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Dads and Sons

Alex, Kevin, Luke and Steve

What Everybody Says

Luke and Steve go pee and brush their teeth and take care of housekeeping duties.

As they head to their dads' bedroom... they're suddenly nervous, which hadn't even occurred to them before. They're going to be sleeping... naked... with their dads.

It's something that both, but especially Luke, has wanted and needed since he fell so in love with his dads and Michael. And to be honest, he has some feelings for dad Alex that he can't begin to explain.

It's not like dad Alex reminds him of his sperm donor... far from it... they're totally different. But, for him, dad Alex just seems like such a calm presence in his life... like Steve. He loves Dad Kevin just as much, but somehow... differently.

They have absolutely no worries about the dads doing anything they don't want them to... They're more worried they might forget who they're sleeping with... and do something with the dads... that they're not supposed to do... with them. But wish they could...

- - -

They go in and the dads are already lying in bed, on either side with a big space in the middle. Dad Alex chuckles and asks, "Do you guys want the middle or the sides?"

Luke and Steve look at each other and they both grin and say, "Middle!" which gets a laugh and Alex says, "Come on in," and they almost run and jump into bed... naked... with their dads. Something they never thought they'd do... or ever get the chance to do.

No sooner do they get in and everybody under the cover, Luke is near dad Alex, Steve beside dad Kevin, lights still on, tears start running down their faces. The dads look at them a little shocked and Alex asks, "Guys, if you don't want to do this..."

Both boys lunge up and hug the dad nearest them tight and start almost sobbing, which shreds their dads' hearts. They had no idea this is something the boys would ever even want to do at all. It takes a couple minutes before they're able to stop crying and recover.

Luke looks up at Alex and tells him, "Dads... we love you both so much... Thank you for loving us and being our dads," which really hits the dads hard. They all just hug and try not to cry for a while.

They all eventually lay back on the pillows, each dad turned to look toward the boys. Kevin says, "We love you guys so much, I'm so glad we finally got our heads out of our own asses... thanks to Matteo. We're so sorry we were afraid to do something like this with you... we thought you'd absolutely hate it... or worse. We're sorry," which gets them another hug... no tears this time.

Luke says, "Dads, I'm sorry I was such a problem. I know how much you love us and it was stupid to feel... jealous... I guess. I'm sorry," Alex just leans over and hugs and kisses him... chastely, much to Luke's disappointment.

Alex says, "Luke, please don't apologize. We're the ones that should apologize... and we do... I do.

"Sons, I've... wanted to be able to be this close to you guys since... the first time I saw you. We were so terrified that you hated us before we even met... for all the reasons we've all already talked about. We really were afraid to show any affection to you like this... and... that's totally unfair to you," and then he just hugs Luke and doesn't say anything else for a bit.

They eventually untangle and just lie and talk about trivial stuff for a while, like if they're getting tired of being in the pool so much... they both say 'kinda', which makes the dads smile a little.

After a little while Dad Kevin asks, "Luke, that amazing picture that you painted of Steve under the tree. That sounds like a really special place for both of you," hoping they'll want to talk a little more about their early time together... of which the dads have only heard bits and pieces.

Steve manages to say, "Dads, I don't know how much Mr. Frank told you about me. In the beginning... I was pretty broken dads. I saw my whole family die in that car accident. I still remember my baby sister's... face... during the crash. Her carseat... came loose, and she flew in front of my face just as the car was crashing... I was looking directly at her when it happened. I was having terrible nightmares about her... and feeling guilty because I lived... and my family didn't," he just trails off into tears. Kevin just holds him tight and lets him cry for a minute as Luke is rubbing his back from behind.

It takes several minutes but Steve turns his head to look at Luke and can finally say, "Dads, all I could do was curl up in a ball and want to die... Luke got on the bed and held me... and just let me cry. He brought me my meals from the Dining Hall for days. He slept with me for a couple weeks... fully clothed. He never did or tried to do anything with me... except hold me," smiling lovingly at Luke and kissing him quickly.

After wiping his eyes, "It took a long time dads, but I finally realized that Luke made my life worth living again. But he never pressured me into doing... anything. One day, we rowed over to that meadow beside 'our tree'... it was the day that Luke painted that picture of me... the first time he ever painted a person. I had been trying to figure out for days how to tell Luke how much I loved him. I knew I had to do it. I just leaned over and kissed him... and told Luke I loved him," and he just starts crying again.

Steve and Luke just hug for a while, and kiss emotionally.

Luke eventually says quietly, "Steve, I had to try to save you. It was the only way I could ever save myself... I fell in love with you the first time we looked into each other's eyes. I couldn't have gone on without you. I tried to act like everything was ok... but it wasn't. I don't know what I would have done if you hadn't come into my life... or what would have happened to me either. And without falling in love with you we never would have found our dads... or they wouldn't have found us, because I never would have admitted I was gay," which gets more tears.

Of course hearing this devastates the dads. They know all these boys have been hurt so much, but they don't know all of the details, and to hear them say it out loud... is heartbreaking.

And it scares them to death to think what might have happened to all four of the boys if Alex and Kevin and Michael hadn't 'found' them... or had chickened out of trying to adopt them. And Aiden was right too. Mr. Frank would never have mentioned them when they met if they hadn't come out at that movie. Damn.

Dad Kevin admits, "We've talked about it a lot, and it's amazing we all found each other. It was because of you guys that we met 'Captain Ken' and his family... if it'd been just us and Michael, Ken never would have shown any interest in us. You guys and your brothers met and hit it off with Javier and Matteo... guys, you've made an incredible difference in our lives... just by being here and being our sons.

"As gay men... we never thought we would ever be able to have sons, and honestly before we met you... we were terrified that you... would hate us. If it had gone badly with you... I'm sure I never could have tried that again... so, sons trust us. You've changed our lives at least as much as we've changed yours. And thank you... for being the incredible loving amazing sons that all of you are," which at least get more hugs and smiles than tears.

They all just lie beside each other and talk about... stuff, usually with an arm lying over somebody else, being way too careful to avoid any place they shouldn't touch. Not all of it is nearly as emotional. They talk about Aiden and his singing, and how happy they are that Daniel, Diego and Aiden are boyfriends. They all gladly admit how much they really love Javier and Matteo, and are glad they're part of the family.

Luke is still bothered by the money they're spending, "Dads, I really feel bad making you spend so much money on us. Please let me use my allowance for some of the courses at the art center," which gets him a big hug from Alex.

Kevin says, "Guys, we really want you to use your allowance for things that you want... but not big things like lessons... even if you really like them. We really want to do that for you guys... just like college eventually... guys, we're your dads... maybe not by birth, but trust us... you are 'our' sons. And doing things to help you is the most important thing in our lives. You guys all give our lives a purpose that we never had before," which gets smiles, hugs and thank you's.

Alex, always a CPA at heart, tries to reassure them, "Boys, the amount of money for things like the Spanish, piano and art or pottery lessons... I know it sounds like a lot to you... but it's really not.

"Most of the money we spend is on things we have to have... medical insurance, insurance on the house, car expenses, food, electricity would be a lot but we've covered the entire roof with solar panels and we put in a couple batteries to store power in case there's a power outage... all of those things a lot more expensive than we'll ever spend on Javier and Matteo helping out, and piano lessons, and art and pottery lessons... all combined.

"Guys, you are the most important thing on this planet to us... the most important things in our lives... and you always will be. Please let us help you do things like that... it honestly makes us very, very happy to see you guys doing things that you enjoy," which gets hugs and no more objections.

Kevin reminds them of what they read about his life, "Sons, you've read a little about my life. Trust me... I get it. I would have given anything for a few dollars to spend as a kid... but I didn't get it very often."

Dad Kevin continues, with a sad chuckle, "One of my vices as a kid was reading comic books. But I never had any money to buy any with. As soon as I could get away with it, I stopped eating lunch at school, and used the money my father gave me for lunch to buy comic books occasionally... and a few other things, like a telescope... I had to miss a lot of lunches to buy that... (laughing) I think it cost $30 way back then, but it seemed like a fortune to me... at the time.

"Guys, we don't ever want you to not do something... just because it costs a little bit of money. Please? And Steve, we want to maybe plan a trip to the High Desert and go stargazing with the Astronomy Club. I used to love doing that with a couple friends... partly because we always managed to have sex after the three of us got into the sleeping bags," which gets a big laugh and and big kiss from Steve.

Alex takes back over for a bit, "Guys, we've always been afraid to spend any of our money... for our entire relationship. But now we have THE four most important reasons in the world to use some of our money so we can all have the best life possible... Trust us guys, this is exactly why we worked all those years... please, please don't feel guilty about that," which at least doesn't get objections.

They lie holding each other and talk some more, and even if nobody uses the word intimate... it is. Luke and Steve both are snuggled up to their dads and feel more secure and loved than ever, certainly Luke, who when he's not talking to somebody is lying with his head on dad Alex's chest. Thank you Matteo.

Dad Kevin reluctantly brings up a sad topic, "Steve when you were in LA, Luke told Michael and us that you both have nightmares sometimes... and he told us just a little about what they're about. Are you both still having nightmares?"

They turns their heads and look at each other for a while. Luke smiles at Steve and says, "You know... I don't think I've had one since I admitted that to Michael... and both of you... and dad Ken and dad Jared. I hadn't even thought about it," and he chuckles a bit.

Steve thinks about it too, "You know... that's funny... I haven't either. Luke told me what he said to you while I was gone. I was afraid it was a mistake to admit it... but I'm glad you did Luke. And dads, I did used to feel so guilty... about... being so happy here... with you and Michael... especially after what happened to my parents and sister. But I finally decided... I can't change anything that happened. I'm so happy here with Luke and you and our brothers... I'm just not going to be guilty about it anymore," and Luke agrees and which gets them both nice hugs.

Kevin wants to do his 'kid whisperer' thing and says to both of them, but especially Steve, "Sons, I don't think it's easy to compare how happy you are one day compared to another. There are things that I loved doing so much as a kid... and it would make me so happy... but now those same things just don't matter at all.

"It doesn't mean I'm happier now or sadder now. It just means that what makes me happy has changed. I know you'll always miss your family, which is very understandable... but I don't think you should ever feel guilty just for being happy," which gets a nice kiss from Steve... and Luke, who has to lean over Steve to do it.

Steve kisses dad Kevin and tells him, "Thank you for saying that dad. And I think you're right. Both of you, Luke, Daniel and Diego... Michael and the others... make me much happier than I ever was before... but I think part of that is getting older too, like you said. I find different things... more interesting now than when I was younger," which gets laughs. They all think about sex, which makes Steve blush.

Kevin tries to reassure them, "But guys, if anything like that ever bothers you... please let us know. Sometimes just talking about it is enough, but if it's not we have a good friend who happens to be a psychologist... we've talked to him a few times about things that bothered us... including... whether we were crazy for wanting to adopt sons.

"He really helped us work thru some of our own worries about adopting you guys... as gay men. If you ever want to or need to talk to him, let us know. And anything you tell him is private... he won't even tell us... and he's a great listener... and cute too," which gets a good laugh... finally.

Luke brings up something he's unsure about, "Dads, thank you for doing this with us... and we know you'll never have sex with us... I really wish we could, but we won't do anything we shouldn't, but... uhhh... sometimes in the night... we... uhh... kinda..." which causes both dads to look at each other and laugh.

Kevin says, "Yeah, we talked about that too. Sometimes we wake up kinda... doing things too, with each other or Michael... we're scared to death about that, actually," which makes all of them laugh.

Luke, being Luke, says, "Dads, please... I don't want us to always be scared about touching each other wrong... Can we all just go ahead and touch each other... everywhere... and get it over with. I had to adjust you this morning... and it was kinda fun," and Luke blushes and almost makes both dads leap out of bed.

Alex says, "Luke I don't think that would be a good idea... I'm already so hard I hurt just lying here with you."

Luke says, "I know. (Looking over at Steve, who nods) Us too dads... I don't mean sex... I mean this," and he reaches over and rubs Alex's chest gently. And slowly let's his hand slide down his stomach to about his navel...

"I don't want to be afraid to touch you dad. And dads... another thing I love to do with Steve is just put my nose against his neck... and enjoy his scent... like you did this morning and in the sunroom tonight with me... can I do that with you dad? Please?

"I always wanted to stay as far away from my sperm donor as possible, but not both of you... please. I really do love you so much, and I don't want us to be afraid to touch each other," which makes Alex panic, especially since he just called him out for doing the same thing... twice.

Alex looks over at Kevin... who hesitates a bit but finally nods.

Alex says, "Guys, I'm honestly afraid that if you touch me... I'm going to... uh... come. It's pretty hard not to honestly," to which the other three agree.

Alex and Kevin throw back the cover... Alex says to the boys with nothing but love, "Go ahead... but please don't do too much touching... down there... ok?" and they both chuckle and agree.

With both dads are lying on their backs, both very hard dicks lying on their stomachs, Luke and Steve both slide up in bed and put their noses against the dads necks... and just inhale so slowly... and hold their breath for a few seconds...

They both rub their faces against the 9 O'clock shadows on their faces, which would make Luke weak in the knees if he was standing, as they run their hands down the dads' chests, really enjoying the feel of their chest hair, even though it's neatly trimmed... running their hands over their nipples lightly, which causes both of the dads' dicks to bounce... the boys' too. Then moving across to the next one, which gets more bounces... both dads noticeably trying to suppress moans. It's all both of them can do to not kiss their dads... really kiss their dads. This is just so intimate... and loving... and frustrating.

Luke raises up enough to take Alex's arm and push it up, and then he slowly leans down so his nose is almost against his armpit... he leans forward just a bit more and inhales the amazing mossy scent of his dad... and just closes his eyes and enjoys it, so enjoying the scents of his dad... of his father... something that he never had even thought about doing before, and certainly not with his sperm donor. It's all he can do to keep his tongue to himself, however.

Luke looks up into Alex's eyes and he sees nothing but love... and fear of this going too far. He runs his hand further down his chest, which gets a low moan out of dad Alex, despite his best efforts not to... Steve's doing the same thing to dad Kevin, who moans plaintively.

- - -

Steve is lying here and doing this, something that honestly never even occurred to him either... and certainly that he never realized he wants... and needs, just as much as Luke.

Steve's father basically did everything he could to avoid any physical contact. Once Steve reached twelve years old, his father let it be known that Steve should never kiss him on the cheek, like he used to do.

Steve has finally admitted to himself that his father was... a horrible bigot. There's just no other way to say it. And not just against gay people.

And Steve is absolutely sure that he would have hated him if he ever found out he's gay. And he's not sure it would have gone any better than it did with Corey's parents... or Matteo's and Javier's. It's one reason it hit him so hard when Corey told him what his own biological parents did to him.

But it never occurred to him... just how much he needs this connection with his two dads, that he really does love more than he ever loved his own father. That's really hard to admit too, but it's true. And he finally admits that Luke is totally right... he needs this bonding experience with his new dads too.

- - -

They both keep sliding their hand flat against the stomach... until it reaches their very hard dicks, which are already very moist and dripping on the end...

They look deeply into the eyes of the dad they're touching, and then slide their hands down further into the pubic hair, so enjoying the feel of something they're not sure they'll ever get, letting their fingers enjoy the coarse texture of the trimmed hair... so the dads' dicks are lying on top of their hands, pulsing with every heartbeat. Both dads lay their heads back into the pillows, and moan like they're close to coming when they touch them.

Alex is lying on his back with his eyes closed, having some very troubling thoughts... thoughts that he's tried very, very hard to make go away. Thoughts of how Luke is right. Thoughts of exactly how close this makes him feel to both of these boys, his sons. And knowing that it'll be just as emotional and important with Daniel and Diego too... And kinda admitting to himself that his connection to Luke is stronger than the other boys... and not having a clue as to why... and feeling very guilty admitting that.

Luke and Steve continue to slide their hand down under the dicks until they reach the base... they slowly slide their hands back up, thru the pubic hair, rubbing their fingertips thru the coarse hair, and sliding their hand to the top of their dicks... and slide all the way back down again... until they reach their balls... which gets another reluctant moan out of each dad, who both lay their heads back on their pillows, trying very hard to ignore how hard they are...

They each gently run their fingers slowly over their dads' balls, glancing up at their faces... and then under them, feeling the nervous moistness that's collected there... and wrap their fingers gently around their balls... or try to... their fingers aren't really long enough to easily reach all the way around... looking directly into their dad's eyes the entire time, something that they had not discussed at all... it just seems like what they should do... and they can sense the dads are about ready to come... so they reluctantly pull their hands away... very reluctantly. They both move up enough to kiss the dads lovingly on the lips... chaste... and they just lay their heads down on their chests. Each dad wraps an arm gently around them.

They lie like that for a couple minutes, and then Luke rolls over onto his back, and Steve figures out what he's doing... and does the same.

Luke looks at dad Alex and says, "Now both of you... please," and with a look of complete terror they pretty much repeat what the boys did.

And they both look like it's affecting them as much as it did Luke and Steve... they both have tears in their eyes. They glance up briefly at each other, both knowing that Luke is exactly right. They both feel more completely like their dads than they ever thought possible... and more scared of the consequences than ever.

They eventually dare to move very gently down their pre-teen torsos, marveling at the texture and feel and sight of their skin, their amazing young preteen skin that looks and feels so amazing, feeling the contour of their young muscles, and thinking they can actually begin to see some results of their time in the gym... probably wishful thinking.

Alex almost chuckles to himself as he thinks of being on the floor in the gym with Luke that day. Holding ankles and staring at dicks and... more. He could almost see the yearning in Luke's eyes to do more... to reach out and touch. And Luke wasn't the only one feeling that urge. Which scares Alex as much as he's ever been scared of anything in his life.

He glances at Kevin just as they slide their hands under their dicks, although their dicks are both mostly standing straight up... they allow their fingers to gently wrap around them, which gets an audible shudder out of Alex... and Luke, and then slowly down, and then ever so gently over their barely pubescent balls... and hold them lovingly... touching their sons where they never thought they would... or should.

Luke involuntarily spreads his legs a bit... not even really thinking about it... until he does it. Alex sees the total disappointment in Luke's face when he moves his fingers away... fearing that he'll do what Luke wants if he doesn't. Luke forces a tiny smile, but Alex can tell it's breaking his heart. Damn it.

And even though both of them are sure they'll never admit it to anybody, or each other, they finally do admit, at least to themselves, that they need this connection with their sons just as much as Luke and Steve need it with them.

They consider all four of these boys to be totally 'their sons', even if not by genetics, but they also know that they've missed all of these kinds of gradual loving bonding moments with them because they came into their lives so late. But this, these feelings... it's almost more than any of them can bear.

Alex almost breaks down sobbing at how emotional this is for him. And he finally admits to himself that Luke has been completely right all along. And the very next thought scares the absolutely hell out of him... it's all he can do to not lean down and...

Alex reluctantly lets go, blinks away a few almost tears, and moves back up and buries his nose in the side of Luke's neck, like he did twice earlier today, and inhales the pure scent of his young son, more grateful than he's ever been for anything in his life other than Kevin and Michael.

He looks over and Kevin is doing the same thing with Steve... and it looks just as emotional for Kevin. More so actually, because of the two of them, Kevin is the more 'emotional' one... the one more in touch with his emotions. Alex looks to Kevin's emotions as a source of strength, just as Kevin looks to Alex's more practical approach to things as a kind of emotional balance for him.

Their eyes lock for just a moment, and they both know they want this... and more.

They lie like that for a while... with hands roaming up and down their sons' bodies... to a point.

Luke eventually says, "Dads, thank you. Now we don't have to be so worried if we touch something in our sleep... I would like to... uh... take care of that (pointing) for you and us, but we know you don't want to do that... but thank you for doing this."

They lie like that for quite a while, nobody daring to say anything.

Luke just can't let it go, "Dads... can we talk about the sex thing... please?"

Alex and Kevin spend a fair amount of time looking into each other's eyes, both scared to death to say 'yes'... and sure they don't have the strength they need to say 'no'. He nods very reluctantly.

With tears in his eyes Luke asks, "Can I ask why you won't do anything with us?" which shouldn't surprise anybody, but it obviously does. Luke's innocent willingness to just say what the thinks is still sometimes shocking.

Kevin and Alex look at each other again, and Kevin finally says, "That's a very hard question Luke," which makes Luke and Steve look at each other and burst out laughing...

Luke being Luke says, "It's your fault it's so hard," which at least causes the dads to laugh too... just a little.

- - -

Alex starts with something he knows won't get very far, "I don't suppose you'd be happy if we say, 'Everybody knows parents shouldn't ever have sex with their children' would you?" which gets a big 'NO!' from both of them... and then they all laugh... very nervously for the dads.

Alex looks Luke in his eyes and says... thru tears, and starts down a path that breaks his heart before he even starts, "Luke and Steve... you're both almost thirteen years old. Five years after that you'll both be eighteen. And as much as I dread it, I know the day is going to come when you're going to leave... here... us," and he sobs once deeply, and needs a few moments to compose himself before he can continue.

He finally can say, "To go to college... or just to live your own lives. It's going to be pure hell walking you out the front door and watching you both drive away," he actually sobs several times... which causes both boys to hug their dads even tighter... they're crying now too.

Luke starts to say something but Alex lovingly puts his finger on his lips and smiles at him.

Alex manages to continue shakily, "That's going to be the hardest day in my life Luke... and Steve. I honestly don't know how I'm going to get thru it... And then, Daniel and Diego are going to do the same thing... a year later," and by now tears are running down all four faces.

Alex manages to add, "But guys, no matter how hard it is for us and you... you all have to do it. You have to live your own lives. We hope with all our hearts you'll go to college or do something that you really love... and prepare as much as possible to live your life to the fullest.

"It will break our hearts even more... if you decide to stay here... JUST because it's too hard for you... or us... to leave. I hope you understand the difference. We will love you with all our hearts for as long as we live, but we want you to all have the absolute best lives you can possibly have," which gets kisses and tears.

Alex thinks a while and says, "Guys, let me ask you a question. How are you both going to feel not just about leaving us, your dads... but also Michael (looking at Luke) and Corey (looking at Steve)... not to mention Javier and Matteo," which causes them both to think about that for the first time... and they just hold their dad and shed a few more tears.

"Sons... as your fathers, it's going to nearly kill us when you leave. But I can't imagine how hard it will be... if you are our lovers too," and he just leans into Luke with tears... and Steve pretty much does the same with dad Kevin.

They lie together for a long time and just hold each other with tears in their eyes. Nobody has an answer.

Luke thinks for a minute but finally asks anyway, "But dad, it'll be harder if we're... lovers... too... just because we'll be so much closer to each other... than we are now. Isn't it worth that dad? I don't want to... not be closer to you... because it'll hurt more to leave... someday," to which nobody dares to even try to answer.

Eventually Steve says, "And dads... if we leave for college or something... we'll be back. And the reason will be because of all the amazing love we have here... from you... and everybody. I love Corey so much... and if we can't be together in the same house... or next door at least... all of us, for as long as we live... it will hurt so much dads...

"But dads, I don't regret how much I love him... or Michael or Javier or Matteo... and certainly not both of you. I would never regret anything that happens between us dads... even if it can't stay exactly like that forever. I can't... NOT love you... just because things might change... someday. Does that make sense?"

Alex and Kevin just look at each other... and the both nod... reluctantly. They know that Steve just demolished their best reason for not getting any more intimate with the boys... and it hurts... a lot.

They just lie here thinking about lots of different things.

Luke finally says, "Dads, I don't really think I'm cut out for college... And I don't ever want to leave you... but dads, even if I do...for a short time... I'll never love you any less than I do right now. And you're right... it would have been easier for us not to have fallen in love with Michael and Corey as much as we did... and Javier and Matteo too... but it would mean we never got to know them like we do now. I agree with Steve. I can't love you less so it'll hurt less... someday. I just can't do that dads," and he cries more.

When he recovers a bit, "Dads, I really did totally fall in love with Michael that day at the Amusement Park... as a big brother. It was partly because he told us the truth... he didn't hesitate or lie to us. But mostly it was just because he's such an amazing, loving person... but you both already knew that," giving both dads a big smile, which is gladly returned.

Luke continues, "But dads... now I feel so much closer to Michael, and I love him so much more... and Corey too... and Javier and Matteo, so much more just because of what we've done together. Dads I know you think it's all about sex with me, but it's not. How much closer are both of you to Michael... because of how much you love him? It wouldn't be nearly the same if he was just... a friend.

"I told Michael the other night that I really miss my time with him. And what I miss the most is just lying in bed, holding each other... dad, he makes me feel so loved and safe, even if we don't have sex," which leaves Luke with tears running down his face... again.

"That last night before Steve and Corey came back from LA... I asked Michael if we could just hold each other and sleep together... I mean, I asked him to make love to me too, but dad (looking directly into Alex's eyes)... I held him as tight and I could, and I've never felt safer dad... or more loved. And like Steve said... I would never change what happened between us... or Javier and Matteo... even if it hurts a lot someday. I'm not going to be afraid of loving them even more until then dad... I just can't. Or both of you."

Alex can't say much at this point... he just leans forward and gives Luke an amazingly loving kiss... not entirely chaste. And Luke gives the same in return. As do Steve and dad Kevin.

Luke and Steve eventually drift off to sleep with their heads on their dads' chests. Alex and Kevin just lie and look at each other with a few tears still running down their cheeks... and wonder about a lot of things.

But they know they love these boys with all their hearts... and honestly are glad the boys pushed them enough to do this... They're still pretty sure they can never actually have sex with them, but they admit that tonight makes it easier and more comfortable to be in bed naked like this... except they'd kill to come right now.

It's gonna be a long hard night. Alex and Kevin take a lot longer to drift off to sleep, waging a pretty big war with all the demons in their heads... both of their heads.

Alex wakes up once with Luke spooned up against him as close as possible, with not a bit of space between them, with Alex's arm over his chest, pulling him tightly against him.

To his horror he figures out his very hard dick is nestled happily between Luke's legs... but listening to him breathe, it's obvious he's completely asleep.

He knows it's just one of those things that happens when you sleep with somebody naked. He doesn't even try to move it from where it is... mostly because he doesn't know where else to put it. It's way too hard to shove backward between his own legs. Ouch. And it's agony to just leave it there and it's the most excruciating thing he's ever done, not to at least slide back and forth a few times and...

He watches Luke and Steve sleeping... facing each other... so close their noses are touching. They're so incredibly beautiful lying here like that.

He reaches over with a sad smile on his face, and pushes a little bit of Luke's blonde hair out of his eyes. It makes tears just start running non-stop down his face, just watching his sons sleep... he's so happy and loves these boys so much.

He knows he shouldn't but he lets his hand slowly gently slide down Luke's stomach... he feels his taut pre-teen abdomen... and then his sexy 'innie' navel, which brings a little smile to his face... and then he continues downward, until his hand is covering his boy bits... they're so hot... and sensuous... and just as hard as he is.

He slowly cups his hand over this most intimate part of his son, holds it for a minute or so, having so many disturbing soul shaking thoughts, he slowly moves his hand back up his chest before he's tempted to do anything else.

He slips his hand out from under the light cover and deeply inhales the scents on his fingers, enjoying the scent of his son... that he never thought he would have... and who he certainly never thought he'd do this with.

He eventually drifts off to a troubled sleep again, with his nose up against Luke's neck.

He wakes up again later and his hand is again cupping Luke's genitals... and Luke's hand is lying on top of his, "FUCK! Does Luke know I did this? How do I move my hand without waking him up?"

He battles his own demons for quite a while, but eventually decides to just leave his hand where it is. If Luke already knows then it won't accomplish anything to move his hand, except to wake him up.

He just lies still holding his son, feeling his heat in his hand, and his heartbeat, and dreading with his entire soul the day they drive away... and knowing that absolutely nothing will be the same in his life ever again.

He hugs Luke tighter to him, and after a very long time, eventually drifts back to a troubled sleep.

- - -

Kevin eventually admits to Alex that something similar happened with him and Steve. And even though they're both feeling guilty as hell, they still have absolutely no regrets that they slept together.

Nobody thinks there was a single moment in the night that they weren't touching as much as possible.

They both know their relationship with Luke and Steve changed tonight... for the better... they hope. They just don't know exactly how or what it means, but they're completely convinced it was the right thing to do with them. And they hope they have a million more chances to do this with all their boys... while they can.

And they both know that doing the same thing with Daniel and Diego is going to be just as emotional, and they can hardly wait.

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Javier and Matteo

Earlier

Finding themselves in their own room in the same house as this amazing family is emotional for them. It's the first time they've felt like they belonged somewhere since their parents kicked them out. And it's honestly the first time ever that they've felt so accepted and loved... not having to hide who they really are anymore, or their love for each other.

They sensuously kiss and then undress each other and crawl onto their bed.

Matteo talks to Javier about how emotional it's been for him to play piano again, and how he's really glad he did. And he admits that had it not been for this family and their boys, he probably never would have played again.

He adds, "It's amazing playing for Aiden. He has a beautiful voice. It was his idea... the version of Stand by Me with Spanish. I love all these boys so much."

Javier's just as happy here with this family. He's drawing a lot and every time he finishes one Steve, Daniel and Diego put it in the eBook with vocabulary and simple sentences. He goes thru and checks what Daniel and Diego do, but rarely finds any mistakes. And even though he's downplayed it, he's really pretty excited to see if it can ever become an actual eBook for sale. But he doesn't want to get his hopes up either.

Matteo wants to discuss something and he's not sure what he even thinks about it. He asks, "Javier, what do you think about... the other boys sleeping with us. Are we ok with that? And I assume 'sleeping' really means sex."

Javier says, "Yeah, I was shocked as hell about that. Honestly all these guys are amazing and sexy... but I still feel bad about even doing anything with Luke and Steve. I heard Luke say they had sex with all their brothers the other night. I was really surprised Aiden's dads said they have no problem with them... and us," which gets agreement from Matteo.

Matteo finally says, "I guess we can say no, Ken did say it was up to us too. Honestly it might be fun to play a little with them... but only if they really want to... and I don't think they're quite as... uhhh... advanced as Luke and Steve," which gets a little laugh.

Javier leans over and kisses him, chuckles and says, "I'm glad you admitted that... me too. But I don't ever want to do anything to hurt these boys, so we need to talk to them if they ever bring it up... and I suspect they will... probably tomorrow in the shower," which gets a nervous laugh.

Javier continues, "I couldn't live with myself if we did something that causes them problems at all, and especially with their boyfriends..." to which Matteo agrees.

It feels like a big weight has been lifted off both their shoulders having a family again.

It's not been just them for a couple nights, so tonight... they make pretty relieved passionate love to each other.

They're relieved because being here feels so incredibly good. It also takes a lot of stress off of them about money and finding another place to live, although that's not even close to the main reason they're so happy about being here.

But tonight they go back to just the two of them, just like it's been since they were so horribly disowned by their own family. But now, here, they feel better about their lives than they ever have.

They spend a lot of time kissing, hotly and passionately, looking into each other's eyes and seeing things they haven't seen in a long time, a kind of inner peace that has been missing.

Matteo reaches to the side and retrieves the bottle of flavored lube, brought to them by Luke and Steve, from the linen closet... as a room-warming present. They both wanted to make sure Javier and Matteo knew it was there... for several reasons... which makes Matteo smile as he picks it up.

Javier gets between Matteo's legs and lifts them slightly, as Matteo reaches down and applies a good bit of lube to Javier's hard dick, staring into each other's bottomless dark eyes the entire time, before sticking the same fingers in his ass to get things nice and lubed.

And, while looking lovingly into each other's eyes, Javier starts sliding into the person he loves most on the planet... although these families are all getting pretty close in some ways.

A bottom knows the amazing feeling of lying under somebody you love with all your soul, and feeling that initial moment of him asking for permission to enter you. That moment where, no matter how practiced or even jaded you are, you feel an incredible sense of connection... of love, at least with the right person... a sense of just surrendering to them, hopefully always in a loving caring way.

It's a big change for a bottom to actually be a top. That same initial point of contact is so different as a top.

You feel yourself trying to get your partner to give you entrance, and when he does, there's always a tendency to literally hold your breath as you begin to slide slowly in and begin to feel how amazingly hot tight and moist it is inside. And to be so snugly enveloped by their insides... it's incredibly intimate to be balls deep in somebody, and when it's somebody you love with all your heart... the connection is almost overwhelming.

And tonight, in addition to all of these thoughts, each of these lovers have so many thoughts running through their heads about how these two families and these boys have forever changed their own lives.

They never expected that.

Nor will they ever forget how grateful they are.

They make passionate love to each other, just as they always have, but this time with a lot less stress about their lives and their futures.

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Michael & Corey

Earlier

Michael and Corey are both so damn hard and worked up, imagining in part what the dads and boys might do tonight... they almost attack each other the instant they walk into their bedroom.

Michael takes hold of Corey's face and kisses him more passionately than they've ever kissed... and that's saying a lot.

Seeing the boys slowly developing and maturing, seeing them work up a very good sweat in the gym every morning, actually working hard, not just there to stare at each other, seeing their muscles stretching and beginning to grow harder and firmer, and then having them spend many, many minutes working all four older brothers into a hard mess in the shower... and leaving them high dry and hard... it's like everybody's hormones are always at maximum.

And as frustrating as it is, they wouldn't do anything to change that time with their 'little brothers'... no matter how hard it is. Well, except eventually they have to... do more. This is killing them, no matter how much they love their time with the boys... but they can't be the ones to suggest they all get in a big sweaty pile and fuck.

Michael takes gentle hold of Corey's face and crams his tongue as far down his throat as possible, reaching up to gently caress his 9PM shadow, grasping and almost clawing each other, working up a sweat powered completely by testosterone... and raw lust.

In between deep kisses they stop and stare into each other's eyes... and they see something that both excites and scares them.

They see, and finally admit to themselves, where they are headed. And it both excites them more than they've ever been excited about anything in their lives, and it also scares the hell out of them. And they know they're powerless to stop it. And that's ok too... it's all exactly as it should be. Someday.

But for this day Michael almost pushes Corey backward onto the bed, lifts his legs and dives into his ass, tongue first.

Michael has thought of a lot of things since the agonizing shower this morning that left him hard and horny all day, but this... shoving his tongue as far up Corey's amazing ass... has been at the top of his list all day.

He dives in, and as he's licking away he takes time to just enjoy the tastes and primal scents of the most intimate part of the person who's rapidly becoming an even more important person in his life... And enjoy it he does.

He takes time to almost bathe in all the deep mossy excited pheromones that Corey's exuding, rubbing his face and his 9PM shadow around eagerly any place it will fit... which makes both even hornier... and all that stubble rubbing up and down his asscrack certainly has Corey's full attention.

Corey reaches sideways and hands Michael the bottle of lube, which gets immediately put to use... followed by Michael's very hard dick, sliding into the most amazing place on earth... and they fuck... like they rarely do.

Most of the time their lovemaking is mild, sedate, sensuous, amorous, loving... but not tonight. Tonight, fueled in part by what they're both imagining may be going on between the boys and their dads, and after being left hard and horny all day, this is going to be a "fuck 'till somebody's nose bleeds" night. And sitting around naked with boys in between their legs all morning isn't helping at the moment.

- - -

They KNOW the dads have vowed that nothing sexual will ever happen between themselves and their sons, but they're pretty sure the dads are underestimating the boys' resolve... and their ever increasing horniness...

Michael and Corey had both promised themselves they'd never do anything sexual with the boys either... other than be the best damn big brothers they could be.

It didn't last long, thanks to the boys' determination... and those maybe not so well thought out kisses by the pool. And they're both willing to bet it won't last for the dads either.

And honestly, that worries them.

Michael and Corey both know, in their own way, how much the dads were worried about that happening, even before they decided to adopt sons. They know how much all the dads were worried about what people would think... these two (or three) gay men adopting young gay boys...

But that was never their intentions. At all. And in many ways it was their greatest fear... just because they know what they would have done given the chance to be with the adults in this house... like that.

And in a way, for Ken and Jared, it was a lot, lot easier to avoid thinking about things like this when they and the boys barely even talked to each other, before they all became so incredibly close to their sons. Before they admitted exactly how much they really do love their sons.

And they're all battling the "Everybody knows" part of their brains... They may know what everybody says about this happening, but seeing how important this bonding is to their sons... doesn't make it any easier to just say 'no' to them.

Michael and Corey have both reconciled themselves to this happening... and they honestly believe it will be a very good thing... for the boys... and even the dads.

The dads will need more time to see that. They will have a lot of guilt to get over if it ever does happen. But they're both totally convinced it will be a good thing for the dads too... eventually. But they don't dare tell them that.

- - -

Tonight is also fueled by the thoughts Michael and Corey are both having about the boys... and about watching them develop and grow even sexier, about how they hope they'll be doing these things with these boys when they all turn the magic age of eighteen... or 21... or 30... and just how many more possibilities there will be at that time. And how close they hope they all continue to be... somehow.

The thoughts of not having these boys in their lives hurts more than they can stand.

None of the men in this house are 'into' boys. Given the choice between a hot thirteen year old or a hot 21 year old, they would all pick the 21 year old every time... hands down... absolutely no debate. Or even a hot 30 year old. Hell, probably even a hot 40 year old...

But, they also know that this time in the boys' lives is very important. It will do a lot to determine how comfortable they are with being gay... and how comfortable they are with sex... and with their lives. And they certainly know how important that will be to them.

- - -

Lost in his own thoughts, as Michael is fucking Corey for all he's worth, and he's worth everything to him, he looks down and sees Corey smiling back at him... even though he's getting the hell pounded out of him.

Michael smiles back with nothing but love for this amazing man that came into his life so unexpectedly... just as they were getting back with their four boys... at the most unsettled chaotic time in his life that he can remember, full of worry about how things would go with the boys, and what it would do to his relationship with Alex and Kevin.

But now seems like the perfect time to do what he wants to do with all his heart... just to open his mouth and ask, "Corey..."

But, he doesn't.

Not now.

But someday.

Of that he is absolutely sure.

What he does do is open his mouth and almost yell, as he deposits his gift to Corey as deep inside him as possible.

And it takes about two tugs to have Corey join him in the moment.

After they're both completely spent, Michael falls on top of Corey and they continue kissing.

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