Date: Sun, 5 Jun 2022 16:47:00 +0100 From: Andrew Passey Subject: Coming Out Part Sixteen (Young Friends) Through my tears I heard my phone ding with a message. I picked it up and could see on the screen it was from Jamie. "Sam! Where are you?! Come back inside and let me explain. It wasn't what you thought it was. I was just talking to her and then she said she wanted to show me something. I went into the bedroom and she jumped me. I was so shocked I just let her do it and then you came in." "Yes and then you said I was a "friend of the family"" "I couldn't very well tell the truth could I?!" "What that you were snogging a girl in front of your boyfriend after abandoning him at a party he didn't want to go to where some boy he barely knew tried to persuade him to go to a bedroom and let himself be fucked?! Wow Jamie, wow. Look, it's fine. I get it. You want to break up with me and you were just too weak to tell me yourself. Fine. I'm at home now. Good night." I sent the message and could see Jamie was typing, then deleting, then typing, then deleting. Fuck him. I switched my phone on silent and decided to ignore it.. I didn't want to hear anything else from Jamie. I wanted to forget everything. I wanted to go and lie in my bed, close my eyes and wake up in the morning with it all being a dream. I went upstairs and stripped off. I caught a glimpse of my reflection in the mirror. Sometimes I don't like looking at myself naked in the mirror. There I said it. I feel like I'm too wimpy looking. That I'm too thin and bony. That's why I didn't mind when Jamie said he wanted to take things slowly. What If he thinks I look horrible naked? Not that it matters now, he's already moved on. Was it something I did or said? Was it that he just totally bottled it and decided being straight was easier? I lay in bed gently sobbing. Thank god there was no one else in the house to hear me. My whole world had fallen apart. How had I been so fucking stupid to think that Jamie was the one? How could I have ever thought that someone as amazing as him would fall for someone like me? Sleep was a long time coming that night.. I woke to the ringing of the door bell, followed by knocking on the door. I ignored it and rolled over to go back to sleep. It was insistent though. I looked at my watch, "8.02am". On a fucking Sunday! Who could possibly be knock....oh fuck. Jamie. I bet it was fucking Jamie. Fuck him, I wasn't getting up to hear his shitty weak apology. If indeed he was there for that. So I just closed my eyes and let the door bell ringing and knocking continue. After a while it stopped and I realised I should probably check my phone in case Mum or Tom had messaged, 75 missed calls. All from Jamie. A few very long messages from him that I just deleted without reading, leaving just his latest message though, "OPEN THE DOOR!". The knocking restarted and I'd had enough. I put a t- shirt and pants on and went downstairs, I unlocked the door to see Jamie standing there in a running top and shorts looking very cold on a chilly March morning. "What?" I just said irritably. "Let me in! After all those messages I sent you still won't let me in?! I poured my heart out to you!" "Um I deleted them without reading," I replied slightly guiltily. "We need to talk! It's fucking freezing out here!" It was fucking freezing and I wanted to get back under my duvet. "Fine, you've got ten minutes, and why are you wearing shorts you idiot?" I said and stood aside to let him come in, shutting the door behind him. ""I um...said I was off for a run so Mum and Dad didn't wonder why I was rushing over here so early, they're already confused why you didn't stay over. I said you felt under the weather and went home,," he said as I went up to my room without a word. He followed me once he'd taken his shoes off. Once there I got into bed and looked at Jamie with my arms folded and clearly looking as upset and annoyed as I felt. "I'm sorry, I'm so sorry Sam. I fucked up," Jamie said coming over to sit on the edge of the bed. He looked upset and as lost as I felt. "Why?Why did you leave me alone to fend off a horny teenager? Why did you go into a bedroom with that girl? Why did you kiss her?!" "She jumped me! You literally walked in at the worst possible time. A few seconds later then you'd have seen me pushing her away! She'd told me that she needed to talk to me about something in private, that's why I went with her!" "You said I was a family friend!" This was all feeling a rehash from last night. Jamie then wrapped his arms around me, I wanted to melt into them but I was angry at him so was just unresponsive. "I know. I..didn't want people to know. I still don't want people to know about us, how I feel about you." "Is there still an us?" I asked tetchily. "Yes! I love you Sam. I love you more than anything else in the world, I never want to hurt you, ever. It breaks my heart that I upset you last night. That I left you all alone at the party and then you saw what you saw." "You love me!?" I asked, my heart suddenly beating very fast. "Well yeah, do you think I've been snogging you senseless for weeks for fun?!" "I guess not but I'm just...just surprised you could love someone as broken as me." Okay I admit it, I was wallowing in self pity a bit at this stage "Broken?! You're not broken! And if you are, I'd put you back together piece by piece." As he said that I smiled and hugged him back. "I suppose you're forgiven but honestly, if you ever do that again that might be it. No more going to parties and letting girls kiss you. Charlie is trouble, he tried to set me up with his friend Simon who wanted to fuck my "sexy arse" upstairs. Now I don't expect you to come out and I don't expect you to tell people about us. However I DO expect you to look after me and not leave me alone at parties where I don't know anyone. Most importantly I don't want you to kiss anyone but me. Ever. Deal?" I asked pulling out of the hug to look into his eyes. Those eyes of his that I so loved looking into. "Deal!" He said with a smile. I think he realised he'd got off luckily but then again why punish myself as well as him?! "Oh and I love you too!" I said with a cheeky grin. His face lit up like a million lightbulbs had just been switched on and we kissed. All that heartache fell away and it felt like it was just me and him. I never wanted to let him go. As we kissed it felt..different. No, I felt different. I wanted more. Not everything, it was too soon for that for Jamie and probably for me too. I wasn't even fifteen yet. No, I wanted a bit more. As we kissed I let my hand slip down to his bottom where I squeezed it before I moved it and round and slipped it inside his shorts and then into his pants. "What are you doing?!" he asked in shock, pulling away from our kiss. "Something I've wanted to do for a long long time. A very very good stress reliever! Don't worry, I'm just going to use my hand on you, If you'll let me...." He pulled back and looked at me nervously, "What if things change between us once we do this? What If it changes for the worst? "Jamie. I love you, you love me. People who love each other like we do have sex all the time!" His eyes widened and he looked very scared all of a sudden! "I said I'd use my hand, nothing more! Plenty of time for all that in the future. And I want all of that from you at some point! I just think we aren't ready." "You're telling me! I'm struggling to cope with the fact your hand is on my um...dick." "That's where my hand belongs!" I said as he hardened in my hand He grinned at me and it was clear he'd decided to go with it, "Well we have the house to ourselves, why don't we get out of these clothes and both do it to each other? We stood up and undressed, not that we had much to take off anyway. It was strange, we'd seen each other naked before in changing rooms but this was different. This was both of us about to take the big leap into the world of sex. Not oral, not anal. At least not yet. But still, wanking each other off felt like a really big step. But one I knew we both wanted to take. Jamie smiled at me as I stripped off, pulling my pants off to stand there naked with my hard dick pointing straight up, "Finally! I began to think I'd never see you naked!" "You saw me naked at Bella's party!" "I know and I had to work for it! I knew if I just stood there talking at you you'd have to get changed in front of me! It wasn't long before then when I realised you were the one for me. So I thought I'd give you a full frontal as well...I reckon you've grown a bit since the party but either way your dick wasn't hard like it is now when I saw you!" I blushed despite this being exactly what I wanted. Unlike at Bella's party I was able to take my time taking in Jamie's naked body. He looked amazing naked. I'd obviously seen him topless before and I'd seen his soft dick once but never had I seen him naked with that hard dick of his sticking out. It looked beautiful. Six inches of thick hard boy flesh, the foreskin retracting ever so slightly to show a gleam of pre cum glistening on his slit. We sat down next to each other on the bed, there were definitely some nerves in the air as I reached over and took his dick in my hand again. We kissed as I started to wank him again. Then the moment I'd been waiting for, I felt his hand slip down and take my dick in it as well. "This is a headfuck for me," Jamie whispered as he broke off the kiss. "More of a handfuck!" I said with a giggle which caused him to laugh as well, breaking the tension in the room. We then kissed again as our hands started to speed up, both of us heading towards the inevitable orgasm at the hands of the other. I'd started on Jamie first so I wasn;t surprised when he pulled back from me and went ,"ooh fuck...fuck..ooh......ohh.....ooohhhh......SAMMMM!" and shot over my hand and his stomach and groin. He had stopped wanking me at that point but started doing it again and it wasn't long before my body felt on fire and I came all over us both. I kissed him and then told him I loved him. I then looked into his beautiful eyes. "I know you're struggling with all of this at times but now we've taken this step we should keep doing it!" Jamie smiled at me, "Well it beats doing it to yourself! Fuck I love you so much, I wish I could stop fucking up. I can't promise I won't fuck up again. I'm still finding it hard at times." I smiled back, "Don't make promises you can't keep and take as long as you like. I know you're struggling, but...just...talk to me you know. We're supposed to have each other's back. We love each other and can support each other..and as for you finding it hard at times....." "Yes?" "Well...give me a couple of minutes and I reckon I'll be hard again!" I said giggling which set him off. We kissed and wanked each off again then just lay on my bed talking until Jamie had said it was time to go home. What a morning it had been. From disaster last night to ecstasy this morning. I know Jamie wanted to take things much slower than I did but I did think we had moved things on. We'd been naked together, we'd wanked each other off, it wasn't much more of a step to take things up to the next level! However I loved Jamie and didn't want to push him into anything he was uncomfortable with, eventually I'd have that delicious dick of his in my mouth and when I did it would be well worth the wait..