Date: Thu, 3 Jun 2004 09:01:11 -0400 From: Mike & Bagger Subject: Me and My Brother 12 From the last part of the story: For the first time in almost a month Mark talked to Anthony. He said," Tony we have been hurt really bad by your actions towards us, and those actions speak much louder than any words that you could ever say". Both where crying when Mark looked at me to see if I believed Anthony or thought that he was bullshitting us again. Just before I said anything to Mark. Coach Stevens told me that I should really consider whether breaking up family over personal feelings was the right thing to do as a young man. Hearing Coach Stevens say that both Mark and Anthony separated, and just sat there looking at each other quietly. All of a sudden Anthony said to all of us," I know that I have fucked up big time but please let me prove that I deserve your trust again". Coach Stevens suggested that we all sleep on it as well as talk to Mr. Adams about how we feel toward each other, and he told Anthony that until there was some form of resolution that he was going to sleep at his house. This installment is as seen by Tony. Yeah I can understand where Mark was coming from especially after all the stuff that my so called "lover" Kevin along with his sick family had put Matt through, and than the "Gay Bashing" by "our true" parents they called mom and dad for 18 years. I love Mark as a cousin not knowing that he was really my brother, and I got a bigger surprise when I found out that that Matt was also was related to my as well. Both guys are truly HUNKS. I have never talked to anyone before when it comes to my feelings about these guys or the fact that I also am a gay teenager that has been dating a truly messed up guy. The football coach had talked to the varsity soccer coach about offering me a full scholarship as both have seen me play soccer in high school on a team that has won the Maryland State Championship 4 years running in our classification. They told me that I have to sit down and talk to some doctor named Adams to clear my hard head about what I want and the feelings that I have towards my cousins/brothers, and I have an appointment to see him in about 30 mins. Hope that he is not homophobic or I will be up the creek without a paddle so to speak. Come in says Mr. Adams. I enter his office to find a very handsome man of about 26 to 30 years old 6' 4" 240 lbs. black hair with green eyes. I am suppose to see a Mr. Adams at this time and in this address I stuttered. Oh sorry for the short shirt and running pants, but I thought that my next appointment had backed out or canceled without calling. So I went ahead and did my daily workout. Just let me freshen up Tony or do you prefer Anthony before we start to talk to get to know each other. Mr. Adams I prefer Tony cause when my cousin or now I guess brother is mad at me he than starts to call me Anthony, and I hate to hear my given name cause it means nothing but trouble for me. Ok than Tony it is and please do not call me Mr. Adams, call me Mike or Michael < my dad used to call me that when he was mad at me>. Ok Mike it is than. Man if I have to see him 3 times a week its going to be heaven, especially if we can possibly also workout together so I can see him in all his glory. Tony did you hear me I heard him saying as if miles away. Yeah Yeah I hear you Mr. oops Mike. Tony, lets see what is going to be a good time for you so I can block off a couple of hours to talk, unless you do not mind talking while we are at the gym working out at the same time. No problem with that since I love to work out especially during soccer season. Oh than you are a jock Tony, or do you just workout to make the coaches happy during that season. No Mike, I like to work out during and after the season, but I need to let you know something. What the fact that you are gay? he said very bluntly and with a straight ( no pun ) face, because Tony if that is what is bothering you than settle down cause I am also or isn't your gaydar working properly yet . I yelled out," You too". Me too he came back with a very sexy smile on his face. Tony let me tell you some stuff about myself so that you do not freak out on me: I am 22 years old and just graduated with a degree in counseling from Alabama, also I used to play football and track -- shot put since I am 245lbs. standing just about 6'6" also like you and Mark and Matt, I have Italian blood running through my veins, and finally I am the newest member to the Athletic Department as a Graduate Coach/Counselor for 4 sports ( soccer, football, wrestling and track -- field events). So that is enough about me now please give me some information about you so I can feel at home with you, and I do not need to know if you are cut or uncut or the size either . This guy is younger than I thought, but if he is also gay than I wonder if he can tell that I have the hots for him. I'd love to jump his bones anytime any place I thought to myself. Oh yeah he wants me to tell him about myself ( does that include that I prefer to be his bottom ?). Ok Mike here you go, said Tony. I am just about 16 years old having been put forward 3 grades cause of tests scores, am also of pure Italian blood from what I have been told, 6' 175 lbs love to workout especially when not playing soccer or lacrosse, just found out that the woman who had raised me is actually my aunt, and that I have two twin brothers. One of whom I always referred to as my cousin. Was in a relationship with a guy that last I heard was still at the University of Miami, and that is no more after learning that he put some drugs into Mark's drink while we had dinner. Also I can not understand nor do I want to the fact that he is into BDSM and loves to take pain as well as taking it bareback. Especially with the fear of AIDS out there, it just makes me sick to even think of Kevin. What do you want in your life Tony? My life is so screwed up right now. Neither of my brothers or cousins what ever you want to refer to them as refuse to talk to me or have anything to do with me right now. Especially Mark, because he lost most of his year on the team that Coach Stevens redshirted him for the rest of the season. Also I like to have a relationship with somebody as nice and caring as you seem Mike. Tony, I want to tell you a couple of secrets especially when it comes to Mark and Matt. Coach Stevens is also going to redshirt Matt for the remainder of the season requesting that the year of eligibility be extended since both where injured during the pre-season even though the season is almost over. He did that plus sent a copy of all the information from the police in NJ and NY, because I am taking over as Head Coach next season as Coach Stevens has hit the required age for retirement as he likes to say. Also Tony if you play soccer here at Bama than I can guarantee you that your last wish comes true once you are 17 and 1/2 years old. I looked at him like how did he know what my last wish was anyway. I listened as he told me Tony, I will continue to be your counselor in anyway that you wish because I also think that you are one very sexy young man. How did you know what I was wishing for anyway Mike? Oh lets just say its something that comes when your gaydar is working full force, and besides that Tony as I said," You are one very sexy young man plus the fact that you also have Italian blood in those veins of yours. So how are we going to setup the time slots to talk especially since Coach Stevens wants me to also talk with Mark and Matt before we try to get the three of you together for some family therapy. Well lets see Mike, I am open since they have not decided where I am to live or when I get to take my final tests to see if I graduate a year earlier. So I am open to see you anytime day or night. Ok than lets setup a session on Monday and Friday at 9 AM till 3PM with a 2 hour workout between 11 and 1PM as for Wednesday how about we just make it a total workout day with each spotting for the other. Now tell me about your present high school level and type of advanced place testing that you have taken, and I also need to findout where we are going to have you sleep at night since The Red Roof Inn is kind of expensive. Well Mike, I am suppose to be going into my sophomore year at high school, but every three months they have me take something like the SAT test which I have already taken and scored 1580 ( prefect is 1600). If I had the money and really wanted to I could have been in Harvard, Yale etc already, but the stuff that they are teaching in school is nothing like what I have read in the past when I took Mark's textbooks and read them for fun. Yeah say it I am not a jock but should be with the nerds since I have also taken college advancement test and scored 100 on all 6 tests that I have taken including calculus and advanced calculus, biology, chemistry, and physics. My high school is just waiting for me to say that I am going to announce where I plan on playing soccer in the fall, and after I sign they will hand me my diploma since I have passed all senior level classed with a 4.0 GPA. Where am I to live well lets just say that ever since all this crazy stuff has started I would be happy just to sleep on the soccer field for the time being, but I have a sneaky suspicion that is not going to happen. Tony, you have taken as well as passed the hardest classes along with History and English to make all 6 classes with scores of 100 per cent on each one. You are not a nerd my young friend, but a very intelligent young man. As for where you are going to live, well I have a second room in my apartment -- if you do not mind seeing me walk around half naked most of the time when I am home. If you would like Tony we can have you moved in later this afternoon or first thing in the morning. You decided what you want to do. Mike, I would like to do a couple of things. One is move in tonight thanks to your great offer and the other is to take a couple of more advanced placement tests to see if I can get more college credits so I do not get bored when I am at home. I hope that Coach Stevens gets my brothers to understand that its for their best to talk to Mike Adams or as Coach Stevens calls him Mr. Adams, especially since both are not talking to me or returning any messages that I leave for them. Especially since all I want to say to Mark especially the best cousin/brother is a very heartbreaking I am sorry to him. In the next couple of parts they will be through Mike, than Mark's, Matt's eyes and finally before the freshman year ends a family version with Mike being there. TBC