Date: Wed, 15 Nov 2017 23:19:25 -0800 From: Darrin P. Subject: Exploring My Attraction to My Dad, Chapter Three: The Emergency Room ***This is a fantasy story largely based around a boy named Kevin and his dad. Some of the events are inspired by real life. I'll let you decide which those are. I enjoy stories that have a healthy amount of erotica, but seem realistic and don't rush things too quickly. That's what this story will be. I'm not sure exactly how long it will go, but I have quite a few scenarios I'd like to see played out before the end. I welcome any feedback or suggestions about where you'd like to see the story go. Maybe I'll use some of them. ppendere@gmail.com Enjoy!*** Update: There's a shift in perspective for this chapter. Hopefully it's not too confusing. Nifty always welcomes donations, so please contribute at your discretion. Chapter 3: The Emergency Room "I was a little ashamed of myself. I really shouldn't have paused so long and stared at that particular picture on the screen. I really don't know what came over me. Luckily, I don't think Kevin noticed. He seemed a little preoccupied anyway while I was browsing the site for the right jockstrap. He didn't even remember KC's name and we had just finished working out with him. Kids at that age get distracted so easily by the most frivolous thoughts. I was glad to be able to find the same type of brand KC wears. Kevin seems to have really taken to KC and I hoped that being just a little bit more like KC would motivate Kevin to continue joining us at the gym" I thought to myself as I turned off the shower water. I stepped out of the steamy shower onto the fluffy bathroom floor mat. I hated stepping onto that mat, but Janet pretty much had the only say in those matters. I would have much preferred a flatter mat. The one Janet bought felt like stepping onto wet grass every time after a shower. I hated that feeling. That's why I almost always run straight to my bedside to dry off. After drying off, I laid down on my bed and let out a big sigh. Janet didn't have work on Saturday's, but she had probably just gone shopping for food like she did most weekends. This gave me a good opportunity to jerk off. I always enjoyed jerking off after the gym. It was nice after a hard workout and long hot shower, to shoot my big load and then take a little nap. I would usually roll up a blanket that we had on our bed which was mostly there for looks. Little did Janet know that I loved to grind my hard dick against it to get off. I always had to cover it with a towel first. Janet would eventually notice dried cum stains all over her nice blanket. I fit the rolled-up blanket perfectly between my legs as it pressed my dick up against my abs. Then I gathered together a couple pillows to rest my chest on and wrap my arms around. These pillows weren't even half as big as KC's upper body, but I imagined he was there underneath me a beautiful, perfect specimen of a man. Ever since I met KC, I couldn't shake the fantasies I had about him. I'd never really felt this way about another man. Sure, I'd been curious probably most of my life, but with KC it seemed different. My fantasy would usually go something like this: KC and I would have a long, hard workout in the gym before heading to the locker room. KC would be hurting just a little in his thigh from doing squats that day. He'd be worried about it as he usually took injuries very seriously. He'd strip down to his jockstrap without a care for who was watching, which was KC's typical attitude towards nudity. He'd inspect his leg and ask me to inspect it as he straddled the locker room bench. I'd tell him it looked fine and then he'd ask if I could help him stretch it. He'd lean back on the bench and put his foot on my hairy bare chest. Then I'd push his bent leg up into his body with his other leg still resting on the bench. That would give me the perfect opportunity to view his tight, pink hole. That hole that teased me every time we're in the locker room together. I think he bends over on purpose like that just to tease me, much like he claims Seducer teases him. In my fantasy, KC notices me looking at his asshole and it starts to get him excited. I can see his cock slowly start to harden. He mentions something about getting his sore leg under hot water and invites me into the shower with him to help him stretch his leg some more. We both walk over to the showers and take off our underwear to reveal that we're both hard and horny. KC makes some crude joke as usual and pulls me into the shower. Suddenly, his leg seems like new and our lips meet in a deep kiss. KC's lips and his touch are both smooth and gentle. His hands run softly up and down my back giving me shivers. As we kiss, I can feel his hard dick pressing up against my balls. Soon, we're getting more intense and grinding into each other. The warmth of the water is beautifully complimented by the warmth of KC's embrace. I grab his ass and it's amazingly firm. I do my best to spread his cheeks and rub that perfect hole with my finger. KC's gets down on his knees and starts sucking my dick. His mouth is incredibly talented and I wonder how many other dicks he must've sucked before mine. Instinctively, he licks my balls and it drives me crazy. My whole body tenses up and I grab the back of his head and shove it into my crotch. As he licks my balls, there are moments where my entire body shakes in pleasure. Again, KC makes another joke and turns around to give me access to his muscular butt. I slowly lower down until the stream of water is hitting my head. I spread his cheeks apart one more time and take one last glance before licking his perfect hole. KC's hole flinches at the touch of my wet tongue and he moans loudly for the first time. I lick and tongue KC's hole, trying to go deeper each time. KC backs his hips up even more to meet my tongue and allow me to get just a little deeper. I reach between his legs and massage his dick for him while I lick out his amazing ass. Slowly, his hole starts to get looser and looser. I get up and embrace him from behind, my hard dick now pressing up against his hole. KC again pushes his hips back into me and with the saliva as lube, my bare dick slides nicely into KC's hole. It's tight and warm. The two things that every man wants. A hole that's tight and warm. KC and I start moving together in a mutual rhythm. I fuck him gently at first and he loves it. He's dripping precum from his fat dick and I'm almost positive I'm dripping precum from mine as well. I progressively start to fuck KC harder and harder. Soon enough, my balls start slapping against his ass and the sound echoes throughout the room. KC moans deeply and says he wants me to cum inside him. As I'm getting close, KC starts to cum and tightens his ass even more around my dick. The head of my dick is now at its biggest and I start to spew warm cum into KC's ass. I wrap my arms around his massive body as I come down from my fantasy. Back in my bed, I pressed myself up by my arms and grinded my hard cock even harder into the blanket. My heart was racing and my breathing was heavy as my huge load exploded from the head of my dick. My mouth was wide open as if I was about to scream, but I couldn't produce the desired volume with Kevin home. My dick can feel like it pulsates for minutes when I jerk off like that and it has produces some of the most amazing orgasms I've ever had. I laid down against my bed again and tried to slow down my breathing from the desperate pant that had resulted. I fixed the arrangement of the bed and there naked on top of the sheets, I fell asleep. I awoke to the sound of Janet in the kitchen preparing dinner. After getting dressed, I headed down to see what she was preparing. After dinner, we watched a few tv shows and then headed for bed. As I was locking up the house and turning off the lights, I noticed something in the family room trash can. It looked like a DVD had mistakenly fell in there and I fetched it out. The title on it was "Gym Encounters: 2" and it intrigued me. Had Kevin been watching workout videos? With everyone already upstairs, I popped it into the player on the laptop and turned the volume down very low. The menu came up, and it became very clear that this was a gay pornographic movie. What was it doing in the family room trash can? Who's was it? Kevin's? It didn't seem like something Bradley would watch. He was always more masculine than Kevin and even had a girlfriend who came around from time to time. But then again, maybe it was Brad's. I decided I'd better do a little snooping first before addressing anyone in person. No sense in upsetting Janet without all the information. I went upstairs and hid the DVD in my gun safe which Janet didn't have the combination to. It would be safe there for the time being. I stripped down to nothing and jumped into bed. My efforts to investigate where the DVD came from went unsolved after weeks of investigation. No one had any other incriminating evidence that I could find. Without a clue of whose it was, I couldn't really bring it up to anyone. I was going to ask Kevin about it, but we finally started to bond once he joined me at the gym. I didn't want to compromise our new friendship by bringing up such a sensitive matter. Plus, he was only 14 and was probably just going through a phase anyway. During our time at the gym, Kevin seemed more and more like he was turning into a strong young man. He was more adventurous and outgoing. He started to really enjoy pushing his limits and I found out he was an incredibly competitive person. Whenever KC felt Kevin wasn't quite giving his best, he'd make the workout into a competition and suddenly Kevin would work twice as hard. It was fun having him at the gym. I think it made me, and probably KC as well, feel younger again as we both watched Kevin grow into his newly forming adult body. KC and I became better friends as well. We already saw each other at work and we'd talk on occasion, but after Kevin joined us, it was like KC was becoming a close friend. Both of us being 46 year old, we started talking more and even hanging out at times. We started confiding in each other. I even told KC about my rocky sex life with Janet after Kevin was born. KC was always outrageous, but I started to notice a deeper, more tender side to him during the following months. One day at the beginning of summer, KC asked if I'd like to come over to his place to hangout the following week. I'd never been to his place before as we typically just went out for drinks. He said we could have a couple beers, chill, and maybe watch a little porn if we wanted to. I couldn't tell if he was joking or serious, but knowing KC it was probably both. I couldn't believe my luck to have such an amazing opportunity. KC wanted to hangout naked with me and jerk off together. I began to wonder if maybe KC had something more planned as well. I immediately took him up on his offer without realizing that Bradley had planned a trip to his college during that week. It took a lot of convincing, but I eventually was able to get Janet to take him under the guise that I had to work. I wasn't about to miss this perfect opportunity with KC. That night after work, I went home and showered before going over to his house. My dick was hard the entire time and I couldn't make it go down. I put on some cologne, which I normally don't do except on special occasions and slipped into my favorite pair of briefs. I didn't know what I was doing. This was all new territory for me. When I arrived, KC was his usual self. I was a nervous wreck but played it off as being due to a long day. We drank a couple beers first and that allowed me to relax. I don't know why KC was so comfortable. Was he used to jerking off with other men or was he just joking about that part? "So what do ya say, we put on some porn?" KC asked. "Sure" I replied. There could be no doubting his intentions now. We were about to jerk off together. I had fantasied about this moment so many times. I hoped that this would lead to more, but I had to be careful. KC logged on to his computer which was hooked up to the TV screen. He pulled up a porn site with thousands of titles and picked a movie of his choice. "Well, guess there's only one thing to do now" he said with a smirk. KC pulled of his shirt first and then his shorts. He wore gray trunks underneath and his bulge was already visibly enlarged. "Oh! Almost forgot something" he said as he ran into the other room. He returned with a bottle of lube, then went to the frig for two more beers before sitting on the couch. "Aren't you gonna join me?" he asked. I must've looked like a bewildered teenaged boy seeing a naked woman for the first time. I slowly started to take my clothes off and then sat down. Luckily, we were there to jerk off because I wouldn't otherwise have had a good explanation for why my dick was already fully hard. "Damn Mick! I can tell you really need this. Look at that hardon you go going on" KC laughed as he lightly smacked my bulge. We sat down and slowly rubbed our crotches. KC commented that I was going to injure myself if I didn't give my dick some room and I took that as a request to remove my underwear. I let out a sigh and told myself it was now or never. I stood up and chucked my briefs to the floor. There in all its glory was my hard dick, but to my surprise KC wasn't even watching me. He was too busy studying the screen and his own dick in his trunks. "Aren't you gonna join me?" I asked back to him. He gave me a smirk before standing up and removing his trunks. Up to this point, I had seen KC naked before. A lot of people had, he was very comfortable with his own nudity and I think enjoyed it when people stared at his muscular body. KC's dick, which when soft rested in his scrotum like a hotdog in a bun, was now fully erect and in view. It was plenty thick and meaty, just like the rest of his body. It appeared to be a good length and his pubes were trimmed down to almost nothing. The end of his dick was glistening just a bit from the precum that he had already produced. I was precumming quite a bit myself. KC applied some lube to his penis before sitting back down. He asked if I want some and then applied it for me after I said yes. My dick jumped just a little when he squeezed some lube onto it. We sat and jerked our dicks for some time until KC asked me to pick a new movie to watch. I decided to test the waters a bit and picked a bisexual scene with two guys and one girl. It started off pretty typical, but then progressed to the guys sucking each other off and even fucking each other. I was so turned on that I had trouble not cumming right then. With all my courage, I reached over, grabbed KC's dick, and started to jerk it for him. "Oh!" he said a bit startled "thanks!". KC then leaned back in the couch and started to close his eyes slightly. His hips started to move back and forth into my hand and I was elated at how well this was going. If I had my way, we'd soon be in his bedroom on top of each other making out. Soon enough, KC's eyes were completely closed and I had given up jerking me dick at all. I decided I'd give KC another surprise and suck on his dick. Without my hand losing a beat, I was able to slide off the couch and in between KC's big, smooth legs. There in front of me was his big, erect penis just begging to be sucked on. I'd never had a dick in my mouth, but I was ready to change that with KC's dick. I put my free hand on his huge thigh to position myself and leaned into to suck his dick. I remember the freshly showered smell of his manly body just before he opened his eyes. "Whoa Mick, what are you doing?" he asked as he pushed me away and stood up. My nervous excitement quickly changed to anxious guilt. "I thought that's what you wanted" I responded. KC cocked his head to the side with an estranged look on his face. "No, I just wanted to chill and hang out watching porn together. I thought it would be good for you to get out of the house and get off for once given your sex issues you were telling me about. But you were about to suck my dick! Did you want to? Is that you came over here?" I was terrified. "Look, this was obviously a bad idea. Let's just call it off and forget it even happened." I started desperately looking for my clothes and putting them on. "Don't be like that" KC said. "It's fine. I just don't get off on that stuff. It doesn't do it for me. I've never thought about another guy like that before." This was getting too uncomfortable for me. KC seemed to get the impression that I was gay or something like that. "I'm not gay KC. I just misunderstood what this was all about ok? Just forget about it and we'll never do this again." As soon as I had my pants and shoes on, I grabbed my shirt and ran for the front door. I couldn't be more embarrassed and ashamed than I was in that moment. KC threw on his trunks quickly and chased me down until he stopped me at the door. "Hey Mick, don't worry about it. We're cool bud. That's just not something I'm into, but I don't want tonight to be a problem between us. I'll forget about it so long as you do too and we go back to being just buds. I don't want that to change." I calmed myself. "Ok, let's just go back to before this. That works for me. I enjoy our friendship too" "Hug it out buddy?" KC said as he opened his big bear arms wide and came towards me for an embrace. As I hugged him, he was still in his underwear and I could feel our bulges rubbing against each other. My hairy, bare chest was pressed tightly up against his smooth muscular pecs. My hands were placed against his bare back which was equally as muscular. KC pulled away with his head until he was facing me, closed his eyes and then kissed my lips. My heart and breath stopped for just a moment. I sunk into his embrace and kiss him back just as tenderly as he had me. For what seemed like minutes, there we were kissing and hugging each other. I was instantly hard again and pressing into KC's huge body. KC pulled away from our kiss and said "See! It does nothing for me." He then let out a huge laugh and playfully slapped me across the face, while grabbing his bulge showing me that he wasn't aroused. I couldn't help but laugh as well. KC had taken the most awkward moment of my life and turned it into just another crazy time with him. We seemed to have a good understanding, and said our goodbyes before I finally left. I drove two blocks away and then had to stop my truck and reflect on all the events that had just transpired. I was disappointed knowing that my fantasies would never come true between KC and myself, but glad that he was cool enough to let me try. I realized then that KC was a rare friend and that our friendship would have to be enough for me. But I still had some business to take care of and quickly raced home to jerk off at the memory of what just occurred. I reflected on what it has like to hold KC's hard dick in my hand and to kneel between his muscular legs even if it was cut short. That night, I had to deepest sleep that I'd had in a long time despite what had happened with KC. The next morning, I woke up late in the morning and was still incredibly horny. I remembered the gay DVD in my safe and thought it would be a perfect opportunity to check it out. After holding KC's hard dick the night before, I needed something similar to get off. I played the movie on my bedroom tv with the volume up because I was home alone. I used some hand lotion as lube and laid down on my bed to enjoy the porn. It was set in a gym setting and I really wanted to savor it, so I backed off my dick whenever I felt I was about to shoot. I heard something in the house, and muted the TV. "Dad!" I heard it again and footsteps progressed rapidly towards my bedroom door which was not locked. "Don't come in!" I yelled as I jumped from my bed, but no sooner had the words come out of my mouth then Kevin was staring in shock at my naked body and erect penis. His glance broke for just a second as he took in what was happening on the screen. I moved to turn off the TV as quickly as possible and was still there naked in front of him. "Damn it, Kevin! I told you not to come in!" I reproached him as I grabbed for the nearest article of clothing which just happened to be my gym shorts. "I'm sorry Dad, but a kid outside got attacked by Jonathan Rush and he's bleeding from his head. It looks really bad" he responded in urgency. "Please, there's a lot of blood and I think it's an emergency." I could see by the look on his face and the tone of his voice that he was very serious. I couldn't dwell on what just happened because the circumstances required immediate attention. I would have to talk with Kevin later. I grabbed my keys and wallet as we ran out of the house. We both got in my truck and drove down a few houses to the young man still there bleeding in the grass. I realized then that I was only wearing my gym shorts and that Kevin for some reason was shirtless as well. When I got out of the truck to help the young man, I could feel my penis was still erect and tenting up in my short. I had to ignore it for the time being, but as we were getting him into the truck with us, Kevin seemed preoccupied with looking at my bulging crotch. We quickly made our way to the nearest emergency room. Kevin had wrapped his head with his shirt and was holding it in place on the ride there. We ascertained that his name was Ryan, who was able to unlock and hand me his cell phone. I found the contact for his mom and called her to let her know what had happened and where we were taking Ryan. At the emergency room Ryan's mother was waiting, we informed her of what happened and they took him back immediately due to the excessive bleeding from his head. Kevin and I were not allowed back into the emergency room. An attendant at the counter got some information from me in case I needed to be contacted for any medical or legal reasons, while Kevin was in the bathroom washing up as best he could. We went back to the truck and drove home. On the drive home, I looked and noticed that we were both a mess. There was blood on each of us and inside the truck. It would be nice to get home and clean up in a shower. It was then that I remembered that I needed to address the incident of him coming into my room. "Kevin, I want to talk to you about what you saw when you came into my room. I'm sorry you had to see that, but what I was doing is something that all men do at some point or another. When you were born, your mother had complications with your birth and ever since then, she hasn't been able to have sex comfortably. It's too painful for her and so we just don't do it. I know this is all stuff you probably don't want to know, but that's why I was doing what I was doing today before you interrupted me. Because I still have needs that I now have to take care of on my own. I hope that hasn't scarred you for life and that we can just forget it even happened." I thought just then that there were a lot of things recently that I was trying to forget ever happened. "But what about the movie you were watching?" Kevin asked. I was hoping he hadn't noticed or just forgotten about that part. "It was just a stupid thing that I found. It wasn't anything" I replied. "In the trash?" he asked. So, it was his DVD. I guess this was a good a time as any to have that talk as well. "Does that mean it was yours? Where did you get it from?" I asked. We had just got home and parked in the driveway when Kevin's eyes started to well up. I could tell that I needed to be as tactful as possible from this point on. "From a friend" he responded. "What friend?" "Someone at school. Why were you watching it?" he asked. Suddenly what was a sincere talk with Kevin about his sexuality started to become an interrogation about mine. "Kevin, are you attracted to men? To other boys?" I asked trying to divert the question. He sunk his head low and shook it yes. "Ok, that... that's ok." I was trying to be as calm as possible so as not to upset him further. "When did these feelings start?" "I don't know. A few years ago. I was just curious at first, but then..." His voice was shaky and low. I was doing my best to make out his words. "Then what? What happened?" I asked. "It was more than curiosity" he paused. "Why were you watching it?" "Kevin, I was watching it to see what was on it. I wanted to make sure before I addressed anyone with it." I replied hoping he'd drop it. "Then why were you naked and hard?" he asked. His questions hit me right in the gut. I sat there staring at him pondering the question for myself. Why was I watching it? A reality that had not quite dawned on me yet felt like it was at the door smashing its way through all of a sudden. "I was just... I wanted to know... I don't know why I was watching it. I was just curious, I guess." As the words came out of my mouth I realized this was exactly what Kevin said his attractions started as: curiosity. "Are you attracted to men Dad?" Kevin asked who was now no longer teary eyed and genuinely more interested in my response. "No son, let's go inside and get cleaned up." I rushed out of the truck and into the house hoping to end the conversation and never bring it up again. "Are you sure you're not attracted to men Dad? Look you cock is hard again." Kevin pointed to my crotch which was now tenting again at the topic of our conversation. If I had only been able to cum before he came into the room then maybe my dick would stay down. "Never mind that, I `m going up to take a shower. You should get cleaned up to." I responded with a bit more fatherly tone to my voice. "Can I shower with you?" he asked. "What!?" his question caught me completely off guard and I even laughed a little. Kevin was only fifteen and he was my son. Why would he want to shower with me? Was he attracted to me? I'd never thought about him in a sexual way whatsoever. "Why would you want to shower with me?" I could feel my dick getting harder as the conversation went on. I couldn't explain it. I wasn't attracted to my son, but for some reason I was incredibly aroused. "It might be fun for both of us" he replied. "I don't think that's a good idea, Kevin." I made my way up to my room as he followed behind. "Pleeeaaassse Dad! Just this once. I've already seen you in a jockstrap" Kevin reasoned. I thought about his offer a little more this time. It sounded so strange and yet something about it seemed appealing as well. "It's not a good idea Kevin" I was pleading at this point for him to drop it. "Are you attracted to KC? Have you ever showered with him at the gym?" he asked. Again, it was another curve ball that I didn't see coming. "KC is just a friend. Nothing more" I replied. "But are you attracted to him? Do you think about him when you jerk off?" Kevin seemed rather specific with his questions. I couldn't help but feel he knew something more than what he was letting on. "What's going on Kevin? What's with the questions?" I dreaded the answer. "I've heard you before. Saying his name when you were jerking off" he replied. "What!? You listen to me?" I felt so violated and venerable at that moment in front of my son. "I told you I was curious. Curious about you. And I've heard you say his name before. And it didn't make sense until now." Kevin may have only been fifteen, but he seemed to know more about the subject than I did. I couldn't keep up this façade any longer. "Yes, Kevin. I think about KC when I jerk off and maybe I'm a little attracted to him. He's a big, muscular guy. I appreciate his body. That's all it is." I didn't even believe my own lie. "Plus, KC isn't into that ok. Why do you think I never shower at the gym after working out?" As I said the words, I wanted to take them back immediately. "Have you asked him? Have you tried to do something with KC before?" he asked. His questions were tearing into my fragile excuses. "Look. I'm not going to discuss this any further. Please Kevin, just drop it." Again, I pleaded. "I will if you let me shower with you." At this point I was stuck. Kevin had me on a leash and wasn't letting up. I looked at him deeply and thought, what harm could it be? We used to bath together when he was a little kid. "Fine, but we drop this whole discussion afterwards and never bring it up again." I said and turned to start the shower. Before I knew it, Kevin was fully naked standing behind me and his dick was completely hard. "Damn, that's a big dick you got there Kevin." "Really?" he asked. "Yeah" and it was big. Bigger than mine was at that age. I couldn't help but be impressed with his impressive manhood, which seemed to give a shot to his ego. I hesitated for a moment before chucking my gym shorts down to reveal my erect penis as well. Kevin stared and took in the sight of my naked body for what seemed like hours. I cut off his stare by getting into the shower as he followed me. It was awkward in the shower at first. Neither of us said a word to each other. We just soaped up our bodies and maneuvered around each other to get under the stream of hot water. Once we were about finished and I was just about to get out, I turned to face Kevin and he reached out and grabbed my hard dick. I let out a huge sigh as he slowly rubbed his hand across the shaft of my erect penis. He looked at me and then down towards our dicks which were now side by side. I thought "Wow, his dick really is big" as he continued massaging mine with his hand. My breath was choppy and my heart like a hammer. Kevin slowly knelt down onto the shower floor while still rubbing my dick. I couldn't watch anymore and closed my eyes as I leaned my head back into the shower water. I lost my breath for just a moment when I felt his tongue touch the head of my dick and lick off a single drop of precum.