Date: Wed, 19 Aug 2009 14:43:47 -0700 From: Stories Foryou Subject: Chancey Chancey By: SFY This story is decided to the memory of Chance he will be trully be missed. (sorry if I missest spelled any words I just got the bad news today and I have to express my fellings in some way.) I cant believe it all stared becuse I was borad. It happend five great months. I recently got out of school a week or two. My pairnts where at work, and my brother Blake was at a friend's house wile I was home alone. There was nothing on tv that caught my instructs, so I went to see what DVD I should watch. Again nothing caught my instrusts. Then I desided to go on line with my laptop. My brother gave me his old one after he got a new one. You think that was nice of him right? Well sort of, He droped it a cupple of times and things dont realy work on it. Like the space bar gets stuck once in awile and outher small stuff. So there I was on the net. I desided to check my e-mail. Dame none not even junk mail. I think at this point I should tell you about my self. at the time I was 11 years old. I have blond hair and green eyes. I am short for my age. I only have two friends. Well three if you count my brother's friend Matt. Matt talks to me from time to time. So after I found out I have no mail I went on YouTube to see some videos. Most of them where dumb and I just think to my self "How can so many people wach this pice of crap" I got tyerd of waching videos and went to Google. For some reasion I typed in blogs made by kids or somthing like that. I just picked one at random. The blog was cool and he had three other blogs. The kid that made these blogs was a boy named Chance. He also liked to be called Chancey. Now thats a cool name. He was just two years older then me of the age of 13. So I desided to e-mail him. Who knows we just might become friends. In the e-mail I said 'Hi Chance, That is a cool name. I love all four of your blogs. keep it up' It did not take long for him to respond back. In fact it was two or three minits later. So I opend the e-mail and it read 'Hi thanks alot. I am glad you liked them' After that day we became friends. One day he asked me if I had a IM. I said no. well I typed no. But next day I got one. It was around 8pm when he got on. I just typed in gusse who. He gussed right away. We chated back and forth with each other every day. Then one day he e-mailed me. 'Hi man Um I dont know how to say this um do you want to have somthing more?' At first I did not know what he ment. At this point in my life I was confused. I liked girls. But not girls my age. I liked them at the age of 15 and up. But with boys its difrent. I think boys are cute until they are like 14. But sum are still cute to me. For some reasion I always wanted to do stuff with them. But never got the guts to ask. After all I allready get made fun of. I cant ask my two friends. I just might loose them. I can ask matt. He has gay friends. But it might slip out when he talks to my brother. Man I was so cunfused. So I e-mailed him back 'Um you mean like become bf? I dont know I think I would I am just so confused right now.' I just barely told him about the whole boy girl thing. He e-mailed me back 'Um yah I like you alot and I would like to. see Im gay. and you might be bi. I will be on IM later' After a cupple of hours he was on and we chatted. more and more as we chated I relized he was right. Here is this sweet angle helping me figure out who I am. We did become Bf. Even thogh we live in two difrent states. Our birthdays were a week apart but both where on a friday. On my birthday. he made me a card. and e-mailed it to me. On his I e-mailed him and said 'happy big 1 3' and I gave him a poem. Yah it turns out he was going to be 13. He e-mailed me back 'O a poem I cant beleve you gave me a poem. I have to tell you somthing' This was it: he is breaking up with me. My heart was raceing. 'I'm not 12 that turned 13. I was 10 that turned 11. Are you mad at me?' I was relieved. So I e-mailed him back 'No Im not. Im glad that you are not breaking up with me. You are my first love and I got scared at first but I feel alot better' We chated back and forth. and soon it was our first month anniversary. I e-mailed him a pic of flowers and candy with a poem I made for him. He did the same thing but he typed ten things I like about you. We go on im everyday just to talk. The strange thing is as soon we became bf's we had this odd bond we could tell if one had a bad dream or had an itch or even hurting. We typed to each other evey chance we go on that Im. We even tell each other a day a head of time that we wont be on. Then somthing happened that changed my life. He died of cancer, will in a coma. I heard the sad news from his brother. I did not only lose a friend or a love, I lost a brother. Poems I have done for Chace: Poem 1 They make us laugh They make us cry They cause mistife where every they go They are sweet and inesent They are all different They are all the same in some ways They are boys and boys will be boys Poem2 When I see the stars up above I know you are lookin at them as well. I can fell you and smell you like you are right next to me even if you are miles away. I can tell that you had a bad dream and a good one. You have a good hart and sole. As I sleep I fell the wind that is your breath. It fells like you are right nex to me as I sleep. You are in my dreams and I bet I am in yours. I bet you can also fell me, smell me and hair me. We have a bond that we can fell eachother seance each other even if we are mills away. I love you and allways will. Poem3 As I look back on that day who knows what would happion if things where difrent. What if My brother nevere gave me his old lap top what would happion? What if I Would just brow his looking up boys and trying not to get caught? What if I never came accrose one of your blogs? What if I did go onto your blog but I did came to your blog but never had the guts e-mailing you? What if What if nothing. I am glad I ran into one of your blogs, e-maild you, got im so we can talk, and thhe bcame bfs. Poem 4 I walked a lonely path not knowing where I belong. I walked and walked looking for answers but did not get one. So I kept on walking that lonely path to find the answers I am looking for. After walking so many times on that lonely path I found my answers I was looking for. The prison had a good hart and sole. At first we became friends but we fell in love. We got a powerful bond and I thought it will never brake. Chancey was the one to help me find my answers and I will always love him.