That afternoon after school, I found myself walking the distance to Felix's house together with him and William. Felix walked in between both of us, but the distance between him and I was reasonably sizeable. If we were to invite another kid over, he might as well walk in between Felix and me and he would still have enough room to walk his dog beside him. William, however, walked closer beside Felix.

Frequently, I stole glances toward both of them and saw them giggling together or talking to each other in such hushed voices that I would have to lean in closer to hear what they were saying. A couple of times, William, who was only perhaps an inch shorter than Felix, had his arm over Felix's shoulder and neither of them seemed to mind. As we neared Felix's house, I felt myself drifting further from them and no one noticed except me.

When we got to the front door, Felix walked in first and William chose to walk behind him before falling in step with me.

"What's wrong Chase?" he whispered after making sure that Felix was far enough ahead to not hear him.

"Nothing," I answered, still mindful of how Felix didn't even say a word to me as we headed to their house earlier.

"You're too quiet."

"Am not."

"Felix is, too."

"Didn't seem like it," I told him, getting closer to being irritated. "He kept talking to you."

William stopped walking beside me and as I looked back to him, I saw the glimmer of something in his eyes. Goddamn it. His eyes were just the perfect shade to reveal almost every emotion stirring inside him.

He sort of trotted toward me and giggled. "Are you being jealous?"

"Nope," I immediately told him, but I could feel the heat rushing to my face.

"You are, aren't you!" he shouted and that got Felix's attention, who walked back from the kitchen and was now holding three cans of sodas, on both of us.

"Who's what now?" Felix asked. "Oh, and soda pop?"

William rushed to Felix and got the two cans before going back to me, opening one and handing me a drink. He leaned in a bit closer and said, "I don't intend to steal Felix, you know. He's all yours."

I almost choked on my drink, but I held myself back perfectly.

Soon, we found ourselves lounging on the couch and waiting for Felix's mom to come home. When she arrived, we all greeted her a `Happy Birthday' and she gave each of us a kiss on the cheek which we though was pretty embarrassing.

She called my mom and told her that I would spend the night over at their house. Dinner soon followed and I got reacquainted with Felix's family except for his sister who couldn't come home. His dad has always been cool and a family guy. It actually made me wonder how Felix got into therapy with the support of his parents. Surely, they would have accepted Felix being...gay and thought none of it. However, it wasn't my place to ask them and ruin the celebratory mood.

When we all decided it was time to get ready for bed, we headed up to Felix's room and set it all up to accommodate two guests.

It was still far from bedtime and we all found something rather fun to do upstairs. Felix locked the bedroom door and as soon as we were all sure that we wouldn't be disturbed, William took out his tablet and started surfing the internet for some pornography. It was practically normal at our age to know quite a few websites that had...girls in it.

Sadly, it wasn't to my taste. Both Felix and William crowded in front of the small screen while I just took a peek every once in a while, mostly disgusted with what they were watching. It didn't take long for me to notice the bulge in Williams shorts and, much to my dismay, Felix also had an erection. They were all too focused with the girls on screen that actually looked to be the same age as my mom that they didn't notice me leaning far back and against the bed. My right hand was gently settled on top of my crotch, painfully urging an erection so I wouldn't feel left out.

Painfully, and I really do mean it, I couldn't get a hard-on. No matter how sultry the moans were and how...delightfully distorted the faces of the woman in any video, I couldn't get my mind running and my blood rushing down toward the tip of my dick. Even when the camera focused once or twice on the guy penetrating the girl and his huge member.

It only disgusted me some more.

What if Felix's dick would look as angry as that once I get to see him erect and naked?

Oops. That was the only thing that actually got me a hard-on. And it was right in time when Felix looked back to me, glancing past my eyes and down to my crotch. With my hand right above my zipper, it may have looked like I was rubbing myself through my shorts. He smiled shyly and I smiled awkwardly.

"You're having fun, Chase," he said.

"I guess," I mumbled.

"The bathroom's just across the hallway and if you need more tissue, it's right in the cupboard beside the mirror."

I nodded, knowing full well that he was suggesting that I was welcome to masturbate in the second floor bathroom. If only I could take him with me.

"Are you coming?" I blurted out, mentally scolding myself after. "I mean..."

He chuckled lightly and said, "Soon as you're done."

Oh. Ohhhh. He thought I meant cumming and not coming with me. Still, I really wanted him to come and cum with me.

"Okay," I responded and took the opportunity to leave for the bathroom. I wasn't planning on masturbating. I just wanted to drown myself with some cold water and maybe regain my normal thought process.

After some time in the bathroom, I went back to a closed bedroom door and heard some whispered voices from inside. What were they talking about?

Instead of going back in, I leaned closer against the wood and tried really hard to make out any words or phrases. It was William's voice which was the loudest.

"Are you sure?" William's small voice sounded.

"Yeah," Felix answered.

"Can't you at least give him a chance?" William asked.

"Nope. You saw how he reacted to the porn, didn't you? He's into girls. He just doesn't know it, but he's not gay."

"Then why does he keep saying that he likes you and you've seen the grid on his wall, haven't you?"

"I don't know," Felix's lowering voice answered. "He's not gay, Willy. He's not s'posed to be. I'm not s'posed to like him back."

At that instant, my heart skipped a lot of beats. I swear, it felt like I was dying from anxiety, confusion and everything in between.

When they fell silent, I thought they may have felt that I was listening from outside, but William finally continued.

"So you do still like him..."

I couldn't be sure if Felix answered, but if he did, I didn't hear any word he spoke. They both fell silent again or I was becoming deaf to what they were saying. Whatever the case was, I made my presence known when I accidentally pushed against the door gently, opening a small crack from which the little light inside merged with the fluorescent light from the hallway.

I had no choice but to walk back in. Felix and William were both sitting face to face on the bed while the tablet lay forgotten on the bedside table. They eyed me curiously. William's blue eyes were unreadably fixed on mine while Felix's lush green eyes were much more unreadable and trying real hard to glance away from mine.

"You came a lot?" William asked.

"Y-yeah," I said. "Had to use more tissue than usual."

He smiled widely and walked to me. "I'm gonna go brush my teeth and take care of business, too."

I nodded and let him walk past me.

I looked back at Felix who, by this time, was staring out his window.

"The girl next door is hot," he mumbled. "She keeps her window open when she changes clothes and I can see her naked from waist up. I don't think she minds. She even smiled at me a couple times."

I didn't know what to say. Instead, I walked to his side and sat on the bed as well, peeking through the window and seeing the girl who had her back toward us, changing her shirt. She wasn't wearing any bra, but she kept her front away from our eyes before finally changing into some slim fit shirt and lowering the blinds on her window. She even smiled when she saw us.

"Wow," I uttered.

"Yeah."

After that, we mostly kept quiet until William joined us once again, all dressed up for bed with a loose shirt and shorts that hid his small frame perfectly. Then came the next question of who would sleep on the floor and whatnot.

"Who sleeps on the floor?" William asked Felix.

"We could pick straws," Felix suggested.

William glanced at me and I started learning how to read what was on his mind. Before I could protest, he spoke up, "I don't mind sleeping on the floor."

"We don't have an extra mattress and the inflatable is too small for two," Felix said.

"But two can fit on your bed," William pointed out.

"How `bout if I sleep on the floor?" I asked and William just shot me his `stay-out-of-this' glare.

"I snore too loud," William added. "Anyone who sleeps beside me will have nightmares."

"But..." I uttered.

"So I sleep on the floor, as far away as possible," William continued, not giving either Felix or me a chance to talk, "and you both sleep on Felix's bed."

"I really don't mind..." I got cut off again.

"See? Chase doesn't mind sleeping with you," William told Felix.

That was totally not what I meant to say.

"Okay," Felix mumbled.

"Okay?" I repeated, anticipating and anxious.

"Okay," William echoed.

"Okay," Felix said again and giggled this time. He turned to me and added, "Just be sure not to snore and you stay on your side of the bed."

I nodded and that was it.

Felix and I took turns using the bathroom, changing into clean clothes and all. William brought with him his stuff for a sleep over while my mom dropped by earlier to give me mine. After all that was done, we soon lay still and waited for something to render us asleep.

It was fairly early, but we didn't have anything else to do and I could sense that Felix was too tired to think of anything fun like jumping on his bed or playing video games till the break of dawn. Instead, we just talked and talked about what video games we played, what we wanted to get for Christmas, which teacher was the coolest and our least favourite one and so on. After what seemed like hours, we heard someone's low snores gaining volume as the seconds passed.

"It sounds like the world is about to end," Felix mumbled.

"More like being ripped inside a black hole," I said and we both giggled.

More and more times, we fell silent.

"Thanks," I whispered. "For helping me out earlier."

"You needed it anyway."

"And...sorry if I was such an asshole to you. It won't happen again."

He shifted on his side of the bed and looked at me. "This doesn't mean I like you, okay? I don't mind being friends, but that's it."

I stared at him and, under the dim light coming from his window, I could see how his eyes still managed to leave me hypnotized.

"Okay," I finally answered.

"Cool," he said as he sat up and got his phone from his bedside table. He plugged in his orange earphones and handed one end to me. "We could listen to some music and pretend that the world isn't about to end."

I took it and plugged it into my ear. The soft music couldn't drown out William's snores however. Still, it managed to draw my attention away from it and to some lyrics that actually fit my mood quite nicely. Felix said it was okay for us to be friends. No matter how closer that would bring us, I felt terribly estranged.

With the orange wire running over our chests and his phone in between us, we both surrendered to sleep and I, once again, dreamt of Felix resting on my chest.

* * *

"Chase?"

"Yeah?"

"How long till you get here?"

Felix moved closer to me and rested his head on my arm. I pulled him closer as he wrapped his arms around my waist. Even with both of us this close, I could feel him being pulled away by something.

"Get where?" I asked.

"You know, here."

I stared at him and wondered what he meant.

"I don't understand," I said. "I think I'm already here. We both are, aren't we?"

"No we're not," he said. "You need to work harder."

"But...how?"

Felix sat up, pulling the sheets together with him. His bare chest looked flawless and I could feel the start of an erection in my undies. My heart pounded real hard and was almost going to rip my ribcage apart. He settled his hand on my bare chest, right where the beating hurt the most.

"I know what you want Chase," he said. "You like me, don't you?"

I nodded.

"I like you, too," he said and that only made the beating faster, more painful. "Very much. And I know what I want."

"What?" I stupidly asked.

He pulled the sheets off of him and me, leaving both of us in our underwear. He wore those same white briefs while I wore mine with a cartoon printed at the front. He sat on my gut and, slowly as though being pulled away but bravely holding on, he rubbed his clothed butt over my torso and down to my crotch where it felt like heaven started opening up and calling my dick to rise to the occasion. His bum sort of parted and I could feel that deep trench that led to his enticing hole.

"See?" he mumbled and smiled. "You want this as much as I do."

I nodded and gulped. Hesitantly, I brought my hand to his crotch and as I kept my eyes on his, he wordlessly told me that it was all right for me to go on.

Heaven was an understatement. What Felix hid inside his undies as I pulled his elastic forward meant so much more than heaven-sent. His hard member pointed toward my navel and I took care to poke it gently before feeling something wet on my fingers.

My heart kept its painful beating, but I welcomed it and let it pump every blood toward the tip of my dick as Felix reached down to peel off my briefs. He moved his legs forward and allowed me to pull his undies down to his ankles and completely off him. When he shifted back to his previous position, kneeling on both my sides with his bare bum over my crotch, he resumed taking off my underwear. It was an easy task for him and it didn't take long till I could finally feel his bare ass on my twitching member.

If there was one thing Felix was really good at, it was at teasing me with his soft buns and wrapping my dick and barely touching my nuts. He started moving and grinding, and all that time I could feel the slick fluid dripping from his erection onto my torso and mine into his buttcrack.

Just as I was about to lose control, he dove onto my chest and sealed his lips tightly on mine. He began nibbling and begging for me to kiss back which I did with as much force as he exerted. Our hips grinding together, my arms found his nape and traced that gentle curve down to his smooth back and up again to the strands of his soft auburn hair. He felt amazingly light on top of me and his warmth continually sent shivers up my spine.

Losing to my own will, I flipped him over and reversed our positions. I grinded on top of him while he wrapped his legs almost around my waist. He found the back of my neck and did the same thing I did earlier, his fingers gripping tightly on my hair.

Our kiss doubled the fire we felt that wrapped both of us, but I couldn't get enough. I wanted to hold him closer, to have his chest merging with mine and just to...never let him go. With him under me, he couldn't float away.

When we finally broke the kiss, we stared at each other for so long that I found his eyes becoming more vivid and lively. The smile on his thin lips and the redness over his cheeks and nose, despite the dimly lit room, radiated off of him and onto my flushed face.

In every sense of the word, Felix was an angel that found his place not in heaven, but in my heart and whole-being.

"I love you, Felix," I whispered through trembling lips.

"I know," he said. Whispering back, he added, "I do, too."

I rested my head on his chest, satisfied with what I heard and caressed by his light chuckles.

"We should go on," he urged.

I nodded and reached down to his groin. I pushed my hips up a bit to insert my hand and wrap it around his hard dick. It still felt wet, but I couldn't be sure who between us leaked more. It didn't matter. I wanted this to go on so I started stroking him and he began moaning and holding me more tightly.

With my crotch pressed onto his, it didn't take much effort for me to wrap my hand around his dick and mine then started rubbing together. And each time I stroke both of us, my own vision of heaven was shattered and became underrated.

God, Felix felt so warm in my hand.

"Chase..." he moaned.

"I'll get us there, I promise," I mumbled.

"Please..."

I nodded and he kept his low moans and whimpers solely for me to hear.

"Let go..."

My eyes, which have shut completely from the surge of tingly emotions earlier, opened wide to see Felix's frightened expression. His eyes were watery and less green than earlier. It may have lost all its colour and the dimly lit room finally hid his face under my own shadow.

Felix wasn't floating away from me. He was slowly disappearing right under my nose.

"But I don't want to!" I shouted, but it was too late.

Felix was gone, leaving me naked with my still throbbing heart ripping my chest apart. My heaven, contrary to what I thought, was severely overrated.

* * *

Waking up, I was perfectly sure that my dick was still hard and was too afraid to admit that my shorts were wet. I didn't pee in my sleep. Honest. It was more sticky and slimy and cold. I knew it since my hand felt it. It was painfully hard and each time I rubbed it, my hard-on twitched and the stickiness transferred to my fingers.

No. Wait a minute.

I rubbed it again and surely, it twitched with some life. However, I couldn't feel my dick twitching. My eyes quickly stared under the blanket, which I didn't know we wrapped ourselves with earlier, and found my right hand not on my crotch but on Felix's.

I had a wet dream and so did Felix.

And he didn't seem to mind that my hand was touching his dick completely, only with the thin fabric of his shorts separating my fingers and his member.

Oh fuck.

Shifting to one side, it was then that I noticed Felix's face buried in the wrinkles of the side of my shirt and his leg resting a little on mine. It was like he was partially hugging me and with him pressed to my side and my arm in between, I couldn't easily take my hand off his dick.

Double fuck.

All that porn earlier messed up with my dream. Shit.

He was still sound asleep, but it didn't surprise me since there wasn't any sunlight coming through his window. Perhaps, it was still dawn.

My mind told me to move away, but my body wasn't responding. Somehow, lying beside Felix like this felt like the whole world and heaven snuggling both of us in its wrongness and bliss. Despite it making me feel like I shouldn't be doing this, the warmth and Felix's soothing scent and his messed up auburn hair almost brushing the tip of my nose made all of it perfectly right.

I knew that I belonged on his bed with him cuddled up beside me.

After a couple of minutes, I noticed that William was still steadily snoring and Felix didn't have any plans of moving to his side of the bed.

So, against every normal thought process in my head, I surrendered my hand to just settle on the wet spot above his dick and willed myself back to sleep. I made sure, however, that I returned his partial embrace when I shifted to lie on my side and have my left arm pull him closer.

Surprisingly, he didn't pull away and he even cooed softly that it made me want to hold him closer than I ever could.

"I don't just like you," I whispered. "I love you, Felix. I mean it."

Hesitantly, I leaned my head toward his and kissed his forehead, right on his messy fringe.

Now, more than ever, I was sure that I liked Felix Corbel more than anyone else and I even started welcoming the thought of being in love with him.