I ran
in the door ignoring Chris and went in search of my mam. As I headed down
the hallway Chris headed after me shouting "Hey asshole I know you
took cash from me, Im gonna fucking kill you kid." I was surprised
he was acting this way with my mam in the house usually he just stayed
quiet when my mam was home but as I neared her bedroom I realised why.
She was passed out on the floor and as I bent down to try and wake her
I felt a sharp pain in my back as Chris kicked me. I fell to my knees
but Chris picked me up throwing me against the wall and flailing me with
punches before removing his belt and whipping him against the bathroom
door. I tried to stay strong and not give him the satisfaction but I was
weak from our morning encounter and his shouts of "Ill teach you
to steal from me you little bastard" burned more then the whipping.
He
stopped and grabbed me by the collar throwing me into my room. I wasted
no time hopping out of my window and heading for Carries again, but as
I got closer to her house I saw my reflection in a neighbours pool. My
lip was busted and bleeding and my face was red and swollen. I knew I
couldn't go to Carries like this her parents were already suspicious so
I headed for the local park to see if there was somewhere to crash around
there.
I reached the park in ten minutes and after checking my watch I realised
it was 10:30 and nobody was out. I looked around finally seeing some old
shacks behind the playground but as I got closer I heard voices. I got
such a shock that I dropped my board creating a loud thud on the concrete.
Four guys came out from behind the shacks and one of them began to run
towards me and before I got a chance to run away had pounced on me. He
pulled a knife out of his pocket and put it against my face. "What
did you see?" He demanded. "Tell me, Tell me or Ill fucking
kill you" I began to sob, silver streaks running down my face as
another guy ran over pulling the guy off me. "God dammit J.J hes
only a kid, chill ok?" he turned to me and picked me up " So
what did you see?" he asked in a kinder voice. I didnt see anything
but J.J didnt seem to believe me. The other guy wasn't sure but he was
nicer so I stuck near him. "Kid don't tell anyone you saw anything
k?" I quickly agreed. "and to make it worth your while"
the guy dropped a white tablet into my palm. I knew it was some sort of
drug but I had no idea which but the way I was feeling I didn't care.
I hadn't done any major drugs before. my Mams drink problem had left me
afraid of drugs but tonight I couldn't think clearly I was battered and
bruised so I took the pill.
As I downed the white pill my whole body seemed to take on a great warm
feeling and fresh and happy for the first time in ages. I also felt really
really horny but I was now alone in the park unaware of what lay ahead.
After 20 minutes of Euphoria my head started to hurt again and I felt
lower then I had ever felt. I later learned that I was coming down from
my first high on speed. I didn't realise how much I had sweated and as
the speed dehydrated me I slowly began to phase out. I woke up in the
morning feeling bone dry in my mouth and throat. I scrambled for a waterfountain
but my legs didn't want to cooperate as I stumbled time after time finally
getting there and lapping the cool water for what seemed like hours. I
lay there next to the waterfountain for about an hour and then slowly
started the treck home. When I arrived home my Mam was there and Chris's
car was gone. She grabbed me as I walked in the door and held me close
hugging me and crying. She was hungover and a wreck as usual but she was
distraughtly wailing about how I hadn't come home and how Chris had admitted
to beating me up. I got her some coffee and she became more coherent telling
me that she was going to get clean and that she had already asked Chris
to leave.
My life was starting to turn around. I still couldnt go round to Carries
cuz of my busted lip and face but as my Mam patched me up and hugged me
telling me how everything was going to change and how we'd be a family
I let myself believe her words and lapped up the comfort that came with
them. She tucked me into bed and kissed me goodnight as I faded into a
relaxed sleep I hoped that her words would somehow come true and I could
have the Mam I always wanted. I woke up with the same blazing red numbers
on my alarm clock 10:00. I was still feeling kinda crappy from the speed.
At least I thought it was speed but I couldn't be sure. I rolled over
and pulled my stash of cigarettes out from under my bed. In most houses
the mom would have found them but my Mam was mostly to drunk to check
my room out. I lay back and took the first drag and instantly relaxed.
I wasn't proud of my smoking but I needed it at this stage of my life.
I threw the butt out the window and headed down the hall to get some breakfast.
I grabbed some cereal and a cup of coffee and wolfed it down before making
a run for the door. I headed down the street towards the skatepark where
there was no adults to ask questions just friends and I could always blame
my busted lip on skating. As I walked through the gate of the skatepark
I saw a couple of my friends Ryan, Steven, and Lewis. I hadn't befriended
anyone I wasn't attracted too since before last year. I found it hard
not to be really nice to the kids I was attracted to. Ryan was short with
black hair that had been dyed blond but the dark roots still stood out
leaving a cool effect, Steven was average height with short brown hair
with blond highlights and Lewis was short with blondish hair and a really
high fringe. We high-fived each other like any other day and I rolled
into the bowl ollieing into a tailslide along the rim. The others followed
with tricks of their own. Ryan was looking really hot today with baggy
skate jeans, a pair of Etnies and a wife beater. After a couple of hours
of skating the others had to go home. Steven's parents were really strict
and he usually was home by 7. I was left alone with Ryan, we continued
skating for a while and then he took a fall smacking his knees pretty
hard. He looked so cute when he was in pain his face tightened and I could
see small tears forming in his eyes. He tried to fight them back but just
ended up sniffling loudly as the tears began to stream down his face.
I decided to try and save the poor kids dignity "Ry, It's ok man
the fall looked really painfull, cry all you want dude." Ryan smiled
back weakly and I stretched out my hand to help him up. When he got to
his feet he smiled at me and said "I have an idea"
He told me that his
parents would be gone for a few hours and that they had a full liqour
cabinet that they never touched. "Come on Riley we could top up the
bottles with water, come on I don't want to do it alone". For this
guy I would have done anything so I submitted pretty quickly. We walked
back to his place which was about a two minute walk from the skatepark.
He pushed his key into the door and turned the lock. I had never been
in his house before we were more the kinda friends who hung around outside
and in school. It was a nice house and he guided me to a seat while he
went to go get a bottle of scotch. We both took it in turns to take swigs
and I felt the warmth of the alcohol flow through my body. I hadn't drank
much before and by the looks of Ryan he had drank even less. Ryan was
looking pretty rough so I decided to call it quits and flopped down next
to Ryan on the chair. Ryan rolled over and looked me straight in the eyes
" I love you man" I was taken a back but then remembered seeing
people acting like this on some reality T.V show when they were drunk,
"Ok dude I love you too" Ryan sat up in the chair "Riley
I'm not joking I love you". I froze not knowing what to say and I
opened my mouth to say something but no words came out just then Ryan
leaned over and kissed me. At first it was a regular kiss on the lips
but then he gently slipped his tongue into my mouth and slid his hands
onto my hips. My mind was swirling from thought to thought. What was going
on? I was always so sure Ryan was straight, not that I had asked him or
anything but I just kinda assumed. Ryan climbed on top of me and arched
downwards moving his tongue around my mouth. I was in ecstacy this hot
guy on top of me but then I started to wonder if I was taking advantage
of a drunk kid. "Ryan I can't do this now, If you feel the same way
when your sober then we can do something but I just can't do this when
your drunk" I wanted so badly to stay in case this was just a drunken
thing but I dragged myself up and headed for the door as I closed the
door I heard something which made my heart jump "I'll see you tomorrow
then Riley". Maybe I'd still have some fun with him.
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