Date: Sun, 20 May 2007 19:13:00 -0700 (PDT) From: Rebecca Snye Subject: the west the way of the cowgirl This is a work fiction done by the writer no part of this story is true. Any rewriting or copying of this story has to be cleared by the writer. You can contact the writer at darkdolphin2006@yahoo.com THE WEST THE WAY OF THE COWGIRL BY: R.SNYE I heard the horses and the people down in the street .The sweat was beating off my face as I stood in front of the mirror in my room I had just finished with the morning chores. I walked threw the house to the drawing room and sat down and took at book and started to read. It was a romance a good one too, the butler walked in and handed me a glass of water I took it and drank it down. It was so hot! I wondered looking around the room at family photos when Papa would be home? He had been away five days now with mother arranging my marriage and dowry for the man to marry me. I am so scared they will pick a man all wrong for me. They did ok with my two older sisters Gina and Hannah but some how I worry with me how they will do. For the simple fact I am not at all very femine nor do I like to go boy crazy like my sisters do. I have never really liked men all that much to think on it sighs. I think that is why my father has always chosen me to do field work for him in stead of house work. I like it because I get to whir pants as I do it and go horse back riding and hunting too. He has always treated me as a son not a daughter up until a year ago. He started to worry about that with me because of marriage reasons. He hired a lady to teach me how to be a lady and not a man the way I was taught. Suddenly my thoughts were interrupted by a maid handed me my mail there was a letter from my Father in there. I read it he informed me in it that I was not to marry but I was to pack right away and go to the Dawson farm. I was to be a companion to Widow Dawson. I got up did as he said and had a good look at the farm for the last time. I couldn't help wonder why he hadn't married me off later I would find out why that was. The carriage ride was ruff bumpy and hot thank god I brought a ton of water to keep me cool. The ride seemed to go on forever as I sat there and looked out over the long Texas country. We got to the Dawson farm around six and a farm hand took my stuff. And I was directed by a woman in to a sitting room. Whir a woman in a warm house dress sat. She looked pale and she smiled. "How was your ride over not to hard I trust?" she asked pouring me a cup of tea. I couldn't help myself but to stair at these women's breasts they were so big and it aroused me so. She also smelled of roses witch made this all the harder. "No ma'am my trip was well thank you." I answered. Then she went on to tell me that my duties were to be her dresser and to clean her room and go out with her in exchange for food shelter and some extra money. I thought sounds like I am playing lady maid, so I thought. Then next three weeks were uneven full I took care of her and did her arraigns and read to her and play cards. One night as I was going to leave to go to my room she looked at me and called me back to her. "Sleep with me." I didn't question it she said she couldn't sleep so I did. I do have to admit strange thoughts did cross my mind that night but I put them to rest with the age difference. The next morning when I awoke there was no one in the room I dressed and went down stairs I was handed a list of things I had to buy at the market and got in a carriage too the town market. The stores were busy that morning and carriages were racing threw the streets tossing dirt every whir even in your hair. The shopping list was pretty plain just fruit and candles and fabrics and things like that. For the house hold. Then I remember I had some of my own money I saw a candy shop I walked in. There was a woman at the counter who was wearing the latest dress out of the sears catalog I new right there she had some money. "Hi I am Anna Green, you most are the new girl the Dawson lady took on?" she said with a sweet smile. "Why yes I am." I said then placed my order to the guy behind the counter. This woman was so pretty I could feel an ache in me to be just like her or what is more? I got my bag and she motioned to me to walk out in the streets and we walked arm in arm talking about the all the latest events coming up and more. Then I ran into a coffee bean seller I bought some coffee beans got back in the carriage and invited the woman back to the house come to find out she was the wife of the banker and only 3 years older then I. On the drive over me and Mrs. Green played cards and chatted. We were in the sitting room drinking the newly boughten coffee when Mrs. Greene asked Mrs. Dawson for the rights to me and they talked about the exchange of money and how it would do Dawson good. In the end I was told to pack that I was going with Anna Greene. There hours later I was sitting in my new bedroom when Anna walked in and smiled at me and started brushing my hair. As I took things out of my suite case. She brushed every stained of hair. I could smell the sent of her perfume it was like lavender of some other type of flower. She smiled and smiled at me as she did so and I thought she is a goddess a pretty goddess and I knew she awoken something in me but what I didn't know. Later reading in bed a not such a favorite habit to my father's I fell asleep dreaming of her. I loved the manner and the food and the servants and what my job was not clear to me. It was so not clear to me yet. The next morning I awoke to darkness a maid said time to get up I looked at the clock on my night table it was five in the morning so I washed and dressed and took my morning meal in my bed room then. Was told to go down to the sitting room where Anna sat sewing an old quilt and there was a basket of clothes beside her. "Oh your up good, now help me with this sewing." She said coolly and calmly with a smile on her face that made me wonder what she was hiding. I started to sew not complaining I knew I was good at it my sister taught me thinking back on it my sister Hannah taught me a lot that Mother should have if she wasn't in our villa in London all the time during ball season. Thank god my Father was a rich farmer I thought. Everyone bought from him he farmed the best veggables and fruit around but what made his money was his whine. We sat in silence sewing I could smell her sent she was wearing, I looked over at her. Anna looked up at me and smiled a little. Not saying a word as we worked. I knew one thing I was going to like it better here and have less work or less hard work any way knowing Anna as well as I did from our brief friendship. It took us until seven in the morning to finish all the work. My hands hurt so I had pricked them so many times. "Well then she said that took me less then half the time it normally does thanks to you." She said looking over at me and motioned me out in to the yard for a walk. We walked about a mile passed her husbands corn fields and in to another fields whir there was a pond. It then hit me that I had never seen her husband nor really heard her or any one mechtion him. "Anna not to be prying dear but I wondered whir your husband is I never see him nor hear of him?" I asked as we walked then. Smelling the flowers drift from the house flower garden. "Oh that, he has been dead now for a year we weren't married more then a month he died of a heart failure." She said as she took my arm I can not say I am sad of it I barely knew him. The marriage was a prearranged one. Grabbing my hand she ran towards the pond and stripped down to her bear skin and jumped in the water. Not thinking just knowing it was hot in the early morn I did the same. We swam and slashed each other and played like school girls. Then she got out I fallowed her ofcouse and she knocked me down in the dirt turning our naked bodys to a muddy mess and started tickling me. Before I knew it she was wrestling me and pulling on my hair playfully. Suddenly I felt that dull ache in me again and I didn't know what it was nor could I put a name to it. Then she slipped two fingers up my dress and moved them inside me in till I had my first climax I looked down there was blood every whir just like my friend Maggie told me there would be. I never thought I would loose my virginity this way. Nor did I think I could to a woman nor could I ^Å. That was when it hit me I was a ungodly sinner I was a lesbian and my Papa new it. The dull ache in me was loneliness and longing for love from not a man but a woman. Then Anna looked in my eyes and kissed me so passion I felt for the first time in my life complete. Anna and I got off the ground then. She smiled as she dove back into the water. It was then I knew what my role were to not be a servant nor a normal companion but a lover and a friend and some one to help her with every day tasks. I jumped in after her. The water was icy cold after feeling the heat of passion. I was still in awe as I watched her swim around the ponds murky waters. I wondered if God had a problem with what we were doing and if he knew it was not my fault that I felt this way about women in general. I most differently did not ask for this at all to happen. I thought as I got out of the water and put my clothes on that I now had wet from my wet body I felt like I was the dirtiest person on earth at that moment. My body was saying things that my mind didn't like at all. We did not speak as we walked back to the main house and I went up to my room and ordered the maid to draw a bath. Then I heard Anna enter the room as I was washing all the dirt away. "I am sorry; I should have told you I hope you are not mad? Also, I am giving you rights to run the house hold and u don't have to wear dresses anymore if you don't want." She said sitting on my bed looking down at me. I wondered how did she know I did not hate them nor did she know I never yust wear them? I wondered then she spoke again. " My parents knew yours years ago I met you when we were ten I couldn't get the picture out of my head of you in pants riding horse back. Then I knew I had to have you this was all planned by our parents." Anna said sitting there calmly. From that day on I never wore a dress again and me and Anna lived happily alone and ran the farm and I worked the fields and we together raised a orphaned boy and girl and made a family. How we did it I still don't know but we did. Well I have to go now she is calling me my turn to cook.