Date: Tue, 20 Oct 2020 00:19:35 +0200 From: Elliot Hansson Subject: What I most desire - Chapter 1 This is a fictional story about a gay boy and his straight big brother. General disclaimer: Please note that this story is fictional and none of it is real. If you find material offensive or if it is not legal for you to read it then do not read any further. ----------------------------------------------------------------------- Chapter 1 Hallo my name is Noah and I am 12 years old and gay. Nobody knows , that I'm gay. I have known it for some years now and I hate it. I hate myself, I hate who I am, and I especially hate that I am not like most people. Everything about me is average, my body, my penis and my look so why could I not be what the most average person is? StraightÉ. I have dark brown hair and green/blue eyes. For some years now I have has pubic hair around my penis and on my balls and now I am beginning to develop hair in my armpits. I can't remember when I began to masturbate or shoot sperm but I quickly found out that I liked to do it to shirtless men and fantasize about people who I know. There is one person my thoughts frequently drift to and it is my straight brother who is 3 years older than me. My brother's name is Tristan and he is 15 years old, straight, popular and good to sports. He is not a jock, but every sport he set his mind to, he becomes good at it. I'm more into movies and books. I think it is because I like escaping reality and live in the worlds of others story. Be a part of something that I will never be able to do. My brother is a good looking guy and with a good body. I have never seen my brother with an erection but when it is not erect his penis is average, thick and straight down. What I can see, it is around 4 inches (10 cm). Me and my brother have never had the best relationship. We are not close to each other. The funny thing is that we live under the same roof but we never speak to each other or I try not to. He likes to bully me like a big brother should, but I hate it so I try to avoid him, but occasionally we bond like brothers do over a conversation or video game. As a 12 year old, I'm horny all the time and when you are hidden gay, the only place to satisfy your desire is on the internet. But when I am home alone I like to go in my brother bedroom and find his dirty underwear. God I love smelling them. When I sniff them I always do it where the head of his penis have been. There the smell of him is strongest. When I take a pair of his underwear, I'm always excited to see if there are any stains of of sperm. When there is I lick it, but it is already dry so I can't taste anything. So one day when I'm in my bed and sniffing the hell out of the underwear, in the middle of the smell of musk and sweat and just a man smell, my desire for him grows stronger. I want him, I need him but how do I get close enough to him. I fantasize to lick and taste his penis, taste the holy liquid, lick his armpits, his feet. I want him to fuck my virgin ass. But I don't know how to get these thing. While thinking of these things I come hard over my stomach and my desire for my brother fates away for a moment and I try to forget my desire for him. Two weeks later a Sunday morning, him and I are home alone, because my parents are with some friends and they will not be home before late afternoon. Both my brother and me are both sitting on the couch. Him in a tank top and underwear and I'm in normal close and thank god for that. I have the hardest erection ever because my eyes keep wondering to his crotch. God I want him but I don't move. I try to keep watching the movie we both see but out of my eye corner I keep looking at the bulge in his underwear. I say to myself to stop it. He scratches his groin. Why on earth does he keep doing that. Then the commercial begins and my brother gets bored and when he gets bored I'm the first to notice it because he thinks it is so funny to tease me. He then begins to point me in my stomach with his feet. He has size 11,5 (44,5), on the toes there are some hair. I wish I could massage his feet and then lick them from the heel to his toes. But I hate when he tease me. "Tristan stop it" he keeps going "Stop it" I say. "What are you going to do about it" He says with a smile. We both has a temper of a bull. I snap and throw myself toward him and we begins to wrestle and he quickly get the upper hand and holds my head in a headlock and then I smell it. I'm so close to his armpits. God the smell is good, and a plan quickly develops in my head. I pretends that I try to escape his headlock so his hold of my head gets stronger and my head get closer to his armpits. "Take a shower, you smell" I say. He took the bait. "So that's what you think" he says and twist my head so my nose is deep buried in his armpits and I inhale the smell of teen sweat. God I love it. We stay like this for minutes where I pretend to get away and he keeps pushing my head in his hairy armpit. My lips pressed against his hair and skin, but I don't dare to lick it, god I wants to lick him. If that worked I thought, maybe I can get close to his crotch. I begins to really fight against him, so I try to get up and it works, he try to hold my head down and the more I fight, the closer I get to his crotch and eventually my nose is buried just where his penis begins and there his pubic hair is. I fight, simultaneously I take the smell, the feeling of his penis so close to my mouth. My penis is rock hard and I'm about to explode. I thank god that I have pants on so my erection is well hidden. I tell him to stop, that it is gross so he does not get suspicious of me. He just laughs at me and holds me down . I say to him "Tristan loose your grip of me or I bite your penis". He keeps laughing "You don't dare" And I can hear he really belief what he is saying. We continue this fight for another minute while I argue with myself whether I dare to do it and then I just open my mouth and take hold of the lump in his underwear. I save the moment and then I put my teeth on it but I do not bite, I just mumble to him... "Let go of me or I will bite you". My brother gets angry and pulls my head up, and before I can think, he pull his underwear down so his penis is exposed. He then say "try to do it know bitch" Then he press my head down to his penis and then my skin makes contact to his. The warm and smooth feeling of his penis against my lips. "Bite it he says, I dare you" I open my mouth, there is no thoughts in my head I open my mouth, not to bite it but to pretend that it is my intentions. My lips spread apart and I finally feels his penis in my mouth, but it is quickly over because my brother throws me away "YOU FUCKING IDIOT!" He yells. "You would have bitten me, you piece of shit" "Then you should have let me go when I said it". My brother storms off and I run to my room and explode. That was the best orgasm I ever had. I don't see my brother again before my mother calls me to diner and I'm nervous if he is on to me being gay, but when he comes to the table he hits me in my shoulder and I know he does not have a clue it was all intentional. Now I'm wondering if I get a chance again and I start to make planÉ --------------------------------------------------------------------- Thanks for reading. The story continues where it gets more juicy. Keep following the story and find out where it leads to.