My
Little Brother's Feet
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Kewl Dad
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My
Little Brother's Feet
Chapter
23
Buster
I
went through each day after Dommie and I split up like I was in a
dream. I know I shouldn't have taken it so hard. I knew Dommie loved me
and I also knew he was a horny boy, just like most of us. What I
couldn't deal with was that he sneaked around and did that stuff with
Jason. If the jerk had just told me he was wanting to hit the new kid
next door, I'd of said sure just leave me some for later and it would
have been no big deal. I almost died when he keeled over in my floor
and I just knew that if anything ever happened to him, I could never
get over it. So why was I being a jerk and making him suffer? Well, I
have feeling too.
I know everyone thinks I am
this
really tough kid and nothing bothers me, but Dommie nearly broke my
heart when he cheated on me and I just couldn't get over it, at least
not right then. I know I only made it worse on myself, but I just
couldn't help it. I may not be as tough as people think, but I'm
stubborn as a mule and I just wasn't ready to forgive Dommie yet.
That first day he came
back to
school I felt really bad when he dissed me and sat up front on the bus,
but it was my own fault. I should have been a little friendlier but my
big fat pride got in the way and I caused us both to get hurt more.
After that day he wouldn't sit with me anymore and I was too stubborn
to do anything about it. I tried to act like it didn't bother me and
even talked to other kids around me, but I was hurting every minute of
the ride home. I was glad he got off first cause then I didn't have to
look a the back of his head and think how cute he was and how much I
missed holding him and kissing him and...the sex of course.
Sex...that was what caused all
the trouble to begin with and I hadn't had any since before I got
grounded, unless you count my hand while dreaming of Dommie. I swear I
never think of any other boy when I do it, and that's the truth. I know
I have had sex with other boys, but always with Dommie there and part
of it and my love for him has never been affected by it. I never once
thought of doing what he did to me and never would and I guess that
made me wonder about other things we might not agree on.
I mean he
had to know he was
doing something wrong. Maybe that made it hotter for him, forbidden
sex, or something...lol. As if gay boy sex isn't forbidden enough.
Whatever
the reason it changed everything between us. I felt like I didn't know
him anymore. That day I caught him and Jason in bed naked and knowing
what they had done was the worst day of my life. I went straight home
and bawled like a baby. Yeah, I said it, I bawled like a baby and I
don't care who knows it. I don't cry much, but Dommie brings tears on
me
worse than anyone I know.
Take that
day at the hospital,
when I sang to him: I really wanted him to know that I still loved him
and that was our favorite song and that made me cry, but I didn't mess
up and he cried too and for one minute I almost broke and forgave him.
But my damn stubborn pride kept me from doing what I should've and then
it just got worse. He makes me so mad, but I love him sooo much that it
hurts and yet I couldn't get over my hurt enough to fix our broken
hearts.
I spent a
lot of time at home
those days, and my parents must've thought I was an alien in Buster's
body cause they had never seen me as helpful or good as I was those
days. I kept my room clean and I helped with the dishes and did my
homework and even washed both of the cars. There was nothing else to do
and it helped to keep my mind off Dommie and the ache in my heart and
the pain in my gut. I didn't sleep worth a damn at night for thinking
about how Dommie had laid right there in my bed with me all those times
and I didn't let my mom wash my sheets that first week cause I swore I
could smell him on them and even though it made me sad it was all I had
of him.
My days became a
blur. School hurt most
and I couldn't wait for the weekend, then I wanted Monday to come so I
could see Dommie again, even if he wouldn't talk to me. I knew all I
had to do was say I forgave him and things would be okay again, but I
was just so damned stubborn and a real idiot and things just got worse.
One
Monday I decided I'd had
enough and when I climbed on the bus instead of going back to my (our)
usual seat I stepped past Dommie and plopped down beside him. He looked
at me with big sad eyes but didn't say anything and after a minute or
two he just closed his eyes and ignored me. Man, that made me so mad I
almost hit him but instead I did the worst thing I could've
done,
I ignored him.
Imagine how we looked sitting
there puffed up
like two peacocks and both hurting and so stubborn we wouldn't even
talk things out. I look back on that shit now and I am so pissed at
myself, but I was a jerk back then and I got what I deserved. Of course
it didn't seem that way back then, I was the injured party and no way
was I giving in. If you think that was bad though wait till I tell you
what happened that day after school.
Dommie
and I had two classes
together that year, one after lunch and 6th hour PE and of course PE
was the worst. I had to see Dommie dressed down in shorts and sometimes
I'd even see him shirtless if we played skins and shirts and of course
the shower was the worst, cause I might catch a glimpse of him naked
and I had such a pain in the pit of my stomach then that
almost made me throw
up. God, love does awful things to a guy, but it's an awesome thing too
and I knew if we ever got over this thing it would be awesome again.
Anyway that day was
especially
bad in PE. We played a game of b-ball and Dommie was a skin and I
couldn't take my eyes off of his naked chest and his cute legs and I
messed up every time I tried to make a play. He was like really on his
game that day and that bothered me a lot, cause it seemed like he was
over me even though I wasn't over him. I didn't think I would ever be
over him, but I didn't know if I could do what I needed to do to fix
things again. I finally did what most jerks like me do, I turned my
sadness into anger and I went after Dommie like a bulldog on a
pork chop. He didn't stand a chance when I started and I could see the
hurt and anger in his eyes and I still kept on dogging him. He couldn't
score a single basket and finally the other boys quit handing off to
him and he just hung back and steamed, shooting me go to hell looks the
rest of the game. To make matters worse I grinned like a moron and let
him know exactly what I had been doing.
Finally
when no one was in ear
shot I said, "Hey, what's the problem? You're playing like a little
girl today."
Maybe it was because
of all that shit
bottled up inside him or maybe he just wanted to hurt me, but for what
ever reason he pulled back his fist and punched me right in the nose. I
gotta say it hurt like a mother and when I felt my nose I pulled back a
bloody hand. I was so mad I saw stars and then I was on Dommie and
pounding him with my fists and cussing him and it took three kids to
pull me off of him.
The only
thing that saved our
bacon was that Coach had gone to the office for a few minutes and
didn't come back till we had cleaned up the mess of my blood. Of course
I couldn't hide the fact that I had a bloody nose, so I told Coach I
got elbowed accidentally and he bought it cause he hardly ever had any
trouble out of us boys in his class. Dommie didn't have any
injuries that showed, I had mostly just slapped him around but I could
see the fear and hurt in his eyes and it broke my heart all over
again. What is it about love that makes us want to hit back when our
hearts are broken?
I skipped
showering because I
didn't want to face Dommie or any of the other boys and when the bell
rang I sprinted to the bus and fell down in the back seat and kept my
head down the whole time. I bled a little and used my tee shirt to soak
up the blood and got heck for that at home, but I didn't tell them the
truth about what had happened.
I took a
shower, did my homework,
ate supper and went to bed that night sure I would never be with Dommie
again but I didn't cry, not then anyway. I was too tough for that, I
just accepted my fate and tried to think about what came next. In time
I guessed I'd find someone else, though that sounded impossible at the
moment. I hadn't thought of anyone but Dommie for a long time and no
one came to mind that I even remotely liked. I guess I knew that you
didn't just get over something like that over night but I still
couldn't see myself ever loving anyone like I loved Dommie. I
know I
was only 13 and as green as grass, but I knew my love for Dommie was
something special and there would never be another like it.
The next
day I conned my mom into
letting me stay home. I told her my nose hurt and it was swollen so I
guess she believed me and anyway I did have a headache so I was only
half faking. I laid around and thought about Dommie and replayed that
cluster fuck in the gym in my head and it was almost funny when I saw
it for what it was. We were two stupid love sick boys who had hurt each
other so much that we had to resort to violence to soothe
our bruised hearts and it was just a matter of time till it happened.
It could've been worse, we could have been caught fighting and got
suspended or really hurt each other and I don't think I could have
lived with that if I had hurt Dommie more than I did. I did cry a
little that day as I lay around moping and licking my wounds but by the
end of that day I was pretty much convinced that it was over and I had
to move on.
You must wonder what
my parents thought about Dommie and I not seeing each other any more,
but I think deep down inside they knew it was more than two best
friends having a fight and I don't think they wanted to accept what
that meant. I mean when we were together they just played it off but
now that we weren't friends anymore it was the elephant in the room and
neither of them was going to mention it until they had too.
That week was a living hell
for me. I couldn't even look at him without wanting to cry and it hurt
inside so bad I thought I was going to die. I hardly ate lunch any
more, I just hung out in the halls or the parking lot and acted like
nothing was wrong. A lot of my other friends knew something
was
wrong and a few asked me what had happened but I played it off and no
one pressed me on it, not cause they believed me, but because they
didn't want to risk my kicking their ass like I had Dommie's.
I even stopped
fapping because I kept seeing Dommie's cute face and the look he had
when I was pounding on him in the gym that day and that hurt so bad I
lost my boner every time. I was a mess and
things just seemed to get worse as the weeks passed. You would think
the pain would go away after a while but...no such luck. Eventually
I began to
loose weight and I looked so bad my folks couldn't ignore my
problem any
more. One night after supper they sat me down in the living room and
had a talk with me.
At first I thought it was
about something else, my grandma had been sick and I thought maybe she
had died or gotten worse, but when they started talking about how bad I
looked and how I was moping around I got worried. What if they had
figured things out and hated me cause I was gay? I was shaking as they
kept talking and I guess they saw I was freaking and my dad came over
and sat beside me and did the most amazing thing. He put his arm around
me and said, "No matter what, we love you Buster and you can trust us.
We only want you to be happy and right now, you are one miserable boy.
Now, what can we do to change that?"
I didn't know what to say
at first, I mean how do you tell your parents you are in love with
another boy and he broke your heart by cheating on you? I just sat
there staring and if my dad hadn't started things I might never have
spoken at all.
"It's
about Dommick, isn't it?"
he said sounding embarrassed, "I mean you two used to spend all your
free time together and now....Did you two have a fight....or something?"
I almost
laughed, a fight or something? I sighed and considered what to say and
suddenly words started pouring out of my mouth and it was like I was
hovering above the three of us and watching some stupid gay kid tell
his folks the biggest pile of bullshit they had ever heard.
"Yeah, we had
a fight. I found out he...that he is....,uh, Dommie is gay
and I don't want no faggot
for a friend. I guess he's in love with me or something and wanted me
to...to..to do sex stuff with him but I told him, no way and I didn't
want to see him anymore." How could I say those things about Dommie
just to cover my own ass? I hated myself but I still couldn't stop my
stupid mouth from running on, "He....he even punched me in the nose in
gym class and I...I, ummm I fought back but no one but the other kids
saw it. I...I, just want to forget about him....okay?"
I was crying
then, and my mom came over and sat beside me and put her arm around me
too. I could see the look of surprise and disbelief in their eyes and I
wondered if they somehow already knew the truth. Maybe they had talked
to Dommie's folks but had just been letting us handle things until I
started getting sick over it. My mom pulled me against her and my dad
let go of me and that made me feel a little bad. Was he disappointed in
me for being a fag, or for lying?
"Dommie is
such a sweet boy," my mom said after a few minutes, "are you
sure that's the problem?" she asked and I knew she knew it was
bullshit.
"He's okay I
guess.....I just don't wanna.....have....a.....gay....friend," I
blubbered.
"That's not how we
raised you son," my father finally said, "gay or straight Dommie was
your friend and that shouldn't affect your friendship. I mean if
he...umm...came on to you, wasn't there some way to turn him down
without ending your friendship?"
I shook my
head and cried harder. I couldn't go on with this lie any longer.
Dommie
already hated me enough, if I let this lie stand he would never speak
to me again and I couldn't live with myself.
"I....I...I'm so...so
sorry," I sobbed, "I lied about the whole thing.....well, most of
it....the reason we are fighting is....because....because....he...he
cheated on me with another boy. I'm sorry but I....I...I'm a faggot too
and I ....I love Dommie and I know that don't make no sense and you
probably hate me....." I had to stop there to wipe my eyes and my nose,
"but it's true. It aint how I wanted things to be, but I.....can't help
it....I guess I was born this way. It's not your fault mom and dad, I'm
just sick, that's all and.....and...I love Dommie and it hurts so
bad...." I broke down then and collapsed against my mom and she held me
like she used to when I was a little kid and I just cried for
a
long time.
My dad put his
arm around me again but didn't say anything but I could tell he was
trying to deal with this new information I had just laid on
them.
My mom already knew all this, but I didn't know that until later and
she had already accepted it. She kissed my hair and soothed me and I
felt two years old again. I just wanted to crawl up in her lap and let
her hold me forever and never have to face life again but eventually my
tears dried up and I had to face the consequences of my confession.
"Buster," my
dad began, "first of all, son...we don't hate you. We love you with all
our heart and soul. You are my son and no matter what I will always
love you and be there for you. I will admit I don't understand exactly
how you feel, but I know the feelings are real and painful for you and
I respect you for telling us the truth, even if you did take the long
way around."
I sniffed back some snot
and said, "I just couldn't let you think Dommie was bad and I was good.
I....I..I'm the one who...who....made the first move."
"So those,
uh...rumors at your old school...they were true? You and that boy...."
I nodded. "I guess I've
always been a faggot. I....I....wish I liked girls but I just don't and
when I met Dommie I just knew he was the one for me. I...I...love him
dad...mom, he is like the most wonderful boy in the world and I can't
live without him but I....can't get over what he did to me...to
us....I...don't know what to do," I said crying a little again.
"We
can't tell you what to do
honey, it's your life, but if you really love him, no matter how much
he hurt you, if he is truly sorry, you have to try to forgive him." my
mom said stroking my hair gently.
It
sounded so easy when she put
it like that, but she wasn't considering my stupid pride. I was still
trying to deal with the fact that I had just spilled my guts to my
parents and I was still living. Anyway, I thought, Dommie probably
hated me now after the way I had treated him the last few weeks since
he got out of the hospital.
"I think
you are too young to
have this kind of relationship, but obviously it's too late to stop it
now. I do want to have a talk with you about being safe and
responsible, but I...uh, will have to do some research on that since
this is a little different situation than I had imagined," my dad said
sounding embarrassed again.
"The real question
here sweetie is, how can we help you to fix this situation?" my mom
said pulling back and looking me right in the eyes. I had never really
noticed her eyes before and they were nice, and they seemed to
be
looking right through to my soul.
"I...I don't know. I've
been such a jerk to him, but I was hurting so bad...I just..went nuts.
But when he was in the hospital I was so scared he was going to...to
die and I had to see him one last time, but then I found out he was
gonna be okay and I....I let him face all that stuff alone. I'm no
better than he is...he just made a mistake and I wish I had just...I
wish I could just forget it but I can't."
"It will take time,
but in the mean time there is no reason why you can't at least be civil
to one another. No more fighting young man," my dad said grinning,
"and no more name calling. It has to start somewhere, and I
suggest it starts with you. Be a man and admit you were wrong and if
Dommie is truly sorry accept his
apology."
I nodded. I still
couldn't believe he didn't hate me. I mean we had never really talked
about stuff like this but I just figured he wouldn't want a fag for a
son. My mom, well....what can I say? Moms love their kids no matter
what and mine loved me enough for anything I could do.
"I just
don't know if I
can....face him again...not yet. I've been a real jerk and hurt him as
much as he hurt me....maybe more. I don't know if I deserve him
anymore." I said finally admitting what I had been thinking all along.
"Do you love
him son?" my mom asked cutting right to the chase.
I thought
about his face,
his body, how his hand felt in mine, his lips on mine, and how much I
loved just being near him and I nodded as tears ran down my face. I
wanted to run all the way to his house like he had to mine that day he
passed out and throw myself at his feet, but I knew the time wasn't
right yet.
My mom squeezed me tight
and my dad patted my back, "Then tell him how you feel and get things
right before it's too late."
I gave her
a weak
smile and sniffed back the tears. Why couldn't I be a man and quit
blubbering like a little girl? I pulled myself together and
hugged
my mom then my dad and stood up, "I love you both so much and I want
you to know that...that I don't deserve parents as cool as you. I...I
thought you would hate me if you knew and I kept it a secret for all
that time and now that you know....I...I feel so free."
"We could never
hate you son," my dad said looking a little teary-eyed himself.
My mom smiled
mischievously and said, "It really wasn't as big a secret as you may
think, I have suspected you two might be closer than friends
usually are, but I didn't want to interfere." My dad looked at her
strangely and I wondered if they had ever discussed this or if it was a
complete surprise to him. He sort of had that, 'we'll discuss this
later' look on his face and that made me smile.
I hugged
them both and went up to
my room and took a long hot shower. Things might not have been perfect
yet, but at least I no longer had to worry about keeping my deepest
darkest secret from my parents. I felt liberated and happy for the
first time in a long time, but eventually I came back to reality.
Dommie and I were still apart and I had treated him like dirt and for
all I knew he hated me now. Maybe him and Jason were kicking it now and
I was old news. I didn't know if I could stand that, but there wasn't
anything I could do about it, but I was going to find out if it killed
me.
For the
first time since the
fight began I called Dommie's house. His mom answered and sounded
surprised but happy to hear from me.
"Buster,
sweetie..it's good to
hear your voice. Do you want to talk to Dommie? He will be so happy. He
just hasn't been the same boy lately. Hold on I'll get him," she said
rambling on about a mile a minute. I heard her yell at Joey to go get
Dommie and then I heard footsteps and Dommie answered the phone.
"Hello.."
he said, his voice
sounding shaky but as sweet as I remembered.
I had to stop a minute and
get myself under control before I spoke, "Hi, it's me...Buster," I said
realizing how lame that sounded.
"Oh,
yeah...hi, what's up?" he
asked sounding a little cool.
"I...need to talk
to you....not now,
but maybe tomorrow sometime.....after school or at lunch or
something...I got some stuff to tell ya."
"Uh, is
it good or bad? he asked
sounding worried.
"Good, I
think....I mean I
promise I won't hit ya," I joked and laughed a little.
He
laughed too and I could
imagine him rolling his eyes like he always does, "Good,
cause
I'd kick your ass if you did."
"Lick my
ass...did you say lick
my ass?" I teased.
I could
almost feel the tension
go out of him even from a mile away over the phone line, "Is that what
you want?"
"I...I
want you...to know...I'm
sorry for being a jerk. I won't lie and say I'm over what
happened but I'm really sorry about the way I've acted. I want to talk
about it if you do."
"I want
to! I can't stand being
apart," he said sounding like he was starting to cry.
"I
wish...I wish I could come
over there right now and talk to you, but it's so late and all...."
I heard
him sniff back tears, "I
know, I wish it too, but we can talk tomorrow and.....uh, sit together
on the bus, right?"
"Yeah,
from now on....I....hated
you sitting somewhere else. Hey, I gotta go, but I had to call and make
sure you'd talk to me. I got a lot to tell ya and I think some of it
will be a big surprise." I said mysteriously.
He
tittered, "Now what?" and I
pictured him rolling his eyes again and I laughed. Man it felt good to
laugh again.
We said
goodnight for about 15
minutes cause neither of us wanted to hang up first but when we finally
did I felt like a load had been lifted off of my shoulders and
everything would be alright again. I considered going in and telling my
folks but decided to wait till I had better news. Maybe tomorrow when I
came home I'd have my boyfriend back and now that my rents were cool
with it it would be even better than before.
I fapped
again that night and
thought of Dommie and came so hard I just fell asleep afterwards. I was
nervous when I woke up that next day and went off to the bus stop early
and waited for the bus. It seemed like it took forever but finally
there was the bus and I climbed onboard and walked back to our seat and
plopped down. The next stop was Dommie's and as we got closer I could
see him standing on the corner pacing and looking nervous. He climbed
in and took one look at me and headed my way. He was grinning nervously
and when he sat down beside me he looked at me and shrugged. It was the
first time I'd seen him since that day in the hospital and it was all I
could do to keep my hands off of him, but there was still some things
we had to work out and that would have to wait.
Chapter
24
Friends
again?
Man,
oh man, I can't tell
you how excited I was that night when Buster called. I was so sure I
would never hear his sweet voice again unless he was screaming at me or
calling me a little girl, and then out of the blue he was on the phone
and apologizing and telling me he had stuff he wanted to tell me. I
didn't want him to hang up and we just kept talking and saying
goodnight and that we should go and then finally we did it both at the
same time and even after the phone was dead I just held it and thought
about Buster and how much I loved him. If he gave me the chance I knew
I would make up what I had done to him even if it took the rest of my
life.
The last few weeks had
been hell for me, especially after I bloodied Buster's nose. I was like
a different person that day. I really wanted to hurt him, but when I
did I felt so bad and then he was on top of me and pounding me and all
I could think about was how good it felt to have him on top of me even
if he was gonna kill me. Crazy stuff huh? Well after that day I pretty
much figured it was over. I mean I had hit him and he had tried to
finish me off so it was obvious he didn't love me any more. Every day I
saw him at school but when we passed each other or made eye contact I
couldn't tell what he was thinking or how he felt. He is so tough that
he can get over anything really fast and I figured he was over me for
sure. But somewhere in the back of my mind there was a little hope
hiding out and when Buster called that nigh it ran to the front and
said "I told ya so" and I guess it just goes to show that sometimes
when you think things are not going to get any better somehow they do.
I was floating on air and
my mom noticed and smiled at me. She is on my side no matter what and
she wants me to be happy and being with Buster makes me happier than
anything on earth. I couldn't wait to tell Joey and he jumped up and
down and we held hands and jumped together and then hugged. I love my
little brother so much and he had my back all during that trouble
with Buster and now that things were starting to look up he was as
happy as I was.
I took a shower and Joey kept me
company chattering the whole time like he does and it sounded so
good to hear his voice and be happy again. I was nervous too though, I
mean things still needed to be fixed and I didn't know what the news
was he wanted to tell me. Maybe he just wanted to be friends but not
boyfriends. I didn't know if I could handle that but I knew anything
was better than nothing and if that was what he wanted then I'd try it
and try to get him back eventually. A million things went through my
head that night but mostly I was just happy that I would see him and
talk to him tomorrow and finally decided that things would be fine and
to quit worrying so much.
I decided to fap that night and I
did it while looking at a picture of Buster my mom took at DL. It was
Buster clowning for the camera with his shirt pulled up and his tummy
pooched out and it was adorable. I fapped for a long time and when I
came it was so intense I shook all over. I wiped up the mess and
put the picture away and fell asleep and I had the best night's sleep
since the breakup.
The next day I got up extra early
but I was so nervous I had to force myself to eat a bowl of cereal and
drink some Sunny D. I didn't want to keel over again and the doctor
said
I shouldn't skip meals. Joey walked with me to the bus stop and I
thought how nice it would be next year when he rode the bus with us.
See, he would have been with us that year except the stupid school
board decided to move the 7th grade to elementary that year and so Joey
wound up going one more year at his old school. If he had been on that
bus with me everyday I had to be apart from Buster it would have made
things a lot easier and maybe he would have even helped us work things
out. But it was great just having him around at home when I needed him
and that day when he walked me to the bus stop I was so happy and I
hugged him goodbye even though there were other kids around. I watched
him skip off on his way to his school and I knew of all the people on
this earth my little brother was the most awesomest of them all.
A girl that rides the bus with us
smiled at me and threw her hair back over her shoulder seductively and
smiled at me and I smiled back but not cause I liked her that way, it
was because I was going to see Buster in just a few minutes and maybe
be his boyfriend once again. When I saw the bus coming up the street I
had a gnawing feeling in my gut and was afraid that cereal I ate was
going to make a comeback, but I kept it down and when the bus stopped I
was one of the first to climb on board.
As I climbed the steps and swung
to the left I saw Buster in our favorite seat and he was grinning like
that cat in Alice in Wonderland and I grinned back and headed his way.
Before I even got there he was up and cuffing me on the shoulder
affectionately. I wanted to grab him and kiss him but of course that
would have gotten us both thrown off the bus so I cuffed him back and
we fell down in the seat, so close together that I could feel his heat
and smell that musky boy scent of his that drove me crazy. It was all I
could do not to throw myself on him and rip his clothes off, but some
how I managed to control myself and settled for touching his leg with
my hand.
"Hey, how you doing?" he asked as
the bus got moving.
"Great now....you okay?" I said
and I hoped he knew I meant about the cheating and stuff.
"Almost there, but I'm
not gonna be a butt about it any more. Things may not be exactly like
before, but no reason why we can't.....uh, you know be (whispered)
boyfriends again."
That was the best news I'd heard
in weeks and I smiled despite the disclaimer that things weren't
exactly back to normal yet.
"I'm not gonna waste
your time saying I'm sorry over and over, cause you know that right?
What I
did was bullshit and I know it now. I'm the worst boyfriend in history
and you deserve better, but if you'll let me make it up to you, it will
never happen again....and, I will never ever take you for granted
again.," that was a lot for me to say and I looked at him for his
reaction.
He had a
little shit eating grin on his face and crossed his arms and leaned
back before speaking. "I love you Dommie and you're worth a little
pain, but I'm still a little hurt and mad and that will take time to
get over, but.....I don't want us to be apart a minute more," at the
last part he looked serious, maybe even a little sad and I nodded
feeling happy but a little worried. Could I ever make this right with
him?
"So here's how
it's gonna be," he said as I hung on every word, "We are going to sit
together on the bus, eat lunch together, play b-ball and not foul each
other, and still come to each other's house, but....
Awwwk, the
dreaded "but"...how I hated that word unless it was referring to a
boy's rear end.
......no sex, not
right now anyway. That could change later, but for now....just touching
and hand holding."
"How..how
about kissing?" I asked feeling like a starving man given only bread
crumbs and water.
"Kissing is
okay, but not making out," he said looking thoughtful. It was obvious
he had given this a lot of thought and planning, " Can you live with
that?"
"I can live with
anything as long as I got you," I said fluttering my eyelashes and
looking cute. How could he resist that? I'd have him naked and on his
back in no time.
"Right....stop trying to
seduce me Dommie, this is serious shit. If you don't want to live by my
rules then we can just call it good and go our own way." he said
suddenly turning angry on me. God how I loved him when he was angry. He
was soooo cute.
"I'm sorry. I'll be
serious. I meant what I said though. I'll do whatever you say, I just
want to be with you, that's all." I said with tears in my eyes, real
tears...not bullshit tears.
"Okay, look I'm not trying
to be mean or hurt you, but it's got to be my way so I can fix
things, okay?"
I nodded, I was afraid if
I spoke I'd start blubbering like the little bitch that I was and alert
the whole bus that a gay boy was on board.
That seemed to satisfy him and he
sat back and looked out the window for a minute before turning around
in the seat to face me, "Oh, I forgot. My folks know I'm gay and about
us." he dropped the news on me like a ton of bricks and my tears
disappeared as my mouth fell open and I had a million questions and he
tried to answer them all. We were still talking about it when the bus
pulled in to the school and we picked it up when we got inside at our
lockers.
I saw Cody and Kenny
as I headed off to my first hour class and they asked me if me and
Buster were back together again and I smiled and said "YES". Even if it
was on his terms I was happy again and anyway, I figured once he got a
look at my bod and we got to kissing he'd give in. Unfortunately I
overestimated my charms and discounted Buster's stubbornness and it
didn't exactly work out like I had planned.
Cody had lost like 20 pounds
since him and Kenny had been together and he looked hot, not that I
lusted after after him or anything, but he was a nice looking kid to
begin with and I could still remember how that uncut dick of his looked
and felt and it made me a little horny. If Buster didn't give me some
sex soon, I might explode.
Lunch time was great.
We each brought sandwiches, his was a PBJ, and mine turkey and swiss
and we split em and each had half and mixed our chips together and
shared them too. It was so nice being near my lover again and not
having to pretend everything was okay, but now it was and I couldn't
help but smile like an idiot. We talked some more about him
telling his folks about us and I began to realize that we must be the
two luckiest gay boys in the world with both our rents understanding
and not freaking and disowning us or trying to split us up, but it
would still be a little weird the first time I had to see them again.
I was floating on air
as we went off to class together chatting and laughing and when I
slipped into my seat I gave Buster a wink and he smiled. The class was
math and it brought back memories of the first time I'd met Buster and
those other times we'd slipped off to the bathroom and enjoyed each
other and I got a raging boner. I kept pushing at it to keep it under
control and this kid named Josh kept looking over at me and grinning.
I must've blushed and I tried to keep my hands off it after that or at
least make sure he wasn't looking, but it was a long and painful 45
minutes.
PE was a bust that
day. Coach had us running laps around the gym and doing push ups and
crunches and though I got to be Buster's spotter and hold his cute feet
while he did crunches not much else happened until the showers. Coach
asked me and Buster to help him roll up some mats and put them away and
it took like ten minutes and by the time we got to the showers most of
the other boys were gone. My heart was beating like a hummingbird's
wings and wondering if we'd shower together or if Buster would pick a
shower far from mine. I let him decide as I stripped off my clothes and
stepped into the first empty shower stall. Those stalls hold 4 guys,
but usually we go 2 to a stall so we don't crowd each other.
There were at least 3
empty stalls but when I saw Buster head toward mine my heart lept for
joy and my boner danced....lol. He just smiled as he slipped in all
brown and naked and he looked so good I wanted to drag him to the floor
and devour him but I played it cool and just kept on soaping up my
fabulous bod. But it wasn't too long before my eyes were drifting his
way and that's when I figured out what he was doing.
The shit was torturing me with his hot body. He had made the rules
about no sex and now he was flaunting his hot perfect body in front of
me and probably laughing his ass off inside his head.
Well, two could play at
that game. I turned and began to soap my perfect little ass and I could
feel his eyes on it, wanting it and knowing that because of his stupid
rules he couldn't have it and it was my turn to laugh. I couldn't
resist taking a look over my shoulder and was pissed off to see he was
turned the other way soaping up his just as perfect ass and I did stare
and was so hard it hurt. I wanted to just fap right there and get it
over with but didn't want Buster to know how he was affecting me so I
finished up and toweled off and went to get dressed.
Buster came in a few
minutes later while I was still in my undies but he didn't even act
interested. How could he do that, be so....so, casual when I was
practically aching for him? Boy this was going to be harder than I
thought.
On the bus he was his old funny
talkative self, but unlike most of our conversations before, this one
didn't include sex. It's hard to go from an active sex life to none and
when you're 13 it's even worse. I had just discovered the joys of boy
sex and now I was cut off and even though I had no one to blame but
myself, it was still killing me. My hand was definitely going to get a
good workout when I got home...unless Joey and I did something. That
thought brought up another nagging question. When I did sex stuff with
Joey, was I cheating on Buster? I mean he knew we did it and even
joined in sometimes but things were different now, what if he meant I
couldn't have sex at all?
So, I decided to sort of feel him
out. First I started talking about how much help Joey had been to me
since our breakup and he seemed interested. He even told me I was
lucky to have a cool kid brother like Joey and he wished he had one
half that cool. Then he surprised me by practically reading my mind.
"Must be nice to have
a hot little bro like that whenever you need him," he said suggestively.
I didn't know how what to say,
did he think I'd been sexing Joey all those nights without him? That
just wasn't true. Sure once or twice we did let go and comfort each
other that way, but not every night.
"What do you mean?" I asked
nervously.
"Oh, I aint knocking it. Joey
don't count. You're not cheating if you kick it with him, he's your bro
and you and him been kicking it long before you met me. I'm just
saying, wish I had some relief like that at home." He said sounding
harsher than his usual self.
"It's not like we did stuff every
night since...since we been apart. Only a couple of times, the rest of
the time Joey was just there to help me get through this. It hurt a lot
Buster.....what happened between us, and Joey understands cause of what
happened with him and Joe."
"Yeah, I know. I'm sorry I
brought it up. Don't trip on it, okay," he said acting strange. It was
if I didn't know this Buster. Was he planning on making my life a
living hell to pay me back?
"If you say I shouldn't, I will
never get with Joey again," I said knowing full well it would hurt Joey
if I had to do that, but I was willing to do that to keep Buster.
"I would never tell you that. I
love Joey as much as you do and I know it'd kill him to be cut off from
you. Just don't use him to make up for not being with me, okay? It's
not fair since I got no one but my hand." he said sounding a little
annoyed.
Stupid me, I never
know when to keep my mouth shut, "That's not my fault. You could have
me if you weren't so....so...stubborn." I slapped my hand over my mouth
as soon as the words came out and knew I had just screwed up big time
by the look on his face.
Fortunately, or
unfortunately depending on how you looked at it, we reached my stop
about then and I had to get off before the bus driver got mad.
"Call me, please." I
begged giving him a sad look, "I'm sorry, okay...just call me okay. If
you don't I'll call you."
He shrugged and turned
to look out the window and I slunk out of there feeling like every kid
on
board knew our business and they were all watching me. Of course that
was stupid, but my face must've been as red as a beet anyway.
I went inside and Joey was
already
home fixing himself a snack, "Hi Dommie, want a samwich? He said
holding up
a butter knife with peanut butter clinging to it. I didn't want him to
worry or know I'd been an idiot and maybe made things worse, so I
smiled and said yes. He was so proud of the sandwiches he made and I
complimented him on it and even though it wasn't perfect it tasted
really good. We sat at the table and talked while we ate and of course
Joey wanted to know everything about what had gone down that day and I
filled him in omitting the slip up at the end and he was all smiles. He
gave me a sticky high five and I just couldn't disappoint him by
telling him what had really happened, so for the first time in a long
time I kept something important from him.
After the snack we went up
to wash up and change and Joey came bouncing into my room in his undies
and fell down on my bed, "Wish I had a boyfriend like Buster," he said
looking thoughtful.
"I thought you and Amy were a couple?"
I said wondering if he was missing Joe again. Sometimes I could tell he
wasn't as over Joe as he claimed he was.
He pursed out his
cute little lip and frowned, "I thought so too, then she sort of...got
over me and I sort of got over her...and I miss boys," he said sighing.
He wiggled his cute feet then and my attention was focused on them as
he continued, "But....I sorta...(sigh) like....Jason now."
I jerked my eyes to his face and
he blushed bright red, "I...know, I shouldn't of done it," he was
starting to cry now, "but...but...I...I did stuff with him. Don't hate
me Dommie, I'm sorry," he said crying harder.
I fell down on the bed and pulled
him to me and smoothed his hair back and kissed his forehead, "Don't be
silly, I think it's cool, you seducing an older boy," I said smiling.
Truth was, I wasn't really sure how I felt about it, but I wasn't going
to make him feel bad by dissing him over it. "He's a nice guy and I bet
you had fun. That's so cool...little bro. Don't worry, I'm not mad."
He stopped crying and
wiped at his eyes and smiled feebly," Really, you aren't mad?"
"Don't be a jerk," I teased
punching him gently in the arm, "I'm soooo over him, it was just
a...a...one time thing, that's all."
"He didn't think so," Joey said
and I had that bad feeling in the pit of my stomach again, "he really
liked you a lot. I...I...think he only got with me cause I sort of look
like you. It's not my business Dommie, but I think you sort of hurt his
feelings by at least not talking to him after...after Buster caught ya."
"It is your business and I'm glad you
told me this. I guess I was a real jerk. I'll have to tell him I'm
sorry, but I want Buster to know so he won't think I'm sneaking around
or anything."
Joey nodded and rubbed his cute
nose with the heel of his hand, "I'm sorry I cried Dommie, I just
didn't want you to think I was sneaking around. I can't stand keeping
secrets from you."
Well, that made me feel
about six inches high, here I was keeping stuff from my little bro and
he had just cried and spilled his guts to me because he was obviously a
better person than I was. I'd have to tell him the truth about what
happened on the bus, but I'd wait till bedtime. It would make
interesting pillow talk.
The evening
was agony as I waited for Buster to call and just when I had given up
and decided to call him, the phone rang and practically killed myself
getting to it first. I was breathless as I answered and Buster coolly
said "Hey."
"Thanks for
calling," I said catching my breath and trying to control my beating
heart.
"So, what did
you want to say?" he asked sounding impatient.
"That I'm
sorry about that crack on the bus. It just slipped out. I know it's my
fault that all this stuff happened and I will do whatever you say from
now on and I won't talk back." Man, was I groveling? Sometimes I can't
believe how Buster had me wrapped around his little finger back then.
"Can you come
over this weekend?" he asked as if nothing unpleasant had gone down
between us and at first I wondered if it was some sort of trick.
"Whaaat? Well, yeah...I'm sure my parents will say it's okay."
"Well, do you want to or not? You're acting like you don't
want to," he said sounding angry.
"No, it's not that....I was
just surprised, that's all. I mean yeah, I want to come over more than
anything in the world. I can't wait," I said with excitement and joy.
"Well,
don't expect a lot, okay? The rules still apply," he said sounding
normal again.
"I
don't care as long as I'm with you. That's all I care about. I promise
I will whatever you say from now on."
"Okay,
well...I gotta go, but I'll see ya tomorrow, okay?" he said sounding
happy for the first time since he called.
"Okay, hey...wanna share lunches again?" I asked
feeling soooo happy, "I got left over meatloaf for tomorrow."
"Yeah, okay....I'll bring some left over chicken and
we can have a picnic," he giggled.
That sounded more like the old Buster and it
felt so good to have him back even if we couldn't have sex...yet. I
hung up and was floating on air as I went up to bed. Joey came in later
and I told him what had happened and that everything was alright now
and he only stayed for a while before going back to his bed. Things
were certainly looking up and I couldn't wait for things to be like
they used to be. I made a promise to myself to never do anything as
stupid as what I had done with Jason and to this day, I have managed to
keep it, despite being tempted over and over. Sometimes it takes a
disaster to make you realize how much you have to loose.
End of Chapter 24
Next: More rules and the sleepover. And more of Joey.
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10-22-2013