A Day Without Rain

The Raven Comes

Another story by Miro Miro

Please Do NOT read this story if it offends you, I based this story on experiences that I personally had but have not yet shared, I have also shared certain things that a friend of mine experienced during his coming out, I hope you all enjoy it BTW, don't forget to donate to Nifty, they do an amazing job and should be supported!

Things couldn't have been more complicated for me without adding everything that has happened to me these past few months. If someone would have told me that I would be going out with a guy a year ago I would have punched them dead in the eye for flapping their gums that way. It's pretty crazy admitting that I have a boyfriend considering it's me we're talking about. I guess I always had "feelings" for other guys but I just sorta ignored them, I was more interested in fitting in I guess, OH! And yeah that's another new thing in my life, I'm really not wanting to be part of the crowd I hung out with, I don't really like hanging out with them because I came to the realization that they are fake.

I have always been into sports, I love baseball, football, hell anything really, well, let me correct that, I don't like basketball so that's the only sport I avoid. I don't want to sound all into myself but I'm gifted when it comes to sports, oh wow, see that shows some growth there I guess, the old me would have bragged that I have natural talent but I just don't see myself like that anymore, I do have to admit that playing sports, hell any type of physical activity, I do well in. Obviously when you play sports and are pretty good at them people tend to gravitate to you, this is something I've always been used to, having friends I mean. People classify me as being popular, it was something I never really paid attention to until recently, I never realized that people do like me and I don't know, it makes me feel pretty good.

I've had girlfriends ever since I could remember, I remember getting my first kiss at the age of 5 from a girl who lived down the street from me, her name is Amber and because she ended up not being in the "cool crowd" we stopped talking, it's lame I know but hey don't judge me just yet, I'm honestly trying to fix all the shit I have caused. Going back to what I was saying, well I have always been pretty normal when it comes to girls and having girlfriends, my dad was always harassing me about it too but I'm sure he liked the fact that I was well liked by all the girls.

I've been told that I look good, and you know what? I know I look good, yep, I still sound a bit conceited but whatever, self-esteem is good isn't it? So yeah, don't judge me! Anyways, just so that you can picture me a bit better I'll have to describe myself. I'm 12 years old, 5'-2", 100 lbs, I'm blond, err what they call it? Platinum blond? I like to have it nice and shaggy, meh I dunno I like the look. I have gray eyes with slivers of blue in it, and if you were to ask me what my favorite part of my body is I would have to say my eyes. All the girls like them and I like them also, OH! and my eye lashes are nice, long and curly, so yeah I can definitely bat them and make my mom's heart melt if need be and TRUST me I do that shit a lot. My lips are nice and "full" or at least that's what one of the black chicks told me and I quote "damn white boy, your lips are full and sensual, I wouldn't mind getting some of that", yeah I didn't even know her! It was hella random. So now that I've described myself I have to tell you all about my family so you can get a better picture of who I am. My mom and dad are both awesome, really awesome, they are my friends, if not my best friends, it's probably kind of weird to hear someone my age say that but it's true they are really awesome and fun. My dad's name is Anthony but everyone calls him Tone, my mom's name is Alicia she's a doctor which is good because whenever I need a physical she gives them to me and I really don't mind, I rather have her touch my junk than some random person, her I trust! My dad is a cop, he's been a cop for 10 years now and recently got promoted to be a narcotics detective which is awesome! I prefer him to be a detective than a cop on the streets, I used to always cry whenever he worked nights especially because of all the nuts out there but yeah that was when I was very little. I have no brothers and no sisters, lucky me! NOT! I honestly have always wanted a little brother or sister but because of my parents' careers they claim it has been nearly impossible, I think they had always planned to have one kid but they won't fess up.

Going back to what I was saying, things have been weird for me ever since I met him, yeah him, HIM! The one that changed me forever, the one that drives me nuts, the one that I can't be without. I feel so cheesy saying that shit but it's so true, he's changed my life forever and it's been for the better, everyone thinks the new me is much better. So let me explain how things went down six months ago when he first showed up, so I was walking down the hall at my school waiting to go to my first period class when I was stopped by my counselor. He's a friend of my dad, a retired cop who has seen me grow up, at home I call him Gus but at school I have to call him Mr. Warner but I don't mind. Like I said I was walking down the hall when I heard my name being called. Instantly I knew it was Gus, err Mr. Warner so I turned around to respond when I saw him for the first time. At first glance he looked like your typical kid, he was unassuming really, he was just standing there staring at the floor. His jet black hair was long and shaggy like mine, the other thing I noticed was that he was just a tad shorter than I was, I guessed he was about 5 feet tall or maybe even shorter. He looked pretty damn shy but being the new kid I didn't expect anything else.

Gus pulled me to one side and asked me if I could give the new kid a tour of the school and to show him where all of his classes were. I was not the class president or anything lame like that, fuck no, I hate that shit but since I was popular Gus seemed to use me a lot more than the school pets to do this kind of crap, I guess he figured that if I showed the kid around other kids would see that and would be more open to speak to him. It didn't matter to me so I accepted. So the reason why I'm just sorta glossing over the tour is because it wasn't interesting, the kid didn't say much, in fact I tried to introduce myself and after he told me his name I sorta giggled and I guess that shut him down.

"Hey my name is Dylan what's yours?" I asked extending my hand so that he could shake it.

Like I said, his name made me giggle, not because I thought it was a stupid name or anything, I honestly thought he was joking! I feel like such a jerk now that I think about it. I took him everywhere, I took him to the 7th grade hall where we had our lockers, I showed him his and helped him open it and put his backpack in. I pretty much showed him everything, every so often I would get a bunch of different looks from people, some were interested in who the new kid was, others were sizing him up, I knew this kid would have to not be so shy? I don't even know, but I knew he would have to snap out of it or his life here at Benjamin Franklin Middle School would be hell.

After the tour I walked him to his class and left him there, I made it to PE and dressed out and joined the rest of my class. After the period was over I had already forgotten about Raven, he was just another face in school that I would soon forget, or so I thought.

As I was skating down the street back to my place I noticed Raven slowly walking home alone, again, it was to be expected being the new kid. I skated past him but said nothing, I glanced back and saw that he didn't even notice me. I still don't know why it pissed me off but it did, I guess I was so used of people wanting to talk to me that when he just sorta blew me off the way he did it just pissed me off, yeah my ego was bruised.I immediately stopped and waited for him to catch up, I wanted to ask what his deal was but as I watched him walk closer and closer I got more pissed.

"What's your deal?" I angrily asked when he walked past.

He didn't answer me back, hell I don't even think he noticed me so I hurriedly caught up to him.

"Hey asshole! I was talking to you!" I yelled pushing him from behind.

He lazily turned around and sighed. He reached inside his hoody and took his earbuds out.

"SHIT!" I thought, what an ass huh?

"Yeah?" he asked not hiding the fact that he was uninterested in what I had to say.

"Dude what's your deal? You treat everyone that's trying to be friends with you like this?" I angrily asked.

"Friend? O...K" He responded rolling his eyes and putting his earbuds back on.

Oh hell no, I really couldn't believe what he was doing to me, no one had ever done that to me and I must admit I felt like shit. I thought that EVERYONE wanted to talk to me, what a blow to my ego huh? I didn't know what to do or even what to say so I just stood there stunned.

"HEY! WAIT UP!" I yelled as I ran to catch up again.

He spun around and looked me in my eyes, damn did he get to me at that moment, he looked bored, I really couldn't believe that shit!

"Look I gotta get home I don't have time to talk to you" He said, he didn't sound as if he was being lame or anything just being truthful.

"Oh...gimme your number then so we can text each other" I said smiling at him and taking my phone out to save his number.

He eyed me suspiciously as if I was up to something weird, "I just want to talk man is all" I assured him.

"Fine!" He sighed "You're really persistent you know it?" he said as he took my phone from my hand and saved his number on it.

"You have no idea dude" I smiled.

We parted ways with me feeling hopeful that I had made another friend, as I skated home I really couldn't put my finger on what was so intriguing about Raven, I guess it was because he was so uninterested in being friends or getting to know me, I didn't know at the time.

As I was digging through the fridge for some food I heard my bird chirp, yep it chirps when I get a text. I grabbed an apple and a bottle of water and sat on the couch, I reached for my phone expecting it to be one of my friends but was pleasantly surprised to see it was Raven!

Raven: Hey

I gave him my address and told him to come over as soon as he could, he told me that he would be over in 5 minutes, I guessed he lived nearby.

I took my shoes off and went up to my room to change, when I'm home I like to get comfortable so I put on my red basketball shorts and took my shirt off. Like I said when I'm home I like to be as comfortable as I possibly can and the best way to achieve that is to be without a shirt and since I live in Southern California I rarely have to worry about it being too cold. As I was heading downstairs I heard the doorbell ring, I ran down the stairs jumping the last few making a loud thud as I landed, fuck did it hurt! It gave me a Charlie horse! I limped my way to the door and opened it, I smiled when I saw Raven, he looked bored again as if he didn't want to even be there.

"What happened to you?" he asked noticing that I was limping.

"Argh! Nothing...charlie horse..." I mumbled moving out of the way so he could come in, I closed the door and led him to the living room where we sat. I immediately began to rub my leg, he looked at me intently but said nothing. After about 5 minutes of awkward silence I couldn't take it anymore.

"What's your deal man?" I asked now becoming a bit irritated.

"What do you mean?" he replied.

"You don't say much, plus I've been trying to be cool with you but you keep giving me the cold shoulder" I said raising my voice.

"I better go man..." He said getting off the couch.

I grabbed his hand as he walked by but he immediately pulled away, I really didn't know what the heck was the matter with this kid but it was getting really stupid.

"What's your deal!? Just sit down and let's talk, that's all I want, just to talk..." I said with obvious frustration in my voice.

"FINE! Just don't touch me..." he sighed heavily sitting back down on the couch.

Hmmm this was interesting I thought so I did what came natural to me, I poked him on the chest and smiled.

"Touch you like that?" I said grinning at him.

He tried to slap my hand away but missed "Yeah...don't..." he said.

"Oh and how about this?" I said as I launched myself at him with full force bear hugging him.

"Argh! Get off me!" He struggled to yell.

He was much smaller and not as strong as I was so he was fighting a losing battle. I was not trying to be lame or mean I just wanted to play around with him and just show him that it wasn't a big deal. I held onto him with all my strength as he tried to get away with no success.

"See!? It's not that bad is it?" I said as I let go.

He looked me in the eyes and pursed his lips, I knew he was upset but I was not about to give up, I wanted to know why he was so, I dunno, weird?

"I told you...DO...NOT...TOUCH...ME!" He said with anger in his voice.

"Geez okay...I was just playing around..." I said feeling bad now that I had obviously gotten him mad.

We again sat in awkward silence for who knows how long, it was really weird just sitting there twiddling my thumbs waiting for him to say something, anything!

"Umm, what school did you come from?" I asked breaking the silence.

"I came from Frisco, up north..." He replied.

"Look I'm just going to end it, everyone is going to know anyways, they are probably already checking my Facebook anyways...I'm gay okay?" He said as he got up to leave.

I was shocked that he had been so bold, I didn't know what to say or how to feel, I didn't care that he was gay it was just the way he told me that shocked me.

"You're what?" I asked sounding surprised.

"Yep I'm gay so I'll be leaving now" He said.

"WHAT?" He shot back at me.

"Dude I really don't give a shit if you suck dick, like pussy, like cock, or whatever the hell you're into, what I do care about is your fucking attitude okay? You're a pretty shitty person and not because you're gay it's cus you're an asshole so get the fuck out of my house if you're going to be a total ass" I yelled at him.

My hands were trembling, I was really pissed off that he had such a shitty attitude, maybe I was so used of people wanting to be my friend that I thought I was entitled to it and here was this new kid who was blowing me off as if I was just some random guy, well I guess to him I was but at the time I really didn't understand why he wouldn't want to be my friend.

"Sorry okay...I just don't want to get hurt, that's why I got an attitude, if I don't make friends it'll be easier on me" He replied.

"Can you please sit back down?" I asked.

He hesitated for a moment but did what I asked, he sat at the other end of the couch as if I smelled like ass or something. I didn't like the fact that he was doing that so I moved and sat next to him, our bodies were now touching each other.

"You really need to stop that shit you know that?" I said smiling at him.

I wanted to break the ice, I wanted to let him know that I really didn't care that he was gay so I did the first thing that came to mind. I lifted my legs on the couch and laid my head on his lap and smiled up at him.

"What the hell are you doing?" He said jumping in surprise.

"Showing you that I really don't care, plus you're comfy" I smiled at him. He sighed loudly sounding defeated "You really are persistent...and annoying..." he said smiling for the first time since I met him.

"Like I said earlier...you have NO idea..." I laughed.

"So what does this mean?" He asked after a minute of silence.

"Well if you haven't figured it out already I want to be friends, I don't care if you're gay you know?" I simply stated meaning every word I spoke.

"What if people try to start crap with you?" He asked sounding worried.

"They won't" I simply stated knowing full well that people wouldn't want to start messing with me, they knew that I would fight in an instant and wouldn't take shit from anyone, people tended to not ridicule me or make fun of me because of that so I wasn't too worried.

We talked about everything really, I learned that he had an older brother named Orlando and a younger one named Edgar. He also told me that his mom had recently gotten a very nice promotion causing them to move from San Francisco to Socal. I was really curious to know why he was named Raven, he said that his parents really enjoy Edgar Allen Poe so it was only natural for them to name him after one of their favorite poems.

He also told me that he was having a hard time adjusting to life down here so I volunteered to make it better. I told him all about myself as well, I told him everything that I could think about and by the end of the afternoon it was safe to assume that we were good friends.

I have never really thought about anyone as being my "best friend" I like all my friends equally the same and have never singled anyone out as my "best friend" but for some odd reason I felt a special connection with Raven, maybe it was because he was so different, so mysterious, and once I got him to open up I found him to be very awesome. When my parents came home Raven freaked out just a bit seeing as I was still had my head on his lap but I told him not to worry, my parents were really welcoming to Raven which I really liked, my mom even complimented him on how awesome his name she thought was, he seemed to like that because he blushed just a little and for the first time I noticed that he was a good looking boy. At this point in my life I was pretty certain that I was straight but like I said earlier I had "feelings" for guys I thought were good looking. I didn't get boners or jack off to guys I just thought some were good looking and let it go. When Raven blushed I saw how cute he looked when his cheeks flushed the way they did, his fair skin made it easy to see when he blushed. I really liked his jet-black hair and how shaggy it was, just like mine but what I really liked the most was his blue eyes and how much they sparkled at that moment. I don't know why but I was so happy that he had finally opened up to me, the last thing on my mind at that time was the fact that he was gay, in fact during our conversation the topic was never brought up, why should it? It honestly wasn't important to me.

When it was time for him to go I walked him to the front door where I leaned in and gave him a hug, I felt him stiffen up but soon relaxed. I then watched him as he walked down the street until he turned the corner and disappeared. I walked back inside my house and walked upstairs to my room where I laid on my bed and got on Pandora. I replayed everything that had transpired and was proud of myself for being so "persistent" as Raven said I was, before I knew it I was dozing off finally noticing how exhausted I was. I didn't even bother to eat dinner or even change out of my clothes, I usually sleep in nothing but boxers but I was so tired that I really didn't even care. I was woken up early the next day by the familiar chirp letting me know that I had just received a text.

I lazily reached for my phone and saw that it was Raven who had sent me a text, I smiled after I read his message.

Raven: Hey G'mornin thx for everything

I looked at the time and groaned loudly, 5:34 in the friggin morning! Can you believe that shit? Oh yeah that sucked, I usually got up at 6 AM which wasn't too bad but I don't know reading 5 AM on my phone just wasn't good so I texted him back a sarcastic thank you for waking me up so early in the morning.

Me: yw, btw, thx for the wakeup call luv gettin up so early

I reluctantly peeled the sheets off my body and dragged myself to the bathroom, I took my morning piss and decided to get it over with and take my shower. After my shower I got dressed and made my way downstairs where my parents were already having their breakfast, they both looked up at me as if I was someone else.

"What?!" I asked

"Are you okay? You're normally not up this early" My mom replied.

"Yeah, geez, can't I wake up early once in a while" I asked acting as if my feelings were hurt.

"Hey Raven! `Morning" I said smiling at him.

"Hey `Morning" he replied looking as happy as I was to see him.

"So....umm...Thanks for being really cool with me, especially after I told you I was gay" He said looking down at his feet, I knew he was nervous about the whole issue of him being gay.

"Yeah of course, I really, honestly, DO NOT care if you're gay man, it doesn't matter to me, I just want to get to know YOU and that's it, just cuz I'm not gay that doesn't mean we can't be friends" I said trying to reassure him.

He smiled weakly at me, it was as if I had said something wrong "Okay good, well let's start to walk then"

I didn't say anything for a while, I didn't know if I had insulted him or said the wrong thing, the closer we got to school the more it was eating at me. A block away from school I stopped and grabbed him by the arm to spin him around.

"Did I say something wrong?" I asked a bit nervous.

"Huh? No why?" He replied.

"Just thought I said something wrong cus the way you looked at me just made me think I said something wrong" I said.

"Oh no no, I'm good!" He said smiling at me.

I decided to let it go but knew that I said something that bothered him, whatever that something I would have to find out after school.

We both walked in the school building through one of the side doors, I wanted to hang out with Raven in a more quiet area because I wanted to talk to give him some advice. As we made it down the corridor that lead to the gym I made a right and walked into the school annex where the band room was at. The band teacher knew that I was not a trouble maker and allowed me to sneak in the band room in the mornings for some alone time. I would usually read a book or study for a test whenever I came in, sometimes he would come in and sit next to me quietly while I studied or read my book. He said nothing just read his newspaper then he would get up and leave. Come to think about it we really never had a long conversation we just sorta hung out that way. When we walked in the band room Raven's eyes lit up, he walked around inspecting every inch of the room. Most of the instruments were gone since the students took them home to practice.

"Dude this is awesome!" He said beaming.

"You play?" I asked.

"Yeah, the Viola, been playing for years" He replied.

"Why not join?"

"Yeah guess I could"

I wanted to give him some advice but didn't want to hurt his feelings, I really didn't know how to start the conversation and started to get nervous. I shuffled my way towards him and placed my hand on his shoulder.

"Hey listen Rave-"

"Heh, Rave...I like that" He interrupted.

I smiled and pulled him in for hug, I squeezed him tightly, I don't know why I felt the need at that moment to hug him but I did.

"What was that for?" He asked the moment we broke our embrace.

I didn't have an answer for him so I shrugged my shoulders. I knew I had to talk to him about his sexuality but I was so nervous. I gathered my strength, took a deep breath and hoped for the best.

"I want to talk to you about something..." I started, my heart was racing and my palms were beginning to sweat. "I know you told me you were gay and I thank you for telling me but...maybe...you shouldn't tell anyone else" I finished.

I saw his expression change and knew that I had hurt his feelings, I fell horrible and tried to explain myself but he stopped me the moment he saw my mouth open to speak.

"No, why should I do that? I'm not going to hide who I am and if people hate me for it then fuck `em, I'm not here to please anyone, even you, if you're not going to support me well then fuck you too" he angrily said as he stormed away.

I didn't know what to do, I felt horrible for even bringing the whole gay thing up, I felt like an ass but began to really get angry, I couldn't understand why he was being such a dumbass, the kids would make his life miserable and he still didn't care, all I was trying to do was help him and just couldn't understand why he was giving himself over to a pack of wolves, yeah and let's face it middle school is a den of rabid wolves.

"Fine then! I don't care! Don't expect me to help you when people kick your ass!" I yelled back then I said something that I still regret "and stay the fuck away from me fag!" I shouted.

The moment those words left my lips I regretted speaking them, in fact I flinched after I heard my voice echo from the band room. Raven turned around with tears running down his face, I had obviously hurt his feelings.

"That was fucked up..." was all he was able to choke out before running out of the band room and disappearing.

I was left stunned, I felt awful for speaking to him the way I did, how could things go so bad? I thought to myself. I was trying to justify my actions by thinking that I was only warning him about all the shit he would endure if he told people he was gay; I was trying to be a good friend. I felt a hand grab my shoulder making me jump, I turned around to see who it was and saw Mr. Reynolds standing there looking at me. SHIT! I thought, maybe he heard everything that had gone on, I knew I would be in trouble for saying that shit, my heart began to race even faster.

"Is there something I should know about Mr. Sines?" He asked me.

"No sir, just had an argument with a friend" I sheepishly responded, at that moment I fell so small, I knew he was only testing me to see if I would come clean but how could I?"

"I see...well you might want to go apologize" He softly said patting me on the back.

"I can't sir, not after that" I whined realizing that I had probably lost a friend.

"Yeah you can, it's never too late, you need to understand that what you asked of him was something he couldn't do, he can't suppress who he is, that would be asking a fish to start breathing air because that would be best for it." He patiently explained to me.

I thought about it for a second and realized he was right, I couldn't believe that I asked Raven to hide who he was, Mr. Reynolds was right, I had to apologize. I had to look for Raven, I smiled back at Mr. Reynolds and immediately left the band room. I desperately searched the annex for Raven but had no luck, I then decided to look for him in the main school building but before I knew it the bell for my first period class rang. "SHIT!" I thought to myself. I rushed to my locker, grabbed my book and rushed to my first period class. All kept glancing at the clock all period long, I wanted to look for Raven and say sorry. As time went by I felt even more horrible, I felt like a complete dumbass for hurting him the way I did. I don't even remember what the hell the teacher was talking about, I was so engrossed on the fight I had with Rave that I completely ignored the class. Before I knew it the bell rang and off I went to look for him. I spent all 10 minutes looking for him with no luck, I asked everyone but they all told me the same thing, that they had not seen him. UGH! I was hella frustrated by now but I had to wait because the rest of the school day waited. I began to panic when lunch came around and I still had not seen him, I had asked everyone I knew if they had seen him but they all said they had not. When he didn't appear in the cafeteria I gave up my search, I figured he was hiding out or had gone home so I decided I would call him after school to see if he would pick up. The rest of the day dragged ass, I couldn't wait for the bell to ring so I could go home and talk to Rave, I was so afraid that he would never speak to me again, I had definitely not meant what I said and knew that those words would sting, that was the only reason I even spoke them.

The moment the bell rang I jetted outta school and reached for my phone, I walked as fast as I could towards where I thought his house was at and stood like a dumbass trying to call him. I texted him, called him and left him messages but got no response. I don't even know how long I stood out there for but it was a long time. His phone kept going to his voice mail and he never responded to my texts. Suddenly I saw an SUV drive by and noticed a dark haired boy sitting in the back seat looking out the window. For a second our eyes connected making my heart flutter, I yelled out his name but he immediately looked away. I tried to run after the SUV flailing my arms wildly in the air trying to get the driver's attention but had no success, I only got stupid looks from people that saw me yelling down the street, yeah I can see now how that must have looked. I couldn't keep up with them for much longer so I gave up, I walked home dejectedly wanting to desperately apologize. When I got home all of my energy was zapped, I didn't feel like eating anything or doing anything so I immediately undressed myself and headed straight to bed. I don't even remember falling asleep. I woke up really early the next day, immediately I checked my phone to see if Raven had called or texted me but he didn't, I felt awful. I dragged myself in the bathroom for a piss and a shower, I thought that maybe a nice hot shower was going to make me feel better but it didn't. I started crying in the shower, I didn't even know where the hell that came from but it hurt, I kept playing our fight over and over in my head especially the look he gave me when I called him a fag, I saw the pain in his eyes, I saw how hurt he was and that made me feel horrible. When I couldn't cry anymore I decided to shut the water off and dry myself, I slowly made it back to my room where I got dressed. I picked up my phone and texted Raven again.

"Hey Rave, could you please meet me at the same spot we met yesterday? Please? Im really sorry"

I crossed my fingers hoping he would respond but my hopes were dashed immediately when I saw that the text had not gone through. I dialed the number instead but got a message telling me the number was no longer in service. AHHH! I couldn't believe it! He had changed his phone number! I tossed my phone on my bed and made my way downstairs where my parents were already eating their breakfast. They asked me a few questions but I just sorta mumbled something about not being in the mood for conversations so they left me alone. I didn't even bother getting my phone or backpack, after I ate I walked out of my house and walked to school.

The entire day was a complete blur; Raven was nowhere to be seen making me feel even worse. After school I decided to skate for a while to get my mind off of things. As I was skating around I noticed a kid that resembled Raven eating at a McDonalds with an older boy that looked just like him. Before I knew what the hell I was doing I was walking inside the doors and heading straight for the two boys. My heart nearly stopped when I saw that it was Raven and without thinking I made my way towards him. I wanted to make things right between the both of us, I wanted to apologize and start over, I was hopeful that he would understand but my wish was crushed the moment he saw me. As I got closer we both locked eyes, I saw pure rage in his eyes and kinda frightened me which is crazy because I don't shy away from a fight but there was something about the look that he gave me that told me to not push him. I was stunned, I thought of Raven as being passive and not aggressive so the look he gave me completely stopped me on my tracks. The other kid with him stopped speaking to him when he saw the look he gave me and turned to see me, he also looked at me with complete rage in his eyes. I had not expected this, I was hopeful that we would be able to sit and talk about the whole situation but this had turned into something I sure as heck didn't want. The other kid suddenly got up and made his way towards me, I didn't know what to do or what to say so I just stood there waiting to hear him out.

"What the fuck do you want?" He angrily asked me.

"I-I just w-want to talk to him" I stuttered, I was nervous and to be honest a bit afraid.

"Not happening, get the fuck out" He said turning around to go back to where Raven was sitting at.

I tried to think real quick about what I wanted to do or even say so I did the only thing that came to mind at the time, I quickly made my way past the kid and rushed over to where Raven was sitting, I sat next to him and wrapped my arms around him. I don't know why I did what I did, I guess it was because I really never had this happen before and the feeling of losing a friend really bothered me, it was something that I didn't want to experience and I knew I was in the wrong, I was the one that hurt Raven, I was the one that caused all of this so I felt terrible. My emotions got the best of me and a flood of tears came out the moment I wrapped my arms around him. I felt his body stiffen up but he allowed me to hug him, I didn't say anything just held him tight. After a few minutes I let go of him, I wiped my tear soaked eyes and just looked at him; I really didn't know how to begin to apologize even thought I knew I had to.

"Are you done?" He asked me breaking the silence, he looked weary as if he was bored, the same look he gave me the first day I met him.

"Uh...yeah...guess so" I said, my face felt hot, I felt humiliated so I slowly started getting up. I tried again to say something else but I just couldn't, I felt like I was going to burst in tears again so I quickly walked away.

I got on my skateboard and made my way back home, I couldn't believe that I had actually lost a friend, man did I feel like a complete jack-ass for doing that. For the second day in a row I felt so drained that I didn't even bother to eat, I went straight to bed and fell asleep. I was dreading the weekend because that meant I would be stuck at home thinking about everything that had occurred. I don't know what time it was when my phone chirped me awake, I reluctantly reached for it to see who it was, I had a text from a number that I didn't recognize.

"Come to the corner" was all that it said, for a moment I didn't know what the hell that meant and then it finally hit me, it was Raven! I got up and since I was still dressed I just headed downstairs as quietly as possible.

I looked at my phone to check the time, it was 2:43 AM! Hella early! I thought to myself but it was worth it if it meant that I would save a friendship. I walked fast to the same corner I met Raven but no one was there waiting on me, I stood there like a dumbass waiting for a person that perhaps was just lying to me. I stood around for a few minutes before I started walking away but I stopped when I noticed a boy dressed in shorts and a gray hoodie heading my way, I knew it was Raven so I stopped. As he got closer I got more and more nervous, the butterflies in my stomach were making queasy.

"Hey..." Raven said the moment he got close.

"Hey..." I replied not knowing what else to do.

We stood around for a minute or two before he reached over and gave me a hug, I held him close, I wanted to let him know that I did care, that I felt awful for everything that I had said.

"I am so so sorry Raven, I never wanted to hurt you, I don't know why I said what I said" I finally said, it felt good to get out of my chest and let him know that I did feel sorry for everything I said. He didn't say anything he just kept hugging me, I did notice that when I apologized he squeezed me even tighter, I hoped that it was his way of letting me know that he accepted my apology.

After a few minutes we broke our embrace but I kept my hands on his shoulders, tears were welling in my eyes, I felt the sting of shame as I looked into his bright blue eyes.

"You are so awesome...I am really sorry" I whispered.

He smiled and wiped the tears from my eyes, it felt nice to have him do that, it was comforting knowing that he was willing to hear me out.

"You know you really hurt me..." He began to say, his words stung me deeply. "I didn't even feel like going to school the next day, I just stayed home...I didn't know if I would ever talk to you again but when you hugged me earlier I knew that you were sorry and thought about it for a while and decided to accept your apology"

My heart leapt, I was absolutely happy that he was accepting my apology even though I didn't deserve it, I didn't deserve his kindness but yet he was being nice enough to accept my apology. "Come on, it's chilly" I said grabbing him by the arm and leading him to my house.

When we walked in I signaled to him to be very quiet, we sneaked our way back up to my room where I locked the door, I took my shoes and socks off followed by my shirt. I saw Raven curiously look around my room, I didn't want to disturb him so I continued to get comfortable by taking my pants off, I was left in nothing but my flannel red and black boxers.

"You sleeping over right?" I asked breaking Raven's quiet concentration.

He turned around to see me and grinned when he saw me standing in nothing but boxers.

"Yeah if you want me to" he replied now shuffling uncomfortably.

"What?" I asked seeing how uncomfortable he was getting.

"Nothing it's just that, well, you know I'm gay right?" He asked me.

"Yeah so?" I replied not knowing why he was asking this.

"Well, you're friggin hot!" He said making me bust out laughing.

He didn't know what to do or say so he sorta just giggled, I didn't want to make him feel bad or as if I was making fun of him so I got closer to him and placed my hand on his shoulder.

"Thanks and you're hot too" I said making him blush.

"No I'm not" he replied now a deep crimson.

"Yeah you are dude...honest" I smiled at him. "and you need to quit being all weird around me bro, I don't care if you're gay so just be yourself okay?"

He sighed and it looked as if he didn't know what to say he just simply smiled back and nodded his head yes.

"So umm do you sleep with your clothes on?"

"No why?"

"well cuz I want to get to bed so chop chop get to it" I said clapping my hands twice.

He giggled and did what I asked, he took his shirt off and tossed it to one side, he hesitated for a moment before taking his pants off and tossing them on top of his shirt. He was now standing in front of me in nothing but his burgundy boxer briefs that had a gray waist band, he was blushing a deep crimson again which made me giggle.

"Why are you so shy?" I asked still giggling.

"Shit I dunno, just am?" He groaned.

"Well you don't have anything I haven't seen before, plus you got the wrong equipment buddy" I said patting him on the shoulder.

"Yeah unfortunately" He sighed giving me a mischievous grin.

I hopped on the right side of my bed and scooted over to give Raven some room, thankfully I had a queen sized mattress made out of memory foam (oh yeah I love it) which gave me and my friends plenty of room to sleep together. Raven didn't hesitate this time and jumped in with me, we both laid for a moment on our backs staring at my ceiling not saying a word.

"Why did you say that for?" Raven said finally breaking our silence.

I knew exactly what he was talking about, I knew that the argument would have to be discussed but it still made me uncomfortable. I started to fidget nervously because I didn't want to say the wrong thing and hurt him again. I felt him place his hand over mine to reassure me, it gave me courage and I don't know, just an assurance that he just wanted me to be honest.

"I dunno, I guess I was mad cus you wasn't listening to my advice bro...I don't want the idiots at school to make fun of you and I know how they are" I finally said.

He didn't respond immediately but I was able to tell that he wasn't upset.

"Yeah I know it's just that I can't be someone I'm not, I tried and didn't do too good, I hated being someone I wasn't and when I told everyone I was gay it felt much better, it's who I am, and I dunno...I like it" He said.

I shifted over so that I was now resting on my elbow so I could look him in the eyes.

"Rave, no matter what I'll stand with you okay? I shouldn't have said what I said, I honestly didn't mean a word I said and feel horrible for saying that stuff, I want us to be friends, good friends and if it means I have to kick some ass well I guess I'll be kicking ass" I said grinning at him.

He didn't say anything just hugged me, I felt how warm he was and it sent shivers down my spine, I enjoyed how his body felt against mine.

"Whoa did I just give you the chills?" He giggled.

"Uh huh" I replied but held on to him.

After a few minutes I broke the embrace, I was curious to know how he had come to the realization he was gay but before I opened my mouth to ask he spoke up.

"A while ago, I think I was like 10 or something I just noticed that I liked boys more than girls, I mean, I like girls just not like that, I feel better around boys and I just think they are much more cute" He said smiling at me.

I thought about it for a second and he made sense, there were plenty of boys that I thought were cute but I just never really paid much attention to it. Granted there had been a few that crept into my mind when I jacked off but I thought it was simply because I was horny and trying to get off. I was sure I was straight but I also thought boys were cute so it confused me a bit.

"Have you ever done stuff with a boy?" I blurted out surprising even myself.

"Like sex and stuff?" he asked

I nodded yes; I was excited that I would be hearing very personal details.

"Just made out with my ex and we jacked each other off" He said. I don't know why but the thought of Raven and another boy jacking each other made my insides go wild, I felt a tingle on my dick and noticed that I started getting hard.

"What was your ex's name?" I asked now wanting to know about the other boy.

"Oh! His name is Jackson, he was pretty awesome but I don't know...we just sorta grew apart, I knew him for ever before we decided to go out but he just acted differently when he started liking a chick at school and so before he dumped me I broke it off" He replied, I could tell that he was still hurt by the break up so I didn't want to ask more questions about their relationship.

"Can I ask you a question?" Raven said.

"You just did" I grinned

"Smart ass...ANYWAYS...why don't you care I'm gay? Most guys do why don't you?" He asked.

It was a good question that I didn't know how to answer, I guess it was because I never had really thought about it.

"I dunno I just don't think that it matters, it's hard to describe it but who cares if you're into guys, I mean, why should it matter? I like people for who they are and I dunno I just think you're awesome" I said.

"Why did you want to be my friend then?" He asked me.

"I guess it's cus you weren't trying to be MY friend, usually people want to talk to me cus they think I'm popular but I don't like people that do that cus they don't want to be my friend for me, they just want to be proud of the so called "cool crowd" I responded surprising even myself.

I had known for a long time that most of the people that spoke to me was because they wanted to be a part of the "cool crowd" they wanted to be part of the popular kids, I was pretty well known simply because I was a good athlete, I didn't know why people tended to like kids that were good in sports but they did and I had just learned to accept it. Raven was different, I knew the moment that I saw him that he was independent, that he thought for himself, and I guess I liked the "hard to get" attitude he had. I liked the fact that he looked bored when I tried to talk to him, I was so used of people wanting to talk to me all the time that I had forgotten what it was like to have real friends. Don't get me wrong I had a lot of genuine friends, friends I had known for ages but I still didn't have any friends that were extremely close to me and the older that I got the more I felt I need those type of friends, I thought that Raven might be the one guy I would get close to. We continued to talk about everything and anything, before we knew it we were both yawning and fighting to stay awake but were not very successful, we both fell asleep sometime around 4 in the morning.

I woke up suddenly feeling like my bladder was about to explode, I had a boner that was pressing up against Raven's ass. At first I didn't really care but when I fully realized where it was at my mind began to race and my heart started to beat really fast. My dick had never been that close to someone's ass before, not even during my other sleep overs, this was just so intimate, so new, I liked how it felt but I immediately snapped out of it. "You're not gay you idiot, stop it!" I told myself. I reluctantly peeled myself away from Raven and shuffled my way to the bathroom. I stood in front of the toilet and took my hard 5 inch cut dick out but struggled to piss, I tried to concentrate enough for it to go down but I just couldn't get it to go soft, I closed my eyes and relaxed enough to have some piss trickle, slowly my dick started going soft making it much easier to piss. Raven made me jump when he came into the bathroom and stood next to me to take a piss, he took his soft cut dick out and began to piss, I giggled a little making him look at me questioningly.

"I'm a grower not a shower bro" he mumbled.

"Huh? Not laughing about that" I giggled.

"Then what?" he asked as he continued to relieve himself. I shook my dick a few times and put it back in my boxers.

"That mark on your dick" I said as I washed my hands.

"Oh...yeah it's funny looking eh?" He replied.

Raven had a mark halfway down his shaft that looked almost like a heart, it was pretty cool in my opinion.

I saw him shake the piss off the tip of his dick and put it away; he walked over to the sink and washed his hands. We walked back to my bed together and crawled back under the covers, I reached over to my phone to see what time it was and was surprised it was past 11 in the morning.

"Dude are u hungry?" I asked when I felt my belly rumble.

"Yeah...kinda" He replied.

"Lets get something to eat" I groaned as I got up from my bed and headed downstairs to the kitchen. I looked around for my parents but they were already gone, my parents usually went out during the week for either some breakfast or a walk around the neighborhood. Since they spent all week at work they took every chance they got to spend some alone time which sometimes included me. The older I got the more I realized that they needed some alone time, I was okay with spending time alone, it gave me the chance to do whatever it was I wanted to do. Sometimes I would spend my time with friends, other times I would just skate around town so it wasn't unusual that my parents had left me and Raven alone.

We both ate some cereal and lounged around in the kitchen for a while just talking about random things, I got to know Raven really well, I found it interesting that he was very talented in drawing, he promised he would show me some of his drawings whenever I went over to his place. Things were going pretty good for the both of us, we were getting to know each other and to be honest I was having a great time with him. Before I met Raven I had a wrong understanding of what it meant to be gay, I thought that most gay guys were effeminate, spoke with a lisp and were just weird. Raven completely smashed that stupid stereotype because he was very masculine, he was umm, shall we say rough around the edges? He just acted like a typical 12 year old and I loved it. If I would have known him a lot more before being stupid enough to tell him to hide who he was I wouldn't even have opened my big mouth. There was no way people would make fun of him because I knew he would be able to defend himself. I guess when we think of gay guys we usually think they are soft and wouldn't defend themselves, oh no, not Raven the more I got to know him the more I realized that he was a fighter like I was, I was truly relieved to see that he would defend himself if need be. When my parents came home I introduced Raven to them, they immediately took a liking to him, he felt comfortable enough to tell them he was gay and I was happy to see that my parents embraced him and told him that they would support him with anything he needed which made me proud to call them my parents.

Things were going good between the both of us, I was happy that we had finally patched things up but I still had a question that was gnawing at me. I asked Raven why he changed the number after our little fight, I felt completely stupid the moment he told me that the number he had was his old number and that he needed to change it because it had the old area code, I was so caught up in my emotions that I didn't even notice that it had a 415 area code, the area code for San Francisco. I guess it made me feel better that I had not been the cause of the number change but it still made me feel pretty stupid asking the question. We spent the entire weekend hanging out with each other, I made it over to his place Saturday evening after his parents invited me over for dinner, I really enjoyed the time I spent with his family. His two brothers were just as awesome as he was and I learned that the kid I had seen him with in McDonalds had been his older brother. That evening I spent the night over at his place, it was a really fun time because we all played Monopoly which I hadn't played in ages.

All day Sunday we just vegetated, we did absolutely nothing except eat, and talk, eat and talk, oh yeah awesome times. That Monday we hung out at school between classes and during lunch, some of my friends came over and saw that I was hanging out with Raven and so they got to meet him. We all had a great time, Raven surprised the hell out of me when he told them all that he was gay, he didn't even hesitate when he told them that but what really surprised me, in fact I was really proud of my friends when they didn't even bat an eye, they all took in stride as if it was no big deal and when you think about it it really is no big deal. Even my guy friends were accepting of Raven who we started calling Rave thanks to me. Things were going pretty good for Raven which made me feel great, all I had wanted was for him to be okay and not have a hard time at school and it looked like things would be pretty good for him.

Chapter 2 Coming Soon!