Date: Sat, 30 Apr 2022 18:32:14 +0000 (UTC)
From: Samuel Stefanik <churchphilips@yahoo.com>
Subject: Crown Vic to a Parallel World: The Beginning.  Chapter 37

Well, well, well, as Ars would say, no feedback on the last two chapters.
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37

Weapons and When to Use Them

"We've had a small breakthrough." Neb announced from her position next to
an illuminated screen on the wall of the conference room.  Around the table
sat Bem, Ars, Shawn, and me.  The four team members, including Shawn and I,
were dressed in fatigues like when we'd been in the canyon.  Ars'
flamboyant suit stood out from us like a housefly on a white wall.  The
screen Neb pointed to was a display that showed a list of complex names.
Neb held a remote control about the size of a carpenter's pencil that
doubled as a green laser pointer.

Ars had spent many minutes greeting us and rattling about the progress we
were making and my power and blah, blah, blah.  Neb shut him down with a
hard look and a sharp word.  She was now leading the meeting and I was much
happier.

"One of the Steward's researchers had a moment of brilliance and decided to
compare the census records from the years, both before and after the exile
of King Pravus.  In those ancient times, the census was taken only once
every ten years.  The exile fell neatly on the five-year mark.  Whoever
purged the other records likely forgot about it.  As a result, the
researcher uncovered some information that he transmitted to us.  It's not
much, but it's more than we had."

Neb used her pointer to select names from the list.  As she highlighted
them, whatever information that was available appeared on screen.

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Veneficus Pravus, occupation Ð Monarch, 175 years old at time of exile,
telekinetic rating XCIX.

Exercitus Praefectus, occupation Ð Head of land based armed forces, 230
years old at time of exile, empath rating LXXXIX.

Sal Ductor, occupation Ð Admiral, 128 years old at time of exile, empath
rating XCV.

Civilis Indicina, occupation Ð Royal Advisor on matters of policy, 91
years old at time of exile, empath rating XC.

Regnare Ammonitum, occupation Ð Royal Advisor on matters of state, 141
years old at time of exile, empath rating XCIX.

Cessatas Libellus, occupation Ð Court Historian, 258 years old at time
of exile, telekinetic rating XXI.

Fidum Cacula, occupation Ð Court Physician, 174 years old at time of
exile, empath rating XCVII.

Timore Pedisecus, occupation Ð Royal Servant, 276 years old at time of
exile, empath rating XXXVI.

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Shawn raised his hand.  "What are those letters that come after the word
`rating?'  Is that an old system?"

"An excellent question, nephew, an excellent question indeed." Ars replied.
He leaned back, leaned forward, then back again.  He shook his head.  I
think he was disappointed he wasn't in his swivel chair. "We think it is a
numerical system.  Where we have classes and power ratings for each
category of magic, they had numbers that stood for the same thing; one to
ten, fifty, a hundred maybe.  The researchers are working hard but have not
found a translation."

"I think they're Roman numerals." I offered. "I had to learn them in bible
study.  The letters after Pravus' name...the `C' is one hundred and the `X'
in front of it tells you to subtract ten, so `XC' means ninety.  The next
two, `IX' is ten minus one; so those four letters equal ninety-nine."

I borrowed a pencil and worked out the rest on the conference room table.
"The next guy is eighty-nine, then the admiral is ninety-five, the first
advisor is ninety, then another ninety-nine.  Whoa, that next guy,
Libellus, he's only a twenty-one, we're back up with Cacula at
ninety-seven, then we drop way down to thirty-six for Ped...Ped...the
fuckin last guy."

Neb made some notes as I spoke.  "Those numbers would fit.  The little
we've discovered about Pravus indicates he was very powerful.  Any leader
would want to surround himself with powerful people.  The servant and the
historian, their power rating wouldn't matter much to their jobs."

"I don't see any family." Shawn observed. "Didn't the king have a partner,
or children?"

Ars steepled his fingers.  "A very good point, nephew, a very good point.
A monarch would have needed an heir.  To be without one at his age would
have been cause for great concern amongst his followers and his court.  The
lack of spouse is also a surprise.  The king certainly would have had a
wife, no matter his sexual preference.  His primary responsibility would
have been to continue the dynasty."

Neb checked her tablet.  "There are other names that seem to have something
to do with the royal family or the court, but the census comparisons are
inconclusive.  I think we can assume the king was exiled with at least
these people.  I doubt many more, but his retinue would have consisted of
at least these seven."

Bem reminded us of his presence.  He rubbed his hands over the table like
he was waxing a car hood.  "They are all men, so assuming they were exiled
with just themselves, we won't have any children to contend with.  We also
have to assume these people have not aged since they were exiled.  It's
completely impossible, but the facts as we know them make that assumption a
necessity.  If that's the case, then everyone's age should be as it's
reported here.  That means the two oldest have the lowest power levels."

Bem seemed to take a breath to adjust the point he was trying to make,
before proceeding to make it.  "The oldest shouldn't be much of a threat.
The head of the armed forces, a general I guess, is over two-hundred.  We
could call him a reduced threat.  The doctor, if he's anything like our
doctor, would probably prefer not to fight, but he may be able to handle
himself.  The admiral and the two advisors are young enough to fight.  Part
of me likes that they're empaths, another part is worried.  As the only
telekinetic, old Pravus may be the most formidable enemy, or he may be the
least threatening of all."

"What about all the magic they've got?" I asked. "The stuff they've been
stealing, I mean.  Couldn't they destroy us with that?"

Ars looked me dead in the eye and spoke gravely.  "There are two schools of
thought there, young man.  The answer to your question is a cautious
`maybe.'  Magic is unique, it does not like being stored.  Our bodies
retain a certain amount, but the key to health and well-being is flowing
magic.  It is very important for all of us to use our power regularly to
keep the magic within us fresh.  If Pravus was able to store all the magic
he has stolen, and control its discharge, he would be a god."

`Fantastic,' I thought sarcastically, `maybe I can kill him by refusing to
believe in him.'

Ars leaned back again, becoming more like himself as he did it.  "We think
he has learned to control the barrier.  It is, after all, connected to his
life force.  He could not leave it, but he could use it to take his revenge
on the world that banished him.  If he is storing the power, he is storing
it within the barrier itself.  It is more likely, however, that he has
concocted a way to draw ever increasing amounts of magic into the barrier.
He cannot keep it bottled up, but he can effectively `spend' it.  It is
barely possible he could channel the power from the barrier through his
body, into powerful acts, but I do not think any human being could control
that much magic without self-destructing."

"That said, if I had not seen the images Neb included with her reports,
Mister Philips and his nine-hundred tons of rock and Mister Philips and his
mountain-destroying white magic..." Ars shook his head slowly, like he was
trying to convince himself not to think what he was thinking, "if our enemy
has devised a way to be even half as powerful as our Mister Philips, we
will be at an extreme disadvantage."

I felt like I was at my own funeral after that speech.  Shawn was worried.
Even the unflappable Neb and the teasing Bem were subdued.  No one spoke,
everyone retreated into their fears.  My anxiety rose in response to
Shawn's and his rose in response to mine.  `We're gonna worry ourselves to
a panic attack if we're not careful.' I thought. `Gotta do something.'

I slapped the table and shoved myself onto my feet.  I paced the narrow end
of the room near the door.  "Thanks Ars, great pep talk.  I'm sure we all
feel much better about the mission now.  Hey, as long as we're talking doom
and gloom, I think there's another elephant in the room." I paused to look
up and noticed everyone was staring at me.  I thought about what I'd just
said and realized it rhymed. "HA!  I'm a poet.  Anyway, Bem said something
about empaths being scary.  Maybe he could elaborate for the uninitiated."

"I'll answer that." Neb clicked her remote control and the screen with the
names on it went back to being a wall.  She shoved her rolled sleeves up
and they did what they always did.  "Church, how do you feel right now?
Are you happy, sad, angry, worried?"

I stopped pacing to lean against the wall.  "I'm worried."

Neb took a long breath, and something in the room shifted.  All the
unknowns about the mission thundered to the surface of my mind.  I felt
hopeless.  I wanted to roll myself into a ball and stay that way.  Then, as
quickly as the terror rose, the unknowns shrank in importance until they
seemed like nothing more than minor inconveniences for a team of our
caliber.  I felt like the sun rising on a new day, almost euphoric.  I
wanted to hug Shawn and dance.  Shawn felt the same.  "Neb," Shawn said,
sounding very serious despite the joy he felt, "you made your point."

The euphoria faded.  I felt like I had before I asked my question.  Neb sat
at the conference table.  "Apologies, Shawn, I forgot." She said before
offering an explanation for the roller coaster of emotions I'd experienced.
"I am a Fourth-Class Empath with an `A' rating.  My power allows me to
broadcast whatever emotions I wish to an individual or to a group.  I can
make an enemy force feel like the battle is hopeless, or I can make my
forces as happy to go into battle as they'd be going to an orgy.  That's
why empaths are dangerous."

I scrubbed my face with my palms.  "Thanks for that, Neb." I used as much
sarcasm as my voice would carry. "Just so you know, my default emotion is
anxiety, so...yeah...no help needed there.  Why didn't you tell us before?"

"I never tell people I'm training.  If I need to reinforce them or if I
have to take them down a peg, I don't want them to know it's my power."

"Makes sense." I agreed with a mental shrug.  I was ready to move on to a
new topic when a thought struck me and stopped me in my metal
tracks. "Wait...wait a goddamned minute," I stood off the wall and pointed
at her, "did you...are you why climbing got fun?"

"I did some of it," she admitted, "you did the rest.  I know you feel
manipulated, and you were, but would you rather the training was a chore?
Soldiers that find training rewarding do better than the ones that just
muddle through.  I didn't do much with you.  I made you stop hating the
work.  You found the fun on your own."

I wanted to be pissed, and a part of me was, but I saw the value in what
she'd done.  I added a physical shrug to the mental one.  "I guess I get
it.  I'd like to tell you not to do it again, but I won't.  The work did
get a lot easier when I stopped dreading it.  What else did you do?"

Neb looked away and rubbed her right hand up and down her left forearm.  It
was obvious she didn't want to say, but I was adamant that I wanted to
know.  "I may have given you a confidence boost when I asked you to use
your magic."

I remembered the swelling of confidence I'd felt when I was working on
pulling the poplar tree from the ground, and again before I destroyed the
quarry.  It made sense that both of those boosts came from Neb.  I found
myself wanting to be angry that she'd interfered, but I knew I wouldn't
have succeeded either time if not for her influence.  I decided to accept
the help she'd given me and appreciate it, rather than blame her for it.

Shawn asked.  "Did you help me stay under control when Church fell through
the quarry floor?"

Neb looked Shawn hard in the eye.  "You did that on your own."

Shawn's pride swelled with that admission, so did mine.  He was stronger
than he thought.

There was more to discuss though.  After Neb's reveal, I wanted everyone's
cards on the table.  I thought that was only fair.  Neb and Bem had both
read my file.  The professional members of the team both knew all about me,
but I knew very little about them.  I offered my hand across the table to
Neb like I wanted to shake her hand.  "Church Philips, forty years old,
telekinesis and white magic," as an afterthought I added, "recovering
alcoholic and former smoker.  Nice to meet you."

Neb shook my hand uncertainly.  I dropped her hand and offered mine to Bem.
He seemed to understand what I was getting at.  He grinned up at me and
tilted his head at Neb.  "Introduce yourself." He suggested to her.

Neb did as Bem said, but obviously didn't understand why she was doing
it. "Warrant Officer Neb Torolus, one-hundred-ten years old, Fourth-Class
Empath, `A' rating, former member of the Protectorate police force, current
member Protectorate armed forces."

I appreciated the information Neb offered.  Her age surprised me, but I
suppose it shouldn't have.  She looked to be in her middle thirties, but
hard, hardened by life and intense discipline.  Since Neb had told me what
I wanted to know, I turned my attention to the last team member that I
seemed to know nothing about. "Well, Bem?"  I asked.

Instead of following the model of introducing himself to the group, Bem
clapped his hands in front of his face.  "Toss me a nut."

I launched one in his direction.  It arced towards his waiting hands but
stopped short of them.  It flew around the room, did some figure eights and
other aerobatics, then landed in his waiting palm.  Bem moved his hand in a
small circle to send the nut bumping across the unevenness of his palm in a
motion that approximated that of his hand.  He introduced himself but
didn't use the same order that Neb or I had.

"Bem Custos, seventy-three, special forces, Fifth-Class Telekinetic, `CC'
rating.  I can move things I can see, maybe as many as ten at a time, but
can't handle much weight.  One ten-pound object or several smaller ones is
about my limit.  I use it for fighting hand-to-hand.  Think of how
distracting it would be to an opponent to be tapped on the shoulder in the
middle of a fight." He tossed the nut into the air and caught it with his
power.  "I'll show you the difference between us." He pointed at the
nut. "I'll hold onto it as hard as I can.  You take it from me."

I nudged the nut with my power to get an idea of the force of his hold, but
I didn't feel much.  I pulled the nut from him.  The resistance of his
magic was like pulling a fallen leaf from a spider web.  "That's it?" I
asked.

He smirked.  "That's what he said!"

I snickered at Bem's mild penis size joke and was glad I knew more about my
teammates.  I resolved to ask more questions when I met people in the
future.  On Earth, a person's appearance would normally get me close to
their age, and a few questions about what they did for a living and a
two-minute conversation would be enough introduction for me.  Solum added
layers of complexity that I never had to consider on Earth.  Now I had to
ask about magic type and power level, age because appearances meant
nothing, and as I was in the middle of an effort to save the world,
military background instead of job title.

"Moving on." Neb's voice overrode Bem's humor and ended my session of
`getting to know you.'  She took the meeting back. "We have a great deal to
do this week.  Every morning starting tomorrow, Church and Shawn, you're on
the wall from seven-thirty to eleven-thirty.  I want Church getting up and
down the intermediate section in no more than twice the time it took me.
At eleven-thirty, you clean up and get lunch on your way here."

Bem stood and took up the direction.  "At twelve-thirty, we'll have
hand-to-hand training and sparring.  We're going to be fighting with
weapons, firearms similar to the projectile weapons you were issued.  These
will match those in weight and feel but will discharge a mild stun.  I'll
say it again, we do not have the time to make you soldiers.  I'm going to
teach you as much as I can in the short time we have.  At four, we'll have
a short break, then we'll spend two hours on weaponizing you magic."

Shawn immediately shut down, obstinance radiated from him.  Bem seemed to
sense it as strongly as I did.  "Shawn, this is not an option.  I know you
don't like it, and I am genuinely sorry, but you need to be able to protect
yourself and us.  If we can keep the dirty work between Neb and I, fine,
but if we can't, you need to be able to do what needs to be done.  No
argument, please."

Shawn sagged visibly, but his obstinance gave way to resignation.  "No
argument." He whispered to the room.

"Thank you.  Now, unless anyone has anything else, we need to get started."

No one had anything.  Ars said a voluble goodbye.  The remaining four of us
went next door to the dojo room to start work.

* * * *

The next eight days passed in a blur of intense training.  Each workday was
ten-or-twelve-hours long to help us increase our skills as quickly as
possible.  My climbing was the first hurdle cleared.  It only took two more
sessions on the wall for me to get within Neb's prescribed time limit.
Shawn and I still started each day climbing, but the subsequent sessions
were about honing the skills I'd learned instead of trying to develop them.
I continued to improve to the point that Shawn started to introduce me to
the advanced section of the wall.

Combat was another story.  My improved physical condition made movement
easier, but no amount of medical magic was going to cure my size or lack of
grace.  After another catastrophic attempt at landing a hit on Bem in the
dojo room, I got him to move our sparring venue to an empty office.  The
padded floor of the dojo was too soft.  It was like fighting with my feet
in mashed potatoes.  Getting a solid floor under me and wearing my newly
issued boots helped, but not much.

Bem seemed to grow tired of landing hits whenever he felt like it while I
used way too much energy to kick my own ass.  He tried a new strategy.  He
went on the offensive and taught me some basic blocking techniques, both
with my hands and with my practice rifle.  He also gave me some tips on
reading the moves of an opponent; how the drop of a shoulder precedes a
punch, or a shift of the hips can telegraph a kick.  By the weekend, I
improved enough to not get my ass handed to me every time.

Bem was far from satisfied, but he acknowledged I could probably defend
against an untrained opponent.  Only two of the men exiled with Pravus were
likely to have had military training and one was two-hundred-and-thirty
years old.  They'd had fifteen-hundred years to train, but it seemed
reasonably unlikely that they had.

Weaponizing my magic was easy and kind of fun.  The white magic was
basically a laser cannon already, and since it went where I told it to go,
aiming it was as easy as picking a target to hit.  Neb and I worked
together at the gun range.  She helped me learn to fire bursts she called
`stingers.'  I could make them low-powered enough to hurt without causing
injury, or power them up enough to kill selectively.  In a real emergency,
I could rely on an indiscriminate discharge of power, like I'd used at the
quarry.  It would vaporize everything and everyone it touched.  Neb called
that one my `magic eraser.'  I had a fit of the giggles when she said it
and had to explain about the Earth cleaning product of the same name.

We also worked on my telekinesis.  I learned that I could put boxes around
people to immobilize them and block their magic.  We did some experiments
and found out I could also squeeze them in the box.  Neb had watermelons
brought in for that purpose.  I admit to gleefully smashing them between
the walls of my magic box until I realized the watermelons were a stand-in
for a person.  Then I felt ill.

We came up with one more technique that Neb called my `invisible cannon.'
I imagined a cylinder of solid steel and created an invisible version of
one from my telekinetic energy that was four inches in diameter and six
inches long.  I could `fire' these with enough force to knock a man down,
force the air from his lungs, and likely break some ribs.  It wouldn't kill
him, but he wouldn't be getting back up too quickly either.  If absolutely
necessary, I could aim at someone's head and be fairly certain the impact
would kill them.

I liked that I had the ability to defend myself and the team with
non-lethal force but also the power to kill if necessary.  I worried about
knowing when to use which.

Neb had a serious talk with me, kind of like the talk Bem had with Shawn,
about when lethal force was necessary and erring on the side of caution.
`Caution' being if in doubt, shoot to kill.  We were sitting in the
observation room of the dojo while Shawn and Bem had a sparring session.
"Make no mistake," she cautioned, "our enemy is a real enemy, and they will
kill us without hesitation.  You need to be ready to do what needs to be
done."

"Is there any way to be sure I'll do the right thing?" I asked.

Neb lifted her arm toward the glass.  "When you go into battle, you think
of him.  Is he important enough to kill for?"

I looked to Shawn.  He made fighting look like ballet.  His raven hair tied
in a loose ponytail to keep it out of his face, the blue t-shirt, soaked
with the sweat of exertion and clinging to his defined torso, the tapered
pants hinting at his muscled legs, and the set expression of a mind bent to
a task.  The man I loved and the body I yearned for.  As I watched him,
Shawn faltered, miss-read a feinted punch for a real one and shifted
himself off balance just in time for a kick to knock him on his ass.  Bem
pounced on him and froze in an incomplete finishing move.

Bem got up and helped Shawn to his feet.  Shawn scowled at me, hands on his
hips and as close to mad as he ever got.  "If you can't keep your mind off
my body, I won't let you watch these matches anymore." He scolded, his
voice coming to me muffled by the glass.  He shook his head and squared off
with Bem.

I turned back to Neb.  "Yeah, he's worth it."

She already knew how I'd answer.  Asking the question was a lead-in to some
advice.  "Church, don't save the world.  It's too big and impersonal.  Save
him.  As long as you think of this as the mission to save Shawn, you'll do
what needs to be done."

I didn't admit that I already felt that way.  I rubbed my neck and tried to
put my thoughts on anything but Shawn.  My watch found its way into my
hand.  I started to ask Neb a question I'd been chewing on for a while but
didn't know how to ask without offending her.  I decided the answer was
worth the risk.  "Can I ask you...I assume from what you've said that you
know the answer to this...but...you don't have to answer if it's too
personal...but..."

"What's it like to kill someone?" She finished the question I was dancing
around.

"Yeah."

"I'll tell you, but I warn you, it won't help.  Taking the life of another
human being isn't something you can prepare yourself to do.  You train to
protect yourself and rely on that training to carry you through.  As much
as you hope you never need it, you know at some point, you won't have a
choice.  That's how it was with me anyway.  I was twenty-three, not that
many years out of the academy, a child really.  My partner and I responded
to a silent alarm at a luxury goods shop.  There was a robbery in progress.
I covered the back door while my partner went in the front.  A suspect, a
man my age, an attractive man with auburn hair and violet eyes, charged
through the door.  I aimed at him, identified myself, and told him to
freeze.  He pointed a gun at me, an old-style projectile weapon.  I didn't
hesitate...I fired."

Neb stopped to clear her throat.  Her normal, business-like tone grew soft
and thoughtful.  "The weapons we were using at the time were like hot
lasers, they penetrated and cauterized but didn't knock down.  The look on
his face...he didn't understand what happened, why he couldn't breathe.  My
shot had seared his left lung and destroyed the blood vessels from his
heart.  He crumpled to the ground.  I kicked his gun from his hand and
called out to my partner.  He came out, checked on me, and called into the
station for back-up and emergency medical attention.  It was too late for
that.  The boy was dying, and he knew it.  He mouthed that he was sorry and
started to cry.  As an act of mercy, I used my magic to fill him with joy.
He smiled, and he died.  Twenty years old, dead in an alley behind a shop."

Neb hugged herself and rubbed her hands up and down her upper arms like she
was cold.  "That was eighty-seven years ago last May.  I see his face
still.  I see it right now as clearly as I saw it then.  I see the moment
that life left his body."  Neb's eyes looked to me but didn't see.  I could
have sunk into the floor, and she wouldn't have noticed, so focused was she
on the past.

She came back to the present with a jerk.  "There were more, after that.  I
won't say how many.  There were enough that I don't remember them all.
After the first, it gets easier.  It's easier when they're older, ugly,
debauched, repeat offenders, violent people.  I think the first one haunts
everyone, but mine especially because it was such a waste.  If I met him in
a club, I would have taken him home.  Instead, I met him in an alley and
took his life.  I know, in that moment, it was him or me.  I'm not sorry
for what I did, but I deeply regret that it happened."

Neb had surprised me again with the tender words about a man she'd killed
in the line of duty.  There was an awful lot to her.  What we saw on the
surface wasn't even the tip of the iceberg.  I apologized for dredging up
what was better left buried.  "I'm sorry I brought it up."

"Don't be.  It was a good reminder for me of how green you and Shawn are.
There's a lot to what we're getting ready to do.  It's intimidating."

"Yeah.  I'm nervous, so is Shawn."

"That's good.  It shows you take this seriously.  I'd be worried if you
weren't nervous.  You'll do fine.  I think Shawn will be OK, but honestly,
I hope we don't have to find out.  He's physically more capable than you,
but...he's very innocent.  You are not innocent and that works in your
favor.  Put your faith in Bem and me to clear the way, watch out for Shawn,
and be ready to do whatever it is you need to do when it's time to do it.
Then we'll come back and collect our pay."

"It sounds so simple when you say it." I observed.

"Much of it is simple.  It's the part that isn't we need to watch for."

* * * *

Weaponizing Shawn's magic became a problem.  He didn't exactly refuse, but
he resisted.  Shawn's version of resistance was different than mine.  He
didn't dig his heels in, or actively thwart Bem's efforts to make his
healing magic into a weapon, but he passively resisted.  He dragged his
feet during talks on the subject.  He avoided explaining how his magic
worked and didn't offer any helpful suggestions.  I was impressed at how
slow he made things go without resorting to direct action.

The main problem with using Shawn's power as a weapon, was that his magic
required physical contact, preferably skin to skin.  There were things he
could do through clothes, but they were more difficult and not very
effective.  Shawn had limited his talks with Bem to these difficulties and
seemed to hope Bem would give up on the idea.  I doubted a man like Bem
would give up on anything, so I pressed Shawn on the details when we were
alone.

I was able to find out that, if Shawn could make contact, even for a
second, he could cause a ton of tissue damage.  He'd explained it to me
using my lungs as an example.  "The first thing I had to do was break down
your old lungs to make the material available for the new.  It's part of
what your body would do naturally with dead tissue.  The body breaks the
tissue down so it can dispose of it, but it absorbs whatever is usable from
it before it processes it out.  I can initiate the disposal process and
stop it there.  If I could grab a hand or connect with a punch, I could
break down the tissue I touched.  It would be like pulling a handful of
flesh from your body.  It's very destructive, and very gory, and very much
against everything I stand for."

"Is there another option?" I asked.  We were at home, parked on the couch,
after a particularly arduous day.  Both of us were so exhausted, we'd
decided not to fuck.

"Not really.  My power is for healing, not destroying.  I don't think I
would use it unless I was really outmatched."

I didn't like his answer, but I decided not to argue with him.  He worried
me because it kept getting clearer that he was ill-suited to any kind of
conflict.  He hated to argue, he didn't like to fight, he abhorred the
weapons we were training with.  Even the practice weapons, the stun guns,
were too violent for his taste.  I understood.  I didn't like any of it
either, but I saw the value in being prepared to cause maximum damage.  If
we had to fight, we should fight with everything we had.  I thought I was
willing to do that.  I didn't think Shawn was.

`Have to see how he does in the skirmishes.' I thought. `I'd hate to ask
him to stay behind after all the work we've done.  If we take him with us
though, he might become a ball and chain.  It's WAY too late to think about
replacing him.  SHIT!'  I didn't see a solution, but it wasn't my place to
deal with the problem.  For lack of anything else to do, I let the
situation ride and hoped it would work itself out.

*	*	*	*

The days fell away in a haze of hard work and sweat.  Before we knew it, it
was time for our first mock battle.