Date: Thu, 28 Sep 2000 21:26:07 +0930 From: papernquill@hotmail.com Subject: secret diary of toby wilson 2 part The secret diary of Toby Wilson Part 11 There was no where else to look. Toby sat on the end of his bed a closed his eyes. "Where could It be for 'f' sake!" Tears of frustration and worry began to roll down his cheeks. Toby scanned the room one more time just incase, but to no avail. " Mum must have my diary, why else would she want to see me, and why has father come home early from work?" There was nothing left for him to do; he could stay in his room and avoid the whole situation or he could go down stairs and face the music. Toby stood, wiped his eyes and walk to the door. He had almost walked through it when he stopped and retreated to his bed. He decided he would give Craig a ring and see if he had any ideas. Craig was brilliant at getting out of trouble. Toby has always been in awe at his ability to twist things just enough to make it impossible for him to be wrong. Sometimes he gets things so confusing that eventually people just give up, forgetting what they were originally talking about. Toby dialed Craig's number. Tears began to well again as the phone began to ring. Toby was scared. Scared because he didn't want his mum and Dad to find out about his sexual contact with Craig. Scared that he would be stopped from seeing him even, He was terrified knowing that his father was going to hit the ceiling and most importantly he was worried how Craig was going to react. Craig never liked Toby's diary. He knew that Toby didn't document too much of his private life, but he did document everything down to the last detail from camp. Craig would quite often ask Toby to take those pages out and keep them some place else just incase. The phone had almost rung out before Craig's Dad answered it. "hello?" said Craig's Dad, panting as he had run in from the front garden, where he was mowing the lawn. " Hi Pa, its me." Toby and Craig always call his Dad Pa. Steve, Craig's Dad, has been good to Toby; A kind word here and there, and a hug every now and then for now reason. Toby loved him and Craig's mum very much. "Is Craig there?" Toby tried to sound as un-panicked as possible. " yeah he is here Toby, but he is fast asleep and I don't want to wake him he was dog tired. He came in the door and Craig and Barney (barney, Craig's dog) went straight to bed. Why don't you ring back in an hour or so Shorty." Toby knew it was a waste of time arguing with Steve. "Ok Pa, if he wakes up can you get him to ring me, its quite important." " Sure thing buddy! Is everything ok Toby? Is there something I can.." Pa was cut off by Toby. "Yeah everything's ok honest, it can wait. See ya." "Ok Tobs see ya." Toby hung up the phone, knowing that he was on his own this time. He took a deep breath and again made his way to the door to face the music. He often thought about what he would say if he and Craig were ever caught or challenged, and he failed miserably, and the here and now is no different. Meanwhile in the Kitchen Toby's mother is sitting at the breakfast bar drinking a coffee. She was distracted and surprised to see her husband come through the door. "Peter what are you doing home?" She stands and helps him through the door as he is clearly in distress. "Oh I don't know, I started feeling ill when I got up this morning, but I though it was because we had such a late night." Peter sat down and cupped his head in his hands. Toby's mum moved to his side and put her arm around him. Toby arrived silently at the kitchen door. " I feel so utterly sick to my stomach." Mary began to rub peters back in sympathy, neither parent had noticed Toby. Toby felt the blood leave his body; his heart pounded furiously and tears instantly welled in his eyes. Toby stepped back, as his emotions bombarded him uncontrollably. "They know! I knew that would be Dads reaction! " Toby knew he was finished his Dad was going to disown him. The situation was serious. If he had broken a window or scratched the car his Dad would be pissed beyond measure, but he would get over it. But this was different. Sex always moves things into a different arena, an arena where kids were not admitted. Toby thought he was going to run, he was not sure where, just away. Somewhere where he could not be found; where nobody knew him. He closed his eyes and allowed his tears to roll silently down his face unto the floor. Toby turned ready to make his exit but was stopped by words said the night before. He remembered the sincerity behind Craig's words. "I just don't want to play games anymore." It gave Toby strength, a kind of inner courage. He knew that the things he had shared with Craig were important to him, as was his love. " I do love him! I love him and I don't care who knows." Shouted Toby in his head. Strange warmth came over him as he turned to face his parents. He dried his eyes and summoned their attention. " Hi Mum.. Dad." Toby walked into the kitchen and sat next to his father. His actions appeared bold as brass on the outside, but really he was shitting himself. Luke's Place. Luke walked into the bathroom, closely followed by his brother Nick. Luke and Nicholas often showered together. It has been something they have always done ever since they were youngsters. There was a time not long ago when they hated to be apart full stop. It is not unusual for identical twins to have such a bond, and to share beds, showers etc especially when they are young. Their parents know that they shower together but have never chosen to stop them. I imagine that they were not aware of what they were doing in there. "Well come on Luke Tell! " Nick was taking off his clothes and trying to pry information out of his brother. Luke just smiled and turned the water on. " God calm down Nick your going to piss yourself in a minute." Luke climbed under the water and allowed the warm spray to roll over his shoulders. By now Nick had entered also, still chopping at the bit. "Come on Luke you know I like all the details." Nick put his back to Luke and Luke began to wash Nicks hair. " Its weird Nick. I feel weird." "Well there's probably a reason for that." said Nick rolling his eyes as Luke massaged the shampoo onto his hair. "No! not us, I mean the situation with David." "well what do you mean?" "Well you know when we do Stuff, its just fun yeah?" "Yeah.?" "Well Dave is different, I feel the same about him even when we are not doing stuff, its like just being with him is enough.." Luke and nick swapped places and Nick started to wash Luke's hair. " You mean like you're in love?" Nick was more disappointed than shocked, he always got very jealous of Luke. Luke began to get palpitations and his heart move to his throat, "Yeah.. I guess." Nick felt a little more uncomfortable, jealous. He didn't have to say anything, his silence said too much. Luke turned and put his arms around his brother. "Nick, I will still love you, I will always love you." Luke kissed his brother and they hugged again. "luke I know. I just felt a little left out that's all. " Both boys left the shower and were drying themselves. "I'm not really sure where all this is going to end up Nick, but it feel kind of cool." Luke was glowing as he sat on the closed lid of the toilet to dry his legs. " well bro, you still haven't told me what you got up to last night." Luke turned his head with a devious look on his face," you want me to show you"? **** Cross communication " Hey Kid, Said Toby's dad tapping the stool next to him. Toby was a little shocked by his father's lack of anger. " What's up Dad, you look terrible?" " I felt a little sick at work so I've come home." Toby started to feel like a bit of a drama queen. "Mum what did you want to talk to me about." " Oh yeah! We were talking with Craig's Mum and Dad last night." Toby's heart stopped. " Oh yeah? " said Toby nonchalantly. " Anyway, Craig's Mum is coming up for long service next month and they are going on a six week cruise. But because you and Craig are in your exam year they have asked if Craig could come and stay with us while they go away." Toby didn't know what to say, he was totally lost. He was both excited, relieved, he had experienced every emotion knew to the world in the last half an hour, and he was mentally exhausted. "Mum that would be so cool!" "Well you say that now Toby but you will have to share your room with him, and its all fun in the beginning but when you are use to have your room to yourself and then suddenly have to share, it can be a very different story." Said Toby's Dad. Toby didn't give a damb about sharing his room with Craig. Craig could have everything he owned for all he cared. " the things we will get up.." said Toby to himself, he even had to discreetly adjust his stiffy. "does craig know?" said Toby standing from his stool. "No we thought you would like to ask him yourself, he thinks he will be going to his Auntie Sues. Toby was so excited. Toby went to rush out of the room to ring Craig. He stopped and kissed both his parents. " I love you guys! " were his last words as his disappeared, leaving his parents with jus the memory of his presence. Toby's Dad felt a warm glow deep down. Toby had never kissed him before, and he had certainly never told him he loved him. Mr Wilson looked at his wife, smiling as she prepared some disgusting stomach thing from a packet. " I am the luckiest man alive." warmed Mr Wilson to himself. The memory of Toby's kiss rained on his heart. " I need to tell that boy I love him more often." He was even a little choked, but he put that down to his sickly state. "here you go my little soldier." Said mrs Wilson handing Him his drink. Peter and Mary touched hands as she passed him the glass. "I love you Mrs Wilson." Mary has knocked back a little, as this was not normal behavior for Peter. "and I love you MR Wilson.. ---------------------------------------------------------------------- I hope you enjoyed part 11. Part 12 is on the way. Please feel free to drop my a line and let me know what you think. (good or bad) thanks The Bard papernquill@hotmail.com