Date: Sat, 16 Oct 2021 17:03:30 -0400 From: AB Subject: Researching dick with Josh - part 4 That sleepover was clearly the highlight of both boy's lives to that point. Mark couldn't wait for a repeat session but it didn't happen quickly. As the school year continued in their separate schools, they hardly talked. Mark wondered if Josh was avoiding him, ashamed at what they did. But the gap in time didn't bother Mark too much. First, he finally understood how to make himself cum, and he made sure he practiced the skill often, sometimes two to three times a day. Second, and maybe more importantly, even at a young age, Mark sensed that it wouldn't get better than that sleepover, so he didn't push for more. The flashes of what he did with Josh would always crowd out the other thoughts in his mind as he stroked his dick, with the thought of Josh's boy cock always just the thing to push him over the edge and cum. Besides, as young teenagers, they didn't have much mobility or independence. Things just happened, seemingly randomly. The next time Mark saw Josh was a few months later, when Josh called Mark's house on a Saturday and asked if he wanted to go see a movie. He agreed and his mom dropped him off the theater to meet Josh. They talked about the usual things, neither acknowledging what had happened previously. There was no sense of awkwardness, though. This is how it always was. Maybe this is how it'll always be. In a nearby store, buying candy to sneak into the movie, Josh finally addressed it. "You know, I've wanted to again." He left out key words, but Mark understood the meaning. "It's just that it's not like we can just hang out, with others around. We have to hang out alone, and I would rather not if we can't...." The thought hung there. Mark looked his friend in the eyes and nodded. "And... it's getting more complicated." Josh continued. Mark didn't quite catch what was more complicated about it but replied, "We'll figure something out." "Sure," Josh agreed, and they purchased their candy and made their way to the theater. Mark doesn't remember much about that movie. He only had one thing on his mind. He briefly thought about making a move during the movie, but dismissed the idea as insane. The two boys continued to hang out, about once a month, but the opportunity never presented itself. Mark wasn't expecting another jack off session, but there wasn't even a joke here or there, a naughty grab, a peak or a flash. If they were alone and could possibly steal one of those moments, there was a bit of tension. Josh acted nervous in those moments, almost afraid of what could happen. Mark didn't really get this - he was just a dopey kid - but he understands that tension now, looking back. Was Josh hiding something? Mark didn't press further because he didn't want to lose his friend. It was better to never fool around again with the potential that it could happen than try again and get rejected and know it would never happen again. Plus, he liked spending time with Josh. They were best friends! About nine or ten months after the sleepover, it was summer, and Mark was turning 14. His parents asked him if he wanted to do anything special for it. He had a few ideas. This could be his chance to get Josh alone and see what happens. Mark was convinced he was going through a phase, and he figured 14 was probably the last chance he would be young enough to innocently research dicks before he was labeled as gay forever. As his birthday gift, his parents got Mark tickets to a baseball game, and he was allowed to bring Josh. It was an afternoon game, and afterwards, they'd eat at his house and have a sleepover. Only one of his friends could go to the game because of the cost, but did Mark want to invite other friends to his house and have a little party? GOD NO. The other friends would get in the way, but he couldn't tell his parents that. That's okay, he explained, we don't know how long the baseball game is going to be or how long it will take to get home, and if we're not inviting them to the game, but Josh gets to go... it's awkward and... His parents accepted the rambling explanation. At this age both boys stopped going to camp, and this was the first time Mark and Josh hung out that summer. The first thing that was clear was that Josh matured a little bit - his voice was deeper now. The new sound coming out of his friends' mouth felt weird. Mark's parents had told him his voice had changed, too, but of course, he didn't hear it. Neither of them acknowledged their deeper voices, but they felt older around each other, and less kid-like. Meanwhile, no one would mistake the two for men. After the game, which Mark remembers nothing about, they returned to his house for pizza, burgers and cake. Once that was done, they went to the basement for video games and TV. This was a new element to the sleepover. Because it was a "special day," Mark was allowed to sleep in the basement with his friend, not in his room upstairs. The logic was there was more room in the basement to fool around (Mark's parents had a different meaning to that phrase) without making noise that would keep his parents up. The basement had a big couch that folded out into a bed and a large 19" TV, so it was perfect. They played some video games and talked while watching TV. It was after 11 when Josh wondered what was on the cable channels, and found a "sexy" drama playing. The no-name actress was playing a relationship therapist so both of them figured it was only a matter of time before she got naked. At this point for them, all movie watching was just hoping nudity would happen eventually. The main character returned to her house, and was about to take a shower - she started to unbutton her blouse - when she got interreupted by a phone call and stopped. Damn it. Frustrated, Mark said, "You know, I could just get one of my tapes." He didn't have to specify further, Josh understood "No, that's okay, this one could get good." "Yeah, but I have ones that I know are good," Mark replied. "It's okay, let's give this one a shot. You haven't seen it." Then Mark's mother called for him and he left to see what she wanted. It was mostly to say good night, and that it was okay if they stayed up late, but not too late, they need to get some sleep and behave themselves. After the conversation, Mark detoured to the kitchen to get a couple of fresh soda cans. When he got back to the basement and opened the door, Josh turned and explained that he just missed it. "You just missed a great scene. She got naked with one of her patients, and she has great tits. Her nipples were pointed." "Damn it," Mark said, as he handed his friend a soda. It wasn't that he missed the nudity, it's that he missed the boners that come with it. Not much else happened, the movie dragged on with no more nudity, and the boys got bored and sleepy. "We probably should get ready for bed, or at least more comfortable," Mark suggested. The two got out their sleep clothes - both wore pajama pants and t-shirts - and changed. Each turned away from the other, suddenly shy. After changing, Josh was folding up his clothes to put back in his bag when Mark noticed his underwear in the pile. "Wait, did you take your underwear off?" he asked. "Sure," Josh replied "Wait, you sleep with underwear on?" "Yeah, and I can't believe you don't." "Well, believe it," Josh said, and he pulled down his pajama pants a bit to provide Mark proof: a quick flash of one side of his bare waist, half of the v-shape of his legs meeting his crotch, and a flash of Josh's now darker blond pubes. Oh my god. "You should try it," Josh added, "It's very freeing." "That's okay, I like wearing underwear," Mark replied. Sigh, so dumb. They pulled the couch out into the bed and they lounged on it as they finished the movie. It devolved into some murder plot, and it was completely boring because it didn't have any sex or nudity. "We should watch one of my tapes," Mark offered again. "Nah, we should probably go to bed soon." Now Mark was getting frustrated. Why was he turning this down? He figured he better be more direct. "We don't have to actually watch anything. I figured you want to play around." Josh didn't respond. He looked away. "I guess you don't?" Mark asked. "I..." Josh paused. "I want to, but Mark it's not that easy." Oh, it's plenty easy, Mark thought to himself. "I didn't want to tell you this, Mark, because I didn't want it to be weird, but... I have a girlfriend now." Mark's face reddened like he had been slapped. "Her name's Alison. Actually, you might remember her from before you moved, she has red hair. I think you were in Ms. Anderson's class with her." Mark didn't remember Alison, because she's a girl. "No, I don't. Girlfriend." "Yeah, so, it just doesn't seem right to do anything when I have a girlfriend. I hope you understand." "Okay, that's fine," Mark concluded. But it wasn't fine. "What about flashing me before? Why did you do that?" "You didn't think I wasn't wearing underwear," Josh answered in his matter of fact way. "Besides, we're still bros." All this was true. But it still hurt. Mark said that he needed to go to the bathroom and got up and exited the room. In the bathroom, he stared at himself in the mirror. A sickness grew in his stomach, as Mark tried not to cry. He was more angry than upset. This was their special day, and it was his birthday. Years later, he would realize this is like paying for an expensive date and then the other person not putting out. He looked at himself and sighed. He had been anticipating this for weeks and was so excited and now... it was over. Mark thought it over. He has one last shot at this. He may regret doing this but he'd regret not trying. He stormed back into the room and Josh looked up and asked, "What's that you got?" It was a container of Vaseline and a bath towel, but he didn't bother explaining that. Mark put it down on the floor and declared to his friend (and maybe himself), "Fuck it, it's my 14th birthday and if you don't want to fool around, that's not going to stop me from getting off!" Josh shot him a "Wha?" look, but before he could really react, Mark pulled off his own pajama pants and underwear and threw them to the side. This was as bold as he had ever been. Gone was the shy boy who wondered if he'd dare show his friend his cock. "What are you doing?!" Josh shouted, stunned. "It's my birthday and I want to cum!" Mark explained. He stood in the room half naked. His gray t-shirt fell right at his waist and didn't cover anything below. His now thicker bush of darkening brown pubes sprang from the base of his cock and filled up the area meeting the shirt. His cock was soft but chubby, probably four inches long and resting on his balls. His sack hung low in the summer heat and his sparse ball hairs were apparent in the room's light. His thin hairy legs were pale white and led down to white socks on his feet. "Jesus," Josh remarked as he took this all in. "Am I supposed to sit here and watch you do it?" "I don't care what you do," the harshness of the reply stung, but Mark was mad at his friend and he needed to be mean to get through this display. Mark sat on the bed, and grabbed the Vaseline to start his session. His cock started to harder at the thought of Josh's eyes on it. He opened the jar and scooped a bit of the Vaseline with his fingers. He dapped it on his hard cock and slowly spread it around with his palm. "Why do you use that?" Josh asked. "It makes everything nice and slick and makes it so much easier," Mark explained. "You've never used any lube?" "No," Josh thought about it, "I guess not." The only noise in the room was the noise of Mark's hand moving back and forth on his penis, the Vaseline adding a slight squishing noise to the motion. Even though he's right handed, Mark jacked off with his left hand, which gave Josh - sitting to his right - a full view of the action. Mark worked his dick slowly. He told Josh he wanted to cum but he didn't want to cum anytime soon. He had no way of knowing for sure, but it seemed like Josh was hypnotized by his fat dick, especially his cock head, deep red in color, and shining with the slickness of the lube. Mark thumbed it and circled his fingers around it, as if it was the centerpiece of the show he was putting on. The tension between them had dropped. Minutes ago, nothing like this was going to happen, but now Josh wasn't protesting. Mark noticed that the boy's boner was tenting his pants. Seems like he forgot about honoring his girlfriend. "I think you got bigger," Josh observed. "Maybe," Mark replied, as he took the opportunity to squeeze his cock hard, causing the veins in his shaft to pop. Mark knew he had gotten bigger - now a little over 6 inches - but he didn't need to get into specifics. He pivoted his legs toward Josh to give him a better look and asked, "What do you think?" "Definitely... wow," Josh answered. He leaned in for a closer look. Mark leaned back so his dick pointed more toward his friend. Noticing that his pubes caught Josh's eye, Mark stopped stroking his dick and pulled his shirt over his head, tossing it aside. "Go ahead and look," he suggested, now completely naked except for his socks. Josh's eye followed the explosion of pubes, up the thin line of hair that led to his bellybutton, and then up to his bare chest, and too small nipples. "You have a lot of armpit hair, too." Josh said. Mark raised his arms to give him a full view. Mark disagreed on this point. It seemed like he didn't have a lot based on what he could spy of other boys through their shirt sleeves, but why quibble. "I got some too," Josh continued, as he pulled off his shirt to show it off. As he yanked off his shirt, it got caught on his head, and the struggle put his armpits on full display in an adorable way. Josh did have a bit of hair under his arms now, which confirmed what Mark thought he saw earlier in the day. Mark was about four months older than Josh, but it was clear his friend was catching up. Mark continued to jack off, looking at his friend. This was different. There was no pretense of talking about sex, or watching a titty movie as the excuse for this. There was no hiding what this was. Mark was getting off on Josh's body and the potential of what could happen. A small wet spot forming on Josh's pants confirmed that he wasn't alone in feeling this way. "I should try some of this too," Josh said, referring to the lube, which he reached for. "You should take your clothes off first, it makes everything greasy," Mark suggested. True, and it had the upside of getting his friend naked. Josh stood up and pulled down his pajama pants. His cock sprung forth. He had gotten bigger too. It was certainly longer, in Mark's eye. It still was on the thin side, but not too thin. A fat vein moved down the center of his shaft, leading to his pointy cockhead, which glistened at his peehole. Even though Mark's hair on his head was blonder, Josh's bush was blonder than his bush. Mark studied the now curly mound. A few spare hairs lead up the boy's belly. His ball sack was tighter and has more texture, and appears to be hairless. "You're beautiful," Mark said, which was true, but maybe too honest. Josh blushed a bit and said, "Thanks." He pulled the pajama pants off his feet, and tossed them aside, as Mark looked at the light, near white blond hair on his legs. Mark's legs were hairier (he had hairy legs for years now), but Josh's legs were more pleasing to his eye. "So, what do I...?" Josh asked as he stuck his hand in the lube, as if it was a mystery. Mark laughed, "Just put some on your dick, but not too much." Josh put a bit on the tip of his cock and spread it around his head and the top of his shaft with his hand. This may have been one of the hottest things Mark had ever seen. The two quietly masturbated, each going intentionally slowly, less about what the action was doing to their dicks, more what the show was doing to their friend. Mark stared at Josh's dick, and Josh stared at Mark's dick. It was like this for what felt like an hour but was probably only two minutes. Mark broke the silence. He thumbed his big cockhead, playing with the precum there, pulling his fingers back, so that Josh would see the strings of cum. "Your girlfriend have anything like this?" Josh laughed at the stupid comment. "No, of course not." "I don't know, I am so much better than your girlfriend." Mark didn't dare use the word "boyfriend," that wasn't what this was. "Imagine if she was here now," Josh added, "What would she say?" Mark smiled and answered, "She'd probably say, I want Mark's dick, it's so big." He waved his cock at Josh to punctuate the point. "Hey!" Josh said with a smile. Putting on a lame girl voice, Mark added, "Oh, Mark, you're so much bigger than Josh. You're a real man!" Josh took this well, laughed and added, "Oh, Mark, I want that dick in my pussy!" in his version of a girl's voice. "Fill my pussy, Mark!" Mark laughed, adopting his own "girl" voice. This weird skit continued with Josh adding, "Oh, it's too big for my pussy." "Oh, maybe it'll fit in my mouth!" Mark said. "But now I need your dick in my pussy, Josh." The boys giggled at this stupidity, Josh stood and turned, leaning over slightly and started waving his butt at Mark. "Oooh, I'm so horny for you boys!" "Yeah," Mark said as he also stood. "Is this the sort of thing you like? Two strong boys with big dicks having their way with you?" Josh continued to wave his butt and placed his hand on his chest, "Oh, I like it, because I've been so bad!" Mark stepped forward, asking, "You know what we do to bad girls?" He swung his open hand, smacking Josh's ass. "Ow!!" Josh yelped, still in his silly girl voice. "Are you going to teach me a lesson?" Mark smacked again. "You like this, don't you? What a slut." Josh's smooth butt cheek was slightly red. Mark wasn't hitting him too hard. He gave him another smack, this time on his left cheek. Using the hand he was jacking with, it added some of the slickness to Josh's butt. "Please stop," Josh said in his girl voice. He didn't actually want him to stop, this was part of the scene. "I don't know if I can handle both of you at once." In this fantasy, apparently Josh was smacking this girl's ass, too. "I don't know if I can stop," Mark said, smacking Josh's right cheek with his right hand, and then smacking his left with his left hand. Both boys understood this to be one smack from each boy as they double teamed Josh's girlfriend. "You've really got us worked up for us to stop now." Josh continued to move his ass back and forth in his approxmation of sexy. We would probably call this twerking today. "Please don't stop, I need it bad!" Josh pleaded. Not clear on what was real and what was play, Mark took a chance and stepped forward and began smacking Josh's ass with his rock hard cock. "Oh, that's it!" Another smack. "Yes, both of you at once." Another smack. "Oh my god." With the next smack, a bit of Mark's precum flew off his dick and onto his friend's butt. He leaned forward and poked his hard penis into Josh's left butt cheek, pushing as much of his cock head in as he could, and spreading his cum around on it, like a paint brush. "Is this what you do to all the girls?" Josh asked. "I'll show you what I do," Mark responded. He poked Josh's butt check again, and pushed his hand against his back, pushing him down more. He started humping his ass, trying his best to line up his hard cock with his ass crack. Josh broke from his girl voice. "Don't fuck me in the butt!" Mark replied, "I won't." Mark had no intention to. He didn't understand that at all. Anal was too far, and the thought of it sickened him. He was okay being gay, but that was too gay. After a few more strokes, he grabbed the Vaseline and spread it in Josh's butt crack. "What?" Josh asked, feeling the coldness on his skin. "Trust me, you'll like this," Mark answered. Having never done this before, Mark wasn't sure that was true, but both boys liked it so far. Now lubed up, the motion of Mark's hard cock back and forth against Josh's butt made a squealing noise. Josh has pressed both hands into the sofabed to balance himself, and their motion was causing that to squeak too. There were no more fake girl voices, both boys panted as the action continued. Josh pressed his ass against Mark as best he could. In the motion, Mark would miss and occasionally poke his cock between the boy's checks. He never penetrated, but Josh continued pressing against him, as if he wanted to swallow his fat cockhead in his tight hole. A few more strokes like this was enough and Mark warned, "Oh, god, I..." A huge blast of cum left his cock and flew up the length of Josh's back, landing near his shoulder blades. He continued humping as his cock continued its explosion. A second, third and forth shot, not as far, but collectively making a mess on his friend. Most of it pooled on the small of his back. No longer needing to hold the position, Josh stood upright, and the cum slid down his ass and legs. "I can't see. Is it a lot? It felt like a lot." "Yeah," Mark said, as he started cleaning up his friend with the towel. "That was something else." "Yeah, that got me going," Josh added, as he turned to face his friend. He didn't need to say it. Josh's cock was harder than Mark had ever seen it before, flush red, with a long glob of cum hanging off his cock and dripping toward the floor. Mark collected it with his hand and grabbed his friend's cock. "I see you can make more cum now." "Oh yeah, lots." Josh answered with a smile. "What do you want to do?" Mark asked. "I dunno," Josh answered. "Well, we have to do something. You've been a bad girl." Still holding Josh's cock, Mark dropped to his knees to lean in and kiss the boy's cock head. He popped it in his mouth and started working it with his tongue. Josh let out an involuntary sigh. Mark bobbed back and forth on his cock, filling his mouth as best he could. This was his first blowjob, and he didn't know what he was doing, but Josh wasn't complaining. The cock was hot and uncomfortable in his mouth, but Mark continued, responding to the moans of his friend. He reached the base of Josh's cock a few times, his pubes touching his lips, but he gagged, it was too much. So he pulled back and focused on the boy's head. That's what Josh seemed to like best. This continued for some time in the silence. Both boys focused on what they had to do. Back and forth, back and forth, Josh's cock stabbing Mark's mouth, the cock head expanding and pulsing. He wasn't going to stop. But Josh stopped him. Without a word, he stepped back, pulling his dick from Mark's mouth, and started furiously stroking his cock. The explosion soon came. A massive amount of cum rocketed toward Mark's face, the first arc of the load hitting him in the nose. The next bursts covered him. By the time Josh stopped stroking his dick, Mark's face was completely covered with cum. Some of it dripped in his mouth. Both boys were taken aback. "Holy crap," was all Mark could offer. Josh reponsed with, "Uhhh." Touching his face with hand, Mark studied the load on his fingers. "I guess you can come now," he added, with a laugh. Josh handed him the towel and Mark wiped his face as best he could. The towel was now soaked with both boy's loads. "I'm sorry, that was a lot." Mark collapsed on the floor. "I'm tired." This was the first time both boys noticed how sweaty and hot they were, so focused on what they had been doing. Still naked, they made their way onto the bed. They propped the pillows against the back of the bed and sat together, slide by slide. Their naked bodies touched each other with a casualness that neither boy really noticed, but both understood. "That was something else," Josh said. "Yeah, I'll remember this birthday," Mark added. "Maybe we should plan something for my 14th," Josh offered. They stayed like that for a while, both exhausted, both with their hearts still racing. There wasn't much intelligent conversation to be had. They somewhat started holding hands, or at least playing with each other's fingers as they sat there, sides pressed together. "Be honest," Mark asked, "which of us gives a better blowjob? Me or your girlfriend?" He didn't ask the question as a shot at Josh's girlfriend, he was genuinely curious. "Oh, you," Josh answered quickly. "Really?" "Well, to be honest, I've never done that with Alison. All we've done is kiss." "Really? Oh." "Yeah, she hasn't even seen my dick. We just kiss sometimes." Mark realized that the two of them have pretty much done it all except kiss. Mark has seen everything. The moment hung there and he turned and stole a kiss on Josh's right cheek. "Hey!" Josh responded, laughing. "You don't have to be such a fag." He wiped the kiss off his face. Nowadays, this comment and the laugh could cut deep, but back then it was a pretty accurate description of the situation. Mark didn't take it offensively. "Oh, I'm such a fag?" he retorted, "You're enjoying this too!" He reached in, trying to tickle his friend. "Not as much as you are, you're way more faggy than me." Mark laughed. "Says the guy who just blew the world's biggest load in my face!" "Only because you were sucking my cock, fag!" Josh explained. Mark continued trying to tickle his friend, and Josh pushed back, protecting himself. They rolled around a bit on the bed, arms everywhere, and finally, Josh ended up on top of Mark, pinning him down. "Stop! Stop!" Josh said and he pushed against Mark's chest and arms. Mark stopped fighting and they held in that position. They looked at each other and Josh leaned in to kiss Mark on the mouth. Whoa. Josh kissed him again, this time a little longer. "I thought..." Mark started, but stopped, and kissed his friend back. This continued, exchanging kisses, and Mark wrapping his hands around Josh's back above him. Neither knew what they were doing. They slightly opened their mouths, and poked in their tongues, because they heard that was what you were supposed to do. It wasn't very good, but the thrill overpowered them. Mark never felt closer to Josh, and of all the unbelievable things that happened to date, this might be the most unbelievable. The kissing slowed down and Josh shifted back to his friend's side, placing his head on Mark's chest. He could hear Mark's heart pound. Was this love? They held each other and didn't speak. Both boys had boners that were pressing into each other. It must have been uncomfortable for Josh because he sat up and moved Mark's dick away. "Always poking me with that thing," he laughed. "You never stop." Mark smiled. "You know I can't help it. I could go again." "Right," Josh said with a doubting tone. "I've been known to jack off two or three times in a row," Mark explained. "Oh, that's known?" Josh laughed. "Everyone in town knows that." "Shut up," Mark replied. Josh rubbed his ass and added, "I think you bruised my butt with your thing." They both looked down at Mark's cock, seemingly not yet exhausted. Josh scooted down the bed, giving Mark's stomach a kiss, then his belly button, then his pubic mound and, finally, popped Mark's cock in his mouth. Mark grunted, and Josh made quick work of his dick, not bothering with the length, but just focused on the oversized head. He worked his tongue up and down it and all around and... without warning, Mark shot the quickest load he could ever remember. Mark apologized for the speed, as Josh sat up. He leaned forward to kiss him and was surprised that Josh's mouth was empty. "You swallowed it," he remarked. "Hmm," Josh answered. The two looked at each other, and there were no words needed. By this point, both boys were exhausted and it was well past their normal bedtime. They decided to make themselves presentable just in case they were discovered, each putting on their pajama pants - Mark's first time without underwear. They got into the bed, pulled the blankets over their bare chests and held each other. Neither boy had much time to process what it all meant, because they were sound asleep quickly. It would be lovely to say that this started a new phase of their friendship, but the truth is that this is the last time Mark and Josh fooled around, and they only saw each other a handful of times after this. They didn't have a fight, or a falling out, they just drifted away from each other and got distracted by other things. That absence left many of the questions between them unanswered, and maybe it was easier to not take their relationship farther. It was impossible for them to be lovers, boyfriends or gay at that age and time. It was much better that this was just a thing they did a couple of times when they were kids. Just boys being boys, curious about things. It's research, remember. It didn't have to mean anything. And maybe it meant nothing to Josh, but it did mean something to Mark. He ignored it for years, returning to a virginal life and pretending to be straight. But he often thought of Josh. Unfortunately, his name is common enough that he's impossible to search online, so he has no clue what became of his friend. Did Josh ever wonder about him? Did Josh ever google his name? These events have replayed in his head over and over again hundreds of times, with lots of "what if?" questions and only if he had done that. This story is a bit of an exercise to get it out of his system and accept the truth as it is. And who knows, maybe someday Josh will stumble upon this story, all the details will click into place and he'll realize that his best friend - his first love - misses him.