also his worst nightmare, as he faced his past. Ever since then he's been living on the surface, enjoying casual sex, but not daring to look deeper. "So, what do you have in mind?" "I've invited Ben to a reunion. I told him we could get away and fuck like rabbits. Of course he couldn't refuse." Josh chuckled. "Aren't you two a pair now? Why would you want me there?" "You didn't know? We broke up. Well, we were never officially in a relationship anyway. We had an agreement. We could fuck anyone we wanted, no strings attached." I smiled. That's the Ben I knew. "So why did you two break up? I thought you guys were a good match." "We were, but... I'll let him tell you in person. Anyway, are you up for it?" "Of course, I wouldn't miss it for anything. But are you sure he's ok with it?" "I know him, Rick, trust me. Just come. I'll give you the time and place. Write it down." I quickly scribbled the information on my palm. On my way home, I was so nervous my hands were sweating. I was so afraid my sweat would wash away the ink. It was a mountain cabin, three hours away from the city. It would be the best place for a getaway fuck fest. I thought, if I couldn't be with him forever, at least I could have him for three days? That would keep me going for another year. I couldn't tell you how excited, or how hard I was driving up the mountain. I had to stop and jerk off three times before I got there. When I reached there Josh came out to greet me. He gave me a hug. "I could never compete with you, Rick. I thought I had him, but in his mind there was only you." He said softly, and there was jealously. "Is that why he chose you over me?" I laughed. "He chose me to replace you, Rick. He chose me only because he could have my ass anytime and I don't ask questions." I sighed. I understood how it was. I looked into his eyes and immediately we had an understanding. We both loved the man, but hated his ways. "One thing I know," Josh said, "he's not happy without you." "You... think so?" "Even when we were together he kept talking about the good times he had with you. It was then that I realized he was deeply in love with you." "How could it be? He said he couldn't be with me!" "He's conflicted. He said your love was too intense, that he felt suffocated. He tried to go back to his old life, the meaningless sex, he said that's what you called it." "Indeed. And he's not happy?" "No, not by a long shot. He was ok for a while, and then he was depressed again. He told me how much he wished you were here, but how he didn't have the guts to call you back." "I don't understand. It's just a call..." "I'll let him explain it to you. He's just inside." I walked in, feeling so many emotions. Was it true? Ben loved me? He wasn't happy without me? I felt dizzy. What if this was a lie, a cruel joke? I couldn't bear to be heartbroken again! And then I saw him, Ben standing there in his sweatpants and jersey, looking so sexy. His hair was longer now, not the short, spiky hair I knew him by. But the rest of his body... whatever I could see, was every bit as attractive and beautiful as ever. He stood there, beer in hand, stunned. His beer dropped to the floor, spilling everywhere. "Rick?" He sounded surprised. He couldn't believe I was there! Without another word he rushed toward me and tackled me to the ground. It was meant to be a hug, but the full force of his body brought me to the ground with him. "Why are you here?" When I looked up to his face, he was wiping away tears. "Josh invited me." "Oh, that devil! He did it without telling me?" Josh smiled. "I'll leave you two to catch up." He walked upstairs. Ben pulled me up with his powerful arms. He was still every bit as strong. We settled down on the couch. "I'm so happy to see you." He wiped more tears from his eyes. "How have you been?" "Miserable... without you." At that point I was able to be completely honest with my feelings. We've been through so much together. There was no point in hiding. "You haven't returned my calls. I thought..." "I don't know how to face you." Ben forced a smile. "I'm a fucking coward, you are right. I've been running away all my life." "And you catch me every time." He chuckled. "I thought about what you said a lot, this past year. You are right, as always." "You were right to call Jimmy a coward. He chose to leave, to leave me for his own freedom. He chose not to come back. He probably started a new life with someone else." I was surprised at the ease Ben said those words. It would have been completely unthinkable a year before. "And I've been a coward for not wanting to accept the fact that Jimmy probably forgot about me." He wiped a tear away. "You were right, as you've always been. You are always the wise one. What should I do without you?" I was shaking in disbelief. Ben must have gone through hell to come to this realization. I remembered the rage he was in when he heard me calling Jimmy a coward. Now he was able to say the same. What a big change in a year! "What have you been doing this past year?" I asked incredulously. "To hell, and back." Ben chuckled. "Many nights of soul searching. Oh, and professional counseling helps." He smiled sheepishly. "I'm so glad for you, Ben." "Yes, me too. Can you be in my life again?" I was moved to tears. This was what I was hoping for. I took a deep breath. "Yes, but I want commitment this time." "Exclusive?" "I understand who you are and I won't ask that of you." Ben hugged me tightly. "Oh, I love you, man! I'm going to try, Rick, but don't go ballistic if I slip." "When you slip, you mean?" He chuckled. "Look, I don't mind you messing around with Josh. As with girls, we've been fucking them all through high school and college. That's not a problem. But I hope you limit your partners, and always use protection." Ben kissed me all over my face. "Yes, yes, yes! I'd be happy just to have you and Josh. I don't care about others now. You two are the best!" "I want you to try to love me back the way I love you, and be committed to stay together, grow together, taking the relationship seriously, not just for sex." "Yes, it's time to take things to the next level. It's time for me to learn to love." We hugged and cried together. We broke apart after a while and Ben looked deep into my eyes and said, "I want to do something special for you, Rick, would you like me to make love to you?" "More than anything." I whispered. Ben pulled me onto his back and carried me upstairs fireman style. Josh wolf whistled and cheered for me from the guest bedroom. Ben carried me all the way to the master bedroom at the end and threw me onto the king size bed. "I'm going to make love to you, all day and all night long, Rick. I'm going to make up for all the lost time." He planted a deep kiss on me and we started taking off each other's clothes. I closed my eyes and enjoyed his powerful body on top of mine and the fluffy bed below me. It was like a dream. The best part of my life was about to begin.