Date: Sat, 03 Feb 2007 20:03:39 +0300 From: maria adams Subject: MY FIRST AND MY LAST **DISCLAIMER** This story is a work of fiction it does not resemble to the events that happened in my life or in anyone else if it does, you cannot sue me. E-mail me any comments good or bad any that you have for me. I would be most grateful. Thank you. This story contains adult material and may be unsuitable for anyone under the age of 18. It involves sexual and romantic acts between females; if this offends you, then do not read it or if it is illegal in your state / country to read it, please do not read on ;) MY FIRST AND MY LAST "Sometimes I feel like an asshole, damn why did I have to do it in the first place and then she started avoiding me and now I am angry for what, the avoidance or something else I myself don't know." I said to myself. At 2:30 pm, I went to the club and saw her sitting at the end table in the corner looking beautiful as ever. I went to her and sat opposite her. She had not slept the whole night, her eyes showed it. K -- Hi! Maria, I am sorry for everything I did not mean to, it just happened. M -- What do you mean it just happened? K -- Hear me out please! M -- Okay fine, but tell me did you tell Max about our meeting that night or before as you already knew that I like you from before. (She was quite and I asked her again). K -- Yes! I told him before our meeting. M -- How could you do this to me Kiara, you are every beat of my heart. How could you do this to me? K -- I am sorry Maria, but I did not do it purposely. M -- Then, how did it happen? K -- Well! We (she and Max) were just talking about love and suddenly the topic changed to lesbian and gay lovers. He asked if I knew anyone of that kind and your name just slipped out of my mouth. I did not mean too. M -- I hope you did not tell him anything more. K -- He forced me to tell him how I knew, and I told him everything. How you would look at me, hold my hands, care for me etc. M -- That's' it then yeah I will take your leave now. Bye. (I was too hurt to stay and listen to anything else, but she held my hand and pulled me back.) K -- No! Wait Maria there is still something more I want to say. M -- What? There is something more than this. K -- Please, listen. M -- Okay! K -- You know the night I came to your place. M -- Yeah! K -- It was all planned by Max. M -- What!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! K -- After I told him, you liked girls. He made up a plan that I come to your place yesterday night and find out if you really like girls i.e. especially me. M -- (Angrily) I am listening, then. K -- I was sure you loved me. M -- And I still do. K -- So when I left your place that night. I told him everything that how you had tried to kiss me. I am sorry; I was just playing a prank. M -- A prank you say, a bloody game for you. During that whole night, I was feeling guilty that I did something horrible to you and I would loose your friendship. I am angrier now because you left me hanging just coz you were playing a prank. Moreover, you are telling me it was just a game for you. Girl you do not know how much you have hurt me. K -- That is also, what I thought too, but... (She stopped). M -- But what? K -- He wants ... (Stopped again). M -- What does he want spill out girl; I am getting out of control. K -- He wants us to do it together while he watches us. M -- What!!!!!!!! (There was complete silence. The waiter came with the menu, we ordered. The food arrived we did not touch a bite. Paid the bill and left towards my car. Sat inside. Then she said,) K -- Can we go to the beach please; we need to sort this out. I do not want to loose you, please. (While tears rolled down her cheeks). (I wanted to say something, but I stopped, put the car in gear and headed for the beach). (Once there, parked the car, left our sandals in the car and headed for the beach. The beach was crowded so we walked to a quite place on the beach. As we reached there, I slapped her, I don't know what happened to me, I slapped my love, but what could have I done I was so angry.). K -- (She took my hands in her hands and said). Slap me more Maria beat me up; remove all your anger on me. I am sorry. That is why I was ignoring you I could not face you. I am sorry please forgive me. (I forgave her, as I still love her madly, deeply, fully.) (We hugged as she cried on my shoulder. We sat down and talked out the matter). M -- What next? Kiara, Max is an asshole, how could he even think like that, I swear I want to kick him hard. K -- I know girl he is an asshole and I had slapped him for saying that and said NO to him. Before you ask, he did not slap me back, but left. (I was scared now) M -- You don't think he will tell anyone. K -- I don't know girl, I am scared about that to. I will have to talk to him and straighten things out. I am sorry for what I did. I am sorry. I hurt you. I am sorry. (As she was speaking, I wiped her tears and said). M -- Its okay Kiara. I have forgiven you, as you were pressured to do it. M -- Um! Kiara! K -- Yes! M -- I am also sorry that I slapped you. K -- I deserve that! (We sat there on the beach for a long time, starring at the waves as the sun went down while we held each other hands). (We left in the evening and I dropped her at her place and came home). The week passed peacefully and we met each other anytime possible. After work one day, Kiara came up to me from behind, startled me, and told me that Max was sorry for what he had thought, and wanted to apologize to me. I said fine. I went with her to the car where Max was waiting for us. We talked about the issue, but he never brought up the issue that I like girls. At the end of the conversation he apologized to me. Everything was fine, but when Kiara left us alone (as she had to buy something from the grocery store) and I was leaving as she left. He held me back holding my hand hardly, hurting me. He came near me and whispered in my ears, "I am leaving you for now, as I don't want to ruin my relationship with Kiara but when I get a chance I am going to get you babe. Don't go telling Kiara about what I told you right now as I have to still take my revenge on her about the slap she gave me. As she must have told you about what had happened between us. By the way, girl be very careful as I am going to get you. What if my fantasy doesn't become true but you are there its enough." When he was saying that I was desperately waiting for Kiara to come out of the store so that he could leave me, but it was taking her forever from my side. I didn't know what to do I was scared. "I couldn't confide to anyone, as he would hurt Kiara so what would I do I am really scared." I thought all the way home. On that day at 12:00 am (midnight), Kiara came to my place, as she was worried because I was not picking up my phone, as I was alone at home, so she thought something might have happen to me. Seriously, I did not hear the phone ring at all, as I was so not in my senses. Just as she entered, she started scolding that why I was not picking up the phone. When she had gotten over with the scolding, I told her sorry about it and it was settled. She did not go back at her place, as it was already very late at night. Therefore, she stayed with me. It was just like those slumber parties we used to have when we were younger. I was overjoyed we went to my bedroom talked a little and went to sleep after switching off the light. I was not sure what to do I was feeling so hot though the room was cold due to the air condition. I was sweating as if I had just come after a long run. Every time she moved towards me, I would move away, I had moved until the edge; until I fell from the bed hurt myself on the head with a loud bang on the floor. I screamed out loudly, "OUCH!" She got up immediately and helped me with the swelling on my head by rubbing ice on the bump vigorously, though it hurt so much, she was telling me to relax all the time. When at last she stopped with the rubbing we went back to sleep that was around 03:00 am. This time she told me, "I am going to hug you while going to sleep so that I don't move a lot on the bed as you know my habit." I was in heaven when she said that, I was overjoyed, I was blushing so much that my cheeks had turned tomato red. She cuddled me in her arms and went to sleep. Though she was fast asleep within minutes, I was still awake feeling so happy that I cannot even describe it. After awhile I also went to sleep in her arms. In the morning when I woke up, she was awake and about to leave. She gave me a peck on my cheek and left. For a while I was still in bed daydreaming, then I got up had a bath, dressed and left for work without breakfast as I wasn't hungry. Days and nights passed casually and the warning from Max was long forgotten. I was happy that there were no problems now in my life. Life was going on smoothly, but less did I know what was going to happen next. Kiara, I and other friends planned to go for a party Saturday night. We were having fun it was fabulous dancing, chatting and all the other stuff. Damn the night had to be spoiled. While we were dancing, somebody pushed me, whoever that was. I fell down on the dance floor and got hurt on my head bleeding badly and unconscious. The next thing I know I am waking up in the hospital all bandaged around my forehead. When I woke up Kiara was by my side holding my hands as she had fallen asleep by my side on the chair. I didn't wake her up as I was busy looking at her, she looked so beautiful and innocent damn I love her. She woke up after a while and told me, "I brought you to the hospital and you have gotten five stitches on your head from where you were bleeding. The doctor will still do some more tests on you to check if there is no internal damage." That whole week I was in the hospital, Kiara came to see me twice a day. To chat, bring my favorite food, before she would leave, she would look around check if there were, no one around, when satisfied with her snooping she would kiss me gently. After a week, I was discharged. The doctor ordered me to take a lot of rest as my stitches were opened, but I was still sore and needed to give time to heal. During that whole time of healing Kiara took care of me, but I was so tired of resting that one day I told her, "Kiara, I am tired of resting I need to get out and as it is my head is fine." She agreed and told me, "Okay, Maria then it's settled on New Year's Eve we have a date as it is only two days away." On 31 Dec, she came to pick me up at 07:30 pm. We went for a short drive first as we chatted the whole way. Then, she took me to my favorite Chinese restaurant. We reached there at around 08:00 pm. It was full but she had booked a table for two. She had purposely book table no. 10 my lucky number. We ordered supper and ate while we went on chatting. There is just something about her, I never get tired talking to her even when we have nothing to say, we always find something to talk about even if it is silly. She paid the bill and we left the restaurant at around 09:30 pm, but all that time I never got the courage to tell her three simple words "I love you". The night was still young so we decided to go to the bowling alley. She won. We played bowling, pool and other mini games. It was fun. We left around 11:00 pm. She had planned everything. After that, we went to a club party where most of our friends were. Once we reached, wished our friends happy new year. Then we all went to burn the dance floor down. The music was cool; we danced, and went on dancing. When it reached 12:00 am, exactly we all exited the club to check out the fireworks. While everyone was exiting from the front door, she pulled me and took me out from the back door. My heart was beating faster I did not know what was going to happen next. She came closer to me, our bodies touching each other. She took my face in her hands and stared into my eyes deeply. The fireworks our cracking in the sky, but their sparks were felt inside me as she kissed me slowly and passionately. My hands automatically embraced her into a tight hug as I returned the kiss. The kiss was getting hotter by the second and I didn't know what to do about it, as I wasn't sure if she was ready or not. Therefore, I left the thought out and went on enjoying the kiss. I don't know how long we kissed, but I never wanted it to get over. After what felt like an eternity, we parted and caught our breath. She did not say nothing neither did I. We just stared into each other eyes. We went back inside the club. Had some water and went on dancing. We danced at all kinds of music slow, fast, rock, silly, funny etc the list goes on. All of us there were having so much fun that no one cared about the time. As the DJ announced that this would be the last song as it was already 03:45 am, all of were disappointed, but good times can't last forever. After the last song, we left the club and everyone headed their own ways. This time I drove the car, as I was heading to my place. She stopped me and asked if we can go to the beach and sit there alone for a while. I diverted the car to the beach, our favorite spot. Once at the beach, I parked her car. Left our sandals inside locked the car and went for a stroll on the sand. It was dark (except from the moonlight) quite and the cool breeze felt cool against my body. We found a nice spot to sit, sat there quietly looking at the waves pushing and pulling. After a few minutes of silence, I said it, "I love you Kiara." In addition, kissed her on the check. Suddenly, she started weeping. I thought I had made her feel bad so I told her, "I didn't mean to make you cry. I was just trying to express my feelings." She said, "It's not because of you I am crying, I love you too. Its' just that I found out Max is having an affair with someone else and when I tried to talk about it he got angry and now its over between us. I am not sad that our relationship is over, but what he said made feel as if I was just a slut for him, though I loved him with all my heart. He said that he was tired of me and wanted some freshness." "Damn the bastard," I said "What kind of freshness does he wants, he is not worth it girl you will find someone much better than him." I also told her about what Max had told me when he had come too apologized with her. She was furious about it and asked me why I hadn't told her before, but she realized why I didn't, as I didn't want to spoil their relation. We went quite, and I didn't know what to say so I just asked her a silly question. I said, "Would you like to go for a swim right now?" She looked at me and showed me the watch. Then I said, "I know it is 04:20 am, please. There is no one here and as it is the place is safe, we have come here so many times. Pretty please." She agreed we removed our clothes and went for a swim in our undergarments. The water was cold, but it felt good. We did some laps, splashed water on each other having fun. As we were splashing water on each other like small kids, we didn't realize that we were getting closer. I stopped, took her in my arms and kissed her. When I parted from her, I told her, "Kiara, I would like to make love to you. I know it is wrong, but I cannot help it. I tried..." Before I could say anything, she kissed me. When she parted, she said, "I love you too Maria, but I still need time, please." I respected her decision and told her that I will wait for her until she is ready. We kissed again. Then, we swam back to the shore wore our clothes and headed towards the car. I went at her place, as it was too late. We reached her place, freshened and changed into pajamas which she lended me. Before going to sleep we kissed some more, but I could never get enough of her. We went on kissing each other while moving all over on the bed. I didn't even realize when we fell asleep, but whenever it might be, it must have been after a long time. I was woken up with a kisses. She said, "Hey, sleepy head wake up it's' 01:30 pm." I woke up smiling, remembering everything that had just happened. Went to freshen up and borrowed her clothes to wear. She told me to pick up anything that I wanted to wear from her wardrobe. I settled on a blue jeans and a loose t-shirt. When I was dressed, she called me out for lunch. We had a light lunch made of salads. Then, cleaned up the table, dishes and kept everything into their places. We went into the living room watched a movie while holding hands. After the movie, she offered to take me home, but I told her I did not want to go. She said that my mom had already called twice and asking when I will be coming home. Ahh! I did not want to go home I just wanted to stay close to her forever. However, there was no other way, we left her house and headed to my place. When we reached my place, I was getting out of the car when she pulled me back in and asked me, "Hey Dear where's my c u later kiss." I giggled and gave her a kiss and asked her if she could stay. She said, "I would love to stay dear, but I have to go you know. Don't worry I will call you. Miss you." She left. "What do I do to comfort Kiara," I said. "She has locked herself and thrown me out of my room, as she wants some time alone. I know she is just crying inside buried her face in the pillow and crying out aloud and I cannot do anything to clam her." "I swear if I come face to face with Max. I will beat him up that he remembers, he will think twice before hurting someone else. He has hurt her so much. Bastard. He tried to force her to bed by sneaking up in her house. Thank God, by chance I went to meet her, before any damage done he ran away. I brought her at my place." I repeated the scene in my head. I knocked. Before I would knock, again, she opened the door and hugged me as she cried on my shoulder. I took her to bed laid her down, wiped her tears and told her, "Don't worry dear I am here. Your tears are too precious to let it pour." As I caught a tear in my palm as it slid down her cheek. "You see it shining like a diamond then why waste it dear," I said it in a funny way that made her laugh. We chatted for a while as we both laughed at each other jokes. We kissed each other goodnight and were fast asleep in our own world of love. We decided to stay together from then onwards. We rented an apartment, moved in. Life felt fabulous everyday I had a chance to be with here. We did everything together, but I longed for her more and I didn't want to discuss it with her coz I thought that she would think that I was staying with her just to make love to her. I dropped the thought out. As days passed, our relationship weakened neither I knew nor did she know what was happening between us. One night we had a heated argument and without thinking she said, ý"You're not worth it so get lost." I felt a thousand swords piercing my heart. I left the house as tears rolled down my cheeks. I walked down the street. I was arrested by the police coz they thought I was a prostitute walking around so late at night. I argued with them, but they didn't listen to me and took me to the police station. They allowed me one call to prove my innocence. I gave them Kiara's cell number coz I couldn't think of anyone else. As I waited behind the bars, the police officer came, released me, and apologized for the inconvenience. I stepped out and saw Kiara waiting for me. We drove home silently. At home. I went to freshen up got dressed for sleep. I took a pillow from the bed and a spare blanket from the cupboard and prepared my bed in the living room on the couch. Just as I was about to lie down she came and sat next to me. I scooted away from her at the far end of the couch. She moved closer, but this time I didn't move a muscle just stayed there like a statue as she asked for my forgiveness a million times. I didn't reply to her even when she took me in her arms. I was hurt tremendously coz those words were still ringing in my ears and the pain exerted from each word traveled to my heart, which ached more and more. I said angrily, "What the hell do you think of yourself hurt me whenever you want and ask for forgiveness then and I will forgive you. This time you stepped too far and I won't forgive." I stood up and headed to the kitchen. She pulled me back and pinned me to the kitchen wall pressing my hands tightly to the wall. As she said in fury, "Listen up girl I apologized, I didn't mean to it just came out." I pushed her away and shouted at her, "What do you mean it just came out, you said each other word while you were in full sense. It just came out; you think I am a fool that I will believe everything you say. No! Hon this time no." As I was shouting at her, we had already moved in the living room near the couch. She pushed me and I fell on the couch, before I could get up, she sat on top of me. I wrestled her to get up, but atlast I got tired and left it. We stared into each other eyes as she moved down her face and kissed me. I felt a sudden arousal. I tried to move away, but she planted a passionate kiss on my lips that carried us away and the argument forgotten. We kissed as if we had met each other after so many years of separation. Their was so much passion and love oogling from us that I didn't realize where her hands were traveling on my body until I felt my breasts being squeezed. I stopped and she removed her hand from inside my nightdress. I wanted it to continue, but I also wanted to make sure, so that afterwards there were no regrets. I asked her, "You sure about this Kiara, coz I am not in a hurry." She said while staring into my eyes with all the love sparkling in them, "I am ready Maria I want to know more about your desires where your weak points are and explore your body from all angles." I said, "How do you plan to know dear?" She said, "There are many ways." "Like!" I said. She moved closer to me pushing me behind until I was settled back on the couch comfortably. She moved closer until I felt her body temperature against me. She kissed me on my face leaving my lips. Every time she kissed on different places on my face I felt my face muscles tense and relax, it was an amazing feeling. After a while of teasing me, she kissed me on my lips. She kissed so passionately that my whole body felt light as a feather, as if we were flying in space just her and me. She parted my lips open as we played with each other tongues. It was wonderful. After what felt like an eternity, we separated from each other for air. She kissed on my neck traveling down to my shoulders. Every time she finished giving me a kiss, she stared into my eyes and continued. When she was satisfied with the kisses on my neck, she dove for my lips. This time as she kissed me, her hand traveled under my nightdress slowly, until it reached my right breast. She squeezed it gently as I moaned in her mouth. She was good as she went on doing this I got out of control and got myself incharge of the situation. While kissing, I laid her down on the couch and kissed her all over her face and neck as her moaning became long and sensuous. I slowly went down until her waist and removed her t-shirt. I kissed her waist advancing upward. Everytime I advanced upwards she moaned louder until I reached her neck. I stopped there and looked into her eyes. She looked so beautiful that I wanted time to stop there and then. I kissed her on the lips. While I was kissing her, I lifted her up in a sitting position and tickled my hand on her back until I reached her bra's hook. I unhooked it, while kissing. She got in control now. Both of stood up from the couch and undressed each other. She came closer and said, "Maria you're beautiful." I loosened up. She made me stand up took her time. Touched me all over as she undressed the remains slowly, appreciating every newly exposed piece of flesh. Kissing my elbows, touching my breasts, blowing softly in my ear, kissing my neck, caressing my belly, my inner thighs, kissing behind my knees, smelling under my arms, massaging my buttocks, slowly sucking on my fingers. She got naked and laid her body on top of mine. There was so much erotic fun we were having before even she touched my pubic area. Everytime asking me what I wanted, if what she did felt good. I would moan or purr to let her know that it felt fabulous. She moved down South as she stared into my eyes. She licked up my thighs and kissed my vulva. She spread my legs, opening my lips with her fingers. Looking. Telling me, "You look beautiful Hon!" Just as I felt her mouth and tongue on my vagina, I shivered. She explored my whole labia, clitoris and vagina. She flattened her tongue and using the tip, she licked me like an ice cream cone. Flicking my clit like butterfly wings. Gently stroking. I raised my hips to meet her lips as my vagina got wet and my vulva swelled, getting aroused. Moaning, trembling, breathing rapidly and writhing as I grabbed her hair and pushed her in for more. She took my clitoris in her mouth. Sucking gently. Releasing. Gently flicking it sending me over the edge. She placed her hands under my butt and gently lifted me towards her mouth. Then, she reached up and stroked my nipples. Rhythm was the key. Tuning herself to my responses. She inserted a finger inside me then two then three as I moaned louder. "Mmmmmmmm." "Kiara I am cumming, ahhhhhhh!!!!!" I cummed. She licked my juice up as she licked me dry. She made me stand up and we both laid down the couch. I kissed her and said, "Kiara, you were fabulous I would like to do the same to you too." She said, "Next time hon this was my way of asking forgiveness." I said, "Wow! Hon if this is your way of asking forgiveness then I wouldn't mind getting angry often. What you think?" We both laughed weakly as we were so tired. We kissed each other. While kissing each other we were fast asleep in each other arms. Epilogue: For two years, we were together. Loved each other madly, made great love. However, we both knew that our relationship wouldn't last, a time would come and we would separate from each other for good. She got married, as she wanted her own babies and I couldn't in anyway grant her that, but I wished I had the power to do it, so for her wish we had separated. She got married. Until now, she is my first and my last. E-mail me any comments good or bad any that you have for me. I would be most grateful. Thank you.