Date: Sun, 25 Apr 1999 21:20:20 -0600
From: peregrin <peregrin@micron.net>
Subject: Chance Awakening

Chance Awakening

     Jeff stood in the doorway of the bathroom, still naked.  Ryan had
always felt some attraction to his friend but had never given it much
thought before.  After all, they had been friends practically forever and
even though Ryan had pretty much come to terms with his homosexuality he
had spent most of his masturbation sessions thinking about other boys that
they knew.  It was probably because he considered his best friend as much
of a brother as his real brother.  Jeff was like a twin that had gotten the
exact opposite end of the genetic pool.  Ryan continued to stare at his
almost-brother.  He noticed for the first time how perfect his face was.
He noticed how intense and beautiful Jeff's green eyes were.  He noticed
the boy's slender but slightly defined body and decided that it was
perfect.  He also noticed Jeff's half-hard penis.  It looked about five
inches long in its current state and looked wonderful below his sparse but
fluffy patch of strawberry blond pubic hair.  Even his balls were perfect,
smooth and in beautiful proportion to the 14 year-old's dick.

     Ryan realized that Jeff seemed to be evaluating his naked body and he
seemed to be as interested in Ryan as Ryan was in Jeff.  The two boys had
known each other since the third grade and had become instant friends when
they had met.  They had seen each other naked dozens of times over the
years but always briefly and until last night they had never seen each
other's erections.
  
     Jeff was spending the week at Ryan's house while his parent was out of
town and last night, the first night of his stay, he had woken up just
before one a.m. with a hard-on that wouldn't quit.  He had waited a few
minutes listening to Ryan's breathing to make sure his friend was asleep.
He had known that he would never get back to sleep without jerking off and
was sure that Ryan wouldn't approve.  They had shared almost everything for
years but the subject of sex and adolescence had never come up between the
two of them.  Actually Jeff had never really had the subject come up in
discussion with anyone.  His mother and father had divorced years ago and
he hadn't heard from his male parent since he was about three.  He loved
his mother fiercely but she had never been comfortable with discussing
sexuality.  He wasn't sure if she had even accepted the fact that her only
child had even reached puberty.  It was not hard for her, he believed, to
think that he was still a little boy since he was only five-foot-two and
still looked like a little kid.

     Eventually Jeff had decided that Ryan was fast asleep and he slipped
out of his shirt, shorts, and blanket.  Lying there naked he had just
started to play with himself when he realized that he was being watched.
He looked up at Ryan and saw that his friend was staring, wide- awake,
right at his naked body.  He didn't know what to say.  His mouth hung open
and no words came out.  He also couldn't move.  He just laid there holding
his dick.  Then the most amazing thing happened.  Ryan didn't yell at him.
He didn't say a single word, in fact, he simply sat up and pulled his shirt
off.  Jeff didn't think this could really be happening!  Ryan then pushed
his blanket and shorts off, revealing a perfect six-inch hard-on!  Ryan
laid back against his pillows and with his eyes glued to Jeff's he started
masturbating!  Jeff realized that Ryan was not only okay with Jeff's
masturbation but that he wanted to do it too.  Jeff and Ryan had
masturbated with out saying anything to each other.  Jeff kept his eyes on
his friend and Ryan also watched what Jeff was doing.  Jeff felt like they
were finally sharing one of the last things in the world which they had
kept private.

     The boys had grunted their way to ejaculation.  Neither one of them
held back the sounds that the manual sex brought them.  They didn't need to
anymore.  They came at almost the same moment.  The sight of semen shooting
from the dick of Jeff's best friend made his orgasm more powerful than any
he had ever felt.  When it was over they cleaned themselves with their
shirts and snuggled back into their blankets without bothering to put their
shorts back on.  Just before he fell asleep Jeff said "thanks" to his
friend, hoping that the other boy was still awake to hear it and would
understand why he had said it.

     Ryan realized how much he needed to use the bathroom so he shook
himself out of his wonder at the sight of his beautiful friend and stood
up.  He knew that his penis was standing straight out from his body.
Before the events of last night he would have been embarrassed to have
another boy see his erection.  Now it didn't matter.  He and Jeff had
masturbated together and in Ryan's mind that made a minor thing such as a
morning erection a bit more trivial.  Still without saying anything Jeff
moved aside to allow Ryan access to the bathroom.  Ryan had to stand above
the toilet for a minute or so until his hard-on went down enough to pee.
When he was finished he went back into his bedroom and found Jeff still
naked and lounging on his bed.

     "You okay about last night?" asked Jeff.

     "I enjoyed it.  Are you okay with it?"

     "Very much so.  I was terrified when I realized you were awake and
watching me," Jeff admitted.  "We've never talked about this stuff so I
thought you would be mad that I was doing it."

     Ryan chuckled and said, "Not at all!  We both guys and you're my best
friend in the world.  I think we should be as open about this stuff as we
are about everything else.  Like that time you heard your mom talking to
your aunt on the phone and crying about being lonely and that you were the
only good thing in her life and you were so upset about that.  You came to
me to talk about that.  We should be able to talk about anything."  Ryan
didn't know where all the words came from but he knew that this was right
and that he cared as much about Jeff as he did about his family.  Jeff was
family, if not by blood then by circumstance.

     "Thanks Ryan.  You don't know how much that means to me."  Jeff got up
and hugged his friend.  Ryan returned the embrace and thought for a moment
about what people would say if they saw the two of them naked and hugging.
He didn't care.  Their moment was cut short by the shrill shout of Ryan's
mother telling them to get up and come down for breakfast.  The boys smiled
at each other and pulled on their shorts and then found clean shirts to
pull over their heads.  Breakfast at Ryan's always meant his mother's
famous pancakes or french toast when Jeff was over.  Once clothed they ran
down the stairs and ate like only fourteen-year-old boys can.

     The day went slowly, as most summer days do.  They played video games
and watched TV for the rest of the morning and then Ryan's mother told them
that if they wanted to go to the movies they had better get clean.  She was
notorious for not putting up with dirty boys in her car.  They ran upstairs
and went straight into the bathroom.

     The shower in Ryan's bathroom was a small, stand-up job with a glass
door.  Ryan motioned for Jeff to go first.  Jeff dropped his clothes on the
floor and got into the shower.  Ryan also stripped and then sat on the
sink.  They chatted as Jeff scrubbed himself.  Ryan realized that he was
getting hard watching his friend through the clear glass.  He tried not to
think about how much he wanted to squeeze into the tiny space with his
friend and take care of washing his young body for him.  It didn't work.
When Jeff was done in the shower he noticed that Ryan was hard and before
he could get the door open he was too.

     Ryan handed his friend a towel as he slipped past him to get into the
shower.  For just a moment they stood face to face in the cramped space and
Ryan's dick pressed into the smaller boy's stomach while Jeff's poked him
in the leg.  Ryan almost creamed on the spot.  Jeff didn't say anything, he
just smile and took the towel.  Ryan washed quickly and noted that Jeff had
made no move to leave the bathroom and get dressed.  Ryan wondered for a
moment if there was something going on here other than newfound openness.
He hoped so but he pushed the thought down and finished washing.  Jeff
handed him a fresh towel as he got out of the shower and they chatted about
little things while he dried himself.  When he was finished and had hung up
the towel Jeff gathered their clothing off of the floor and led the way
back into Ryan's bedroom.

     Jeff dropped their shorts into the ever-present pile of dirty clothes
in the corner of Ryan's room and handed Ryan his shirt.  They dressed
quickly and then ran downstairs.  Ryan's little brother, Nathan, was
pulling on his shoes and his mother was standing by the door, ready to go,
with a look of mock frustration on her face.  Jeff smiled.  She always did
this, it was like a game to her.  Nathan smiled and mumbled a greeting to
them.  Jeff liked Ryan's ten-year-old brother and rather thought of the boy
as his own little brother.  Unlike most siblings Ryan and Nate got along
very well and was usually a welcome addition to their outings.  Today was
no exception.  They were going to see The Matrix and had heard many great
things about the movie.  Ryan's mom was even excited about seeing it and
she usually hated science fiction.

     The drive to the theatre was exciting, as usual.  Ryan's mother had
never been willing to become a soccer mom and had refused to give in to the
SUV and mini-van trend.  She had just bought a brand-new Honda Prelude and
she knew how to drive it.  Once she was sure that the boys were buckled in,
Ryan up front and the other two in back, she treated them to a display of
her highly skillful and aggressive driving style.  All three of the boys
loved it.  The back seats were not very roomy and Jeff found himself thrown
against Nate several times.  He didn't mind but found himself wishing that
Ryan were back here with him.  Ryan's mom wouldn't let Nate or Jeff ride in
the front seat due to their small statures.  She was very aware of air-bag
safety and at five-foot-six Ryan was the only one of the three that fell in
the "safe-zone" for the device.  Ryan's adrenaline was pumping from the
drive when they finally arrived at the movie theatre.  He loved his mom's
driving.  He got out of the car on unsteady legs and pulled the seat back
to help Nate and Jeff out of the cramped confines of the black car.  They
were smiling wide from the ride as well.  The four of them chatted about
the weather and what they expected out of the movie as they walked up to
the ticket booth.  His mom bought the tickets and then handed Ryan and Jeff
theirs and some money to go buy popcorn and drinks for all of them.  His
mom and brother disappeared into the theatre to find seats and they stood
in line at the concession stand.  The lines were long and that staff slow
so by the time they made it into the theatre and found their seats the
preview for the new Star Wars flick was already starting.  It looked really
cool.

     Ryan was seated between his mother and Jeff who had the aisle seat.
The movie began and the popcorn eating commenced.  Jeff and Ryan had a
bucket to themselves and about halfway through the amazing spectacle that
the show turned out to be Ryan realized that he and his friend were
practically cuddled together.  There was no space between them at all and
if they had any more body contact one of them would have to be on the
other's lap.  They didn't usually sit together like this and he looked over
at his mother to see if she had noticed.  Her eyes were glued to the screen
and she probably wouldn't have noticed if the boys had been replaced with
dancing pink elephants.  Ryan also realized how good it felt to be so close
to his friend so he made no attempt to separate himself from Jeff.

     About the time that Neo was dodging the Agent's bullets on the roof
the boys' supply of popcorn ran out and Jeff leaned down and put it on the
floor.  Ryan expected him to return to a normal seating position when he
was done but Jeff set himself back in the same, nearly snuggled, position.
He also put his hand down on his leg right next to Ryan's.  Their legs were
pressed together and now the sides of their hands were together, too.
After a few minutes Ryan reached out a finger and lightly ran it along
Jeff's pinkie finger.  It felt SO nice to actively touch his friend like
this.  Ryan thought he might have gone to far and then a moment later Jeff
mimicked his action.  As Jeff's finger finished its movement Ryan decided
to be daring and moved his hand over to partially cover his friend's.  Jeff
looked over at him and their eyes met.  Ryan was terrified until he saw
Jeff smile very warmly at him and then he felt his friend's fingers move
outward and around Ryan's.  They were holding hands.  Such a simple thing
and yet it caused a feeling deep inside Ryan that he could only identify as
ecstasy.  Pure happiness and, at that moment and not before, pure love for
his best friend.  He was in love with Jeff.  The movie ended and the four
of them sat in shock, staring at the credits.  The movie had been that
good.  As the lights came up Jeff and Ryan quickly separated their hands.
Jeff hoped that no one had seen them holding hands but he realized that he
didn't care if they had.  Jeff had spent many nights masturbating without
fantasy.  He had never been sure if he was attracted to girls or boys or
both.  His world had been devoid of any recognition of his sexuality.  That
part of his being had been ignored by his mother and by his peers due to
his young boy looks and his somewhat solitary nature.  He no longer had any
doubt in his mind as to what he wanted.  All of the cute boys that he had
seen and unconsciously wanted flooded through his memory.  He was gay.  As
the credits rolled he came out to himself and allowed the realization of
his needs and desires to settle into his mind.  He instantly knew one other
thing: he was madly in love with his best friend. Ryan who was more than a
friend, Ryan who was his almost-brother, Ryan was his first love.

     Jeff and Ryan spent the rest of the day almost shell-shocked.  They
talked about the movie with Ryan's mother and brother over lunch at Pizza
Hut but they did it without any real conscious thought.  Ryan thought that
his mother noticed that something was up.  She gave both of them some
rather strange looks but didn't say anything.  The four of them went
clothing shopping after lunch and picked out new swimsuits.  Ryan's dad had
decided that the family needed a swimming pool and it was scheduled to be
filled for the first time the next day.  Ryan was disappointed that his dad
wasn't going to be around for the grand opening party but he was in Taiwan
brokering some business deal or something.  The four of them would have to
have a party without him.  It was getting late by the time they finally
headed home due to the loss of Ryan's mom to the horrors of the women's
clothing stores in the mall.

     When they got home the three boys camped out on the couch in front of
the TV and watched inane shows for the rest of the night.  Dinner was
cheeseburgers and chips in front of the TV and Ryan's mom disappeared into
her office to continue working on her novel.  She emerged around ten
p.m. and ordered the boys to go to bed.  Nate whined for a few minutes but
got no sympathy.  This was a routine around this house and Ryan thought
that Nate seemed rather unhappy about the lack of support from the older
boys.  The thought that they actually wanted to go to bed probably never
crossed his mind.  Ryan watched Nate sulk his way up the stairs while he
and Jeff did their usual duty of picking up all the soda cans and other
mess from the family room.  His mom stood and supervised their work, as
usual, and then headed back into her office once they were finished and on
their way to Ryan's bedroom.

     Jeff closed the door behind him as he followed Ryan into the bedroom.
He was nervous.  Things had changed today.  He stood facing Ryan.  Neither
of them spoke or moved for several minutes until Ryan pulled up his shirt
and started undressing.  Jeff followed suit and for the first time they
didn't stop until they were completely naked.  They looked at each other
for a moment.  Jeff was struck by how beautiful his friend was.  He was
rather lean and a little tanned all over except for where his shorts
usually were.  He was amazed that he had never noticed that his friend must
lie out occasionally since his whole torso was tan instead of just his
arms.  He watched his friend's penis harden and noticed the few hairs on
his scrotum and he noticed how perfect Ryan's bush of pubic hair looked.
He had more hair there than Jeff did.  He wasn't sure who moved first but
they were suddenly hugging.  It was a simple embrace, their arms wrapped
around each other's backs and their heads held together.  They held each
other for a bit and then broke apart.  They stared into each other's eyes
and smiled.  They walked hand in hand to bathroom and reluctantly let go
when they went to brush their teeth.

     Ryan finished a bit quicker than Jeff and went back into the bedroom.
He stared for a moment at the pillow and blankets on the floor next to his
bed.  Jeff was just coming out of the bathroom when Ryan picked up his
pillow and placed it next to his on his twin bed.  Ryan turned and looked
at Jeff standing naked in the doorway just as he had earlier.  He smiled at
his love and slipped under the blanket on the bed.  This was the moment of
truth, he realized.  If he had misjudged anything that had happened today
then this is when Jeff will make that known.  Despite Jeff's size there was
no way two fourteen-year-old boys could really sleep in the small bed
together platonically.  Especially naked.  Thankfully Jeff didn't grab the
pillow and put it back on the floor or ask what they hell Ryan was thinking
or any of the thousand other negative reactions that played themselves out
in Ryan's head in that moment.  Jeff smiled again and got into bed.  Ryan
switched the lamp next to the bed off and then turned to Jeff.  They were
already touching each other, it was impossible not to in this bed.  Ryan
felt Jeff's legs twine themselves with his and they embraced each other
again.

     Barely trusting his voice, Ryan softly said, "I love you Jeff."

     Just as softly Jeff replied, "I love you too, Ryan."  Jeff kissed
Ryan on the neck and hugged him even harder.

     "I'm gay, Jeff."  Despite the current situation it was still very hard
to say it.

     "I am too.  I think I've always loved you but I just realized it today
at the movies while we were holding hands."

     Ryan moved so that they were face to face.  He stared deep into Jeff's
eyes and felt the love in them.  Moving very slowly, Ryan placed his lips
on Jeff's.  Their first kiss lasted, or at least it seemed to, for hours.
They didn't move much.  They held each other in a fierce embrace and tasted
each other's lips.  They explored with their tongues and ran their hands
over their backs and through their hair.  Their kissing slowed and became
more playful.  They moved apart when Ryan moved his hands from Jeff's back
to Jeff's chest.  He ran his fingers across his lover's tight, slender
chest.  Jeff shivered when Ryan's fingertips touched his nipples.  He just
about came when Ryan's hand wrapped itself around his five inches of hard
penis.  Ryan kissed him lightly on the lips one more time before taking his
kisses elsewhere.  Ryan kissed his chin and then each nipple.  He stopped
kissing then and began earnest licking.  He licked and sucked on Jeff's
nipples and Jeff moaned with delight.  Who would have known that Jeff had
such sensitive nipples?

     Ryan's hand was still wrapped around his friend's dick when Jeff
started lightly humping into it as Ryan sucked on his nipples.  Ryan
decided to leave them at that moment because he didn't want Jeff to cum
yet.  Ryan licked his way down the rest of Jeff's chest until he met the
top of the small bush of hair.  He took his hand off of Jeff's dick and ran
his fingers through the cute pubic hair.  He realized that it was softer
than his own was.  He stared at Jeff's dick for a moment.  He noted the
slender shaft that would on most boys seem too thin but on Jeff it seemed
to be in perfect harmony with the rest of his body.  He noticed the
glistening precum that was slowly dripping out of his friend's dick.  Then
he could wait no longer.  He reached out his tongue and licked the liquid
off Jeff's penis.  Jeff let out a rather loud moan and Ryan immediately
realized that the stuff actually tasted kinda good.  Ryan leaned forward
and took the head between his lips.  Jeff squirmed a bit and moaned again.
Ryan rolled his tongue over the tip of this wonderful penis and then slid
downward.  He was amazed at how easily the whole thing fit into his mouth,
almost as if it was made just for him.  He began moving his mouth up and
down and around a bit like he had read on the internet.  He was amazed at
how natural it felt to be sucking a penis.  He loved it.  He put his hand
on his friend's smooth ball sack and felt the contents moving around all on
their own.  He sucked Jeff's dick and stroked his balls.  It might have
been a minute or it might have taken ten, Ryan had no idea how long he had
been going when Jeff's moans got a bit louder and the penis in his mouth
swelled and started jerking.  Ryan sucked harder as Jeff came in his mouth.
It seemed like a gallon of cum but he eagerly swallowed it all.

     Jeff was astounded by the feelings he was being given.  He hadn't
thought anything could feel this good.  Even the couple of times Ryan
scrapped against his shaft with his teeth seemed wonderful.  He knew he was
making noise and hoped Ryan's mom or brother didn't hear it but he couldn't
stop.  All too soon he felt his semen ready to shoot and he tried to hold
it but he couldn't stop and he came.  He shot the most intense orgasm in
his life in Ryan's mouth and Ryan kept sucking.  It felt so good that it
almost hurt.  When the orgasm died off he looked down at his friend.  He
reached down and lifted Ryan's head off of his dick and looked at his sweet
face.  He was so beautiful.  A little bit of cum had trickled out of the
corner of Ryan's mouth and Jeff leaned forward to meet the kiss that Ryan
was bringing to him.  Jeff licked his cum off of Ryan's mouth and kissed
him.  He had tasted his cum before and it was simply phenomenal to taste
himself in Ryan's mouth.  They kissed for a few minutes and rearranged
themselves with Jeff on top of Ryan.  Jeff mimicked Ryan's technique as he
licked his way to his lover's nipples.  He licked and sucked just as Ryan
had done.  Ryan seemed to enjoy it but not as much as Jeff had.  Jeff
reached down between Ryan's legs and squeezed the beautiful cock that
awaited him there.  Ryan groaned and kissed Jeff's hair.  Jeff moved his
hand down to his friend's balls and felt the soft skin and sparse hair.  He
moved further down with his tongue and moved his hand to Ryan's ample pubic
hair.  He loved the feel of the coarse fur.  He felt something wet on the
back of his hand.  He moved the rest of the way to Ryan's boyhood and saw
the veritable river of precum flowing out his dick.  He smiled as he
realized why Ryan's masturbation the night before had sounded so wet.

     Jeff nuzzled himself further down the bed.  He wrapped his hand around
Ryan's dick and started to slowly work his friend's penis.  There was
something that he had to do before he sucked Ryan's dick.  He reached out
his tongue and started licking Ryan's balls.  He slowly caressed Ryan's
scrotum with his tongue as his lover squirmed with pleasure and groaned
loudly.  Jeff no longer felt bad about his own volume.  He slowed down on
Ryan's penis.  He needed to taste Ryan's orgasm.  He moved his mouth to
Ryan's cock head and his hand to the damp ball sack.  Without preamble he
swallowed Ryan's dick.  He tasted the precum as it continued to flow out of
Ryan.  With lips and lounge flicking around Ryan's cock he pulled all the
way up and off of it.  Jeff looked up for a moment and saw the look of
absolute pleasure on Ryan's face and then went back down to the base of his
penis.  Jeff repeated this technique only two more time before Ryan came
with a groan that was almost a scream.  Jeff had been halfway back up
Ryan's penis when he came and he quickly clamped his lips tight to the
rather thick shaft and started swallowing the torrent of semen that
exploded into this mouth.  He loved it.  He gulped his love's juices for
what seemed to be forever before the spurts slowed and stopped.  Jeff
licked his friend's penis clean and then moved up and embraced him.  They
kissed slowly and told each other how much they loved each other.
Exhausted and spent they fell asleep naked and curled up in the arms of the
boy that they loved.

******

     Ryan's mother stopped briefly at her oldest boy's door.  Her office
was right beneath his room and thanks to the design of the heating system
she had clearly heard the beginning of her boy's first time.  She had
retired to the living room to avoid feeling like she was intruding.  After
a while she decided to go to bed.  She leaned against the wall opposite her
son's room and remembered when she had realized that Ryan was gay.  She had
always been perceptive and had noticed his less than subtle looks of desire
aimed at other boys instead of girls.  She and her husband and talked about
it and neither one had any desire to be anything but supportive.  It had
taken a good amount of arguing to get him to agree that they shouldn't
interfere if he became sexually active early.  The telling point was the
fact that both she and her husband were about his age for their first times
and that they had turned out just fine.  She was very glad that it was Jeff
that he had found to be with.  She had been pretty sure that they were in
love with each other for last couple of months and she could see that they
hadn't figured it out.  During the movie she had almost fainted when she
noticed them holding hands.  A cuter couple could not be made out of any
other two boys that she knew.  The only part of this that concerned her was
how to broach the subject of volume with them.  If they weren't careful
Nathan was going to come up with some very curious questions!


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