Date: Mon, 13 Feb 2006 23:24:36 -0800 (PST) From: S P Subject: Crush: My Cousin, My Love {This story contains passages involving acts of incestuous homosexuality. If this offends you, please don't read further. If you are under the age of 18 please do not continue reading or if access of such material is prohibited, please leave. Any violation on the part of the reader will in no way be reflected upon the author of this story. Also, this story is a work of fiction and any relation to actual events was not intended. Please Enjoy. This is my first story and feedback will be greatly welcomed. crzyrazn@yahoo.com} When my parents told me that my cousin would be spending the summer with us I was very excited and nervous; excited because my cousin would be spending the summer with us and nervous because ever since I could remember I have had a crush on him. Everything started when my uncle suggested that my cousin come work for my dad for the summer at his lawyer's office. When my uncle asked my dad if that would be okay he thought it would also be a good idea since my cousin wanted to study to be a lawyer. So it was decided that my cousin would come stay with us this summer and work for my dad for the experience and for him to see what it was like being a lawyer, also, my cousin could use the money. Needless to say I was very anxious when I learned that Danny would be staying with us. Danny was 19 and the boy next door, the all American guy. He had short dark hair and clear blue eyes. He was 6' and muscled with a tan from being the regular jock in high school. He looked like one of those models from allAmericanguys, he was so hot. But that wasn't the best thing about him. Danny had a smile that could make you skip a heart beat it was so tragically beautiful. Coy smiles that made his eyes mysteriously light up and made you feel as if he were letting you in on a secret that was only between him and you. Many a night I would fall into sleep thinking about his smile. It broke my heart every time I would think about him and know that I could never have him. I was sure Danny was straight. He was always popular with everyone in school especially the girls. Always going out and having fun. Sometimes I would get jealous of Danny for living the seemingly perfect life. Not that I was bad looking. In fact, Danny and I almost looked alike. At 17 I had just finished my last year of high school. I had short dark hair, but soft brown eyes. I stood a couple inches shorter than Danny. Unlike Danny I was never really into sports that much, not because I didn't like them but because I was always too damn shy to do anything like that. But that didn't stop me from having a nice body. I would occasionally work out in my dad's weight room, which gave me a nice toned body. But that's where the similarities ended, physically speaking. I was never as popular as Danny. Not that I wasn't outgoing, but from my earliest childhood days I just knew I liked guys. Not that I ever had a problem with it myself, but when high school started for me I was always frightened that someone might notice and I would be hated. Therefore, I distanced myself from everyone and kind of stuck to myself. Yet, despite not having many friends I was never really lonely. Both Danny and I lived close enough to each other as to go to the same schools. Even though Danny was more popular than me throughout middle school and high school he would always try to make me join in with him and his friends. He always made me feel as if I could always count on him to be a friend. He would always defend me from his friends who thought I was lame. Danny and I would always hang around together after school playing video games or playing basketball or something whenever he could talk me into it; we use to have a lot of fun. I guess that was when I began developing a crush on him. Our relationship went on like that throughout middle school, but when high school began for Danny and I that's when everything changed and not because Danny wanted it to, but because I decided I wanted it to. Danny was already in tenth grade when I began high school. He was already one of the most popular kids there even among the seniors. When I arrived Danny again tried to make me feel accepted. But I knew that there was no way anyone was ever going to accept me the way they did Danny, and the last thing I wanted was his pity, which would break my heart. Also, my crush had been growing since our middle school days and I no longer felt I could stand by and watch Danny knowing I could never be with him the way I wanted to be with him. So I began ignoring him knowing that if I didn't let him go I would end up being hurt. At first, Danny seemed puzzled when I wouldn't talk to him in the hallways or whenever he suggested we hang out after school. After a couple of months of this Danny one day finally showed up at my house after school. "What's up man?" he asked smiling at me when I opened the door. I was actually shocked too see him after ignoring him the way I did. He looked so hot standing there with his short, dark hair and blue eyes, in his polo shirt and jeans, which he filled very nicely. I just wanted to fall into his arms right there. "Nothing much," I shrugged my shoulders with my head down. "Can I come in man or are you gonna leave me here on your doorstep?" he grinned. I couldn't tell him to simply go away, so I stepped aside and let him in. I walked into the living room with Danny following behind and sat down on the couch. We chatted for a couple of minutes about what was new than it became quiet. After a moment of silence I finally asked, "So what brings you here?" Danny looked at me for a minute apparently thinking about what to say. "Jos, why are you ignoring me?" he asked with a hurt look coming into his eyes. I instantly felt ashamed, but I knew I couldn't go back now that I felt I was finally getting over him. "It's complicated," I said honestly. "Well, try me?" "Danny," I gave a sigh, "you and I are different, you are popular and cool and I'm just the guy who everyone never notices and even though you try to make me fit in I just never will." I tried my best to come up with a believable lie, anything to hide the real truth. "Is that what this is all about? Who cares about any of that man?" he laughed seemingly relieved. But I was becoming angry that I had to lie to him when I really wanted to tell him the truth, "It doesn't matter if we're not part of the same clique, you're my buddy!" he said jumping up across the couch and putting me into a mock headlock. His touch and smell were starting to bring back all the old feelings and it was making me angrier. "Stop it!" I said pushing him off me. Danny, surprised at my outburst, backed away more hurt than I have ever seen him. "Jos?" he said pleadingly, but I broke through, hardening myself against his pleas. "We just can't be friends anymore," I said calmly, all the while pushing back the tears. Danny stood, staring at me not saying anything, the silence cutting me like an executioners axe. Slowly he turned and walked away. I stood there until I heard the door shut close behind him. I languishingly made my way up to my room where I fell on my bed, and too sad to even cry, fell asleep. We really never spoke again after that. It remained that way until Danny graduated high school. He had already chosen the college he wanted to go to and would be leaving the following fall. My aunt and uncle were also moving to another city when my uncle got promoted to a new job within his company. When Danny left I finally did cry, even in the end all I could say to him was a simple goodbye. So it was a really big surprise when I was told that Danny would be coming to stay with us for the summer to work with dad. The day Danny was due to arrive I walked around moody and silent, a real nervous wreck. Finally, when I thought he might not show to my disappointment and relief, I heard a car pull into our driveway. I ran to my window and looked down into the driveway and sure enough there was Danny getting out of his car. From my second story window I didn't get a good look at him. I took a deep breath and walked to the top of the stairs waiting for my mom to let him in when he rang the doorbell. My mom opened the door. "Danny! How are you?" I heard her ask and could see my mom's arm as she hugged him, still not being able to get a good look at Danny. "Hey, aunt Grace," he greeted, the sound of his voice making me dizzy. "Come in, come in," she said and I heard the door shut. "It has been a while since I've seen you." "Yeah, about a year and a half," I heard him answer as they stood talking in the entrance hall. Slowly I made my down stairs. When I could finally see them, Danny turned to where I came to a stop on the staircase. He looked the same as always, but a bit more mature that made him hotter than I remembered. Danny smiled, genuinely happy to see me, and came toward me. I walked to the bottom of the staircase. "Jos! What is up man?" he asked grabbing me into a hug. Hoping he couldn't feel me shaking I hugged him back. He felt so good. I could faintly smell the hint of deodorant on him, which made me exhale euphorically. I broke the hug not wanting to make it awkward by holding onto him for too long. "You look great Danny," I said, "College seems to be working for you." "Hell yeah, it's awesome!" "Well, welcome back," I said. He stood there smiling at me. After Danny got settled in we ordered pizza and talked while we ate. It seemed college really was going great for Danny. Just as we were clearing the dishes my dad who had come home from work told he us he had some news for us. "It seems me and your mom is going to be out of town for the next two weeks," he told us, "I have a conference in Atlanta where I'm working on a case." I was instantly mortified about the idea of just Danny and me being alone, "Why is mom going?" I asked. "Well, we thought it would be nice if she and I got away for a little while together, sort of like a mini vacation," he said. "What about Danny starting work at the office?" "He can begin when I get back, besides, he needs a little break to enjoy his summer vacation before he goes back to working his ass off," he laughed. "Yeah cuz, we'll do some catching-up, have some fun," Danny said smiling and shook my shoulder. There was nothing to do now except cross my fingers and hope I would come through this intact. The following weekend, my parents left for Atlanta leaving me and Danny all alone for the next two weeks. At first, Danny and I hung around and talked about what college was like and where I would be going to college. "Yep, when you get to college everything changes," Danny said one day while lounging on the couch throwing a football up into the air. He had on a pair of mesh shorts, a pulli, and socks. Despite my best efforts I just couldn't stop my eyes from traveling from his feet, up to his legs and from there to his crotch, on up to his chest and finally to his beautiful face. I was sitting on the sofa when Danny caught me staring at him. I instantly looked down and returned to the conversation. "Yeah, I bet," I said hoping I didn't sound too nervous. When it remained quiet for what seemed like forever I brought my eyes up to look to see if he had noticed that I had been looking. He was lying on the couch holding the football wrapped in his arms staring at me. I blushed and looked back down. "Let's play some football," he said jumping up tossing me the football. Relieved to be rescued from that awkward moment I didn't hesitate. I followed Danny into the backyard. He walked to one end of the yard and I walked to the other. We began by tossing the football back and forth. Danny hadn't lost his touch since his high school days and I didn't play bad either. After a while of this Danny told me to see if I could score a touch down. I was game. Danny threw me the ball and I caught it easily and began running to Danny's side of the field, but Danny was too fast for me and before I knew it I was lying on the ground with Danny on top of me. For a moment I was disgruntled, than I looked up to see Danny staring down at me with a grin on his face. "You have to be faster than that cuz," he said amusingly. "You okay?" I shook my head yes. After several minutes of looking down at me he shook his head and got off me. "Let's do it again." he said picking up the football. Again he threw me the football and I caught it and starting running to get by him. Again I was knocked to the ground with Danny on top of me. This time I lay there out of breath. I could feel the weight of Danny's body on mine. I struggled to get up, but Danny held me down. "What are you doing?" I asked breathless and lightheaded. "Nothing, just remembering what it was like when you and I use to play together after school, you remember in middle school?" "Yeah" I said softly. Danny lay on top of me for a couple of minutes staring down at me. I could feel the heat of his body against mine. Getting turned on I immediately squirmed to get free so he wouldn't feel how hard I was getting. Suddenly, he slowly began bringing his face closer to mine, for a moment I was scared and thrilled about what he was doing. But just when I could feel the heat of his breath against my lips he stopped and rolled off top of me and lay beside me. I lay there feeling like a fool. For the next couple days after that I ignored Danny as best I could. I would go hang out with a couple of friends or pretend to be busy with errands to avoid him. Not that it was hard since Danny was spending his time reconnecting with old friends. Yet, it seemed that with each day Danny was becoming more frustrated. But by the end of the first week everything started to return to normal and Danny and I began talking again. I was relieved that I could forget about what had happened and that Danny hadn't noticed. One night Danny and I were up in my room playing a video game. I was winning, which was really pissing Danny off. After another humiliating defeat Danny threw down his controller in anger. I laughed at his immaturity. Suddenly, Danny turned to me and asked me something that made me go dead silent. "Jos, what was the real reason you broke our friendship in high school?" I was speechless. I stared at Danny dumbstruck feeling sweat forming on my brow. After a moment of silence Danny began again, "Even though you won't give me the answer I know why." All I could think was that Danny knew now and he would hate me for it. I sat in my computer chair paralyzed. "It was because you had a crush on me." He knew and there was nothing I could do about it. I had to get out. I got up and began immediately walking toward the door. Suddenly I heard Danny say in a commanding voice, "Don't you walk away from me." I stood frozen by his words as if they had had the actual power to stop me. Slowly I turned to Danny where he was now sitting on the bed. All I could clearly think was that he looked sexy sitting there in his polo shirt, jeans, and socks with his head bent down and hands clapped together between his legs. He got up and walked until he stood directly in front of me. "I was such an idiot not to have seen it," he said with pain in his voice, "Ever since that day here in your house when we stopped being friends I thought it was just because you hated me." I wanted to say something than but he cut me off, "At first when you started ignoring me I thought you had found out about me and hated me. I was relieved when I thought you just hated me, but if I had known^Å" he stopped and looking into my eyes and seeing my confusion began again, "Danny, I love you too." I couldn't believe what I was hearing. My heart was beating so hard I was scared it was going to rupture. My world was completely spinning out of control. "What?" I asked with what breath I had left. Suddenly, Danny grabbed me by the neck of my shirt and pushed me into the wall roughly, but not to hurt me, crushing me with his body. "God damn it, Jos!" he said frustrated, "I want you." I stood there shocked, my brown eyes looking into his clear, blue eyes full of uncertainty and hope. Before I could even comprehend what he was saying he kissed me forcefully. I tried to push him away from me but he was stronger than I had thought and held me pinned against the wall. The feel of his lips pressed against mine and the smell of his faint cologne and sweat sent me into complete bliss so that soon I stopped struggling against him. I could feel his tongue exploring my lips wanting to be with mine. He had been kissing me for so long I thought I was going to suffocate when I opened my mouth to receive his tongue. This surrender made him moan. His tongue instantly found mine. The taste of him encouraged me to reciprocate the play of his tongue. He released me by my collar and put his hands on my hips holding me to him as we shared each other. He began guiding me toward my bed with his hands on my hips all the while we were kissing. I fell back onto the bed with Danny on top of me. The weight of his body on top of me was making me even hotter. "I'm I hurting you?" he asked talking about being on top of me. "No," I said placing my hands on his lower back grinding his groin against mine. He smiled and began kissing me softly on my neck. I lay there perfectly content with Danny sending every kind of emotion through my body with every kiss. Danny had me lean up as he removed my shirt to reveal my chest and abs. He kissed every part of me exploring every inch. I had Danny remove his shirt as I rolled on top of him and began doing everything he had done to me. I loved the way his body looked and tasted; never in all my dreams did I imagine it could be this way. Danny pushed me back to the foot of the bed so that we lay toward that end. With him renewing his assault on my mouth I felt his hand grope my crotch making me quiver. Seeing how much I liked it he slid his hand into the top of my jeans and took hold of my rock hard dick. I was well endowed with a 7 inch cock when hard. Danny began making his way down to my crotch, undoing my pants when he got there exposing my boxer briefs. With my pants half way down my hips he began tonguing my cock through my underwear. This sent me into convulsions of pure pleasure. I pushed my jeans all the way off with Danny kissing my inner thighs. He than removed my boxers fully exposing me to him. "You're beautiful," he whispered as he took my cock into his mouth. The feel of my erect cock in his warm mouth made me almost cum. He continued working my cock, sucking my nuts. I was near ejaculation as his mouth slid up and down my cock more rapidly. He easily swallowed my cock. When I thought I couldn't take it anymore he released me. He crawled off the bed and took his jeans and boxers off. I stared in wonder at his cock which was bigger than mine by at least an inch and a half. "Suck it," he commanded as if I were to be told twice. I reached out and grabbed him by his hips and brought his cock to my mouth. I savored the feel of his warm cock in my mouth and the salty pre-cum at the tip of his erect, hard penis. I kissed and sucked every inch of him without restraint. "Take it all for me," he asked pleadingly. At first, I was scared I couldn't do it but Danny guided me gently and before long I was deep throating his massive cock. Danny couldn't stop moaning I was working his cock so good. "Ugh, stop Jos! I'm gonna cum.," I heard him say as I lost myself to pleasuring him. I stopped and Danny pulled me into his arms. "Jos, I want you," he whispered and there was urgency to his voice. "I need you Danny," I answered him. He held me tighter. I released myself from him and lay on the bed. He crawled toward me on the bed where he turned me on my stomach. He eagerly licked his finger and starting stimulating my anus. I couldn't stop squirming, it felt so damn good. Slowly he inserted his finger into me with ease as I lay there in complete ecstasy. Soon he had both fingers in me fucking me. Seeing me totally at ease, he pulled his fingers and out and turned me on back and lifted my legs to rest on his shoulders. I lay there looking down at him waiting for the moment when we would become one. He positioned himself so that his penis rested between my cheeks and slowly while looking into my eyes began inserting his cock into me. For an instance I felt a little pain, but Danny went slowly and soon all I felt was pleasure. He continued until his cock was buried all the way up my ass and his hips were slamming against my cheeks. Danny and I grunted in utter bliss as he fucked me. He had grabbed my cock by than and was jacking me off. Soon I felt Danny tightening up and I knew he was gonna cum. He jacked me faster. He slammed into me a final time and I felt his cock exploding, feeling me with his juices. I came at the same time releasing myself all over Danny's chest and mine, my anus tightening against Danny's cock. Afterwards he lay on top of me, holding me until our embraces carried us slowly into sleep.