Date: Wed, 01 Feb 2006 03:42:14 +0000 From: Tommy Evans Subject: Uriel and Jon 9 "Aaron, is it true Ivan hit you?" "Yeah, he knocked me out" he started crying again. I couldn't stand when he cried...I just couldn't. "Baby, I'm okay. I'm here with you." I said as I hugged him. "Yeah, I just..." "Shhh...relax." I said. I held him so close to me. Just then my cell phone rang. I didn't' know the number so I answered. It was Oscar. He called to apologize and he wanted to talk to Jon. they talked and Jon told him it was okay and that...he forgave him. I could really tell they were friends. But I still didn't get the thought out of my head, what if Oscar was...nah...impossible. He proved it wrong in a way. When Jon hung up he looked at me. "Aaron, I'm ready" he said softly. I thought for a while. "Ready for what?" I asked. "For...a kiss" he said. "Are you sure you are? I don't want you to do it for the wrong reasons" "Yeah, I'm ready." I just couldn't though get it through my head. What had happened in Jon's head? Why was he ready now? Not that I didn't want it to happen, but I wasn't sure if that was what he really wanted. Maybe the whole thing with me protecting him made him think of me in the wrong way. Really I didn't' want to be hurt. I don't want this to go farther and then he tells me that he wasn't really in love with me. I looked straight into his eyes and he looked into mine. "Aaron, don't you want to?" he asked. "Jon, I do but I don't want to make you believe something you don't feel. Tell me, do you love me?" "Um..." he paused. "Yeah, I do" "Are you sure?" I asked. "Positive" "It's just so many things are happening Jon. I don't know" "You like Uriel don't you?" he asked. "Why do you ask that?" "I don't know. Just asking. Wait, is it Luis you like?" "Jon, no it's not. I like you. I've always liked you. You know that right?" "Um...yeah" "How do you know?" "Well...the way you hug me, you care about me, and well when you kissed me" "I love you Jon" I said as I got closer to him. At first he sort of backed away a little but then he slowly leaned forward and we kissed. It was a soft kiss. I backed off to look at him and then I kissed him again. This time I stuck my tongue out and stuck it between his lips, he opened up. I could swear sparks flew. I felt as if I was in the clouds, as if I was flying, as if everything had just turned from dull to colorful. The sweet and tender taste of Jon's mouth was making me feel as if I was lost. We kissed for a long time. It was probably the most awesome and true kiss I had ever given or received. I guess this is what it feels like to really love someone. I felt the butterflies in my stomach, and my body started to sort of shake of excitement. When we pulled back I looked at him. "Woah, that was amazing" I said. "Yeah" "Jon, what did you feel?" "Weird. My stomach felt funny, my mouth felt funny, but I was like I don't know. It was awesome" he said with a happy tone of voice. "Jon, that is what you feel when you love someone" "O...yeah I guess it is. What time is it Aaron?" "It's like 9pm. Are you sleepy?" I asked. "Yeah, I'm tired even though I was sleeping a lot" "Well your nerves got the best of you. you must have been really scared" "Yeah I was" "Tell me...did Oscar and you ever do anything?" "Like what?" "Like...what me and you did?" "Yeah" "Like kiss...or what?' "Anything" "No." "What about Ivan..." "Ivan...he...well...he kissed me." "WHAT! WHEN!?" I didn't like this at all. This could be why Jon had the sudden change of mind. "Well...it's because I slept over. Oscar was sleeping with me and he fell asleep. Then I kept hearing noises and stuff and I freaked out. Then Ivan came down to the floor and hugged me." "Okay...keep going" "And he told me that he really loved me. he asked me if I loved him back." "And?" "Well...I told him no. but then he said that if he could kiss me. and I said no. but then he told me that it didn't matter but that if I didn't he would leave and let me alone" "Jon...did I ever do that to you?" "Yeah...but it was different." "How?" "Well...you didn't actually leave me" "Okay...so keep going" "O yeah...so I said ok. He kissed me and started to touch me. but I said no and pushed him away" "So then..." "Well...then the next day he said that Oscar was waiting for me at the tree house and stuff. I went there and Ivan was there, Oscar wasn't. He said that I was going to do what he said. I was mad but he pushed me down. then he kissed me and started to touch me. he said stuff about you and then he put his hands in my boxers." "I know, that ass. Well good thing is you didn't like it...right?" "No...I was scared" "So what if I were to touch you?" "You already did." "Did you like it?" "I guess" "Good.. hey lets go to sleep okay?" I said as I hugged him again. "Yeah" he said. Before he turned around to snuggle back with me I kissed him again and then patted his bubble butt. He snuggled back with me and I held his hand. It was really cool to be able to hold him and to know that he felt the same way I did. It seemed like all of my dreams had come true. It felt a little unreal. I had Jon. I could smell his hair, his body and feel it. I massaged his stomach and even though I wanted to go lower and massage his little boy penis I chose not to. Jon had gone through too many things today and I wanted him to just relax. I held him like this until I felt his breathing get slower and slower. At 11pm my parents entered the room. My mom came in when she saw we were asleep. She made sure we were covered up and then she closed the door and walked out. I dozed off to sleep. I was having the coolest dream. I was a billionaire and I was buying Disney World. I felt something poking me and then I felt something literally pushing me. I couldn't wake up. Then I heard someone's voice in the far distance. I opened my eyes...looked at the time and it was 2am. I looked over at Jon and he was holding me hard, panting. "What's wrong?" I asked. "Aaron, I can't sleep" he said. I saw his face, he was facing me and he was in shock. "What's wrong?" I asked hugging him. "I don't know." "You're having nightmares aren't you?" "Aaron, it's that...I dreamed that Ivan was hurting you. that he shot you" "Ah...Jon...nothing is going to happen. I'm here. I won't let anyone hurt you...or me" I said pulling him towards me so that I could hold him tighter. "Aaron, what if Ivan comes after us?" "Jon...don't worry. He's going to be kept away from us. And if he ever does come back...I'll make sure he never comes back after that...I promise" "You're the best," he said. "Jon, I won't ever let anyone hurt you. You hear me...no one. You're my little boy" "I'm not so little" "You are to me. Okay?" "Aaron, Ivan told me that you were probably having sex with Uriel...he said that was why you didn't really care about me anymore" "Did you believe him?" "I don't know" "Jon, listen to me. I love you. Sex is nothing. Tell me...what do you know about sex?" "Umm...it's for adults?" he said. I smiled. "Well...yeah I guess. Look, sex is something that sometimes doesn't mean anything. Lots of people have sex without loving the person. So if I was, not saying that I am, having sex with Uriel, I don't love him. I love you" "Aaron, isn't it wrong that you and I kissed?" "Yes and no" "Because boys can't kiss boys" "Is that really what you think Jon?" "Well...yeah" "So then why did you kiss me?" "Because, I don't know" "So then is it wrong?" "Well...then that would mean you and me are gay" "Maybe" "What do you mean maybe?" "Jon, look at me." I said as he turned to look at me. "Did you like the kiss? Did it feel good?" "Uh...I guess" "Yes or no?" "Yes" "So...if it's good and you liked it...is it bad?" "I don't know Aaron" "Look, Jon, you are very confused right now. I really love you...but I can't keep doing this to you. Jon...I'm not going to touch you ever again, I'm not going to kiss you ever again. Until you absolutely feel it is the right thing and that you really DO care about me" "But...I do care about you" "NO, you don't care enough. Right now you are stuck between wrong and right. Sometimes things aren't totally wrong or totally right." "Are we still going to be friends?" he asked looking very sad. "If you really want that, yes" "But didn't I just kiss you?" "Yes, but see...you weren't sure about it" "oh" I felt so bad because I could tell Jon was really confused. He really didn't know what he wanted. He truly was confused. Part of me was afraid that this event with Ivan maybe confused Jon so much as to think he really wants to mine, but in reality it's just a protection kind of thing he wants. I don't want him to feel like he has to kiss me, and let me hold him in order to keep my protection. I really don't want that. "Come here" I said as I pulled him to me and hugged him. "You're my little brother. I will protect you. I love you. Now go to sleep because you need to rest" I said. "Okay" he said. I held him close to me until his breathing became slower and deeper. I lied in bed like this imagining how cool it would be for this moment to last forever. To hold him and protect him for my entire life. But things aren't like that. Boys grow up. They tend to forget about the people they care about because they are so busy playing and acting all grown up. I noticed that Jon was forgetting about me at times, he was busy playing baseball, playing with his friends, and being a boy. I enjoyed holding him for hours until I finally dozed off. The next morning I woke up at 8 am. I was surprised I had wakened that early, but then I realized I had basically been sleeping for the past 2 days. I was still holding Jon. But I noticed he was also holding onto me. he had a grip on my waist as if to hold me from ever leaving his side. I just looked at him, his sweet-angelic face, peacefully sleeping and knowing that I will protect him. I stared at him for a long time. When he woke up he looked at me and smiled. "Good morning sleepy head" I said. He smiled again. "I gotta go take a piss" he said as he quickly got up and left the room. I waited for him and when he came back he got back in bed. I held him again almost in the same position we were before he left to piss. We lay in bed for a while just looking up at the ceiling. I broke the silence. "So...what are we going to do today?" I asked. "I don't know. Do you want to go watch a movie or something?" he asked. "Yeah, lets do that. but first call your mom and tell her where we're going" "Fine" he said. I went to the bathroom to get rid of my semi-hard on. It was weird how I didn't wake up with a full hard on, it was semi hard. I peed and then I washed my face. Jon walked into the bathroom and stood in the doorway. "She says it's fine. But that I need to be back before night" "Well...it's 8:30am and the movie theaters open at 12. So we have time to play games or whatever" I said. "Yeah ok." We made the bed and then we went to the playroom to play a couple of games. It was interesting. We had a lot of fun. It had been a while since Jon and I actually took some time to sit down and play video games together. It meant a lot to me because this was how we really became friends. 2 months ago we started our friendship this way. It was really funny because he kept looking over at me and I didn't know exactly what he was thinking. Part of me hoped that maybe he was falling in love and that maybe he did start feeling different about the whole right and wrong thing. To us, playing games is really a passion. Games to us are a gateway to another different world, in fact millions of different worlds. We could become athletes, car drives, killers, cops, powerful people and many other things. Since I was a die hard games fan I had a lot of games, so basically I can't get bored of playing. When it was 11 I decided that it was time to take showers because we were going to go out. "Jon, we have to take a shower" I said. "O man...okay." He said getting up. "Get in and I'll get your stuff ready" I said. He walked into the bathroom and he left the door semi open. I saw he was undressing without even looking over to see if I was watching or not. I saw the outline of his side and he stepped into the shower. I went over to the drawer where I kept some of his clothes and I pulled something for him to wear. Then I went over to my clothes and pulled out something for me to wear. I walked into the bathroom and handed him over his clothes. I started to brush my teeth, and then I looked into the mirror. In the mirror I saw that Jon had written something on the shower stall door. It said "You're the best". I didn't cry because I'm not all that emotional but that really made me feel good. "You're the best too" I said. "Aaron, when I grow up, I wish I can be just like you" he said. "Yeah, just not too much like me. then you'd have problems" I laughed. By 11:45 we were ready to roll and we were at the movie theater at 12 on the dot. It wasn't too far from my house so that's why it took no time to get there. We bought a bunch of stuff at the concession stand and then we chose the top seats. There were only 4 other people other than us in the room so we were pretty much alone. It was a good movie and halfway through the movie the popcorn was gone. I didn't feel like going to get more so I just told Jon to eat his candy. He opened his candy and started eating it. I had my hand on the arm rest and he grabbed his soda. I don't know why but I grabbed at his hand and he let me hold it. I held his hand for the rest of the movie and he ate his candy with the other hand. Every once in a while he would let go to get more candy out of his pockets but he would return his hand to my hand. I really liked that. Since we had a lot of privacy in the room because it was so early, I told him he could lean on my shoulder. He did and I really liked him being with me like that. I felt as if Jon and I were the happiest couple. Of course I really don't like to be considered a couple, even with Uriel, but it was a good feeling. I don't understand how Jon can hold me hand and stuff, but he feels bad when we kiss. But whatever, as long as there is contact between us, I don't mind what body part it is. The movie had a happy-luvy dubby ending and it made me feel like it was just right. I mean Jon had his head on my shoulder and we were holding hands. When the lights came back on we quickly let go and we started to walk out. We were getting in my car when a couple of my friends walked over to me. "Hey what's up big A" one of my friends said. "What's up fool" I answered. "What brings you here?" "I brought my kid brother to watch a movie" "Aaron always being nice. Hey dawg, we was wondering if you wanna hang out later at my crib. We can mess around with da girls." "Nah dude, thanx. I'm with Nikki and I don't want to mess up" "Yeah dude, she really turned into a sexy mami" "Yeah" I laughed. "I know she would eventually date you" "Yeah, well what can I say" "Well anyway, you can come and still hang out dude. We can get drunk as hell" "Nah, dude I don't do that anymore" I said looking over at Jon. "Alright, well if you change your mind dawg you know where mah crib is at" he said as he said bye to me. We got into the car and Jon looked over at me. "You drank?" he asked. "Long story, no time, and it's not important" I answered. "Aaron, so you're going to the party?" "No, I'm not a party guy anymore. I'm a big brother now" I put arm around him. "Okay, so what now?" he asked. "I don't know...lets go have dinner" I said. We went to Burger King and had the best dinner. I like to go simple sometimes and eat at a local fast food place. I like the nice restaurants but sometimes you can't help it. We had a good time talking about the movie and about other simple stuff. He also asked me when we could have a sleep over with Ryan. He said he hadn't really played with him for a while. We planned something for the upcoming weekend and just as we were planning what we were going to do, Jon's mom called. She said that they were going to his aunts house for the night. She wanted Jon to go home. We were sad but we headed out anyway and in no time he was walking into his house. He looked over to me waved bye. I drove back home, which took 2 seconds, and went up to my room. I sat on my couch and turned on the TV. There was nothing to do and my parents were busy talking about something. I watched whatever was on TV and eventually I went online to talk to people. I had nothing better to do. I didn't talk to Jon again that night. In fact I didn't see Jon for 2 days. I didn't feel too bad about that because he did call to say hi and he told me had to go to the doctor and they examined him. then he stayed at his aunt's house so that's why he hadn't seen me. But he did say he wanted to come over as soon as he got home. So yeah, I had been pretty lonely for these few days. On Wednesday night around 7pm Luis called. I had totally forgotten about our plans for Thursday. He said that his mom was okay with him sleeping over and that he even called Uriel. Uriel couldn't stay with us though because he was grounded. So anyway we talked for about an hour about whatever and then we were all excited about the sleep over. I was to pick him up around 3pm and then we could go out to dinner and then come over and have a late night swim. He said he liked to swim at night better. The next morning I noticed Jon was back. His curtains were open but I knew he wasn't awake yet. I had breakfast and I cleaned the pool. He called me while I was cleaning the pool. He said he was going to eat something and then he was going to come over so we could hang out or whatever. He called me when he was on his way and I met him at my back door. "What's up, haven't seen you in a while" I said. "Yeah, I had to go to the stupid doctor and well we went to my aunt's" "Jon, what did the doctor do?" I asked. He walked with me into the house and we sat in the family room. "Well...he looked at my body." "Like...every part of your body?" I asked. "Yeah, I had to get naked. I was really embarrassed." "What else?" I asked. "He looked at my thing, then he even looked at my butt hole" "Really?" "Yeah...then he said I had no traces of any other kind of physical harm...what does that mean?" "Well...I think it means there were no signs that Ivan had raped you" I said hugging him. "It was really weird. I wished that you were there because I would have felt better if you were there" "Wasn't your mom in there with you?" "No, she knew I was too embarrassed" "But then why did you want me to be there?" "Dude, you've seen me naked...you're the only person I trust to see me naked" he said. "And the doctor" I added and we both laughed. We played games and stuff. We even surfed the web and we bought a few items on Ebay. He had to go home though because his dad was going on a trip and they were taking him to the airport. It was nice to have him for a little while though. I noticed he was a little closer to me and usual and well even though I was dying to just jump on him and kiss him, I held back. We said bye and he gave me a small hug. I walked him across the yard and then I walked back home. it was almost 3 so I went to get ready and then I left to pick up Luis. When I arrived at Luis' house I noticed that a lot of people stared at us getting into my car. "Hey, dude, what's up with the people staring at us?" I asked. "They're just jealous. They don't understand how someone so young can afford such a nice car. Plus your car is pimped out" he said. "O...well they have nice cars too though" "Yeah, Aaron but they work their asses off. Plus they are old and grumpy. You're what..17 and drive a pimped out Mustang" he said. "Yeah, I guess it's a little odd, but still they stare a lot" I said. So we left and we stopped by a nice restaurant. Luis had really never been to the nice and expensive restaurants. If he did it would be because of a special occasion, to him this was such a cool thing. I just liked the food here. So we sat down and ordered our food. We had a good time. he was trying to be a rich mean boy. It was really funny because he gave the waiter such a hard time but in the end he himself gave the waiter the tip. Luis was such a sweet boy. I really wanted him to be a close friend, I tried really hard to not see him as something else, and I did a good job for the most part. We were in the car driving back home when my phone rang. "Hello" I picked up. "Aaron, where are you guys at?" Uriel asked. "We went out to eat. We're going home...what are you doing?" I asked. "Nothing really...relaxing. That's it." "O bummer, well next time try to not get grounded" I joked. "Yeah...well...it's hard." he laughed. "Okay, so want me to call you later or what?" I asked. "Yeah, call me when Luis falls asleep" he said. "Well...what if do first?" "What...fall asleep?" "Well yeah" "Aaron, I want to talk to you in private...so wake me up" "Okay...I will" "bye" "Bye" So I hung up and Luis looked over at me. I told him to not worry about it and we were at my house right after I hung up. We walked into the garage and Luis was still in awe of the `huge' house. I really think he's making a big deal out of nothing, the house wasn't so big. We went into the kitchen and then we sat in the family room for about a minute. Then I got up and picked up his backpack. It was then that I noticed that Luis was looking really cute today. His hair was done in the little good boy style. He was wearing his Chivas jersey and he looked so hot. Of course he is a little chunky but he still looks cute. Then again he's Uriel's cousin so they do look somewhat alike. They both have light brown hair and a cute nose. But Luis had a really nice smile. I looked at him for a while then he smiled again. "Are you going to look at me all day or are we going to go swim?" he said. "Lets go swim" I said. We walked up to my room and I set his stuff in my closet. I looked at him and then I went to my closet to change. I stepped out and he was changing in the bathroom. He had the bathroom open though and I walked by. I caught a glimpse of his ass and it was so nice. He had a really nice ass, I think he really gave Uriel a good competition. He stepped out with a white muscle shirt just like I did and then he laughed. "Hey, Aaron, I don't like these shorts" he said as he fixed the shorts. "Well...we can always swim naked" I said as I walked over to him. "We could...but...we'd get in trouble" he answered. I noticed that he was returning my flirts and then I realized that I was doing such a bad thing. Why was I flirting with Luis when I already had TWO others! I was so mad but at the same time being with him gave me a really good feeling. I don't' know what it was about him. I walked down the stairs but I let Luis walk in front so that I had a nice view of his nice ass. damn it was nice. it was even better that he was flirting back. When we were outside we decided to kick a soccer ball around. He said that he liked swimming a lot better when the sun went down because his skin got too burned during open sunlight. We worked on our techniques for a while and we didn't get into the pool until like 5:30pm. The sun was still out but it wasn't blazing at us. We both decided to jump into the pool at the same time and in the air I grabbed onto him and we both fell into the water. in the water he was really close to me and his dick was hard and it was touching mine. when we floated back up to the surface he put his legs around me and then his arms around me. "Bet you can't get me off you, I'm a sticky octopus" he said. "O yeah!" I answered. I dived back into the water and I moved and moved until eventually his legs let go but by now I had a hard on. We played this game for a while and when my parents came home I decided to stop playing that game and we started playing water soccer and then water basket ball. We stayed in the pool until 8pm and our skin was all wrinkly. We had a really good time. My mom brought out some food for us and we ate it at the outside table. We were talking about soccer, games, Uriel and even Jon. it seemed that not only did Luis care about me and soccer, but he really cared about the life around us. I realized that Luis was the one person I could really be best friends with. When we finished eating we went inside to take a shower. My mom told us that we couldn't because we had just eaten and we had to wait. I don't understand why but we did. We went downstairs into the movie room and we started looking through the movie stack. We chose a movie to start watching and then we put it in. We were watching this really good movie about a soccer player who went pro and stuff, but then my mom interrupted us and told us to go take a shower. We slowly walked up the stairs and then we walked into my room and then I went to the closet and picked up his backpack. I opened it and pulled out one of his whitey-tighties. I looked over at him and he laughed. "Hey, you used to wear them too don't you lie" he said. "Nah, I never wore these kind of underwear" I said. "Well...I won't wear them if you don't want me to...I'll just wear shorts" he said looking at me. "That would be weird...so um...just take them" I said. He took them and then he stepped into the bathroom. He looked back at me in a really challenging way. "Are you coming baby?" he said. "Well...maybe...if you can convince me" I said. He looked at me and then he slowly started to take his shirt off and then he began pulling his shorts down. he pulled them down so I could see a little bit of his ass and he giggled. "Well...that's really convincing but I can't. we just met" I laughed. "You ass" he said as he closed the door. I couldn't believe we were flirting this much! it wasn't the innocent flirt anymore, it was turning into full blown flirting. I just couldn't jump at this. Maybe that's just the way he acts, maybe he's just funny like that. he turned on the water and then I picked up the phone and called Uriel. He picked up the phone. "Hey, what's up babe" I said. "Aaron, I have to tell you something" "Yeah. What's up?" I asked. "Aaron, I'm really sorry but I messed up." "What do you mean?" I asked. "Aaron...I had sex with someone else" "What..." I was really caught off guard. "Aaron, I'm sorry. I know you really love me...but I just couldn't resist" "Uriel...but who?" "You won't believe me..." "Uriel...was it a girl?" I was hoping it was. "No...it was my friend...you don't know him. He goes to my school" "But...what happened!" "Well...we were out of soccer practice...and we went into the showers... I didn't want to take a shower with everyone so I started walking out and I was going to walk home but he caught up with me and invited me over" "And..." I said. "Well...he said he was going to take a shower...and I was waiting in the room and then he walked out of the bathroom in his boxers. His dick was popping out and I kind of looked...then he walked over to me and told me to suck it." "And you did?" I asked. "Aaron, I didn't know what to do. it was right there!" "Uriel...okay...so it's sex...okay whatever. You don't love him right?" I asked. "Well...after we had sex we were talking and he told me he loved me ever since we were kids. He said that he really wanted to be with me and that he had been waiting for the right sign" "Uriel...but..." "I know Aaron, but look...I don't want to hurt you. I know you have loved me since forever too...but if we keep this up we're going to hurt each other. I loved every moment of our relationship. You were the first... I'll never forget. I just had to tell you. look...we have to take a break. I promise I'll think about what happened and then we'll talk... are you okay with it baby?" he asked. "Uriel...I'm speechless...I was...happy with you" "I know...me too. I wasn't expecting this." "Uriel...we're still friends so...tell me...how was it?" "It was awesome!" "O...so how old is he?" I asked. "14" "O...well...I'm glad you really liked it" "No...I loved it with you too don't' get me wrong. But Aaron, I don't know what's different about him. maybe it's that he's my age. Well close to my age...and well I fucked him too. It was really good" he said. "Well...okay we'll talk later because Luis is coming" I said. "Yeah...tell him I said hi. And Aaron...I'm sorry...we'll talk later. I promise" he said. "Yeah..." I heard the phone click. Luis walked into the room and then he looked at me. "What's up...did something happen while I was in the shower?" he asked. "No...I was just thinking about something" I said. "Are you sure?" he said walking to me. his hair was still wet and he looked really cute. Part of me wanted to really go for it since Uriel had done that to me. but I realized I had not right to be mad. Not after what has been going on with Jon, and even Luis himself. I slowed down and thought. "Well...I'm going to go take a shower okay?" I said. I walked into the bathroom and took my shower. All through the shower I was thinking about what had happened. Why do all bad things come together...I remembered the old 3 for 1 deal. I was thinking of the worst...first this whole Jon thing happens...then Uriel...what was next...what was the number 3. I finished off and then I walked out into the room. I was sad...I was really sad. I realized that I really cared about Uriel...but you know...if he really likes this boy I had to be happy for him. I mean I don't love him...I love him as a person and I had a big infatuation with him but I didn't love him as much as I love Jon. I really couldn't be mad at Uriel...but I was sad though because I had wanted Uriel to be mine for so many years and I had spent many years thinking I loved him. truth is I didn't love him and well...I did have my chance and I blew it. but hey...maybe he wasn't meant for me. I built up my courage and my strength and then I walked over to Luis. "Let's go finish the movie" I said. He followed me down to the movie room and we finished the movie. I had Luis really close to me and eventually I put my arm around him. he leaned into me and he lied his head on my shoulder. I really enjoyed this. But I wasn't really thinking about going any further...we just had a really good moment. When we finished watching the movie I sat there looking at the screen. He punched my arm and then he looked over at me. "Well...lets play FIFA now... I feel like beating up some people online" he said. "Sure..." I said. I was really off focus though. "Aaron...you're really off...come back to reality man" he said. "Your right" I said. We started playing and yeah I eased off and we had a blast. I guess I used my emotions well and I won all but 1 of my games. And usually I lose because the people playing online are really good. Seems like they don't have a life and all they do is play. We played until really late in the night and when we realized it was 4am in the morning we ran up the stairs and went to my room. Luis told me had to be home at 10 because he was going to a soccer game with his parents. We quickly jumped in bed and I hugged him again. We talked about a lot of things when the subject of Uriel came up. "So...how come Uriel and you are so close now?" he asked. "I don't really know. We just started hanging out more all of a sudden...we always have that. there are times when we are really close...then we separate and well it's always like that" "Yeah...well I hope you and I can be friends all the time...not at times only" he said. "yeah...me too" I said. We talked about other stuff but mainly he asked questions about Jon and stuff. I was beginning to feel very odd, because I felt as if Luis was conducting his own investigation. We dozed off to sleep in a little bit and we woke up at 9:30 when my alarm went off. I noticed we were spooning and that my raging tool was in his ass crack. His shorts were really thin so I could really feel it. I'm sure he could feel it too. But we had to get up and when we were saying bye and planning our next day his mom rang the doorbell. We ran downstairs and he had to go. I went back up to my room and went back to bed. I couldn't go back to sleep though and I lied there thinking about the whole Uriel thing. It was 9:45 so I got out of bed and got dressed. I threw on some sweats and a hoody and I got in my car. I drove over to Uriel's house. When I arrived there 20 minutes later his sister opened the door. She told me he was still sleeping to go wake him up anyway. I slowly walked into his room and he was still sound asleep. Uriel hates sleeping with pants on so he was only in his undies. I slowly got in bed with him and I caressed his hair like I used to when he was younger. I moved a little and then he reached over with his arm and put it around me. he held me. 2 minutes later he turned around and opened his eyes. He opened them twice and when he realized he wasn't dreaming he turned around. "Aaron!" he said. "Good morning" I said. "What are you doing here?" "Well...last night you left me totally surprised...I had to come talk to you" "Aaron..look...just...I'm sorry. I shouldn't have done that...but look...I felt like you had other things better." "What do you mean?" "Well...we're from two world now. You live in a world full of rich people...cool people...I'm not either" "But that doesn't matter. You were in my life way before that!" "Aaron, understand...I didn't want this either. But it happened, and I'm sorry. We're still best friends...aren't we?" "Yes, but it's going to be hard dude. I mean...we had something going" "Yeah, but hey...can I tell you a secret?" "Yeah..." I didn't know what to expect. "We can still mess around right?" he asked. "Well...I guess we can." I said. "Yeah...okay...well that was the secret" he said. "Oh...that was more like a question" I said. "Well...yeah. Aaron, I want you to tell me something" "What.." "Do you like Jon?" "Yeah...well he's cute. But he's my little brother...only that" "What about Luis?" "He's cool. He's only my friend" "Dude...have you not noticed Luis might like you?" "Uriel...why would you say that about your own cousin" "Because I've known him forever. He's never had a girlfriend" "Yeah...so...he's only a boy" "He's a couple months younger than me Aaron" "Uriel...don't worry about me. I'll be fine. I just want you to be happy. You really think this guy is the guy you love?" "Aaron...I'm sorry but yeah. He's it. I liked him before I noticed I liked you" "Uriel...tell me. He made you feel better when you had sex with him?" I asked. "Um...no. But well...that can change. he's younger than you so he doesn't know that much. But it was okay. It wasn't super like it was with you...but sex isn't everything" "Yeah...I guess. Uriel I'm really going to miss you. I mean we were so happy and we talked a lot more when we were `dating' I guess" "Well...we can talk now. I mean we both know our secret...no one else knows it. I can't tell anyone in my family or any of my close friends that I'm gay. So I'll talk to you...you know that" "Yeah... I guess so. And we can still mess around huh?" I said laughing. "O yeah" he said. I kissed him and he pulled me under the covers. We started to mess around and I found his dick. I started to play with it while I sucked his lips. It was so different though. It was less romantic and more wild. I was using more force and he was acting different as well. He groped my dick too and started to masturbate me with a lot of force, I really didn't know this side of him. I started to go down on me and he engulfed my dick in his mouth and he was giving me the best blow-job yet. I felt like I was in the clouds, the walls were moving and his mouth was so freaking good at this. His mouth was giving the most pleasure I had ever received from a mouth. I was getting so carried away that I started to hit the wall and Uriel hit me in the stomach to remind me that we were still in his room and people could hear. He went back to doing what he was doing and I was still in ecstasy. His mouth was just so warm and so wet and it made my muscles tense, my body shake and my breathing fasten. I blew my load into his mouth and he ate up all of it. Then he came up to me again and kissed me. "That was really intense huh?" he asked. "How the hell did you get so good at that?" I asked. "Practiced" "On what! On who!" "Well I practiced on a lollipops...and then on my friend" "Wow...Uriel...if we weren't at your house I'd fuck you" I said. "I know...but we can't right now...Aaron this is totally weird. We're not dating but we just had a really good time" "Well...welcome to being friends with benefits" I said. "Aaron, wait...I can get sick from sucking you can't I?" "Well...I guess you could. But I really haven't been with other people. Just be careful who you mess around with" "Aaron, you're also really good at this. How did you get so good?" "Well it's pretty much intuition and I've seen a lot of...well... pictures online" "Yeah...I figured" he said. He went back under the covers and I went in with him. we lied there together, and then his sister opened the door. I was so happy our little mischief was done because if she would have walked in a little sooner we would have been in real trouble. "What are you guys doing?" she asked. "We're talking. But I wouldn't come in because we're both naked" Uriel joked. "Yeah...I know you are. You know why don't you just sleep in pajamas like normal people?" "I don't know...it's much more free to sleep in underwear" Uriel laughed. "Hey...Aaron, are you staying for lunch?" "Umm...sure" I answered. She stepped out of the room and she closed the door behind her. I looked at Uriel and we both busted out laughing. I put my arm around him and he got comfortable. "Aaron, this is really cool. Will you tell me when you find a boyfriend?" he asked. "Yeah...well...Uriel...I'll try." "Aaron, I guess we're really best friends huh?" "Yeah...hey why don't you get dressed...you're little bird might start to fly" I joked. "Yeah...I should" he said and we both got up. He got dressed and we went to the kitchen to have lunch with his sister and his mom. We talked about how my family was doing. I was enjoying this because it had been a really long time since I had lunch with Uriel and his sister. We were laughing so much just like the old days and we were talking about how we used to have tons of fun just doing nothing. Then his sister began talking about a boy named Angel. She asked if he was coming over today and Uriel instantly looked over at me. I figured this was the guy Uriel was "in love" with. After we had lunch Uriel, his sister and I went outside to shoot a soccer ball around. It was really just an excuse to go outside and talk about stuff their mom couldn't find out about. We talked for a while but then my cell phone rang. It was Andrew. He wanted me to meet him at a park for something. He said it was really important. I said good bye to Uriel and his sister and then I went off to the park. It took me a while to drive there because the park was just a little bit secluded. I arrived at the park and it seemed to be totally desolate. I was started to doubt why Andrew wanted me to come to such a desolate place...it seemed like there was absolutely no one around. I got out of the car and walked into the park. I called him and asked him where he was at. He told me to follow the path and I would find him. I kept on walking and I eventually crossed bridge over a river, and through a woodsy area. Then I saw something really cool. It was a river with clear water and a waterfall. I was in awe. I hadn't ever seen anything like this. I really thought I lived miles away from a place like this. He found me and walked over to me. "You like it?" he asked. "This is awesome...how come no one is around?" "Not many people know about this. It's really cool. Me and some friends found this one day during a hike" "Why did you bring me here?" I asked. "So we could talk. Plus it's somewhere to relax don't you think?" "Yeah, but dude..." "But nothing Aaron. Remember what you promised me?" "Well...yeah but things have changed. Look I just went through something really tough" "What?" "Well...this asshole tried to rape Jon. and well...I stopped the guy right before he got what he wanted. After that Jon and I had a very good moment." "Aaron, I know you really care about him...but I really care about you. Aaron, you're so busy protecting Jon...who's going to protect you?" "I don't need..." "Aaron yes you do! you need everything Jon needs" he cut me off. "It's not like that dude, I'm old enough to protect myself" "Don't you think you need someone to care for you and protect you like you do to Jon?" "Andrew...I thought we had gone through this" I said. "Aaron, here sit down with me...listen to the water" I sat down on a sheet he placed on the floor. I sat pretty far away from him but then he placed his arm around me and pulled me so that I was lying on his legs. He was playing with my hair. I tried to resist but I don't know what happened, I liked it. "Aaron, don't you like this?" he asked. "Well...yeah...but it's not going to change anything" "I understand. You're my little brother remember" "Yeah" "Okay, so is Jon okay?" "Yeah, he's okay but I still feel really bad about letting that happen to him" "Aaron, you didn't let it happen. You stopped it. It's not your fault Jon doubted your friendship" "Well...he doesn't doubt it anymore. Besides it wasn't him alone, Ivan was trying to brainwash him" "Aaron, have you ever asked yourself why you like him?" "Yeah...tons of times" "So then why do you like him?" "I really don't know. I just like watching over him and I like the way he acts. I love his little body and his face is so cute" "Exactly what I say about you" "Andrew...please. Don't say that" "Well it's true. I said I wasn't going to try anything, but I never said I was going to lie" "Dude, tell me. what's so good about me?" I asked. "You're sweet, you're caring, cute, sexy, tough, and everything I need" "Thanks, but I really have to get going. Thanks for showing me this really neat place" "No problem...and Aaron, don't forget I'll always be there for you. for anything you need" "Yeah...I won't forget" I said as I got up and started to walk. I turned back to look at him. he was still sitting down looking at the water fall. It was so cool. He turned and smiled at me and I smiled back. I wasn't going to lie, I was liking the attention from Andrew. He was really nice to me and he didn't push me to do anything. As I walked to my car I passed through a lot of cool places that I didn't notice walking in the first time. I got home at like 3pm and I just sat in my family room watching TV. I sat there for a very long time until my doorbell rang. I was wondering who would come to my house. It couldn't be Jon because he usually calls me and tells me to meet him outside. I got up and when I opened the door it was Jacob, Jon's friend. "Uh...hi" I said. "What's up...Aaron, I was wondering if you had Jon's cell phone number" "Um...yes why?" "Well...I've been trying to call him because I want to invite him to my party Saturday" "O well got a paper?" I asked. "Um...no...do you have one?" he asked. "Here...come with me" He followed me into my kitchen and he sat on the island. I wrote down the number for him and I looked at him. "Did you call his house?" I asked. "Yeah, but he's with Oscar" "Oh well I'm sure he'll answer the phone." "You can come to the party too. It'd be really cool if you were there" "Okay, I'll try." "I know. My girlfriend is coming and she knows this one girl that likes Jon, maybe we can hook them up" "yeah, good luck with that dude" I said laughing. "Yeah dude, it'd be really funny because Jon always makes fun of me...if he gets a girlfriend all of our friends will make fun of him" "You think he likes her?" I was getting intrigued. "Maybe, I guess" he said. "Ok...see you Saturday" I said. He walked out of the house and I sat down on the couch. I wondered if Jon would actually go out with a girl. Maybe I was hopeless, maybe he would never like me. I was having dinner with my parents that night when I noticed Jon was walking through his yard with Oscar. They weren't walking into the woods but it seemed as if Jon was coming home. I got this sudden rush of jealousy all throughout my body. What if I was wrong, what if Oscar really saved us because he really liked Jon? What if I was losing a battle against a 12 year old. I quickly finished up my dinner and I went up to my room. I saw that they were sitting on Jon's back porch. they were talking about something and I guess it was something serious. I really wished I could see a lot closer. I kept watching until Oscar finally got up and started to walk away. Jon still sat there for a little bit and then he pulled out his cell phone. he started dialing something and I was so busy watching Oscar leave that I didn't realize that Jon was calling me. I picked up the phone and I sat down but not leaving him out of his sight. "Aaron" I heard his voice. "What's up" "What are you doing?" "Nothing, I just finished having dinner" "O...hey maybe I can come over. Is Ryan over?" "Jon, Ryan hasn't really been over this summer, why do you always ask?" "I don't know. I just want to see him. Can we invite him over?" "Whatever you want man. I really don't want to deal with him but it's up to you" "Well then we'll just play a game or something. Maybe we can watch a movie" "Yeah. What were you doing today? Jacob was looking for you" "O yeah, he wants you and me to go" "Yeah, but what were you doing?" "O nothing. I was over at Oscar's house. We played on his trampoline" "Jon...is there something wrong with you?" "No...hey let me go ask my mom and then I'll call you" he said. So he did ask his mom and his mom let him come over only until 9pm. It was okay we had about 4 hours to play and stuff. He seemed to be okay but he also seemed a little distant from me. I didn't know what was going on with him but I didn't really ask anything because I was trying to get him to talk to me. We had a good time and well I held onto his hand every once in a while, he wasn't bothered by that. We didn't really have time to watch the movie we wanted to watch but we still played this cool wrestling game for a long time. When it was time for him to leave we both went downstairs but when we were outside he seemed to be really sad. I put my arm around him and I walked with him like this. When he was at his door he slowly gave me a hug and then he gave me five. I saw him walk in and I walked home. Later that night when I was trying to sleep I couldn't help but wonder why Jon was acting so abnormal. I thought we were in real good terms I mean he seemed very happy the last time I was with him. I decided to give it a rest because I would find out sooner or later. Well the chapter is a little different from the others. It has taken me a while because I've been really busy with other things. But again, please email me to give me your comments. I really enjoy coming home and reading awesome emails from my readers. Please keep the comments going.