Date: Wed, 8 Jun 2005 10:03:09 -0700 (PDT) From: Natasha Person Subject: Wanting "Who are you?" I asked smugly as I walked towards my office. My coat slung over my arm and my suit case swung back in forth as I walked. The petite women stood up behind the desk and extended her hand. "Hi Mrs. Star I'm Carlene Matix you new secretary." Her extended hand hit my shoulder as I walked passed. She pulled it back uncertain of her next move. I hung my coat on the coat rack and sat my suit case on the table. I unlocked it and pulled out one of the folders. "Matix get in here now!" She swiftly walked into the room. "Yes ma'am." I leaned against my desk and opened the folder. She stood in front of me waiting. I spoke without looking at her. "I wrote this short piece last night. Read and tell me what you think, then take it to editing." I slapped the folder shut and handed it to her. She took it and proceeded to walk out the door. I cleared my throat. "Sit on the couch there and do it. Are you scared of me or something Miss Matix.?" "um no, I just you wanted to be in here alone that's all." She sat down on the couch and opened the folder. I plopped down in my swivel chair and checked my email. I could feel her looking at me but said nothing, I just continued with the actions that were already in progress. "So did you like the piece I wrote?" I stood up and went to sit next to her on the couch. I sat me arm in back of her on the head of the couch. Beads of sweat stuck out her skin on her forehead. I watched as they rolled down her skin. One side of my mouth curled up. I slid my index finger over her forehead. "You're sweating are you ok?" "Yeah I'm fine and I really like your piece. I'm gonna take it to editing now." She got up quickly and left my office. It very interesting to see how people react in certain situations. I sat on my couch with my legs crossed for awhile. I sank deep into my thoughts. But I was soon interrupted by Carlene. "Mrs. Star you have a call on line three." "Thanks." I walked to the phone and pressed the speaker button. "Yeah" "Hey Skye baby , did ya finish that piece you've been workin on?" "Yeah Maxi. Hey did ya get me that spot at the Poetry Gallows?" My forehead quickly wrinkled. "Hey whose ya favorite agent girly?" "You are and don't call me girly." I smiled and shook my head. "Your performance is schedule for Tuesday at 8:00, so ya got a few days at get ready. I gotta go dear I'll talk to ya." Maxi hung up and then I hung up. I stretched and then walked out to Carlene's Desk. She stood up as soon as she saw me. "What can I do for you Mrs. Star?" "First you can relax, next get Bill Sutherland on the phone and tell him to not to print my Douglas story but print the one I sent to editing. Also order me some Taco Bell I'm hungry and order something for yaself you're joining me for lunch." She smiled. "Right away Mrs. Star." I headed down the stairs to the bathroom. "Good afternoon Mrs. Star." "Hey Cynthia What's goin on?" "Nothin." I stepped into the bathroom and washed my hands. Madeline stepped out of one of the stalls. "Hey Skye." "Hi Madeline. Oh um are you busy I need you to start the cover this months issue of the Magazine, we're coming close to the deadline." "I'm way ahead of you boss." She smiled and Brushed her chest up against my back as she walked towards the paper towel dispenser. I leaned my head forward and smiled. I walked to the paper towel dispenser and dryed my hands. I put my lips Against Madeline's left ear. "be careful." I felt Madeline shiver as I said those words. I smiled. "I will be by your office around 5:00 to pick up the finished cover." She nodded and I left. Women can be so challenging but vulnerable at the same time. I made my way back upstairs. Carlene was sitting at her desk with our lunch. "Bill Said that there is a problem with the printers and everything that was schedule for printing today is cancelled until tomorrow." She sat her head in her hands. I huffed in aggravation. "He tells me now, get him on the phone." "Yes ma'am. She dialed his number and put it on speaker. "This is Bill." "Bill how long have the printer been down?" "Um see what had happened was..." "No excuses. Fix it Bill, just fix it. Carlene hang up." She quickly hung up. "God damnit." Is stomped into my office and flung my body on the couch. "Here is your lunch." Carlene sat my lunch on my desk and walked towards the door. "Where are you're going you're eating with me. She nodded. She went and got her lunch and joined me on the couch. Got my food from the desk. As we ate I watched her lips. She turned and looked at me and smiled a nervous smile. "your lips are gorgeous." Carlene chuckled "Thank you ." She wiped her hands after she had finished and threw away the garbage, including mine. Carlene stood near the garbage can. "Is there anything I can do for you Mrs. Star?" She looked anxious, like she would do anything I told her to do. She as if she would even liked floor after I had walked on it. "No, I'm fine for now." She nodded her head and walked out of the office. I went over to my desk and sat down. I looked at the computer screen and went to work on my next story. Sweat dripped down the sides of my forehead as I typed. By this time I had removed my suit jacket and tie. My pencil was sitting in between my teeth. A crunching sound filled my ears as I bit down. After I finished the last sentence on the third page. I glanced at the clock that was sitting over my filing cabinet. It read 4:59 pm. I chuckled as I walked out of my office, with my white button down shirt open reveling my gray wife beater. Carlene turned around when she heard my foot steps. She stood up. "Did you need something ma'am." Her eyes traveled down to my open shirt. I could see the reflection of the buttons on my shirt in her eyes. She bit her bottom lip and leaned against her desk as if she could no longer stand. I leaned on the desk also. "No, I'm going down to graphics to pick up the cover to this months issue of the magazine. If anyone calls tell them I'm not in my office. As a matter of fact just forward my calls to my voice mail." "Ok." I walked down the hall and down the stairs. I stepped in front of the door to Madeline's office and opened it. The first thing I looked at was the clock. It read 5:06. She was sitting behind her desk typing away. She didn't even acknowledge that I had come in. I put my hands on my hips and stood on the heel of my left black pump. "You must be working on something very interesting." Madeline looked up. I could tell she was startled. She put her hand on her chest. I watched it as it traveled there. I looked at the two open buttons at the top of her blouse. The top of her chest sat in my line of vision. "I'm working on different cover options for the three upcoming anthologies. What do you think?" I pulled my eyes away and walked behind her desk. I leaned over her and looked at the screen. "This one looks really good. What do the other ones look like?" I continuously stared at the screen waiting for an answer. But I didn't get one instead I felt Madeline's left hand pushing against my chest. I felt as her fingers closed on my nipple. I felt my nipples grow. I grabbed her hand and turned around to face her. "Are you sure you want to sleep with your boss?" She nodded innocently. So I sat on her keyboard and opened my legs. She got down on her knees and inhaled the sweet scent of my pussy. Her eyes rolled to the back of her head as if I was already fucking her. I felt her teeth as she bit down into the material of my black business pants. I bit my bottom lip. "I wanna taste it." I rolled my eyes, I had heard those words too many times. They were starting to get old. The wetness of my pussy started to disappear. But I decided to entice her anyway. "Its right in front of you. SO go ahead and taste it." She unbuttoned the one button that held my pants closed in the front and unzipped the zipper on the side. She stood up and put her hand inside my pants. Her hand ventured past my panties and into my black bush. Madeline used her pinky and thumb to spread my puss lips. I felt her middle finger rub against my clit. I started to breathe harder but I didn't moan. I wanted her to work for the privilege to hear me moan. With her other hand she pulled my face into hers and we exchanged the taste of each other mouth. As we kissed we were interrupted by the ringing of the phone. I pulled away from her. I pushed the speaker button. It was her husband. "Hey honey I was wondering if you wanted spinach or broccoli." Hearing the sound of her husbands voice turned me off. As a matter of fact the sound of any mans voice turned me off. I took her hands out of my pants and fixed my clothing. I then went and sat on the stool that sat next to the door. I waited until she finished her conversation. "So where were we." She stated. She smiled at me. I sat in the chair and just looked at her with my head tilted to the side. "Ya know. I forgot you were married. Can I have the copy of the cover so I can leave." The smiled left her face her eyebrows furrowed. She handed me the cover. "Why are you such a bitch?" she asked. " Because I can be. You don't seem to have a problem with it, you wanna fuck me." I left the room and returned to my office. "Several people called for you while you were gone." Carlene said. I sat on her desk next to her. "Who called?" She handed me a list. I crumpled it up. "no one important." She smiled at me, I smiled back. An attraction was starting to brew. I went into my office and started getting ready to leave. While I packed Carlene came in. "Is there anything else you need me to do before I go?" "Nope. But I'm gonna need you to come by my house and help me sort through all the poetry submission I got for the contest. I just help sorting them into proper age groups that's all." She seemed eager to do it. Her face seemed to light up. I guess she really wanted to be alone with me. "Sure what time." Well closed to tomorrow since we can't print anything right now. So I'd say around 2:00." "ok." "I guess you already have my address." Carlene blushed. "Yeah they gave it to me when I applied for the job. I'll see you tomorrow." SHe quickly walked out of the door. I grabbed the rest of my stuff and left the office. Madeline entered the elevator when I did. She stared at me as we traveled to the lobby. I looked over at her. She put down her things and pulled me into her. I smiled smugly. I hiked up her skirt and pulled down her panties. My fingers went inside her. She moaned and rode my fingers as the elevator continued to move. I felt my essence leave my body. When she let go of my hair I looked into the corner of the elevator. I was shaking my head. My mouth moved but I couldn't understand what I was saying. My essence floated to the shell that it had left. I whispered into my ear: Carlene is what you want. Carlene, Carlene. Sweat poured down the sides of my face. I looked at Madeline. She repetitively rode my finger as if she was going to die after we finished. It seemed like she was trying to suck all of me into her, through the femininity that sat between her legs. I felt my self being pulled the her portal of ecstasy. My essence still stood beside me telling me no. Telling me to save all my passion for Carlene. I closed my eyes as it became apart of me again. I opened my eyes. Madeline had came all over my hand. I wiped it on her skirt and left the elevator. I quickly got into my car and went home. I stood in front of the door to my apartment as if in a trance. Maybe I had been imagining what had happened that elevator. But I knew I hadn't because the smell of pussy was still in my sense of smell. I pulled out my keys and unlocked the door. My neighbor peeked outside her door. "oh , Skye dear." "Yes Mrs. Spring." Mrs. Spring was like a grandmother to everyone in the building. She gave me advice when I needed it and she didn't judge me on my sexual preference like most elders do. "Skye a beautiful young lady came knocking at your door earlier. She said her name was Carlene..." I guess she was waiting for me to say something, to acknowledge if I knew her or not. "Carlene is my new secretary, why would come by here. That's not until tomorrow." Mrs. Springs winked her eye at me. "Some hanky panky dear. At least one of us will be getting our groove on." She giggled. "Come to my place dear, for a cup of tea. We shouldn't be standing in the hallway like this. Someone might think we're up to something." I nodded. I closed an relocked my door and walked into her apartment, behind her. The smell of mints marinated the air. "You're lucky , I just put the kettle on the stove. Would you like some cookies?" She was always trying to get me to eat something. "Sure, just one." "No you will eat two. You are to skinny. You like a bony bird. But you are still as handsome and adorable as you want to be." I couldn't help but smile. She always had a way of turning an insult into a good thing. "What kind of tea would you like. Oh that's a silly question of course you want orange." "Yes ma'am orange. So what did Carlene say?" I was anxious to know. "Hmm what did she say. I'm just teasing you dear. She wanted to know if she could stay with you tomorrow night because they started renovating her apartment and she has no other place to go." "Why didn't she just call me and ask." "Dear you are so smart but such an idiot. She came here because she wanted to see you. She likes you. You really should learn to read the signs." We both laughed. She sat my cup in front of me with two cookies on a napkin. "Thank you." She sat across from me at the kitchen table. "So do you like this girl? She is very pretty, but kind of short." I shook my head "Mrs. Springs you are always announcing the flaws that people have." "That's because they're fixable, well most of them are." I finished my cookies and tea. "Thank you for the talk and everything Mrs. Springs." "You're welcome dear." I picked up my stuff and went next door to my apartment. I switched the light on and put my things next to the door. I undressed as I hummed down the hall to my bedroom. I neatly put my clothes on a hanger and threw my self on my bed in my underwear. I looked over at the phone and decided to call Carlene after I took a shower and ate some real food. Those cookies made me hungry. I never take hot showers, only cold ones. I turned the knob until the water was ice cold and I stepped in. It felt like I was hit with a big snow ball. I picked up my wash cloth and cleanse my self of today's issues. I washed my hair and cleansed it of all the thoughts that troubled me. I Turned off the shower and stood in front of the mirror. I realized I needed to give myself a hair cut. It had grown to much. I stared at my face and noticed I need a facial so I put some mask cream on my face. I walked to my room and put on some boxers. Then I walked back to the bathroom with my chest bouncing, happy of there new found freedom. I washed the hardened mess off my face and put on some lotion. I then walked to the freezer and pulled out a frozen pizza and popped it into the oven. I decided to call Carlene. Her phone rang 4 times until she picked up hello. She sounded like she was sleeping. "Hi Carlene its Skye. Were you asleep?" "No I was just laying in bed." She seemed nervous. "I can't sleep at all with my room smelling like paint." "Um instead of staying tomorrow why don't you stay tonight and tomorrow? I could use the company." "Are you sure?" "Yeah I'm sure. You can sleep in my bed and I'll sleep on the couch." I heard silence. "Ok I'll be there in an hour." Then I heard the dial tone. I went into the kitchen and took my pizza out of the oven. I cut it into four big pieces and went and sat on the couch to watch TV. and eat. Smallville reruns were on so I watched those. I was sprawled across the couch with my legs open when she came. The doorbell rang and I got up and opened it. "um you're not wearing a shirt or bra." She started to blush. "Yeah , I only sleep in boxers." "ok." I could tell she was happy about that. "You can put your stuff in my room. It's down the hall." I pointed. She walked down the hall. I observed the way her hips moved as she walked. Then I laid back down on the couch not knowing that the button the held my boxers closed had come open. Carlene didn't tell me until she had her free peeks. She sat down next to my open legs and looked over. I saw her smile but I wasn't sure why. "Do you like smallville?" "yeah." She answered me while looking at my pussy. "Your boxers are open." Carlene reached over and buttoned them. My arousal became more fierce when I felt her knuckles brush against my pussy. "Oh thanks." I still stayed in my same position. He turned towards the TV. Out of habit I began to roll one of my nipples in between my fingers. I saw her watching out of the corner of her eye. "would you like to do it for me?" Carlene fumbled over her words. I sat up and clasped her hand with in mine and brought to my chest. She mechanical started to do what I did. As my nipple moved in between her fingers she moaned before I did. I she undid her jeans with one hand. She looked at me and said "Touch it, but just a little bit. You are my boss." I rolled my eyes at that. I leaned forward and my finger in between her lips. Her clit felt cute and small. "mmmmmmm that feels so good. Rub it harder please and faster." I did just that and she went into a frenzy. She pulled my mouth to her and she kissed hard, then soft. Out tongues made love, just like we were about to do. I felt our souls intertwine. I laid on top her with my knee pushing against the hand that was massaging her clit. "Yesssss." Carlene raised her hands in the air as if she didn't know what to do with them. "ok no more." she breathed. She pushed me off and walked to my room. I fell to the floor so horny and frustrated that I didn't know what to do. Finally I got back on the couch and turned of the TV. I heard her get into my bed. I laid in the dark with my hand in my boxers and I fell asleep. Images of the night before flashed in my mind as I woke up the next morning. I was mad. I sat up and looked around the room. I got up and walked to the bathroom and walked in on Carlene taking a shower. I acted like it was no big deal and brushed my teeth. "Hey I'm taking a shower." "So what the curtain is closed all I see is a shadow." "You seem grumpy." "Of course I am. Last night we started something with got me horny and you stopped it, so yeah I grumpy." I said in between brushes. "well I'm sorry. I didn't mean for that to happen. You are my boss." "But you wanted it to happen. So of course it was going to happen. I rinsed my mouth. I was fed up with the denial. So I got in the shower with her. She backed against the wall. "Are you scared of me? Are you scared of the way I can make you feel?" "Yes. I don't want people to think I'm sleeping with to get ahead. I want them to think I got where I wanted to go on my own." I walked towards her and put my hand on the wall next to her head. I ran my fingers down her curves. Her eyes closed and pushed her pussy against mine. "I want it so bad." She opened her mouth and pushed it into mine. I was drawn into her again. I pushed against her until she touched the wall. I spread her legs. She pushed my hand away and closed her legs. She got out of the shower and dried off. She went to the bedroom. I followed her. I practically chased her to the bed. And turned her around. She looked confused. I held her. We stood in my room naked holding each other until we decided to get dressed. We sat across from each other doing what we were supposed to be doing in the first place. I wondered if we were ever sleep together or remain friends. I also wondered what was going through her head. Se thieved looks at one another. For hours we sat and worked, wondering what the other was thinking. We would learn that once we finally spoke.