I 'm Don, and when I was thirteen I learned about friends with benefits. I was a pretty typical boy -- interested in girls but awkward with them -- I just didn't know what to say to them.

Tom had it made. He was with Marsha nearly all the time and I'm sure he was getting plenty of ass. By the way, Marsha had a nice round ass that nearly any guy would want!

Jim was my long time friend, and we would often commisserate about how tough it was to get anywhere with girls -- our conversation often turned to Tom and Marsha -- we wanted so badly to find girls that for us!

One day Jim told me that he heard that Tom and Marsha were "friends with benefits". I assumed they were going steady.

"So what's the difference from going steady?" I asked.

"It's supposed to be a less demanding arrangement -- they are just friends, but have sex whenever they want to."

"That's even better!" I said, "How do we get a deal like that?"

"No idea," said Jim, "But I suppose we could be friends with benefits."

"How would that work?" I asked, "Why would a couple of guys do that? Why would we?"

"Well, we'd be friends just like we've always been," Jim explained, "But you could suck my cock whenever you wanted."

I couldn't believe what I was hearing. "Why the hell would I want to do anything like that?"

"You might like it," Jim replied, "How do you know without trying it? I could suck you too."

"I don't know," I said, "It would probably be better than jacking-off, but I'm no cocksucker."

"No big deal," Jim said, "We don't have to -- think it over and let me know."

That night, as I jacked-off at bedtime I couldn't help but wonder what it would be like to get a blowjob. I knew guys who tried to get their girlfriends to suck them without success. If I was ever going to get sucked Jim might be my only hope. Of course I'd have to suck him, but how bad could that be? We'd have to keep it secret -- I sure didn't want it getting around school that I was a cocksucker!

The next day I told Jim I was okay with trying out friends with benefits. He smiled and said, lets give it a try at my place after school. The rest of the day I thought about how it might work. I worried that if I went first that Jim might change his mind and not suck me -- then I'd be a cocksucker for nothing! I decided to insist that Jim go first.

That was the plan, but Jim had the same concerns. "Well, maybe this wasn't such a good idea," I said.

"Wait!," said Jim, "We could 69."

"What's that? I asked.

"We lay opposite each other on the bed and suck each other at the same time," he said.

"Okay, we can do that, but we have to agree that whoever cums first will keep sucking until the other one does," I said.

"Of course," Jim said, "That's only fair."

I was nervous about this, but excited as well. Soon we were naked and lay on the bed on our sides, with our faces close to each other's cocks.

"Ready?" I asked, "Let's start at the same time."

I took Jim into my mouth and felt him begin to suck me. It felt wonderful, and his cock in my mouth was a lot better than I thought it would be. I knew that being a cocksucker was generally frowned upon, but it seemed pretty easy. As we sucked we each reached full erection and were both close to cumming. Suddenly Jim came, shooting his hot load into my mouth. It was strong tasting -- and very different from anything else. I'd heard that cum tasted terrible, but it didn't seem all that bad. I was so consumed with Jim cumming that I didn't notice that he'd stopped sucking me.

Finally, when I swallowed it hit me. "Hey, you gotta finish me off!" I said.

"I'm sorry Don," he said, "I just can't."

"What do you mean you can't," I shot back, "Of course you can! You promised -- you owe me!"

"I know," Jim said, "I just can't do it now."

"When then?" I asked.

"Tomorrow," Jim said, "For sure."

I went home, pissed about Jim backing out. I still needed to cum badly, so I jacked-off. As I did, I began thinking about girls, as usual, but the thought of sucking Jim popped into my head and it was arousing -- I tried to push it out of my mind, but it wouldn't leave. Finally when I recalled Jim cumming in my mouth I shot my load -- and more strongly than ever before.

I was surprised that sucking Jim aroused me. Maybe it was a one-time thing, so I just let it go. Then at bedtime, when I ususally jacked-off it happened again. I tried my best to not think about it, but I just couldn't help it -- it aroused me and that's just not something you can control!

I drifted off to sleep but awoke hard the next morning. I started to jack-off in the shower but stopped as soon as I began thinking about sucking Jim. Damn! How could sucking him just once change everything?

I saw Jim at school and he apologized profusely and promised to make it up to me after school. He explained that as soon as he came he had a horrible feeling of guilt and couldn't continue, but he was okay now.

I went to Jim's after school and he suggested that we 69 again.

"But what if you cum first?" I asked, "Then I'm out of luck again."

Jim said he had it under control but I wasn't buying it, so he finally agreed to just blow me.

I sat on the edge of Jim's bed and took my cock out. Jim got on his knees and began to suck. I closed my eyes and before I knew it I was imagining blowing him again. Soon I came, and suddenly Jim bolted out of the room. He ran to the bathroom, spit out my cum and washed his mouth out.

"That was terrible tasting!" Jim said when he returned, "I nearly had to puke!"

This clearly wasn't a good time to hang out together, so I thanked Jim and went home. I had a lot to think about.

Here I was, fondly recalling the blowjob I gave Jim, and him hating to do it. This didn't look good for a friends with benefits arrangement.

The next day I saw Jim and we discussed the future of our arrangement. "I'm sorry Don, but I just can't do that anymore," Jim said, "But we're even, right?"

"Sure," I agreed, but secretly knew that Jim left me with desires I never counted on. Well, I just put it behind me and hoped that with time it would just go away.

I didn't. Every time I saw Jim I thought about blowing him.

Nothing was said for a couple of weeks, then one day Jim asked, "Did my cum taste really bad?"

I was caught off-guard and had to think about it for awhile -- what was behind this question?

Finally I answered, "It was pretty strong tasting, I guess."

"Yours was horrible -- nearly made me puke," Jim said, "That's why I can't suck you any more."

"That's okay," I said, hoping to once again put this behind us.

"But you could suck me if you wanted," Jim said, but I declined.

In truth, I wanted to suck him, and it was still a common jack-off fantasy, though I wasn't about to admit it.

I was almost disappointed when he dropped it -- I hoped he would try to talk me into it.

A few days later he asked me to suck him again. "What do I get out of it," I asked.

"The satisfaction of doing something really nice for me," Jim said, "You were really good at it."

I was glad that Jim liked my work and really wanted to do it again -- but still I resisted.

"How about if we flip a coin -- you call it in the air -- if I win, you suck me," Jim said.

"So what if I win?" I asked.

"Then you don't suck me," said Jim, grinning -- he knew darned well it was an unfair bet -- a sucker bet?

"Why would I agree to that?" I asked.

"Afraid you'll lose?" Jim responded -- in truth, I really wanted to lose, but didn't want him to know.

"Go ahead and flip," I said, which he did. While the coin was in the air I called "tails". I didn't see how the coin landed, but Jim said it was heads.

"It's settled then," said Jim, "Today after school you suck me."

The rest of the afternoon all I could think of was sucking Jim. I felt it was so wrong, but I wanted it so much! I was really conflicted. I liked girls, but I really longed for Jim's cock. I considered myself completely straight, yet I wanted to suck Jim. Could I be a straight cocksucker?

After school I went to Jim's but decided to protest, saying, "I never saw how the coin landed -- we should flip again."

"Don, you can't just welch on a bet!" said Jim.

"I don't welch on bets!" I insisted, as Jim unzipped and took out his cock. I dropped to my knees and tried to seem reluctant, as I took Jim into my mouth. Once he was back in my mouth I couldn't hold back anymore. Jim felt so "right" in my mouth and I was so glad to be sucking him once more. I moved my tongue around, feeling his excitement grow in my mouth. Then he enlarged a little and began pumping his hot seed into my mouth. I'd wanted this so badly, and eagerly swallowed. I was completely aroused and my cock was straining in my pants.

"Thanks Don, that was great," said Jim, "I see you liked it -- go ahead and jack off if you like."

In my present state I wasn't thinking rationally, and just needed to cum, so I took my cock out and began to stroke. As I did, Jim said, "You liked sucking me, didn't you? Didn't you?"

He kept pressing me for an answer, and I finally said I did. A short time later I shot my load into a tissue.

Now relieved, it dawned on me that I admitted to Jim that I liked sucking him -- something I didn't want to say.

"Now that we have that out of the way, we can resume our 'friends with benefits' arrangement," Jim said.

I only said that I had to go, and went home. I had a lot on my mind -- Jim came in my mouth once again, which I really wanted, but now he knows I like it. I hope he wouldn't think less of me because of it.

The next day at school I said, "Jim, I feel a little ashamed about sucking you yesterday."

"Why?" he asked, we both liked it."

"Yes," I admitted, "But I'm afraid you'll think less of me because of it."

"No way!" Jim proclaimed, "I think the world of you for doing such a nice thing for me!

That put my mind at ease, and before I could think to stop myself, I asked, "Want me to suck you today?"

Once it was out I couldn't take it back. Jim quickly replied, "Sure, let's do it!"

I spent another school day afternoon thinking about sucking Jim, and finally the last bell of the day rang and I rushed to Jim's house.

Jim answered the door completely naked, surprising me. "You get naked too," he said, and I quickly undressed.

"Now jack-off as you suck me," Jim said, "It's only fair."

That sounded like a great idea, but as I took him into my mouth and began to stroke, it was the most exciting thing of my life! Nothing could compare to jacking with a cock in my mouth, but I tried to hold off cumming, as I moved my tongue around Jim's cock, bringing him to climax.

The taste of his cum triggered my climax, shooting an especially big load!

After that I was hooked. Jim and I both knew that I loved sucking him, and I ended up jacking-off while sucking Jim nearly every day. It was the very best way for me to cum!

Jim and I continued to be the best of friends -- maybe even more so, now that we shared a sexual connection.

All throughout high school I continued to suck him. I dated girls, but most of all I liked Jim's cock. I eventually got tired of the games girls played, holding out when it was so clear what we really wanted.

I decided to get honest with myself and accept that I'm a cocksucker, and that was how I had sex -- pure and simple as that!

I can tell you one thing for sure: a "friends with benefits" arrangement is the best!

  To be continued . . .

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