Date: Wed, 21 Oct 2020 17:27:06 +0200 From: Elliot Hansson Subject: What I Desire Most - Chapter 2 This is a fictional story about a gay boy and his straight big brother. General disclaimer: Please note that this story is fictional and none of it is real. If you find material offensive or if it is not legal for you to read it then do not read any further. Please donate to this wonderful webpage: http://donate.nifty.org/donate.html ------------------------------------------- Chapter 2 It is now years later since I had the opportunity to feel my brothers penis against my mouth. I am now 14 teen years old and my brother is 17 teen years old. Nothing much have chance in our relationship. I am still a quiet secret gay boy who have the desire of lust for my brother and he is still so handsome and straight. Still years after our brotherly fight which did turned into more than I ever hoped for, I longed for it to happen again. My brother hasn't spoken of the incident since and I can only imagine it is because he saw it as normal thing were we threaten each other in a brotherly manner. Occasionally when I masturbate my mind will go to that place in time and I still see it clearly, how I was able to sniff his armpits and press my lips towards his hair and skin, how he pulled down his underwear and thought he forced my head down, but he never forced me. The sight of that godly thing so close. I could still sometime remember the smell, the smooth feeling. The thick blue vain on the side. I can only imagine how it will pulse so powerful when he is hard, like a high way just for blood. The next encounter was almost the same as the one from years earlier. I was laying in my bed and watching tv, when my brother knocked on the door to my room. He tried to open the door but I always keep my door locked because he always just went into my room without waiting for me give him permission and there have been a few occasion where he almost caught me masturbate. I stood up and unlocked the door. "I don't understand why you always have to lock the door" My brother said. "Because you always just walk in and I'm sick of it" "Hmm" Was the only thing he said. It was his way to let me know he understood what I was saying but didn't agree with me. "What do you want?" I said in an annoyed tone. "Father wants you to mow the lawn" "It is 95 F (35 C) degrees outside, I will do it later when it is not so hot" It is summer and the heat feels so intense. "Is little Noah afraid of the warm air or is it hard work and sweat you are afraid of?" My brother teased. "Fuck off" "Hey don't use that tone against me" He tried to sound like my dad but he never succeed "I will do it later" I then turned my head towards the TV and ignored my brother which I know he hate. Then he said "If you can chill out all day, so can I" Then he jumped in my bed and was laying next to me. "Tristan I will say this in a nice way to you. Fuck the hell off and get out!" He had triggered my anger and I could see it in his face, he loved it. Tristan just kept laying next to me and now it was his turn to ignore me. I tried to push him of the bed but he was too heavy. Tristian now turned from his side to his back and closed his eyes. I haven't come to terms with my sexuality. The older I get the more angry I get at myself. Angry that I'm a shamed of it. Angry that I can't accept myself. Angry that I don't have the guts to tell people. I know my family and friends would embrace it and don't care what I am. Some will not understand it but I know they will accept me. So I don't understand why I say to myself that I have to hide the fact that I like guys. My brother thinks I'm straight and sometimes he would say to me when we see a hot girl. "Look at her legs and that waits. Did you see her butt. Ohh I could do her all day" I always try to hide the fact that I don't care what girls looks like. I nod my head and say something like. "Yeah she was hot" I do mean it because I can see when a girl is hot but it doesn't turn me on. But I know what my brother is feeling because I have the same thoughts about him. I try to be more masculine around other people, it is not because I am super feminine, not at all, I think I am just like everybody else, but because I'm so aware of how I present myself so no one finds out about me being gay, I'm well aware of how I walk and talk. I also thinks that is the reason why I cut myself off from the world and focus my life to book and movies. Now my brother had been laying next to me for around 5 minutes. I love his smell and I love the feeling of him being close to me, but I can't let myself think that so I just want him gone. Also it is pissing me off because I know he is just doing it to get me angry and he has succeed. "Tristan come on, if you don't move I will drag you out" Tristan ignored me. I stood up from the bed and walk down to the end. I took hold of both his legs and then tried to push but my brother didn't move. Then I noticed that his pants were coming off and a thought occurred to me. I kept pulling and his pants was coming down. Tristan didn't do anything and I think I it's because he is trying to ignore me, like he was not there. I could begin to see his pubic hair, dark brown and curly, then the beginning of his penis, uncut like mine, then I had the view of it all. I haven't seen him naked since I was 12. I pulled the pants down all the way. Now my brother was naked from the waits down except he had white tennis socks on. I said to him "If you don't move your big fat ass from my bed I will take hold of your penis and drag you out like a dog on a lease" I looked at him for 30 seconds and he just kept laying still. I began to reach for his penis and then my fingers took hold of it. The feeling in my hand was warm, smooth, it was like lightning went through my whole body and shot the electricity down to my penis. I was hard and it felt like I could cut a diamond in half. I needed to burst but I knew I couldn't do it now. I noticed that my brothers eyelids flinch for a second and then nothing. I began to pull, not hard but still. I said "Come on Tristan, if this don't gets you up IÉ." I didn't finish the sentence because I did not have the desire to stop. I held my brothers penis in my hand and this time it was not for seconds but minutes. I could feel it was beginning to grow, and I could see my brother was aware of it. I looked down and saw it was semi erect and there was dripping some precum on my hand. In the matter of seconds my brother was up and took his pants but before he walked away he said. "Fine you win this time you little piece of shit" Then he walked out of the room and I did catch his beautiful bubble butt of his, all the men in my family, he was also blessed with a bubble butt. I didn't think but I took my hand to my mouth and licked the precum of my hand. It was kind of neutral but a little bit of salty. I locked my door and hammered my penis so hard that I don't think I have ever had an orgasm this big. I was in heaven, I'm not religious but I did prey for something like this to happen again. ---------------------------------- Thanks for reading. And thank you to all who has written to me. It warms my heart that I can make a story that have an impact on you. If you like to sent an email you can do it to - elliotstory2000@gmail.com - I will try to respond. The story continues and I promise Noah will get what he desire most.