A Day Without Rain

A Confused Discovery

Another story by Miro Miro

Please Do NOT read this story if it offends you, I based this story on experiences that I personally had but have not yet shared, I have also shared certain things that a friend of mine experienced during his coming out, I hope you all enjoy it BTW, don't forget to donate to Nifty, they do an amazing job and should be supported!

As days went by our friendship grew pretty solid, we spent most of our time together and even when we were apart we spent it texting back and forth. At this point in our friendship I was still worrying about what people thought about me, not because I was hanging out with Raven, it wasn't that at all, it was all about my sports. I was in the middle of Baseball season and I wasn't doing all that good, I just really couldn't really play as well as I wanted to, I didn't know what the hell was going on with me I just seemed distracted I guess.

I love sports but lately I just wasn't as interested in them, I was more tired than usual and kinda depressed. The more I talked to Raven the more depressed I got, yeah that sounds bad but it wasn't because I was talking to him, hell no, it was what he was saying. See, I started to really wonder if I was gay or bi or whatever. We spoke about how he started to notice boys more than girls and how he felt tingly whenever he was around a particular friend and how whenever the boy touched him it was as if static electricity had shocked him.

Like I said earlier I've had girlfriends, I've made out with them, fingered them, in fact I ate my last girlfriend out and she gave me some head, we almost had sex but we were interrupted by my buddy who barged in on us, yeah it really pissed me off. I really didn't like her that way I mean yeah it was an awesome experience and it was hella fun to do that kind of stuff with her but I wasn't like overly horny with her. I guess I wanted to have sex and do all that stuff with her because I felt like I had to do it, all of my friends talked about wanting to do these things and since I had the opportunity I said the hell with it and tried it out, I was really surprised she said yeah and that's how we started to fool around. When I think about it I wasn't really sure about eating her out, I really didn't enjoy it, it was kinda gross and just I dunno weird. Now when it comes to my guy friends I've seen them naked and I really like to see them all naked I feel tingly inside just like how Raven was saying, I also felt right whenever I thought about a guy while I jacked off, usually I did it to a friend who I saw naked or stuff like that. I've seen shit on the net that really turns me on, like gay porn I mean, and yeah I just thought it was because I was horny but the more I spoke to Raven the more I started to realize that I was more than curious when it came to gay sex.

I thought about trying it for the longest, in fact I wanted to do that more than I did with a girl, and before I met Raven I went on YouTube to check out coming out stories of other boys my age and found some to be really cute, especially one that had the Walking Dead's poster behind him, ugh just thinking about him makes me feel weird, he was hella cute, so yeah anyways, I was starting to get really confused about the whole thing and to be honest I was scared. My parents noticed that I hadn't been myself lately and began to ask questions, I really didn't want to come out and say "oh yeah I might be gay" cuz yeah I was afraid and confused so I just denied anything was wrong and tried to just figure things out on my own.

The day things changed was when I was home alone and bored, Raven was out with his family and I didn't feel like going out or anything so I stayed home even though it was a Saturday. My parents were out together and so I had the house all to myself. Usually I just blast my music and enjoy the day but today I thought about doing some research online about homosexuality. I got on my laptop and got on Google. I read some stories, saw some pictures of kids my age who were gay, I also went on YouTube to watch more coming out stories, before long my horniness got the best of me so I went on some gay porn sites, some of the shit they is really weird like the whole bondage crap really freaks me out but if its two normal dudes getting it on, oh yeah, I'm all for that, well as long as they are not all hairy and nasty looking. So anyways, here I was watching porn and jacking off when I heard a knock on my door, UGH! That pissed me off so I ignored them but they kept knocking, then my phone started to chirp so I picked up my phone to see who it was, it was Raven who was knocking on the door. I closed my laptop, got dressed and went downstairs to answer. Lately my heart flutters every time I see him and this time was no exception. He was dressed in a light gray shirt that hugged his body, black Volcom shorts, with grey DC shoes. He had a gray hat that he had cocked to one side and a gang load of bracelets of all colors on his left wrist. WOW! I thought he looked really hot.

He smiled really big when he saw me and gave me a hug, his blue eyes sparkled brightly when he saw me. We both made our way back up to my room, he sat on the chair by my desk and I sat on the bed. We talked about what we had been doing, my side of the story was short because I was doing nothing, of course I left out the part about me jacking off to gay dudes butt fucking so yeah I didn't take too long telling him what I had been doing. He told me he went to the mall with his family to buy a few things but was dropped off at my place before they headed back out, he didn't feel like hanging out with them anymore and wanted to spend some time with me which I thought was pretty sweet. After he was done telling me everything he had been up to I offered him a coke, he accepted so I rushed downstairs to grab a couple of cokes for us. When I made it back up to my room my heart stopped the moment I saw Raven on my laptop, I began to panic, I didn't know if I had shut off the site I was on or not and the last thing I remembered was that I had several tabs open with things that were questionable like YouTube coming out stories and stuff like that. I probably looked pale because the moment Raven saw me he asked me if I was okay.

I nodded yes and sat on my bed, I didn't know what to say or do so I just played it off.

"Here" I said handing him a coke.

He took it from my hand and looked at me quizzically but said nothing. There was an uncomfortable silence between us that was making me really nervous.

"Don't tell anyone...Please" I begged after finally finding my voice.

"Course I won't" He replied as he got up from the chair and sat next to me, he placed his hand on my right thigh sending shivers up and down my spine that just intensified my anxiety.

"Are you one too?" He asked me.

How could I answer that question? I thought to myself, hell it was such a hard question to answer so I just sat there and said nothing. I felt like I was on fire, my face probably looked as if I had smeared red paint all over it and Rave saw this. He wrapped his arms around me and squeezed really tight, he then let go and turned me gently around so we could face each other. His beautiful blue eyes were drawing me in, they were speaking to me, they were causing me to feel weak all over but yet they gave me strength.

"Want to talk about it?" He asked soothingly.

"I-I guess...don't know where to begin" I quietly said.

He leaned in close and gave me a peck on the cheek, it made me feel rejuvenated as if I was able to face this head on.

"I guess I had always liked...you know...guys..." I said feeling really awkward that I was finally voicing my feelings. "but I dunno, until you I never really paid much attention to it...I dunno, you just make me feel different".

"Wait what do you mean?" He asked me.

"Oh I was saying that since I met you I really noticed how much I liked guys, well, you more than anything" I responded feeling my face flush again.

"you like me, like me?" he asked sounding a bit surprised.

"Yeah..." I said nodding my head.

We sat in silence for a few minutes before he spoke again "You sure?" He asked me sounding a bit apprehensive.

"Well I don't know, I guess, that's what I'm trying to figure out" I responded pointing towards my laptop and at the embarrassing images that were still on the screen.

"I don't think that stuff will help you any" He said giggling.

"Hey! Don't laugh at me!" I protested.

"No, no, I wasn't laughing at you...it's just that I know how confusing it is, people are going to say 'hey you don't know if you're gay or not you're only 12 blah blah blah' but who really knows? I mean I know that I like the guys more than the girls so yeah I know and it's something you have to figure out" He said.

"Yeah I guess" I sighed feeling sick to my stomach, I really couldn't believe that I was having this kind of conversation. I didn't understand why my life had to get more complicated, I liked it better when I didn't really pay attention to the feelings I had toward guys, I liked Raven and all but things got way too complicated when my fucking heart got involved. Love can suck sometimes, hell at the time I didn't even know if it was love or what, all I knew was that he was fucking sexy and I wanted to hit that.

I didn't say much after he caught me looking at gay porn, we just sorta sat around my room making small talk, I noticed that he was uncomfortable but I didn't know what to say, I didn't know if I needed to apologize or what, I was just feeling absolutely awkward around him and what made matters worse was the fact that he was giving me really quick answers to my questions.

When I got tired of him sorta blowing me off I decided to ignore him so I just put my earbuds on, got on Pandora and listened to my music, before I knew it I drifted off to sleep, I was emotionally drained and needed some rest. I woke up later that evening with my stomach rumbling, I was a bit disoriented and for the first few seconds all was well, I was oblivious to what had occurred just a few hours ago, I didn't feel weird as if I was going to be sick. I rubbed the sleep off my eyes and slowly made my way outside my room. Things around my house were dark and quiet, I guessed mom and dad had come in to see me asleep and left me alone, unfortunately for me I was hungry and needed to make my way downstairs. As I turned into the living I instantly became sick, I noticed that Raven was curled up on the couch. Everything came back to me all at once, all the worry, the confusion, everything came at me hard. I felt light headed and sick, my appetite immediately left me. I didn't want to wake Raven up so I quietly crept back upstairs, midway up the stairs I was startled by some hands reaching out to grab my foot as I took a step. It caused me to trip and almost fall but thankfully I grabbed the handrail quick enough, I heard some wild giggling coming from behind so I turned to see who it was, I knew it was Raven but for some reason I was expecting to see someone else.

"Fuck dude you nearly killed me!" I angrily whispered at him.

He was now sitting on the stairs with both of his hands covering his mouth trying very hard not to be loud, if I hadn't been nearly killed I think I would have laughed too. I angrily stomped my way back upstairs and closed my door, I think I was more angry at him for catching me looking at gay porn. If he hadn't been snooping around I would've still been content living with my beautiful fantasy that all was well, that I was not gay but a man! but noooooo he had to snoop around and I had to come clean to him about everything, he knew it all now, he knew that I was attracted to guys and THAT amount of power he had over me really worried me, and not to mention it pissed me off.

I buried my head in my pillows and wanted to scream, obviously I couldn't since it was the middle of the freaking night, but still, a boy can wish. I heard Raven slowly creeping in my room but I was too embarrassed and pissed to look up, I couldn't pretend to be asleep so I just made it known to him that I didn't want to talk by keeping my head buried in my pillows.

"Hey...you okay?" I heard Raven ask but I just ignored him.

I felt him sit next to me but I still refused to move or even acknowledge him.

"Hellooooo?" He said as he poked me on my back.

I flinched because I am really ticklish which was stupid on my part because he capitalized on that opportunity, before I knew it the moron straddled me and started tickling the shit outta me. I was wriggling around trying to get lose but since I was on my stomach he had absolute control. I tried everything but my kryptonite is tickling so I was pretty much incapacitated while he tortured me.

Right before I thought I was going to piss myself the relentless and brutal assault on my innocent body was let up, I immediately used the opportunity to quickly spin around on my back but unfortunately for me he was quicker and was able to straddle me yet again, this time he was sitting on my stomach with my arms pinned under his knees, shitty position to be in especially when the person on top knows your weakness. I closed my eyes tightly expecting for him to tickle me again but instead of feeling some more tickling I felt something, umm, shall I say soft and nice on my lips?

I knew exactly what was happening but my brain I guess just shut off, I couldn't move, I couldn't open my eyes, I really couldn't do anything, I just laid there like a corpse and took it like a man, well a dead man, but for my first guy on guy kiss it wasn't all that bad, would have been better if I was expecting it but hey it was still pretty cool. I really don't know how long Raven molested me for, all I know was that it felt awesome; I even tasted some pop-tarts that I guess he had been eating before he fell asleep on the couch.

When he stopped kissing me I slowly opened my eyes, my brain was swimming, it felt like I had spun around in circles nonstop for hours, I was, what's the word? Euphoric? Yeah that sounds about right. I didn't say anything to him though, I just sorta stared at him, it must have looked creepy but what else could I have done? Or said? It would have sounded really stupid if I would've said `oh yeah thanks for the kiss dude' see what I mean? Sounds pretty stupid eh? Anyways, we didn't say anything to each other, we just kinda stared at each other for a bit until he finally spoke.

"How was it?" he asked.

"No-Not Bad" I croaked.

He looked at me with a very confused, almost hurt look on his face, "not bad? That's it? I don't get a `that was the best ever!'?"

"Well hell no! You practically raped me!" I giggled.

"Oh yeah!? I'll show you fucking rape" he said as he quickly began to undo my pants, I thought he wouldn't go too far so I just let him, hell I even helped out a bit by lifting my butt in the air so he could pull my pants down further.

The moment my undies were exposed he grabbed a handful of kibble and bits, I groaned, moaned, and yelped. Yeah not too manly but when you're not expecting your junk to be fondled the way mine was well you tend to lose control and your inner bitch comes out.

"I'll show you...rape...fuck this....asshole" he kept mumbling as he tried to rip the spaghetti away from the meatballs, meaning he had a firm grip on my dick and began to furiously jack me off over my undies. I started to panic because no one, and I mean no one, well expect my parents, had ever handled my junk, especially how rough he was doing it. I did'nt get hard to say the least and this only caused him to stroke me harder, by this point I was in full on panic because this was actual rape, yeah, I was actually getting raped by another boy, in my own room, with my parents sleeping in the same house, yeah go-figure.

My poor dick was getting beat up and for the first time in my life it wasn't me abusing the poor thing, I tried desperately to buck my hips but he had a tight grip on me, he just kept trying to stroke me raw until it happened, I got hard, I actually got hard which is something I am still amazed over. I still cant understand how my dick got hard while it was getting abused the way it was. The moment he felt my dick get hard he pulled my undies down, I was mortified, this was a night of firsts and this first wasn't a fun one. I shut my eyes tightly not wanting to see him look at my junk, it was absolutely embarrassing. A few seconds after I shut my eyes I felt this very nice yet strange sensation on my dick, it felt mushy, wiggly, and umm wet, very wet. I let out a "oohhh yeah" without even realizing what I was saying. I opened my eyes and saw that Raven was bobbing up and down on my dick and I lost it. I started to cry, and I sure as hell mean cry.

"Stop...please stop" I begged between sobs.

I think he was so caught up in the moment because he ignored what I was saying and kept sucking me. I kept sobbing but then it started to feel really awesome, tears were still streaming down my face but I was feeling tingly all over.

"Please...don't stop...don't stop..." I sobbed.

This time he heard me, and yeah because I am so lucky (not) he thought I was asking him to stop. I mean, I was, just a few seconds earlier, but now, well that was in the past, it was feeling too good to have him stop. When he stopped he looked up at me and freaked out, it was classic. His eyes got huge and if you've forgotten already he has these amazing crystal clear blue eyes (with some grey in them) that completely sparkle, they are awesome, but anyways his eyes nearly popped out of his head when he saw I was crying.

"Oh shit dude I am so sorry..." He started to say but I interrupted him (hehehe).

"Keep going..." I breathed heavily while I pushed my hips up in the air.

"are you sure?" he asked.

"Yeah hurry..." I impatiently said.

He didn't need to be told twice, he went back down on my dick but this time he started sucking it much better. I was writhing around as if I was on fire, the new sensations I was feeling were too good. Complete lust took over the both of us, he stopped sucking me and pulled my pants and underwear off in one swoop, surprised the hell outta me to be honest but I wasn't complaining. Then something else happened that surprised me as well, I was expecting him to start sucking me off again but he didn't, instead he spread my legs apart, raised them up so that my knees were now touching my chest (so embarrassing) and then something amazing happened, I felt something wet around my butthole that tickled me.

I started to giggle as I felt his tongue move around my hole and when he probed inside I let out a soft moan, the bastard was eating my butt out. The thought was grossing me out but it wasn't my mouth or tongue sucking butt so what the hell I was NOT going to deprive him of such an amazing thing, plus I'm a bit of a clean freak. I really clean every inch of my body unlike some of my disgusting friends, particularly you Noah, yeah you fat nasty greasy fucker, brush your fucking teeth for once would you? No one wants to smell the turd you ate! You fat nasty slob...okay I should probably stop there and go back to what I was saying, anyways I wasn't going to stop Raven from eating me out, hell no, I was going to strongly suggest that he brush his teeth afterwards but for now I was content with letting him do his thing.

So back to what was happening, as I lay there getting violated with his tongue I felt a twinge of guilt and disgust, I panicked, it's really hard to describe what I was feeling but it was something that I didn't like to feel, it was as if I was losing something, sure it was feeling great but deep inside, and I don't mean deep inside my ass, I felt something bad, I felt like I wasn't supposed to be doing this. I finally snapped out of my trance like state and pushed my legs down and sat up immediately, I brought my knees up to my chest and hugged them, I was rocking back and forth sobbing uncontrollably again. I was an emotional wreck, I hiccupped something that I didn't even comprehend, I really didn't understand what I was saying, my brain was just spurting out things that just came to me.

Raven tried to comfort me but every time he touched me I flinched and drew away from him, I didn't want him to touch me, I didn't want any other guy to touch me ever again. I felt disgusting, I felt as if I had swan dived into a shit pit. I kept hearing Raven say stuff that I just couldn't comprehend, but then again I really didn't want to hear his voice. Anger began to build up inside of me, I couldn't believe he had taken advantage of me that way, especially because he thought I was gay, hell I didn't even know just yet, I wanted to rip his fucking head off, I wanted to run to to my mom and dad's room and crawl into bed with them like I used to when I had a nightmare but I couldn't bring them into this, hell no. I didn't want Raven to get in trouble, I didn't want them to make a big deal out of this. A wave of guilt began to wash over me when I noticed that Raven was now quietly sobbing as well, I started to calm down, I didn't intentionally want to hurt him just like I'm sure he didn't want to hurt me. I cared about him, like, I genuinely cared about him.

"Hey...I'm...I'm okay..." I sniffled once I was able to regain my voice.

He didn't respond, he just continued to quietly sob, gosh he looked so friggin cute sitting there looking so miserable.

"Rave?" I called out but he didn't respond.

"listen I'm okay it's just...it just happened too quick and I'm not ready for that" I said trying to sooth him.

He finally looked up and my heart broke, the look in his eyes told me everything, it told me how terrible he felt for doing what he did which eased my anger.

"I am so, so sorry, I really am" he moaned as he started to really cry now.

I still didn't feel comfortable hugging him so I just sat there staring at him until I realized I was half naked. I quickly pulled my underwear and pants back on, my dick was completely gone, it was shriveled up so much it looked like I had an acorn just sticking out of my body. We said absolutely nothing to each other the rest of the night, we just uncomfortably sat around, every so often trying to make small talk, I knew he felt awful but so did I.

Physically what he did felt great but emotionally I felt like absolute shit, I just wasn't sure it was for me. I loved making out with girls, I loved feeling all over them and to be honest I loved my little jack off sessions where I thought about Ariana Grande riding me `till my dick fell off. But then again I also had almost the same type of feelings for guys, especially the dude from Meet the Goldbergs, the guy that plays Adam, ugh he is hot, especially that big ass of his, yeah I definitely want to hit that, OH and how about Chandler Riggs from the Walking Dead? Yeah another one I would love to bone with.

So yeah I was really confused and exhausted, I didn't even realize when I fell asleep but I was woken up when a beam of sun light hit me right on my face, I reluctantly shifted around but quickly realized that I was hugging someone, I opened my eyes and realized that I was spooning with Raven, I was holding him tightly and for a quick moment I enjoyed how it felt. It felt nice, it felt comforting but then I remembered everything that had occurred just a few hours before. Another wave of guilt hit me because I realized I handled it all wrong, I probably should have spoken up and told him I was interested but to take it slow, I remembered that I had confused him as well because I told him to keep going so yeah I felt horrible for sending him mixed messages.

I lifted myself up just enough to take a look at him, he looked really cute sleeping so peacefully, my heart filled with love for him once again so I did what felt natural to me at that moment, I leaned in and kissed him.

He stirred a bit so I kissed him again and snuggled up closer to him. I began to rub his arm with my hand trying to gently wake him up, I saw his eyes flutter and knew he was awake just not wanting to open his eyes just yet. I kissed him again on the cheek and rested my chin on his shoulder.

"I know your awake...so open your eyes" I said.

I saw him shake his head no making me giggle.

"Oh come on, please...for me..." I begged.

He again shook his head no.

I thought about it for a second and said fuck it, I kinda forcibly pulled him towards me so that he was now lying flat on his back. Then I planted a nice, wet, sloppy, kiss on his lips, I somewhat straddled him with my right leg and placed my hand on his chest as I continued to kiss him. My head began to swim again like it did the night before, I let go of all inhibitions and let my heart and body do the work. I parted his lips with my tongue and stuck it in his mouth, before I knew it we were both kissing passionately. It felt good, it felt right, not rushed, I didn't like being rushed. It felt like we kissed for a good five minutes or so, our bodies were grinding up against each other, my boner was poking his thigh and his boner was poking my right leg since I had it rested right over his crotch. This type of intimacy I was ready for, in fact I was really enjoying it, it felt better kissing him than it was kissing my exes, he felt gentler, more tasty, more right, shit I don't know.

We broke our kiss when we ran out of breath, we both locked eyes and I just smiled at him, argh! he truly was gorgeous! He smiled back making me feel much better about the whole situation but then I remembered that I had kissed the same mouth that had been eating my ass out. I jumped out of bed in a panic, I didn't know what the fuck I was doing, I started spitting everywhere saying all sorts of "fucks" and "nastys" and plenty of "motherfuckers", he looked really confused and hurt.

I saw tears welling up in his eyes again causing me to freak out, "what?" I asked him.

"You confuse the shit out of me, first you tell me to keep sucking you then you freak out, then you kiss me, then you freak out" he said as tears began to freely fall from his beautiful eyes.

"What? No, no...dude okay I am so sorry but it's not because I kissed you, hell I love that" I said now visibly embarrassed I felt myself turn a bright red "it's cus you had my butt in your mouth and didn't brush"

"Oh..." he said looking at me now as if I had something on my face, "you were clean you know that right?"

"Yeah I guess but stilllll" I whined remembering how gross it was.

"So did you mean it?" he asked.

"Yeah it's gross man!" I responded gagging again.

"No not that, the kiss, do you like kissing me?" he asked.

"Well yeah why wouldn't I?" I said smiling at him.

I sat back down on the bed ready to talk about everything, especially about the night before.

"Look bro, last night was too much for me, we got to take things slow okay? I mean, I don't mind doing stuff just not that fast, it was too much too fast for me and I didn't know how to feel, it felt great and all but I felt guilty for doing it, it's hard to explain, it's just confusing right now, I love kissing you, I love touching you and I loved it when you sucked me but I just, I don't know..." I said.

He sat there letting my words sink in, he smiled and nodded his head in agreement. "Yeah I prolly went to fast huh?" he asked.

"fuck yeah dude, and the whole tongue in butt thing? Err don't expect me to do that anytime soon, you can suck me off all you want I don't care but yeah the whole butt in tongue well that's gotta wait for now cus I gotta, well yeah, I just can't do it just yet" I said, what I neglected to tell him was that I wanted to investigate this whole tongue in butt thing and of course the internet was going to be my hero.

"did you just say I could suck you whenever I want? So what does this mean? are we like...together together? He asked looking quizzically at me.

"Hmm, let's see here..." I said acting as if I was still thinking about it "Yep we're together" I said smiling at him.

"Boyfriends? Like I can hold your hand and kiss you and like be with you?" He asked incredulously.

"Yeah no shit" I smiled. "BUT! Before you stick anything up my ass again you got to warn me first okay, and I'm not going to fuck you up your ass either I don't want a poopsicle, I am so not ready for some ass play, hell noooooooo" I said scrunching up my nose in disgust.

"Okay so you took all the fun out, plus you don't get shit all over your dick unless you don't clean yourself off good but yeah I can wait, so those are the rules? One, no licking Dylan's ass, two, no fucking Dylan's ass, three, no getting fucked by Dylan" Raven said counting on his fingers making me giggle.

"Yep, seems like you covered it all" I said "Now...can we kiss please?" I said halfway whining. This was something I was completely sure of, I really, truly enjoyed kissing him. I felt awesome when I kissed him, it was so much more intense than it was ever with a girl. He didn't say anything just laid flat on his back and invited me in with a smile. I laid back down next to him, leaned in close and began to passionately kiss him. I felt fireworks explode all over my body, this was something I really liked.

"Mmmmm you taste so good" Raven moaned whenever we stopped to catch our breaths making me smile. I felt his tongue as it wiggled around in my mouth connecting with my tongue, our hands were busy exploring each other's body. I ran my hand up and down his chest, little by little my confidence built until my hand reached inside of his pants. I felt the warmth that his crotch was emanating, I felt how hard his dick was sending shivers up and down my spine. I curiously bumped up against it ever so softly making him jerk in anticipation.

I finally was able to find my courage and reached inside of his underwear, I brushed my hand against his hard dick making the both of us shiver, I really liked how this was playing out, it was slow, erotic and sexy, instead of the brashness of last night. I took his dick in my hand for the first time, I felt it twitch as he let out a soft moan. I rubbed the head feeling drops of precum on the very tip. I stroked him gently, I liked how the first dick I had ever touched, other than my own, was feeling. I couldn't tell how big he was but he felt pretty big, not too thick but pretty long. I wanted to see it, I wanted to see how big he was so I inched my way down near his crotch. I tried to undo his belt but my hands were shaking so much that I was fumbling around, I was really nervous and somewhat afraid. He saw how nervous I was so he placed his hands on top of mine to steady them, I looked up at him and smiled, he grinned back as he undid his belt. I unbuttoned his pants and pulled them off, he helped me by lifting his ass in the air so I could get his skinny jeans off. By the way, those fucking things are impossible to take off when you are horny and wanting to hurry. He looked so sexy laying there in his black boxer briefs, his milky white skin was soft just like rose pedals. I rubbed my hands all over his thighs enjoying how smooth and soft they were, he was writhing around just like I was last night while he sucked me.

His boxer briefs had an obvious bulge that was now drawing my attention, I couldn't keep my eyes off of it, I was being pulled in like if it had some gravitational pull. I reached out to his boxer briefs and slowly began to pull them down, little by little I revealed his sexiness. I continued to pull his boxers down until they were halfway down his thighs, his dick popped out of them slapping him on his nice shaped stomach. I couldn't believe how sexy his dick looked, it was long, I didn't know how long but I guessed it was at least 5 ½ inches, he was cut like I was, the skin on it was milky white on the base to a more pinkish color the closer it got to the head, his circumcision scar was a healthy pink color and I gotta give some props to the doctor that cut his skin off because he did an awesome job, it was perfectly cut without too much scar tissue. I took it once more in my hand and gently stroked it, "wow" I quietly breathed as I felt the warmth, the hardness, the smoothness of it. He had absolutely no hair, his balls were completely bald like the rest of his body, it was an amazing sight. I cupped his balls in my hand feeling the heaviness of them, I wanted to stick them in my mouth, I wanted to kiss them but I was hesitant to stick a boy's privates in my mouth, I was okay about touching them for now but nothing more.

"Honey?" I heard my mom say before she knocked on my door spooking the hell out of us both. We both jumped off of bed, and hurried to get dressed, we were in a panic and if it wasn't so critical for us to get dressed I probably would have laughed at Raven. I knew that my door was locked and even if it wasn't my mom would never come in without me telling her she could, my parents absolutely and without question respected my privacy. I was startled because I was in such a trance like state playing with his dick that the knocking and her voice made me jump but Raven thought the worse. When the initial shock wore off I started to giggle uncontrollably, my mom knocked again and called out but I couldn't answer, I just couldn't. When I finally calmed down I finished putting my clothes back on, by now Raven was dressed once more still looking panicked.

"It's okay bro, she wont come in unless I say it's okay" I assured him, I immediately saw instant relief come across his face.

"Okay...good...scared me for a minute" He said sounding out of breath.

"Mom! We'll be right out!" I yelled.

"What? Why? I don't want to go out there!" He groaned making me laugh again.

"Quit being such a puss, let's go!" I said grabbing him by the hand and literally dragging him out the room.

Mom and dad were already sitting around the table eating breakfast, they had made us yummy waffles, eggs, and some yummy sausage with orange juice to drink.

"What time is it?" I asked looking around the table at the awesome breakfast they had made.

"A little past 9" My dad replied putting his tablet down to look at us.

"Good morning sir" Raven said looking super mega shy.

"Sir?" My dad asked rolling his eyes.

"Sorry, Tone" Raven said correcting himself.

"Okay dig in" Mom cheerfully said.

We both didn't hesitate at all, we sat down and began to shovel food into our gullets. We made small talk with my mom and dad about nothing all that important, just random things, about school, about sports and about our plans for the weekend. I was feeling upbeat about the whole gay thing now that daylight had come, last night was a whole different story, the world ended for me. It was amazing what daylight had done to me, I was even feeling a little frisky as I started to mess with Raven by occasionally rubbing my foot on his. When we finished breakfast mom and dad excused us from the table so we rushed back upstairs, I wanted to ask Raven so many questions, I wanted to really get to the bottom of my gayness. I made sure my door was locked when I began to talk to him.

"So..." I said uneasily not knowing where to begin.

He simply smiled at me and raised an eyebrow expecting me to continue but I didn't.

"Sooooo what?" he finally asked after a long pause.

"Well I just don't know about me Rave, I mean I have a thing for you, you're like friggin gorgeous but I just don't know about the whole sex thing, don't get me wrong I loved you sucking me, that felt really good, and the other thing you did was good too" I said.

"You mean me eating your butt" He interjected making me blush.

"Yeah that" I continued "I like it all but I feel bad for doing it, that's why I freaked out yesterday and cried."

"But why? Is it cus it's with a guy?" he asked me hesitantly.

"Yeah...well no, I don't know!" I moaned obviously confused by the whole thing.

"I felt bad the first time I did stuff also, it was because I thought my parents would hate me if they found out and my brothers wouldn't want anything to do with me but when I told them they were okay with it" He said.

I thought about what he had said, I was fearful that my parents would find out and hate me, even though logic told me otherwise I still had a healthy amount of fear, sure I could tell them I like fucking chickens and they would probably accept it but get me help, but still, they wouldn't hate me, it was so scary to think about the whole coming out thing and how people would view me, I didn't want my parents to send me to a psych or anything because I felt fine, I didn't feel as if I needed to see a counselor or anything like that.

"I guess its cus I don't want people to talk shit, I'm used of having friends, and I don't want people to hate me" I said realizing that I was a popularity whore.

"You need to really think about who is your friend, my friends, real friends I mean accept me for who I am, they don't judge me and if you lose friends over this then Dylan, they were not your friends" He said as he planted a kiss on my right cheek. I turned my face so that our lips touched briefly sending shivers throughout my entire being.

"We can take it slow, we will do whatever you want to do okay?, we don't have to rush, plus I don't think it would be a good idea to rush into sex" He said making me lunge at him with full force. I hugged him very tightly and kissed him all over. I didn't like the whole rushing thing last night, it made me feel like a tool but surprisingly enough I felt courageous this morning and not to mention horny.

"Could you do that thing to me again?" I reluctantly asked cringing at my words as I said them, and not out of fear or disgust but pure unadulterated embarrassment.

"What thing? The blow job?" He asked me.

"Yeah...but no...the other?" I asked timidly.

He looked at me with a very surprised look, he probably couldn't believe his ears, he looked surprised but happy all at once. "Sure!" was all he said before being gently pushed back into my bed where he had me lay down on my back. He quickly undid my pants again along with my underwear. My 5 inch dick was already fully alert, he didn't rush into it this time like last night. He began by first kissing me gently on my lips, he parted them with his tongue as I allowed him to probe my mouth, our tongues touched and rubbed against each other. He tasted like waffles making the whole experience even more tasty. He decided my mouth had enough attention so he made his way down my neck kissing every inch, he then carefully pulled my shirt up but I decided to take it off, it was pointless having it on if it was getting in the way. He began to kiss my chest then made his way over to my right nipple kissing it and nibbling on it just enough to get a reaction from me. The feelings were intense, it was something new and exciting to me, it wasn't so scary as it was the night before. I was breathing hard and felt sweat build up on my forehead.

He then moved slowly down my belly, kissing gently as he went down, my dick was so hard it was hurting, I had never seen it as red and big as it was, I needed to cum really bad. I then heard a soft moan coming from somewhere, I didn't know where it was coming from until I realized that the moaning was coming from me. I tried to stifle them but they just kept coming out, I couldn't control the sounds I was making.

After kissing my tummy Raven moved down to my dick, the moment he touched it it jumped as if it was a fish out of water, he stroked it a bit using my precum as lubricant but he refused to stick it in his mouth. I was practically begging him with my eyes to suck me, I couldn't even speak, that's how good I was feeling. Instead of sucking my dick he began to kiss my balls, he took care to kiss each one a bunch of times before sticking one in his mouth, I pushed my hips upwards the moment I felt it go inside of his mouth. He gently sucked on it making me moan louder this time, I was worried that my parents might hear but I just couldn't control myself.

After sucking on my balls he spread my legs, my heart leapt because I knew what was coming. Just like I suspected he lifted my legs up in the air and had me bring my knees up to my chest giving him full access to my tight ass. I felt vulnerable once again but not afraid, I felt a bit embarrassed because no one had ever been this close to my butthole ever in my life, well besides when I was a baby getting changed. This time he didn't wait too long before diving in, he began to lick around my butthole sending jolts of amazing feelings throughout my entire body.

"Ohhh yeah..." I heard myself moan.

He took this as his cue to really go all out, he began to probe my butt with his tongue, inching his way deeper inside of me. It felt great, I tried to relax my hole for him but every time his tongue made contact with it I would instinctively clench it tight but then I would relax and open up for him. It was like a mini battle between my hole and his tongue, as he continue to probe and lick me my dick began to tingle as if I was getting ready to have an orgasm.

"I-I'm going to cum soon" I warned him.

He immediately stopped licking my butt and took my dick into his mouth making me arch my back and shove my 5 inch cock deep in his throat. He gagged but regained his composure almost immediately, he then stuck my entire cock in his throat. I couldn't believe my eyes, I saw my entire dick disappear in his mouth, I felt it as it hit the back of his throat, I felt the warm wetness as well as the tightness of his throat grip my dick sending me over the edge.

"Ohhhh fuck..." I moaned as I blasted my cum down his throat, this had been the fastest I had ever came before, it was insane, the orgasm was absolutely amazing and so strong I thought I was going to pass out. I bucked my hips wildly as he tried to suck on my dick some more. I saw my dick as he slowly let it out of his mouth, it was completely wet and clean. I was breathing heavily almost panting, my ass was tingling as if he was still licking it, it felt pretty cool.

I closed my eyes trying to regain conciousness, not that I had passed out I just simply couldn't process anything! My mind was gone, literally gone. Slowly I began to make sense of everything, I opened my eyes to see him laying down next to me staring at me with a gigantic grin on his face.

"Well?" He asked.

"A-Mazing!" I said as I reached over to him and gave him a hug.

"Cool, do you still feel bad about it though?" He asked me.

"Nah...no way, felt awesome" I reassured him making him relax.

"So...can I suck you?" I asked not sure why I was speaking those words, I guess I felt obligated to return the favor even though I so wasn't ready for it.

"Shit yeah!" He said and before I knew it he had all of his clothes of, must have been a record.

He laid on the bed as I reluctantly got between his legs.

"Alrighty...here we go" I said as I grabbed a hold of his dick. Now, I was amazed at how good it looked, I loved the feeling of it in my hand and it completely turned me on, I didn't mind touching it but putting it in my mouth that was a whole different issue.

He wiggled around as I began to stroke him, his dick was nice and long, I loved how my hand looked stroking him up and down, up and down. I then cupped his balls with my left hand as I jacked him off with my right. I was being careful not to hurt him especially not to squeeze on his balls to tight.

Then the moment of truth came, I decided to get it over with so I leaned in closer to his cock, the first thing I noticed was the smell, he had a unique smell that was not stinky at all, it smelled really good, like, a boy I guess, so yeah that I went over that hurdle, now I psyched myself out and dove it. I took his dick into my mouth without closing my lips around it, it was actually pretty comical because I had his dick in my mouth I just wasn't touching it. Slowly I began to close my mouth around it, hurdle number two was instantly demolished because the moment his dick touched my tongue and lips I was able to taste it and it really didn't taste like anything, just skin, clean skin which was awesome. It did feel kind of weird though, sucking dick wasn't at the top of my to-do list days before all of this but now that I was doing it I was becoming a "sword swallower, through and through" to quote one of my favorite shows (Game of Throne fuck yeah bishes, awesome show!). I was enjoying how hard his dick felt in my mouth, I sucked first on the head feeling the softness yet stiffness of it, it was smooth and I was able to taste a hint of saltiness that I would later learn was his precum. With my tongue I felt around underneath the head feeling the ridge, he writhed in pleasure as I trance his head with my tongue. Then I began to take more of his dick in my mouth, I went past the head and felt the remnants of a scar. He moaned softly as I went back up again running my tongue on the ridge of his head. I went back down trying to get more dick in my mouth but learned very quickly that my gag reflex works just great. I heard him giggle as I coughed on choked, I gave him a look but continued sucking on him.

I started to bob my head up and down on his dick faster finally finding a rhythm. He was able to respond by matching my motions, he bucked his hips in sync to my rhythm making it much easier for me. He was breathing hard and moaning softly, I felt his dick as it got harder, at the time I didn't know what it meant, I didn't know that he was getting ready to cum. He continued to buck his hips faster and faster as I tried to keep up, I was slurping and sucking the best I could but his movements were becoming erratic.

He then placed his hands on the back of my head and clawed at my hair, it made the whole experience feel even more sexy, more erotic. As I continued to suck on him he suddenly lifted his hips upwards and plunged his dick down my throat, I felt it as it opened it up making me gag momentarily, I pulled my head back relieving some pressure and allowing me to breathe again but that is when I noticed that his dick was going spastic, he let out a loud "fuuuuckkkkk" as he jerked upwards once more and that is when I got a heavy dose of "what the fuck". I felt as something was being shot down my throat causing me to freak out, I thought he was pissing in my mouth so I immediately pulled his dick out, my brain had not yet processed that I was tasting something sweet, all I saw was cum dribbling out of the tip of his dick that was still twitching. I wiped my mouth since some of it had escaped, I looked at my hand and saw the remnants of the same white substance and it hit me all at once, it was cum, I had swallowed cum and it made me freak out. I ran butt ass naked to my bathroom, dick was flopping everywhere but I didn't really care at that point. I went straight to the faucet, turned it on and began to vigorously gargle some water. I opened the medicine cabinet and found my bottle of Listerine; I gulped a healthy amount and rinsed out my mouth. I was relieved when I felt the awesome burning sensation of Listerine, it was killing all the tadpoles swimming around in my mouth, hooray!

I quickly made it back to my room and locked door, I gave Raven the meanest look I could muster up and crossed my arms across my chest.

"Why the fuck didn't you tell me you were going to cum?" I angrily asked.

"Huh?...Oh...dunno" He lazily replied, he was still obviously swimming from his orgasm.

"Dude...that sucked" I said now making my way back to the bed.

"Yeah you did" He grinned back.

"Shut up!" I said punching him on the arm.

He laid there not saying a word, he had a very happy look on him and truth be told I really liked seeing him this way, he was extremely gorgeous, that I was sure of. I was also sure about the feelings I had for him, I liked him in a way that I liked my girlfriends, I felt good inside when he was around, I was happy, he made me smile. I knew that I loved him because it was something that I felt deep within my heart, I knew that if we were ever separated I would be absolutely miserable. What I wasn't sure was why I had those feelings for him, like I said before I had thoughts about other guys before, I thought some of my friends were hot, some were even sexy to me. When I jacked off there were times that I thought about guy friends especially if I had seen them naked or whatever so yeah it was really confusing me. I guess he noticed that I was thinking about stuff because he smiled at me and broke the silence.

"Are you okay?" He asked me.

"Yeah just thinking" I replied.

"Bout?"

"Stuff, like, I don't know why I like you but I do and yeah that was fun, just, I don't know, I'm confused".

He sighed loudly and sat up on my bed "Look you don't have to figure it all out right now, just enjoy what we did, it was fun right?"

"Yeah"

"Okay then just let it go man, don't over think shit, it was something fun and if you don't want to do it again it's fine"

"No it's not that I don't want to do it again, I just don't know why I would want to".

"So you still want to be my boyfriend? After all of this?" He asked hesitating a bit.

"Well yeah I do, but the whole sex thing, it just I don't know Rave..." I trailed off not knowing what my issue really was.

I was absolutely torn, on one hand I loved what we had done but on the other I had always been told that a boy was supposed to be with a girl and play sports, crap like that, I wasn't doing that, I really liked sucking Raven except the part where I nearly drowned trying to swallow a gallon of his cum.

"I think I love you Dylan" He said breaking my trance like state.

"you think you love me?" I asked, I was a bit stupefied by his comment, in fact it kind of pissed me off.

"Yeah I think I do" He said.

"Wait so we just fucked and you THINK you love me?" I asked raising my voice.

"Technically we didn't fuck, we just sucked each other off  "

"Ugh, yeah and you ate my ass out but you think you love me? What the fuck man this shit is between people that care about each other and love each other, and now you tell me you that you THINK you love me? That is totally bogus bro" I angrily said.

He looked just as confused as I was, he didn't understand why I was angry with him but he just didn't understand that I held sex differently than he did, he was all into the action while I was and still am into the emotions behind it.

"Well I wanted to be sure" He whined, he looked like he was in distress which satisfied me, I wanted him to feel like I was feeling, I was hurt and felt used.

"Well fuck, I gotta go shower man" I said wanting to end the conversation.

He didn't say anything just sat there, I quickly gathered all of my stuff and rushed to the bathroom. I cried under the water, this was too much for me, I was hurt because I loved him, I really did, or at least it felt like love and I thought he loved me as much. Everything seemed weird to me, I didn't know how to feel, well, except for sad. I took a while in the shower wanting to really spend some alone time. When I finished I dried myself off and headed back to my room, I found it empty and was glad for that too. I didn't want to see Raven, not at that moment.

I put some boxers and shorts on and decided to take another nap, I slept for about an hour before I was woken up my friend Scotty. My parents usually let all of my friends in the house even if I'm asleep, I told them that it was fine so for Scotty to come in and wake me up was something I was used to. I was glad to see a friend of mine especially after the way I was feeling. He invited me to go along with other friends to In and Out burger, of course I was going to say hell yes. I got dressed and headed out, the weather was gorgeous and the sun felt great on my skin. My eyes felt heavy and tired, I was an emotional wreck but tried to hide it and I guess I was doing a good job because Scotty didn't even say anything to me about it and he was good at spotting something wrong with me. Before Raven I really didn't consider anyone as a "best friend" because I thought that all of my friends were as equally important and close to me so yeah I guess all my friends were best friends, BUT if I had to choose I think Scotty was much more closer to me than anyone else. Scotty was the topic of my jack off sessions many a nights, he was cute and just an awesome and caring dude.

Scotty was a tall midget, he was short enough to be a midget but tall enough to be considered a tall midget. He stood about 4'  8" and weighed about 80 pounds, the guy was tiny but his heart was really big, it was awesome. His hair was a light brown, almost a sandy blond and cut short, he had cute hazel eyes that sparkled just like Raven's. So yeah, Scotty was extremely cute and I had told him that several times, he just blushed and thanked me, I really did care for Scotty.

When we got to In and Out we were greeted by the rest of my friends, we were now a total of 7 noisy 12 year olds. We met up with Alexis who was a girl I went out with in the 4th grade, she was really awesome and really hot, Jessica was there also, she was a good friend of Scotty but her and I just didn't really hang out much outside of school, don't get me wrong she is awesome I just don't know, I haven't put much effort into hanging out with her outside of school. Then there were the twins who I loved to hang out with, they were these really good looking guys that were just as nice as Scotty. They both were blond, blue eyed, American boys. They were just a tad taller than I was, and I do mean a tad, I don't think it was even an inch. Oh and I had sneaked a peek at one of their cocks, I forget who it was plus you cant really tell them apart but I think it was Mike or who knows it could have been Gabe. Finally, my other friend Marlene was there, I really loved her, in fact I had felt her up not too long ago, she was a bit of a slut but who cares I love sluts, anyways, she was a really gorgeous 13 year old Latina chick. She had long straight black hair with green eyes, she had a very nice complexion and her dimples just drove me insane.

We tried going out one time but we were better friends and so we agreed it was best to stay as friends which I didn't mind, plus I was able to feel her up whenever I wanted, I fingered her, she jacked me off, so yeah it was a good tradeoff I guess. We ate those yummy burgers enjoying each other's company, it was actually a good thing Scotty had gotten me out of my house because I was able to forget all about Raven and all the shit I had gone through but with my luck he showed up just a few minutes after we began to eat. I saw him coming in with his brothers but he didn't see me, I tried to make myself as little as possible but again, my luck rules, Scotty called out to him.

I saw Raven look around to see who was calling him and when he saw our group he smiled and waved back. My heart began to race and I couldn't finish my burger, I was nervous about seeing him again and I was kind of embarrassed now that I was out in public knowing everything we had done. After they all placed their orders they came and sat on the table behind me. The girls of course were making comments about how hot they were blah blah blah. They all made small talk but I didn't say anything, I didn't even turn around to acknowledge Raven. After a few minutes I heard my phone chirp YES!!!!!!!! Saved by the bird, I thought to myself but nope, again, my luck sucks, I thought my mom was texting me telling me to come home but it wasn't her. As I opened up the text I noticed it was from Raven.

"Please talk to me" he texted.

"FINE!" I texted back with an angry emoji but I didn't turn around or anything.

"Please come sit with me" He texted me.

I sighed loudly and asked one of the twins, whoever was sitting next to me, to move. I scooted out of the booth and sat next to Raven. He smiled wearily at me but I didn't smile back, I just sat next to him and stole a fry, then two, then a handful. When I tried to go for another handful he slapped my hand so I turned towards him and bit him on the shoulder, not very hard but enough to let him know not to fuck with me.

"OWWWWWWWWW!" He yelled really loud.

Everyone turned to see what he had yelled for allowing me to reach for more fries.

"You fucking bit me!" he said making everyone bust out laughing.

"Yeah and?" I said shrugging my shoulders.

"And it hurt!" He said looking at me with sad puppy dog eyes trying to get me to feel sorry for him but it didn't work.

"Yeah that was the point" I said shrugging my shoulders again.

His brothers were loving it, they were pointing and laughing at him as he rubbed his shoulder. To be honest with you I wanted to laugh but I couldn't, I couldn't let him know that I was feeling better about the whole "love" thing.

After a while the laughs and jeers died down, Raven sat there looking hurt, objective met! YES! I didn't pay him any attention as I talked with everyone else. As I was hearing the twins tell everyone a story about how awesome they skate I felt a hand on my thigh rubbing me gently. At first it made me jump because I wasn't expecting it but then when I realized that it was Raven I relaxed. I looked over at him and smiled then I held his hand under the table and squeezed.

He pushed his shoulder into me making me smile once again, his hand felt great in mine, it was soft and warm but what I really enjoyed was simply holding it, it made me feel like I had someone I could be myself with, even though I was still trying to figure out who I was.

Raven then did something that froze me in my seat, he reached over and grabbed my dick, and since I was wearing basketball shorts he was able to feel me up entirely. I felt my face turn a bright red and knew that we would get caught, I tried to move his hand away from my crotch but he slapped my hand away every time I got close.

"You okay?" I heard Scotty ask from the other table, he had been watching us all along and I panicked, I knew for sure he had seen something.

"Yea-Yeah..." I stuttered "all good".

Raven was really enjoying this and fighting him under the table was becoming too noticeable so I just let him fondle me. If things couldn't get any worse, he decided that molesting me over my shorts wasn't enough so he crept his fingers inside my waistband and reached in my boxers to my now rigid cock. I gasped when I felt his hand inside.

"Ohhh fuuckkk" I moaned when he gave it a quick stroke.

"Dude you okay?" Scott asked this time getting up from his seat, everyone stopped talking amongst themselves and turned to me and Raven. I thought I was going to die, I knew for sure they were seeing what was going on under the table.

I couldn't speak so I just nodded and laid my head down on the table, I was trying to hide how embarrassed I was but that just made things worse. Oh and Raven was loving this, he gently and slowly kept stroking me, every so often he would cup my balls sending shivers all down my spine. I saw Scotty walking over to our table and this is when I began to fully panic, I looked at Raven and pleaded with my eyes to stop doing what he was doing.

"Serves you right for biting me" He whispered before letting go.

I let out a loud sigh of relief just as Scotty sat next to me, I couldn't believe how close that had been.

"Dude, you're acting weird, you sure you're okay?" Scotty asked me for a third time.

I elbowed Raven on the ribs causing him to jerk really hard and kick his brother who kicked him back, oh it was great to watch the domino effect! Before long we were all punching each other, it was awesome! I didn't intend on making a distraction but it just ended up happening that way which was great because it got Scotty off my trails. I made a mental note to get Raven back for what he did at all costs.

After we all calmed down we decided to hang out for a bit around town, we all took a stroll towards the skatepark. We knew plenty of people there and just like usual we saw some of our friends skateboarding. I enjoyed skating but never really got too heavily into it, my thing was surfing and with the awesome swells we get in SoCal it was a great hobby. I sat with the twins and with raven while the rest of our friends just sorta walked around. I watched as our friend Dustin attempted to K grind a rail, he tried several times until he landed the trick, everyone around him, including us cheered for him. Raven, the twins, and I spoke about random things, nothing too important, just small talk. I was becoming bored so I said my good-byes and headed home. I wasn't expecting Raven to follow me but he did, we walked and talked back to my place. When we got to my house I noticed that my parents were gone, I called out to them but they didn't answer. Raven and I decided to sit on the couch, I took my shoes off and laid on one end of the couch while Raven did the same at the other end.

"I'm sorry Dylan" Raven said confusing me for a bit.

"for?" I asked.

"You know earlier when I said that I thought I loved you, I just wanted to make sure before I said it" he replied.

"Oh" I said not knowing what else to say or even do, his words had stung me earlier, I had given myself over to him, I had shared something so intimate, so private and it just didn't sit well with me knowing that he didn't love me like I thought I did.

"Are you mad?" he asked, he sounded a bit scared at what my reaction was going to be but to be honest I wasn't angry anymore, but I had already decided that this was something I would have to figure out on my own, and I would have to figure it out without having sex.

"No I'm not mad Rave, I care about you like a friend, I kinda rushed too telling you that I loved you, don't get me wrong I do, I really do, but I don't know if it's as a friend or more, I don't want to do that stuff with you anymore, and I kinda don't want to be boyfriends" I said knowing that I was hurting him, I just thought that it was the best way to handle the situation, it was the best way to figure myself out.

"Wha-what? WHY?!" He whined almost in tears.

"Aww bro come on, don't do that, I love you but I just don't want you as a boyfriend and I don't want to do that stuff with you anymore". I said trying to control myself from crying, I felt a lump in my throat because I really didn't want to break up with him, I really did want to do that stuff with him but there was a lot that I wasn't ready for and to be honest the thought still sort of grossed me out, not because it was another guy it just, I don't know, just seemed nasty and I needed to find out if I would feel the same way with a girl.

"But why? I love you I told you that I did and I want to be together" he said as tears were now clearly streaming down his face.

My heart broke but I had already made my mind up that this was the best thing, I wanted this to be my final decision and so I fought back my tears and just smiled at him soothingly.

"We are together dummy, see" I said extending my arms out "We ARE together".

"You know what I mean" He said sniffling.

"Yeah...but I still think it's better for us just to be friends okay?" I said as I scooted over to him and gave him a hug.

He immediately began to sob more intensely completely breaking my heart, he tried to say something but was too choked up to properly speak. I squeezed him tightly letting him know that it wasn't the end of our friendship. After a few minutes I lifted his head off my shoulder and grabbed his head with my hands and placed my forehead on his, I looked him straight and his eyes and gave him a peck on the lips.

"Listen to me and remember this okay? I want us to be best buds, you are the first and only best bud that I want, you mean so much and I want to be really close okay?" I said trying to sooth him.

He smiled weakly at me, sniffled and nodded his head yes. I gave him another peck but this time I left my lips on his a lot longer. My whole body felt warm, it tingled, I loved feeling his lips on mine. I parted his lips with my tongue and probed his mouth, I found my prize and began to caress his tongue with mine. He pulled back a little, looked at me in my eyes and went back to kissing me, he sucked on my bottom lip then bit it gently making me moan in delight. I then sucked on his tongue as he then returned the favor sucking mine. We kissed and held each other for a long time, it was loving, it was gentle, it was exactly like how I enjoyed it.

I wanted to touch him, I wanted to feel his skin on me so I broke our embrace and took his shirt off, ugh he had perfect milky white skin, I loved how smooth it felt. I ran my hand all over his chest stopping to pay extra attention to his nipples, he closed his eyes in pleasure letting me know he was enjoying what I was doing. I stood up and motioned for him to do the same, I then removed my shirt tossing it to one side. I had an obvious bulge in my pants that was begging to ache pretty bad, I knew that it was a bad idea to do what I was doing but I wanted it to be the last time, I wanted our breakup to be memorable, loving, and not sad and depressing.

I slowly undid my pants and let them drop down to my ankles, I winked at him as I turned around, bent over, and removed my pants from my feet. I then turned around and hooked my thumbs on waist band of my boxers. He gasped as I pulled the waist band down to reveal the base of my penis, I had to pull my rigid cock down so that it wouldn't pop out. I then pulled my boxers back up noticing the disappointed look on Raven's face. I then reached out to Raven's pants and undid them, I let them drop down to his feet just like I had done to mine. I leaned in and began to passionately kiss him as I rubbed my hands all over his back, I slowly caressed his entire back and slowly making my way down to his perfectly round ass. I reached inside of his undies and cupped his beautifully soft and plump cheeks, they felt even softer than the rest of his skin giving me goose bumps, I wondered what it would feel like to have my cock buried deep inside those magnificent globes. I felt the front of my boxers begin to soak in my precum, Raven was so hot, so sexy, I desired him, I wanted him, I loved him, oh how I felt his eyes pull me in.

"lets go to my room" I said, my voice sounded raspy and full of lust.

I watched as he stepped out of his pants and left them unceremoniously laying where we had been standing. I took his hand in mine and lead him to my room, I didn't want to let him go, at that moment I had forgotten about my confusion, I was giving in to my heart, to my desires, to my nature.

We walked through the doorway hand in hand, holding each other close and not wanting to let go. I closed the door behind us and locked it, I didn't want to waste time. I reached for his undies and pulled them down quickly, his dick popped out of it's confines and slapped him on his tummy making us giggle. I immediately got on my knees and took his rigid long cock into my mouth, I felt the heat that was radiating from his balls, the smell was intoxicating, it smelled like my boyfriend, it smelled like my love, it smelled amazing.

"Mmmm" Raven moaned as I sucked his head.

"You like this?" I croaked after pulling his dick out of my mouth.

"Yeah...Keep going" he breathed.

I stood up and lead him over to my bed where I had him lay on his back, his legs were draping over the edge of my bed, I kneeled in front of him, spread his legs apart further and began licking his balls. I tasted a hint of saltiness and was able to really smell how delicious he was. I took one carefully into my mouth and with my tongue I tried to massage it.

"Fuck yeahhhh!" He moaned as he placed a hand on the back of my head.

I then pulled it out of my mouth and went back to sucking on his dick. I first started on his pee slit, I ran my tongue all around, his precum tasted salty as well but it didn't bother me, I stuck my tongue into his pee slit trying to get more of it out. I then took the entire dick in my mouth, I used my tongue to trace underneath the head making him squirm.

I sucked harder and began my decent down his cock, I went further down then I did the night before, I was enjoying how hard his cock felt in my mouth, I enjoyed how smooth his head felt on my tongue and roof of my mouth. I then came back up almost letting his dick slip out of my mouth, I saw how wet I had gotten his dick with my spit making me desire him even more. I began to find a perfect rhythm, I bobbed my head up and down his cock as I wiggled my tongue around. At times I would hear him grunt letting me know that he was enjoying what I was doing.

"I really like this" I croaked when I took his dick out of my mouth.

"Me too" he moaned.

He was looking at me with such loving eyes, he looked absolutely adorable as if he was begging me to continue, something inside of me pushed aside every fear, every confused thought, I let go of everything and allowed my instincts to take over. I reached for his legs, remembering how wonderful it felt to have him eat my butt out, I wanted him to feel that, I wanted him to squirm like I did. As I spread his legs and lifted them in the air I pushed his knees into his knees giving me full access to his butthole. I didn't know what I was so afraid of, it looked clean, it was inviting me in, I wanted it more than anything. It was pink, and tightly shut.

Before he protested I kneeled in front of him and immediately went after my prize, I stuck my tongue out and prodded his hole, I was expecting it to be nasty, to gross me out but I tasted something I was not expecting. It tasted salty as if he had been sweating and it had a slight bitter taste but not so much that it was offensive, I didn't mind it at all.

"Oh woooowww what theee fuuuck Dylan?" He gasped the moment he felt my tongue probe his ass.

I stopped for a moment, looked at him and smiled "I love you" I said as I went back to eating his ass. This time I traced my tongue around the ring, I liked how the muscle felt on my tongue and before long it tasted like nothing, the saltiness and bitterness were gone. I began to lick him all around occasionally prodding inside his hole with my tongue, he tasted just as great on the inside than he did around his ring. I was enjoying how great it felt, he wiggled around almost not being able to take the feelings I was providing him. After a while I felt my dick begin to hurt, I had been enjoying eating him out so much that I had forgotten that I needed to get off and so did he. I felt brave, I felt adventurous so I decided today would be the day to do it, to lose my virginity, this would be it. I stood up in front of him and held his legs behind his thighs, with my right hand I grabbed a hold of my dick to keep it steady and lined it up on his hole. He looked confused at first, he didn't know what I had planned. The moment he felt the tip of my dick being lined up with his hole he recoiled but I held him down in place as best as I could and continued to press forward.

"Owww!" He moaned, "Stop Stop Please".

I was too caught up in my own lust to listen, I continued to press forward and saw the tip of my cock enter him, I felt a lightning bolt shot up from my dick all throughout my entire body. It felt tight, warm, and just amazing.

"Stop please stop!" he continued to beg snapping me out of my trance.

"crap sorry Rave" I said realizing that I had been hurting him "got carried away"

He put his legs down and sat up immediately "Fuck that hurt!" he said.

"Im sorry!" I cried out hugging him, I did not want to hurt him at all, I did not want to make him feel bad, or give him a bad experience, I felt horrible for doing something he wasn't comfortable with, I would've been furious if I had been in his place.

"It's okay, calm down" He said trying to soothe me. "You were rushing and there's stuff we gotta do before you rush into that".

"huh?" I said breaking our embrace.

"Before we do that you gotta use some lube so it can slide in better, that's why it was hurting" He said making me feel much better about the whole thing.

"So you're okay?" I asked still worried that I had hurt him.

"Yeah we can keep going just gotta find something to lube your thingy up with" he said smiling.

"Like what?" I asked.

"Umm stuff like Vaseline, KY Jelly, umm lotion will do, or like sex lube" He said.

I immediately remembered that not so long ago I was snooping around my parents room while they were gone and I found some interesting things in their drawer, and one of them was this white bottle that said it could be used during "intercourse". So I rushed out of my room still naked with my dick flopping everywhere. I ran downstairs as quickly as I could and went inside my parents bedroom hoping that they still had some of that stuff left (yuck). I crept inside halfway expecting to see someone in there but thankfully no one was home. I then made it to their nightstand, reached inside the drawer and felt around. Way in the back of the drawer I felt a familiar bottle, I pulled it out, it didn't look like the other one, this one was blue whereas the other one was white. I read the label and it said personal massaging gel. In the back there were many different things a person can use the gel for, the very last thing was sexual intercourse, JACKPOT! I thought to myself. I grabbed it, ran upstairs as quick as my feet took me. My dick had deflated as I ran downstairs but the thought of me losing my virginity here in a few minutes shot it back up.

"Did you get it?" Rave asked excitedly the moment I walked through the door.

"Yep!" I said tossing it at him.

I saw him read as I locked the door behind me, he looked back up at me and grinned from ear to ear.

"Okay let's do this, but be slow and careful okay? I've never done it before" He said shocking the hell out of me.

"Wait what? You haven't? I thought you had a boyfriend?" I asked incredulously.

"I did but I only did it to him, we were getting ready to when we moved" He said sounding a bit sad "But I'm glad we didn't do it, I'm glad it's going to be you"

"Aww!" I said melting like butter on a warm summer's day.

"Okay so put this on it" He said tossing the bottle back at me.

I opened it and squirted a nice amount all over my dick, it was a bit cool making me cringe. I lubed up my 5 ½ inch boy cock and walked to where Raven was laying at. This time he had laid completely on my bed without his feet draping over the edge. As I got closer he spread his legs apart and lifted his knees to his chest, I saw my pink prize waiting on me causing me to shiver in delight.

"Man I cant believe we're doing this" I said, I then realized that what we were going to do was something even more special than everything else we had done, I knew that I loved him, I knew that I wanted to be with him. "wait before we do it I gotta ask you something" I said.

"okay?" he replied.

"Of course!" He said with tears welling in his eyes also.

I immediately laid on top of him and began to kiss him, it felt amazing having him under me, his body felt warm and cuddly, it was something I will always cherish. I then felt his hand reach down to my dick as he spread his legs further, my heart jumped the moment I felt his hands reach my cock. I knew what would soon occur and I began to shake with anticipation. I felt him line my cock over his entrance sending shivers throughout my body.

"Okay push in slowly" He whispered.

I slowly began to push, I felt resistance as his hole was not allowing me in, I pressed harder and slowly felt as his ass began to open up to accept my dick.

"Oh fuck that's nuts!" I said as I felt his ring around the tip of my head.

I continued to push my hips towards his ass and felt as his ass opened up even further.

"Oww! Fuck hold on!" He moaned.

I stopped immediately not wanting to hurt my boyfriend, I wanted this to be pleasurable not hurtful.

After about a minute he told me to try again. I began to push harder and heard him grunt in pain again so I stopped immediately. I placed my forearms on either side of him and leaned in closer, our tummies, and chests were now touching, I felt the sweat begin to build between us making the whole experience that much more sexy. I pushed again and felt my entire head literally pop in, I kinda freaked because I was expecting more resistance but there was none, I saw him wince in pain again but when I stopped he was able to relax and catch his breath. After I saw that he was no longer in pain I pushed again, I felt his ass tighten around the middle of my dick, his began to claw at my back so I continued to push.

"Oh, oh, fuck that hurts" I heard him grunt as I continued to stick myself deeper into him.

Before we both knew it I felt my thighs hit the back of his ass, I got off from laying on top of him, sorta sat on my feet and saw how deep I had my cock buried in his ass. All I saw was his now red hole stretch to its maximum and the base of my cock, I pulled out a little wanting to see some of my cock and saw traces of blood on it.

"You're bleeding" I said a bit scared that I was hurting him.

"Yeah tends to happen when you pop a cherry" He giggled "I'm okay though you can start"

I continued to look down at my cock and pulled more of it out, I saw as I pulled half of my head out, it looked almost purple and the biggest I had ever seen. I then plunged myself again all the way to the base causing Raven to moan loud. I then pulled back out and pushed back in, this time much faster than before. I continued with a steady in and out motion, his ass felt extremely tight around my cock, I was going faster and faster and felt as my body began to feel the tingles all over.

I didn't want to cum just yet, I had always wanted to try doggy style but had never had the opportunity until now, the thought came to me so I pulled out completely making a loud slurping sound. "let's try doggy" I said grinning at him.

He didn't need to be told twice, immediately he got up from the bed, got to the edge of the bed, got on his hands and knees and leaned down placing his head on the mattress. I got up and stood behind him, his plump ass was inviting me back in and I didn't want to wait much longer. I spread his cheeks apart to reveal his red hole, I took a hold of my cock, lined it up to the entrance and began to slide in. He moaned in pain but the resistance wasn't as bad as the first time even though he still complained it hurt quite a bit. I slowed down allowing his ass to get used of my dick again.

Once I saw that he was used of his ass being stretched I began to thrust my hips into him, at first it was a bit awkward because I had no experience but then my instincts took over, I began to move in and out of his ass like a pro. My hips were slapping against his cheeks loudly, his ass was making slurping sounds as I fucked him harder and harder.

"Oh yeahhhh, like that, yeahhh just like that" He was moaning as I kept plunging my cock inside of him.

I then accidently pulled my cock all the way out and was surprised by what I saw, I saw the gaping hole I had caused in his ass, it was glistening with my precum and the lube, it was very red and I saw some blood on it as well. I loved knowing that I had caused that, I loved knowing that he was mine.

"You...You're mine...all...mine" I said, my voice sounded other worldly, it was raspy and full of lust.

"Yeahhh I am" He moaned.

I plunged my dick back in his ass making a squishy sound, I started to fuck him hard, his butt cheeks were slapping loudly against my hips, I looked down at my cock as I would pull almost all the way out and back in down to the base, I felt as his tight hole would relax and contract as if it was having a spasm of pleasure. My balls were swinging madly as I fucked Raven with everything I had. I then started to feel a nice tingly sensation that radiated from the pit of my stomach all throughout my body, I knew I was close to my orgasm. I pulled out of Raven again, quickly moved him so that he was again on his back, I then lifted his legs up in the air and rested them on my shoulders.

"I want to see you when I cum" I breathed.

I then reached down to my cock, lined it up over his hole and pushed in, I fucked him harder and faster than before, our bodies were glistening with sweat, the nice sweet aroma of sex and lust had filled my room, our moans and grunts bounced off the walls. I felt the intense feeling of my orgasm again as I leaned down to kiss my boyfriend, my raven. This was too much, I lost complete control of my body the moment we began to kiss, I was tingly all over as if I had just been struck by lighting, it built to an intense tingling that radiated out of my body and into him.

"Mmmm I-I'm cumming" He moaned as I went over the edge myself, I felt his hole clench and squeeze my dick, it felt amazing as I pushed in and out filling him with my warm cum. I tried to move my dick in and out of his ass some more but it was too much, I couldn't move, and then a funny thing happened, I started to laugh, I laughed hysterically, I guess my body was in some sort of dilemma and didn't know how else to cope.

"What?" Raven asked as I just continued to giggle like a mad scientist.

"No-nothing...nothing...its...just...ahhh fuck too sensitive" I said between laughs.

After a few minutes my giggle attack subsided and I was able to catch my breath, it had been the most intense and weird orgasm I had ever had, and that's saying a lot considering how much I jacked off before. My dick had been reduced to a little acorn, it was nothing but a head but had remained plunged deep in my boyfriend's ass.

As I struggled to get off of Raven I noticed how his ass was still clenching my dick tightly, it stretched as I pulled on it making me want to giggle some more, I stopped for a second to regain my composure and continued to pull my dick out. It finally slid out with a healthy slurping sound making the both of us chuckle.

"Dang your ass was hungry" I said.

"Yeah guess so" Raven giggled.

I remained kneeling in front of Raven just admiring the beautiful boy I had just made love to, his ass was an angry red, his cock was wet from his own cum and our sweat all mixed into one hot gooey mess. I saw as little by little his ass began to expel my cum.

"Dude that's hella cum!" I said astonished at how much I had pumped inside of him.

He blushed a bit but said nothing, he got up from the bed and put his undies back on. I watched him intently following his every move, his ass was delicious, it was nice, pale and round, he had two nice sized butt cheeks that I would have plenty of fun with.

We both took turns in the shower cleaning ourselves up, I did not want to get caught by my parents in a compromising position literally and figuratively. There were so many things I had to work out in my head, especially the whole gay thing but for now I was content knowing that the love I had for Raven was real, it was intense and it was something that made me happy.

Chapter 3 Coming Soon!