From: an4806@anon.penet.fi
Subject: The Early Days

	I suspect that for most people their first experience with
masturbation is memorable.  Let's have some memoirs on the subject.
	I'll go first.  From the time I was about 8 or so I had occasional
erections.  I didn't know what they were, and since I did nothing about
them they went away, and I decided not to worry about them.  For all I
knew the experience was unique to me.
	One day when I was about 11 I was in the young people's room at
the local library and came across a sex-education text.  It was pretty
reticent, but it did allow as how the penis could be made stiff and erect
and inserted into the vagina, with resultant "pleasurable sensations." For
some reason, it didn't explain how to do this.  There was no mention of
masturbation in the text, probably because the authors didn't want to
condemn it and the schools wouldn't accept approval or even neutrality.
	That night in bed, it occurred to me that my penis occasionally
became stiff and erect.  As I was wondering about pleasurable sensations,
my penis suddenly assumed the position.  Almost unconsciously I took it
between by thumb and forefinger and then I k new what a pleasurable
sensation was.  I began stroking it, a process facilitated by lack of
circumcision.  Oh boy, were those sensations pleasurable.  Suddenly they
got so pleasurable I couldn't stand it.  My penis flopped around
spasmodically and then s ettled down to a state which was sore, in that I
couldn't bear to touch it, but also wonderful because I didn't want it to
stop.  Minutes passed and the "soreness" went away.  I did it again, with
the same result.  Before I went to sleep, I had come six or seven times,
and I by the end I noted a slight diminution in pleasure.
	Needless to say, I got less sleep every night for a long time.  I
wonder if the sleep lost through early masturbation explains the haggard
look the old experts attributed to the unhappy masturbator.
	When I got to junior high school I had developed no signs of
sexual maturing, but for the first time in gym class I saw lots of
developed genitalia.  I even saw an occasional erection, and I realized
that some of the penises I had never seen erect were l arger than some I
had.  I formed the odd notion that the pleasurable sensations would be
proportional to volume, and that I had even more pleasurable sensations to
come.  I would speculate on the size erect of the largest penis in the
locker room and what
 it must feel like.  I also imagine the heightening of ejaculation. In due
time I was disappointed.  I didn't get a gigantic penis, ejaculation was
only mildly improving, and anyhow size meant nothing.  Moreover, by the
time I had developed the extra volu me, the incredible power of those
first orgasms was but a memory.
	Does anyone have experience or knowledge bearing on whether
prepubescent orgasms are more powerful than later ones?
	For some time, also, I thought I had invented masturbation. Anyone
else have the same delusion?