Date: Wed, 6 Feb 2008 22:21:17 +1200 From: Mistique Keyz Subject: Mind, Body, Heart And Soul This story is fiction. This is my first romance story ever written. It does not have really all that much erotica, but as I have stated, it is a romance story, it's also a story between two female friends. Please, if you have any comments, whether critical or not, do not hesitate to contact me via email at nzwrita@hotmail.com MIND, BODY, HEART AND SOUL I hated window-shopping but yet here I was staring thru the window at another thing I knew I would not buy. I was trying to imagine myself dressed in the expensive baby blue lingerie looking back at me wondering what I would look like, although in all honesty I knew it would not be a pretty look. For the last 10 years of my life I have been suffering with severe eczema, where at one stage my body was covered from top to bottom. Its not so bad now, it only arises when I'm either stressed or the weather is too hot for me, nevertheless, I have been left with rather a few scars around my body which has made me very self conscious. I've never dated because of the scars; I've never let anyone love me, or my body. Although I have loved, I've never let it eventuate into anything else, majority of the time because of my scars. Although, I must admit, with Simone, anything could have happened. "I bet you'd look gorgeous in that Allie." I glance down to see if the face matches the voice, and there before me is the most beautiful face I have ever seen smiling up at me. "Simone!!!! What the hell are you doing in town? And whatever, we both know that is not the truth." I say as I reach over and give her a hug and a kiss on the cheek as friends do that have not seen each other for a long time. I heard her giggle and then I felt the intensity of her eyes looking into mine. "One day I am going to prove you wrong on that statement girl." "Mum can I have some money please?" I look down with a big smile as I realised that Simone's seven-year-old daughter Sion (pronounced Zion) was walking up to us. "Oh my gosh Sion, hello, wow you have grown!" She stares back and replies with a hello. I start to giggle, as this is so unlike the little girl I had grown to love as my own niece. "Doesn't Auntie Allie get a big hug any more?" I asked as I tried to pull a 'sad face'. I could see she was thinking about it for a few seconds and then a smile suddenly appears on her face as she walks into my arms. "I had you didn't I Auntie Allie?" She laughed. I had to laugh finally realising she was having me on, making me think she had forgotten me. "You sure did honey, wow, I can't believe how much you have grown. You're nearly as tall as Bianca." I said tickling her, laughing as I watching her trying to squirm away. "Ummm...sorry to interrupt you two down there, but Allie, there is someone I would like you to meet." I look up wondering who it could be and there to the side of Simone, with her arm around Simone's waist was a striking brunette smiling down at me. I stared and gazed at the two of them for what seemed like forever until a voice snapped me back into reality. "Allie, I would like you to meet my partner Rebbekah." At hearing the word "partner" I stood up and looked into Simone's piercing eyes until she quickly dropped them to look down to the pavement. "Oh...Hiya Rebbekah, glad to meet you." I said hopefully showing the best fake smile ever. "Hiya Allie, glad to meet you." She replied whilst extending her hand out to me. I take her hand and give it a shake. I needed to get away, this shock was getting to me. "You also." I smiled trying to not show any feelings. "Well you lot, I'm so glad to have seen you, but I need to get back to work, I'm already late as it is." I took out a pen and paper and scribbled down my number and address then gave it to Simone. "Next time you're in town, give me a ring and we can all go out to dinner. Bianca is going to be so gutted when I tell her I saw yous today." Looking at me carefully, I noticed Simone was trying to study my face as if she were looking for something. "Sure thing hon." She said giving me a hug. "Hopefully that time will not be too far away." I bent down and gave Sion a hug and a kiss on the cheek and told her to be good for her mama then stood and wished them well before I turned and left. I could feel Simone's eyes boring into my back as I walked away from them with tears in my eyes. I had moved to the city over a year ago, part of the reason was so I could get away from Simone. We had worked together for two years and for the majority of those two years I was in love with her. I knew nothing would eventuate as at the time I thought she was straight, heck at the time I didn't even know if i were straight, lesbian or both. Her fiancé had died in a plane crash a month before Sion was born. After his death, she just basically focussed on raising Sion and on work. I admired her for her strength to carry on and from that grew my love for her. We always got on, she has a real good sense of humour, shes intelligent, I never got bored of our many conversations we had engaged in and honestly, with her long black wavy hair, and her beautiful brown eyes that can put a smile on anyone's face, she was drop dead gorgeous. We were the best of friends, we treated each other's kids as if they were our own, which led to our kids having a sister-sister relationship. (By the way, Bianca is not biologically mine, she belongs to a friend, but I have raised her as my own since she was born.) I couldn't believe I had caught up with Allie again, it had been a year too long. It broke my heart when she had finally decided to leave our hometown, especially after she left she never kept in contact with me. Everyday for six months I had thought about her, wondering what she was doing, if she was ever coming back, and worse, if she had a partner and had found love. After a while I realised I had to get her out of my system, so for the first time since Allie had left I had decided to go out on the town to have some drinks and hopefully meet someone that could make me forget about Allie. That was when I met Rebbekah. We were sitting beside each other at the bar when she turned around to me and said hello. From that moment on we practically became inseparable. From the start I had liked Rebbekah, we would talk for hours filled with laughs, we had so much in common that my liking her eventually grew into love. Still, Allie was never far out of my thoughts. Allie and I never had a sexual relationship, but there were always fireworks going off between us. At the time I was still getting over the loss of John and she knew that and helped me. She played a major part in helping me recover but I don't think she realised that. Everyday I would go to work happy, knowing I would be seeing her. We would go out dancing, enjoying each others company, flirting with the guys, but always going home alone. Then when she told me she was moving away, she started to distance herself away from me and I could feel it. My world started to crumble all the way around me. A week after Allie had seen Simone she was sitting at home talking on the phone to her daughter Bianca as she was on holiday with Allies mother for three weeks until school started. After they had finished speaking Allie decided to cook her some dinner. As she was preparing her salad the phone started to ring, thinking it was Bianca again she dashed to the phone before it rang off. "Baby, did you forget something?" Allie asked through the phone a tad out of breath. "Hmmm... is that how you say hello to everyone, calling them baby in that husky voice of yours?" Simone giggled. Allie could feel the red creeping up to cover her tanned face, taking a breath she realised it wasn't Bianca but Simone. "Oh, only if they deserved to be called baby......baby." Allie could just imagine Simone going red now as she knew she would. "So how's things Simone?" "They're ok Allie, were you just speaking to B?" "Yes, I thought when I heard the phone ringing that she had forgot to mention something, so thought it was her." "Oh right, so how come you were out of breath then? Do you have someone there with you?" "Ah no, I was in the kitchen and had to run to the phone." Allie didn't quite know if she had detected a slight bit of jealousy in Simones voice when she had asked about someone being here. Allie thought she was probably wrong, knowing now that Simone was with Rebbekah she had no reason to be jealous of Allie. "Oh ok, look I just wanted to say how I was glad to meet up with you last week and if you were doing anything tonight? "Tonight? Are you in town?" "If you say yes to coming to dinner with me, then yes I will be." "Ermmm..." Allie felt a bit unsure of herself, wondering what Simone had in mind. "Allie? Allie? Are you still there? Are you free for dinner tonight or not?" Simone was starting to feel hesitant, she didn't want to force Allie into anything, but then she knew that they needed to talk and it was now or never. "Yes, I'm still here." "Well?" "Yes ok, but how about we just stay here for dinner, I've already started cooking." "Yes ok, that sounds great, so shall i see you in an hour?" "Fine. Oh by the way, are Rebbekah and Sion also coming?" "No Allie, it is just going to be you and I." Simone said in a tone that left Allie wanting to ask more questions. "Ahh ok then, see you in a hour, bye." After hanging up the phone Allie's stomach started to feel nauseated as she was fretting about what tonight may bring. She could tell about how Simone's voice was that something big was going to happen tonight, and Allie wasn't sure she would be able to handle it. After taking a couple of deep breathes she decided to go and finish dinner. Simone could tell Allie felt a bit apprehensive about tonight but this needed to be done. After seeing Allie last week, Simone had spent days thinking over the 'what ifs' and also the present. She knew in order for her to be truly happy there were two things she needed to do. Her heart had felt sorry for Rebbekah when she had to break it off with her. She knew before she could contemplate any future with Allie that she had to let Rebbekah go. What suprised Simone though was when Rebbekah understood and said she could always feel that Simone never gave her whole heart to her, that there was always a part missing and after meeting Allie and watching Allie and Simone looking at each other, Rebbekah had seen whom that missing part of Simone belonged to. They parted on happy terms and Rebbekah had wished Simone luck. And now, well she had just completed step one of the second part that she needed to do. With twenty minutes to spare Allie ran into her room grabbing her out some clothes and headed for the shower. She quickly stripped and jumped in letting the hot water run down over her body. She got some bath soap and then gently started to massage it into her body, slowly massaging her 36c breasts, flicking her already hardened nipples and letting out a groan. Then slowly letting one hand slide down to her mound lathing up the soap on her triangle of hair just above her slit. Finally she allowed her hand to slide south some more to her pussy. All she could think about while doing this was Simone, for years she had brought herself to orgasms with a picture of Simone in her mind. She slowly let her fingers slide up and down her slit whilst the other hand was still caressing her breasts. "Oh god I need to stop this or I won't be ready when Simone arrives." With a moan and a quick squeeze of her now throbbing clit Allie removed her hand from her breasts and mons and quickly washed the rest of her body then got out to dry herself and get dressed. She put her new baby blue silk panties on and then the matching bra and looked at herself in the mirror. Well she thought, I know I'm not model material but I suppose this would do. After admiring herself in the mirror she then grabbed her skirt that flared down to just above her knees and topped it off with a tight fitting t-shirt that outlined her breasts. Feeling happy about how she looked she then went over to her dresser and quickly combed her hair. Just as she was putting the brush down the doorbell rang. Walking quickly to the door she took a deep breath and opened up. Simone gasped. She couldn't believe her eyes, although Allie was only dressed casually, she looked fantastic. Smiling, she stepped in and gave Allie a peck on the cheek. "Well, don't you look gorgeous." She said to Allie before walking all the way in. Watching Simone walk past her Allie looked down at Simone's ass. "I could say the same about you too Simone." She giggled. Simone turned around just as Allie was lifting her gaze to look into her eyes. They stared at each other for what felt like an eternity. "So where's Rebbekah then?" "Um, I don't know, we parted last week." "Oh." Without showing her smile Allie turned and walked into the kitchen. "Make yourself at home, take a seat, turn some music on or whatever Simone, I'll just get our dinner out of the oven." Unbeknownst to Allie she didn't realize that Simone had followed her into the kitchen and was looking at her. "Oh...Allie? Is that all you have to say? Oh?" Taking a deep breath, Allie turned around and looked at Simone. "I'm sorry Simone, are you ok? Do you need to talk about it?" Getting a bit annoyed, Simone had expected to see at least a smile on Allies face or even in her eyes when she had told her about her and Rebbekah, but there was zilch, nothing. Maybe, Simone thought to herself, she had gotten this all wrong. Maybe Allie didn't have feelings for her, maybe this love was all one sided. She started to lower her eyes to the ground trying to hide the tears that were waiting to spill out. Allie saw this and went over to her friend and hugged her. "Look maybe you two can figure this out and patch things up." As much as it hurt Allie to say it, she just couldn't stand here and watch her friend, her love, cry. "There is nothing to figure out!" Simone growled. "Look hon, you can always sort thru things and figure them out, you both looked happy last week when I saw yous." Feeling rather annoyed at herself for her tears and at Allie for not getting what she was trying to say, Simone forced herself out of Allies arms. "Just forget about it for now, I'll go and put some music on and wait for you to serve dinner." Wondering what had gotten into Simone Allie slowly turned around with a frown and started to serve dinner. Forty-five minutes later, after they had eaten dinner in silence, they both grabbed their wines and settled on the sofa in the lounge. Watching Simone staring down at her glass Allie had had enough of the quiet. "Well Simone, are you going to talk or what? Why did you want to have dinner? There must have been a reason?" Still Simone never lifted her face or even answered her questions. "Geeze look Simone, if you want to talk about you and Rebbekah, I'm here. I will help you in any way possible surely you know that? Just talk to me, I can't stand all this quietness." Starting to feel really annoyed, Allie stood and went outside on the balcony. She hated to see Simone like this, hated to see her hurt. Trying to hide her tears Allie went over to the far end of the balcony and lit a cigarette. It was breaking her heart watching Simone go through whatever feelings she seems to be feeling. Taking a couple more puffs of her cigarette Allie stubbed it out and started to walk back inside. She nearly knocked into Simone as she was walking in through the door. Still looking at the ground Simone said, "I'm sorry Allie, I should never have come here. I thought maybe...never mind, I just should never have come." With that she turned around and started to walk away. "Oh no you don't Simone." Allie said as she grabbed Simone's wrist and spun her back around. She tilted up Simone's face with her other hand and looked into her beautiful eyes that were now shimmering with tears. She slowly bent her face down and kissed Simone tenderly on the lips. Bringing her head back she kept looking into Simone's eyes. Seeing desire she bent down again and this time wrapped her arms around Simone's waist. Simone opened her mouth and Allie pushed her tongue in to meet Simone's. Feeling Simone pulling Allies head down Allie then picked Simone up and carried her to the sofa whilst they were still kissing. Slowly easing themselves on the sofa with Simone straddling her Allie started to kiss Simone's tears away, then stopped. "Simone baby, would you please tell me what is going on with you. I can't stand watching you go through all this pain, it's tearing my heart into pieces." Glancing up to look at Allie, Simone could see the pain in her eyes. She wrapped her arms around Allies waist and snuggled in against her chest. "I'm sorry Allie, before I came here I was so sure of myself but when I told you about Rebbekah and I... and I didn't see any hint of you being happy with what had happened, I thought I was wrong. I thought that all these feelings that I have been feeling since we met were one sided. I thought that I must have just been wishing that you loved me, that you wanted me. Oh please Allie, please tell me I'm wrong, I don't know what I would do with myself if you never loved me, if you never wanted to be with me like I want to be with you, mind, body and soul. I love you so much that..." Before she could finish her sentence Allie had turned Simone's face up to her and kissed her with all the passion and all the love she possessed for this beautiful woman sitting on her lap. Ten minutes later Allie looked down at Simone. "Simone, you are part of the reason I had to leave home. I couldn't stand being so close to you everyday, loving you everyday with my eyes when I knew I just could not have you. It was tearing me up, so I had to get away from you. I've wanted to be part of your mind, your body, your heart and your soul for so very long. I had gotten use to not being able to have you that when you told me about you and Rebbekah I just naturally thought that you both would probably get back together. Although I do have to admit, I felt like a big load had been lifted from my heart when I heard that." Hearing the words float out of Allies mouth made Simone start to cry some more. Then she got angry and slapped Allie on the arm. "Ow what was that for?" "Why the hell didn't you say something, anything instead of 'Oh'?? I've been torturing myself since then thinking I was wrong about everything, damn you!!" Simone got off Allie, tears still glistening down her now red cheeks and walked over beside the mantle. Feeling shocked at the outburst, Allie just looked at Simone for a second then got up and followed her love, wrapping her arms around Simone's waist. "Simone, try to understand from my point of view please. When we were friends, I loved you, but you were straight and I was confused. I've never loved anyone like how I love you. For this last year I have been trying to forget you, B and I even had arguments because I would not let her get in touch with you or Sion. I needed to get you out of my heart and I thought I was doing a good job of it." Taking a deep breath Allie knew she had to go on. "Then when we met last week and you introduced me to Rebbekah, well, I knew nothing had changed, because in that one second my heart scattered into a million pieces knowing she was by your side, another woman that wasn't me. But then I thought, that for you to be with Rebbekah, you must truly love her and I have been trying to accept that until you rang today. Honestly I was unsure to accept your invitation because I thought my heart would keep breaking knowing how I couldn't have you, but I wanted...no, I needed to see you again, even if it were to say goodbye for ever." Turning Simone around, Allie put both of her hands upon Simone's cheeks. "When you told me you both had broken up I thought God was looking down on me giving me a second chance, but when you started to cry my heart sank. I naturally assumed you came here for comfort and a shoulder to cry on and that you were devastated about the break up." "Damn you Allie Campbell!" Simone yelled at her. "Why the hell didn't you tell me all this before you left? When you told me you were leaving my world went black, the only shed of light in it was Sion. Why did you put us through all that? I thought I had done something wrong, especially when you started to distance yourself from me and then when you finally left no goodbyes, no nothing. For months I waited, I even went to see your mother but she told me that you did not want me to know where you were." Banging on Allies chest with her arms Simone screamed at her. "That hurt me so bad I cried for days. How could you? How?" Watching Simone crumble to the ground, Allie was shocked. She never knew Simone had all this pain within her. Bending down to pick Simone up, Allie took her to the sofa where they both laid down facing each other. Seeing the hurt in each other's eyes, hurt that should never have been. "Baby, if I had told you of my feelings what would you have done?" Allie asked "I would of jumped for joy and loved you." "Would you have baby? Really? Tell me, how long did it take for you and Rebbekah to get together?" "What has that got to do with anything?" "Baby, just answer my question please." "Ok, ok. About seven months after you left." "So, tell me why did you get with her?" Looking at Allie with a bit of a frown, Simone had to admit she was wondering where this conversation was leading. "Because, by the time I realized that I loved you, that I loved you more then just how friends should, it was too late and then one day I finally thought that for me to get over you I had to find someone else." "So, between the time you had realized how you loved me and the time you got with Rebbekah, you had already been processing in your mind the joys, the love, the sex of what another woman could give you?" Nodding her head to Allies question, everything started falling into place. "Ok Simone so if I had told you how I felt before I left, do you think honestly that you would of jumped for joy and accepted me?" "Ok.... I admit, maybe I wouldn't have, but in due time I would of. Why did you not give me that chance?" "Because, I was scared. If you did not accept how I loved you, we would of definitely lost our friendship, even though, no thanks to me, we kind of did that." "Well" Said Simone as she started to lift herself up to lie above Allie. "If you let me Miss Allie Campbell" She started to say as she was dropping kisses lovingly around Allies face. "I will love you, cherish you with all of my heart, my body, my mind and my soul. I will never ever stop loving you as long as you promise to never ever stop loving me." As she finished she started kissing down Allies neck as her hands were feeling their way up and down Allies bare thighs. "Oh god baby, I will love you for eternity." Allie moaned as she was rubbing Simone's ass, pushing her into her pussy. "Allie, please make love to me." Simone asked as she was making her way down to Allies covered breast until she felt Allie tense. "Simone.... ummmm" Simone put her fingers to Allies lips and then looked up at her, making sure to look into Allies deep brown eyes. "My darling, my love. I know that you are shy and self-conscious because of your scars, but please, they are apart of you, I don't care what they look like. Like I said, I want all that is your body just as much as I want all that is your heart. I will continue to want them until after I die. Please don't turn this all away because of what is and always will be apart of you. Make love to me my love, please." Allie could feel the tears in her eyes as she reached down to pull Simone up to kiss her on those luscious lips of hers. "I love you baby." "As my beating heart loves you."