Date: Mon, 26 Jun 2017 01:13:17 -0600
From: M. R. Masterson <authormrmasterson@gmail.com>
Subject: Extraordinary Men of Epic Love: Starbound

Extraordinary Men Of Epic Love
A collection of stories told by.  M. R. Masterson

Volume 1: Starbound.

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Starbound: Bound by The Stars.

This story is entitled "Starbound", which might lead you to believe that it
is about traveling to the stars. To clear up any confusion you may have, I
will first state clearly that this is not the case. This story takes place
entirely on earth, and deals with the legacy of and effects of influences
from elsewhere, mainly from other dimensions and due to energies that are
either older than the earth, or as new as the teenage boys the story
centers around.

Two lovers who, born under the same stars ( thus star-bound ) , are bound
to each other by unknowable forces, and are imbued with traits that made
them capable of anything, as long as they were together.

Limitless potential, deep endless love, extraordinary adventures await
these two.

As their bond grows stronger and deeper, their own mysterious abilities do
so also.

Please do enjoy the telling of this story.

Part 1. The Beginning of Forever.

A message from the Author:

** ** ** ** **

As I begin the first part of this story about extraordinary young men and
the bonds between them, I am going to tell you about myself, The narrator.

When I was young, my older brothers collected things like stamps or coins,
or other things, and I was always a but puzzled by the hoarding of physical
items, it seemed like a waste of time and space to me. One cannot take
things to the grave.

I am a different kind of collector, one of stories. I was always a fan of
the stories that my elders would tell, and was always a bookworm in search
of an inspiring stories.

This Inspirational legend is one that, I, a collector of inspiring tales,
will present to you.  "From the Beginning." This is the reason I chose the
title for this first installation in this particular world of story we are
about to enter, and the reason why it is the first story I am producing for
you all to read.

IT does not start at some hapless random point, It starts at the birth of
two of the main characters. It starts From Day One.

Sincerely, Your Storyteller.  M. R. Masterson.

** ** ** ** ** ** ** ** **

This chapter had been revised and altered from original starter piece
posted at an earlier date.

Chapter One -- From Day one to first Love

On October 28th, two expectant mothers who were getting checkups on the
progress of their pregnancies at a clinic in Hamilton, Montana, USA, Earth.

In a clinic waiting room, Sharon and Teresa sat and chatted with each
other. They had been seeing the same doctor, and their appointments seemed
to line up by chance quite often so that they were both there at the same
time. Sometimes one would have an emergency and reschedule, but
surprisingly, they still by some chance ended up there at the same time. If
either of them believed in fate, or in the interference of some deity in
the lives of ever7yday people, they might have suspected something unusual
was going on, even before that extraordinary afternoon.

As they sat and waited, as usual the clinic was running late. Both women
were within 3 weeks of their due date. For no apparent reason, and with no
cause, both women began to feel odd as the children in their wombs became
active and agitated. I could not tell you if there was a solar flare, a
dimensional shift, a gravitational or electromagnetic anomaly, or any other
cause for the effect... but something extraordinary was occurring between
the two unborn Children. Both women went into labor that afternoon, and as
they had the same doctor, the and the births were happening simultaneously,
they shared a delivery room with only a curtain between the two.

The two mothers were taken to the hospital that was connected to the clinic
via a tunnel, and the doctor who was supposed to be delivering both
children was forced to run back and forth between them with his nurses
helping him. Needless to say, this doctor went through a lot of rubber
gloves, and more than a few other personal protective products as he worked
double time to make sure both births were happening as usual.

For privacy reasons, and because the room was crowded, the husbands briefly
let their wives know they were there, and then had to sit in the waiting
room, where understandably they got to know each other, visiting about
their small businesses, playing card games, and eating crappy vending
machine food.

"What are the chances that two women, who have the same doctor, in the same
place, at the same time, go into labor? I mean... the odds must be
astronomical. Either god is playing some kind of game with us, or this is a
strange dream." Sam was saying.

"Walter Hall shrugged his shoulders and raised his eyebrows, which always
wrinkled his forehead in a reverse frown. It is what it is... but just in
case, We should keep in touch when this is all over. We are both
entrepreneurs, small business men, starting families. Our kids will
probably grow up together."

Sam Blayne replied "Probably, I mean, we aren't going anywhere any time
soon, we just had a house built. Up Skalkaho Highway."

"Yeah, my family has a lot of property here, they homesteaded pretty early
on near Grantsdale, they were business associates with Marcus Daily. *

"Nice to meet you Walt, so if you don't mind me asking, are you having a
boy or a girl?" Sam asked in a tone that said, "you don't really need to
tell me if you don't want to."

"A girl, we are going to name her Laura Linda Hall." Walter replied.

"Cool, we are having a boy, his name is Jaysen Conner Blayne" Sam said.

After what seemed like forever, The Doctor came out, looking exhausted. He
told them that Both of babies were relatively healthy. A foot deformation
in the case of Walter's child would need a lot of therapy to correct, it
was due to loose ligaments and stretched muscles that resulted in the foot
lying uselessly against the side of the Boy's leg. The two men went back to
the NICU where their children were side by side in their incubators.

"OH BOY" ... Walter said.

Sam looked around wondering what was up... then he noticed, both babies had
blue blankets, booties, and hats.

"Surprise dad, it's a BOY." Sam said laughing.

"We have a LOT of pink baby crap to return to stores and get rid of."
Walter said.

"That one has set a precedent, he is gonna keep everyone on their toes."
Sam joked.

"Yeah well, it doesn't matter to me either way." Walter said. We'll do what
we must. Life is full of things that aren't ideal, we just gotta see what
we are facing and say, fuck it, I'm gonna push through and hope there is
something bigger on my side. Workin' guys like us who ain't had nothing
handed to us, we gotta rely on what god makes happen or what we can do
through sheer hard work. He said

"I guess, let's check up on the wives." Sam said

The women were relaxing in separate rooms now, and they both really needed
rest more than anything, it had been a long and exhausting labor, and now
that they knew that both of their babies were healthy, they told their
husbands to go get some rest too, and to bring a few various things back
with them.

When the fathers returned, it was in a hurry because an earthquake had
started shaking the town. When they got to the hospital their wives were
walking up and down the hallway holding their sons who were crying at the
top of their lungs.

"The earthquake must be scaring them, Sharon said. They started crying
right before and haven't been consolable since it started."

"Ok...kiddos, dads' turn," Sam said, and each man went to his wife and held
their sons for the first time.

"Come on little guys, nothing is gonna hurt you when daddy is here," Sam
said.

They tried everything for quite a while, and despite everything they
wouldn't calm down.

The parents were both about ready to go home, but first, because both
children had demanded to be born at the same time, they decided to take a
picture of the two boys together, and the moment laid then down close
together on the bed, one of the boys reached out and touched the other's
hand, and it was almost as if the two infants had made an agreement,
because they both seemed to be calming down.

None of them really noticed, as they were too caught up in a hypnotic baby
gawking state of mind, but the earthquake had stopped gradually, the ground
slowly stopped shaking and the boys slept peacefully as their proud parents
watched.

"These guys are most definitely gonna be best friends." Theresa predicted.
What are you naming him, now that you know it is a Boy? She asked Sharon.

Sharon replied, "Alex Richard Hall." That was what we decided...if we had a
boy.

"Well We will have to make sure to get Jaysen and Alex together once in a
while, they seem to be fond of each other already she said as the infants
would reach out for each other's hands."

"Yeah, and when your house is ready, let us know, we'd like to get you a
housewarming gift." Sharon said.

** ** **

>From then on, the two families were good friends, and the boys were
inseparable buddies as Theresa had predicted. Something about their mutual
birth, and the energy of the universe on that day, had formed a tenacious
and loving bond between them. Neither set of parents were surprised, and
they were a joyous about the phenomenal friendship that existed between the
two young boys.

In their 13th year, they were separated briefly when Alex's family moved
away for a year and a half. Over the years these two boys leaned on each
other, and spent as much time together as life living in two different
households would allow.

The parents became best friends too, and there was a golden age of
friendship when they were like one big family until the boys were 13.

Walter had had a falling out with his business partner, and had taken job
with a Bank in a town far up north, after a conflict in his family had
upset him so bad that he wanted nothing to do with them or the land they
had squandered away, the Halls were moving north to Cut bank Montana to get
a fresh start and have a new adventure, as they pitched it to Alex.

Alex wanted none of it, he couldn't imagine not having Jay in his life, but
his parents had decided it was time for him to become his own man anyway
and see who he was on his own.

The change wasn't easy on Jay either. He and Alex had never been apart for
long, and losing his best friend made the 13-year-old boy lose faith in
everything he knew. He let his grades in school slip, and went into a deep
depression.

With a lot of help and support, he had started getting involved in some
clubs and groups at school, and he even had a girlfriend, but that was more
a social obligation than a relationship. Sarah was a tomboy, and she just
didn't want to be the only girl on her basketball team squad who wasn't
dating someone, and while Jay was a bit thin and definitely wasn't
athletic, he was sweet and never pressured her for intimacy, they were just
friends who let everyone think they were "together".

Alex didn't have anyone he would have counted as a good friend through his
middle school years, except for Alex. He hung out with a few people from
the track team and some club members, but it was just typical socializing,
not because he actually had any interest in knowing them and being best
friends.

** ** **

Alex went through similar struggles to make new friends, he kept his grades
up, but he had more or less shut himself off from the world. He stuck his
nose in a book, and escaped from reality to wherever wasn't here, to a
world where he didn't exist, and he wasn't thinking about being lonely or
missing his best friend.

He finally made friends with one boy who was an outcast because his parents
were odd, and he was socially awkward. He was intelligent and friendly, but
his baggy clothes, wild hair, and intensely eccentric behavior tended to
keep people at a distance. He reminded Alex of an average child actor from
the Disney channel. If there was a way to overdo something, Clayton would
do so, up to and including nearly accidentally lighting the school on fire
with a science project gone terribly wrong.

Clay was long legged, long armed, and bone thin despite always eating
enough for two or three people at every meal. He was the tallest person in
the class, and had big feet that he was always tripping over, and probably
the least stylish eye glasses that the Optometrist sold, which made him
look like a very tall, very hairy bug. He had a socially awkward habit of
saying things that were obvious, but that no one else would mention due to
social norms. He also had a comic book obsession that lent to the nerd
stereotype, and was fond of foul smelling herbal remedies for every
ailment, on of which he was perpetually claiming to be suffering from.

Clay was a good guy, he really was, but even Alex figured that trying to
help him fit in better would be an exercise in futility, so he just
accepted his new friend as he was, and spent a lot of time over at his
house hanging out with him and his parents, who were a cool hippie, modern
liberal pair. His step father, being only 22 when they had gotten married,
was the gossip of the town, as Sandra was 15 years older.

Sandra was a child psychologist, and a true Hippie. She always asked Alex
how he was doing, or how situations made him feel, and on several
occasions, she had passed a marijuana joint around the table, or poured him
a glass of wine.

She was the cool mom. No topic was taboo in their house, she openly
admitted that she had dated both men and women, and that the best decision
she ever made was deciding that drama would have no place in her house, she
let her kid and husband both have their freedom, and they appreciated
that. Her and Bill had never really had a fight that Clay could remember,
but Bill was such an easygoing guy that there wasn't much that would make
him mad enough to fight.

Clay had confided to jay that he'd seen quite a few third partners coming
in and out of his mother and stepfather's bedroom, which for most kids
would have been a bit disturbing, but for clay it just meant that they
weren't closed minded in the least, and he seemed fine with them being
sexually eccentric.

Billy was the epitome of the Pretty blond surfer dude, all grown up. Jay
had noticed that he had a strange attraction to his friend's stepfather,
and had tried desperately to Ignore it, but if there was ever a chance for
him to hang out at their place, he jumped at it because he liked Billy, and
Sandra was amusing and sensitive and an all-around supportive and generous
person.

Alex didn't know if he and Clay would ever have become as close as they
were if his parents weren't so cool, but he was glad that they had because
but was only when he was with them that he wasn't thinking about what he's
left behind, or how unkind most people in town were to him. People in Cut
Bank weren't like people in most towns in Montana, they were cliquish, and
if you didn't fit into a group, you didn't fit into the town.

After he'd been forced to defend himself, and was on suspension from
school, Alex's mother gave him some very wise advice.

"Alex, if you are extremely lucky, you will still only find one or two good
friends who are worthy of your trust and won't break your heart. If You are
lucky and smart, one day you will marry one of them."

Alex only knew one person in his life who fit the description...and he
didn't know if he was gay or not, but marrying Jay would have certainly
been an option if he were.

He liked Clay, but clay had a long way to go before he was mature enough
and practical enough to be in the class of friend his mother had been
referring to. Alex surmised that something in his life was going to have to
change before he could be happy again, until then he would just deal with
his new life until his parents figured out they'd made a huge mistake
moving there, they were no more happy and successful at the time than he
was.

His father's employer was a crooked bastard, and his mother worked so many
hours on her feet that Alex would have to massage them after every shift
just so she could walk the next day. He didn't mind, everyone said that he
had healing hands, which he figured was a compliment.

Alex knew it was only a matter of time before his father's conscience would
force him back into being in business working for himself again rather than
a crooked employer, and he could do that anywhere. His mother would always
be in favor of returning to someplace where they still had friends. She had
heard that all the family members who Walter had conflicts with had sold
their property, and the property that was supposed to be belong to Walter,
and moved to California, to which he said, "On Behalf of the entire state
of Montana, I say good riddance"

Both boys would be going to High School the next year, and Alex was hoping
that his parents would make the decision before then to move back to
Hamilton.

The parents did their best to keep the boys in touch, and let them run up
bills texting and calling each other because they were like addicts, if
they didn't get to interact with each other often, things got very
unpleasant for them both.  No one, not even the boys themselves quite
understood what it was that made them unstoppable together, but miserable
when they were not in each other's lives.

On the boys' mutual birthday, the Halls came back to spend the day with
their best friends and celebrate. It was all either boy had hinted they
wanted.

"Are you excited to see Jaymes, Alex?" asked his mother.

"Heck yeah." Said Alex. "I have missed him so much... and Teresa and Sam. I
wish we could come back and stay forever." Jay said, knowing his parents
were well aware of his opinion of their current situation.

Walter said sympathetically, "I wish we could make that happen too Kiddo,
but..."

"I know, the company you work for is selling out most of their Montana
branches and we will probably have to move even further away. It sucks."
Alex grumbled.

"Yeah it does," both his parents agreed. They were missing their friends
too.

When they pulled up to the Blayne house outside of the town of Hamilton,
Montana on Sakalkaho Highway, Jay was shooting hoops in the driveway, he
dropped the ball and ran up to give Alex a hug, then they went to his
basement to play video games and talk.

"I really missed you." Alex said, "I wish we never had to move, you are
like a brother to me, we used to do everything together."

Jay hugged Alex again. He was more affectionate now than he had ever been
before, sometimes distance makes the heart grow fonder. An observer might
have thought it was unusual for a 15 year old boy, but these two were
always stuck like glue.

"I know buddy, I miss you too," Jay said, "It feels like I lost my shadow,
like Peter pan."

Their Parents had always joked that Alex was Jaymes' shadow, but the way
Jay said it was more real and literal, like a part of himself had gone
away, that was how it felt to them both alright.

It made Alex sad to know that Jay missed him as much as he missed Jay, but
it was also kind of good to know nothing had changed between them. He
hugged Jay back with a little dampness in his eyes.

Alex tried to get ahold of himself, he was turning 15 now, he should be
able to handle this.

Jaymes had grown a lot, he was taller, and thinner, He was becoming a
handsome young man already, Alex noticed, but he didn't want to say
anything awkward. He also noticed that jay must be going through some
growth spurts, because he was really too thin for his height, he had very
little muscle, and no fat to be seen anywhere. He wondered if he should be
worried, but Jay was still a good looking guy in his opinion, and he
appeared to be happy that day.

Alex and Clay had gotten even closer recently, Clay really liked him, and
always sought him out before and after school and during breaks, it
wouldn't ever be the same as with Jay but Clay was a genuinely good guy,
and Alex had wondered a few times about the way Clayton looked at him and
other boys, especially the hot ones, he wondered if clay might be gay.

"Are there any girls you like" asked jay.

"No...I don't know... I pretend to, but for the most part everyone at my
new school is either mean, or ignores me, I have one friend, but he is kind
of weird. He stares at me, and at other guys a lot. I think he might be
gay, which is okay with me, I might be too, and I don't care if he likes me
"like that" I'd be flattered if he said so, I don't know... I am going to
pretend to like girls for a while longer though because I don't want to get
beat up." Alex said, uncomfortable.

"Clay probably liiikes you." Jay teased.

"I don't know, he might, and I like him, as a friend, I'm not gonna ask him
either though... I'm not ready for a relationship, I get teased enough
about being a bookworm, my crutches or cane I have to use when I go through
growth spurts, and not being able to play sports.... what about you?" Alex
said, changing the focus.

"I have a girlfriend...well... she likes me and I don't know if I really
care for her THAT way, but she hangs around and I just kind of let her be
my girlfriend because I don't want to hurt her feelings... she likes video
games and sports, so she is like one of the guys anyhow."

It was quiet for a while, both boys were probably thinking the same thing,
that they might both be gay... but neither one of them was even completely
sure about himself yet, but they were both pretty good-looking guys, and
they cared about each other more than anyone they knew.

Jay was braver when it came to saying something, he wasn't teased or
bullied as much at that point, and therapy he'd been through had helped him
to be more outgoing and assertive, so he took the assertive approach to the
awkward moment.

Jay started rambling... "Umm... Just between you and me, When I shower
after gym class and the other guys are naked, I get really shy and nervous
because... when I see them naked, they... affect me. Looking at naked girls
on tv or magazines doesn't make me feel anything like other guys, girls'
parts just look kind of gross to me... so I MIGHT be gay, but I am too
scared to say anything to anyone but you about it.  So... I'm just going to
hide it as long as I can."  Jay said, looking ashamed.

"You know damn well that I won't tell anyone Jay, I will always keep
secrets for you, and I will tell you stuff too. Things will get better, at
least they say they will...  The school counselor asked if I might be
gay... he is good at telling that stuff, I told him I didn't know, but I am
just like you.

Like you said...in the locker room with all the naked guys, I have to keep
my head down and ignore everyone and think of something else or my dick
starts to get big."  Alex confessed, which made Jay feel a little better
about his confession, at least he wasn't alone."

They played video games for a while longer, and then switched to watching a
movie.

Jay kept looking over his friend. The last year and a half had changed his
body a lot. He was still Alex, but he was a good looking young guy now,
lean, not overly muscular, but Jay could tell he probably had a nice smooth
shape. His braces were off, and his smile was dazzling between his dark
brown chocolate colored hair, his almost emerald green eyes and dark
naturally tanned skin that was perfect in complexion and kept a nice tan
year-round, the guy was a hottie for sure.

At one point, Alex closed his eyes and started to nod off, so Jay laid his
head on Alex's chest and

listened to his heartbeat. It felt right being close to his friend that
way. It was like they were in sync with each other, nobody understood him
or made him feel good like Alex. He felt warm and happy and loved when they
were together.

They had always loved each other, but it wasn't normal for guys to say that
to each other, so they never had, but they both knew it, and now they had
shared with each other that they might both be gay... Jay's brain was going
a hundred miles an hour, and his heart felt like it was beating in his
throat.

He tried to stop himself, but Jay's feelings and hormones were in control
of his body, and his brain was confused as hell.

Jay kissed Alex on the lips, softly at first. Alex didn't wake up. Jay
kissed him again more passionately, just trying to find out how it felt to
kiss a good looking guy for real.

Alex woke up and jumped a little, realized his friend was trying to make
out with him, and panicked. "What are you doing Jay, what if our parents
see you?" he said.  He was afraid if they got caught that he wouldn't be
able to come and visit any more, he couldn't handle if that happened.

Jay moved away from him and sulked, he was a little hurt, and he was
mentally, emotionally, and sexually repressed and frustrated.

"Fine, I'll just fucking lie here and WANT to kiss you and think about it
until it drives me crazy."  Jay said, embarrassed and upset.

Alex was sorry for having reacted so fast, "You surprised me is all, it
isn't that I don't want you to EVER do that, I just think we need to be
careful... if we get caught, our parents won't let me come and visit you
again, they will probably blame me for trying to corrupt you or vice
versa."

Shit Alex, I wasn't thinking, I just saw you lying there, being all...
YOU...and you have gotten hot as hell, and I laid my head on your chest and
listened to your heart beat, and that felt like heaven to me...so I... I
had to see how it felt to kiss a guy who I really really like."

Alex looked around worried, and suggested they continue the conversation in
Jay's bedroom at the back of the house, away from the stairs, where no one
was likely to hear. Jay agreed they needed to be more careful.

Alex asked a question first.  "Jay, you are an amazing guy, and I love you
man, but we have been closer than brothers for 15 years to the day, Do you
think you COULD even really like me...that way?"  Alex asked.

"Shit, this is deep, and complicated" Jay said "Maybe I always have, and
we're just now old enough where that means something."

Alex remembered how Clay's mother always said things in a way that demanded
an honest answer without being intimidating, so he mimicked her stance and
vocal pattern.

"Jaysen Blayne, You said that you wanted to kiss me, to see how it felt to
kiss a guy who you really like, let's make it simple. Close you eyes, I am
going to kiss you...  and you can find out if you really feel that way
about me.... You don't have to tell me now...but if you find out you know
for sure, you need to tell me, I'll do the same."

"That would be fine if you weren't living so far away. I don't want to fall
in too deep and then have either of us get hurt because we are writing our
hearts checks we can't cash." Jay said.

"Writing our hearts checks we can't cash... That sounds like something
Sandra, Clay's mom, would say, she is a shrink." Alex said

Jay blushed about as deep as he could. " I need to show you something Alex,
I never told you because I didn't want you to worry about me any more than
you do. It was stupid... Jay took his shirt off, which was distracting
enough to Alex that he didn't see what Jay was trying to show him.

 "I've been seeing some therapists in the last year, Alex, I was forced to
because I got really unhealthy, I am always sad, and nauseous, and doctors
don't know why, they think I'm clinically depressed" Jay took a deep
breath. "They knew something was really wrong when my grades tanked, and I
started cutting myself and skipping school to just be alone and cry all
day." Jay said.

Alex noticed the full extent of Jay's unhealthy weight loss, and the scars
on his arms and chest from where he had cut himself, the way his eyes were
sunken in and had dark areas under them, and the way his body just looked
weak and sickly. He was still not a bad looking guy, but he was wasting
away, his rib cage almost even showed.

He never thought of his normally sweet and good humored friend as the type
who would self harm, but he understood feeling lonely, and not caring about
life anymore, and feeling worthless because nobody understood why he was so
sad. He also understood that when depression gets bad, and your nervous
system is messed up, some people overeat, and some get nauseous and can't
eat or sleep at all.

Alex took his own shirt off came over and hugged him, and held him in his
arms. He knew that jay needed some compassion, and some intimacy right now.

"I love you Jay, anything ever happened to you, I'd die too." He said.
"Remember that next time you can't handle life, and call me... and be
honest, don't hold back."

"I've sort of been in therapy too, my friend Clay's mom is, like I said, a
child psychiatrist. She prescribed me some meds, and she and I talked about
me being depressed and shutting people out."

"My parents said I don't talk to them, which is true, and I didn't have any
friends. She asked her son if he would try and make friends with me. I was
THAT low, I was probably a few bad days away from jumping off the train
bridge... I get it man.

It isn't good for you and I to pretend everything is okay when it's not. I
also isn't good for either of us for us to be apart, we have to have each
other to hold on to and to lean on." He said holding Jaysen in his arms,
which felt so perfect and so right that he never wanted to let go.

"Yeah," Jay wiped away a tear and sniffled. "that is for sure. I think
everything all started when you guys left, and I just got used to being sad
and couldn't figure out how to be happy again. It's like I'm rewired to be
miserable and nothing makes me feel better because I'm just not capable of
being happy anymore."

"I know man, it sucks, I haven't felt like myself in a long time." Alex
said. I'm not me without my best bud at my side, it just doesn't feel
right, you know, nothing in life feels right, and I know it's not normal, I
should be able to get over it, but I can't stop missing you man, and I love
your parents too, I miss them as much as I'd miss my own if I couldn't be
with them." Alex said. Hugging jay again and squeezing him tight. "I'm just
glad we're all together right now, and while you and I are here together
now, maybe we can solve a problem." Alex said.

"Just having you here makes me feel 100% better." Jay said wiping another
tear out of his eye.

"The problem we both need to solve though is that we both THINK we like
guys. We think we might be gay So listen to me carefully... this is an
exercise I learned from Sandra, with a little intuition of my own thrown
in. I want to BE a psychiatrist someday, so I have been reading up on it."
Alex said trying to gain some composure after all of the emotion they had
just shared with each other.

Alex spoke in a voice Jay had never heard out of him before, a slow, deep,
bassey, calming voice.

"Jaysen, I want you to Close your eyes. Pretend I'm not here, I'm just a
voice in your head. Now picture a guy, not me, just a guy, a stranger,
picture a guy that you don't know but thinks is REALLY hot." Alex said.

"Okay," Jay said, "I am doing what you said."

Alex continued, "Picture that it is the end of the night, after a date, and
he is smiling at you, and you both had a great time... and now, he is going
to kiss you."

Alex Kissed Jay slowly, sensuously, and then more passionately... then he
withdrew and continued to talk Jay through the exercise.

"Jaysen, keep your eyes closed. You Just got a real kiss, from a real guy,
who likes you... A LOT."  Alex said calmly. "How does that make you feel."
Jay had tears coming from under his closed eyelids.

"It makes me feel like I want that with somebody, a guy, I want to make
love to a man, I want to marry a man, I can't imagine doing ANY of that
with a WOMAN." Jay said

"Well, you know what that means." Alex said, and "I want all of the same
things, with a man."  "Now, Jay," Alex said, "Open your eyes."

Jay opened his eyes, and looked at Alex, his best friend. "Did you just
hypnotize me?" Jay asked. Smiling, he had thoroughly enjoyed kissing Alex
for real, even though he was supposed to pretend it was someone else, Jay
could only think of the fact that it was his sweet perfect loyal friend,
and that he wanted everything he had said, with him, no one else would be
even close, it felt so right when they had been hugging and holding each
other close with no shirts on.

"Not really, I just convinced you to cut through the bullshit in your own
head, as Sandra puts it in her book." Alex said, shrugging.

"You really DO want to be a shrink someday... don't you." Jay laughed.
"You'll make a damn good one."

"Yeah, Alex said, I want to help kids like us deal with tough shit, like
losing everything that ever mattered to them and moving away from their
best friend, and wanting to become invisible or just stop existing, I was
in a dark place before I knew Clay and Sandra.  They made me come out of my
shell." Alex said.

"So what do we do now?" Jay asked.

"Well, if you want, just for today," Alex said, "I'll pretend that you
aren't you, that I don't care about you as anything but a guy I think is
fucking gorgeous and sweet." Alex said making Jay blush. "And you pretend I
am just a skinny nerd who for some bizarre reason you think is cute." Alex
said with a little laugh.

"Okay and then what." Jay said

"Remember, I'm a random guy that you only know a little about." Alex said
wagging his finger.

"Yes sir." Jay said sarcastically.

"Just play along okay." Alex walked over, took Jay by the hand, led him to
his bed and sat him down. "You are so handsome, Jaysen, I'm glad I met you,
I know we haven't known each other long, but is it okay if I kiss you?"
Alex said playing a role.

"I would like that very much, you are a sweet guy, and to me, you are
beautiful in every way."  Alex said.

They kissed, a gentle kiss at first, and then more passionate.

"Is it okay if I kiss your neck, and chest, and all over your beautiful
body?" Alex asked? "I want to worship your young male body like it deserves
to be worshipped." he said, still playing his role as someone else.

Jay nodded his head, closing his eyes so he wouldn't be reminded WHO was
kissing him all over.

Alex started at his neck, careful not to leave evidence, but kissing
passionately and smelling Jay's skin and the hormones that a 15 year old
boy has seeping from every pore.

"Is it okay..." Alex started to say, being cut off before he asked anything
more. Jay just wanted him to surrender to what they had both felt, and what
they had both wanted for a long time.

Jay said "Yes, just do whatever you want, I am in love with another man,
but tonight, just for tonight, Handsome stranger, I am all yours." Jay said
getting into the role playing.

Alex knew what Jay had meant to say, when he said he was in love with
"another man". He was thinking to himself, "oh boy, we're already in too
deep, but I'm not going to stop here, we might as well jump, all in,
together."

Alex started to undo Jay's pants, freeing his cock and balls from their
boxer brief prison, and feeling all down Jay's ass as he pulled them
down. Then he undressed himself and laid down next to Jay, knowing neither
of them were buying the roleplaying bit, but that it had broken the ice and
gotten past their defenses.

Both were now just thinking what it would be like to be together all of the
time again. They both let out a big sigh of contentment, and then
laughed. They were still as in sync as the always were, even when role
playing.

Alex turned on his side toward Jay, his back against the wall, and looked
at his friend. He ran his hand across his forehead brushing Jay's soft
strawberry blond hair across his forehead, and then slowly ran his hand
from Jay's chest down his stomach and over his hard cock.

They felt their hormones taking over again, and both tried to think of the
other as just a Beautiful male body, but they both secretly wanted this,
and not with anyone else.

It was Jay's turn to take the Assertive role, if they were going to do
something, he wanted Alex to know he was All in. Jay slowly leaned in,
looking into Alex's pretty green eyes. He kissed the slightly smaller
framed boy long and passionately on the lips.

He wanted to feel skin on skin, so he leaned into him with his whole body.
Alex opened up to him and let it become a lover's kiss.

They kissed and held each other, making out and rubbing their hard cocks
together for a long time, they just couldn't get enough of each other's
lips and bodies. This sort of intimacy was something they had always craved
and didn't know how to approach it because they had been taught that it
wasn't even normal for guys to want that from each other. They were taught
that a cold and barely sincere quick "bro hug" was all they should ever
share with their friends of the same gender.

This intimacy was all either of them had ever wanted, It was perfect, it
would never be "THIS perfect" with anyone else because they had repressed
so much for so long, waiting for society to be okay with two men
unashamedly expressing their feelings.

 It would never feel this perfect with anyone else, Alex knew that now, so
did Jaysen. The boys made out for at least an hour, touching and groping as
they did, and kissing with their tongues and exploring each others hot
young bodies with their hands.

Alex's heart was racing now. He was hornier than he'd ever been, he
couldn't get enough of feeling Jay's body with his own. Sickly or not Jay
was an absolute stud, and he wanted every part of him. Alex sat up and
flipped himself around so he was facing Jay's crotch. Jay's eyes widened as
he could tell what Alex was thinking.

"Are you sure you want to keep going?" Alex asked. He asked Jay. "I mean, I
think we know what we needed to know... we are both pretty freaking gay,
and I am definitely attracted to you Jay... so do we really want to let
this get out of control?"

"If we don't neither one of us is going to fall sleep tonight, we would
both have to jerk off, and why the fuck would we want to do that when we
have each other here." Jay said, knowing he spoke the truth, and for me,
it's been out of control for a long time, there's nothing I've wanted more
than to hold you close and feel what we just felt, I couldn't help it, and
I can't go back now." He admitted.

They were too worked up, and their cocks were rock hard, hearts beating,
and the room smelled like sweaty teenage lust and hormones.

"Yeeah... Im in too deep to stop now too, I want you so bad." Alex said,
laying his head on Jays lap.

"Are you sure" Jay asked feeling self-conscious about not being in the best
shape, and looking sickly and weak.

"I'm sure this is a bad idea, but I couldn't be more sure that I want YOU
right now. You are so freaking sexy, I just want to worship your body."
Alex said, he couldn't stop himself. Looking with lust at his friend's
developing figure, his broad shoulders and square hips he wanted to curl up
on top of Jay's body and never leave, just call Jay's arms his home
forever. Alex touched Jays cock, sending waves of pleasure through both
young male bodies, he kissed his cock at the base near his nut sack first,
and made his way toward the tip, kissing, tasting his skin and precum,
smelling the sweaty musky scent of Jay's crotch.

The smell of Jay's sweat, instead of being gross like he thought it might
be, was actually rather intoxicating. It was Jay's smell, he recognized it,
it was always a familiar comforting presence to him before, but here in the
area below jay's waist and between his legs, it was the concentrated
essence of his friend, and it was a powerful drug that took him over as he
was tasting, nibbling, and licking wherever he liked, Alex grabbed Jay's
ass and squeezed it, feeling the muscle there as he started takin on the
long hard penis in his mouth and throat, he wanted Jay inside him so bad.

Jays cock was a little longer than average, and had a nice girth to it, it
was perfect and beautiful to Alex. Alex's own dick was longer, but thinner,
and had more of an upward curve to it, his skin tone was a bit darker than
jay's even when jay was tanned.

Jay was fair skinned. Alex's skin was the color of a mocha Frappuccino, he
figured it was due to a far off native American ancestor, and the fact that
he loved getting his skin nice and tan in the summer so it stayed this
color rather than fading to a watered-down shade of pinkish tan or Beige.

Alex started playing with Jay's ass crack and his hole with his fingers
gently, not penetrating, the hole he knew Jay and he were not ready to go
there tonight, but he was teasing it with his fingers and putting pressure
on it, he put some spit on his fingers to moisten them, and kept massaging
Jay's sweet hole and sucking and tugging on his beautiful cock.

He got on his knees and He got really into it and was deep throating his
cock and licking his balls while squeezing his hot ass in both his hands.

He couldn't believe what he was doing with his life-long best friend...but
he couldn't stop, Jay started playing with Alex's cock, which of course
felt amazing but the pleasure was too intense and he told his friend to cum
in his mouth first, and then it would be his turn. "I want your cum inside
me Jay, I am going to take some of you home with me." Alex said smiling.

After a few more minutes worshipping Jay's cock he felt and tasted the warm
gift of his best friend's cum splashing and shooting into his mouth and
throat as Jay's body spasmed in pleasure and he let out some soft gasping
noises.

After it was finish and Jay's cock was softening he just laid his head down
on Jay's flat, almost concave stomach and savored the moment and the taste
of his friend's seed.

"Fuuuck dude..." Jay said... "you are fucking good at that..."

Alex smiled. "I'm glad I could make you feel good, I love you Jay... I
can't stop feeling it so I might as well just say it. I love you and I want
to be this close to you every moment of my life."

"I know, my sweet sexy friend, I love you too." Jay said bending down to
kiss him. Jay could smell and taste his own cum on Alex's kiss, which was
strangely really sexy to him because it was as if he had marked Alex as his
own... though it was Alex who had chosen to take that load into himself.

"Do you like the taste of cum?" Jay asked.

"Definitely, and I liked even more that it was yours, it's just so hot to
me for some reason, IF I lived next door, I'd be over here milking your
cock all the time." Alex said.

Jay said. "Ok, I guess it's my turn to get some dick on my breath," he
said, and tried to do exactly as Alex had done for him, but Alex could
still taste Jay's cum, which heightened his pleasure, as was the knowledge
that he had just sucked Jay's cock and made him cum. Alex was more than
ready to blow his load already, and when felt Jay playing with his ass
after slathering fingers with some lotion that he found somewhere
suspiciously near to the bed, he moistened Alex's ass as he poked his
fingers around it. He did not go very deep, but the pressure he was putting
on the outside of Alex's hole was amazing enough.

Alex lasted as long as he could, and noticing Jay was already hard again he
positioned himself to suck Jay at the same time, they were doing the full
on 69 position, both hungry for their friend's load. When Alex finally
couldn't hold off any longer he felt like he was going to drown Jay with
his spunk as it kept pumping out of his engorged organ into jay's mouth and
throat. Jay was greedily swallowing it as fast as he could and licking what
spilled out onto his face and kissing what clung to Alex's cock.

Jay must have liked getting blasted with cum so much it pushed him over the
edge because Alex got a second helping of Jay's precious seed in his own
face.

After they both caught their breath... Alex noticed he was getting hard
again rapidly... "FUCK, I am hard again." He said, "You make me so fuckin
horney I could go all night long" he said looking at his naked friend who
had just become his first lover.

He straddled Jaysen's torso and started jacking his cock off with all the
energy he had left, determined to baste Jay's face and chest with his seed,
which he did soon enough, at least five more decent sized spurts of cum
splashed on his lips cheek, neck and chest, and the final one in his pretty
belly button, which Alex cleaned out thoroughly with his tongue before
collapsing on top of Jay, his cum still in between them, sticking them
together.

"Damn... that was... Amazing." Alex said. "I knew it would be blissful,
because it feels so good to cum, and... and to be honest, touching you has
always made me tingle inside...  but I wasn't expecting to see heaven."

Jay couldn't have said it better himself. "I know right, it was like... We
were made to please each other, when you cum, I can FEEL your
pleasure...and I know you can feel mine, you have always been a total
empath, you always know what I'm feeling, and sometimes you know my
thoughts too.

"Nobody else comes through as clearly as you though, It was almost
impossible not to blow my load when you came."

"I liked when you were playing with my ass... I am definitely gay because I
want your cock balls deep in me some day." Jay said.

"I am fucking addicted to your cum, you shithead, why did you have to get
me hooked on you NOW!" Alex said, remembering why this was all a terrible
idea, but he didn't care.

They moved to lie on their side, facing each other, just looking into each
other's enjoying the afterglow and playing with each other's semi-hard
penises and nut sacks, and any other parts they found delightful to touch.
"Happy birthday to me." They both said simultaneously, and then laughed.

Could anyone be more perfect for either of them? they wondered, could
anyone even be acceptable now that they knew this feeling?

After a few minutes, Jay got up to use the bathroom, and he was bringing
back a wet cloth for Alex to clean up with. He felt happier than he'd felt
in his entire life.

When he entered the room, he saw tears in Alex' eyes. He thought he had
done something terribly wrong and started apologizing.

"I shouldn't have let it go that far, I'm sorry, if you are having regrets,
this can be a one time thing... I'll never bring this up again... we both
know what we need to know about ourselves now... I'm sorry, `m such an ass,
I used you." Jay said, wanting everything to be okay between them even if
he couldn't have Alex as a lover.

"Fuck you Jay, you didn't use me, I wanted this more than you can know," he
said through his tears.

"Then what's the matter Al, we both wanted this, probably for a long time.
We didn't do anything wrong." Jay pled.

"I let myself get in too deep, I let myself want and NEED to do this again
and I can't, I have to leave tomorrow night! This isn't fair to either of
us. I never want to leave you again, and... I am falling in fucking LOVE
you, but I can't have you."

"Shit... I know... I know Alex... I love you too, and it's going to break
my heart to see you go now that I've let myself admit it... shit... what
are we going to do?"

"Just come here and let me hold onto you while I can, Alex said wiping
tears from his eyes."
 They fell asleep in each other's arms.

The next morning there was a knock on the bedroom door.

Jay told Alex to hurry and get on the top bunk.

He did so gracefully, as if he were a gymnast swinging himself up onto the
mattress and getting in under the covers. This was definitely not an
unfamiliar maneuver for him, he'd slept over in this house, in this bed,
about half the time he was growing up, aside from the time that they had
spent in cribs, of course.

 Jay put on his shorts and went to the door.

It was Sam. "You guys about ready for breakfast, I made pancakes and they
are getting cold... coffee is still hot though."

"We'll be up in a minute, just as soon as Alex gets dressed." Jay said.

"Okay." Sam said... looking up at the top bunk where Alex was pretending to
be still asleep, one of his feet hanging off the side of the bed slightly.
"You little fuckers are growing up too fast." he said. "That bunkbed is TOO
small, guess I know what Jay is getting for Christmas."

After he left both boys burst out laughing. "If he only knew the workout we
gave that bunk bed last night, he'd be worried it would fall apart." Alex
said.

"Shit man, I was worried he was going to ask why it smells like Jizz and
horny teen funk." Jay said.

"Sound's about like Sam," Alex said. "He was never shy or afraid to
embarrass us." Alex said, "Remember when he heard that the word "bromance"
was a thing, god he teased us for weeks."

"Doesn't seem like much of a joke now though." Jay said. "If it is the joke
is on him."

"I miss that crude battle of humor you and your dad have going, sometimes
your mom too, but sometimes it goes right over her head, My parents are too
repressed."

"Nah, You are too repressed dude, Your parents joke with me more than they
do with you, they must be afraid you will scold them." Jay said, to which
Alex flipped him off.

"I wasn't so repressed last night when it was cock sucking time." Alex
retorted.

"No...No you weren't... now shut up before you make me hard again just
thinking about it." Jay pleaded.

They got dressed and went up to breakfast, afterward they both spent the
$100 dollars in spending money they got from their parents at the mall, and
then got some Pizza from the food court, It was almost like the old days,
only today, as they sat and ate they were checking out guys together,
commenting on what they were attracted to.

"So, Al, are you going to give Clay a chance when you get home? I mean, I
know I am going to keep my ear to the ground and see if I can fine someone
to at least play around with here, discreetly. What we did last night,
definitely not a one and done thing... not for me. "

"Yeah, I am thinking about it, I mean, he is a good guy, but he is a bit
intense."

"You were pretty intense last night." Jay said with a smirk, winking at
him.

"Yeah... last night was pretty intense... but that was mostly because it
was our first time, and it was YOU, and I was high off of getting to be
close with you."

"Yeah, same here... but I can't let you leave until you promise me you'll
try to be happy somehow." Jay said.

"Okay, I will try, but, if isn't you, it's not gonna be worth the trouble,
and that is what I am going to be thinking the whole time, with ANY guy, ya
get me."

"Yeah, I am not going to find another you either man, you are
irreplaceable." Jay admitted. "I don't want you falling madly in love with
anyone else anyway. That would drive me crazy, however, we all got physical
needs and I'd rather know someone there cares about you, and it seems like
Clay and his family do from what you have told me."

Alex just wasn't having it. He insisted "I am gonna call you every day and
we HAVE to figure this out. Maybe check the buss lines so we can visit
more."

Jay finally gave up and decided just to spend the rest of the time together
enjoying what time they had left.

When the boys got back to the house, Sharon told them that they weren't
heading out until early, before dawn the next morning.

Alex and Jay spent most of the night kissing tenderly, with tears in both
their eyes as they held onto each other until they fell asleep.

When Alex got up to leave he woke Jay up to tell him one last thing before
he left.

"Hey, lover boy, wake up." He whispered." kissing him. "My heart is staying
right here with you Jay" as he placed his hand in Jay's chest. "You know
that right?" (Jay nodded) "The rest of me has to go, but my heart and soul
are yours, always have been, from day one." Alex said making eye contact.

"I am not letting go of you either, I am gonna hold you on my arms again
soon if it's the last thing I do." Jay said.

End of Chapter 1

**From the author**

More to come. I am ironing out the next few Chapters. This one is, as far
as I can tell, finished.

I appreciate all comments being sent to the address:
authormrmasterson@gmail.com

This is my first contribution to Nifty, and I am excited to see what the
readers think. I am writing this story for the purpose of inspiring readers
and making them feel something, laugh, tear up, and just generally
experience the story. Thanks to all who gave this first chapter a chance.

M. R. Masterson