Date: Sat, 23 Apr 2022 10:32:00 +0100 From: Andrew Passey Subject: Coming Out Part Two (Young Friends) It's fun being back at school. Actually who am I kidding? It's "okay" being back at school. Fun is hanging out with your friends playing PS4. Or having a kickabout in the park. Fun is not having to try and concentrate in class when boys tripping their balls off on testosterone mess around. Fun is not being shouted at by the teacher because your mind is elsewhere. I'll tell you one fun thing about being back at school though, that first swimming class of the year! It was something I'd really been looking forward to. Yes I know that makes me a bit of a pervert, wanting to see all those naked boys. Guilty as charged! As the school bell went to signify the end of our maths lesson I very quickly packed my bag and raced out of the classroom with Jorge struggling to keep up. "Subtle Sam, very subtle!" he said as he managed to catch up to me. "What do you mean?!" "Rushing to get to the changing room first so you get to prev on ALL the naked boys!" "I have no idea what you mean!" I protested as we entered the changing room. We were pretty much the first there and I plonked myself in the corner of the room so I would have an excellent view. I'd be able to glance up and see any number of boys getting changed without it being too obvious. I'd left the football team because I didn't trust myself to be among half naked boys but swimming was different. There were so many boys getting undressed that I could just fade into the background and watch without anyone really noticing. Jorge put his bag down next to me and started to undress. "Don't even think about perving on me Sam. I do NOT want to be the wank fantasy of my best mate!" I giggled as I undid my shoes and loosened my tie. "Well I assume you haven't even started puberty yet so you know, I doubt I'd be checking you out. There are bigger fish, well dicks, to fry." "Frying dicks? Thats fucked up, a cannibal as well as being gay!" I looked around nervously as Jorge said that. It was great that he was being so cool with me being gay but I did think I might need to ask him to tone it down a bit. After all, it's easy to blurt something out a bit too loudly and be overheard, causing more people to know and then things can snowball out of control very quickly! I slowly undressed as I saw Jorge already down to his pants, He picked his trunks up, spun around so he was facing me, quickly pulled his pants down showing off his 1 1/2 inch dick with a few wispy hairs before pulling his trunks on. "See, evidence you were wrong!" he said with a grin as I pulled my pants down as well and put my trunks on. Jorge was pretty much the same development wise as me and I wasn't embarrassed about being naked in front of him. I looked around the room and marvelled that some of the boys seemed to be almost double Jorge's size. Early developers I guess. It always seemed slightly unfair to me that some boys started puberty earlier than others. Say they'd started a year before me so 365 days. Then wanked off once a day during that time. If we then both wanked off the same number of times each day for the rest of our lives and then died on the same day then they'd have had 365 more orgasms throughout their life than I would. How was that remotely fair? Sort it out nature! "So much for not showing me'" I whispered to Jorge on our way into the swimming pool. "Hey, if you want to wank over the thought of my dick, who am I to complain!" We both giggled at that before our teacher, Mr Johnson told us to be quiet. After the class was finished I got changed while still checking out more dicks before packing my bag and heading off with Jorge for lunch break. We'd usually hang out with our other close friend Oliver, Olly for short but he wasn't around as he'd had an operation over the summer holidays and wouldn't be back at school until Monday. He was the other person I wanted to tell about me being gay. Him and his twin sister Bella anyway. Oliver and Bella, names so fucking middle class it hurt! Still they were both really good friends of ours from primary school and it felt good to know I had other friends who had my back. I was a quiet academically gifted boy who liked football, sci fi, reading and computer games. Not a nerd, definitely not a nerd! (I was). The loud more alpha male testosterone filled boys at school scared me and I liked to hang out with boys more like me. Jorge was into football, Olly into sci fi and they were both into computer games so we made a good trio. "So Gabriel's dick is big isn't it?" Jorge said to me as we walked home later that day. "Is it? Why are you asking me?" I replied. Gabriel did have a pretty big dick and he liked to show it off. It was black, quite girthy and must have been at least an inch bigger than ours if not more. "Don't pretend you didn't see it! Pretty much everyone will have seen it, he struts around naked for hours! Anyway you're gay, I sort of assumed you liked looking at dicks!" "Well maybe I do," I replied with a casual shrug. "but you aren't, so why are you looking?" "Partly to see how I compare to other boys, very well if I may say so myself!" He said with a giggle, "And also partly to support my gay best mate! I just thought it was something else we could talk about, compare notes, that sort of thing." "That's very nice Jorge and I'm pleased you're cool with me being gay. But you really don't have to start talking about dicks to me, it's just a bit....weird!" Jorge breathed a loud sigh of relief, "Phew, I mean I want to be supportive but it's not really my comfort zone. I'm more pussy than penis to be honest!" "I know you are! Really, you don't need to talk to me about anything other than what we've always talked about. i'm gay, that's all. I'm still the same boy I always was. I just might like to wank over the thought of a penis rather than a pussy!" We both giggled at that and I think Jorge got it. I understood where he was coming from and I was actually really touched he thought he had to talk about that sort of thing. But as I said I was the same boy I always was. I'd always been gay, he just now knew about it. It did all just feel like a weight off my mind that I'd told someone and this weekend I was going to lighten the load even more. I was going to tell Olly and Bella... "You're gay?!" Olly said loudly in surprise as I told the two of them on Saturday afternoon. We were sitting in their front room just hanging out and Olly's face had dropped to the floor when I'd said the words, Bella smiled at me with a look that seemed to suggest she'd already known. Although she did like to say she was more "emotionally intelligent" than us boys so she'd probably pretend she'd guessed even if she hadn't. "Yes I am, I just said I was!" "When did that happen?!" He asked, sounding confused. "Always! I've always been gay Ollly! I haven't caught it or something, it's who I am!" "I know..I guess....it's just, I can''t believe you're gay Sam!" Olly said before Bella sighed loudly "For fucks sake Olly, Sam is gay. He's always been gay! He's still exactly the same boy he was before. He just needs us to support him!" "What was that? Sam is gay?!" I heard Oscar say loudly coming into the room. While Olly and Bella might be nice, Oscar was what I would call a complete arsehole. He went to our school and was a couple of years older than us. I never liked him and he never liked me. "No he's not, you are you twat!" Olly said which then caused Oscar to come over and push his younger brother. "Say that again and I'll kick the shit out of you!" "You wouldn't dare!" Olly said, his long brown hair covering his eyes as he stood up to his taller older brother. "That's true. Well I would but you'd run and tell Mum like the little baby you are. Mum! Olly just called me gay!" "Who's the baby now?!" Olly said in exasperation as his Mum came in and told him off. "Oliver! How many times have I said that calling someone gay is wrong. It's not an insult, there is nothing wrong with being gay." "I know Mum, he was just winding me up!" Olly protested. "Sorry Olly, I guess it was just a shock hearing Sam was gay. Congratulations on coming out by the way!" Oscar said smirking at me then he left the room. I could see their Mum looking at me in what I hoped was amazement rather than disdain. "He....uhm...he won't tell anyone will he?" I asked nervously. Olly's Mum came over and gave me a big hug, "Oh Sam, of course he won't! I'm touched you decided to come out to us." "He didn't Mum, he came out to me and Olly and then Oscar overheard it. He better not cause trouble for Sam otherwise I'll cut his balls off! "Don't say things like that Bella! Your brother won't say anything, I can promise you that!" This reassured me but Oscar was a nasty piece of work. I didn't quite trust him to not say anything but then again even if he did I'd just deny it. The rest of the afternoon I field questions from Olly about being gay, "so you like looking at dicks?" "You got a crush on anyone?" "Are you totally sure you're gay?!" Luckily Bella was there to patiently assist me in explaining things to Olly. By the time I had to go home for dinner they both hugged me and Olly assured me he had my back. Bella also assured me the same, "And I wasn't lying, if Oscar causes you any trouble those balls of his are being chopped off and fed to any passing dog I can find!" This made me feel better about everything. It makes a massive difference to know your friends still like you for who you are whatever they find out about you. They had my back and I was glad I'd told them I was gay. I was done coming out for now though. I'd told Jorge, Olly and Bella. I'd tell Mum and Tom in a few weeks time. Then that was it. I wanted to remain firmly in the closet apart from that however weird I found that expression. That was the theory anyway, in practice life doesn't always work out as you hope it will.