Date: Tue, 07 Mar 2006 22:37:34 -0500 From: Dwedno Smith Subject: Chapter 60 of Tunnel Hi all... No need to say I am sorry again for any delay. I will just assume that everyone knows now that I will get a chapter out as often as I can and all of you can always e mail me if you have questions. I tried to make it a little longer because everyone was so kind to wait without complaints so without keeping all of you from it. Thanks again to all who wrote me and to everyone else enjoy until I can get to the next chapter. I just want all of you to know that I feel good about things and the story is going strong in my head. Most of what you will read was written in two days. I have been on a tear and got a lot done at once. E mail and websites are at the bottom of the chapter. See ya soon. Dwedno. Chapter 60. Time for healing on the farm. A knock on his door awoke Tommy. It was still dark as he heard the door creek slightly when it opened. A shadow of a boy stood in the opening where the door was and Tommy tried to focus his eyes on it to see who it was. "It's me bro." He heard the familiar voice and knew it was Kyle. He sat up and swung his legs over and feet onto the floor being careful not to wake Shawn in the process. He got out of bed and stumbled some gaining his balance. He approached Kyle who stood there waiting for him at the door so he wouldn't wake Shawn either. He gently pushed Kyle outside his room and closed the door behind him. "What's wrong Kyle you always sleep through the night." "Sorry but I can't sleep. I tried a few times but I am just not used to having someone in bed with me." "Ohhhh I see." "Can I talk to you about Jon bro? I know it's not your favorite subject." "You can talk to me about anything even if it is 3am." "Sorry." He gave Tommy a hug as they stood at the top of the steps. "Come on Ky lets go sit in the kitchen at least we should have some privacy there." The walked downstairs and cautiously into the kitchen in the dark. Tommy put on a dull light so neither of them would be blinded and there would be something lit in the room. "You want something to drink Ky?" "I dunno what are you having?" "A glass of milk, he said as he rummaged around in the fridge looking for it. IF there is any left that is." "Check the door I think there is a little on there." "Yeah I see it now, you mean that is all we have left?" "I guess so. Everyone has been drinking it lately." "I see that. It's really good so I can understand why it's going quickly. It's a good thing I am taking the boys back later I can get more from Cameron." "You are going back there today?" "Yes both Chance and Chase want to go home and I can't blame them." "Well that is their home and I am sure they miss their brother." "Maybe, but the way Cameron hurt Chase I don't really know if that is true and honestly I think Chance wants to go home just so he can yell at Cameron about hitting Chase so hard in the nuts." "Can we talk about my problem?" "Sure. Tommy said as he sat at the table and handed Kyle a glass of milk. What do you want to tell me?" "I don't know where to begin or what you want to hear big brother. I know you still care about him probably more than I do but..." "Kyle just say what is on your mind. I am a big boy and I don't think you are going to hurt me." "Okay. Sorry... I don't feel right having him in bed with me TJ. I still have feelings for girls and even though what we have done together so far has been pretty neat I just don't know if I want a guy in my life or not. It's driving me crazy and as you can see I can't sleep I have been thinking about it so much." He took a sip of milk. "That's a tough one bro. Do you care about him at all?" "Yeah I guess so. I mean it's just a few days that we have been together so far. I'm not really sure how I feel about any of this. Its all kinda jumbled up in my head and its starting to hurt thinking about if it's good or bad." "I've been there Ky and that isn't a fun thing to think about." "What did you do when you were there?" "What I did might not be right for you so I don't want to tell you if it's okay. What you have and I had are different some and I don't want to give you the wrong idea." Kyle was listening and looking at him like he had the answers only this time the only thing Tommy could offer was suggestions. It was a touchy subject and in the back of his mind Tommy still wanted Jon on some level but he was also mad at him. The sadness of what Jon did to Tommy when he wouldn't answer his question the other night had festered and turned to a low level of anger. This wasn't really what he wanted to handle right now but it was Kyle and he had to help his brother no matter how he feels inside. "Then what should I do Tommy?" "Think about it some Kyle. All I can suggest is that you decide if you want a boy in your life or no one. Unless there is someone else you are really interested in." He lifted his head and looked at Tommy when he said that. "Do you know something more that I haven't told you TJ?" "Not really. I know you have had another boy in your life I am not blind but I can only guess who it was." "How could you know? I mean when he was in there I was very discreet and I doubt he would talk." "Whoever he is Kyle he hasn't talked. I don't know but I know you well enough that I was sure you were experimenting with your sexuality. You have given a lot of obvious signs lately you know." "Yeah I know I have had a big mouth around some of the cuter boys and in front of you too. I did make it obvious some." "Some? I thought you were going to drool all over the last time I brought a new boy home. You certainly didn't hold back." He smiled. "I know and it felt good to be able to express myself like that too." "It was good to see that side of you too. It showed me that you aren't afraid of holding in your feeling and that if nothing else you were starting to test the water some. I wish I could give you a better answer when it comes to Jon but I don't have one. I am still sore over him and I am afraid I might say the wrong thing if I just let fly any thoughts in have deep inside." "I'll figure it out. I still care about him but I also have feelings for the `other' boy too. The only thing is he might be straight." "So you're not gonna tell me...gonna make me guess?" "No, for now I am just not gonna tell you." "Oh well." He got up and put his cup in the sink. "I'm gonna go turn in. try to sleep some." "Okay bro good luck with Jon in your bed. He isn't that bad to sleep with though." "I know that it's me having the problem not him. Night TJ." "Night." He took off out of the kitchen and Tommy got up and put his glass in the dishwasher, turned off the light and headed upstairs. He got into bed and settled in as Shawn rolled over and put his arm on his chest when he turned on his side. He watched Shawn in the darkness of the room for a while as he slept and looked like the innocent angel that he was. Eventually his eyes closed and he drifted off to sleep. Downstairs Kyle entered back into his bedroom and sat on the edge of his bed after staring at a sleeping Jon for a minute. He pondered what he really wanted in his mind for a bit and then got into bed and pulled the covers over himself. Jon stirred with his movement and opened his eyes. "Can't sleep?" Kyle rolled towards Jon and looked at him as best as he could in the darkness of the room. "No, sorry if I woke you." "Its okay you should have woke me before you got up." "I just wanted some time alone. Sorry Jon." "It's cool." He said. "I'm gonna try to fall back to sleep. Night Jon." "Night Ky." Eventually he did fall back to sleep but not before a quick kiss from Jon and thoughts and more thoughts of what he wanted in a boyfriend. Did he want a boy at all? Did he want the mystery boy? Was Jon good enough for now? It was no wonder he couldn't sleep well. Morning came and for the first time in a while an alarm clock woke Tommy from his slumber. He reached over and shut off the alarm as quickly as he could so he wouldn't wake Shawn. By the time his head hit the pillow again Shawn was already leaning over and giving his guy a morning kiss. "Morning TJ." He said as he kissed him on the cheek. "Morning cutie, sorry I woke you." "Ah its okay. Why did you set your alarm?" "I have to take the boys back today and see how things are at the farm with Cameron and DJ." "Can I come? Please? Please. I am sooooo tired from being stuck inside this place. Please?" "Easy there cutie...let me think about it. I'm gonna go take a quick shower and then I want to take them home after that. Its 7am I want to leave at 8." "Okay, can I shower with you?" I looked at Shawn. "Do you have to ask?" He smiled and threw the covers off himself. He had his PJ's on. He quickly got up and took them off and headed into the bathroom in just his underwear as I watched him all the way. I had to pee but before I could even make it to the door he was already splashing the water ahead of me. I stood and watched from a few feet away as the last few drops hit the water. His underwear was around his ankles as he shook the last drop off into the water and flushed. He turned to me totally naked and stood there. "Like what you see?" he asked oddly with an evil grin on his face. "No I don't." I answered. Immediately his grin went to a frown. "I don't like it at all I LOVE it!" He smiled again and came over to me and gave me a big naked hug making my morning piss hard-on even harder to deal with. "Give me a second will ya Shawn before I pee my boxers." He backed off and I walked over to the bowl. I tried in vain at first to relieve myself but it took a few seconds to get past my hardness and finally the pressure began to subside. I finished and flushed squeezing the last drop off rather than shaking. I looked at Shawn and he didn't say or do anything. He was about five feet from me and watched the whole thing. His little tool grew erect from watching I assumed. "Ready to shower?" "Yup and some if you want." "And some?" "Yeah I feel like giving you a present this morning." "Oh really?" He just smiled and nodded yes. I started the water and adjusted it. A few seconds later we got in and he got under the warm water first. I watched as his hair got wet and the water ran off and down his back and off his sweet ass cheeks. After a few seconds of that he turned to me and pulled his head out from under the water and let it flow down his back while he faced me. I was wet from splash but nothing more so far. I moved in closer and started to wet myself as he gave me a hug and put his wet mop against my chest and arms around my backside running them over the upper part of the crack of my ass as the water was now hitting me and running down my back as I towered over him blocking the flow. He just held me as I turned and let the water wet me on my side and eventually on my back again. Shawn held on while I slowly turned all ways he turned with me. His hug felt good as usual and every so often his hardness would brush my leg as he moved with me. That made me horny. It had been a while too. Almost two days since I last blew my wad. I was ready now that's for sure! We stood under the warm water in that hug for a while neither of us feeling like breaking away from one another. It was nice and felt good as I held him tightly against me as the water splashed over us. I grabbed for the soap and rubbed it on Shawn's back as he held onto me. I went up and down and covered every place I could reach with out him moving. Finally he broke away and turned around as I began washing the rest of his back and then down to his tight butt cheeks. He loosened them as I passed a soapy hand down between the cracks of his ass and once inside I made sure every inch of it was well cleaned. "Bend over cutie." I told him. He did so and I spread him a little wider and pressed my finger into his pink butt hole just enough to make him let out a small gasp. "Okay stand up and turn around." Once again he did as I asked and turned around and smiled at me as his sweetness was standing straight out at attention from my rear playing. "I guess you enjoyed that some?" He giggled at me. I started washing his chest with the soap. I did his shoulders and worked my way down to his small teats and carefully washed over each one with my index finger. I went down to his belly and washed it and then a little lower and ran my fingers over his hardness. I stroked him a few times with my soapy hands and then cupped his balls with one of them. I began stroking him and fondling his balls together while I looked into his eyes. I was about to say something sexy when there was a knock at the door. I looked at Shawn as I stopped pleasuring him. "Who the hell is that?" I asked rhetorically in a low voice. The door opened and a voice spoke out. "Tommy its Chase. Sorry to bother you in there is it okay to come in?" Shawn looked at me and suddenly smiled. An evil smile might I add. "You really want him to come in?" I asked. "I don't care." "Okay but you are the one with the stiffie." "He won't see anything if I hide behind you." "Okay. Sure come in Chase." He walked in and shut the door some. "Boy it's hot in here." The nine year old said. "Yes I know Chase what can I do for you I am totally naked in here washing!" "Sorry Tommy." He held his ground over by the door no more than five feet from the doorknob. "I just wanted to tell you that Cameron called and Chance talked to him. He wanted to know if we were coming home today." "What did Chance tell him and why is it so important to tell me this now?" "He told him we were leaving soon and then he sent me to tell you so I can't tell you why it was so important I am just doing what my brother asked me to do." I looked at Shawn. In a low voice I whispered into his ear... "I don't think you are going to get your wish behind that evil smile you made. He isn't budging from the door." Shawn just shrugged his shoulders. "What did you say Tommy?" "Nothing I was talking to Shawn." I said trying to egg him on. "Shawn is in there with you? Awesome... Do you always shower together?" "We do a lot." Shawn said. "That's awesome." Chase replied. The bathroom grew quiet and all you could hear was the running water now. "Anything else you want Chase? I mean I don't want to make you leave but you are in my bathroom and I am taking a shower so either get naked and come in or I think its time to leave." "Oh." He said, nothing more. I heard the doorknob jingle and the door creaked open. Then it shut. I turned to Shawn. "Guess he wasn't interested and left." "That's too bad. I wanted to see him naked." Just then a voice came from behind me and scared the shit out of both of us. "I didn't leave I shut the door and got undressed. Can I come in?" As soon as I regained my senses from him scaring the piss out of me I looked at Shawn and he was smiling widely. "Come in!" He said for me. The shower door once clear and now steamy and impossible to see through from the hot water opened slowly and there stood a naked Chase in all his glory with his soft cocklet hanging in front of him. Shawn practically pushed me into the wall to get around me as Chase took a step into the shower. "Easy Shawn you don't have to kill me, I'll move for you." I said to him in a stern voice. "Sorry but I didn't want to miss this." He said back to me boldly. "Miss what he is coming in here not running away!" "Shawn backed off when I said that and Chase came in and shut the shower door behind him." "Still looking as cute as I remember." I said to him. He smiled. "What do you mean as you remember?" Shawn said to me. "They changed in my room Shawn remember?" "Oh yeah but I didn't know they got totally naked." "Yeah I did Shawn. Why is it such a big deal? You get naked in front of Tommy all the time don't you?" "Well yeah but..." "But what Shawn? I said. He's right, what is the big deal about me seeing him naked before?" "There is none... I guess." He said shrugging his shoulders. "You certainly aren't having a problem with him being naked; you haven't taken your eyes off him since he came in here." With that Shawn backed off a little probably from embarrassment. After all I did just call him out with his gawking at Chase as he stood there waiting to get in and get wet with us. "Come on Chase get under the water and maybe if Shawn behaves you will let him wash your back." He laughed and Shawn poked me in the ribs. "Owwww, hey no poking there cutie!" I said. He gave me a look as our naked guest brushed by both of us and got under the showerhead. We watched as he soaked his head, back to us and wet his body and then he turned and looked at me and smiled again. He was just sooooo cute... I couldn't see Shawn's face but there was no doubt I could feel the jealousy from my comment. No doubt he didn't want me calling anyone else cute, at least in front of him. I winked at Chase as he reached out and grabbed the soap not letting any of this effect him one bit. He looked at me and then at Shawn and handed the bar of soap to Shawn. He did everything but jump for joy and yell out as he looked at me briefly before he began to soap up Chase's back for him. I watched and enjoyed as the nine and ten year olds washed each other. First Shawn did Chase and then Chase turned and washed Shawn. Neither of them went below the lower back for whatever reason. For the first time as long as I knew Shawn he was being modest and didn't go south of Chase's waist even though nothing was stopping him. Chase turned and asked Shawn to wash his belly and Shawn did so without hesitating. Now mind you I know Chase a little bit better than Shawn does and the one thing I know or one advantage I have is knowing Shawn occasionally for whatever reason embarrasses easily when he is around people he doesn't know well and so far it's the exact opposite I am getting from Chase. He doesn't have a shy bone in his body as far as I can tell. I am sure I will say that several more times too since it is absolutely mind blowing to watch someone so young act so well behaved while totally naked. Shawn washed Chase's belly and didn't even think about going any farther than that. Chase was standing out at attention totally rock hard already from the feelings Shawn has given him so far from his touch and washing and he is not hiding it one bit. I almost laughed from watching Shawn as he washed Chase and stayed totally clear of his hardness. Chase was facing me and Shawn had his back to me so there was no way he could see any facial features I made. Chase looked at me and I winked at him, I didn't know what he had in mind but something told me he was about to have some kind of fun by the expression on his face. Shawn reached out to hand the soap to Chase so he could wash Shawn's belly now and Chase took Shawn's hand with the bar of soap and brought it right down to his hard cocklet and began to rub Shawn's hand and the soap all around his hardness. I couldn't see Shawn's face sadly just Chase's as I said. He led Shawn on with that move totally opening the door for them to have as much fun as they wanted to but what happened next I could never in a million years imagine! It was priceless. As quickly as Chase let go of his soapy hand Shawn pulled away from Chase's hard cocklet like it was about to bite him or something. I did everything I could not to laugh and believe me it was one of the toughest things I ever had to do to hold back that feeling! Shawn backed way off for the first time since I knew him and he went from a smirking boy who couldn't wait for Chase to get in the shower a few minutes ago to a cowering coward of sorts who looked like he wanted to shrivel up and hid some place. I moved up next to Chase and took the soap from him with Shawn now totally hidden behind me and out of the way. At this point I couldn't wait to get him alone later and see what he has to say about this. I soaped up my hand and washed all of Chase that Shawn didn't want to touch. Taking my time to rub and cover every single inch of his crotch. About half way through my cleaning his eyes closed and I could tell he was in heaven from my actions. I ran my fingers up and down his hard penis several times and stroked it a few times too before I washed under it and fondled each of his hanging testicles with my soapy hands. I didn't go any farther and when I stopped touching the cute boy he opened his eyes once again. Shawn was still behind me and I doubt he even saw what I was doing and if he did he was quiet about it. Apparently Chase was a lot smarted than I thought as he looked at me and mouthed thanks without actually saying it. Apparently he didn't want to embarrass Shawn anymore then he already was. I was totally shocked at the way Shawn was acting but then again I have never taken a shower with him and a stranger before so I didn't know what to really expect. It's just that his initial reaction to having Chase come in was 100% different at first but once he realized that Chase wasn't a shy boy and not afraid to show off anything to anyone he seemed to panic. This did shock me quite a bit but I do sorta understand where Shawn is coming from. For a second I put myself in his place and at ten I can imagine how I would have panicked too. I turned to Shawn who was just standing there and leaned in on him. I whispered into his ear. "Are you okay? Because no one is going to hurt you in here cutie. I understand if you don't want to wash him but he won't hurt you." He whispered back... "I really don't want to talk about it now please." "Okay then what do you want to do?" "Just stand here and when you are done we can get out and dry off." "You still have soap on yourself." "Okay well I will rinse off as soon as Chase is done." I turned back to Chase and winked at him and he smiled. "Are you sufficiently clean?" "Huh?" Chase said. "Are you clean enough?" "Oh yeah I am fine. I rinsed off and everything." "Okay why don't you step out since it's a little crowded in here and let us finish." It really wasn't but I needed an excuse to calm Shawn some and I think Chase knew that. He really was cute though. I watched as the water rolled off his beautiful body. It ran down his chest and to the bottom of the tub and every so often a good amount of water would hit his hard cocklet and roll off it. It was very nice. I looked at Chase and reached out and gave him another quick couple of strokes on his softening cocklet and then reached up and rubbed his wet mop with my hand. I leaned in and whispered in his ear once more. "We'll get to do this again sometime but for now go dry off before I want more of that cute tool you have down there." "Thanks Tommy." He whispered back. He pushed gently past me and gave Shawn a smile as I watched him to the shower door. "There are towels hanging up right outside the door Chase. Help yourself." "Thanks." He said as he exited the shower. I turned and looked at Shawn. He was almost as white as a ghost. I reached out to him and took him and held him. He squeezed me tightly. "I don't know what is wrong Shawn... I whispered to him... but it's okay. I am here and you will be fine." He didn't say a thing he just held me for a minute and then went and rinsed off under the water before I turned it off. By the time we got out Chase was almost dried off and had the towel wrapped around his waist. I grabbed a towel and handed it to Shawn and took one for myself. Both boys were on either side of me as Shawn dried off and rapidly put the towel around his waist after drying his top half off. Once again Chase surprised me as he watched Shawn and he told me he was going to go out and change. He grabbed his clothes that he was wearing off the hamper and headed out to change in my room. After he shut the door I looked at Shawn. "You okay?" "Not really but I don't want to talk about it okay?" "Sure love." I said as I went over to him and gave him a quick hug. "Please don't Tommy. I just want to be alone for a little bit okay?" "Sure cutie." I rubbed his sweet mop and left him alone as I took my semi wet body out into the bedroom to be with Chase. I looked at him after I shut the door. "Is Shawn okay?" "He will be fine Chase." "Good." He said as he took the towel he was still wearing off his lower half and shared himself with me one more time. "You really don't have a shy bone in your body do you?" "Nope. I don't care who sees me or what they think." "Interesting." I said. "Why Tommy? What is so interesting about what I said?" "Because most boys when they are your age don't want anyone seeing them naked. They aren't all like you. Matter of fact you are quite special in more ways then I can say cutie." He smiled at me. "Thanks. I better get dressed before Chance comes looking for me." "Yeah I'm surprised he didn't already." "I sorta told him to leave me alone and let me do what I wanted to do or I wouldn't talk to him anymore." "Really?" "Yeah sometimes I have to tell him a few things to put him in his place even if he is older." "Yeah I think we all have to do that sometimes." "I'm gonna go back into Shawn's room and put on clean clothes now that I showered. Thanks Tommy that was really fun! Especially when you washed me close up like that. I really want to do it again." "We can do it anytime. After all you are coming back here right?" "That's up to you isn't it?" "Yes in a way it is but I think we should talk to Cameron first." "I really don't want to talk to him yet Tommy. He hurt me really bad and even though we sorta made up before I left to come here... since I have been here I have had a lot of time to think about it and I guess I am still kinda mad at him for what he did and if its okay with you I would like to come back here. At least here you show me love and pay attention to me. Back home he treated me like crap most of the time." His eyes were welling up some. I walked over to him and got down on my knees. "You can stay here as long as you want cutie. I don't have a problem with that but we still need to talk to him and get past this or you might never get over it okay?" "Yeah I guess. As long as you are there I can do it." I felt horrible that I had to be there as an outsider to protect one brother from another but whatever has to be done I guess I will do. "Okay go change we'll be out shortly." "Thanks Tommy." He gave me a quick firm hug and turned and headed out of the room. I was at the door as he walked in to Shawn's room and I heard Chance start to say something but he shut the door and I didn't hear anything else. Besides I have my own cutie in the bathroom that needs some attention. I walked over and opened the bathroom door. "You okay? He is gone you can come out now." He looked at me but didn't say anything as he walked past me. I took his towel off from around his waist and dried himself off a little between his legs before putting it on the bed. He grabbed a clean pair of underwear and an undershirt and got dressed as I watched him. He didn't look at me once. I wanted to go over to him so badly but he needed his space right now to sort out his feelings and if he wanted something he had to come to me to get it. I grabbed socks and sat on my bed and put them on with my back to him. I got up to get pants and a shirt and he was dressed already and quickly might I add. He went and put his towel in the bathroom and walked out without looking at me or saying anything else to me. I dressed and knocked on their partly opened door before pushing it opening more. "Come in Tommy. Chance said. I see things are pretty good between you and Chase now and he takes showers with you now?" "He did and that is up to him. You have a problem with that?" "No, honest its okay I do trust you." "Then why did you open your mouth like that?" Asked Chase. "I don't know, because I felt like it I guess." Chase didn't say anything else. "I am ready to take you boys home now." "Good, said Chance I really need to talk to Cameron about some things." "You and he aren't going to fight are you, please don't fight when we get home Chance I don't like it when you two don't get along." "Relax pipsqueak, you have never seen us hit each other have you?" "No but I have never seen you this upset before either." "I can't make any promises, sorry. He did something horrible to you and he and I need to talk about it alone!" "But Chance you know he is stronger then you are and he will kick your ass if you hit him." "We'll see about that. But don't you worry none, it will be fine." "Okay boys, let's go. We can worry about the rest when we get there. I want to get on the road." The three of us walked downstairs together and at the bottom Kyle came over to me. "Got a second for me bro?" "Sure." "Let's go in my room I want to talk in private." I followed him in and he shut the door. "What's up?" "First is Shawn okay? He looked like something happened. Did you two get into a fight again?" "No it wasn't me. He will be okay and I can't talk about it. If he tells you that is fine but it was private okay?" "Sure. That wasn't what I wanted to tell you I just saw him and I had to ask." "Okay what else is there?" "Jon." He said. "What about Jon?" "This morning when I woke up Jon was already awake and he was rubbing his hand over my... well he was trying to make me happy." "Right and?" "And I told him to stop and he asked why so I told him what was on my mind." "Ooooh, I see. And he got up and left?" "Stop! Let me finish telling it my way." "Okay go on." "I told him what was on my mind after you and I talked last night and he seemed upset." "What did you say?" "I said it wasn't him but I wasn't sure what I wanted right now when it come to boys." "Ouch... Then?" "He sorta looked at me for a second and he got up and went into the bathroom and took a leak. When he came out he told me he understood and he would sleep in his bed tonight alone. He didn't let me say anything else bro, he just walked out in his PJ's. I know I hurt him but I don't know what to do about it." "You can't do anything Ky; right now he just needs time." "Can't you talk to him before you leave?" "And say what? You know I am still mad at him for not answering my question." "Yeah but for me? Please?" "Kyle I love you very much but no... what I will do is think about it and when I get back from the farm later you tell me what happened while I am gone and then I'll think about talking to him." "You want him to stir all day like that?" "Yup! He wouldn't talk to me when I needed him to why should I run to him especially when I shouldn't even know what is going on between you two and even more what makes you think he will even talk to me if I went up there now?" "Good point. He might not want to see anyone for a bit." "Exactly!" "Okay. If anything happens I'll call you otherwise I'll see you tonight." I walked over to him and put my hands on his shoulders. "I love you Kyle and don't forget it. Jon will be fine as soon as he sorts things out. As much as I am upset with him I still love him deep down inside but I am not going to him unless I really have to. He fucked that up and he is going to have to swallow his pride and come to me... if he even wants to do that. For now at least that is how it needs to be. If you want to go talk to him wait until after lunch and give him time to cool off or whatever..." "Okay got ya. Thanks. Good luck with Cameron." "Yeah thanks. It might be hot over there too. It looks like Chance wants to rip Cam a new ass hole for hurting Chase. But we'll see what happens when I get there with the boys." "That sounds like fun. Any word on how DJ is?" "Healing but still sore I heard." "Poor guy. That must totally suck!" "I don't even want to know how being burnt feels. Between Billy and DJ I have seen enough burns to last me forever!" "Yeah I bet!" "Okay bro talk to you tonight and give Jon space he is hurting..." "Yeah I know. I'll call if things get bad otherwise see you later." He gave me a hug and I kissed his head good bye. "Love you Kyle." "Love you too TJ." I turned and walked out of his room and the boys were waiting for me at the front door with their suitcases and anything else they were taking home. "Chance are you staying there or coming back?" "I don't know yet Tommy it all depends on what happens when I confront Cameron." "Be gentle. That's all I am going to say." "Yeah, I'll be gentle as I punch him in the nads!" Chase started to giggle. I opened the door to the basement and we headed downstairs. Might as well get in the truck in the garage and not get cold outside. It looked frigid out there when I looked out before. We got in the truck in the garage and I opened the door. This time I had the remote control for the door. Last time the batteries died and I took care of that. I still felt the cold though and it was bitter out! I backed out and we took off in the bright sunshine for the farm. Sun or no sun it was cold out there. I looked at the truck thermometer when we got down the hill and it said 2 degrees. Yikes! A few minutes later we were on the parkway and I was doing 90 as we flew down the road to the farm. Twenty minutes later I was turning onto their road and the farm was ahead of us. I pulled onto the property and Cameron came running out zipping up his coat and he walked over to the truck. Both boys got out and totally ignored him as they carried their stuff past him and into the house. He looked at me. "Wow that never happened before what happened at your house?" "Let's say they are both pretty mad at you and they can explain the rest." "But Tommy..." "They will tell you Cameron, not me, let them!" He shook his head and followed me to his house and we went inside. As soon as we entered Chance was waiting for him and he didn't look happy. "We have to talk now Cam!" Cameron followed him and they went off to a more private part of the house. I looked at DJ and he sat down at the table with me and Chase and we started to chat about how he was doing. Chase apologized about twenty times before DJ could say anything to me. You could tell from his voice he felt terrible about scalding him with the hot water. DJ smiled at him and told him it was okay and he knew it was an accident. Then DJ looked at me. He was about to tell me something when we heard the yelling and commotion from the other side of the house. I got up and ran over and when I got there Cameron told me it was okay and please go back to the kitchen. Both of them were still standing and there wasn't any blood yet so I did as he asked. I headed back and sat with Chase and DJ and he started to tell me how he felt. Mean while this is what was going on over with Cameron and Chance... They walked into a bedroom and Cameron shut the door. Before he could even say anything Chance started screaming at him which was what we heard from the kitchen. "How the hell could you do that to our brother? You fucking punched him in the nuts like that!!! AND three times?? What the fuck is wrong with you Cam? What gives you the right to first off... hit him like that and of all places there? You know as well as I do how that feels but you punched him three fucking times in the balls!! What were you thinking you asshole?" His face was beet red as he waited for Cameron to explain. For a moment he just stood there and said nothing. Then he looked at Chance as a tear rolled down his cheek. "I...I wasn't thinking. I just reacted and being in charge got the best of me and I was just stupid Chance." "Stupid? You did that to pipsqueak. You love him don't you? Hell I don't even know you anymore; I don't even think I want you as my brother. I think I am going to go live with Tommy and you can be a lone with your fucking attitude!" "Please Chance, let me explain." "Explain? Explain what? Are you going to tell me how he was on the floor and your made a fist and hit him not once but three times in his most private place? I mean shit if you spanked his ass I would understand but..." His voice trailed off as his breathing increased from his rage. He walked over to Cameron and looked at him. Cam was a few inches bigger so he had to look up at him. Tears were rolling down his face as he stood there and took everything his younger brother barked at him. "I don't even know you anymore. You know what Cameron. I think you are dead to me treating him like that!" He turned to leave the room and Cameron went to say something. "Don't even talk to me you are scum!" "Chance please..." He reached out and put his hand on his shoulder to stop him from leaving. Chance must have lost it because he turned around with Cameron's touch and looked at him for a second and reached out and punched his brother right in the nuts. Cameron went down in a heap looking like a mass of jello falling out of a bowl as he grabbed his nuts and hit the floor with a loud thud. As he lay there moaning Chance realized what he did and came to his senses as he got down on the floor next to Cameron. He picked him up as best as he could and tried to comfort him as he attempted to catch his breath from the sharp blow to the balls. It almost knocked him totally unconscious. Chance picked him up some and held him as he cried at what he had done to his brother. He cried loud and hard as his brother began to cough and cough while he tried to regain his breath. Chance held him as best as he could while he watched over him and the tears fell from his face. Eventually the color came back in Cameron's face and he took a deep breath and sat up. "I'm so sorry Cam I didn't mean to do that. Please forgive me for hitting you there. I just saw red and totally lost it. Are you okay? Can you even talk?" He babbled on over and over as he waited for Cameron to finally be able to say something. Five minutes easily passed as Cameron coughed and gasped for air before finally sitting up. "Wow, he squeaked out. If that is what Chase felt and I hit him three times I am surprised he is still alive. He coughed again. You nailed me once and I thought I was gonna die." He leaned on Chance as he closed his eyes and became quiet. "Cam are you okay? CAM?" "I just need time Chance... time... I will be okay just let me rest and give the pain a chance to totally go away." He was quiet for a while after that as he lay there with his head on his brother's leg and Chance just waited for him to feel better. The door to the bedroom opened and in walked Chase. Seeing them both on the floor he yelled out in fear and that brought Tommy and eventually DJ in to the room. "What the hell happened in here?" I asked. It looked like a war zone. Chance was on the floor with Cameron leaning halfway on him and the other half sprawled out all over floor next to him. Kneeling next to them was Chase who appeared to be in some kind of a confused state of his own not knowing what has happened like us to his brothers. Again I yelled out. "WHAT HAPPENED IN HERE?" I walked around so I could see Chance's face and he looked up at me as the tears continued to roll down his face. Cameron was in some kind of half passed out stage on the floor. Finally he Chance attempted to tell me what was going on with his voice cracking and squeaky from his crying. "We got into an argument and I went to leave. Cameron put a hand on my shoulder to stop me and I turned around and punched him in the nuts. He went down and I have been trying to get him to come back to life since then." "I'm okay. Cameron suddenly said in a weak voice. Just have a lot of pain. Give me time..." I looked at Chase and he was crying too as he leaned over his brothers backs to try and comfort them. It was a blubbering mess. I got on my knees and looked into Cameron's face. "Do you understand me?" He nodded yes with pain easily showing on his pale face. "I feel...like the wind was...he paused for about ten seconds. The wind was totally knocked out of me but...from my balls not my mouth." He put his head down. "I think you should check and see if you are okay down there. Do you want me to look or do you want to check in private?" "I don't really care Tommy. He said in a better tone. I just don't want anyone touching me yet and I am not ready to get up either." "Okay then just stay there and when you are ready I will help you up." I looked at Chase who was wiping his tears from his face. "Go get him a glass of water Chase." He got up and ran out of the room to do as I asked. I looked at DJ and he got the hint. "I'm gonna go back inside." He said. That just left the three of us for a second. "Can you feel your balls Cam?" "Probably but I don't want to touch them or even look and see how they are. They are killing me right now." That brought more tears down Chance's face. He looked like he killed someone from his reaction to his brother's pain. I am not saying what Chance did was right but I would bet that Cameron will never punch anyone in the nads again in his life unless his life is in danger. I thought to myself how ironic this is on some level that he wounded Chase and left him alone and now Chance wounded Cameron and everyone came running to his aid. Poor Chase was all alone with no one for probably twenty or thirty minutes before he most likely got up from his pain. Nine years old or not by that age you might not be developed enough but you can sure feel three shots to that area! I stood waiting silently for another five or so minutes before Cameron seemed ready to move. Chase brought back the water and he sipped it some before but he really wasn't thirsty. It was just something for him to do to get him out of the room for a few minutes. "Do you want help Cameron?" I asked. "Ahhhhhh, yeah I think I need it." He said as he tried to get up on his own but there was still too much pain in his face to actually do it. I grabbed him by both hands and Chance got behind him as I slowly lifted him to his feet. He was either very woozy or just couldn't get his legs under him for a moment and then he got his footing and finally stood alone. He winced as he took a step but he tried and eventually took a few steps. I stood and watched as he regained some control slowly. Chance was holding him trying to steady him and Chase was holding me tightly for support as he watched his older brother try to get his wits back about himself. I think I might have found someone who really needs attention and might give Shawn a run for his attention. Depending on how much time he actually does wind up spending at my house. "I'm going to go to the bathroom and check myself." Cameron said. "Do you want any help?" Chance asked. "NO... I mean no I just want to be left alone for a while." With that he started walking without any help. He entered the bathroom at the end of the hall and shut the door. I looked at DJ who was silently taking all this in and he just shook his head and walked away. We all wound up back in the kitchen and I asked DJ to show me his wounds. He lifted up his pant legs and showed me the scarring and other things that were going on that I don't need to describe. "Have you been using the salve?" "Oh yeah... A few times a day. It has helped so much. Not too much itching and dry skin but still some pain. It's really helped a lot and so has Cameron. A few times he put the salve on for me when I couldn't reach the area. Let's say the past few days have really been a bitch when it comes to pain Tommy." I looked at Chase after DJ said that and it was easy to see the remorse in his face. He already has apologized about twenty times for what he did to DJ. Just then Chance came running into the kitchen with a look on his face like something was seriously wrong. "Tommy you need to come quick, Cameron is in the bathroom and the door is locked but all I hear is him moaning and he won't answer me!" I got up and everyone followed me to the bathroom door. "Cameron can you hear me?" I yelled. I giggled the door knob and it was locked. "CAMERON!" I put my ear to the door and listened. He was moving around from what I could hear but just not answering. "Look either you say something or I am gonna come through this door." "Just leave me alone. I am in pain but I am okay. I want to be left alone! Go the fuck away everyone!!" I turned and looked at the others. "Okay everyone go. I am going to see if I can have him open the door but I want everyone out of here. Go in the kitchen or any where just leave us for a little bit." "But Tommy he is my brother." "Chance... look I know you feel bad about what happened but please. Just go for now give him some time and space to get his head together." "I just want to..." "Chance... Please go!" I said as I pointed to the other room. Finally he got the point and all of them cleared out leaving me alone in front of the bathroom door. "Cameron it's me Tommy. I am alone now I sent everyone away please open the door so I can help you." "Tommy just go away. Leave me alone." He whined. "I am not going any where until I make sure you are okay. Now open this door for me!" I heard some stumbling around and then the lock clicked. I turned the handle and opened the door. He was standing there in just his boxers with a pained look on his face. I shut the door and locked it. "Tommy I'm scared to go any farther. I don't know what I am gonna see. It doesn't feel good when I put my hand over them and felt around. I really am scared." "Do you want me to help you or just go away?" "Both." He said sarcastically. "Its good to see you have some of your sense of humor back." "Don't make me laugh it hurts too much." "What am I gonna do Tommy I need to look but I am too scared to pull these down and see how hurt I am." "You have two choices. Either pull them down and look with or without me." "I don't really care if you are here Tommy. You seeing me naked doesn't bother me at all. After all DJ has most of the past few days and it helped me get over some of my shyness." All of a sudden he is being brave and sharing everything. What timing! "It's your call Cam." "Sit here and I am gonna pull them down for you. Tell me if it's bad okay?" I sat on the toilet lid and he stood in front of me. Now normally this would be very exciting but right now I didn't have much interest in how good his cock looked. "Okay whenever you are ready Cam." He grabbed his waistband and started to lower his boxers. I saw pubic hair and then a beautiful soft cock as he lowered them and then I saw his swollen ball sac. It scared the piss out of me. They were almost twice the size normal testicles should be as far as I was concerned. For the first time I think we really need a doctor. "I see your face Tommy how bad is it?" "Sorry Cam it's not good. They are swollen almost twice normal size I think." He looked down and lifted his cock up to try and see his ball sac. It hurt too much so he stopped. "Got a mirror?" "Yeah in the draw over there." He pointed and I opened it and took out a round 6 inch mirror with one side regular and the other magnified. I think everyone has or had one in their house growing up. "You ready?" "No but I need to see." I took the mirror and placed it close his balls but not touching them. "Okay, whenever you are ready you can look." He looked down at the mirror and almost immediately his attitude changed from fifteen year old to five as he saw his swollen balls and began to cry. "Tommy what am I gonna do I don't wanna die." He cried to me as tears rolled down his cheeks. I took the mirror away and stood up in front of him. He reached out and put his arms around me and buried his face in my chest and wept. I put my arms around him as best as I could and held him until he regained his composure. I didn't know what to do standing there holding a half naked fifteen year old with swollen balls. This was definitely new to me. I felt so lost. Eventually he stopped crying and looked at me as he wiped his face with his hands. "What am I gonna do Tommy? I don't want to lose my balls. Look how big they are. What am I gonna do??" "I think first we are going to get you to bed and lying down. Then as much as you might hate this idea, a cold rag on them for a while. Its probably gonna sting or hell I don't have a clue how it might feel but we need to do something to get the swelling down." "Okay Tommy anything you say. Just make me better...Please?" I felt like shit. I didn't have the answers just ideas. I grabbed his boxers and pulled them up over his sweet soft cock and swollen balls giving him back some of his pride as he pulled them up as best as he could. I opened the door and as I expected everyone was outside waiting to know what was going on. I helped him as we walked slowly to his bedroom and he sat gingerly on his bed. "It hurts so much to sit this way." "Hang on I have an idea." I grabbed a skinny pillow from a chair. "I am gonna lift you up by your legs and try to put this under your ass and get you some height so there isn't any pressure on your balls okay?" "Whatever you need to do Tommy just make the pain stop...please!" I slowly lifted his legs and Chance handed me the pillow and I put it under his butt and slowly lowered them, it looked odd but he wasn't complaining for the moment. His legs were split as wide as they could go and his ass was several inches off the bed but it seemed to be working so far. It looked quite uncomfortable but the alternative was worse. "Chance, go get me some aspirin or pain pills and a glass of water." He ran out of the room and did as I asked. I covered him with a light blanket for now just for some privacy. Chance came back with a bottle of Advil and glass of water. I gave him four pills and the glass. "Take these and lay back down." "Four? I never took this many before." "Yeah and you never had swollen balls either did you?" He didn't answer he popped them into his mouth and drank some water. "Okay now go get me a wet wash cloth please." "Sure Tommy." Again he ran out of the bedroom. "Sorry but I need everyone to leave so I can put the cold rag in the proper place. He doesn't need an audience for this." There was some grumbling but everyone left and then Chase came back with the wet cloth. "Thanks now one more thing. Some ice." Again he was off for ice now. "Ice Tommy? What are you gonna do freeze my balls?" "Just relax I have an idea. Its probably gonna feel very odd or uncomfortable but what else do you want me to do Cam? I am not a doctor and I hate seeing you this way but this is all I can think to do." "I know Tommy, sorry. Thanks for caring and trying to help." He grew quiet now as Chase came back with a small bowl full of ice cubes. "Okay Chase you can go now I need to take care of this and he really doesn't need anyone else to see okay?" "I guess so but I wanted to be here for him." "Chase you can go bro. thanks but its okay I don't want you to see this so please go for me." "Okay Cameron." He turned and walked out shutting the door behind himself. "You ready?" "NO but do what you have to." I took down his boxers and pulled them off his legs and put them aside. I took the wet cloth and put ice in it for a few minutes as he watched me and then I put the cubes back in the bowl. "Ready? I don't have a clue how this is gonna go." "Yeah I guess so." "Okay grab your cock and lift it out of the way." He did as I asked as I took the cold cloth and gently placed it over his balls. He jumped, yelled and squirmed as the cold hit him hard in his most sensitive place on his body. The more he moved the more it appeared to hurt. It seemed to be a lose, lose situation right now. Finally he stopped moving as a few tears rolled down his face from probably the pain he was feeling and I once again tried to situate the wash cloth properly to cover most of the swelling. He tried his best not to move but I could understand why he did move. First I was touching something very sore and very private and second I was applying cold to the most sensitive area on a guy on top of everything else. I am shocked he didn't jump out of the bed. Eventually he calmed to the point where it seemed to be okay. "How do you feel?" "Numb Tommy. Just numb." I covered his lower half with a blanket and reached out and ran my hand over his sweet brown hair for a bit. He tried to smile as I did my best to take his mind off the pain below by stroking his hair and distracting him as best as I could. "That feels nice Tommy I like it the way you do that. No one has done that to me since my mom did that when I was younger. I liked it then too and I missed having that done to me too." I smiled at him as I did it some more. It was easy to do he was very cute and extremely vulnerable at the moment so anything might help. Eventually he closed his eyes and I stroked his hair a little more. I stopped after a bit and he didn't move. I just sat and watched him for a little while as he tried to rest. He finally seemed to be a little comfortable if that is the proper word to even think about using. After ten minutes or so I got up and went to leave. "Where are you going Tommy?" "Out to tell the others how you are and I have to pee too." "Okay. I am gonna try to rest as best as I can so please tell them I said to come back later because I know they will want to see me now." "I'll take care of it for you. Try to rest!" "Thanks." I left and shut the door behind me. At least I made it to the bathroom to pee before I got bombed with questions when I came out. "Okay everyone in the kitchen and then I will tell you what I know." They all scattered into there and we sat at the table and I filled them in with what I wanted them to know. It wasn't a happy time for Chance who sniffed back tears as I got a little descriptive but Chase put his arm around him to comfort him some and DJ just sorta looked pale. "Now you guys know everything and he needs to rest so he told me to keep everyone out for now. You can go back and see him in a few hours unless he calls for us." They all agreed and we left it at that for now. I looked at a clock and it was already approaching noon and we had some decisions to make about who was staying and who was going. Apparently no one was going to come back with me now and I couldn't blame them. I looked for DJ and found him in the living room. "DJ, are you coming back with me later or staying here?" "Wow I don't know Tommy. I was gonna come back and get a few things and stay for a few days but now I don't know. I don't want to leave him here with just the two young ones. I don't think you should go either but I can't make you stay. He needs to be watched by someone who knows as much as you do." "That's nice of you to say but I am not staying here and if he were able to be moved I would take him back with me but that still leaves the problem of who will take care of the animals if everyone came back." "Yeah good point. You might have to talk to Chance about that." "I will as soon as the time is right. Let's let Cam rest and see how he is in a few hours. Anything is possible." "Yeah but if he is as bad as you say who knows what might happen. He could get worse too couldn't he Tommy?" "I suppose he could. He might even die if its that bad." "Oh man don't say that. That would be devastating to all of us." "I know but it needed to be said. I don't know how badly he is hurt and well you know..." "Yeah I know just lets leave it at that for now okay?" "Yeah, okay." I said. The next few hours were quiet and boring as I just hung out waiting for some response from Cameron. Finally around 3pm he let out a yell and we all ran into his room. "Sorry I didn't mean to scare all of you. I just wanted to let you know I was awake." "How do you feel?" Chase asked. "Better. Not as much pain and when I felt down there it didn't seem as bad." "Can I see?" I asked. He nodded and I lifted up the cover and looked at his balls. He was right the swelling did go down some but it was still red and sorta swollen. "He's right it does look a little better." Everyone cheered. "I have to pee Tommy so I want to sit up." "Okay everyone out so he can try to get up." Again they all filed out. After I shut his door he sat up slowly and swung his legs over and onto the floor. "That wasn't bad at all. I can't believe that the pain went away so fast." Slowly he stood up. He was a little wobbly but he stood okay. He looked at me as I held out his boxers and he put one leg in at a time. Then he pulled them up and started to walk. But first he stopped and looked at me. He got close to me and reached out and gave him a huge tight hug. He held me tightly for about a minute. Finally he broke it and looked at me. "Thank you for helping me so much Tommy you are truly my hero. You might have saved me from something that could have been much worse if you weren't here." "I did what I could Cameron and that wasn't a lot." "It was to me. But look at it this way. You got to see more of me then my brothers have seen in years." He laughed a little. "I guess so. But why would they see you naked in the first place?" "Exactly, but now you have and DJ did too. Actually he did a lot." He smiled widely as he said that. You could tell he was feeling better. "So are you and DJ serious?" "I think so Tommy we had a great time together as much as we could anyway with his pain and hurt legs." "Yeah it seems like someone is always hurt here I don't know if that is good at all." "Yeah but if I have my way after I get better there will be no more pain in this house for a long time." "That's good to hear. Now before you run in to pee if you have a second I just want to ask you this." "Sure, what do you want to know?" "What is going to happen in a few hours when I leave?" "Ooooooooh. I don't know what to say. I guess we need to talk about that. DJ is going with you right?" "I think so. I said. What about your brothers. They won't leave you for sure now." "Yeah I know I feel bad about what happened to Chase and obviously Chance feels bad about what he did to me because of what I did to Chase. Damn this is so confusing and all my fault!" "I'm afraid you are right there. It's your fault and you need to decide what is going to happen. Both boys are going to want to stay and someone needs to feed the animals in the morning don't they?" "Oh yeah I almost forgot with all my pain. I guess Chance can do that he has many times." "What about Chase? I mean for now he has put all this behind him but he was pretty hurt on the way home. What do we do about that?" "Talk to him and see what he wants I guess Tommy. I swear I will never do anything like that again so you have my word." "After what happened today Cameron I totally believe you but you and he need to spend some time alone and he needs to tell you how much you hurt him. He was really bad when it came to you and upset at you before we left. Probably to the point where he got Chance going too." "I believe that. Look as much as this might hurt I gotta pee right now so give me a minute okay?" "Sure go ahead." He hobbled off into the bathroom and shut the door. I expected a loud yell but it was quiet and all I heard was the toilet flush and door open. "That went a lot better than I thought. Hardly any pain." "Great maybe you aren't hurt that bad after all." "It still hurts Tommy just not as much." "Yeah I bet." "Let's go figure out what is gonna happen when you leave." He said to me. We walked into the kitchen and I got DJ, Chance and Chase and we all sat while Cam stood and began to discuss things. There were a lot of questions of course and very few answers. That was plain to see. One thing though Chance agreed to take care of the animals in the morning and I think Chase might stay tomorrow. But Chase and Cam are going to have a talk alone as soon as we are done. That will decide a lot I suppose. They left the kitchen together and went back to Cameron's bedroom alone to sort out their problems. I don't know how well it will go since Chase probably has a lot of sympathy for Cameron right now but they still have to talk that out. In the bedroom... "Chase I don't know what to say to you or even how to begin to tell you how sorry I am for causing you pain and punching you in the balls like that. I do know how you felt though if that helps." "I don't know what to say to you big brother. You were supposed to protect me but you hurt me more then anyone ever could do." "I know Chase, I know I really, really am sorry. Sorry I didn't pay attention to you and more important I can't put into words how horrible I feel for punching you in the balls. I would tell you that you can pay me back but I think we don't have to go there. Chance already did that for you. Can you ever forgive me?" "Maybe some day. I really feel bad that you are hurt so much now but what you did to me hurt me so much I can't even tell you how bad I felt. It's not something I can just forget about Cameron no matter how hurt you feel right now." "So you want to go back with Tommy?" "Yeah I think so." "We need to figure out how to be brothers again Chase and I can't do that if you are living there." "I need time Cam; you treated me like crap for a long time and just because something bad happens don't change things right away. Tommy showed me more love and attention in the three days I was there then you have since mommy and daddy left. That is hard for me to forget about." A tear rolled down Cameron's face. For the first time today the pain in his heart was stronger then the pain in his balls. He didn't know what to say. The room was silent for a while. "Okay I guess. You can do what you want Chase. I will be here when you want to come home and I will be ready to prove to you I can be a big brother then." "Yeah well that is gonna take some time Cam. I really still love you but I just don't know how to show you anymore after the way you treated me. I wish I could say more but that is how I feel." "Yeah I know." "I'll call here and check on you every day though I promise." "Okay that's fair enough I guess." Chase got up and headed out of Cameron's bedroom without a hug or anything. Back in the kitchen... Chase walked in and went right to me. I didn't know what just happened in Cameron's room but I got a huge hug and he whispered in my ear that he loved me. I was shocked by that but I understood why he said it. "I guess you are coming back with me then?" "Yes I am if you will have me." "Silly boy, you already know that answer." He smiled. "Thanks, I think I am going to stay for at least a week but I promised Cam I will call every day." Chance just sat there and took all this in but didn't say a thing so far. I looked at him. "So what do you have to say?" "Nothing Tommy. You have more than proved to me that you can be trusted. You probably saved my brothers life today and its obvious that Chase loves you in some way. What can I say? Just take care of him." "I will and in a few days if DJ wants to come back he can come with me and visit as strange as that sounds." "Yeah well he will always live here no matter where he is." He looked at Chase. "You know that bro right? This is your home no matter what." "I know that Chance but right now I need to feel loved and Tommy makes me feel that way. I will be back for good one day but while I am there I will call every day I promise." Chance nodded but didn't say anymore. You could see he felt this was wrong but he couldn't stop it right now. There was too much pain in this house and even if he wouldn't admit it this was probably the right thing for his younger brother to do for now. "Go pack what you want to take Chase. Let me know when you are ready and I will come help you load up the truck." "Okay Tommy, thanks." He left the room. Chance looked at me. "Now that he is gone I will tell you this. Right now in front of DJ I swear I am trusting you with my brother but if anything happens to him I am holding you totally responsible for him. Please don't let me down Tommy. Please?" I got up and walked over to Chance. "I won't let you down." I reached out to give him a hug and surprisingly he took it from me and held me tightly. He pulled me down and whispered in my ear. "I really am starting to like you again Tommy and I never thought I would be able to say that after what happened in the beginning." We broke our hold. I looked at him. "Thanks cutie. That means a lot to me." He actually smiled when I called him cutie. I guess everyone needs some praise or positive words sometimes. I went over to DJ. "Are you all packed?" "Yeah my bag is by the door already." "How long do you think you are going to stay with us?" "Until you are ready to bring me back or we have to come here for whatever reason." "Fair enough, but like Chance told Chase that is your home and as long as you want it to be there will be a bedroom for you." "Thanks Tommy. I don't have any plans on moving in here permanently right now so as long as you feel like driving back and forth I will go with you." "No problem." "Chance do you have milk and egg's for us?" "Yeah a lot. My brother told me to give you as much as you want because with two of us here it will only go bad. Did you bring the containers in from the truck?" "No not yet you want to help me with them?" "Sure, we'll wash them and have them ready for when you need milk again. We have a way to sterilize them in the barn so they won't be dirty for next time." "Good." He grabbed his coat and we went out to get the containers and we brought them into the barn and grabbed ten containers of milk and about three dozen eggs to take back. The way they eat that will last us 4 or 5 days tops but its fresh and thankfully we have something that is fresh and you can do a lot with milk and eggs. We didn't say much in the barn and when we had the truck loaded up we went back inside and Chase was ready to go with clean clothes already by the front door. I went to see Cameron and told him what I thought he should do and he told me he would call me and let me know how things were going tomorrow and if anything went wrong. "Good luck Cam I hope you are better real soon and remember to use cold on it as much as it kills you tonight." "Yeah... I won't forget." I went over to him and put my hand on his shoulder. "Keep things together here and make up with your brother Cam things will be okay they both need time and you need to do a lot of thinking about how much you fucked things up with your attitude. I know you will do it and make things right again. As soon as you feel better you need to spend some time with Chase alone and work things out. This wasn't a good time and he is still very hurt. I will work on that for you." "Thanks Tommy." He leaned forward and gave me a hug. I put both hands on his shoulders and looked him right in the face. "You have any problems you call me especially down there. I can be here in twenty minutes if I have to really fly down the highway. Otherwise just take it slow and relax. You have good brothers and Chance will help you as much as he can. Make sure you show him how much you appreciate him as often as you can. I know you and him haven't had many problems and I am sure he is willing to be there for you. There is no doubt he feels totally guilty for what he accidentally did today." "I know Tommy. Thanks." "I'll be back in a few days with DJ. Hopefully by then you will feel better and the two of you can have fun again. Maybe he can rub the pain away for you." "Yeah imagine that!" He laughed. "He'll rub something for me all right. You know that the three days he was here we had sexual fun twice. Mostly because he was in so much pain. It has to stop sometime doesn't it Tommy? Eventually both of us will be out of pain and enjoying each other... right?" "I would bet on it. Maybe when I come back I can take both boys with me again and you two can be alone with all the time you want to screw around." "That would be awesome. I so want to walk totally naked around here with him and not worry about who sees us." I laughed when he said that. I know what he means. I would love to do that too but I have way too many boys that might not like that. "Then you have something to look forward to. I am sure DJ will call you and you two will be fine together." "Yeah we were great together for the three days we had. We just couldn't do much." "I'll see you in two or three days." "Okay Tommy I will do my best to get through this I promise." "I know you will Cam, I just know it!" Just then my cell rang. "Hello? Yeah we will be home in a little while. No Shawn everything should be fine. I know there was probably some yelling between Kyle and Jon, yes. Yes I know Shawn. Don't worry about it I will be back with DJ and Chase in a little while. Yes Chase is coming back. Shawn just deal with it okay. Bye!" "What's going on Tommy? Everything okay home?" "Kyle and Jon broke up after three days and Shawn is worried they might fight and he doesn't like Chase that much he is jealous of him so he isn't totally happy he is coming back again." "Jealous? Why?" "Because well lets just say I get along very well with your brother and Shawn doesn't like anyone getting in between us." "Oh you mean your relationship with him. He gets jealous that fast?" "Sometimes I feel like he is a pain in the ass more than my little love." "Oh well you can always send him here. He is cute." "Ha ha, yeah I am sure he would love to live here and not with me and the boys. I'll see ya." "Bye Tommy and thanks again." I waved as I walked out of his room and DJ and Chase were waiting at the door for me. We said good bye to Chance and got in the truck. I started it and we drove away. Chase immediately started asking questions as I drove off the farm property. "Tommy, do you think I will ever be able to get over what Cam did to me?" "Yes I do cutie and we are going to talk about that and get you back to normal as soon as you are ready." "Kewl!" I looked at DJ and he looked at me. "You have a good time?" "Yeah it was good. Would have been great if I wasn't in pain." As innocently as he said that to me he immediately got Chase going. "I really am sorry DJ I hope you can forgive me one day. Really I mean it from the bottom of my heart." He turned around and looked at Chase. "Look Chase I'll tell you what... I am going to say this one more time and then I am gonna beat your butt if you apologize again. I am okay with you. It wasn't totally your fault and I know you are sorry so please stop saying it to me. I forgive you and I will be okay in a few days. You are starting to drive me nuts with how bad you feel. Its okay I swear." "Sorry I just need to make sure DJ." DJ reached his right hand into the back seat and Chase took it and moved forward giving him kinda a half hug through the seat and so. It was touching. Then he looked at me. "Anyway yeah it would have been awesome if we got to fool around more. But there is always next time." "Yeah and I promise I won't bother you when you come back if I am there too okay?" Chase blurted out again once again. DJ looked at me and we started to laugh. Chase was trying so hard to make DJ like him and from what I could tell DJ already did like him. Oh well... I looked back at DJ and just shook my head while I chuckled. Most of the ride back was quiet and I wasn't really in a hurry because I had a feeling there was a storm brewing under the roof of our house. "I have an idea. You guys aren't in a rush to get back are you?" "Not me." DJ said. "I don't care Tommy whatever you want to do is fine with me just as long as I am with you I feel fine... and you too DJ" He was a piece of work. No matter what he couldn't leave DJ out of any comments. I headed for the mall I wanted to get a few things and the truck was cold enough in the rear to keep the milk and eggs cold. We got there ten minutes later and I parked right in my usual space five feet from the front door. DJ laughed when he saw how close I was to the building. Chase got out and went to the door and immediately opened it to go inside. I screamed at him to get back out here. "Chase get over here now!" He ran to me like his ass was on fire. "What Tommy? What's wrong??" "What is our number one rule cutie?" He thought for a second. Then just shrugged his shoulders. "I dunno." I grabbed my gun from under the seat and showed it to him. "Now do you remember?" "Oh yeah. Sorry I forgot. I'm not used to having to think about bad people being around. Sorry Tommy." "You don't have to be sorry I just want you to be safe." He stood by my side as I put my gun away and DJ waited at his door on the other side of the truck for me to come around. I entered first with my hand on my gun but not out and they stayed a few feet behind me. I looked around and everything seemed normal. I took my hand off my gun and motioned to them to come up by me. Chase came up next to me and grabbed my hand and held it while DJ just walked with us. Not that I expected anything like that from him. I think I scared Chase some he never held my hand before. He let go after a while and started looking in the windows as we walked by some of the stores. You could see some of the mess we had made now after time has passed. Stores we had been in and just left without cleaning up and other stores like the woman's places were totally normal and untouched. "Tommy can we go to Games Stop I want to look around for a few games." "Sure Chase. You know where it is?" "I think so. Up around the bend right?" "Yup on the left side." We walked a step ahead as the excitement grew and we kept up. We were coming to a blind corner so I reached for the gun and told Chase to slow down. He immediately came to my side. Everything was fine and we rounded the corner and he ran into the game store even though I didn't like it I just jogged after him just incase. Chance's words actually came to mind... Don't let anything happen to him... I was surprised by how they stuck so strongly to me. We went and looked around and even though Shawn and a few of the other boys had rifle through those games a few times this was all still sorta new for Chase and he looked at them like it was his birthday and he was picking out a new one. By the time we were done he had five or six new ones or at least new to him. "Is it okay if I take all these?" I laughed. "You can take anything you want Chase. Go crazy if you want just remember you have to carry whatever you take not me." "Awesome!" He went back and took a few more. I am sure Shawn or one of them already had a few but I have a feeling he was planning on taking them home with him next trip so he would have plenty there when he finally moved back or whatever the reason. I saw what I wanted to see and got what I needed and took them to the ice cream place where both DJ and Chase went nuts and we each had three scoops of out favorite flavors. Even as much as we had attacked this place there was still a ton of ice cream left and a freezer in the back with more in there too. The only thing I wasn't sure of was how much longer it would last before it went bad or something. Anyway we ate and then headed back to the truck. By the time we got outside clouds had covered the sky and it was flurrying out now. "Well I think we should head home I don't want to be out if this gets worse." We all got in and I started the truck and we headed home. By the time I started to climb the hill it went from flurries to moderate snow and the roads were getting covered. I put the truck in four wheel drive before we started to climb the hill just incase. We made it fine. I drove up the driveway and Shawn ran outside to me but when he saw me go right to the garage he went back inside and probably headed downstairs. I started to laugh when he turned around and went back inside. So did the other two. Before I could shut the garage door he was already opening the cellar door and coming out to meet me. "Tommy there was a little more yelling between Kyle and Jon but for the past few minutes its been quiet. Kyle is in his room and last time I saw Jon he was in his room too. Everyone else is in the game room I think." "Thanks for the update now how about a hug?" "Oh yeah, sorry I almost forgot." He hugged me and as Chase went by he hugged tighter and gave me a kiss which I know was on purpose. Chase pretty much ignored it and DJ stood there and just smiled. We went inside and upstairs and I went into the game room and everything stopped like I hit a switch. Almost all of them acknowledged that I was home in some way and since I had all of their attention I sent them down to the truck to unload it. DJ was already on his way to his room and Chase was at my side asking me where he was going to put his stuff. I looked at Shawn. "Is it okay for him to sleep in your bed?" "Yeah I guess so." Boy has his attitude changed when Chase is around. He is sure jealous or something I can't read in him. "Tommy while you were gone I decided to bake and make cookies there is plenty left in the kitchen and a vanilla and a chocolate cake that no one was allowed to touch after you left. I threatened all of them with death if they touched it before you got back." He smiled and I laughed at his words. Now that he said it I could smell it in the house and it really smelled awesome! "Also we are out of fresh milk. I used the end of it making the stuff." "That's okay the boys went down to get what I brought back I got ten containers of Milk, that should last us four days I think." Just then the boys were coming up from the basement and asking me where to put the milk. We got everything put away and Chase finally gave me a second alone so I grabbed Kyle and we went to his room to talk. So far both of them have been in the same room together without any problems now I will get the scoop about how things went while I was gone from here. To Be Continued.... dwednomail@hotmail.com www.paddedroom.us