Date: Fri, 29 Apr 2022 10:32:00 +0100 From: Andrew Passey Subject: Coming Out Part Four (Young Friends) I sat nervously on the chair in Mr Johnson's office as he looked at me with an expression I couldn't read. Annoyance? Frustration? Who knows but at that moment I reckoned he'd make a very good poker player. "So....Mr Robinson You certainly made a bit of a stir earlier." "I didn't do anything sir, it was Henry blabbing his mouth off and repeating um...rumours." "Yes Mr Patterson does tend to as you say "blab his mouth off". He's got intervention after school for the next few weeks, maybe until the end of term if I can swing it. Hopefully that will help him understand there's no place for homophobia in this school. It's totally up to you how you want to answer my next question....is it true what he said?" Intervention was the fancy word our school called detention. I think it was supposed to make it sound positive. We're not detaining you, we're intervening to help you! That didn't really matter though, what mattered was whether I answered the question. Silence was pointless at this stage so I decided to tell the truth. Well part of it anyway. "That I'm a "filthy cocksucker?!" No sir, I'm only thirteen, I don't do anything like that!' I wasn't sure it was the best reply but I didn't want to come out and confirm I was gay "That isn't what I meant Sam," Mr Johnson said surprisingly softly. "It was whether or not you were gay." I looked down at the floor not sure what to say. "I'll take your silence as a yes. Sam, look at me." I lifted my head to meet his eyes to see him smiling gently at me, "There is nothing at all wrong with being gay. There is a lot wrong with being outed against your will. I'd hoped those days were gone but unfortunately teenage boys can be very cruel at times. I'm not going to lie to you Sam, I think the next few weeks will be tough for you. You'll really find out who your friends are. You'll probably lose a few but if you do they aren't the sort of boys you want as friends. Do you understand?" I nodded, not trusting myself to speak in case I had a meltdown which would really just finish this shitstorm of a day off. "You're not the only boy at school who will be into boys. The problem is that a lot of the confusing urges and emotions we get growing up can cause us to overcompensate. So maybe Henry is confused himself and he lashes out to hurt you but also to convince himself and others he isn't gay. But you are what you are, you can't change that nor should you. When I was growing up I kept my sexuality hidden for years. My husband got bullied terribly at school for his even though he never came out formally. Yes Sam, I am also gay," Mr Johnson said in answer to my shocked expression. "But this is a Catholic school Sir!" I said in surprise. "So? I'm an excellent teacher if I do say so myself. The staff and Governors know. Nobody cares as long as I don't start shouting it about during lessons. I am certainly not ashamed to be gay, it's who I am. Neither should you be embarrassed of who you are. However for obvious reasons I'd prefer it if you kept my sexuality to yourself. What I brought you here for really was to say if you need support I'm here for you. Now go and have lunch with your friends, as I said you'll soon find out who the real ones are." I left the office feeling better about things but also scared. I didn't want things to change, I didn't want to lose my friends even if he was right that they weren't real friends if they let something like this change things. I found Jorge and Olly waiting nervously for me outside. I told them that I wasn't in trouble and they both breathed a sigh of relief. It didn't mean things were going to be easy for me though. I felt the glances and whispers for the rest of the day and all day Friday. I was so relieved when the school bell rang on Friday and I could go home. I was still very stressed about all of it though, my brain was a maelstrom of fears and emotions. I guess that was why I was still unable to wank off and that was stressing me out too. I normally wanked off at least once a day, my balls must have been super backed up by now. It probably didn't help that I was keeping all this buried inside me. Jorge and Olly were checking I was okay and I told them I was fine even though I wasn't. I also knew a reckoning of sorts was coming for me. If it was spreading across the school like wildfire then Tom would know very soon if he didn't already. Then on Saturday morning the moment I'd been dreading but also expecting arrived. I was lounging in bed reading in just my boxer shorts snuggled up under the duvet when there was a knock on my bedroom door. I got out of bed and opened it to see Tom standing there in just boxer shorts as well. "We need to talk," he said, pushing past me and sitting on the chair at my desk before I could say anything. I didn't really mind being half naked in just my pants in front of Tom but it felt a bit weird so I got under my duvet again, "What about?" I asked innocently pretending I didn't have a care in the world when really I was stressed beyond belief. "You could have at least gotten dressed first rather than just wearing your pants!" "There was no time. Mum's popped to the shop so I wanted to talk to you while she was out and she won't be long. So....boys at school are saying you're gay. Oscar Fellows is going around telling everyone that you told him you were gay and asked him to let you suck his cock. Is that true?" "No it fucking isnt! I would NEVER suck Oscar fucking Fellows. I'm thirteen fucking years old, I won't be doing that sort of thing for years and when I do it won't be with that wanker!" "So you are gay then?" Tom asked. I guess I'd all but admitted it and what was the point in pretending otherwise?. I had been intending to come out to him anyway. Admittedly not like this where I was having to angrily deny wanting to suck off that arsehole Oscar. "Yes I am although no one was supposed to know apart from Jorge, Bella and Olly. Oscar overheard me telling the twins a few weeks ago. His Mum promised he wouldn't say anything but he's a nasty piece of work." 'He is. But why didn't you tell me first? Why have I had to have boys asking me at school if my little brother was gay when I don't even know? I'm your older brother, I'm supposed to look after you and protect you. I can't do that if you don't tell me what is going on!' He sounded annoyed but his words made me glow inside. He wanted to protect me! I knew I should have told him. He always looked out for me and he'd been through tough times before as well so knew what it was like. One of his friends had been killed by a hit and run driver a couple of years ago and it had really affected Tom. He'd been so upset and stressed at the time. I'd hated that I felt powerless to help him and I guess he was feeling the same now. "I'm sorry. I was going to tell you in the next few weeks, and Mum. I guess I was just scared. You don't know what it is like to have to come out to someone. I am so fucking stressed about it. About everything! I feel at breaking point. Now everyone at school knows and my life is falling apart!" Tom stood up and walked over to sit on my bed and smiled at me, "I know it might feel like that Sam but it really isn't. You have people that love you. You friends, me, Mum. Yes, your life is going to get hard. Life is hard! Growing up is stressful! It doesn't get any easier ever but you just learn to deal with it. Anyway you know what you need to do when you're stressed don't you?" "Um, take deep breaths?" Tom giggled, "No! Well maybe but you need to have a wank! It always relaxes me. It's the best stress reliever there is!' "Um...well I haven't been able to do it all week. I guess it's the stress," I blushed bright red at telling my brother something so personal. With Dad off the scene he'd given me "the talk" a couple of years before but it wasn't like we discussed wanking or anything like that on a regular basis. At three years older than me he was clearly in a different world sex wise to me. He had a girlfriend, Alice, that he'd met at a party, although I'd only met her a couple of times as he kept her well away from me and Mum! Anyway what I'm trying to say is that as close as we were we didn't have the sort of relationship where we were open about our sex lives. Not that I had one! He looked at me thoughtfully, "The stress won't be helping but I imagine you're depressed about what is happening?" I nodded in reply. He sighed and then looked at me intently, "I'm going to tell you something that you can't tell anyone..ever. When Luke.....died. I really struggled with depression. Like you I couldn't wank off for days. One day I was over at Dan's house and for some reason I opened up about that and everything else. He...well let's just say he helped me out, solved the problem at hand, well with hand so to speak. After that I was fine, well I was able to wank again anyway. It was a one off that Dan and I don't talk of again but I'm grateful for him. So...as a one off maybe I can give my my little gay brother a hand!" I looked at him in complete and utter surprise as he slipped his hand under the duvet and into my pants. Having someone else touch my dick made a big difference, suddenly I felt harder than I ever had before. "Well maybe my not so little brother!" He said with a wink as he pulled back my duvet. I shimmied out of my pants and let him do his work with his hand. It felt absolutely bloody amazing to have Tom wank me off. Suddenly the stresses and strains of the past week fell away and it was just me, my dick and his hand. I felt my orgasm approaching with some urgency. "nnghh....ngghhh.....FUCKKK!" I screamed as my dick spasmed and shot ropes of cum in the air that landed on my chest. Easily the most cum I'd ever shot! "Wow, you were backed up! As I said it's a one off although if things get so bad that you ever feel the same again then maybe I'll give you a hand. Now look what you made happen, I better go and take care of this!" Tom's pants were tenting massively and there was a wet spot on them. Wow, wanking me off had made me hard. I guess maybe any sort of sex stuff makes boys hard? "Um do you want....me to do it for you?" I wasn't sure if that was either a good idea or something I wanted to do even though he'd just wanked me off. However I felt it was good manners and also a bit of me really wanted to see how big it was when it wasn't hidden by the fabric of his pants! He smiled at me and ruffled my hair affectionately,"You're my little brother Sam. Thanks for the offer but it's not really appropriate. Maybe I'll save it for Alice later! Anyway I hope you're feeling better. I've got your back and I'll get as many friends as I can to look out for you. It still might be rocky times ahead though. Just remember that i'm always here for you" "You are the best big brother in the world!" I said beaming at him. He grinned back, "I know," then he left the room leaving me feeling the best I had all week.