Date: Mon, 4 Feb 2008 23:39:54 -0500 From: Latisha Smith Subject: the good, the bad and the queen chapter 5 Warning: This story contains may contain (I haven't decided yet) sexual relationships between women. If it is illegal in your country to be subjected to this kind of material or sexual relationships between women offend you leave now. This story is property of the author permission from the author must be given for reproduction of this story. Big Thanks to my new editor Steph, the ultimate spell check. My mom's presence was the first thing I noticed when I got home. Immediately, upon crossing the threshold, my nostrils were assaulted with the delicious scent of stew peas and rice (my favorite) and I could hear the faint sounds of Dr. Phil coming from the living room. I guess my mom came home early and decided to cook. Good, before my run with Alex I was too nervous to eat, and now I felt like I was about to collapse. I Kicked off my shoes and followed my nose to the kitchen. My mom was sitting at the kitchen table, reading the daily paper and occasionally sipping tea. I shared out a large portion of food, pulled out a chair and sat down across from her. She lazily looked up when she saw me sit, only to returning to her paper after making eye contact, her way of saying hi. I ate and she read, the turning of the page and the occasional clink of the fork against the plate was the only noise that was heard. Abruptly my mom broke the peaceful silence. "Zari's out with that John boy." She stated. It took me a while to realize she was talking because well, I was thinking about Alex. "Oh.yea she told you?" I know Zari and mom were close but I didn't think she would tell mom about a guy that she literally just met. "I met him after you left, he seems nice, charming and funny." Mom smiled slightly. It was like I entered the twilight zone. I was having a normal conversation with my mom, about my sisters charmingly, funny boyfriend. The conversations that my mom and I have, usually consist of hi, bye and it's your day to do the dishes. I was getting used to the sudden mother daughter bonding moment when my mom asked, "When will I meet your boyfriend?" All the blood rushed to my face, and I actually felt a little dizzy. Nothing made sense, my mom who I really don't talk to is asking me about my non-existent boyfriend, who will forever be non-existent because.I'm. "I know we're not exactly close," most likely the biggest understatement in the history of understatements, "but.if you need to, you can talk to-" "Okay, I have to go do some homework so..." I quickly stood up putting an end to whatever moment we had. "Okay, it's your day to do the dishes." Mom said coolly returning to her paper, unaffected and unfazed everything was back to normal. "We had to come back because my mom was coming home early and I knew she would freak if I came home late, so it was his idea to just meet her then and there and sort of get permission to go stay out even later." Zari was sitting cross legged in the centre of my bed with a big sickening smile on her face. "Wow isn't he clever." "Oh my god! That's totally what I said to him." She exclaimed, totally missing the sarcasm in my voice. She got back from her date with Johnny boy about an hour ago, and after briefly conversing with mom she came straight my room and hasn't left. "So, you sure all you guys did was make out, I mean you left the house after six and it's like 10 something. A lot can happen in four hours." Zari rolled her eyes. "You know me better than anyone else, obviously what I say happened is the honest to God truth." I was across the room, sitting on top of my dresser. Zari raised an eyebrow as she studied my face, something she does often when she has some sort of revelation or something. I still felt unsettled from the "moment" I had with mom, so I looked down and away from her gaze. "That's the difference between me and you. I tell you everything, but you hide so much Kira, I don't think you even know who you really are," Her gaze was burning my skin but I refused to look up. "Who even knows who they really are? It takes lifetimes to figure yourself out." "I know who I am, and trust me being honest with yourself makes the process even easier." I hopped off the dresser and decided I might need to go for another run. Living in this house was getting a bit too bizarre. "Yeah well, watching one episode of Dr. Phil doesn't mean you can start analyzing random people." I said as I left my room. "You're not a random person you retard, you're my sister." She shouted to my back. part 2 The days grew shorter and colder and being around Alex was intoxicating. In her presence I felt like I was having some kind of psychedelic experience. Colours seemed brighter, air seemed crisper, life was better. The more time I spent with her, the more I let go and slowly began to allow my self to fall for her. However, I was still very careful, I was constantly censoring myself and making sure that no amount of my true feelings ever leaked out. "So we basically just moved here and yea." It was now October. Alex and I were at her house, or rather outside it, sitting on the steps leading to her front door. "I guess I don't have to ask you if you like it here." "Actually you would be surprised," She hugged her knees to her chest. "I was going through some stuff at my old school.I was definitely more. stressed. Here I can focus on.important stuff." She sighed softly, her voice filled with remorse. "You okay?" "Yea," she looked over at me and smiled, sadly. "You wanna come inside, it's kinda cold." As if on cue, a gust of icy wind blew by. "Yea." I wasn't really cold. Alex's house was filled with unpacked boxes. "As you can see, we're not finished unpacking yet." Alex said as she led me up a winding staircase. The floors were black marble and as we passed the kitchen I saw granite counter tops, basically my mom's dream house.minus all the boxes. "Nice floors," "Thanks, come, my room is this way." My stomach did a little flip, I tried to calm my nerves because now was not a good time to have a heart attack over nothing, I mean it's just a room. Alex's room had no boxes, and no bed. There was a bed actually, it was just a mattress on the floor, but it was neat. The long side of it touched the wall, and opposite the bed was a dresser that had nothing on it. Beside the dresser was a large full sized mirror. The baby blue walls were almost bare except for a few framed photographs above the bed. Between the bed and the dresser was a lap top propped up on a tiny desk, the desk was cluttered with papers and pictures. "Yeah," Alex noticed how surprised I looked, "I kind of need to buy furniture or something, I'm so used to living in a dorm. When I first moved back home this room was a gym I had to sleep in the guest room." "Oh I didn't know the academia was a boarding school." She walked over to the lime green chair that was stationed in front of the computer desk. I took a few steps behind me and sat down on the bed. "Well, there are some students who live at home and commute but when I first got accepted I was in grade 7 and we lived two hours outside the city so I thought it was a better idea to live there." "That must have been fun, no parents, totally freedom but ew you were surrounded by teachers all the time." "Yea the teacher thing sucked," Jackie smiled at the slight frown on my face, "but it was cool my roommate Wends was my best friend and after school our curfew was like 12 but we knew how to sneak in and out so it wasn't a big deal." "Cool, who's Wends" I looked behind me at the pictures on the wall. "The blonde one, with the blue streak," Wends was easy to spot she was in all the pictures laughing; It seemed that no one was aware that the pictures were being taken. In the photos everyone was focused on something other than the camera. It was just her friends genuinely having a good time. "She's pretty." I said automatically, she was. Her long wavy hair was Platinum blonde, blonder than Alex's, and she had short bangs that framed her face. "Yea, she is," Alex got up and moved beside me, "and that's Anna." She said pointing to a red head in a picture of about 6 all lounging around in a living room. Anna was partly lying on a couch and on Adrian, her eyes were closed. The three of us were really close." "So what happened?" Alex turned away from the picture and looked at me before quickly looking back at the picture. "I left and we drifted apart I guess." It took her a while to answer. I intently studied the side of her face. "Hmm, well you should call them, I mean it sounds like you miss them a lot." Alex turned to me with big sad eyes. I couldn't guess the millions of things that were possibly going through her head at that moment but oh my god I knew what was going through mine. It took all my will power not to move an inch, maybe two and eliminate the space between- but I couldn't so instead I got up quickly and walked over to the door. "I should probably get going.now." My heart pounded loudly in chest, I was sure she could probably hear it. "Why are you blushing?" Oh god! I'm blushing I didn't even realize. My cheeks got redder as I explained. "My face just does that sometimes." I tried to smile sheepishly and to my relief Alex laughed. "Whatever you say, I'll walk you out." And that's when we heard the front door open. "Alexia honey, we're home." A female voice called from downstairs, Alex's mom I'm guessing. "And we've got groceries!" exclaimed a very different female voice. Alex never told me she had a sister. I was about to inquire when Alex gave me a knowing glance and put her finger to her lips. "I'll be right back," She whispered, "stay here." She left the room probably to go tell her mom she had a guest. Patiently I waited as I strained to here the mumbled voices coming from the kitchen. In reality I was only waiting for two minutes but it felt like an hour. I was just about to make an excuse and go downstairs when I heard footsteps making their way up the stairs. Alex was back. "Okay do you have everything? Let's go?" she looked a bit flushed as she led me down the stairs to the kitchen. Alex's mom was waiting for me in the kitchen while another was unpacking groceries. "Uh hi, Miss. uh..." "Miss Kay," Alex's mom interjected, Miss Kay looked like a teenager trying to play grown up. She had the same playful eyes like Alex, in fact they looked very much alike, but Alex's features were sharper. "And that's Debbie, my cousin." Debbie also looked like a grown up teenager but she looked nothing like Alex and her mom. Debbie had brown hair, friendly brown eyes and olive skin the complete opposite (of or from) the Kays. I smiled politely. "Hi Debbie." "Hi," Debbie smiled back, "you've been quiet an influence in Alexia's life I hear. Somehow you've got her training again." "uh." I wasn't really sure if I was being asked a question or not. Alex frowned. "She means thanks for getting Alex active again, for a while she was all mopey and depressed but then she met you and voila she's almost back to the way she was." Miss Kay smiled warmly at me. I smiled back. "Yes yes, it's great to have her out of the house, you should take her out on weekends too we wouldn't mind really." "Uh." I turned to Alex, she was turning a familiar shade that I knew all too well. "OK. Well Kira has to go." She pulled on my arm as she began walking to the door. "Bye Miss Kay, Bye Debbie" I waved as Alex pulled me away. "Bye Kira." Debbie and her mom chanted. "Don't forget you can come on the weekends and take her out any time, she's always free." Debbie yelled and Alex practically pushed me out the front door. ************************************************************ Thanks for reading my story everyone if you would like automatic updates when I write a new chapter join my new yahoo group: http://groups.yahoo.com/group/eatuspleatus_stories/ and this story is also available on gay authors: http://www.gayauthors.org/efiction/viewstory.php?sid=452 Once again thanks for reading guys and thanks Steph.