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Marine Dad & Jock Son
by
Bad Dad
Prologue
Hey Guys:
I hope you enjoy this story. Thanks for checking it out.
Just wanted you to know that it takes a while to build. Don't worry – the sex is the hottest I've ever had in my life, and the hottest I know how to write.
But, for me, this story is as much about how my Pops and I got to where we are now, than it is about what happened when we first went for it, man to man. That means I got to tell you about us, first – about him and about me – about what pulled us apart and then what brought us back together.
So, what I'm saying is – if you've got patience, there's gonna be a payoff. And, more chapters are coming, with even more payoff. But, if you're looking for dick-sucking and ass-fucking in the first three paragraphs, you should move on.
It's like going to the gym, studs.
If you're willing to put in the work, the reward is fantastic. (I know this first hand.) But, if you're not willing to do the work – even the most basic stuff – then you'll never get to that incredible result.
Thanks for reading, dudes (and ladies, too, if you're a lady that gets off on hot gay sex).
I hope you enjoy the story.
J.S. (Jock Son)
Chapter One
When I told dad that I was gay, he didn't take it too well. I mean – he's not an asshole or anything. He didn't kick me out of the house, and he's not like one of those religious freaks either.
But, he was a Marine. Hell – I guess you could say he's still a Marine, even though he's retired from the Corps.
"Once a Marine, always a Marine."
That's what he says.
I just don't think it was in his head that his first and only son would be a fag. And, I mean, I'm not much of a fag, really. I'm more like him: big and jocky.
I just use that word because he used it lot when I was growing up – so I know that's what was probably going through his head when I came out. That his son was a fag.
"Fag" is a weird word. One the one hand, I pretty much hate it, because so many assholes use it to denigrate dudes like me, especially dudes who aren't as strong and tough as me.
On the other hand, I like calling myself fag, because I am a fag. And, I like being a fag, because guys turn me on. Men, too. (Well, men, mostly. You know – real men.) I guess you could say I own being a fag, and I own the word, too.
Like I said: "fag" is a weird word.
But, back to my Pops. It kind of pissed me off the way he reacted, because otherwise I was everything he wanted me to be, everything he'd pushed me to be. Not because I was trying to get his approval or anything like that – but, because, deep down he's a good guy. He's the kind of guy that makes you want to be your best. Tough, but fair. A natural leader – knowing when to push you hard, knowing when to back off, and always there if you needed him.
I think that's why he did so well in the Marines. He commanded respect, not by being an asshole, but by being . . . him.
So, when I told him I was gay – cuz, the asshole, he'd always taught me to tell the fucking truth – it pissed me off that he couldn't handle it. Got distant. Even kind of shitty sometimes.
And, yeah – it fucking hurt.
Aw hell. I guess I did want his approval. That's why I'd kicked ass in sports. That's why I'd done good in school – not great, but better than any of the other jocks I hung out with. Top ten percent in my class.
So, when I didn't get his approval for my "lifestyle", as he liked to call it, it pissed me off.
I coulda gone either way, I guess
– coulda just said
"Fuck it" and become a stoner or something, gotten in trouble and shit.
But, that seemed like the loser's way
out – would only confirm his fucked up view of me being a fag.
(Sorry.
Of me being gay.)
Instead, in my last year of high school I pushed myself – hard.
Being at home sucked, given how distant
he was, so I spent a lot of time at the gym, packing on muscle, and as much
time as I could at the library, workin' hard to get
my grade point up so I could get to college on my own terms, and not have to
ask that fucker for any help.
See? I was pretty pissed.
But, I got that football scholarship, with a work-study job,
which meant I could pay my own way – well, nearly, cuz
mom helped me with some spending money, but other than that, I did it on my
own.
Mom and dad had split about ten years ago.
I stayed with dad, mom got my sister, and mostly it was cool.
They weren't mean or crazy or anything
to each other – just basically decided that they didn't like each other
as much as when they were young, so decided to break it off, before they got really mean or cruel or
unhappy. It seemed smart to
me.
But, I was psyched to split from Dad when the time came,
because of how weird he'd gotten. I
think my leaving hit him pretty hard, because he seemed to get really fucked up
about it a few days prior to my heading out.
He asked me if I wanted to have a party
at the house with the guys on the team, but by then it was too late – and
I shrugged it off.
The morning I left, I just packed up the car – which I'd bought with my
own money, after saving for a couple of years – and headed out the
door.
He was standing there, hands in his pockets, looking down at his feet.
My dad's a big guy – like, really pretty big. But, he looked kinda small to me that day. I didn't have him in size, but as I said, I'd been workin hard, so I was thick and cut.
I was thinking of something nice to say, but he still had me pretty pissed off, so I just stuck out my hand and said, "So – see ya."
He took my hand, holding it strong. He wasn't gonna let it go.
"Look, kid – I – uh . . . "
I cut him off.
"Pops – I gotta split.
It's a three hour drive, and I got to
sign in, find my room and then report to practice in the afternoon."
We stood there, looking at each other.
I could swear he was about to lose it, but Pops was always a little hard
to read.
Then he reaches back with his other hand and pulls out this thick envelope from his back pocket.
"Here's some cash, kid, for your first year."
"I don't need your money, Pops. I got this."
The old man wasn't hard to read when he was mad, though. His face got all red and his hand gripped mine harder, but I didn't let go: of his gaze or his grip. I wasn't gonna back down from the asshole now. If anything, it made me stand up stronger.
Eventually, his face softened, he let go of my hand, and
said, "Alright – get outta here.
Kick some ass, son."
I tossed my bag in the trunk and headed out.
He just stood there, but I didn't look
back.
* * * * *
I think the distance helped – both of us.
School was tough, and practice was
tougher than anything I did in high school.
But, I started as tight end, which was pretty
cool, and pushed myself harder than I ever had.
Just to be clear, it's not like I was gonna
go pro or anything. I'm a big guy,
about 195 all in. But, this was a
state school and it wasn't like any of us was going to be recruited for the NFL
or anything. That didn't mean we
didn't give it our all, though. We
did. And, it showed.
Dad started calling pretty regularly. I could tell he was trying, even though he didn't seem to be able to shoot the shit like we'd done before I came out. The guys on the team were cool with me being `that way', mostly because I didn't take any shit, and didn't come on to them in the locker room, or anything like that. (Fuck – not that I didn't think about it – there was some meat on the team, and muscle, but I kept that shit under wraps, cuz I didn't want to cause any problems. Not that I didn't catch a few of them looking funny at me every once in a while. But, I was a freshman. I knew my place, kept my head down, worked like a motherfucker and pulled my weight – more than my weight.)
Dad started inviting himself up for the home games, and it was good to know he was in the stands. Hell, thousands of fans in the stadium and I could hear his voice screaming and shouting.
The few times we went out for brews with the team after the game, he hung with the guys and they loved his loud, drunk ass.
Like I said, my dad was a natural leader – the guys flocked to him, the cheerleaders flirted with him, and I'm sure as shit he scored some pussy every once in a while when he visited.
It still wasn't normal for us – the guys caught the vibe, and they'd ask what was up with me and The Boss (that's what they called him), but I just shrugged it off and they backed off. I guess they figured it was our shit to deal with, not theirs, but they loved the old man when he showed up.
When we won – which was pretty often – he'd buy
a round for everyone. He'd hang
with the coaches, too, which kind of made me nervous, especially when I'd see
him corner one of the staff and have these long conversations in the back of
the bar. I knew they were talking
about me – but I figured it was none of my business.
He was my dad, after all. That's
what dad's are supposed to do – talk to the coaches about their kids.
Before classes came to an end after the first year, Pops would call me and ask
about my plans for the summer, telling me he could get me a job at one of his
buddy's construction sites or something.
I was non-committal, `cuz, I was trying to make my
own plans – was still playing that `gonna be a
man on my own terms' game.
Eventually, I hooked a job working as an assistant with the summer athletic program. I got free room and board, decent pay, access to the gym, and figured I could get ahead on my classes for next year – since the first year kind of kicked my ass academically, given the amount of time I had to dedicate to the team.
When I called dad and told him I was stayin' on campus for the summer, I could tell he was bummed out – a little pissed even. But, like I said – he was a good man and I knew he couldn't fault me for making my own way – taking care of my business, as he would say.
He didn't like it, but he respected it.
At the end of the conversation, when things were just kind of hanging there, he
said, "I'm proud of you, kid.
You're taking care of your shit.
That's . . . that's a good thing."
"Thanks, Pops."
Then, unexpectedly he said, "I'm gonna miss the hell
out of ya, though."
I wanted to say something, but I didn't know what to
say.
"Alright," he said. "I gotta go. Keep
in touch and work your ass off."
Then, he hung up.
The summer sped by. I did work my ass off, had a lot of fun coaching some of the high school kids who signed up for the athletics intensives, and maintained a work-out schedule that was focused and disciplined. My core strength improved and it even felt like I was growing still – finally moving into the body I'd always dreamed of having.
The only problem was all the guys I'd fucked around with
that first year had split for the summer, and the campus was pretty much
dead. So, my sex life sucked.
I took to hanging out at some of the
parks, and in a basement tea-room that got a little
action, but for the most part there wasn't much going on.
Beating off was getting boring, and by
the end of the summer, my balls were aching on a pretty constant basis.
And, no, there wasn't much online action, either – mostly queens that
didn't flip my switch. Some of the
older dudes were okay, but none of them were the kind of guys I wanted to fuck
around with. You know – guys.
Like, men, who didn't give a shit how they smelled, and just wanted to
get sweaty and dirty for extended sessions of dick-sucking
and ass-fucking.
Blue collar guys. Like my dad.
Yeah – I'm a freak that way. Don't take it the wrong way. I'd been jonesing on my dad pretty much all my life, even when I was just a kid, and didn't know a thing about sex. But, once I figured out I was gay, and especially after I starting shooting loads, he was in my fantasies a lot. It's not like I tried anything with him, or fagged out when we hit the gym on the base. Eventually, though, when me and a buddy started trading blow jobs, I began focusing on other guys. And, when dad got all fucked up after I came out of the closet, that pretty much killed my fantasies about him for good.
Still, his type is the kind of guy that really flips my switch: older, hairy, a few days of stubble, big and thick – even a little gut that starts to show with a guy who has a few years on him.
Cuz, most of the guys I fucked
around with at school – well, some were on the swim team or just normal
gay guys that have a thing for jocks.
I can pretty much tell what's going on with them.
I see it in their eyes.
I'm the Jock-Stud Ideal that they
fantasized about in high school, and could never get.
So, when they're down on their knees, slobbing on my cock, they're living out this intense
fantasy and I'm happy to play the part.
Who doesn't like having their muscles worshipped or their pits licked
– or having a guy beg you to fuck him like a bitch?
It's hot – turns me on. But,
I don't get to be a bottom-boy for a big hot daddy-type, hardly ever, and the
more you don't get something, the more you crave it, especially if that's the
thing you want most of all.
By summer's end, I was going stir-crazy.
I hadn't been fucked in over a year, it
seemed like my balls were churning constantly, and I'd worked my ass off at the
gym, but didn't have anyone to appreciate it.
Plus, I'd been working extra hours at
the job, and hitting the books, so things were definitely coming to a
head. I needed a break, but was too
proud to go home, and too broke to take a trip anywhere.
The thought of hanging out on campus between the end of the summer programs and
the beginning of the semester pretty much drove me crazy.
So, when dad called out of the blue, a few days before the job ended, and invited me up to the family cottage, I jumped at the chance.
I think he caught my eagerness on the phone, and I could sure as hell hear his when I said yes. Plus, I could tell he was trying - and that made me feel good.
Real good.
I missed him – really bad by this point – and I was getting pretty messed up by how fucked up things had gotten between us. I figured this may be a chance to figure some shit out or – worst case scenario - just flat out tell him that this crap sucked and he better deal with the fact that I was into guys, and get the fuck over it.
And, the family cottage . . . well, it's a pretty special place.
He owned it with his two brothers – it had been left
to him by their dad, and had been in the family for years.
Dad got the most use of it, since he
lived closest, but they rotated usage, and rented it out for vacations when it
was empty. It was pretty
spectacular. Up in the mountains,
remote, on a pristine lake with just a few other cabins.
The surrounding area was state land, so
it wasn't crowded. I'd spent the
best summer vacations of my life at the place, and loved it.
After dad had gotten out of the Corp, he'd spent a whole summer up there, doing
a top-to-bottom renovation. I'd
helped him out, and it was the best memory I had from my childhood.
He and mom we're getting ready to split,
and I think the time alone, with me, helped him figure that shit out.
In turn, it was the summer I realized I
needed to come clean about my sexual orientation, because being in close
quarters with him for three months pretty much confirmed that it was dudes that
pushed my buttons.
I didn't come out to him then – but I came out to myself, if you know
what I mean.
That summer was also the summer when the place became my own – when I realized that one day me and my sister and the cousins would take over, carrying on the tradition. We worked on every part of that cottage, from the guts to the finishes, and it made me proud every time I came back that it was me – and dad – who had turned it into a showcase.
He was up there already working on some shit, and I agreed I would hit the road Friday night, arriving late. I was stoked. I needed a break and needed to see the old man. It hurt, the crap between us, and I was tired of it hurting. I was apprehensive about how things might play out, but mostly I just wanted it to be over, so we could get back to where we needed to be.
After helping the summer kids get the fuck off campus, I loaded up the car and headed out – later than I wanted, but exhilarated to be on my way. I texted Pops that I was gonna be late, and not to wait up.
But, he did. Of course. So like him.
The lights were on when I pulled up around 1:00 a.m. I stumbled into the cabin, and there he was, sittin' at the table, sipping a beer.
"Hey Pops – I told ya not to wait up."
"Not possible, kid – not how I operate."
I smiled at him. This is the dude I loved so much – the guy who couldn't sleep until he was sure his kid had arrived safe.
"Good to be here," I said.
"Good to see you," he replied. He gave me the once over. "Shit, kid – you been putting in some real time at the gym."
I blushed. Didn't really know what to say. "Yeah – uh . . . pretty much all I been doing this summer – you know, other than workin'."
"Put your old man to shame." He grabbed his gut, patting it. (And, to be clear, it wasn't much of a gut – just a little extra weight, and I thought it looked good on him. Real good. Solid. Like a man should look.)
Before I even knew what I was saying, it came out. "Fuck dad – you still got it. You look good – real good."
Now it was his turn to blush. The moment hung between us. "Fuck," I thought. "Fucking fag – so damn horned up, I put my foot in it." I figured I had crossed the line, and was freaking out that I'd screwed up our chance to put our shit to rest.
But, then he did something unexpected. He got up from the table and crossed the room, quickly – motherfucker still had that athletic base, could move when he needed to. Before I knew it, he'd grabbed me, pulled me into him hard, held me tight.
"I missed you, kid.
Been missing you bad. Good
to see you."
I grabbed him back, buying my head under his chin.
Thought I was gonna lose it right there.
I breathed hard,
to gain control, and when I did his pungent scent hit my lizard brain,
electrifying my body, swelling my groin, boiling my nuts.
I just held him tight. My muscles
clutching him, communicating that I wasn't gonna let go until I was ready.
He stood steady and took it.
"I missed you too, Pops," I hoarsed
out of my throat. "Real bad."
We stood like that for a while.
Seemed like a long while.
Finally I had to release, because I was about to have a real problem in
my pants. My cock was like a
stallion, waiting to charge out of the gates, and I needed to get control.
This was not about sex for me – ever. (Well, not most of the time.) It was about love. About the hurt I'd been feeling, and the anger, and the fact that I needed to be loved by him again, unconditionally, the way he'd love me when I was growing up. The way he'd always loved me, until the wall had sprung up between us.
Shit if I didn't see water in the old man's eyes, in the dim light of the kitchen. I thought about hiding my own, but couldn't do it. I needed him to know how much I loved him. So, I just looked at him as I wiped the tears from my eyes.
It was a moment. Pretty sure I'm never gonna forget it.
Then, typical him, he said, "You want a beer, or you want to
unpack?"
"I want both," I said. "But, then
I'm gonna crash – I'm fucking beat, and I'm
pretty sure you got a few things for me to do, starting early."
"Aw hell no, kid.
I'll let you sleep in. How's
7:00 sound? I'll even give you
fifteen minutes for breakfast." He
saw my surprise, and then he burst out laughing.
The old man was back, and it was good.
I mean - I still felt a little something was being held in,
but the wound was healing, that's for sure.
I unpacked quickly, and slammed back a beer, giving him a basic update of the
summer. He just listened, looking
at me – appraising my . . . growth.
Not just my body, but myself.
The coaching I'd done, the kids I'd helped, school, studies, all that
shit. The love life was off limits,
but everything else poured out.
Then he cut me off.
"That's it, kid.
You're going to bed.
We got ten days up here –"
"I thought it was just a week?" I asked.
"Naw – we had a cancellation, so I'm taking the extra time." He paused. "I mean, if you need to get back . . . but, you can hang out, if you want. Love to have you."
"I – uh – I'll see.
I have to check the schedule."
"Anyway – got some shit to do tomorrow, couple of projects."
"As always."
"You can chill, kid.
You been working your ass off.
Looks like you need the break."
"I'll be there. Maybe sleep in a
bit."
"Lazy fuck."
My anger flashed – the wound was still sore – but then he busted out laughing again. He turned, headed to his bedroom. "Good night, kid. Get some sleep." I could hear him laughing as he unleashed a long stream of piss in the downstairs bathroom.
I headed up stairs, stripped down, and hit the bed. My cock was still chubbing a bit, but I figured I had more than enough time to get some private moments out in the woods. I'd brought the lube and poppers – couple of buttplugs – and planned some long sweaty sessions in my favorite hiding spots out back. Thinking of that – and the old man, and this place – I fell off the cliff, to sleep, long and hard.
* * * * *
The next morning I woke in a fog. It was bright out. I turned to look at the old alarm clock – 9:30.
Fuck.
I'm sure the old man had been up for hours. He had a thing about `rise and shine' – he never shook it off from the Corps. I was surprised that he hadn't pulled me out of bed, but maybe he was serious about letting me get some rest.
I pulled on a fresh pair of tightie-whities, pushing my piss-hard cock to the side. I figured, what the fuck. If we were gonna get back to normal, that meant hanging out in next to nothing, like we used to do in the early days, after he and mom had split.
I stumbled out on the massive deck and took in the view of the pristine lake. God, I loved this place.
I hadn't seen him sitting off to the side.
"Lazy ass," he said. Scared the
shit outta me.
There he was, glugging a bottle of water, covered with sweat. Shirt off, holding it in his hands. Work boots. Low-slung jeans all filled out. God he looked good.
He'd obviously been working out in the woods, and had come back to take a break.
I thought maybe he was in one of his moods, but then I caught the smirk, and the quick wink.
"Fuck you, old man," I said, and then took off down the hill, running high speed, pumping my legs, showing the speed I'd been working on all summer. I hit the dock and propelled myself into the lake, letting out a whoop that must have reverberated against the hills that rose from all sides.
It was cold – really cold – but felt so damn good. I swam back to the dock and hauled myself up. Then, whipped out the dick – which had fortunately shrunk in cold-shock – and pissed long and hard into the lake. I could feel dad's eyes on me, but it's not like I was gonna get in trouble. We used to piss in the lake all the time – it was kind of our thing. If shit was gonna get back to normal, that meant doing the things we used to do, before he got all weirded out.
I trotted back up the hell, sucking in the fresh air. Other than the nearly constant ache in my balls, I was feeling pretty good. I was glad he'd invited me – was glad to be here.
I strode up to the deck, still dripping wet.
"So – we got some work to do, I hear."
He just looked at me – like he wasn't listening.
"What, Pops?"
"Damn, kid. You
really have put on some muscle."
I finally copped to my near nudity, kind of embarrassed.
"Yeah – you know, not much to do all summer after work. I been putting in a lot of time at the gym."
He whistled, low. It wasn't sexual in any way – at least that wasn't the vibe. Hell, it turned me on, but I knew it was more of an acknowledgement of progress. I felt his eyes raking me, up and down.
I felt good. Happy. Playful. I thought I'd push the envelope.
"Like what you see, Pops?" I hit a pose, flexing my forearms, splaying out the delts. Then I crunched, arms in front of me, biceps bulging, abs ripping down my stomach – pushed the pecs out hard as I could.
But, in his eyes I recognized that more was going on.
I remembered his comment last night, and
coupled with his strange look right now, I began to realize that he really
believed he was slipping – that somehow he'd lost it.
Never mind that the fucker was such a
stud, but guys of a certain age get shit in their heads, you know?
Mid-life crisis and
crap.
I think he believed he was no longer a match for my young body, and I could see
it bothered him.
I stopped the posing,
"We both know you could still kick my ass, Pops."
"Do we? Not so sure any more."
"Hell – you ain't gonna
let a fag take you down, are ya?"
I don't know what had gotten into me. Maybe it was the mountain air, the cold water, the good sleep - or just this overwhelming desire to make things right with him. Easy.
For a moment he hesitated, but then he busted a gut.
"I don't know, Junior. I've met a few tough fags in my day. Crazy motherfuckers – "
He strode past me, and slapped my butt, hard.
"You gonna get your shit together,
or lie around on your ass all day?"
He headed into the kitchen, busting out some eggs and bacon.
I was starved, and headed up to change
clothes. And, yeah, I was
intrigued. Pops had never told me
any stories about meeting `a few tough fags'.
I wondered what that meant.
Over breakfast, I asked him what the plan was.
"Big ass elm down out back – got taken out in the last
storm. Crushed part of the fence,
too. Need to break it down, haul
the crap to the brush pile, set the logs out for drying and – if we got
time – see what we can do with the fence."
"Easy. I got this, Pops.
You're so outta shape, you can just
supervise."
I winked, quickly, and flashed him a smile.
"You're getting awfully mouthy, for a teenager."
"Nearly twenty, Pops. All growed up and `bout to be a man."
"Uh huh – we'll see about that.
Maybe I should take you down a notch."
I cleared away the plates. It was
getting late – for us – and I wanted to get out and get some woods
on.
"I don't know, dad. I hear tell some fags are real crazy motherfuckers –
He rose, glugging the rest of his coffee.
"And, where the hell did all this shit-ass-fucking language come from, dickwad? I taught you better than that."
I snapped to, like he'd taught me.
"Sir, yes, sir, you taught me better than that, sir.
I apologize for my shit-ass-fucking
language, sir! I'll clean it the
mother-fuck up!"
It was back to our old routine.
Felt good. Not completely
normal – I could tell we were both feeling each other out.
But, I also knew that we were making an
effort to figure out where we were now - that neither one of us wanted to stay
stuck where we'd been for the last couple of years.
Dad packed some sandwiches he'd made.
I threw in some fruit and filled a
couple of water bottles. It was
hot. The woods would be cool, but
we were gonna work up a good
sweat, easy. We tossed the
chainsaws and gear in the back of the tractor, and he hopped on, starting it
up. I jogged along side, getting
the blood pumping.
It was back in the day.
The place had about eight acres out back, nearly all woods,
with some clearings. Dad had worked
most of his life keeping it clean.
There were paths and hiding places.
I'd spent the best days of my life back there with him, hauling brush,
keeping it clear. Me and the cousins would play for hours – cowboys and
Indians or Capture the Flag. When
we got older, we'd head out back, while the adults drank beers on the deck
– smoking a joint, which sometime lead to grab ass, which sometime lead
to a little more. Circle jerks by a
fire, and a little more with my cousin Eddy, who liked to push things as far as
he could. I was always game for
that. It's where I figured out what
I liked about guys: sweat, smells,
spit, cum & cock.
I started to bone up in my work-shorts, and pushed that image aside.
Suddenly dad stopped.
I looked up.
The tree was huge – a big stump protruding out of the ground, right at the back-edge of the property.
"Shit," I said.
We just stood there, looking at it.
"I remember this one – big fucker."
"Yeah – she's been here as long as I can remember."
He stood up.
It was a bit somber, looking at the
majesty of the tree, felled. I
broke the spell.
"Damn Pops – what is that, a hundred years or
something."
Quick as a whip he hauled off and slapped me upside the head.
Just hard enough to make me stumble a
bit, just gentle enough to show me he was playing.
"Respect your elders, dickhead.
Let's get to work."
We fired up the chainsaws and then, it was all work.
We hit our stride quickly.
The old rhythms kicked in easily.
We cut out the branches, piling them on
the flat-bed that was attached to the tractor.
When it was full, he'd head off to the
brush pile, and I'd keep cutting.
Pretty soon, sweat was pouring.
The shirts stayed on, though, because of the brush and saws, and pretty
soon we were soaking wet. We worked
like that for hours, knowing the natural time to break – when all the
branches had been cleared and hauled.
Three hours later we sat on the big old tree, wolfing down the sandwiches, gulping water. We were dirty, covered in saw-dust, beginning to emit a nice strong funk. I wondered if dad was hurting with the labor, but he didn't show it. If anything, he seemed energized – like he needed this exercise - like he needed someone to work with, to push him, get the old groove back.
After we finished the sandwiches, we just sat for a while,
enjoying the peace. It was the
high-heat of the day, mid-afternoon.
We were on the western edge of the time zone, so we still had hours of
light. It was a still day –
usually there was a westerly blowing pretty constantly, but this late in the
summer, there were lots of days like this.
The last, powerful, sweltering days of summer.
Even the birds seem to be resting in the
August heat.
"I love this place," I said.
"I love this place, too, kid. Always have."
"Always will," I replied.
There was a pause and I knew we were about to back to work.
"Thanks for inviting me, dad.
I needed this."
He looked at me and I held his gaze.
He remained silent – as he sometimes did – but his eyes
spoke volumes.
"Back to work," he said, again, with that smile of his, that always got me.
We gassed up the chainsaws and began breaking down the monster.
* * * * *
We worked the rest of the afternoon, pushing ourselves hard. I kept an eye on the old man, but he wouldn't be stopped. When I could, I made sure that I was the guy to lift the biggest logs, building the stack that we'd leave to dry for a year or so, before splitting it to add to our winter wood-pile. It was great exercise – my core had never been stronger, and I reveled in the ability to lift these huge chunks of wood. My veins were popping, my chest was puffed out, my ass and legs burned, but damn it felt good to just get lost in hard, sweaty labor.
When we got to the section of the tree that had crushed the fence, we both stopped, turning off the chainsaws. Dad's chest was pumping, and I could see his body hair matted with sweat. The funk that steamed off him got me a little dizzy. His pants kept riding down, and I saw more and more of his hairy crack. Fuck, I wanted to bury my face in there, smell his musk, lick the wet sweat from the trench, explore his most private place.
I shook my head – trying to clear those images from my horned brain.
"Well, shit," he said.
"Gonna have to call a crew in to fix this."
I looked at the smaller logs that we hadn't broken down yet.
"Naw, Pops. I got
this. Can fix it up fine enough for
the winter at least."
I turned, and jumped on the tractor.
"Where the hell you going?" he asked.
"Tools – be right back." I
fired up the tractor, then stuck it in neutral,
jumping back off. "Also – gotta get water.
We need to stay hydrated."
"I'm fine – burning off this extra weight."
"First of all, I keep telling you, Pops, the weight looks good.
Real good."
I could give a fuck anymore what he thought. I was pumped with testosterone, my muscles were flexed, the smells off our body had put me in some kind of musky nirvana, and I wanted him to feel better about himself. Fucker was a stud. Had me all wound up. Wanted him to know that some guys – ladies too – would give just about anything to get with a hunk like him.
"So, cut that shit out.
You got miles on just about any dude your age, and you need to know it."
He just stood there, looking kind of stupid, like he didn't really know what to
say or how to take the compliment.
I reached into the cooler and pulled out two apples, one for him and one for
me.
"And, do me a favor," I said, tossing one to him.
"Eat this – we need to keep up our
energy, and I don't want you keeling over in the back woods, cuz you're trying to pull some kind of Jane Fonda workout
diet."
"Yes, mommy," he said.
I pulled away. But, as I looked back, he was chowing on the fruit, doing what I told him.
On the way back the tractor's rumble hit my hole and
nuts. I could have pulled it out
right there, dug in my ass and whipped one off – but I didn't want him
wondering where I went to, and I needed my energy to pull off this one last
chore.
Still, the nuts were pulsing. No
matter what, I was gonna have a good time tonight
– clean out the hole, work it with a plug, and shoot a huge load thinking
of dad's sweaty ass and what I knew was his big, daddy dick.
(Yeah, okay – I'd scoped it out in
the showers, more than few times.
Other times, too. What kid
doesn't look at his dad's dick?)
I tossed a bunch of tools on the flatbed, filled the water
bottles and was back in a flash. He
was chain-sawing again, but I gave him the water, standing firm, expecting him
to drink. Fucker was a little put
off by my new assertiveness, but I didn't care.
I spent the summer reading up on
fitness, and knew my shit. Man
needed water and he was gonna
drink some on my watch.
He did, draining nearly half of the gallon jug.
Then, I directed him away from the space, and he finished off the rest of the
big trunk.
I sawed off several mid-sized branches – the strong
and straight ones, honing the edges to a point with the chain saw.
I needed three, and had them done in no
time. Then I cut out what was left
of the shattered posts, preserving as much of the fencing as I could.
Next it was the postholes –
digging out the poles slammed into the ground by the trunk, making way for the
new posts I'd just fashioned. It
was tough work, and digging in the dirt got me covered in grime.
I was loving it – kind of getting
obsessed about showing the old man what I could do to help around the
place.
With a sledge I drove those fuckers down, deeper than the holes I'd dug, to
make sure they had a firm footing, burying them up so they stood strong.
Then, using tools I'd pulled from the
workshop, I restrung the fence as best as I could, with what remained of the
fence. It was patchwork – not
a pro job by any means – but enough of a base to build on.
With a run to the hardware store I could
get the wires and fencing I needed to cover the gaping holes, and it would hold
through winter, at least. We could
do a proper repair next year.
As I nailed the fencing to the posts, twisting the wires to tighten the hold, I
didn't even notice that dad's saw had stopped running.
Pretty soon the quiet crept into my
consciousness and I pulled myself from concentration, looking around.
Dad sat atop the pile of logs we'd
stacked, legs spread, holding the water bottle, looking at me.
I caught his appraisal.
I wondered how long he'd been studying
me as I worked to do a job that – let's face it – I wanted him to be
proud of.
I felt self-conscious.
I was covered in dirt and saw dust, shirt and shorts soaked, hairy legs
smeared with sweat. But, I could
tell – I fucking knew –
that I passed muster.
Fuck if my chest didn't swell.
I stepped back, surveying the work. It was a fix, nothing more, but it was solid.
He jumped off the post and strode over. It was inspection, and I knew it, so I stood at parade, like he'd taught me. He took a good hard look, testing the repairs and the holds. Then, he kicked a couple of the posts. They didn't give. At all.
He turned, towering over me. I mean – he didn't tower but he had pretty decent height on me – always would. But, I felt like a little kid again, waiting to hear his words of approval. I was looking at my boots now. There was a dynamic, and I'd given in to it. He said nothing, so I looked up at him. He'd taken his shirt off – my eyes wandered up his big chest, my mouth watering at the thought of sucking his pecs, getting lost in the forest of his chest hair. Then, I met his eyes. They were deep grey pools, revealing nothing but pride.
He reached up and tussled my head. I caught the intense whiff of his sweaty pit.
"Nice work, kid. Really nice."
"Thanks, dad," I choked out.
"Let's get a swim and kick back with some beers.
I'm fucking thirsty."
"Yes, Sir," I enthused.
He threw his arm around my neck, which turned into a glancing hug.
Then, we walked back to the tractor,
picking up tools up along the way.
It was early evening. The job was done.
* *
*
* *
Down by the dock, dad started pulling out his dick, ready to let loose. I wanted to see it, but I was worried I would bone – so on impulse, I just reached out and pushed him into the water.
"You mother –" and under he went, fully clothed. He came up, choking.
"You little fucking bitch."
I dove in, and he came after me, grabbing my legs, pulling me down.
We wrestled in the water, dunking each
other, playfully.
And, then, it wasn't playful. He pulled my neck into a headlock, but I slipped away, yanking him down. Then, I was on his back as he stood to get his purchase. I had him now, and my muscles were straining against his.
For a second I thought of loosening my grip, giving him a
chance, then all those Sunday morning football practice sessions – Pop
Warner league – flashed in my memory, him yelling at us, telling us to
`grind your opponent into the dirt.'
"Fuck it, Pops," I thought.
I wanted to show him what I was about now – show him that just because I was gay, it didn't mean I wasn't a tough sonofabitch. I held on, gripping him, using everything I had to assert myself on the big man.
Motherfucker held on, but I had him, and he knew it. He struggled back, but he couldn't break free. My muscles were too young, too worked out. My bulk – which wasn't close to his - had been honed to its peak.
I felt him hold, and then slowly he relaxed, giving in. I'd won.
I loosened the grip, and then his elbow jammed into my stomach. He'd done hand-to-hand combat in the Corps, and I'd let my guard down, too early. The surprise of the hit, coupled with the loss of air from the gut-punch, startled me.
"Motherfucker hit me," I thought, but realized, yet again, that he'd used just enough strength to put me off center, but not enough to actually hurt me.
Old man still had skills.
In an instant, he was on me, scissoring his big legs around my thighs,
immobilizing them, pulling one hand behind my back, shoving it up to just
near-dangerous levels and not a millimeter more.
The other arm wrapped around my throat,
constricting the blood flow to my brain, tightening my esophagus.
I could breathe, but I was gasping, and
the shock of the hit, his strength and the reduced oxygen, had me
immobilized. I struggled once, and
he tightened everything, like a python.
His entire body strained against mine, enveloping me, dominating
me. We held there, his body
grinding into mine. I could feel
his bulge against my tight ass, could feel him pushing his pelvis into my
butt. And, fuck, it was stiff.
Not rock hard, but close enough.
The eroticism surged, weakening me
further. It felt so good to be held
by him like that, so rough, so fucking dangerous.
We were pushing the limits of our
encounter – just this side of violence, and just this side of porn.
I tried one last time to get release,
but my heart wasn't into it. I
didn't want to get free. It was
just an excuse to push my ass into his crotch and feel as much of his manhood
as I may ever get to feel in this position.
And, he let it happen.
He let me grind into his cock, now full hard, even though wet clothing was layered between our contact.
I was getting dizzy, weakening.
"I give."
"What?" he growled into my ear.
"I give, sir."
"I can't hear you, boy." He
tightened again. I didn't think it
was possible. It was like he was
smothering me with this overwhelming brutishness – so fucking virile and
so fucking male.
The light was shifting.
It was getting dark around the
edges.
"I give, daddy."
He held a split second more, pushing to the outer edge of safety and sanity, and pushing his crotch into my ass, unmistakably. My body let loose – all the strain went out of my muscles. I melted into him, surrendering.
And, his grip relaxed. He eased off me, but slowly, maintaining complete control as he dialed down his strength.
I gasped for air, standing in the waist-high water. He tried to hide his exertion, but I knew he'd taken it to the limit, too. A minute passed. Then another.
It took me a while to regain my breathe and my equilibrium. I splashed water on my face, still bent over, and he waded toward the shore, standing knee deep.
Then he turned, facing me, pulled open his pants and hauled out his cock. It was no longer hard, but it wasn't soft either, just real heavy, curving down with heft. He wrapped his big fist around it and I eyed the thing, not caring if he saw me looking. He let loose a huge stream of piss, finishing the job that I'd interrupted, and making a show of it, too.
"Guess the old man still has it," he grunted, letting out his stream.
I pulled up and waded out.
"Guess he does," I said, while looking at the huge piece of meat he displayed, marking the cool water where he'd imposed his will.
* * * * *
I stripped off heading up the hill, my body pulsing, my mind racing. Dad would use the lake to rinse off, but I needed a shower to clear my head.
So many thoughts, as I stood under the hot stream, nearly scalding.
I soaped up, feeling my crotch, digging
in my hole. I thought about beating
off, but I wanted to keep this incredible man-vibe going, and I needed sperm in
my nuts to do that – to play at this level.
I didn't know what was going on, but I wasn't gonna hold back. Even without the danger in the lake, it had been an incredible day, dad and I finding our old dance, retesting our relationship, getting back to some kind of normal. But, the sexual vibe had ratcheted, too, and the near fight had somehow bonded us, while at the same time, setting back the proper roles. He'd put me in my place and damned if that's not just what I wanted and needed.
On a whim (or a wish) I pulled out the travel bulb from my kit, lubed up my hole and cleaned out. It was just a fantasy that I'd get his cock up there, but with the roles now set, it seemed completely natural that I be ready. If anything was gonna happen, we both knew who would be doing what to whom. I had a duty. Dad had taught me that. Duty to serve. To prepare. To be ready. To know what part you played. To play that part well – the best that you could.
So, I got ready.
After all, a kid could dream couldn't he?
It was the end of the day, but the light was fading slowly. I threw on some tight jeans that highlighted every asset, but stayed shirtless. It was still hot.
I went to the kitchen to pull out a couple of beers, and then headed out to the deck.
I expected dad to be there.
But, I didn't expect him to be nude.
He was kicking back – and he was already working on a
beer, with a cold one next to my chair, waiting.
"I got some beers."
"Good," he said, chugging the remains of his.
He belched, and it reverberated in the
hills. "I'm thirsty."
I handed him the new brew, and pulled on my own, chugging the whole thing,
standing next to him. I echoed his
belch, louder, more forcefully.
Then I sat, and nursed the next one.
There was quiet, but I couldn't let go of the fact that the old man was sitting there, buck-ass naked. Still, I tried to let it be, enjoying the silence, adapting to this next new reality.
The setting sun beat down on us. I began to sweat. I couldn't tell how much of the glean on his body was from the lake, and how much was caused by the late evening fireball, dipping slowly behind the hills, across the lake. It was magnificent. All of it. His older, thick, hairy naked frame, my worked out body, pumped from the day's work, the pristine setting, the booze, the heat.
The buzz of the first beer hit me. My body was tired and hungry, and I'd used up the fuel from earlier in the day. We chugged again, belching simultaneously.
He stood and strode to the kitchen. I looked back, checking out his beefy ass. Fuck, he was hot.
He returned with four more beers, a bottle of whiskey and a
couple of shot glasses. He poured
the shots, gave one to me.
"Good work today." Then we nailed
the shots together.
"You too."
He sat, picking up another beer.
I went there. Had to. Couldn't help myself.
"So, Pops, you a nudist now?"
"Yeah, about that – "
He took a long draw on his beer. "I figured since you got no secrets, I may as well not worry about mine. Gotten to the point – up here at least – that clothes just bother me. `Specially on a night like this. Like to let it hang out. Lately, when I'm up here and the weather's like this – clothes have pretty much become a pain in my ass."
"Cool," I whispered.
"You got a problem with it?" he asked directly. It wasn't a challenge, just a question. (Well . . . it was a bit of a challenge, I think.)
"Naw – it's . . . Naw. I'm cool."
"Feel free, if you want to. We got
nothing to hide."
I wanted to – damn I wanted to – but I was throwing wood already
and barely able to hide it. I
couldn't imagine sitting there all hard and dripping, pretending that nothing
was going on.
"Understood."
We sat. His look was distant.
Relaxed.
He wasn't looking at me so I could take
him in. His cock hung over the
chair, hooded. His bull balls were
resting above, on the edge of the chair – in repose.
So fucking masculine.
So much of everything
I desired.
He spoke. "About that . . . "
"About what?"
"About no secrets . . . I got something to say."
I waited.
It wasn't like he was having difficulty – more that he was taking his time. He poured another couple of shots. We slammed them back. I was buzzed – the perfect buzz. Just loose enough not to care – to have no inhibitions – but not fucked up so I couldn't be in the moment.
"I've been an asshole. A real fucking asshole –"
"Pops – "
"Shut up," he said forcefully, but with quiet strength.
"Let me speak."
I shut up.
"I didn't – it wasn't – you being who you are – being gay
– it just was never on my radar screen."
He paused, still distant, choosing his
words, I think.
"When you become a dad, you think of all the good things that can happen, and you're scared shitless of all the bad things that can happen, but you never think of everything that can happen. And, where I'm from – the life I've led – in the Corps, and before, and after – it just wasn't in the cards for me that you'd be gay. Never crossed my mind. Not once. And, you were so – fuck, kid, you were such a man. A good man – and athletic, and smart, and everything. You were everything I dreamed you'd be. My kid. My son. My friend. Football, baseball – hard work, up here and in school and at practice. Going to the gym with you on the base – all the guys giving me props on my perfect fucking son. So . . . it just wasn't in my imagination that you were a cocksucker – "
I kind of flinched, and he caught it.
"Sorry, kid, that's the Corps coming out – but you gotta understand, that's what we called guys like you."
He paused.
"Sorry," he whispered.
This was hard for him.
"I get it." And, I did.
"What I'm trying to say is it surprised me. Hit me like a ton of bricks. I had images of guys like you and you weren't that image – but there you were, telling me and it – it just didn't fucking compute."
He kept going.
It was kind of like he'd rehearsed this, but had forgotten his lines the
minute he started talking, so stuff was just spilling out.
"And, the stupid thing is all my life I've known guys like you.
Hell, in the Corps the queers were
always the toughest fuckers – mean as shit - brutal sometimes.
So it's not like I didn't know that
there are all kinds of gay guys.
Sissies and queens and tough motherfuckers and some of the best damn
soldiers I ever met. But – it
just never . . . I don't know. I
just fucked up."
"Dad –"
"Shut up, dammit. I'm trying to say
I'm sorry, kid. I fucked up.
And, it's not like I didn't have people
up in my face about it, either.
Shit, your mom went ballistic on me – hardly spoke to me the last
six months she was so pissed. I
hooked up with buddies from the Corps and hell – half of them have queer
kids of their own, or queer nephews, and they were like, `Sarge
– time's have changed. You
got to let it go.' And the others,
the guys from the platoon – hell, they got up in my face, saying shit
like `at least he had the balls to tell you – you taught the punk to tell
the truth, so don't get all bent out of shape when he follows orders, Sarge.'"
I was crying. Not balling but I felt tears coming and I let them fall, run down my face and onto my bare chest.
"And, I started going to the games and shit kid, you were
standing out. So focused, so tough.
And, the teammates, telling me about you
– how brave you were to come out at the first team meeting, how you took
no shit about it, how much they admired you for being so straight about it.
And the coaches.
Fuck – one of those assholes
basically told me he was queer, and that I better get used to it, and if he had
to pick the one kid on the team that was his
son, hands down it would be you.
Asshole nearly threatened to beat my ass if I didn't shape up –
said I didn't know how good I had it with you; that I was gonna
lose you; that I better get my head straight before it was too late, cuz a kid like you – who'd spent all of his life
doing everything he could to meet the expectations of a hard-driving asshole
like me – well, a kid like you was only gonna
wait so long before he said `fuck it' and walked away.
And, why wouldn't you?
You are everything kid – everything – I wanted you to be,
expected you to be, taught you to be.
Everything. And, I turned my
back . . . probably when you needed me most."
There was silence. He had told me
to shut up, so I kept quiet. I
wiped the tears from my face, and took another long pull on my beer.
"I'm so proud of you, and fuck, I'm sorry I hurt you. I've hated being distant from you – feeling your anger – which was deserved - but I still hated it."
"And, then that one coach said something that made it all click. He said, `Your problem isn't just that you don't want your son to be gay – you're problem is you can't handle the fact that he likes being gay. He likes who he is, and he's proud of who he is – and you taught him to be that way, and now you can't handle it, but what you really can't handle is that some gay dudes – they like being that way.'"
"He said, `You're problem is that he likes sucking dick – it makes him happy – and as long as you don't want him to suck dick, what you're really telling him is that you don't want him to be happy, and that is fucked up. That is completely fucked up.' That's what he said. Then he walked away."
I pictured the conversation, the look on my Pop's face, the
coach getting up in it, (I was pretty sure I knew who it was and he was a tough
fucker, like my dad), and then the coach stalking off, fuming, stepping away
before he cold-cocked my own father, right in the bar.
We just sat there for a while.
Then, my dad said, "And you know what? That mother-fucker was right."
This time he just swigged straight from the whiskey bottle.
Pops must have been buzzed, but I guess
he needed it, to say what he needed to say.
"So, what I'm trying to say – what I need to say – is that I want you to be happy, kid. That's all I've ever wanted. And, if being gay makes you happy, then I want you to be gay, cuz I want you to be happy. If you like sucking cock, then I want you to suck cock. Hell – I want you to be the best goddamn cocksucker you can be, kid, and I don't care if that sounds weird, but that's what I want. I want you to be the best fag you can be and the best cocksucker you can be, and more than that, I expect nothing less."
I didn't have anything to say, so I didn't say anything. But, I reached for the bottle , he handed it to me, and I took a swig. I needed it, too. Wanted to be in this moment with him.
Eventually, I said, "Wow."
"Yeah, wow," he replied. And we
sat. It was just the edge of
darkness. The moon was coming
up. The light was magical -
mystical. Time passed, but it
didn't seem to. It was like this
moment we were in had made the universe stand still.
I kind of got lost in it, and then I
heard his voice, and it shook me out.
"So – you like sucking cock, huh?"
"Yes, Sir, I do."
"Good." He paused.
He held out his hand, and I passed the
bottle back.
"You good at it?" he asked, taking a swig.
"Yeah. I am.
I think.
I mean – yeah.
I am.
I love cock, dad."
"Nice. Good for you."
"It turns me on. That – and
other stuff."
"Your uncle used to suck my cock – I mean, we were kids, but he liked
it. Fuck, I loved it. Never felt
anything that good – course at that age, never felt anything but my
hand. Still . . . " He trailed
off, getting kind of distant.
But, I could tell where he was . . . he was getting his cock sucked, back in the day, by his brother. I shivered, trying to figure out which one it might be.
He read my mind.
"Uncle Bill."
Huh. Bachelor Bill.
Never got married.
I always wondered, but he was the quiet
type. Couldn't believe I hadn't
pieced that together.
"And, of course, in the Corps, some of the fags – hey, do you hate the word `fag'? Or, `queer'? Is that offensive of something, cuz I'm trying to figure this shit out?" He was getting a little drunk, but it was good drunk – friendly drunk.
"No – I don't mind.
I get it.
I – uh, kind of like it.
I am a fag – I like being queer.
It's . . hard to explain."
"Yeah. I bet."
Another pause.
"Anyway – in the Corps –"
"But, dad –" I interrupted him. He'd opened the door, and so I had to say what I had to say, since he'd asked. (Like he used to tell me: "If someone asks you a question, give `em a straight answer. Don't beat around the bush. It may get you in trouble sometimes, but in the long run, it'll serve you well.")
"It's just - like, when you spit it out – like when you're
watching a game on TV, or when you used to coach and called us fags and stuff
– or the other team. That's
when I don't like it. Didn't like
it."
That kind of stopped him. But, I kept going.
"Shit, Dad," I said, all innocent like.
"Never figured you'd do that – you
know – let a guy suck your dick."
"Nine months of basic training will make you want to fuck anything – put
your dick anywhere. It was mostly
that. But, not just that.
Hell, I got off on it.
Best blow-jobs
I ever got, like I said - but it was . . . also . . . it was, cuz they wanted
it. Women are sometimes like – like they don't always want your cock.
But, fags – sorry, gay guys
– shit, some of those guys would do anything
for your cock, and who doesn't want to have their cock wanted?"
I just let him talk.
"I'm a little buzzed," he said.
"Me, too."
"It was hot having my cock wanted like that. Knowing that a guy would do anything for it. It flipped my switch. I fucking loved it."
Then, he turned to me, kind of sexy in a way I didn't see much from him. "See, kid? I ain't all Neanderthal."
"I'm beginning to figure that out, soldier."
I was trying to keep it light, but it seemed he had one more
thing to say.
"I'm sorry, baby boy. I really am."
"I know. I – um – I
know. It's okay."
"I love you, kid."
"I love you, too, Pops. And, I
forgive you. I get it."
We turned away from each other, looking out at the
lake. We just sat there for a
while, nice and buzzed, but then he reached back down and started scratching
his balls again, except he kept his hand there, this time.
I could see him going back to the days
when guys couldn't get enough of his cock.
It was turning me on, thinking of him like that.
And, all I could do was look at it.
My eyes were glued. It had
gotten bigger as he groped it.
Fuller. Heavier.
He shifted position, pushing his junk
out into the air, letting it hang there.
It curved downward, waving.
Heavy. I couldn't tear my
eyes away. Didn't care if he saw
me.
I wanted it.
Then, I felt his eyes on me. I let him look at me looking at his cock.
"So, kid – you like cock like that?
Like you'd do anything for it."
"Yeah," I whispered. He just
waited. I could tell he wanted to
know more. So, I gave him more
"Some cock – a certain kind of
cock - flips my switch. Kind of
makes me go crazy."
"Big cock?"
"Yeah, dad. Big
cock. Man cock – not like
kids my age have. Older dudes."
His dick flexed. He'd pulled his hand away and swigged his beer, not taking his eyes off of me.
"Huh," he said.
Then he looked away from me, out at the lake again, but I kept looking at his dick. In the moonlight I saw the head glisten. He was pre-cumming, and I could see it dripping off the tip.
"I wantcha to be a good
cocksucker, boy, if that's what you're into.
Make your dad proud of ya when you're sucking cock.
Be the kind of cocksucker that makes a
guy remember it for a long time."
"Yes, Sir."
"Like I remember the guys in the Corps, sucking on my dick."
"Yes, Sir."
"Shit – haven't had my cock sucked like that in years.
Don't hardly get any
at all these days, and sure don't get it sucked like that – not like I
used to back then."
He took another swig of whiskey, passed the bottle to me.
I drank.
Then I turned to him, a little, trying
to meet his gaze, but he was still looking out at the lake. My head was
pulsing. My cock was aching.
My whole body felt alive with the night
air, the exercise, the intensity down by the lake, our
conversation . . . and this. Him, sitting there, dick swinging, now beginning to drip.
"Damn, Dad –"
My throat was hoarse, from the whiskey and the heat.
"I mean, damn - seems a shame, a dick like that.
Not getting sucked.
It should get sucked.
Probably needs to be sucked."
Then he looked at me. His eyes
blazed. He was breathing a little
hard. I could see his chest
swelling.
"Yeah," he said, voice quiet and deep. "Yeah, it does."
It was . . . an order? A request? What else could it be?
I wasn't sure.
But, then I was
sure. I wanted it.
I felt like he wanted it, too, but that
didn't matter as much as my need. I
decided to break free of what may be right and what may be wrong, and just went
with my gut. Another thing the old
man had taught me.
So, I got down on my knees between his legs in one smooth movement, steadying
myself on his thick thighs.
"I'm a good cocksucker, Sir – really good – like you want me to be."
"Fuck," he whispered.
"I want to show you, dad – make you proud, like you said. Make you remember it."
He looked at me. I wondered if he was at war with himself. If he was, he didn't show it. All he seemed to show was power, confidence and lust.
He stared at me, on my knees, looking at the kid he'd never seen, the private man I'd become. I looked back and displayed my need. No more secrets, like he said.
"Hungry for it, huh kid."
"Yes sir. Real hungry."
He didn't say yes and didn't say no. I kept looking at it. Up close, it was intense – not a pretty cock – fuck, it was kind of ugly, but in this extreme, erotic and totally masculine way. Thick, and straight, the shaft was bumpy with veins that pumped. It rose in front of me to near full-hard. Had to be at least ten inches, but maybe more, once it stiffened completely. It looked a little like a horse-cock, not even human in it's thickness, heaviness and heft. The head pushed out from the foreskin, and a glob of pre-cum oozed from the tip. The whole top of the thing was glistening and wet.
As much as I wanted it, I had learned, over the course of my life, that this was a man that would tell you what to do. I did the only thing I could think of, another thing he taught me to do – ask for what you want.
"Please sir – dad - let me show you what a good
cocksucker I am."
He continued to appraise me with his eyes, looking at his muscled boy, on his knees, asking for his cock. I flexed a little, splaying out my body as much as I could in this position. I still wanted him to be proud of me, still wanted him to know I was all man, even if I was also all fag.
Still, he didn't speak or move.
I wanted to kiss it, love it, nurse the head, pull out his juice, but it felt like the moment hung in the balance, that at any second he might pull out of his own hazy drunken lust, step away from the incest we were about to commit. I couldn't even believe it had come this far.
Musk rose from under his balls. Dad had been in the lake, but hadn't showered, and I grew even more intoxicated by the man-smells emanating from this seat of power.
If I got the go, I knew I couldn't fuck around – no kissing or licking or whimpering. I pooled whiskey-flavored spit in my mouth and throat, breathing deeply, so I had air when the moment came.
And, then, his dick flexed, in a distinct sign of
permission, and I heard the barely audible whisper, "Show me."
I didn't dive on it. I was just
completely focused. All the
physical training of the past year kicked in – my muscles pumped, my core
strong - I controlled my throat with my mind, breathed deep and covered the
head with my mouth, pausing just a moment to suck down the man-lube he was
producing, knowing it would coat my throat for the invasive entry to
follow. I used this pause to adjust
to the size, to force my mind into imagining its easy entry, even though I knew
this wasn't going to be easy.
Then, my lungs full of air, I pushed it into my mouth, juicing my saliva around
it, and then further, to the back of my throat.
At the inevitable resistant point, I
pushed my core forward, forcing it down my gullet, pushing myself steadily,
controlled, onto his massive fuck-stick.
I didn't choke, didn't panic, didn't pull back, didn't
scrape my teeth. This was all about
him – all about showing him the kind of gay man I was, the kind of fag I
could be for him, the kind of cocksucker he'd remember for the rest of his
life: strong, unashamed, intense
and in control.
He didn't push it in, didn't pull it away, just let me do the work. My stomach pushed up mucous, but I was prepared for it, and used it to coat the steel rod and ease it down to the root.
I landed in his thick pelvic fur, my nose buried, the cock entirely and completely down my throat, and I held there.
A deep, surprised, primal growl emanated from his chest. "Fuucccckkkkk."
He pushed it further down my throat, thrusting his hips up, his balls slapping my chin. I took it. Let him use me, knew I could hold this position for a long time.
I let him enjoy it.
Then he seemed to hesitate, I think trying to be gentle, so I guided his use of me, showing him what I could take. I pulled off, feeling the hard edges of his cock gripping against my throat-opening, trying to pull me inside out, but his growl intensified as the entire shaft was massaged, and the head popped out, consumed by my hungry mouth.
I sucked in air through my nose, simultaneously licking my tongue under the foreskin, pulling out the cheese and funk, and sucking the head to consume as much cocksnot as possible. Then, I pushed down again to the root.
I'd never been so fixated on a single cock. It was all about him – my body had become my mouth and my throat, focusing each ounce of muscle and energy on his dick pleasure.
I pulled up again, and shoved myself down again. I had it now, there wasn't going to be a gag reflex, my slime had coated his meat and I was open.
The growls grew louder.
He grabbed my head and I used every part of my body to communicate that he could do so – that I wanted him to do so.
I clutched his heavy, muscled thighs, urging him to drive
into me, and he did. He thrust deep
into my throat, forcing it down, as unintelligible sounds emerged from his
frame. He pulled out, I breathed,
and he pushed back in. I could tell
he was still holding back just a little, and I didn't want that.
I moaned, loud, like a slut, grasping
his balls in my hand just hard enough to get him to understand I wanted this,
needed to be used, desired his thrusts and face-fucking.
"Jesus – Jesus fucking Christ."
He stood up, legs spread, pulled back my head, holding his full gleaming cock
out in the night air. My mouth hung
open, dripping slime, my eyes were teared, snot was
running out of my nose – I gave him the picture of my need and it
registered. He shoved back in, hard
now, uncaring, just like I wanted. He abused my throat, thrusting in and
out. His balls tightened and I held
them, squeezing them, hurting them, so he would fuck me.
And he did. He rammed it in and out of me. He was sweating now, nearly out of control.
"Fuck – gonna
cum."
Like the gentleman of the Corps that he'd been trained to be, I felt him try to
pull out, to give me the option to reject his sperm, but I'd been waiting all
of my life for this moment. I
needed the seed that had made me, needed his nut in me – needed it to be
part of me. I let go of his balls,
wrapped my worked-out arms around his ass and crushed him back into me, down into me, willing him to go as deep
as possible, telling him to flood my guts.
Showing him the kind of fag I was, the kind of cocksucker that he'd
never forget. The kind of man that wanted his cock and needed his sperm. I
told him with every fiber of my being, every muscle in my body, that I had to
have every ounce of his sperm.
Not gonna waste your precious seed dad
– never.
I moaned, humming his cock, and it expanded, growing huge and rigid, unlike
anything I'd ever felt before, larger than any cock that had ever invaded my
body. It pierced my soul, felt like
it would rip me apart, but still I held on, squeezing with all the strength my
muscled arms could provide.
The roar pierced the night. His body jerked and the rocket of cum shot down my throat. He was so deep I couldn't even taste it, but I could feel it. I was sobbing now in need, experiencing a fantasy that I never thought would be realized, and that surpassed any fetid pictures I'd ever imagined. He thrust and thrust, flooding my guts, filling me up, his roars echoing over the still lake. For the second time in a one night, I started to linger on the edges of consciousness, but wouldn't think of letting go. It was mine – my cock, my cum, my dad – my lifeline to the world.
His legs began to shake, weak with an orgasm that had ripped
through him. I pushed him back in
the chair, sliding my arms up his back.
His cock continued to spooge, and beyond the
air I needed to live, this was the load I needed to taste.
I pulled back, releasing my throat, sucking in precious oxygen while vacuuming
the half of his meat I held, clamped by my hungry mouth.
It jerked and jumped and jismed, still spewing his essence, which flooded my tongue
and taste buds, pushing primal buttons in my brain.
He was heaving and I was ravenous, body
writhing, sucking his hose for its last drops of dad-nectar.
His cock continued to drip and flex,
pushing out thick substantial ropes of cum.
I swallowed, showing him the cocksucker
he had asked about, urged me to be.
I slutted for my dad
eagerly, proudly, joyously.
And, fuck, it tasted so good! Powerful, strong, assertive, indescribable.
His body shook with tremors and I writhed slowly, displaying my hot muscled body, willing him to find the beauty in my perfect jock frame. Jock cocksucker. Jock fag. Dad's jock cocksucking fag.
He breathed out, huffing, twitching just enough to let me know that his cock was now overly sensitized. I eased off of my whoredom, but nursed it gently in my mouth. Eventually letting it come to rest on my tongue, periodically lapping the last drops of fluid that were still surging from his balls. Then, only the very tip, nursing like a babe at the teet, willing the last of his father's milk into my hungry, underfed stomach.
We stayed like that for what seemed like hours, but what I
know were just minutes. Eventually
I let the cock drop from my mouth, but pushed my face into his crotch, relaxing
my worked out body, breathing in his animal scent.
I lapped at his balls a few times and he
twitched some more. I wanted to keep
going, but knew the aftermath was just as dangerous as the initiation. I could
have stayed between his legs all night, but I let him lead.
He patted my head, caressing me, barely.
He reached over for his beer and took a swig.
I pulled back. I knew my face was a mess, so I looked down.
"Fuck, kid. That
was fucking amazing."
He pushed the beer down to me, using it to lift up my chin.
I knew it was mine to take, though what
I really wanted to do was kiss him . . . but of course I held back from
that. Instead, I wrapped my
wet lips around the bottle and let him tip it into my mouth, chugging it
down. The last thing I wanted to do
was wash the remains of his seed off of my tongue and down my throat, but like
I said, I was following his lead now.
The beer helped – took me out of my feral lust-state and cleared my head, just a bit.
I figured the best thing to do was transition us beyond this
moment, even though I didn't want to.
So, I let out a massive belch, forcing out the air that he'd forced in
me.
He threw back his head, stretched out his legs and bellowed a laugh.
Good start.
"Fuck dad," I said.
"I'm fucking starving."
I stood, a little dizzy, so in order to right myself, I focused on his
incredibly sexy frame and the shiny cock hanging in the now dark night.
"Me too, kid."
He stood, looking at my wet face.
Then, he pushed me away – not hard, but firm. It was the signal to move on.
"I'll fire up the grill and get the burgers going.
You get the corn and salad up."
"Yes sir,' I said, turning to the house.
He slapped my ass, hard, strong.
I jumped to - heading to the kitchen, wondering what was gonna come next.
End of Part One