Disclaimer- this story involves the love of two males so if this offends u then don't read. This story is totally fiction and not meant to reflect on anyone. And all the usual stuff applies lol.

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When Nothing Goes Right

Chapter 12

"I don't like this."

"I know Zan..." I started.

"No! You don't know." Zander snapped.

I shut up completely and looked down, not looking at him. I was feeling put down that I even tried to say anything at all. Zander was silent for a moment before he released a sigh and took a step closer to me, lifting my chin to look into his eyes that looked apologetic and with concern.

"I'm sorry babe. I didn't mean to snap at you. I'm not mad at you." He said wrapping his arms around me and laying his head against my chest.

"I know." I said after awhile and put my arms around him and squeezed him tight.

"It's just I can't stand him, it's bad enough I have to see him from time to time at my house when he does sessions with my mom, but now I have to see him everyday at school. It's not right."

I thought about saying something to him in Kyle's defense, but thought better of it. I was supposed to be letting Kyle know that we couldn't be friends anymore and I definitely didn't want to be on my boyfriend's bad side by trying to stick up for Kyle. The thing is though I really thought Kyle was sincere in his regret for what happened between them. I wanted my boyfriend to give Kyle the chance to redeem himself. So far Kyle had been nothing but a good friend to me. He was one I had made all on my own and I wasn't so ready to give him up. Especially because he was one of the few friends I had. How would I explain that to Zander though without getting him mad at me.

I was truly happy that I finally had Zander. I had been dreaming about this for the longest but I still felt like I was walking on thin ice with him. I felt like I was going to do something really stupid to mess it all up, so I kept my mouth shut and just hugged tightly until he leaned up into me and kissed me on the lips. We separated quickly as we heard someone walking into the bathroom that I had pulled Zander into to calm him down. We didn't get caught but we both walked out and I walked Zander to his next class as he looked for any sign of Kyle lurking around the corners we passed.

I smiled to myself and leaned over to whisper, "Calm down baby, you look paranoid, my look doesn't suit your sweet face."

He turned his head to look at me as I gave him a little wink and he smiled as his face turned slightly pink. Let me tell you how good it felt to make him blush; I don't know maybe that will become one of my little hobbies.

After my first class I ran into Kyle in the halls and I didn't know what to do so I excused myself before he could even open his mouth and made a hasty retreat. I felt like shit for doing it though and my conscience was telling me to go back and talk to him, but then I thought of Zander and kept going on my way to the next class.

It seemed though that my diversion tactics wouldn't hold up for long. I was on my way to my last class before lunch, when suddenly I was grabbed into an empty classroom.

"What the hell?" I shouted as I was thrown into the room and the door closed me in with my attacker.

"Hey man, how else am I'm gonna get you to talk to me." Kyle said leaning against the door and my only means of escape.

"Let me go I need to get to class." I said avoiding his eyes.

"Did I do something wrong..."

"No!" I said before he even got the chance to finish his sentence.

"Then why are you avoiding me? I thought we were friends."

I looked into his face let out a sigh and took a seat on one of the desk.

"Look Zander..."

"Is your lover now, I get that...he made that perfectly clear when he picked you up from the party, but what's that got to do between you and me...we can't be friends now." He said as I blushed

"You hurt Zander pretty badly; I don't think he would accept our friendship. You know more than anyone how I feel about him, and just want him to be happy I'm sorry." I said as I got up to walk to him so I could get out.

He just stood there, not moving, giving me this look that made me totally uncomfortable. It was like he was reading me or something. I took a step back on reflex.

"What do I have to do to prove to you, both of you that I've changed, how many times do I need to apologize. I'm human, I make mistakes and learn from them. It's what we all do, it's how we grow. And let me tell you man, that was a huge fuck up and a whole lot of learning on my part. I've punished myself for it and so has Zander, and everyone else who was involved. Please don't punish me too."

I got to class late, but my mind was so full. I was confused and didn't know what to do, what was right thing to do here.

At lunch Angie, Zander, and I all sat together. Angie seemed like the odd one out now because Zander and I seemed to be distracted staring into each other's eyes as we ate. But Angie didn't seem to mind much because she had a distraction all of her own, which she decided to bring to our attention, much to Zander's discomfort.

"I can't believe someone so beautiful is the asshole you were talking about." She said staring off to where Kyle was showing off to a crowd of admirers off in the distance in the school courtyard.

"Well believe it, and he's gay Angie." Zander said disgusted.

"Aren't you the little bitter one." Angie mocked

"Hey babe people can change right?" I said deciding to speak up on my thoughts.

"WHAT?!" Zander snapped in my direction.

"I'm just saying, I spent a lot of time getting to know him and he seems really sorry about what happened between the two of you. I mean people make mistakes right..."

"Oh I bet you did get to know him very well since I walked in on you two making out at that party." He said, cutting me off.

"I told you..." I started, getting frustrated that he was still stuck on that.

"Yeah, yeah, you told me, and I don't blame you Sky. It just proves Kyle hasn't changed. He was going to use you like he did me. That's the kind of person he is, he uses people."

"Babe..." I said trying to salvage this quickly crumbling conversation.

"No Sky! I fell for his charm too and got hurt...badly, and now I see him doing the same thing to you."

"I'm not falling for anything Zander, I'm with you. I love you and only you. All I see in Kyle is friendship.

"Friendship? You told me that you would end it with him." Zander said shocked, he was shaking with anger as a tear rolled down his cheek.

"I know and I've talked to him, but..." Zander wiped the tear away

"He can't be trusted."

I looked away from him in frustration.

"It's too bad my own boyfriend can't seem to trust me." Zander said as he got up and walked away leaving his half eaten food.

"Zander wait!!!" I called after him but he didn't stop.

Suddenly I got worried. Here I am messing things up just like I said I would. I put my head down in my arms on the table.

"It's ok Sky." Angie said patting my shoulder, "He just needs to blow off some steam is all."

The rest of my day was spent worrying about Zander and what he was thinking. I definitely wasn't in the best of moods. I knew I had been given a choice. I had to decide between my love for Zander, and the rare generosity of friendship from Kyle. I knew in my heart I wanted both, but I knew that there was only one choice, and it didn't take much thought. You have to sacrifice sometimes when you're in love and I was willing to do whatever it took to keep Zander.

As school let out I was very surprised to see Zander waiting by my car as I was walking to the student parking lot.

"Zander, what..."

"Look this thing with Kyle is hard for me ok? It really isn't easy." He said crossing his arms and leaning his back against my car.

"I understand Zan, believe me I do." I said stepping closer to him.

"I just want to say I'm sorry for walking away at lunch and yelling." He said as I leaned against the car next to him.

"It's ok baby, I..." I started to tell him about my decision.

"And I'm going to try with Kyle, I'm not saying I'm gonna like him or be his friend, but I'll tolerate him for you."

Wait, wait, what? Did I hear that correctly. Here I was about to make a sacrifice for love and he beats me to it. Suddenly a rush of relief swelled into me and I slowly gave him a smile as I wrapped my arms around him and gave him a quick peck. He was actually gonna give me what I wanted, not a choice but both.

"Thanks babe, you have no idea what this means to me. It means a lot." I said releasing him as I realized we were still in public.

He smiled at me and gave my hand a squeeze before he walked away to his car.

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I decided to give Kyle a call when I got home from Zander's that night. I was feeling really good at the moment that Zander was finally okay with my friendship with Kyle, so I couldn't wait to tell him.

"Hey Kyle, it's me... Sky." I said.

"Better be careful or the boyfriend will have a fit." Kyle said as a bitter remark.

"Actually, that's what I'm calling to talk to you about." I said with a little hesitance.

"Really?" he said, mildly amused.

"Yeah, Zan says he's gonna try to accept our friendship, just don't be expecting any miracle reconnection between the two of you." I said giving a funny awkward laugh. Kyle didn't sound amused at all.

"You think your funny don't you?" Kyle snapped.

"No... I just..." I tried to stutter out, before being cut off.

"So am I supposed to be all giddy and happy because the grand prince has sent his blessing?" Kyle's voice was raising a little.

"No, it's not like that, I just thought..." I said now regretting this call.

"You thought what? You know it's the fact that you need permission that pisses me off." His voice seemed to calm down a little. I took that as a sign to explain things more to him to persuade him to see things from Zander's point of view.

"Look I'm sorry it had to be that way, but you really messed him up. He needs time to process all of this. The person who has hurt him the most being friends with the person who he cares deeply about puts him in a weird position. The fact that he's even attempting to tolerate you is a big step for him."

"I bet it is." He said sarcastically.

"Look, I still wanna be your friend but it's up to you to decide if you want it or not. Take it or leave it." I said with a little annoyance at how Kyle was acting pretty much like an ass.

Kyle was silent for a minute while I waited patiently with my heart beating extra hard for his answer. Then I heard his voice with a hint of humor in it.

"You know there's something different about you."

"What?" I asked confused as that was not the answer I was expecting.

"Yeah you're not the same push over I met." He teased, "I kind of like it."

"Yeah I guess dating someone like `the grand prince', as you put it, does that to you." I said with an awkward smile, choosing to ignore the hint of flirting in the way he said the last part of his response. But I chose to ignore it thinking to myself that's just Kyle being Kyle. Seriously he jokes around too much.

There was a long silence that followed as my mind was completely blank of were to steer this conversation, but thankfully Kyle to control of it.

"So now that I've got permission from the Almighty Z-God, now what happens?"

"Well we continue being friends I guess...um so how was going back to school? Why did you even do it?" I asked him

"You sound so shocked," Kyle giggled.

"Well you gotta admit, that's the last thing I saw you doing."

"What you don't think I can?" he said half amused and half offended.

"No, it's that I don't think you can, it's more that I didn't think you would want to." I said to him honestly.

"To tell you the truth...it was all you." Kyle said seriously.

"ME?" I asked confused again.

"Yeah, you inspired me, someone so...let's see what's the right word, closed off or anti-social, getting your dream guy. Somehow tapping into some hidden courage, even when everything was against you, it made realize that I was just scared. I was scared of failing, scared of going back to school and finishing my education just to be let down because I couldn't do it."

"I believe you can do it, anyone could do anything they put their mind to." I said comforting.

"Yeah, I know, but you see what I mean. So like you I'm deciding to find the courage to face my fears to get what I want."

"And what do you want?" I asked curiously.

"Meaning...I want a life with meaning." He said falling silent and leaving me to think about what he just said.

After a few moments I broke the silence, "Wow, that's um...can't believe I inspired all that."

"Well you do, you're a very special person Sky, you really are." Kyle said sincerely.

"Um, thanks man." I said still feeling awkward, "Well I gotta go." I said as we hung up with each other. He left me with a lot to think about for the night.

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Zander sat on his bed finishing up some homework. It was late but he needed to finish it before the next day as it was due. The phone rang and that made Zander smile as he thought how sweet it was that Skyler couldn't go too long without hearing his voice.

"Hey Baby" Zander answered.

"Hey cutie, glad to hear that you resolved your issues with me, not an asshole anymore am I?" Kyle answered back.

Zander froze as his happiness of the moment quickly vaporized into annoyance. He silently yelled at himself for not checking his Caller ID first.

"What do you want?" Zander said very short.

"Isn't that that obvious?" Kyle said in his usual cocky manner.

"No, it's not."

"You still don't seem to trust me." Kyle said as Zander could literally hear his sneering smile.

"My boyfriend seems to think the world of you. He thinks you've changed, but I know better. I know what you're trying to do."

"You do, do you?" Kyle said amused.

"Yes." Zander said coldly.

"And what is that exactly?"

"I'm not stupid, that's why I'm letting him stay friends with you. You're not gonna drive a wedge between us. We love each other and there is nothing you can do to change that." Zander said getting really angry.

"Now, now, Zan-Zan, you think I'm the kind of person to do a thing like that." Kyle said in mock hurt.

"Yes actually I wouldn't put it past you."

"Well you can relax because I wouldn't dream of breaking up you two love birds." Kyle said humorously like Zander just made a joke.

"Good cause you can't!" Zander cut him off.

"But you've got to admit that Skyler is too good for you.

"Fuck you asshole." Zander snapped as his patience ran dry.

"We've already done that haven't we? But seriously you know deep down inside he deserves better and no matter how perfect you want it to be it's never gonna be that way. The sooner you figure that out, the better." Kyle said successfully getting under Zander's skin.

"Go fuck yourself!" Zander said before hanging up completely.

Zander was pissed. He knew he was right from the start; all Kyle was after was his boyfriend's ass, another piece of meat to claim. He wasn't gonna let this happen. He was just gonna play it cool. He decided right then and there that he would have to play along with this little game, cause to fight it would only stress things between him and Skyler and that would be playing right into Kyle's hands. NO!!! Two could play that game.

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Hey you guys, Dean here, so finally after MONTHS, I'm soooo sorry about that you guys. The good news is that I finally have a detailed outline so I know exactly what's going to happen and how it's gonna happen so there will be 3 more chapters, chapter 15 is the last one and I'm really excited to get to work on them too, I promised that I would finish this story and finish it I shall, I even have ideas for new stories so look out for that. Feedback would be much appreciated. Thanks

Dean