Date: Sun, 03 Nov 2002 18:08:11 +0800 From: Lira Feliciano Subject: Now That I Have You 6 I felt like I'm going to faint, I can't say anything, my knees became weak, I hurried to the bed because I knew I'll be having a hard time composing myself. I can't even cry, I felt my breathing stop and I'm just there sitting and looking at her; I really don't know what to do. " Gabby, are you all right?" " What?" " I said are you all right?" " I... I... I don't know, you, are you all right?" " A little, I just felt bad telling you" " Did you really say you're dying, or I'm just hearing things" " Well I'm afraid so, yes" " So what do you have?" " Brain Cancer" Then after that I lay on the bed thinking Ira joined me and we just cuddle up with each other. I remembered the times we are together and the day we first met in the bar, she is so sweet then... " Hi" a girl approach me " Hi" I said with a smile " Can I buy you a drink?" " Sure" " Two martini please," she said to the bartender " I'm Ira, what's yours?" " I'm Lea" " Are you new here because I've been here since last year and I haven't seen you" " Yeah, actually I just got home from abroad" " Really! How nice, you know you can be a very beautiful model" " Yeah, they usually tell that to me, you're very beautiful too, you look like an angel, nothing I've seen before but you really are beautiful" " Well thanks, so wanna dance?" " I can't see why not" then she took me hand and we dance in the middle of the dance floor. " I love this song," she said " Me too" " Are you gay" she ask me casually " No, why?" she danced and danced then we really get going till we are so close and her hands were on my waist, then suddenly she kissed me. Well that was the first time I ever been kissed by a woman and left a bar more confused than before. I just smiled when I remembered this. " What are you thinking?" " Nothing, I just remember the first time we've met, you are so cool and all" then she smiled at me " I know, your cool too yourself" " Nah! Your just returning praises" " Is it obvious?" " No not really, so what are your plans?" " About what?" " About yourself" " I don't wanna talk about it, it makes me feel very ill" " Are you sure?" " Yeah, I'm just waiting before the time comes, perhaps no one can help me anymore I've given up ever since they told me I have no chance" " Is there any other way" " Nothing we've tried everything, I'm tired of trying" I hug her and finally fell asleep. The days turn into weeks and weeks turn into months, Ira became more and more weak and ill. Everyday I look out for her, see if she's ok but time never agree with us. She passed away before Christmas and that is the loneliest Christmas I ever had. Life must go on, Chris and Toby are still together and still very much in love. The company is still doing great and me, maybe I'll wait till the next person comes along, but the memories of Ira will remain and forever engraved in my heart. THE END Hope you guys love it and thank you for those who support and read about this story, I'm very grateful that somehow these characters became a part of your lives.