Date: Tue, 13 Jul 1999 13:22:43 EDT From: Phaedrus57@aol.com Subject: Isle of Refuge, Part 8--Young Friends, tt/bb Caveat: This is a story of love and adventure among a group of teenaged boys. It contains scenes of sexual activities between boys. If this offends you, do not read the story. Please go to some other site. If the laws of your country or locality say that it is illegal for you to read this type of story (i.e. that you are too young to have erotic thoughts or sexual questions and your innocent little mind shouldn't entertain such possibilities as are portrayed in this story), you should obey the law. If you read this story nevertheless, don't get caught! Hide your downloads and delete your history. For obvious reasons, the characters in this story do not practice safe sex. Remember that they are fictional products of my fevered imagination, but the dangers of unprotected sex are real. In this respect, I hope that readers will not follow their example. Enjoy the story, which will go on for many chapters. I hope that it will appeal to your minds and hearts. It isn't primarily a sex story, although it has its erotic moments. Comments are welcome and strongly requested. Flames will be ignored. E-mail me at phaedrus57@aol.com. This story is dedicated to the memory of my beloved foster son David, who died of AIDS in 1992, a week before his twenty-ninth birthday. Isle of Refuge Chapter IX: The Deserted Village Joey, Angelo, and Terry had left the beach behind. They entered the unexplored region toward the northern end of the island. After breakfast, they had persuaded a reluctant Richard that they should spend their holiday by themselves on a trek to the territory which none of the boys had yet visited. They argued that they could look for new sources of food and perhaps find evidence of previous human visits. They convinced Richard that there were no dangers that they could not deal with, and they promised to be back at Tommy's Falls by late afternoon. They carried canteens of fresh water and one of the machetes. They were excited at the prospect of an adventure all their own. The thick vegetation protected the flat land from the usual sea breeze, and the heat was intense. They often had to use the machete to cut their way through the undergrowth. They sometimes had to backtrack to find the dry ground and avoid the numerous marshy pools. They found many more insects swarming around them than they were accustomed to in the more familiar parts of the island. They all received some annoying bites. They saw and heard many lizards and other amphibians, some very large, slithering in and out of the water. Their progress was slow and uncomfortable. At the same time, they enjoyed being alone together. They felt very brave and grown up as they pushed forward through the thick bush. The ground rose gradually toward the middle of the island and eventually grew dryer. As they gained a few feet of elevation, the boys could feel a slight breeze. Suddenly Joey, who was in the lead, shouted, "Look! Someone's been here before!" Joey had emerged into a faintly discernable clearing in the trees, and was pointing at the ruins of a hut. As Angelo and Terry ran up to join him, they could make out the remains of two or three other huts nearby, completely overgrown by the tropical vegetation. In the center of the abandoned settlement was a circle of stones that might once have been a fireplace. As Joey poked around with the tip of the machete, he uncovered the very rusty head of an axe, its handle rotted away. "Who were they? What happened to them?" Terry asked. "How long ago were they here?" Angelo wondered. As the boys looked further, they found other artifacts: the blade of a shovel, a rusted knife, broken pieces of pottery. Joey stepped into the ruins of one of the huts, and screamed. Terry and Angelo ran to his side, and looked down in the direction of his trembling forefinger. Staring back at them were the empty eye sockets of human skull! They threw their arms around each other and huddled together. After a few moments of stunned silence, Angelo whispered, "A-a-re there any m- m-more?" When they were able to move again, they boys scraped away enough dirt and vegetation to uncover the rest of the skeleton. Further searching revealed two more skeletons in the hut, one smaller than the other two. "This one must have been a little kid," Terry speculated. The boys expanded the scope of their exploration. Not far from the huts they found a number of wooden stakes, some standing upright and other fallen over. Their arrangement indicated that they probably marked graves. They counted ten stakes. "They musta all died. The ones in the hut probably died last, an' there was no one left to bury them," Joey whispered. "They musta caught a disease, an' it killed `em one by one," Terry said, also in a whisper. The boys tried to imagine the last terrible days of the little settlement. They felt sad and frightened, awed by the suddenness and finality of death. Tears ran down Angelo's face as he hugged Terry and Joey. "I wish Richard was here to say a prayer," he said softly. Angelo's tears brought a lump to Terry's throat. He couldn't speak. He wanted only to hold Angelo close and ... kiss his tears away! He wanted to tell Angelo how much he loved his warm, sympathetic heart, how much he loved ... him. He hadn't found the words to express them even to himself, but Terry's feelings about Angelo had been changing. The three thirteen year olds were very closely bonded. Their love for each other was obvious from the way they treated each other and the almost psychic level on which they communicated. They didn't try to verbalize their feelings about each other. They didn't wax sentimental or romantic. Their interconnection usually operated on an unconscious level. But lately, Terry, the most mature of them, had experienced an intense attraction toward Angelo. Today his longing to be close to Angelo threatened to overwhelm him. Terry had become obsessed with Angelo's body. He wasn't sure when this fascination had begun, but in recent days he had found it difficult to keep himself from touching and holding Angelo constantly. Angelo had not consciously noticed the subtle change in his and Terry's relationship. The three boys were accustomed to constant physical contact. They bathed together, slept together, and masturbated together. Terry especially needed to touch and be touched. Angelo was neither surprised nor distressed to find Terry's big, light brown hands more and more frequently on his back, arms and shoulders. Angelo had a great need for physical affection, and enjoyed Terry's attentions when he was aware of them. Terry found Angelo beautiful. He loved his smooth olive skin, his slender, muscular frame, his shy smile, and his deep, dark eyes with their long lashes. He couldn't stop looking at Angelo's smooth back, with the muscles moving beneath the skin, his broad, well-muscled shoulders, his lean, sinewy buttocks, and his long, hairless thighs. He found himself thinking constantly about Angelo's perfectly shaped, dark gold colored, uncut penis. This morning he had suggested that Joey lead the way, so that he could walk behind Angelo and drink in his beauty without his awareness. As they had made their way through the forest, Terry had been completely preoccupied with the boy in front of him, with the way his sweat made his olive skin glisten, the play of light and shadow on his back and buttocks as they walked beneath the trees, the movement of his muscles. Terry's heart ached. Could anyone in the world be more beautiful? Could he tell Angelo how he felt? He didn't know how, but he thought that he would die if he didn't find a way. Was this what people meant when they talked about falling in love? He certainly felt as if he were falling and falling! As the boys held each other and contemplated the tragedy of the ruined village, Terry's feelings reached the boiling point. Overwhelmed by impulse, he put both of his long arms around Angelo's body, pulled him as close as possible, and kissed him on the lips. He began to kiss Angelo's eyes and lick the tears from his cheeks. Putting his mouth next to Angelo's ear, Terry whispered, "I love you so much I can't even tell you! Please don't cry! I just wanna hold you forever!" He began to sob as his big hands caressed Angelo's back and sides. Angelo was startled. Displays of affection didn't bother him, and he enjoyed the feeling of being surrounded by Terry's large, strong body. Terry's kisses surprised him, but they made him feel good too. But the intensity of Terry's words and feelings caught him off guard. Of course he loved Terry and Joey and he knew they loved him. They were his real brothers, his best friends in the world. But Terry obviously meant something more. He sounded like Richard talking to Kevin or Mike talking to Francois. Angelo, Terry, and Joey just lived together from day to day. They knew and accepted everything about each other. They took care of each other and had fun. They trusted Richard to make the big decisions. They didn't think about "love" or "forever". When he used those words, Terry had introduced a new dimension into their lives. Angelo wasn't sure how to respond. Angelo's instinct was to comfort and reassure his friend. He could sense Terry's torment, and he wanted to calm him down and make him feel better. He reciprocated Terry's kisses and hugged him close, while still keeping an arm around Joey's shoulders. "I love you, too, bro'," he said softly, "You two guys are, like, my real family. I love you more than anyone! I hope we can always be together!" Terry, still sobbing, took a few deep breaths. When he could speak, he said, "I mean, like, I'm in love with you, like, I'll die if we can't be together, like, I wanna be part of you and you be part of me. I wanna make love to you right now!" Terry sobbed again and kissed Angelo passionately on the neck. Angelo stroked Terry's back and said, "It's okay, bro', its kewl. Everything will be alright. But I don't think I wanna fool around near all these dead people. And what about Joey?" Joey was feeling left out. He knew that something important was happening, but he was baffled. He felt his world changing in ways he couldn't understand or control. He kept his arms wrapped tightly around Angelo and Terry, fearing that if he let go of them, he would be alone. Terry and Angelo were his world. He couldn't produce semen yet, but he loved their sexual play. He always felt warm and relaxed, surrounded by care and affection, when it was over. He lived for the day when he could ejaculate rivers of spooge as Terry and Angelo did, and he looked forward to sharing that momentous event with them. He was grateful that they didn't make fun of him or exclude him because his body hadn't quite caught up with theirs. With great reluctance, Joey said, "If you dudes wanna go somewhere and do it, I can wait here for ya and see what else I can find. Just come back for me when you're finished." Terry grinned broadly, hugged Joey tightly, and said, "Thanks a whole lot, bro! You gonna be okay?" Joey smiled and said, "I'll be kewl. Just don't take too long. This place is kinda creepy!" Terry could feel his heart beating faster. His penis stood at attention. He was burning with lust and infatuation. As Angelo grinned shyly, Terry took his hand and led him out of the ruined village. They followed an overgrown path leading uphill. Several hundred yards from the village, they came to another clearing. The sun, almost directly overhead, shone down through the openings in the treetops. Birds sang. There was a gentle breeze. Terry was almost oblivious to the beauty his surroundings. He was completely wrapped up in his desire to become one with Angelo. His dreams and fantasies of recent days were about to become real. The most beautiful boy in the world would fill the aching emptiness in his heart. He stopped and took Angelo tenderly in his arms. He felt the silken warmth of Angelo's skin and the hardness of his muscles. He felt Angelo yield and respond as he kissed him passionately on the mouth. Their tongues touched and danced. Terry was in ecstasy. Angelo had been torn by doubt about the entire situation. He loved Terry and wanted to make him happy. Above all, he didn't want to hurt Terry's feelings. He loved Joey too, and didn't want to leave him behind. He wasn't sure what Terry meant by "making love" or what it would mean if they did so. How would it change the relationship among the three of them? Angelo had found more love and security with Terry and Joey than he had ever known before, and he didn't really want anything to change. He knew that Terry desperately wanted something from him, but he didn't know what it was or whether he could provide it. He felt Terry's tenderness and desire and responded to it. He decided to let Terry have his way. Perhaps that would clear everything up. "Let's lay down here, baby," Terry said softly. They stretched out face to face on their sides and continued their kiss. "I love you so much, more than anyone or anything ever! You're so beautiful! You feel so nice!" Angelo didn't answer, but Terry heard him sigh and saw him smile and lower his eyes. Terry began to kiss and lick his way down Angelo's neck and chest. Angelo moaned as Terry's tongue found his left nipple. He giggled as Terry's mouth came to his armpits and licked them each in turn. Angelo lost himself in the pleasures Terry was giving his body. He suspended his doubts and confusion and surrendered to the moment. He felt Terry's tongue in his navel. It felt wonderful! Then Terry licked and kissed his painfully erect penis and took it in his mouth. Angelo moaned and whimpered. If this was "making love", he wanted more! Terry felt as if his body were on fire. His penis was harder than it had ever been. He wanted to explore every inch of Angelo's smooth golden skin, to know every part of his body. He felt Angelo shiver as he ran his fingers along the inside of the smaller boy's thigh or kissed his lower belly. He heard Angelo moan as he moved his mouth up and down his penis. He took Angelo's dark brown testicles in his mouth one at a time and bathed them with his tongue. He lifted Angelo's legs and had him pull them toward his chest so that he could lick his crack and his anus. He began to open the hole with his tongue. Angelo trembled and moaned. When Angelo felt Terry's tongue on his anus, he initially experienced intense pleasure. Then memories came flooding back and his heart wen cold with fear. He saw the leering faces of his older brothers as one of them held him while the other raped him. He remembered the burning pain of the first few times, compounded by the painful blows of his brothers' fists on his face and body when he tried to resist. He remembered their contempt when he stopped resisting. He had felt helpless, hopeless, and betrayed. He had wished for death. Angelo started to cry silently, as he had so many times in front of his brothers. When they saw his tears, they would call him "fairy" and "faggot" and assault him even more brutally. Angelo felt Terry slicking his anus with large amounts of saliva, and watched in horror as Terry positioned his penis to enter his rectum. He tried to scream, but nothing came out. Terry's eyes were closed. He was lost in a world of lust and sensation, aware of the boy beneath him only as an image and an object the possession of which could quench his overpowering desire. Joey had felt utterly forsaken as he watched Terry and Angelo walk away. He had been afraid that he would lose them if they saw him as an obstacle to the fulfillment of their newfound romance. He had stepped aside, and now he felt that he had lost them anyway. Joey had been lonely for most of his life, so long that he hardly even realized it. The last few weeks with Terry and Angelo had been the happiest time he had ever known. Now he felt like crying. He didn't cry, because he had learned long ago that the price of his tears was usually a beating from his uncle. He fought back the tears, and began to poke around the village with the machete. He didn't find much of interest: a broken mirror, a rusted cooking pot, a coin inscribed "Republic of the Solomon Islands 1990." At least the coin helped to date the settlement and indicate what country they were in. Overcome with misery and boredom, Joey sat down on the ground, pulled his knees up against his chest, and rested his head on his folded arms. He felt small and vulnerable and alone. After a few minutes, Joey began to worry about his friends. Hadn't they had enough time? What if something had happened to them? What if there were unknown dangers at this end of the island? He began to feel frightened. He got to his feet and started to walk along the faint path Terry and Angelo had followed. He had been walking only a few minutes when he heard Angelo's voice up ahead. It sounded as if he were crying. Then Joey heard Angelo saying, "No! Please stop! Please, Terry, you're hurting me! PLEASE don't fuck me!" Joey began to run. He tripped on a root and fell, cutting his leg on the machete. Unconscious of the pain, he got up and ran again, leaving the machete where it fell. He reached the edge of a clearing. He could see Angelo lying on his back, his legs waving in the air, crying desperately. Terry, on his knees, had his large penis in Angelo's rectum and was moving it rapidly in and out. His eyes were closed in orgasmic bliss. He seemed indifferent to Angelo's distress. Joey ran to them and began pounding on Terry's back. "Stop it, you asshole!" he screamed. Terry opened his eyes and looked at Joey in astonishment. He turned and hit him in the face with his fist. Joey reeled back. He charged at Terry again and leapt on his back, wrapping his arms around the bigger boy's neck. Terry suddenly grew still. He looked down at Angelo, now crying hysterically beneath him. His rapidly deflating penis fell from Angelo's anus with soft plopping sound, dripping with semen, feces, and blood. "Oh my god! What have I done?" Terry cried out, looking down at his beloved Angelo, now wracked with pain and fear. Terry's eyes filled with tears and he began to sob. "Did I hurt you? I couldn't stand to hurt you -- I love you! Please say you're okay!" Angelo was beyond words, but Joey wasn't. With a hard edge on his voice, he shouted, "Of course you hurt him, you stupid son of a bitch! You raped him! Now get the fuck off him!" Crying uncontrollably, Terry stood up and covered his face with his hands. He kept repeating, "I'm so sorry!" over and over again. As Joey rushed to comfort Angelo, Terry turned and ran off into the trees. Joey knelt beside Angelo and put his arms around him. "It's okay, bro. He's gone! Did he hurt you bad?" Angelo was slowly regaining control of himself. "He said he loved me, then he treated me just like my brothers did," he said dejectedly. "I trusted him! He was my bro!" Clinging to Joey, Angelo started to cry again. Joey held him and stroked his back. After a few minutes, Joey asked softly, "Can you walk, bro? We should find some water and get you cleaned up." "Yeah, I can walk okay. I mean, like, I been through this before. He didn't really hurt me so much. He just made me feel bad," Angelo answered. Just then he saw the cut on Joey's calf. The blood had clotted, leaving an ugly smear of black on Joey's pale, smooth skin. "What happened to you? Did he do that?" "Naw! I was running with the machete in my hand, and I tripped. Now Richard's gonna yell at me. `I told ya not to do that!' he'll say." Joey and Angelo smiled at each other, suddenly reassured. Now they were eager to get home to the treehouse. Richard, even angry, would restore order and safety to their world. He would take them in his arms and tell them that he loved them even if they had been naughty and foolish. They found the water source for the deserted village, a clear-running spring with a pool of water about ten feet across, drained by a brook that ran down toward the sea. They bathed in the pool and splashed each other playfully. Gradually they began to feel better. Joey finally said, "Let's go home!" "What about Terry?" Angelo said. "We can't just leave him here." They had no idea where Terry was, so they began to call his name. After twenty minutes, they had gotten no response. Joey said, "We better go. Terry can find his way back." Feeling empty and incomplete, Joey and Angelo started back the way the three of them had come that morning. Now it seemed a lifetime ago. Sitting listlessly against a tree, Terry had heard their shouts, but he did not answer. He felt that he couldn't face them, or anyone else, ever again. Numb with guilt and shame, he hoped that death would take him as it had taken the residents of the deserted village. He belonged here, alone in the wilderness, in this place of desolation and death. He kept picturing Angelo's beautiful face contorted with pain, his eyes filled with fear. How could he even ask for forgiveness? He had nearly destroyed the person he most cherished, and now he deserved to be destroyed in turn. A great weight settled upon him. Darkness seemed to descend although it was mid-afternoon. He could not imagine that he would ever move from this spot. At last he heard Joey's and Angelo's voices as they walked away toward the beach and the treehouse. He found that he had tears left after all. Hand in hand, Joey and Angelo walked back toward the beach and the campsite. They felt lost and incomplete, and they did not want to lose physical contact even for a moment. When they stopped to rest, Angelo felt tears well up in his eyes. Joey took him in his arms and whispered, "It's okay. We'll be home soon. Everything will be alright." For most of the journey, they said little. They didn't have nor need the words to express what they felt. The sun was low in the sky when Joey and Angelo walked wearily onto the beach. They saw Mike and Francois lying on the sand, talking and laughing, their arms wrapped loosely around each other. As soon as Mike saw the two dirty, tired, bedraggled thirteen- year-olds, he jumped up in alarm and ran toward them. "What happened to you guys? Where's Terry?" he asked. As soon as Mike reached them, Joey and Angelo threw their arms around him and started to cry. They clung to Mike desperately as he tried to calm them. Francois hobbled over on his crutch to offer comfort as well. When they could finally talk, Joey and Angelo blurted out their story in jumbled fragments. Mike and Francois gradually pieced together a somewhat coherent account of the disastrous day, and Mike said, "We better go tell Richard about this!" Joey and Angelo could hardly wait to get back to the comfort and security of the campsite and the treehouse. They had carried the burdens of maturity and independence until they could bear them no more. They fantasized that Richard, with godlike wisdom and strength, would heal their aching hearts and find some way to undo the horrifying violence and destructiveness that Terry had unleashed. As they trudged up the familiar bank of Kevin's Brook and heard the roar of Tommy's Falls, their spirits were buoyed by the conviction that Richard could erase this terrible day sothat they could be children again. COMING SOON: Chapter X--"The Lost Sheep"