Date: Tue, 27 Jan 2004 20:35:26 EST
From: GrreenPanda@aol.com
Subject: University Love 1

	I had finally made it. I was finally lying on my twin bed inside
the dorm where I was going to spend the next four years of my life. I had
dreamed of attending college since I was old enough to know what it was. I
was thinking that I needed to start unpacking my stuff when my new roommate
walked in the door. She dumped her things on the bed as she introduced
herself.

	"Hi, I'm Stephanie."

	"DJ, nice to meet you." I was staring at her back, she looked to be
about five foot five or so, shoulder length blondish brown hair. I could
tell that she was pretty, but I was not prepared for the stunning beauty
that I saw when she turned around. I looked into her deep blue eyes and
immediately fell in love. I quickly looked away hoping that she didn't
notice that I was staring.

	Stephanie had just caught a glance at the other girl in the room
when she walked in and couldn't wait to get a better look at her. She was
not disappointed when she finally got that better look and it was love at
first sight. Something happened when they looked into each other's eyes,
she could feel it. But DJ looked away too quickly.

	"Um...you don't mind that I took this side of the room do you?" I
asked trying not to look at her.

	"Of course not, this side is fine." I could feel her eyes on
me. But I resisted the urge to look at her. Over the next few hours we
exchanged some small talk as we unpacked the rest of our things. Each of us
stealing small glances at each other. We discovered that we shared a few
classes. We kept up the small talk, as we were getting ready for bed, when
Stephanie asks, "DJ, do you snore?"

	"I don't think so, I have never had any complaints. Do you snore?"

	"No, well goodnight."

	"G'night" As I laid there trying to fall asleep my mind kept
wandering over the other side of the room, wondering what she was thinking
and what she would look like naked. Even though the moonlight was streaming
into the room I couldn't get a look at her. What I didn't realize was that
Stephanie was lying there thinking the exact same things.

	The next morning I woke up to the sounds of someone talking. It was
Stephanie, I could tell she was on the phone.

	"Okay, Mom I'll talk to you later, I love you too." I could hear
her saying. She looked over at me. "Sorry I didn't mean to wake you,"

	"That's okay, I wanted to get up at a decent hour so that I could
walk the campus and get to know where every thing is, so when it comes time
for classes on Monday I wouldn't be lost. Do you mind if I take the shower
first?" I asked her finally being able to look at her instead of at the
floor.

	"No, I don't mind as long as you don't take up all the hot water
and you let me come along for the walk. I don't want to be lost either."
She said as she was giving me this sly smile. I couldn't refuse a smile
like that.

	"Sure, you have yourself a deal." I got my things together and
headed for the shower. As I was standing there under the water, I thought
what I really needed was a cold shower, because with that little grin she
just gave me was enough to get that feeling of heat between my legs. As the
water ran over me I let my hand travel down my body, pausing to give my
nipples a pinch, then continuing down to my pussy. I was imagining that it
was her hands that were finding their way between my pussy lips to rub my
clit; I couldn't believe that I was that excited just from a grin. Using my
other arm I propped myself up against the shower wall and lifted one leg to
the side of the tub to give my own wandering hand some room. Within seconds
I had brought myself to orgasm. I got out of the shower drying off slowly,
looking in the mirror, I told myself that I was going to have to find a
girlfriend, it was time. It had been almost 6 months since I broke up with
Heather. Of course that was right after my mom had walked in and caught
us. After which my mom called me a disgrace to the family and that when I
left for school that I would never be allowed back. I clearly remember the
day I left, no one in the house came to say goodbye as I walked out the
door. I could hear my younger sister yelling at mom to let her go. I had
known that I was a lesbian since my freshman year of high school, but did
the usual hiding game that everyone does. I dated a couple of guys for show
that is until Heather transferred in from another school. After our first
kiss I knew that there would never be another male in my life again. My
thoughts were interrupted when I heard a knock at the door.

	"You gonna take all day in there?"

	"No, I will be right out." I quickly put on my robe and opened the
door.


	 	 * * * * * *


	Over the next few months Stephanie and I threw ourselves into our
schoolwork, and got to know each other better, with each passing day I knew
that my feelings for her were growing, and I knew that I would probably end
up with a broken heart. One night as we were sitting there studying, I
heard her slam her book shut. I looked up to see her studying me instead of
her now shut book.

	"Are you okay?" I asked slowly.

	"Yes, DJ, how come I never hear you talk about your family, I never
hear you on the phone with them, I don't see any pictures of them." I knew
that this question was coming I just didn't know when.

	I thought to myself a second before answering, "Because according
to them I don't exist." I let out a slow breath and before she could ask
any more questions I said
	"And I would really prefer not to talk about it." Stopping any
further questions. No such luck.

	"Then why don't you come home with me for the holidays, I'm sure my
family would like to met you." Stephanie said.

	"Stephanie, I can't," I said letting out a sigh. "I wouldn't be
very good company. Coming from a family that doesn't believe that I exist,
I don't think that I could handle watching you and your family, that I can
tell by the way you talk to them on the phone, are very close." I gave her
as a reason, but the real one I kept from her, that I had fallen so deeply
in love with her that I was starting to have trouble being around her. Much
less go home with her, with her being the only one that I would know.

	"DJ, please, will you just think about it, I don't think that you
need to stay here by yourself, that is so depressing."

	I eventually agreed to give it some thought. I just couldn't refuse
her. She didn't ask me about it for a few days, and my nights were filled
with less and less sleep which made my days that much harder. Finally it
was Friday, I knew that I would get home before Stephanie. I landed on my
bed with a thud, as all the stress and rational thinking drain from me,
because I had actually considered going home with her for the holidays.


	* * * * * * *

	Stephanie couldn't quite understand DJ, the more she thought about
it the more she was confused. Thinking back to the first day that they had
met, she had felt DJ staring at her, hoping that it meant what she thought
it meant. DJ was gorgeous, just her type, long dark brown hair, light green
eyes that she found out later changed with what DJ was wearing that day,
standing at 5 foot 7inches, caramel tan on those beautifully sculpted
legs. She took advantage of when she saw DJ padding to bed in her boxers
and t-shirt, practically drooling over her. As she walked in the room she
saw DJ lying down in what looked like a peaceful sleep. Taking a moment she
studied her features, she knew that she hadn't gotten much sleep the last
couple nights and knew that it was her fault for asking about her
family. That made her more determined to find out what was or wasn't going
on with them. Stephanie slipped out of the room so that DJ could sleep.

		* * * * * * *

	When I woke up the clock said six o'clock. Looking around I saw no
sign of Stephanie, which concerned me a little bit. I decided to go get
something to eat when I saw the note taped on the inside of the door; it
was from Stephanie saying she had gone to library to study. As I was on my
way down the stairs, Stephanie was walking up them.

	"DJ, where ya headed?"

	"Going to get something to eat. Since it's Friday I thought I might
take in a movie."

	"Let me go drop off my books and I'll go with you, of course if you
don't mind that is?"

	"No of course not, I'll wait down in the lobby." I watched
Stephanie walk the rest of the way up the stairs, and could swear she was
putting more twist in her hips than what was necessary. I could barely
control a groan.

	She could feel DJ's eyes on her as she walked away, thinking to
herself maybe tonight one of us will be brave enough to make the first
move.  When Stephanie walked in to the lobby I could tell that she had
taken the time to brush her hair and fix her make up.

	"So where would you like to go?" I asked her as she walked up to
me.

	"Oh I don't know, wherever, how about we try that little Greek
place that's just off campus."

	"That sounds great. Let's go, would you like to walk or drive?"

	"Let's walk, it's such a beautiful night."

	On the way we made small talk, discussing classes and what was on
schedule for the next term. "So Stephanie, why don't you have a boyfriend
or all the guys on campus lined up at the door?" I asked trying not to
sound too curious.

	"Because I don't want one." She said as a matter of factly. "And
DJ, I could ask you the same question?"

	"Because I don't want one," I said mimicking her response and
making her laugh. It was an infectious laugh, one that you could get used
to. We had arrived at the restaurant and were sitting waiting to place our
orders. I looked over at her to find her staring at me. All I could do was
stare back, I'm not sure how long we sat there like that, but we were
interrupted when our server arrived.

	"DJ, have you made up your mind yet." I knew what she was asking.

	"I'm not going." I said without looking at her.

	" DJ I just don't understand how you could be happy staying at the
campus when everyone will be gone. It's just not right." I couldn't look at
her because I know that if I did I would change my mind and I couldn't do
that. I would be setting myself up for heartbreak.  "DJ, look at me."

	"I am not going," The rest of the meal, we ate in silence, a very
awkward silence. When the check came I insisted on paying, which made her
more furious. On the walk home I could feel her glancing at me.

	"I'm sorry Stephanie, I just can't go." I whispered.

	"But..."

	"No buts. I will be okay, I am used to being alone."

	"You shouldn't be used to being alone, and you don't have to be
anymore. When are you going to talk to me about it."

	"I don't know," I sighed as I ran my fingers through my hair.
"Maybe soon." And it would probably be sooner if she kept asking.

	As we were climbing the stairs, she was in front of me, when all of
a sudden she stopped and turned to face me. Our eyes were level with each
other. I could feel her eyes burning into mine, but I couldn't bring myself
to turn away. I wanted nothing more than to take her into my arms and kiss
her. Desire took over. My eyes dropped to her lips, where I found a small
grin. I am not sure who made the first move, but our lips touched softly
yet so full of passion, I moaned. Before I realized it, we were in our room
tearing frantically at each other's clothes. I had to slow this down it was
going way too fast.

	"Baby, sweetie wait." I said as I pulled away. "Don't look at me
like that, I have waited for this for months and there's no reason to rush
it now."

	"I think you have made me wait long enough, baby."

	"Me make you wait? You didn't see my eyes devour you every time you
came into the room. How was I was supposed to know?" I was saying as I was
still removing her clothing.

	"Well, we do have all weekend to make up for it. And yes I noticed,
but I was too afraid that I might be wrong. Please don't make me wait any
longer. I need you. Very bad."  I leaned in to kiss her as she pulled me to
her by placing her hands on the back of my head. We fell back on the bed
with me falling on her. I pulled away to look in her eyes. Her naked body
felt wonderful next to me. She was returning my gaze, and I could see the
desire.

	"Baby, what's wrong?" she whispered. "Why are you crying?"  I
didn't realize that I was until she reached up to wipe away the tears. "I
just want to make sure that this isn't some dream and that I am going to
wake up and you won't be here."

	"Feel me, I'm real." She took one of my hands and put it her
face. "See,"

	I couldn't hold back any more. I dipped my head to take one of her
hardened nipples in my mouth, pinching the other with my hand. Her moan was
all I needed to hear to continue. I kissed my way down her body until I was
positioned between her legs; I ran my finger on the outer edges of her
lips. Not giving into what she wanted. I kissed her inner thighs; she
shifted her legs to spread them wider, I think she was giving me a hint. I
could feel her hands on the back of my head pulling me in. I resisted. I
crawled back up her body.

	"Please DJ, I can't take it any more."

	"What is it that you want?"

	 "I want you to fuck me." Stephanie said as she was pushing my hand
down her belly. Reaching her head up to kiss me, I slipped one finger in,
causing a moan, I kissed my way down her body pushing my face tightly
against her and forced my tongue into her soaking wet pussy, she cried out.

          "Fuck me harder, please, ohh gaawwd, yesssss." She said in a
panting breath as my tongue continued assaulting her clit. I inserted two
fingers in her hot dripping pussy and started to move them in rhythm with
my tongue, I could feel the muscles in her pussy contracting violently and
her hips began to buck off the bed. I had to grab onto her hips to keep
from being thrown off the bed. I kept licking until I felt the rest of the
muscles in her body go stiff.  I heard a cry from her lips when her orgasm
hit causing a round of violent contractions in her pussy.  As the waves of
pleasure spread, I could feel that Stephanie was beginning to relax and
catch her breath.


	* * * * * * *

	I crawled up beside her and took her in my arms.  We laid there for
what felt like thirty minutes but it had only been 2or 3minutes before
Stephanie began to move again. I opened my eyes to find her staring at me.

	"Wow, that was amazing." Stephanie whispered. I could feel her
hands beginning to drift over my abdomen. Her touch was very delicate,
almost ticklish, but very provocative. I could see the desire shining in
her eyes. "I want to return the favor."

	"Baby, you can do anything you want to me." But she surprised me
when she suddenly got out of bed. "Baby, where you going?"

	"Don't worry, I am just getting something." She said with a
chuckle. "I plan to rock your world, sweet baby." She said as she crawled
up the bed towards me. As she reached my face she lowered her face to mine
and drew me into a deep, very passionate kiss. I could feel my toes curl
just from that, the way her tongue expertly played with mine. I could feel
her fingers ruffling the fine hairs of my mound, I tried to arch into her
but she pulled her hand away. "Tell me what you want, I want to hear you
say it."

	"I want you to fuck me, I want you to drive me wild with your
touch, I want to feel you inside me. I want to feel your tongue...on...me."
I could barely get the part out as she was running her fingers up and down
my slit slowly applying more pressure. She pulled her leg placing her thigh
against my hot center and pressed inward. I began to grind my hips against
her legs as she started ravaging my body with her mouth. I tried to touch
her, but she grabbed my hands and placed them over my head. She looked me
in the eyes and shook her head.

	"No, it's your turn." As she made her way down my body her hair was
teasing my nipple, I could feel her teeth nipping my skin. I felt her take
my toe into her mouth; all I could do was moan. She started moving back up
my legs slowly darting that magnificent tongue in and out. I could feel the
cool air against my skin as she moved away, moving further up until
reaching the spot that had been begging for attention. I arched my hips
toward her, she knew that I needed her and decided to tease me a little
more, and pull back slightly,

	" Please, please, I'm begging, please." She dipped her finger into
my moist folds running it over my clit and I let out a moan so loud that I
was sure that the people in the next room heard me. Then finally she lets
her tongue run over my clit again and again, at the same time building
pressure and speed, only stopping long enough to plunge her tongue in to my
opening. I could feel her fingers begin to play around my rosebud teasing,
never giving in to what I was begging for. I could feel the heat and
pressure building up within me as her tongue continued to assault my clit,
I arched my hips higher and higher riding the wave of pleasure that was
pouring over me until I exploded in an orgasm that left my whole body
shaking.

	She continued to lick up my juices until I stopped shaking, she
crawled up beside me, pulling me into her arms and into a deep
breath-taking kiss, and I could taste myself on her lips, but somehow I
tasted better because of her.

	* * * * * * *

	The next morning I woke up to the sound of her voice. I squinted
and saw that she was on the phone. I guess that she heard me moving around
because she turned to look at me, with the most radiant smile on her
face. She quickly told whoever was on the phone that she would talk to them
later and hung up.

	"G'morning sexy." She said as she crawled back into bed next to
me. She leaned in for a kiss. "Last night was, was wonderful DJ."

	"I know, I thought I had a very vivid dream, but I am so glad that
it wasn't. You didn't have to get off the phone just cause I woke up." I
said as I started to rub my hands over her back.

	"I know, but it was just my mom confirming my travel plans for next
weekend." As she said the words I was immediately looking for a way
out. "She asked if you were going to come with me, but I told her that I
haven't been able to convince you yet, so you can stop squirming. But that
doesn't mean that I am going to give up. Because I want you to go."

	"Stephanie, please don't."

	"Baby, you sure weren't saying that last night, but I am not going
to use last night against you," she said as she got up. "I am getting in
the shower, feel free to join me." She turned to grin at me over her
shoulder as I watched her beautifully naked body saunter of to the
bathroom. As she closed the bathroom door, I threw my legs over the side of
the bed and reached for her phone. Five minutes later, I was on my way to
the shower to join my beautiful goddess. I opened the door to find her
standing under the spray of the shower with her head tilted back exposing
her neck to me. Either she didn't hear me come in or she was ignoring me. I
walked over, pulled back the shower curtain and stepped into her waiting
arms.

	"I knew you couldn't resist me for long..." I cut off her sentence
by leaning in and taking her mouth with mine. As my arms went around her I
grabbed her hair and tugged on it enough to expose her neck like it was
when I first walked in. I let my lips trail down her neck, god she had the
most beautiful neck I had ever seen.  I took the sponge off the rack and
soaped it up and began to run it over her body, taking my sweet time. When
I was done she took it from me and repeated my actions on me, only taking
longer.

	"DJ, how on earth am I going to make it for two weeks without you,
now that I have you in my arms I don't ever want to let go." She said as
she brushed the hair out of my eyes.

	"Just think of the welcome that you will get when you come
back. Two whole weeks of anticipation." I said as I was reaching for a
towel. I dried off quickly and turned to dry her off. There was no need for
robes any longer so I walked out into the room went straight for my
dresser. We spent the weekend walking around town, looking at the shops
that were lined up on the street, when we weren't doing that we were
learning our way around each others bodies.

	The next week was a very stressful during the day and glorious at
night. I learned to please her in new ways and I thought that the pleasure
she was giving me would surely kill me if it lasted too much longer. True
to her word she never let up on me, she really wanted me to go with her;
little did she know of my plans.  It was Friday morning; I was sitting on
my bed that hadn't been used in a week. I was watching her pack her bags. I
was barely able to control myself.

	"What time does your plane leave in the morning?"

	"I have to be at the airport at 7:45 am." Stephanie said, as she
wouldn't even look at me. She just kept on jamming things into her bag.

	"Stephanie, sweetie, are you going to talk to me today, because you
won't even look at me."

	"No."

	"Why?"

	"Who the hell do you think you are?" Stephanie turned on me with
the more anger in her eyes than I saw in my mothers' the day she found me
in bed with Heather. I was almost afraid to talk for fear she might jump on
me again.

	"Baby, ..."

	"Don't baby me, how could you? I thought we were getting so close,
this last week has been the best most wonderful experience in my life. And
don't look at me like you have no idea what I am talking about." Stephanie
yelled. I am sure that we would now have the attention of the entire floor.

	"Stephanie, I have no idea what you are talking about. Would you
please explain this to me? Please."

	"Don't please me," She said between broken sobs as she just picked
up her bag and walked out the door slamming it behind her. All I could do
was sit down on the edge of the bed; I dropped my head in my hands and
slowly started to cry. I didn't know what else to do, I knew that chasing
after her was not going to work. I was still thinking of what to do when I
heard the door open.

	"Steph...oh my god what are you doing here?" All of a sudden a
light went off in my head.

	"Jeez, DJ, it's nice to see you too." Heather said in a very
sarcastic tone.

	"Heather what did you say to her?"

	"I told her thanks for keeping my woman company while I was away, I
told her that her services were no longer needed." She said as she walked
further in the room. She had started to take off her coat but I stopped her
mid way.

	"Heather, you can put your coat right back on and leave. I don't
want you here, please leave." All I could think about was that I needed to
get to Stephanie, before she could get on that plane, because I might not
get another chance.

	"Just what is that supposed to mean? DJ, we belong together, or
don't you remember the promises that we made? DJ..."

	"Heather, that was a long time ago, and if I remember correctly you
walked out on me when I needed you most. I have moved on, I have moved on
with Stephanie. I only hope that she will let me somehow make this up to
her. How could you do this to me? How?" I was saying as I started throwing
clothes in a bag. I had originally planned to do this as soon as Stephanie
left so I could catch the next plane to surprise her at home. I had been
talking to her mother all week on how to pull this off. Now I had my work
cut out for me. "You know Heather, I had finally found happiness again." As
I started walking out the door, I was dialing Stephanie's mom on the cell
phone, I was going to need all the help I could get. I heard Heather
calling out after me, but I didn't turn around.

		* * * * * * *


	"Mom, I just don't understand how she could do this to me, I had
thought that we were getting close." Stephanie said as she cried into her
mom's shoulder.

	"Dear, are you sure you heard this other girl correctly, it could
all be some big misunderstanding. Stephanie, I talked to DJ on the phone."

	"When? When did she call you?"

	"Yesterday, right after you walked out, she explained the whole
thing to me, I think that you need to listen to her." Stephanie's mom said.

	"What did she tell you?"

	"Why don't you ask her?" Ms. Jennings said pointing at the door and
straight at me. Stephanie turned her head very slowly, and I could tell
even through the screen door, that she had been crying and silently berated
myself for being the cause.

	"No, mom, what is she doing here?"

	"Stephanie please, I'm begging please, five minutes and if you
still don't like what I have to say I will leave. Please." I was begging
for a chance. I just needed to explain.

	"Fine, five minutes but that's it." She said as she motioned for me
to come in.  For the next five minutes I told her every detail that had
happened over the last 2 years. When I was done all I could was look at
her, and hope that what I said had made a difference.

	"You look like shit DJ." Was all she said.

	"I drove straight here. The airline wouldn't change my ticket and I
didn't want to wait any longer."

	"What airline ticket?"

	"The one that I bought last Monday."

	"You were going to surprise me?"

	"Yes."

	"Why?" she inquired with one eyebrow up.

	"Because over the last few months I have fallen hopelessly in love
with you and I cou..." I couldn't finish my sentence because she had leaped
on me and covered my mouth with hers. We sat there just exchanging smiles
and kisses and I love you's.

	"DJ, I love you."

	"And I love you Stephanie, more than you could realize."

	"I can't believe that your mom actually did that to you." As if
remembering her own mother she glanced around but did not bother getting
out of my lap. "Where did my mom go?"

	"She went into the other room as soon as I started talking, she
already heard the story, I told her when I called her yesterday. Stephanie,
I can't even begin to say how sorry I am for what happened. Please forgive
me?"

	"DJ, it's not your fault, and besides that I have a way you can
make it up to me." She said as she started nibbling on my lower lip. "My
bedroom is right upstairs."

	"I like the way you think, but are you sure that's a good idea?"

	"If you think that I am going to go 2 weeks without having my way
with you, I do think that you do need a nap, after all you drove almost ten
hours to get here, you have to be tired."

	"Eight. It only took me eight." We got up, and started up the
stairs, Stephanie yelled out to her mom.

	"Mom, we are going to take a nap. We will be back down in a little
while, in time for dinner. Okay."

	"Okay dear, we are eating at six." Ms. Jennings yelled back. She
couldn't help but smile.

	I whispered in Stephanie's ear, "A whole 7 hours, I don't know if I
can make it that long."

	"Oh, DJ, I not only think that you will make it, I know you will."
We fell on the bed trying to rip each other's clothes off. I didn't want to
break contact with her in any way. "I love you Stephanie." I whispered, as
she stared exploring my body with her mouth. She stood up at the edge of
the bed to remove the last of my clothing and hers. Stephanie climbed back
on the bed to lie down beside me.

	"No words, just feel." she stated simply.

	I flipped her under me, dropped my head down to take one of her
nipples in my mouth. As I suckled her nipple I raked my tongue across it
several times. At the same time I raised my leg up to separate her legs. I
started applying pressure with my thigh.  "Close your eyes, I brought
something with me, I was hoping that you would forgive me." It was
something that we had talked about on a few occasions. I quickly got out of
bed and went to my bag. I crawled back up beside her settling my body
between her hips.  I covered her lips with mine in a slow, breath-taking
kiss. I settled my hand between her legs and started to rub her
clit. Tracing slow lazy circles, dipping my finger in and out. I could feel
the desire building, with more and more of our juices flowing.

	We both moaned in unison. "Please DJ, make love to me." All I could
do in response was moan. I propped myself up on my arms and started slowly
entering her with my rubber cock. She wrapped her legs around my waist as I
began thrusting in and out.  I felt her hands grabbing my ass to pull me in
even farther. She reached up to take a nipple into her mouth, "Oh yeah like
that, please," I breathed out in a heavy breath.

	"Ohhhh, please.... don't stop, fuck.... me, harder.... faster."
She managed to say between the moans. She began meeting me thrust for
thrust. I could feel my muscles start to tighten, the ringing in my ears, I
was trying to hold on and wait for her, and then I saw fireworks as I had
the most earth shaking orgasm, I could feel my juices gushing out of me. I
continued to shake as she followed me over the edge. I pulled back away
from her to replace my cock with my tongue. I started licking hoping to
take her for another ride thru the sky, as I began to thrust my tongue in
the same way as I had the rubber cock. She placed a hand on the back of my
head, and gripped the sheets with the other to hold on for dear life as I
felt her body begin to tense up again.

	"Ohhhhh, DJ, Ohhhhhhh, gawwd..." Her body began convulsing, in
orgasm.

		* * * * * *

	"I love you." All I could manage was a whisper.

	"I love you too."

	"Baby, do you think your mom heard us?" I asked

	"I think the neighbors heard us." She said as she giggled.

	"Baby that's not funny, how am I supposed to face your mother at
the dinner table tonight?"

	"The best way you can, at least she knows that you know how to
pleasure her daughter."

	"You really think this is funny don't you."

	"My mom is much more liberal than you think, for Christ sake I grew
up with three older brothers, where do you think I learned to look at the
girls?" she said as she brushed a lock of hair off my forehead. "My mom
just wants us to be happy, and if being with girls makes me happy then
that's okay with her."

	"Don't go saying girls, just me, one. You are so lucky to have a
mom like that. I wish mine could have been more understanding."

	"Maybe one day she will come around. But in the meantime you have
my mom and me. And we love you. And I love you so very much. Please don't
ever forget that."

	"I love you too, Stephanie. And if it doesn't offend you I need to
try to get some sleep now, okay."

	"Yes, my love, that's okay." She said as she leaned into give me a
kiss. "I am going to lay here and watch you. Sleep well."

	"I will now that I am in your arms." I laid there and drifted off
to sleep very content.

	* * * * * * *


	"Baby, wake up, its time to get up. DJ, sweetie..." I could hear
her saying but I was having a hard time opening my eyes. All I could do was
grunt. I kept playing the last two days over and over in my head. "DJ, if
you don't get up right now you are going to offend my mother by missing
dinner, and she is not so forgiving since she made it just for you. And I
might be inclined to keep dessert away from you later." That made me open
my eyes.

	"Stephanie you have to be so hard on me, I drove over 600 miles to
get here and you are going to hold out on me." I said as I tried to pull
her into bed with me, but she was having none of it.

	"DJ, get up now, you had better be downstairs in ten minutes."

	"That doesn't give me time for a shower, and as much as I love the
smell of us I don't think your family would like it. So give me fifteen and
I will be ready."

	"Fifteen, and that is it, I won't be responsible for my mothers
actions if you take longer." I was ready in ten but I took some time to
look in the mirror at myself. I considered myself to be one lucky
woman. Not only did I have the love of a great woman, but also her family
accepted us for who we were. This was going to be the first Christmas that
I wasn't at home. I wasn't at home because my family didn't want me to be
there.  I was so lost in thought that I barely heard my cell phone ring. It
was my Mom.

	"Hello."

	"Hello, DJ, baby is that you?" It was my dads voice on the phone.

	"Yes, Daddy it's me."

	"Baby, honey, I have some bad news. You need to come home."

	"Why Dad, what's happened?" I couldn't contain my fears any longer.

	"DJ, it's your mother, she was in a car accident this morning, and
they don't give her much time, she has asked for you."

	"Why should I come Dad, she told me that I wasn't welcome."

	"She has been torn up ever since you left, but she didn't know how
to call you, and she wouldn't let your sister or I call you, please come
home." I could tell my dad needed me there, and I needed to be there for
him.

	"Okay daddy, I will come." I guess Stephanie had unpacked while I
was sleeping. By the time I was done putting my stuff back in my bag, I was
crying uncontrollably. I took off at a run down the stairs calling out for
Stephanie.

	"Stephanie, baby come quick." I was tying my shoe when she came in
the room with her family in tow.

	"Baby what's wrong, where are you going?"

	"I have to go home."

	"Back to campus, why?"

	"No sweetie to California, there's been an accident and they don't
know if my mom will survive and my Dad asked me to come. I need to be there
for him."

	"Well hold on I am coming with you, you don't need to be by
yourself."

	"No Stephanie, you need to stay here." I tried to tell her.

	"No way am I letting you go by yourself, Mom can you call the
airport and get two tickets, and keep her here while I get my stuff." She
said as she took off running up the stairs.

	"Ms. Jennings, I am sorry, I wish she'd stay here, it's going to be
no fun."

	"Well, DJ, you know my daughter is not going to let you be by
yourself when you really do need someone with you."

	"I know, but I don't want to ruin her holidays."

	"You will ruin her holidays if she is not with you, that girl talks
about you nonstop, every other word that comes out of her mouth is about
you. So stop trying to fight it." With that Stephanie came running down the
stairs.

	"Mom, we will call you when we get there, I love you, tell Dad I
love him too."

	* * * * * * *

	Stephanie tried to be as comforting as she could be on the
trip. She just sat there while I stared out the window, and held my hand,
held me if I started to cry and whispered comforting words when needed. The
trip only lasted three hours but it was a long three hours. Stephanie's mom
said that there would be a car waiting for us when we got there, and since
we only had our carry on baggage, we got out of the airport fairly quickly
and were on our way to the hospital. On the way up the elevator I pulled
Stephanie close to me.

	"Baby thank you for coming with me, thank you." I said as I started
crying into her shoulder.

	"Sweetie, there's no need to thank me. I wouldn't be anywhere
else. I love you."

	"I love you." Just as the doors opened she gave me a quick kiss and
even through the emotional wringer that I was going through I could feel
the passion build between us. She hugged me tighter for a second giving me
the encouragement she knew I needed. When we walked into the waiting room,
I could see my dad with his head hung low, my sister standing by the window
staring out. Jennifer was the first one to notice us and she came running
up to me. She had made enough noise that dad looked up.

	"Dad, how is she?" I asked squeezing Stephanie's hand. I needed her
to know that now more than ever I needed her with me.

	"She is going in and out of consciousness. She has asked for you a
couple times, I believe that she is out right now. But go on in and talk to
her, maybe she will hear you."  I turned to Stephanie and she nodded, that
silent language thing was working. She knew that I needed to go in by
myself, that it wouldn't be good for her to come with me. I squeezed her
hand before I left to walk down the hallway. Let's just say that I was not
prepared for what I saw when I walked in the room. I glanced from machine
to machine that they were using to help keep her alive.

	"Mom, can you hear me, I'm here now." I walked closer to the edge
of the bed to reach out to touch her hand. But nothing happened, she still
just lay there motionless. The nurse that was standing in the room told me
to continue to talk to her that she may still be able to hear me. So I
started telling her about school, all the homework and the people that I
had meet. I didn't mention Stephanie because if she could hear me I didn't
want to upset her and possibly cause her any distress. If she made it
through this, then I would tell her about Stephanie and I. I sat there for
a few more minutes just watching for any signs of movement. There was none.

	I walked back to the waiting room and Stephanie came to meet me. I
guess the look on my face said everything because she just pulled me into a
hug and held me tight.

	"Just let it out baby, I've got you." She whispered in my ear.

	"Baby she looks so frail, so lifeless." Over her shoulder I saw my
dad watching us close. I asked Stephanie, "What did my dad have to say
after I left? Did he ask you about us?"

	"Yes, and he said he wanted the truth, so I told him the truth. I
told him that I love you more than words can express and that he might as
well get used to it because I am not going anywhere. He said he understood
and that he hopes that we can be happy once we get past all this. You know
there is a slight possibility that your mom will survive this."

	"Stephanie, I love you. And no you are not going anywhere because I
won't let you. But I do have an idea."

	"And just what is your idea?" She asked as we were still standing
there wrapped up I each other's arms.

	"My idea is that Jennifer take you to the house so that you can get
some sleep. It's been a long day."

 	"DJ, there is no way that I am going to leave you here
alone. Remember you are not alone anymore."

	"I wouldn't really be alone, dad is here. But I am glad that you
are staying here. I don't know what I would do without you."

	"Well baby girl, that is something that I hope you never have to
find out. Because that would mean that I would be without you and I can't
face that." She reached out to pull me in for a kiss. I loved the feeling
of our tongues playing, almost battling for control, which neither of us
would obtain. I simply just loved kissing this woman. We were abruptly
interrupted by Jennifer.

	"You two need to get a room."

	"Well, maybe we just will." I told her and smiled at
Stephanie. "Where's Dad?" I asked.

	"He went to get us all some coffee. He says that it's going to be a
long night. They will know in the morning if she is going to survive or
not."

	* * * * * * *

	We sat there in the waiting room, Stephanie by my side. I had my
arm around her and it had fallen asleep under the weight of her head, but I
left it there just because I couldn't disturb her sleeping. I just watched
her until I drifted off to sleep.

	"DJ," I heard my name being whispered, but it took me a few minutes
to figure out who said it.

	"Yeah," I said as I started rubbing my eyes.

	"Mom is awake and asking for you. You need to get in there."

	"Where's Stephanie?"

	"She is taking a walk, I will go find her, but you need to get in
there with Mom." Jennifer said.

	"Okay, I'm going. Hey, Jen, what am I supposed to say to her?"

	"Let her do the talking."

	"That is not the advice that I was looking for Jen."

	"That's all the advice that I have for you."

	"Go find Stephanie for me, I may need her when I come out." As I
walked into her room I heard dad telling her about Stephanie. Just as I
walked in Mom looked up and saw me.

	"Mom."

	"DJ, come over here and sit down."

	"How are you feeling, Mom?"

	"The doctors say I have a long road to recovery, but they say I am
going to survive. You know, I was surprised to hear that you were here, but
I am glad you came."

	"You are still my mother."

	"When I was laying there, all I could think about was I going to
get another chance with you," she reached out to take my hand, "I was wrong
to do that to you, I want to meet this Stephanie, Dad here tells me that
she is really something special and that she loves you."

	"I love her too Mom, she makes me happy."

	"Well how did you two meet?"

	"She is my roommate at the school."

	"Well, why don't you go get her, I want to meet her."

	"Okay, I'll be back." I walked out of the room and started walking
to the waiting room. Stephanie was sitting there waiting for me. "Baby, she
wants to meet you," I said as I kneeled down in front of her and took her
hands, "She says that she wants to meet you, dad told her about us. She
says that she was wrong for what she did."

	"Sweetie that's great." She said as she leaned into kiss me. "Let's
go." We walked down the hall hand in hand.


juli

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