I'm Mark, a sixteen-year-old guy who thinks about cocksucking all the time, but haven't had the chance to do it yet. I know there are plenty of horny guys at school I could blow, but I don't dare let my secret out. So I watch a lot of gay porn online and jack-off thinking about cocksucking.

I sometimes go to gay chat rooms online but most of the guys are too far away. Recently I found a chat room platform that allows you to find guys by city and put in my city. To my surprise there were a lot of people nearby. I was anxious for my first hook-up, but worried that it could be someone I knew. My desire to suck haunted me, but so did my fear of exposure.

Like most guys I used a fake name online. I chatted with a couple of guys, looking for adults because they wouldn't be in my school. I realized that I might find an adult who was a teacher at my school, but I felt that was safe, since they would likely keep my secret. I quickly found out that adults wanted no part of me, thinking that I was working with the police on a child sex sting operation.

Damn! I couldn't seem to give away a blowjob, no matter how hard I tried. I chatted with some people my age, but I always ended up chickening out. Then one day I heard from a guy who was in his twenties and was interested in meeting me. The only thing was that he didn't want a blowjob – he wanted to interview me about my desire to suck.

Jeff was a college student in graduate school at the local university. He was a psychology major and interested in what motivates guys to give blowjobs. He said he just wanted to ask me some questions, and didn't want a blowjob, but it was possible that he could connect me with guys who would. He made no promises, but said it might happen.

I was intrigued and agreed to do the interview. I went to his dorm room for the interview. He had a private room, so we wouldn't be disturbed. I agreed to use my real first name but wouldn't give my last name for obvious reasons.

"So how long have you wanted to suck men?" Jeff began.

"For as long as I can remember," I replied, "Even before I knew it was a sexual act."

"Really?" replied Jeff, "Did you see it done, or did someone try to make you do it?"

"No," I responded, "Though I wish someone had."

"So whatever gave you the idea to suck when you were so young?" Jeff asked.

"I discovered that I liked playing with myself at an early age and my mother told me it was a bad thing to do," I explained, "But that just encouraged me, and I found that anything that involved a cock interested me. When the other boys and I would pee outside I always tried to get a good look at them. One day the idea struck me of taking a cock into my mouth – I was sure that my mother would be shocked if she knew!"

"I'll bet," agreed Jeff, "Did you desire for someone to urinate in your mouth?"

"Not into that," I countered, "I just thought it might be nice to suck one. Then later when I learned that it was a sex act I got really interested."

"So you have had a burning desire to suck men for most of your life, but haven't acted on it?" Jeff asked.

"Sad but true," I confessed, "I jack-off a lot, thinking about it, but that's as close as I get."

"I presume that one day you will actually do it," he said, "How can you be sure you'll like it, and not be disappointed?"

"I doubt that it could happen," I replied, "Now that I know its a sex act I am really turned on at the prospect of making a man cum that way."

"Would you swallow?" Jeff asked, "I hear it is pretty bad tasting."

"That's what a lot of girls say," I answered, "I know it's an acquired taste, but I know I'd love a mouthful of cum!"

"But how do you know?" queried Jeff.

"I've been swallowing my own cum for years," I explained, "At first it tasted bad, and I was unsure if it was safe, but I grew to like it and now nearly always swallow my own – but I look forward to the day another guys give me his load."

"Are you aroused now," asked Jeff, "From talking about this?"

Even though we had been talking very openly, I felt a little embarrassed with this question. After a brief pause, I admitted, "Yes, I am."

"Would you show me?" Jeff asked.

"You want me to show you my cock?" I asked with surprise.

"Actually, taking your clothes off would be even better," he responded.

"You mean right here?" I asked.

"We're all alone," Jeff assured me, "And the door is locked."

This was totally unexpected, but I decided to go along with it. I hoped that I might be able to convince Jeff to let me suck him.

I took off all my clothes and sat down, now sporting a fully erect cock.

"I can see that you are quite aroused," said Jeff, "Would you like to do anything about it?"

"I'd love to suck you," I said boldly, surprising myself that I would say it.

"How about if you just jack-off for now?" asked Jeff, "Go ahead and jack off the way you normally do."

"I like to do it on my knees," I said, "Like I am actually giving a blowjob."

"Feel free to do it as you like," he replied.

I got on my knees and began to stroke. It was the first time I jacked-off in front of someone else. I thought I'd be self-conscious about it, but it was actually kind of exciting. Jeff watched with interest and I hope he might be getting aroused and offer me his cock.

"I wanna suck you," I said as I stroked.

"Imagine that you are," Jeff said.

I closed my eyes and imagined his cock in my mouth, getting ready to unload. I imagined him cumming and that was enough to send me over the edge. As usual, I shot my load into my hand as Jeff watched, and quickly brought it to my mouth, licking up all my cum.

"That's impressive," said Jeff, "I just had to see it to believe it. Were you actually fantasizing about sucking me?"

"Sure was!", I replied, "I just wish it was for real!"

"I'm flattered," said Jeff.

"Sure wish I could change your mind," I said.

"Maybe on our second interview," Jeff said, "You can get dressed now."

I got dressed and left, kind of surprised at how it had gone. I found the memory of jacking-off for Jeff very arousing.

That evening I chatted with Jeff, who thanked me for the interview and said he learned much that he could use in his research. I told him that I was glad to help, but would have liked to have sucked him.

He said he was thinking of letting me suck him, and perhaps he would the next time. Next time? I was eager to know when. It was fun enough just jacking off for him – I don't know why I liked it so much, but I clearly did. Now if I'd get to give my first blowjob that would be fantastic.

I told Jeff that I would be willing to do another interview, but did expect to suck him next time, and Jeff said he would try to make it happen. I didn't know if he was uncomfortable with the idea of a guy sucking him, or if he was just teasing me. One way or another I wanted his cock in my mouth. I agreed to come back in two days.

When I returned I immediately undressed. When Jeff asked why I said it was so he could immediately see the state of my arousal. It turned out that soon into the interview I was fully hard once again. I asked Jeff if he would like to hold my cock to assess how hard I was, but he declined. I approached him and urged him to reconsider in the interest of science and he reluctantly took my cock in his hand. He gently squeezed and it felt wonderful.

"It's okay to squeeze harder," I said, and he did, which felt even better. I had never been handled by anyone before and I told Jeff that this was new to me and I really liked it. "If you want to examine me more completely, please feel free to," I added. Jeff let go of my cock and backed up, as if he suddenly realized he had gone too far.

"That was really nice," I said, "Now tell me how you felt about it."

"I had mixed feelings," confessed Jeff, "I found it strangely enjoyable to arouse you, but at the same time I felt I was crossing a forbidden line."

"Forbidden by our social standards," I said, "But it's just us together, and you are beginning to understand why I like giving pleasure."

"I even liked jacking-off for you the last time," I confessed, "Because you seemed to enjoy my doing it."

"Would you like to do it again?" Jeff asked.

"Would you like me too?" I responded, "Did you enjoy watching?"

Jeff blushed and admitted, "Kind of."

"I'll do it again for you if you arouse me more," I said.

"By squeezing you?" Jeff asked.

"Or by letting me squeeze your cock," I said, "Better yet, let's do it together!"

Jeff seemed unsure but with my continued urging he unzipped and took out his cock. It was soft, but even soft it was as big as mine. I grasped his cock as he took mine and soon we were both aroused.

"You should let me help you with that," I said.

"Go ahead," whispered Jeff, and I got on my knees, which my face inches from his hardening cock. I opened my mouth and waited for Jeff to make the first move. As I hoped, his judgement was affected by his arousal and soon he was in my mouth.

It was truly wonderful! The first time to have a cock in my mouth and it felt just great! I had dreamt of this for years and now it was happening, and I knew immediately that cocks and mouths were supposed to be together.

Soon Jeff was fully hard and I enjoyed tracing the contours of his cock with my tongue. Drawing upon the many blowjob videos and the cocksucking tutorials I had read with interest, I worked Jeff's cock to the best of my ability. It may be my first blowjob, but I was determined to do it well!

Jeff put his hand on my head and then abruptly pulling back, as if unsure if it was alright.

I briefly pulled back and said, "That's fine, I welcome your touch," and then resumed sucking.

Jeff put both hands on my head and ran his fingers through my hair. We were both having the times of our lives. Jeff pulled my head close to him, forcing his cock deeper into my mouth. The head caused me to gag, which I had read about. Jeff sensed my discomfort and backed off, but I pushed my head toward him. I knew that with practice the gag reflex could be mastered and knew that Jeff was enjoying it.

"I'm gonna cum!" Jeff said, "You sure you want it?"

Without words, I answered by putting my hands on his hips and pulling him closer. Finally, Jeff rewarded me with his hot load. It was strong tasting, but a little different than mine, and I really enjoyed feeling it pumping right from his cock!

After Jeff came I continued to hold his cock in my mouth, without swallowing his load. The taste of his cum was especially arousing, and I stroked myself off almost immediately, and then licked up my cum as usual.

"I gotta rest," said Jeff, sitting on his bed and then laying back.

"Thanks for sharing yourself with me," I said, "I'll go now, but look forward to your next interview."

I was on cloud nine as I traveled back home. I finally had sucked my first cock and knew that my life would never be the same.

From that point on I blew Jeff several times a week, and a few times interviewed as well. I got him to take his clothes off and try a variety of positions, all of which we both loved. Jeff really is doing some serious research, but we're both enjoying it along the way.

  To be continued . . .

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