Date: Fri, 29 Aug 2003 12:52:50 +0000 From: Guy Jameson Subject: The Sons of JJ Jameson Chapter 4 Thanks go to those of you who have read the first three parts of this story and have responded to what they've read. I am open to receive constructive criticism as well as compliments. So if you have questions about the story or see areas for improvement, feel free to respond. DISCLAIMER: I've enjoyed writing what you've read so far. But these feeble writings are not for everyone. Some of you will find there's not enough sex; others will find the type of sex is not to their liking. A few people may even be offended by what comes later in the series. Remember that male2male sex covers a lot of ground. It takes some people longer than others to develop their sexual appetites. This is especially true about the people described in this continuing story. There may even be a few of you who are too young or live in an area where reading something that is even the slightest bit erotic is not legal. I will not share responsibility if reading these chapters gets you into trouble with members of your family or with the legal authorities. I live in Oklahoma so I can sympathize with you. This story belongs to me and as such is copyrighted according to the terms laid down by Nifty. This story is based on fact but not everything described actually happened to us or happened in the way it is disclosed here. Any similarity with persons living or not is purely coincidental. I hope you enjoy. I appreciate any comments you might have and invite your e-mails. guyjameson@hotmail.com THE SONS OF JJ JAMESON CHAPTER FOUR: VICTOR'S VICTORY "You love your dad and he loves you. Mom is fond of you too and after a while she'll love you." JJ's last words as he got into the taxi and drove off. He might have been right at one time. But at that particular moment, I wasn't so sure. I hated my dad for what he did last night and I knew I could never love him again. I went to what had been "our" room, slamming the door. No one was home to hear either the door or the sound of furniture being broken as I vented my anger on whatever objects that I could find. I didn't appear for dinner-for all I knew dinner was not even offered. I knew JJ's mom wasn't in the house and I didn't care where my dad was. Eventually, my anger developed into fatigue and I fell onto my bed, crying over the fact that I had a brother for almost a week and now he was gone. Gone simply because my dad was an inhuman, unloving, uncaring, son of a . . . I had never cursed in my life and didn't know how to start now. I knew JJ could have taught me how to do that too. 'Am I lost now?' I wondered. 'Does God really care about what we did as much as my dad did? Who was hurt, besides JJ, of course? I hated my father; I hated God; I hated my life as I could see it in the near future. Why couldn't I have taken some of the blame and gone with my brother. Am I a faggot? Is JJ as much of a faggot as he thinks he is? What the Hell am I going to do now?' I guess that at some time I fell asleep. I don't know. But early Sunday morning, dad was at "our" door. "Victor! It's time for church. You need to get dressed. Your mother and I are almost ready to go. Now hurry up, Victor." 'Sure, you Son of a Bitch, I'm going to get up to go with you to church. After what you've done to me why would I go to church? Because I'm scared of you. That's the only reason I'll go anywhere with you or do anything with you for the rest of my life.' "Dad. I'm sick. I can't go to church today." "Victor get up. You are going to church today and every day until we've cast out the demons that devil has placed in your soul. Now get up before I come in and get you." Dad had never done to me what he had done to JJ. He had never spoken to me in the same tone of voice he was using now. I was afraid of him and afraid of his anger. I feared him more than I feared God and right now I didn't care about either of them. But I had discovered what my dad was capable of doing and it scared me. 'He'll do it!' I realized. 'If I don't get up, he'll take me just the way I am. He'll parade his sinner naked son all the way into the church. He'll carry me to the front and make me confront the whole congregation. They'll all find out what kind of man he is and THEY WILL PRAISE HIM FOR IT. That son-of-a-bitch will win because I can't win-not yet anyway.' I went to church, dressed as the dutiful son I am. But I decided to dress JJ's way-commando, without underwear. I'd let my balls breath just as JJ did. It's not much, but it's at start. No one will know but . . . God and me. God will know I am not doing this willingly and maybe he will laugh at my foolishness and forgive me for not honoring my father. When we arrived at church, everyone was waiting outside, perhaps to watch my humiliation. But I wasn't humiliated. The mere sight of the whole congregation waiting to see a son possessed of the devil made me stronger, made me more proud of who I was and what I had done. Kenneth, one of the boys who was in the flagpole gang, and one I considered my friend, greeted me with a kiss of peace. "Are you alright, Victor? You don't look the same." "I am not the same, Kenneth. I have lost my best friend because . . ." "I thought I was your best friend, Victor." "JJ was my brother. I've lost him, Kenneth. I've lost him because my father drove him from our home as if he was Satan himself. But he's not. He and I were just boys." Kenneth looked at me as if he had never known me before and walked into the church without so much as looking back at me. All during the service of singing and the sermon, which seemed to go on forever, about the wages of sin and being accursed by Satan, I knew that everyone was watching to see what I would do. There was not one word about love or forgiveness or mercy. It was all about the fires of Hell and a God who showed neither mercy nor love. I guess the people expected to see Satan physically rise up out of my head and depart from me. It didn't happen. On Monday morning I left the house earlier than usual, not taking time for breakfast, because I did not want to see my father or for him to see me. Instead of my usual attire of long trousers and a long sleeved shirt, I wore a pair of JJ's shorts and one of his tee shirts. I had also found a pair of his canvas shoes stuck back in the closet. Just to complete my show of force, I combed my hair backward in sort of a spiked affair. I'm sure it looked ridiculous, but that was part of the plan. Instead of going to the flagpole for the morning prayer service I had helped organize, I headed straight for the counselors' area. Mr. George, my counselor, had not yet arrived but I sat in his office waiting for him. The office clerks who were on duty stared and then gaped at my appearance. I noticed one of the secretaries stop Mr. George as he came into the office to tell him I was waiting. As he walked past her, I noticed she was laughing to herself in disbelief. "Well, Victor" . . . He paused as if he had addressed the wrong boy. "Uh, Victor. What may I do for you this morning?" "I want to change my schedule of classes." "Uh, Victor . . . I don't think that would be possible. We only have about two and half weeks left of the school year. We can make some adjustments in next year's schedule but it's too late for this term . . . What would you want to change if it were possible?" "I want to take regular science instead of doing the self study I've take for the past year. I also want to take gym class. I can understand the problem with science, Mr. George, but couldn't I enroll in gym for these last couple of weeks? I would only be dropping my study hall." Mr. George was having a difficult time figuring out what had changed in me. I had been so adamant about not taking gym and science for religious reasons that special permission had to be obtained from the Board of Education. Now this close to the end of the term, I wanted to change? He just stared at me for several minutes. 'I think he is enjoying this turn of events, I thought. 'But he can't show it. He's been after me all year because I've been such a burr under his blanket.' "The change into gym class would be possible, I suppose. But of course you couldn't receive credit for it. Not enough days in class." "I understand that, sir." I know I had been a problem for Mr. George and to get him on my side was going to take all the finesse I could muster. "Mr. Hanes, the gym teacher, would have to sign off on this. Let me see if he has arrived at school . . . When would you want to make the change?" "Starting today, I think. The sooner the better." "I see. Wait a few minutes, please." "Of course, Mr. George." Mr. George went into the office reception area, checked the teachers' sign in sheet and then turned to his secretary. I saw her pick up the phone and dial a number. In a very short time, Mr. Hanes was in the office. First there was a look of surprise on his face, but that turned into a self-satisfied looking grin. He had really hated the fact that a kid in this school had been able to opt out of PE. After all isn't it necessary for all boys to learn about sports? I saw him nod his assent. "OK, Victor," Mr. George said returning to his office and taking his seat. "We can make the change effective today, if you have the proper gym clothes. You must have clean white shorts, a tee shirt and appropriate shoes. Do you ha . . ." "I have all that right here in my bag, sir." "Does your dad know about this change?" "No sir, but as you know I was the one who fought for the exclusion. I'm sure my dad will not care what I do." "Now about the request for science-you do understand we can't do that until next year?" "Yes sir. I understand fully, but I would appreciate it if you would make that change too." "Fine, Victor. I'm glad you've come around to our way of thinking." 'Well, Mr. George. If you only knew. It's not your way of thinking I've come around to,' I heard myself saying-hopefully I hadn't said it aloud. The warning bell signaling the imminent beginning of first period rang as I left the counselors' area. I ran into Kenneth as I hurried down the hall. Kenneth had never adopted my previous eccentric manner of dress and always wore what the other kids, the "sinners", wore. To say he was shocked at my appearance would be an understatement. He stammered my name, was ignored and walked away, his head shaking. Silence fell over the room as I entered my first period class. There were a few titters, but they too quieted as I took my assigned seat-in the extreme right side row of chairs. No one spoke to me and I spoke to no one all day. My so-called friends from the flagpole meetings were shocked at what they considered my surrender and the other kids with whom I had never associated, snickered and then ignored me. IT WAS A GREAT DAY. Then came gym. It took me a few minutes to find JJ's locker. I took his gym suit out of my bag and began to remove my clothes. I had never undressed in front of any boys except JJ and felt terribly conspicuous and self- conscious as I removed my shirt. Little did I know I was standing next to Tom Matthews' locker? "Well, Well," he gibed. "What have we here? The preacher boy . . . And he is using the faggot's locker. What are you doing here preacher boy? Going to preach at us for glorifying the body and exposing our naked bodies?" 'I'm not going to let this prick get to me. He's teased me all year and this is nothing different. Either he'll go away or I will. But not before I've changed clothes.' I continued to undress, trying to act natural-as if exposing my self to possible ridicule was a daily occurrence. When I removed my shorts and was standing naked in front of him, Tom screamed at the top of his lungs, "Werewolf. We have a werewolf. Look at his legs. Have you ever seen anyone so hairy in your life? Who are you going to bite, Werewolf?" Turning my back to Tom, I bent over at the waist to slip on my regulation gym shorts, exposing my hairy butt to the bully. 'JJ called it a "boy pussy" or was it "man pussy"? He said it made one boy shoot his load in the shower. I wonder if Tom will jack off the way JJ did thinking about this boy pussy. Which ever it is I've shown it to Tom. I hope Tom enjoys the sight.' "I've been mooned. The preacher boy is mooning me. I'm going to get you for this preacher boy. Just wait." "My moon and I will be waiting for you," I responded, feeling a lot less confidant than I hoped I sounded. "Fuck you, Tom Matthews." I hoped with all my heart that Tom would not respond with his fist. I tried to act braver than I felt as I turned and made my way through the crowd of boys, who had gathered to watch our exchange, toward the gym. Class went pretty much as I had expected. Everyone knew I probably did not know how to play the games appointed for that day so Mr. Hanes assigned me to a team. I didn't do much except observe what happened. But I'm a quick learner and was fairly confidant I could make a decent showing in the class before the year ended. I was one of the first boys into the shower, soaped and rinsed as quickly as possible so I could get out of there. I wouldn't have even bothered if it weren't for the fact that showers were required. Two boys stood at the shower room door to make sure the requirement was met that everyone at least get wet. That marked the end of the first day of school for the NEW Victor Reingold. But my problems were not over. When I arrived "home", my father, who had left work early just so he could be there, met me when I arrived. Apparently Mr. George had called dad about my schedule changes. "Victor, I want to talk to you," he said as I entered the house. He was in the living room and had not yet seen my mode of dress. "What is this?" he exclaimed as I entered the room. "Where did you get those clothes? Those aren't your clothes. They're JJ's. Aren't they? Why are you wearing JJ's clothes? Does that devil still possess you?" I answered sarcastically, "You sent my brother away. It wasn't his fault and he is not a devil possessing my soul. He showed me a different side of God-different from the side you see. And . . . And . . . You showed me a different side of yourself when you beat him. Are you going to beat me, too, Dad, and then cast me out into the darkness? Because if you are, you'd better do it now!" I'm shouting now. Shouting at my father is not something I've ever done before. I know God is going to hate me for this. Hate me for not honoring my father. But dad has to know I'm not taking his shit anymore. My soul is my responsibility now-not his. My father's face looked like the demons carved by Renaissance sculptors in churches to frighten the ignorant. He started to say something, but only stammered in shock at my behavior. I ran out of the room to the one I shared with JJ's memory. I sat at my desk, trying to do my homework, but visions of JJ kept inserting themselves between me and the book I was reading. JJ was standing beside me, naked with his erection pointing straight at me, the skin pulled back from the head of his penis. He just stood there, then began to stroke his hard cock, pulling his foreskin over his glans and then back again. There was a drop of pre-cum in the rose bud formed by his skin. I reached for him just as I had a few nights ago. He disappeared from view. Again I tried to concentrate on my textbook. But JJ's image returned. He didn't say anything, just stood there starting to jack his cock. Again he disappeared when I reached out to him. Totally frustrated, I slammed the book shut, stood up and began to undress for bed. I picked up my pajamas and started to pull them on. NO! I wasn't going to wear these things ever again. JJ slept naked. I would sleep naked from now on. I went to what had been JJ's desk to find a pair of scissors to cut up the offensive garments. Not finding scissors in the top drawer, I began going through the other drawers. Tucked under some papers in the bottom drawer I found something even better than scissors. It was a magazine. A pornographic magazine. On the cover was the picture of a man dressed only in a very brief garment. The garment had a pouch that covered his genitals, but barely. There was a strap around his waist. The strap couldn't have been more than a quarter inch wide. His buttocks were bare. I tossed my pajamas onto my bed and stretched out on JJ's bed. I pulled the pillows up behind my neck and began looking through the mag. On each page was a picture, in black and white, of a different man-each dressed in the briefest of garments, some showing a very obviously erect penis. I reached down to my own cock and felt it as it began to grow. Slowly I pulled my hand back and forth along the shaft of my cock. Still holding the magazine so I could see it, I reached down with my stroking hand and felt my nut sack. I wrapped my thumb and forefinger around the base of the sack and pulled as hard as I could stand, stretching the skin. It hurt a little but the pain felt good. My dick became harder. It wasn't possible to look at the pictures in that magazine and do what I wanted with myself so I laid it open on the bed and turned my body so I could look at the pics and use both hands to "pleasure myself". If dad walked in at that point I knew I'd be beaten and sent away too. In the back of my mind, I knew that was exactly what I was hoping for. I was stroking my cock and pulling on my nuts. My nipples were hard. I used one hand to pinch them, just as JJ had shown me. It felt so good. I pinched the nip harder, digging my thumbnail into the tender flesh. AHHH, that was even better! I rubbed down my chest, imagining JJ doing it for me. That made me feel hot, as he would have said. I played with my navel, stuck two fingers in my mouth to wet them and rubbed into it-my "mini boy cunt". I pulled the hairs on my groin, reached down again and captured my nuts in their sack, pulling harder with each stroke I gave my rod. The feeling I'd experienced just a few nights ago signaled I was close to shooting my cum. I wasn't ready for that to happen. JJ had said he hadn't shown me his best stuff. There had to be more I could with my body to feel good. About that time I noticed an increasingly strong odor coming from my armpits. I tucked my nose into one pit and took a deep sniff-MY GOD! THAT'S THE MOST WONDERFUL SMELL I'VE EVER KNOWN. I sniffed again and again. I stuck my tongue into the pit as far as I could reach and started to lick. The taste was better than the perfume. I was on my way to heaven. Switching hands on my cock, I attacked my other armpit with equal fervor. The scents, the taste of the human body. I'd never experienced anything like this. It felt good when JJ felt of me and sniffed my body, but the excitement I was feeling is not describable. My hand was jacking at my meat a mile a minute. I had reached the point that I couldn't stop. I had to cum. I stroked myself to orgasm, letting loose with what threatened to be the wildest animal, guttural sound I could make. I jammed my face into JJ's pillow and let my voice express my deep pleasure as the fluid erupted. Some of my essence landed on my chest. The next blast was harder and some landed on my exposed cheek, dribbling onto my lips. Several other blasts followed, coating me from chin to pubic hairs. I was a mess! Looking at my hand, I remembered seeing JJ clean his fingers by licking away the goo. I put one finger into my mouth-I had never tasted this before and at first the thought sickened me. But the flavor of my own essence. JESUS FUCKING JOSEPH it tasted good! I jammed the rest of my fist into my mouth cleaning my hand, savoring my life seed. I'd love to describe what I tasted, but I've never been to Olympus, never tasted ambrosia. But I knew this had to be it! No wonder the Greeks loved their many gods so. If the early evangelists were anything like the one's in our church, they would have been crucified the minute they suggested sex was a sin. I rubbed my hands on my torso, collecting all the nectar I could and licked my hands clean. The bit I still felt on my face I just rubbed into the skin. It would be there next morning, reminding me of the first time JJ and I had jacked off together. DAD BE DAMNED! THIS WAS NOT A SIN. It just felt too wonderful. God would never put such a temptation in front of his children and then punish them for enjoying it. After a while, my body began to relax. I turned onto my side and fell asleep, still on JJ's bed. Sometime during the night I dreamed of JJ coming toward me. Not only could I see him, I could smell him. His scent was strong, wafting across my nostrils like a gentle breeze. I inhaled more strongly, coming half-awake. Then I realized that I was in fact smelling JJ. His scent was on his pillowcase. I pulled the case aside and found JJ's perfume even stronger on the pillow. JJ was present all over the bed, which I discovered as I pulled down the sheets and ran my nose further down the bed. The closer I came to where his groin and ass had lain, the stronger his perfume was. My cock hardened. Moving down to the point where his cock would have wiped against the sheet, I found a small area that had stiffened-probably from the cum he hadn't cleaned from his prick-maybe from the cheese that he had said sometimes formed under his foreskin. Wherever it came from, it was wonderful. Lying there with my nose pressed tightly to the spot, I began to stroke my cock. With the other hand I was playing with my nuts. They were still sticky from the residue of my previous load. I wet my fingers with my spit and rubbed under my sack to clean away the cum. When I brought my fingers back to my mouth I smelled myself on them. I sucked them clean. I reached down again, collecting more of my cum laden scent. Licked my fingers clean. Reached again into my groin-all the time continuing to stroke my now raging hard on. Again cleaned my fingers. Each time I explored more of my groin area, the better I liked it. I was closing in on the beginning of my ass crack. The taste was now very different. There was no cum there now. I was tasting and smelling more of my body. I wiped my wet fingers into the crack. Sniffed my fingers, tasted them. Not bad. In fact it tasted very good-much different than what I expected. I knew that part of my body was clean so what I was experiencing was purely me. After a few minutes of this I had reached the opening to my ass. I decided to go further. With my fingers freshly wet, I began playing with the flesh that formed the opening to my body-just as JJ had shown me while playing with my navel. The scent on my fingers was strong, just a little ripe. HELL, there's no way to describe that scent. It was my scent. After licking my fingers clean again, I pushed a little way into my anus. I'd quit stroking my cock-it was very wet from the pre-cum. But now I was concentrating totally on what was happening between my ass cheeks. I wet my fingers again and pushed further into my body. Aww that felt good. I pushed in as far as I could reach-just beyond the second knuckle. I tried pushing a second finger in. My ass was too tight. Another finger wouldn't go in. One finger felt so good I knew I needed more. I remembered seeing some skin lotion in the bathroom. I didn't know what JJ used it for, but it seemed like a solution to my dilemma. Little Victor led me to the bathroom, bobbing along as I walked. I couldn't remember ever having that happen before. I had always slept well trussed in tight briefs and pjs. I liked this much better. Retrieving the lotion, I lay back on the bed. I squirted a pretty good amount on my fingers and returned to playing with my ass. 'Aww, that was much better.' Working for only a few minutes I was finally able to get three fingers into my ass up to the second knuckle. Continuing to play with my ass, I returned to my cock-stroking it as hard as I could. Again I shot a volcano of white juice all over my torso-from my chin to the final dribbles that collected in my pubic hair. I cleaned my hand with my tongue and lips but left the rest of the puddles on my body. Before I fell back to sleep-content with myself and with JJ's scent infusing the air I was breathing, I could feel my cum starting to run down my sides to pool again on the sheets. The last two weeks of school went by without serious incident. Tom Matthews quit harassing me-choosing instead to totally ignore me. I managed to make a few new friends, but lost all contact with the flag pole group. In gym class I learned to play a few of the games and found I had a certain knack for them. I had worked during previous summers cutting grass for people who lived near the house dad and I had shared before he married JJ's mother. After contacting them and renewing our old agreements, I decided I could stay away from dad most of the time if I expanded my business. Even though most people still preferred to do their own lawns, I was able to add enough customers to pretty well fill my days. The times I wasn't mowing grass, I spent at a park not far from where we lived. There I met a few other boys who were pretty well skilled with ball games. They accepted the new me without question. My athletic skills improved swiftly. JJ's mother was miserable without him. She became totally intimidated by my dad but she wasn't happy. She tried to get closer to me but I was having none of that. After all she hadn't fought very hard to keep JJ at home. Why should I help fill the void in her life? Fortunately it was she, rather than dad, who found the first letter from JJ. Up until then I didn't have any idea where he was. I wrote him back and for a few months we exchanged letters fairly often. But once school started again, the letters became fewer and fewer until we rarely exchanged news. JJ may have written more often than he did but I knew if dad found the letters he destroyed them. Dad had also made it quite clear that any contact with JJ was strictly forbidden. Even JJ's mother acquiesced to dad's prohibition. That was another reason I distanced myself as far as possible from her. The atmosphere at the Reingold residence was cold at best. I felt as though I was a stranger in my own home-if it could be called a home.