Date: Mon, 8 Oct 2007 12:26:23 -0700 From: Jay roberts Subject: "It Makes Me Feel Squishy Inside" by Jay Roberts Gay Young Friends ====If you stumbled on this page and you are under 18, you must leave. This is not a children's story even though there are young people in it. Over 18, stay and remember your own young days. Note: This story is true. I won't say which boy I was. Don't judge them harshly, Sex drive then you are twelve is overwhelming. Romeo and Juliet were about this age. Ben and Jimmy were both twelve. They came from the same kind of white middle class family; attended the same school and were both good athletes. Ben, the tall one played on the middle school basket ball team and was the outstanding player. Jimmy was short and stocky, but he was fast. He was named the top soccer player of the district when he was a senior. That had been friends for about two years. You would see them walking to and from school together as they lived two blocks apart. An observer would see the pleasure they had in each other's company as they smiled and laughed together. They told each other all their thoughts and plans and events didn't seem to really have happened until they related it to the other one. Ben, was the tall one, the basketball ace. His slimness and height made him seem more mature, but he was still just at the very beginning of his adolescent changes. His voice was still high and flutey, but lately Jimmy noticed that it had thickened in a nice way and sometimes was husky. Jimmy was still a boy. He didn't look much different than he did at ten, perhaps a bit taller and chunkier. He face was so pretty, it could have graced any girl. He had preposterously long eyelashes that often tangled. His mouth was naturally pink and was bow-shaped. It was his eyes that girls envied, deep ultramarine and large, topped by perfect straight brown-blond eyebrows. Ben was no beauty. His nose was long and his face was thin, but his graceful lanky body made up for his lack of facial beauty. His chest was already deep and it cascaded to his slim waist. Although he was still only 5' 8" tall, his big feet long legs promised a future height of over six feet. His older brother was very tall as was his dad. While Jimmy was more graceful and Ben coltish, Ben had an athletes command of his every movement whether walking or running. Ben's brother Jeff was two years older. "A burnout, totally," said Ben. He didn't get along with Jeff and Jeff found the successful Ben as a constant reminder to his parents of his own failings in school and two juvy arrests. Jeff could be nasty, he constantly made remarks about the two friends, characterizing them as lovers. It really pissed off Ben, that sort of talk. It was true that he kinda loved his friend, but not in that way. But Jimmy, when he heard this stuff from Jeff he kept quiet. He knew that he did love Jimmy, and not like a mate, but in every way. Just looking at Ben's lanky body and his big humorous mouth made his feel all warm inside. Ben was more important than his mom, his only family. Sometimes the boys wrestled. They were so full of energy, even after running full speed from school, they still had to work off more steam. Jimmy always lost their matches but he loved the closeness of these bouts, especially when his head was pressed into Ben's neck and he could smell that special Ben smell. There was one occasion last week that was a watershed moment in their relationship. It was the first turn into a sexual experience for both boys. Since they lived close, they never slept over each other's houses until one night last week. Jimmy's mother went out of town to her sister to help her with a new baby and she didn't want Jimmy to be alone at night. She asked Ben to sleep over. The boys had pizza and soda and watched TV much later than they would have had a parent been there to supervise. They also discovered some books on sex that Jimmy's mother had saved to tell him the facts of life. Of course he probably knew more than she did. They sat on the bed in their underwear, Jimmy in briefs and Ben in boxers, heads together, breathing noisily as they turned the pages illustrating sexual positions. They both knew each other had stiffys, but refrained from talking about it. The boys had seen each other naked many times in the showers in school. Ben was circumcised and that was often a topic of conversation. His penis was still not fully grown, but he had some hair above it that Jimmy thought was outstanding. Jimmy's penis was still a young boy's, but his testicles were developing to be large and the head of his penis was wide. The book made them have to pee and they both went to the bathroom, each taking a side of the toilet bowl and peeing and fencing with the streams. For some reasons, this night they felt a little shy with each other, maybe because of the sexy book, in any event they hardly talked long before Ben slipped into a warm comfortable sleep, resting on his back. Jimmy was thrilled to have his pal half naked in bed with him. Ben's deep breathing was hypnotic to him. He hated to settle down to sleep, he enjoyed watching his sleeping friend. He thought that Jimmy looked excellent when sleeping. His eyes closed, his lashes resting on his cheeks, his mouth slightly open. He could have been a baby boy at that moment, all restlessly gone with surrender into sleep, Jimmy was overcome with love for his friend. Without realizing what he was doing, he reached out and stroked Ben's warm cheek. Ben's nose twitched at the touch and he resettled himself in bed, moving closer to Jimmy, his warm body resting against him. Jimmy could see that Ben's boxer shorts were puffed out with his stiffy. Jimmy also felt very stiff, but of course his penis was much smaller. He often got that feeling at night from the snuggle against the sheets and sometimes he's rub back and forth until a wonderfully strange feeling would overtake him and he felt his whole body quaking and shaking. He wanted to ask his friend if he did that too, but it seemed, in spite of their closeness, wrong to ask, because it was so private. He saw that Ben's chest was rising and falling in an even pattern and he became fascinated with Ben's nipples. They were so cute and pink. He reached over and touched them. The one he stroked now had become stiff and hard like a tiny erection and the pink flesh around it had crinkled up. Ben moved and sort of rubbed his backside deeper into the bed and mumbled something in his sleep. Although Jimmy didn't know it, Ben hadn't been asleep. He was in that between stage of waking and sleep, drifting away. When he felt Jimmy stroke his cheek, he felt comfortable and close to his friend. He wished he could put his arms around the small kid and hug him, but that was taboo. He sensed that Jimmy was close to him and watching him and he wondered what would happen next. He maintained him deep sleep type breathing so as not to discourage Jimmy from doing more stuff. He didn't have to wait long. Jimmy became convinced that Ben was deeply asleep and he felt confident to make further moves. He reached down and felt Ben's stiff penis laying inside his under shorts and pointing upwards towards the boy's belly button. Jimmy leaned down and looked at the cute navel. He noticed a tiny strand of cottony fluff there and he lifted it off. He noticed Ben twitched. Ben was afraid that Jimmy was acting and planned to grab him and tickle him in his sleep, and he tensed himself against that possibility. But no, Jimmy slipped his hand inside of the fly of the blue boxers and touched Ben's warm, smooth penis. Ben almost cried out in pleasure. This is what he really wanted. He lay still so as not to discourage his friend. He didn't have to wait long. Jimmy lifted the fully erected penis up and out of the loose fly. He petted it lovingly. Ben almost cried out in pleasure. Jimmy felt the smooth head and wiped his thumb over it. Jimmy steeled himself against the urge to cry out in excitement. He felt his penis vibrating and a strange lethargy overtook him, as if he had no control over his lower body. Jimmy turned from petting it to stroking it. Up and down. He loved doing it. Ben thought that he had never felt anything to compare to the feelings that were flowing over him like waves. Suddenly his penis began shaking and his whole body stiffened. He cried out and Jimmy pulled his hand away and sank back on his pillow and pretended to be asleep himself. He knew what had overtaken Ben, it was a bigger effect like he had felt in his own bed at home. After all, Ben was more mature and he would get a bigger change. In a moment both boys had given in to nature and both were soon deep asleep, their shoulders were touching and it seemed to comfort them and deepen their sleep. Jimmy woke up in the morning abruptly as a pillow was thrown at his face. He jumped up, forgetting for a moment the hot activities of the night. He was encouraged that Ben seemed not to be aware of it. Jimmy turned out to be quite a good breakfast cook. "You know when you got a working mom, you have to learn to cook. How about an omelet and bacon?" "Terrific, we can wash it down with coke." After breakfast they rode their bikes up to the country reservation and tried out the motor cross paths. They spent almost all afternoon and we so beat, they walked their bikes home. "I am a little sleepy," Ben said unexpectedly. Jimmy's voice shook when he said, "Sure, you can take a nap. I'll straighten up the bed." They walked up and Ben sat on a chair as the bed was made. Jimmy went over to Ben who was almost falling asleep sitting there. He helped him get up and brought him over to the bed and eased him down. "Thanks mom," mumbled Ben. Ben knew it was a joke but it thrilled him to hear it. In a moment Ben seemed to be asleep. Jimmy looked down on him and then it came to him like a thunderclap: Ben was faking sleep and he had done the same last night. He realized it because he could see a slight slit at the bottom of his friend's eyelids. He was peeking. This meant that they were complicit and that was really exciting. He decided to push the envelop and he leaned down and put his lips against Ben's warm pink ones. He felt a slight jump as Ben must have been surprised. But he got control and allowed himself to be kissed. Jimmy pursued the kiss with more pressure. This was something he always wanted to do. His heart almost stopped as he felt the tip of Ben's tongue touching his lips. This was more than he could absorb and he pulled away. He was breathing hard. Ben's eyes were fluttering but his breathing was steady. He could see that tell-tale pyramid sticking up at his friend's crotch and it excited him. He knew that Ben was aware of everything so there was no need to be careful, still that seemed part of the excitement, to pretend that he, Jimmy was taking advantage of the sleeping boy. He carefully opened the fly of Ben's pants and put his hand inside. He felt the hard shaft and pulled it out of the fly. It lay almost trembling outside Jimmy's pants. He bent down and kissed the shaft, up near the tip. Ben made a sound, a sort of grunt. His penis jumped twice in excitement. Jimmy lifted it and kissed the very tip, right near the slit where urine came out. Ben grunted again, harder this time. His dick jumped. Jimmy lifted it again and he put his lips around the tip. He was huffing himself in excitement and fear that he had gone too far and might risk their friendship. But Ben signaled his acceptance as he lifted his backside off the bed slightly to push deeper into Jimmy's steaming mouth. In a moment they were in full suck. Jimmy had taken the cock into his mouth so deeply that his lips were touching Ben's new grown pubic hair. It smelled delicious. He sensed that Ben wanted a sucking motion so he side up and then down again. His mouth was producing saliva so heavily that he was soaking his friend's pubic area and some leaked onto his balls. Down and up he went. He loved doing it. Unconsciously he was humming as he did it. Suddenly he felt Ben's body stiffen and at the same time Jimmy tasted a sweet sour milky flavor. He knew that his friend had made sperm. He swallowed it and put Ben's organ back in his pants and crossed the room to sit in a chair. Ben's eyes were closed and his breathing was returning to normal. Suddenly he sat up. "You got any ice cream or something like that?" Jimmy knew the score. They were not to ever directly refer to their secret activities that a fiction had been established that as long as they didn't talk about it, it didn't happen, but it could reoccur whenever they wished. What developed over the next year was that Jimmy began to acknowledge that he knew about everything, but it was very subtle, I wink, or a smirk, or a reference to being sleepy. Out in the woods, their bikes on the side, they ate a sandwich they had brought. "I think I might be a little sleepy," Ben said, producing a big yawn. "Sure Ben, you can rest right here on the grass and I'll be the lookout for you." But as soon as Ben "fell asleep" Jimmy would go into his act. He was less careful now, diving for the rampant prick and bring it to his lips for a brisk sucking. Being young, Ben wouldn't last long and he would stiffen and cry out softly and deliver and growing amount of sweet cum to his eager friend. It never occurred to Ben that their sexual activities were very one sided. He hoped that Jimmy "got off" since he often felt Jimmy rubbing against him and once he heard him gasp. Actually, while Jimmy kept track of his adored friends maturation, seeing the growth of pubic hair, and under arm hair, Ben paid no attention to Jimmy's progress. Actually Jimmy's penis had grown prodigiously in the last few months and he had a profusion of light brown hair growing from hip the hip. His voice was now quite low, lower than Ben's, but his natural way of speaking, softly seemed to mask his change. He had grown three inches and had lost his chunkiness. He was a very, very good looking boy and lots of girls at school noticed it, as well as some boys. But his heart had been lost a long time ago to Ben. He was satisfied bringing pleasure to Ben and his own secret orgasms were sufficient. Things were changing in themselves and between them, but the sexual activity remained the same, and would have continued had not Ben introduced a new note. He spoke directly to Jimmy about sex. At first Jimmy was appalled, but he decided to own up and he listened. "Pal, I've really enjoyed our fun together but I've been reading about it. It's pretty gay you know, even though we're not gay, definitely we're not. Still I'd like to try something new. Do you know what corn holing is?" Of course Jimmy knew. He long since decided that it was real homosexual stuff and he would never have a part in it. "Yes I know, but I don't want to put my prick in your asshole, it might hurt you." Ben laughed and laughed and kicked up his long legs and wiggled his big feet. "No you dope, I mean I fuck you. How about it?" In a rush it came to Jimmy, he had become an outlet for Ben's boyish sexuality. He was a plumbing fixture. "No way, no day ever would I do that. It's dirty." He got up and grabbed his bike and pedaled out of the park area. This was the first harsh thing that had ever happened between them. Weeks went by, naturally they saw each other in school but Jimmy didn't speak to him. Ben finally gave up and began seeing some other boys and he also had a girl friend now. They were never friends again. Ben's family moved away and the boys went to different colleges. At the five year reunion they met again. Jimmy was no longer angry and he actually crossed the room to shake hands with Ben. Ben was polite, but not too warm. Trying to reel back the years, Jimmy said, "Remember those sexy sleep times we had?" "No I don't remember anything about that. Look there's Freddie and Gail. Be seeing you guy." Jimmy walked quickly to the rest room. It was empty. He found that his eyes were tearing. He blotted them, straightened his shoulders and rejoined the reunion. End