Date: Tue, 14 Jun 2022 18:00:00 +0100 From: Andrew Passey Subject: Coming Out Part Nineteen (Young Friends) It was nice hanging out during the summer holidays with Jorge and Olly who were still excitedly talking about the blow job they'd got but as the days passed I really missed Jamie. Yes we could message each other but it wasn't the same. Finally his three weeks on Mexico were over but he was only back in London for one night before he went off to visit family in Cornwall. He'd phoned me as soon as he got home but made it clear that it would look too suspicious if I came over to see him that evening. "I want to see you, you know that! But we've got unpacking to do and more packing. Mum's cousin is coming round for dinner. I can't invite you, what would I say?"I really need to see one of my friends urgently?" They'd get suspicious." "You worry too much! I could come over to bring you something you need for your holiday!" "What would that be?" "Um...my dick?" I replied with a giggle. Jamie giggled as well, "yes but I can't really take that on holiday without chopping it off and I doubt either of us would be too happy about that!" "I know but I want to see you!" "I want to see you too, more than anything but we have to be careful." I usually keep my fears to myself but this time I decided to voice them, "Fair enough, if that's the real reason you don't want to see me." "What do you mean by that?" "Well...it's just....maybe you've met someone else or you're bored of me or you just don't like me anymore." Jamie sighed, "Sam, nothing has changed. I still feel the same, I just have to be careful for Mum and Dad not to be suspicious. Hopefully next year's summer holidays won't be so fucking busy! But Mum loves to have things booked up for all six weeks. That's teachers for you." Jamie's Mum worked at a school not a million miles away but luckily not ours. I knew he was right, he wasn't ready to come out and I had to just relax and not get jealous. "Fine, you've got to make it up to me though. It'll be six weeks by the time I see you. I'll forget what you look like!" "We can do video calls, all sorts now I'm back!" "Phone wanking?!" I asked slightly optimistically although we had discussed that before. "Unlikely, I'll be sharing a room with Jacob. As it is, my wanking opportunities are highly curtailed!" "I'll make sure you get lots of that when I see you next. Well have a good evening, I love you." "I love you too Sam." It was so frustrating to know Jamie was literally a half hour walk from me but I couldn't see him. I honestly didn't see the problem of him popping out to see me or letting me come over. But he was cautious and risk averse at times. At some point as this thing we had developed further he was going to have to come out to his parents. But I knew that was a while off and I never brought it up. I wanted to play it carefully, he was my boyfriend, the one I'd wanted and the last thing I was going to do was drive him away. So I had to put up with not seeing him although we spoke every day. Not always for long or able to say what we wanted and because as usual he wanted to be careful. It was the second last Friday of the school holidays. We went back a week on Wednesday and the clock was ticking until I'd see Jamie again. As I was thinking that my phone rang and I saw it was him. "Hey!" I said enthusiastically. Jorge and Olly were on holiday so I was bored and a bit lonely. Tom did make an effort to hang out with me but he had his girlfriend and his own life to lead. His mind was also fixated on going to university in a few weeks. So it was just me on my own really. "Hey back! Hope I'm not interrupting anything important?" "There is literally fuck all for me to do. Please entertain me as I'm bored shitless!" "Ha well I haven't got long at all...What you doing next weekend?" "Fuck all. Like this weekend and all next week." "Fancy coming up to North Wales for the weekend and climbing Snowdon with me, Dad and Jacob? "Yes of course but won't they think it's a bit weird if I come? I know you want to be careful." "Nah, I've said you haven't been on holiday all summer and you want to get fit for football. I said much as I love Jacob I want some company my own age and all my other friends are on holiday. You'd get the train to Bangor and we'd pick you up. Mum has had enough of us all I think and wants some time away from the sausage party!" "Fair enough! I'll check with Mum. What's the um...sleeping arrangements?" "Sofa bed unless I can persuade Jacob it'll be more fun for him doing that than sleeping in the same room as me! If you get the train up Friday morning we can pick you Friday afternoon, then all drive home together Monday." "Sounds amazing.,I'll check with Mum. I really really need some alone time with you, my hand needs to be back on your dick!" "Oh hi Jacob, I'm on the phone to Sam, Sam he says hi. So that last thing you said, hopefully that's possible but let's see what happens. I'll message you later, let me know once you've spoken to your mum." "Will do, I love you!" "Yes I'm looking forward to it too, chat soon." To my delight Mum was a pushover. I think she felt bad we hadn't gone away all holiday. Money was a bit tight, she was busy at work and everything in the summer holidays is so fucking expensive. She was slightly anxious about me getting the train on my own before as was often the case Tom told her she was being stupid. "He's probably at more risk walking home from school than on a train. He'll be fine." That swung it so a week later I was pulling into Bangor station. I got off the train and saw Jamie, Jacob and Jon all standing there waving. I had to stop myself running up to give Jamie a hug but Jacob gave me one when I saw him anyway. He was very excited to see me while Jamie played it cooler than I knew he felt. Jacob acting the way he did gave me freedom to be as excited as I felt! It was a glorious sunny day, the welsh mountains rose in the far distance and a warm breeze blew off the coast. We got in the car and I sat in the back with Jacob who talked excitedly at me. Jacob was loads of fun as usual, Jamie had said they weren't totally sure if he was a bit ADHD or just excitable and enthusiastic all the time! As we drove into Snowdonia, Jon explained Jane had got the train back to London before mine and they'd been hanging out in Bangor till I arrived. The plan was to go up Snowdon tomorrow as the weather looked great. "I tried to persuade Dad to let us do Crib Goch, the route of death! But he wants to do the Snowdon path Ranger instead!" "It's literally a ten minute walk from the cottage Jamie! I don't want to have to drive if we don't need to." I checked the map on my phone and he was right, we really weren't far from the start of the path at all. It was a beautiful drive and I felt really pleased to be there. We pulled up at the cottage and I knew I was feeling the happiest I'd felt for weeks! The cottage was small, a lounge, kitchen and two bedrooms with a shared bathroom. I instantly realised that opportunities for fun were potentially going to be limited. Even stealing a kiss was going to be tricky. If we shared the room then all bets were off if we were quiet but Jacob said he wanted to keep his bed, "I don't mind sharing with Sam but I don't want Jamie to as I'll feel left out," he said. I could tell Jamie was a bit annoyed at him but then again Jacob was barely eleven years old. He didn't know that we were in love and wanted to spend time together. Of course if Jamie had told his family then that would be different. Then again if he had, maybe I wouldn't have been invited! I know his parents should be cool with him being Bi and my boyfriend but things didn't always work out how you expect them. In any case it was what it was. Friday night Jon we walked to the pub to have dinner together and then walked back which helped work off the food. It felt great to be with Jamie again and that instant spark we always had was definitely still there. There was lots of laughing and joking over dinner and I was so pleased I'd come along. When we were back my sofa bed was set up and I went to get ready for bed in the bathroom.. Usually I'd sleep naked but I thought that wasn't appropriate so I wore a t- shirt and slept in my pants. I so wanted to kiss Jamie and more but that wasn't on the cards. Jacob stuck us to both like a limpet so it was just a good night said to everyone and then we were all in bed. We had an early start the next day.. It was a beautiful sunny morning without a cloud in the sky as we started to walk up the Snowdon ranger path. A few people had left the youth hostel as we passed and Jamie and Jon chatted to them as we started to climb up the mountain. Jacob stuck close to me and we talked all manner of shit. I'm more than happy to talk bollocks with eleven year old boys all day long, computer games, Star Wars, football, marvel, more football, the list of topics he was interested in seemed endless. A couple of hours in he shifted to a more serious topic, "So you like boys not girls Sam? You're different to other boys at your school from what Jamie said." "All that's different is that as you said, I like boys not girls!" "Well I like boys not girls as well. Girls are annoying, they're so loud and bossy!" "This is different though, I know you covered it at school as we did when I was your age. Being gay means I want to have a boyfriend not a girlfriend. Basically I want to kiss boys, not girls." "I'm not sure I want to kiss anyone, sounds pretty gross! You should kiss Jamie then!" I blushed and hoped he hadn't noticed. "It's a bit different Jacob. As you get older you'll want a girlfriend or a boyfriend if you decide that's your thing. But you can't just kiss anyone you like. Anyway Jamie is older than me and has had girlfriends before so I'm sure he's not interested." "Oh yeah he's definitely older! Jamie has a big willy with loads of hair around it.! I saw it the other day after he came out of the shower. Mine is little still, no hair." "Don't worry, It'll grow as you get older. That's what puberty does, all bits of us grow and we get hair in strange places and eventually we become full grown adults. That's a few years away yet though Jacob!" "Do you have hair around yours?" A bit," this conversation was making me a bit awkward. However I wanted to let Jacob know there was nothing to be embarrassed about with regard to your body, your sexuality or growing up in general. "I bet it's not as much as Jamie, his is very hairy. He loves his willy, he's always touching it when he's in bed. It must be very itchy!" "Ah well that's something boys do as they get older, didn't they tell you about it at school?l" "Oh is that Mass Debation? Where all of you get your Willy's out and play with them?" "What?! Nobody does it with someone else, well not usually. It's a private thing you do on your own!" "But a mass debate is when there's loads of people all there at once arguing." I giggled, "It's masTURbation not Mass DEbation. You weren't quite paying attention were you? "Well no...I was hungry and just wanted the lesson to be over. Oh hello Jamie, I was just telling Sam that you have a big willy and like touching it in bed." Jamie blushed bright red and I winked at him. "Sounds like you have a lot to tell me Jamie!" "Honestly Sam you wouldn't believe how much fidgeting he does in bed when he thinks I'm asleep. He grunts like a pig!" "Enough Jacob! Dad wants to stop for a water break and snack so let's wait here for him." I giggled at Jamie's obvious embarrassment and Jacob's wide eyed innocence. What I didn't quite know is if he was as innocent as he pretended or he was winding us both up! We sat in the sunshine eating snickers and drinking water. I was loving every minute of my visit here! It was amazing going up Snowdon, amazing being with Jamie, and even amazing being with Jacob. The wind rushed through my hair and the sun warmed my face. There wasn't a cloud in the sky and the views were amazing. It was something that I'd always cherish, sharing that walk with the others. We made it to the top, took photos and walked back the way we came. We took our time and it was getting on for 4pm by the time we made it back. "Can we have ice cream? I'm hot!"" Jacob said as soon as we entered the cottage. "You ate it all the other night but we can pop to the shop." "Can't you go and get it for me?" Jacob asked, smiling at his Dad who shook his head, "you want it Jacob, you get it! Sam, Jamie, do you want anything?" We shook our heads and Jamie said he was going to have a shower. "We'll only be ten minutes so see you soon." At this Jon and Jacob left the cottage and we smiled at each other. "Bedroom, now!" Jamie said and we pretty much ran in there. We'd just started kissing properly when I suddenly heard Jacob's voice "What are you two doing?" We broke apart instantly. "Um, I was looking for something in Sam's hair," Jamie said which was possibly the worst answer to this question that I'd ever heard, Jacob giggled, "You were kissing! Is it because I told Sam he should kiss you earlier?!" I grinned at Jacob, "Maybe you little matchmaker! We like each other, but don't tell anyone what you saw! It's our secret!" I could see Jamie looked a bit distressed at being caught but honestly, it was fine. I knew Jacob wouldn't tell anyone. "Are you boyfriends?" He asked and we nodded. "Great! Does that mean I'll see even more of Sam? Although I guess you've seen all of Sam Jamie?!" Jacob giggled as he said this and I began to suspect he definitely wasn't quite as innocent as he pretended. "I thought you were going with Dad?" Jamie said changing the subject. "I was but he said he actually fancied a few minutes of peace and quiet. You can keep kissing if you want, I don't mind!" "Well I do! Just remember what Sam said. Do. Not. Tell. Anybody. Deal?" Jacob nodded and Jamie picked up some clothes and said he was going into the shower. I really wanted to keep kissing him, to touch him and then to talk to him to check he was okay with Jacob catching us. But that was going to have to wait until we were alone...