Date: Tue, 23 Jun 2015 05:55:23 +0000 (UTC) From: Eric Foster Subject: In Time Part 32 Disclaimer: this story contains sexual material. If you are not 18 or over, or this is not legal in your country you should not read any further. This material may offend if you find homosexual acts offensive or homosexual acts between younger boys offensive. All similarities between this story's plot line, characters, names, places, or any other item are purely coincidence In Time The man looked down at the file and then back up at the boy sitting on the sofa across from him. It didn't just seem odd, but quite strange how everything seemed to become entangled. Dr. Webb placed the file down for now and picked up a pen and pad. "Well Jack, it's nice to meet you" Dr. Webb said with a smile. "Thanks, Mr. Oslon said Caleb saw you and that it'd be good if I saw you to" Jack said, a hint of nervousness underlying his voice. "I'm hoping this will be helpful for you. So let's start off with why you're here." Jack let his gaze drift to the floor, a sense of unease coming over him. His body posture betrayed his uncertainty and discomfort. "My parents kicked me out when I admitted I was gay. I ran away for a week before I..."Jack paused for a moment "Before I tried something really stupid, but Caleb saved me. He kept me from doing it" "What was it you were going to do?" Jack paused. He felt the tears begin to form again in his eyes, but he quickly wiped them away. He struggled to keep his composure, but managed to keep it enough to answer. "I was going to jump from a bridge." Dr. Webb noted all of this, but mentally noted another connection. Caleb had been saved and now saved Jack. He noted to look through his files after the session and look over any similarities. "I understand that you've gone through a lot, and that this is difficult for you. Do you still feel suicidal?" Jack shook his head lightly. "Not really..." "What do you mean by not really?" Jack paused again before he let out a sigh and continued. "I've thought about it twice since I've moved in with Caleb and his dad. I keep thinking about my family, and how they only loved who they thought I was. They never loved who I really am." "How do you know that?" "They don't acknowledge that I'm alive. None of my biological family does" Jack said as he fought back tears. He tried, but finally a few tears managed their way past his defenses and down his cheeks. He felt the salt on his lips and tongue as his cheeks burned. His breath was erratic and he was close to sobbing. Dr. Webb handed him a tissue box and noted this all. Once Jack regained his composure Dr. Webb spoke up. "Are you ready to continue Jack?" Jack gave a single nod as he wiped away the last tears with a tissue. "Did you ever have any encounters like this before with your parents?" "Once. It's the reason we moved here in the first place." Dr. Webb nodded to continue. "I'd liked another boy named Nicholas. We found out the feelings were mutual and had a secret relationship. My parents caught me making out with him and sent me to a camp." "A camp?" Dr. Webb took note of this. "Camp Lighthouse. They made us pray, had group sessions, copy scripture and reminded us about what would happen if we kept disobeying god" Jack visibly shivered, his arms wrapping around himself. "Did they ever physically abuse you?" Jack remained silent as he looked up at Dr. Webb. His eyes portrayed the fear and dismay he felt. "They wanted us to be cured. They said we could be saved if we just tried harder." Dr. Webb took note of this, and took note of the name of the camp. He'd look it up later after the session. "Did anything in particular stick out while you were at camp?" "I remember during a group session one boy admitted that he'd been in love for three years. He started to cry when he said how he missed his boyfriend" Jack paused as he shivered at the memories "The pastor got up kicked him out of his chair and told him to stop crying and be a man. He said men don't cry." Jack said. "Did they ever do anything like that to you?" Jack wrapped his arms around himself tighter, as if he was cold. "I forgot to turn in my weekly verses once..." "Weekly?" Dr. Webb asked, a concerned look in his eye. "The camp was four weeks during the summer" Jack explained. Dr. Webb nodded for him to continue. "My counselor woke me up at 3 am and forced me to do physical labor to repent for my wrong doings. The pastor came by and yelled at me for being forgetful and asked why I was trying to disrespect god. I had to work until 10 pm and I wasn't given any food, and only a two bottles of water. I only remember blacking out at the end and waking up in my bed the next morning. I felt sick, but I still had to attend everything" Jack's tone had shifted to anger now, his eyes narrowing. Dr. Webb took note of this as he tried to note Jack's shift in body language. "At the end, I pretended to be cured. I smiled and sang songs of praise as my parents came and picked me up. I thought that maybe I'd done it, that maybe I'd made it out alive and that it was all a test by god. I thought maybe I'd become normal" Jack said. His composure failed at the end of his sentence. The tears once again streaked down his face and he sobbed. He went through the tissues again as Dr. Webb noted all of this. He knew the damage was extensive, but unlike Caleb, he didn't have anyone to protect him. Dr. Webb wondered if the damage would make itself more apparent with time. He'd have to see. "Did anything else occur at the camp?" Dr. Webb asked gently "I tried to kill myself twice while there" Jack replied solemnly. Jack paused for a few moments before he continued. "The first time I tried to drown myself in the pool at night. I couldn't do it though. The second time I tried to jump off the church roof at night, but I couldn't do it either." Jack said his eyes betraying a sense of desperation. "What happened after that?" "I came home and my parents said we'd be moving to help me. I never got to see Nicholas again after that" Jack said in a disappointed tone. A small sigh escaped his lips when he finished. "But..." Jack began before Dr. Webb started. "I've got Caleb now" Jack said, a bittersweet smile coming upon his face. "How much of this does Caleb know?" "All of it. I told him about it just before winter break." "And how did he react?" Jack let out a light sigh as a small smile came upon his face. "We just held each other for a long time. We didn't even talk, we just stayed close" Jack said softly. Jack lowered his arms now and leaned back into the chair again. Dr. Webb noted the change in body language and posture. "It seems like you and Caleb are rather intimate?" Jack nodded in response. "Do you have a sexual relationship with Caleb?" Jack's cheeks blushed as his gaze shifted to the ground. "We've only made out so far. I don't think we're ready to go further yet." Dr. Webb noted this on his notepad. He gave a small nod, knowing his advice had been followed, somewhat. "How much of Caleb's past are you aware of Jack?" "I know everything about Mr. Stevens and Alex" Jack said. Dr. Webb nodded, and considered his words for a few moments. "I had told Caleb this, and I feel the same applies to you. You're in a very fragile state right now. You can handle day to day stresses fine, but too much could cause some serious issues. For you in particular I feel a lot of the damage has been hidden, and will come to light more in the next year or so" Dr. Webb explained. "Wouldn't it be apparent now?" "Not exactly. You've had to pretend for so long that you might not even know the difference anymore. All the pretending you had to do denied who you really were and created a turmoil whether or not you felt it. I'm afraid this might come to light later on" Dr. Webb noticed Jack's posture change. He sensed the disappointment. "However, when that time comes, I'll be glad to help you through it" Dr. Webb paused "and I know Caleb and Mr. Oslon will to." Jack looked up, a tentative smile on his face. He leaned back into the seat and sat silent for a few moments, his concentration somewhere else. "It's going to be a while until Caleb is ready, isn't it?" "Ready for what?" Jack blushed as his gaze shifted to the floor. He fidgeted with his hands nervously. "For the relationship to go further." "Do you mean sex?" Jack blushed even more as he fiddled with his fingers. "That and..." Jack paused for a moment "He's hesitant about a lot of things. He's okay with some things like cuddling and kissing. But he's always worried about not having control" Dr. Webb considered how much information he could reveal without violating patient privacy. He gave it a few more moments of thought and answered. "His trust was violated in one of the most horrific ways possible. It's going to be a long time before he's ready to trust anyone again, but he'll always carry that scar. Even when he is ready, he'll still be hesitant. So the fact that he is worried about control isn't surprising and it's not a reflection on you. It's a reflection on the trust issues that he has." "That makes sense" Jack said with a nod. Dr. Webb looked down at his watch and realized that they had just run out of time. "Well Jack, for now this is where we stop, but I look forward to continuing helping you through this and help you grow from it" Dr. Webb said extending out his hand. Jack took his hand in a handshake and offered a smile in return. "Thank you Dr. Webb" He couldn't help but notice the wet suit clinging to the tan, and semi-built body. The afternoon sun glinting off his wet skin and illuminating his tan a golden shade. His shoulder length blonde hair was matted to his neck and shoulders. Alex watched Martin walk over to him quickly and sat down in the hot tub. The white snow around them was melted just at the edge of the tub. "Even for a heated pool that was still cold" Martin said as he carefully lowered himself into the water. "That's why I always stay in the hot tubs" Alex said. Martin sat awkwardly on the edge trying to move in faster, but being careful of the intensely warm water. "This sucks. I'm too cold and too hot" Martin said shivering from the now cold beads of water on his skin. "Then just get in fast. You'll be fine" Alex said as he splashed Martin. "Hey!" Martin shot back. Alex continued to splash Martin. He tried to desperately fend himself off, but it was to no avail as Alex continued to barrage him with water. Finally he relented and got into the water, much faster than he wanted to. "See, that wasn't too bad" Alex said with a mischievous smile as he scooted next to Martin. "Yeah I guess it wasn't" Martin said with a sly smile. Martin reached up and quickly hit the buttons for the jets. They started up making the water bubbly and very difficult to see through. Martin sat back down next to Alex and reached down into Alex's crotch. He reached up under his elastic band and grabbed onto Alex who was quickly stiffening. "Martin?" Alex asked in shock. Martin didn't say anything and instead began to rub harder. Alex began panting as he felt himself approaching the edge. Then before he could get any further Martin pulled his hand out of Alex's suit and started to get up out of the hot tub. Alex turned around with a shocked and confused look on his face. "We've gotta get back to the room for dinner." Martin said with a sly grin. Alex could feel his erection still at full mast as he looked at Martin with a pleading look on his face. "I have to walk back like this?" Alex said with a panic stricken face. Martin just shrugged his shoulders with a small smile. "Maybe try getting into the heated pool too fast. That should cool you off" Martin said, chuckling as he walked away towards the hotel. Alex quickly grabbed his towel off the pool seat and covered himself with it. Puberty hadn't hit him fully yet, so it wasn't big enough to be noticed with the towel on. He was soon on the elevator, alone, and went down the hall to his room. Alex walked into his room and could hear the light hiss of the running shower. He thought about it for a few moments and made up his mind. He stripped off all of his clothing and walked into the bathroom. The clear glass door didn't hide anything as Martin was putting the body wash on himself. At first his eyes went wide with shock, but the shock was quickly replaced by a small smile and desire in his eyes. Alex walked into the shower and waited a moment to adjust to the water temperature before he wrapped his arms around Martin. "You almost got me caught walking around with a boner" Alex said softly. "You made me get into a hot tub too fast" Martin said slyly. "Well you never finished what you started" Alex said rubbing himself harder against Martin. Martin laughed some as he reached down and took a hold of himself and Alex at the same time rubbing them together. Alex let out a gasp as the sense of being touched overtook him. Martin felt his own heart race as his wet skin touched Alex's. Their senses were overwhelmed as they moved closer together. Alex ran his hand down and grabbed Martin's butt. He rubbed over the smooth skin and felt intoxicated by the feelings. It was only moments later that they both climaxed with what little they produced washing down the drain. Alex pulled back, looking into Martin's eyes. Their bodies relaxed as they meshed into each other. The two soaped up and rinsed before turning off the shower and drying off. Martin led Alex to the bed and pulled him down onto it. "Do you want to go to the arcade before dinner?" Alex asked softly Martin responded by simply pulling him tighter and digging his head into the crook of Alex's neck. "I just wanna cuddle for a while" Martin whispered. Alex continued to hold onto Martin and soon after heard light snoring. The rhythmic breathing and hear beat filled his soundscape and soon took him away as well for the short nap before dinner. The snow fell silently outside as the two boys let their body heat and breath exchange under the warm blankets of their hotel room bed. The shining lights from the small boutique shops mixed with the street lights and lights of the condominium rooms above. Jacob looked around the semi-crowded night time street as various fragrances from shops and restaurants filled his nose. Corey wasn't far behind him. The two took in the sights and stopped at windows of the more interesting shops. The two came up to a jewelry shop on the corner and peered into the window. There were various pendants and necklaces on displays with different colors and designs. They were all nice but nothing compared to the pendant Corey had given him. Corey looked down at his own opal pendant. Jacob looked around until his gaze was caught by a small ring in the corner. It was grey and black with a small blue stone in the center. He moved closer to get a better look. It was a beautiful ring, and for a moment a thought formed in his mind. His eyes went wide and he shivered as he brought himself back down to reality. He felt a hand come to rest on his shoulder. Corey leaned down and looked at the ring for a few moments. "It's a pretty ring" Corey said softy. "Yeah" Jacob replied before standing up and brushing off Corey's hand. "Is something wrong?" Corey asked placing his hand back on Jacob's shoulder and turning to face him. "It just feels weird" Jacob said softly. Corey didn't say anything and instead moved a step closer. Jacob's gaze met his own and the two locked eyes for a moment. Jacob nodded and Corey understood. The two navigated the lit streets until they found a more remote section of the small shopping village. There was a lone bench at the bottom of the ski slopes. There was less lighting so the stars were visible. Plus there was no one around so it was relatively quiet. Jacob sat down with Corey. He leaned into him and let out a soft sigh. "I'm really afraid Corey" "Of what?" "Of moving so fast." "What?" Jacob quickly sat up and locked eyes with Corey. "Moving too fast. I mean we're only 15, we've never dated before and we're already going on trips together and having sex?!" Jacob said panicked. Jacob could see some of the fear find its way into Corey's eyes. He shivered some as he tried to find the words to respond. "Do you not want to stay together?" "No!" Jacob reached out and gripped Corey's shoulder. "Anything but not staying together. But Corey..." Jacob paused for a moment to catch his breath "I'm afraid I like you too much" Jacob pleaded as he leaned in closer. Corey's face reflected his own confusion as he tried to process Jacob's words. "What are you talking about?" "I mean..." Jacob tried to think of his words. He felt the cold sweat beading his forehead and dripping down his cheeks. His face flush with effort as his breath became laborious. "Jacob are you okay?" Corey removed his glove and placed his hand on Jacob's head. He could easily feel his elevated body temperature. "Jacob, you're sick. We need to get to the hotel" Corey said as he began to help Jacob up. Jacob began to stand, but felt the cramping pain and turned to the empty patch of snow to relieve his stomach. His head felt light as he stood and the sweating seemed to stop. Corey held Jacob across the waist and walked with him through the shopping village until they got to their hotel. He quickly led them upstairs to their room and helped Jacob strip down to his boxers and placed him on the bed. Corey left for a few moments to alert Jacobs's parents and quickly returned. "You probably won't be going skiing tomorrow eh?" Corey said with a small smile as he shed the last of his clothing, except his boxers, and sat down with Jacob. Jacob simply moved himself closer to Corey and held him close. Corey didn't care about the sickness and instead lay down and aligned himself with Jacob. Jacob turned away and lay spread out on his back. "I was being serious about being afraid earlier" Jacob said. "I think that's the fever talking" Corey said, dismissing Jacob. Jacob sat up, surprising Corey. He turned to face him and leaned forward. "It's not the sickness, I'm being serious" Jacob said a grave look on his face. Corey waited for a few moments before sitting up and facing Jacob. "Explain it" Corey in a neutral tone. "I really like you. I like you so much I know that I love you" Jacob explained, pausing for a few moments to consider his words. "I love you but we're so young, we can't make this permanent yet" Jacob paused as he tried to grasp for words "We're not adults, we can't just move in together. We can't get married yet. We've still got to get through high school. I just...I don't wanna lose you until we can make this forever" Jacob said finally losing his composure as he grabbed for Corey and held him. Corey held him tight and tried to sooth Jacob as he felt the tears his shoulder. He continued to stroke his back gently as Jacob began to regain his composure. "Jacob why are you so worried about this?" "I've been thinking about since we got here. It's made me realize how much this has made my life better" Jacob paused a moment as he held Corey closer "Before you I didn't have anyone that I could be like this with, but now that you're here I don't ever want to go back to that. I just wanna stay with you" Jacob said softly. Corey let out a soft sigh as he consoled Jacob. "I can't guarantee anything, and you made some points" Corey said softly. Jacob looked up at him, his eyes desperate for an answer. "But I think" Corey paused a moment "I think love will keep us until we can make it permanent." "Do you think we'll get married one day?" Corey's gaze locked with Jacob as he leaned in for a soft kiss. "I think we will." He looked over the document on the screen in front of him. He had just finished the last page and gave it a glance over. It was a rough draft, but it seemed promising. "Do you think it'd sell?" Mr. Stewart turned around to see his wife standing just behind him. "I got in contact with my old publisher and sent it to them. They thought it definitely has promise. It's just a rough draft so it still needs some editing" Mr. Stewart said as he turned back around to look over the page again "But I think it might do it." He felt his wife's hand come to rest on his shoulder. "You know I'd stay home if I could do something from home" Ms. Stewart paused leaned in some "but I'm not a writer" She said as she sat down in the chair next to her husband. "I don't want our kids to be alone after what happened to Jacob" Mr. Stewart said. "Well they've both got boyfriends now" Ms. Stewart said but continued "but you're right, it's not the same as one of us being there." "I just can't believe it happened right under our noses." "Jacob was hiding it Harrison. We couldn't do anything about something we didn't know about." Mr. Stewart turned toward his wife with a disgruntled look. "How are you not feeling guilty about it?" "I do feel guilty, and don't think I'm just making excuses to get out of it" Ms. Stewart said in a stern voice. "Then why do you keep talking like that?" "Because you've done enough for Jacob already" Ms. Stewart said as she placed her hands on her husband's shoulders. "You're changing careers just to be at home with him more. I'd do the same if I could. You've not been the same since then and neither has Jacob. I can see it in both of you. But if you don't see that he needs his own space to, you'll overdo this and it'll be just as bad for him. He's growing up. He still needs us...but only just enough." Mr. Stewart leaned back slightly into the chair he was seated in. The document continued to light up the screen in front of him. He looked over to his wife and leaned in for a momentary kiss. "In time, they'll change" Mr. Stewart said softly. "It's amazing how much they've already in six months" Ms. Stewart said with a small smile. Jack sat down on the edge of the bed. The window provided a view of winters grip on the landscape with leafless trees and cold wind. For a moment Jack felt like he was going to shiver until two arms wrapped around his Chest and a head came to rest on his shoulder. "I'm glad you're seeing Dr. Webb. He's really good at helping through these things" Caleb said softly. "He said a lot of the damage might not be apparent right away. It might come out more in the next year." Caleb felt Jack shiver. Caleb sat down and placed his legs around Jack so that he was fully in contact with Jack. "I don't expect it to be easy for either of us. I know I've got a while to" Caleb said softly with a hint of melancholy. Jack took Caleb's hand and brought it up to his lips for a soft kiss as he placed his other hand on top of Caleb's other hand and intermingled their fingers. "I'm glad we at least have each other to get through this." "And my dad, friends, and Dr. Webb. We've got a lot of people to help us, and we'll need it as we get settled" Caleb said, holding Jack tightly. Jack let out a small sigh as he ran his thumb over Caleb's hand. "You're right." The two sat in silence for a few moments as they let their soft breaths fill the soundscape. Jack moved to turn around and lay down with Caleb who was intertwined with him. He took in his scent as Caleb took in his. They let the calming atmosphere relax them as Jack spoke up. "I think I found a new church to attend" Jack said softly. "Really?" "Yeah, I found them online. They're Presbyterian and I contacted the pastor. I told him about what happened to me and he said he'd be more than happy to have me there this Sunday" Jack said, a smile on his face. "What do they think about gays?" "They don't think homosexuality is wrong. They just see it as another part of the spectrum of god's creation. Plus they support gay marriage so there's that" Jack with a bright smile. "It sounds like it's the place for you" Caleb said reassuringly. "I think it might be. It'll be pretty different though, since I grew up Baptist, and they're on the other end of the spectrum." "Aren't you all just Christian?" "It's a bit more complicated than that" Jack said with a small laugh. "Well as long as you're happy" Caleb said. "I think I might be there. But no matter what I'm happy with you." Caleb gazed into Jack's eyes for a few moments before he leaned in for a kiss. The kiss was initially brief, but quickly became more passionate. It only took moments before it overcame both of them and Caleb sat up off of Jack. He removed his own shirt as Jack did the same. Jack's hand came to rest on Caleb's stomach. He rubbed it there a few times before it began moving down towards Caleb's waistband. Caleb let out a gasp causing Jack to quickly retract his hang. "I'm really sorry! I didn't think..." "No that's not it" Caleb said quickly cutting off Jack. "I just didn't think you'd want to do that yet" Caleb said, shock still in his voice, but a smile on his face. "I didn't really wanna do much. I just wanted to...umm...feel it" Jack said trailing off at the end. His face was blushed and his eyes didn't dare to meet Caleb's. A sly smile came onto Caleb's lips as he leaned down to kiss Jack. "It's fine if you want to. You're my boyfriend" Caleb said. Caleb undid his waistband and pulled open the front flaps revealing his erect penis to Jack. He only had a few sparse hairs and was just at three inches. Jack reached out and took it between his fingers. Caleb felt a shiver run through him as his breath caught in his throat. Jack continued to gently explore the area. "I've never seen another boys like this." "Never?" Jack shook his head. "I've seen other guys naked in the locker rooms, but I've never seen another boy erect" Jack said as he continued to play with Caleb's privates. Jack continued to do this until he reached up and pulled Caleb into kiss him again. Caleb shed his shorts entirely and lay naked with Jack as they continued their kissing. Jack reached down and continued to grasp Caleb. Caleb began to buck his hips and in only a few minutes produced a few drops of seminal fluid. Jack brought his hand up to his face. He studied the goo for a few moments. "You've seen seamen before right?" "I don't jack off a lot" Jack responded. "Like how much?" "Maybe once or twice a month" Jack responded before wiping the goo onto a tissue from the nightstand. "That's it?" "I don't really have a need to. Plus" Jack paused for a moment "my upbringing helped with that" Jack responded with his gaze shifted to the left. "Ah, that makes sense" Caleb said as he held himself tighter to Jack. "So I guess I do it now?" Jack said as he started to unbutton his shorts. Caleb reached down and brought Jack's hands back up between them. "When you're ready you can. Until then this is just fine" Caleb said with a soft smile. "Are you sure?" Caleb simply gave a nod in response and pulled Jack in tightly to cuddle with him. "Are you okay if I'm naked?" "Yeah it's fine" Jack said. He placed his hands on Caleb's back and let them move southward until they were over Caleb's butt. He rubbed it for a few moments and couldn't help but chuckle as he grabbed it. "What?" Caleb asked, chuckling as well. "I'm touching your butt" "Yeah you are" Caleb laughed as he squirmed beneath Jack's touch. The two settled down a few moments later and continued to lay like this. Eventually this translated to soft breaths, and finally a light nap as they rest from their activities. The soft but cold winds continued to blow outside as winter held its grip on the lands. Yet the two boys in the room evaded this cold, and shared warmth as the winter sun set. Authors note: Hey again everyone. Sorry this part came out a bit later than I expected. I wanted to have it done by last week, but I had a hernia surgery. I thought I'd get a lot of writing done but instead I was too tired half the time due to the pain medication. I'm far better now. My summer is kind of going slow, and I'm probably going to end up working at a car wash, but enough about me. I really wanted this part to reflect progress with Jack's character, but more importantly something brewing in Corey's and Jacob's character. It's going to be a major theme in about another part or two (I'm still deciding). I'm pretty much done messing with Alex and Martin's relationship. They've gone through enough already. Anyway I hope yall enjoyed this part and I really appreciated the comments I've received. It really means a lot to me. If you have any question, comments, or suggestions, please feel free to send it my way at EFoster447@yahoo.com. I'll keep posting parts (until the end at part 40) and I hope you guys continue to enjoy. Thanks for reading!